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Steve Winwood-My Love's Leaving©
I can't believe she's going
I said please show me
What selfish seeds I plant along the way
Black harvest today
The empty bed she left me, cold on one side
Can't believe, only me
Shadows in purple thrill me
I cry myself awake each night
I can't believe that it's true
Here I am, where are you
Can I cope with today
My love is leavin' me
Still I'm hoping she'll stay
My love is leavin' me
He surely must be dreaming...they have TBD (their newborn daughter) and things have been good...really good. JJ actually
shocked him with how quickly she took to motherhood: the baby is thriving and JJ seemed genuinely happy. And now THIS:
"Listen really carefully to me now 'T': I promise you will get a proper name soon, it's just that my 'method' is to wait for the...
INSPIRATION to hit me, so to speak...a great name will occur to me and I'll run it past your Daddy. The thing is, Bubby Spit...
if I stay I'll ruin everything; I'll ruin you, and Daddy...and I refuse to do that. I torch everything I touch-not that I mean to, it just
seems to work out that way. And I don't mean only sometimes: I mean ALWAYS. You are so sweet, and gorgeous, and GOOD...I
won't be the type of Mom to you that you deserve, and believe me I'm doing you a big favor. It doesn't seem like it at this moment
but it's because I love you that I'm leaving. Your dad will do his absolute best for you, I know that. I hope that you won't hate me-
please don't hate me-you'll see one day that this is for the best. I love you, and I love your Daddy...I'm just flawed
I guess; my brain isn't wired right and I always do the wrong thing for some reason...I stay when I should leave, or leave when I
should stay...one regret that I DO NOT HAVE is giving birth to you." She stood and walked over to Dean, handing the baby to him.
He heard the entire monologue, as she intended him to.
"You're WRONG, 'J'...stay here with us-those predictions don't have to be...we can change our story..."
" I CAN'T , Dean..I know myself, Babe. I haven't ever not driven off of the cliff. I'll break her, and YOU and you'll both
despise me because I KNEW it would happen and stayed anyway. I love you both but I'm leaving." At the door, she turned and said
"Give her a nice name-something Nigerian : . Your parents will love that. And something Chinese for my parents.
'Bye Dean."
" JJ ! WAIT...WA-ITT!!"
He calls her non-stop for the next three hours: She never answered...