INTRODUCTION

My name is Lindokuhle 'The

Finisher' Dlamini but you can
call me Lindo, they call me
The Finisher because I finish
what people who sabotaged
me started. I am 27 years
old. I am a woman whose
remarkable success and
strength mask a profound
vulnerability. As a Queenpin
in the corporate world, l
reigns supreme at the
highest echelons of the
largest company called
Ngonyama Holdings. I sharp
mind and keen financial
acumen have earned my
coveted position as a leading
accountant at Ngonyama
Holdings and I was supposed
to be a CFO but I am a COO
at Ngonyama Holdings, l am
admired by my colleagues.

But behind the façade of

confidence and poise, l never
known the love and support
of my own father. This void
has left an indelible mark on
my life, a constant reminder
of the fragility that lies
beneath my tough exterior,
after being raped by my step
dad.
Despite my impressive
accomplishments, my inner
world is a battlefield of
emotions, where the armor
of strength l wear to face
the world hides the scars of
a lifetime of uncertainty and
self-doubt. My story is a
testament to the human
spirit's capacity to overcome
adversity, to rise above the
wounds of the past, and to
find a way to heal and thrive
in the face of adversity.
Sit back and let's hit the
streets together, where the
gangster life is real.
INSECT 1

It is Sunday morning I woke

up exhausted and numb, my
head is throbbing, my mouth
is dry and my body aches all
over because of Bongani’s
birthday party that was
held at Kruger National Park
yesterday since he loves
animals. I can’t remember
how many glasses of wine I
had last night, but I know it
was way too many. The room
is spinning. I slept for about
an hour because I was so
pressed so I had to rush to
the toilet, I didn’t even
thought of sleeping again so
I took a long cold shower
thinking I will ease the pain
but it didn’t, I picked a
tracksuit and vest since I
was not going to work today
and headed downstairs to
get water for painkillers
maybe they will help but
unfortunately the pain got
worse.
I must have slept on a couch
because I was woken up by a
buzzer from the gate and
the security said it is
Bongani Ntlebi, my best
buddy, after few seconds he
just got in without knocking
what a bad habit.
Bongani: “hi chomi”
Me: “hey friend”
He handed me a bottle filled
with something that smells
so horrible.
Bongani: “so that is a
hungover remedy it will help
you, now drink it and I won’t
leave until you drink it”
As much as I know that no
one says no to Bongani but
this thing smell like shit and
even tastes bad, but I tried
drinking it and half of it was
in my stomach, ewww. After
few minutes I felt much
better, all thanks to my
buddy.
Me: “thanks friend I was
dying. You just decided to
disappear yesterday”
Bongani: “but I warned you
about tequila, I needed fresh
air. I will go make you
breakfast you must be
hungry"
I just hope he is not lying, he
went straight to the
kitchen.
INSECT 2

Ah, the joy of waking up

early, feeling refreshed and
rejuvenated! I stretch my
arms and smile, grateful for
this solo journey I'm on.
Being single is treating me
right, and I'm loving every
moment of it.
The silence in my home is
golden, allowing me to hear
my thoughts and connect
with myself on a deeper level.
I savor the quiet morning
hours, sipping my coffee and
planning my day without
anyone else's input.
I take pride in my
independence, in being able to
do whatever I want,
whenever I want. Whether
it's trying a new recipe,
reading a book, or simply
lounging in bed, I'm the
queen of my own domain.
Solitude is my happy place,
where I can recharge and
rediscover myself. I'm not
lonely; I'm liberated. And as
I start this new day, I'm
excited to see what
adventures await me,
knowing that I'm the
captain of my own ship.
I got out of bed and walk
into the bathroom and took a
shower. When I was done I
lotion my body and walk to
the closet. I pick out black
jean, a black bodysuit and red
blazer and I end my look
with black stiletto pump. I
decided to tie my braids in a
bun, I shape my eyebrows
and put some mascara and
lipstick. When I was done I
took my bag and Rolls Royce
keys, run downstairs and
crapped some apples because
I was running late for
breakfast.

I arrived 5 minutes early for

the first time since I’ve
worked here I am known as
‘miss always late’. I greeted
our receptionist Malefu
Mhlambi and checked in. I
found my PA Dineo Radebe in
my office waiting for me as
usual I must say she loves
her job.

Me: “Good morning Dineo”

Dineo: “Good morning, Miss
Dlamini. I’m surprised to see
you here so early, you’re
always running a bit behind
schecule”
I just laughed.
Me: “I woke up early today,
felt like getting a head start
on the day”
Dineo: “Wow, that’s unsual.
Did you get a good
morning…um, motivation?”
I know what she was going
to say.
Me: [laughing] “I think I’ll
leave that one alone, let’s
just say I’m feeling
energized today. You don’t
need to know all the details.”
Dineo: “Okay, okay, I’m just
curious, because you’re always
late. What’s gotten into you
today? ”
I just laughed, and placed 5
files on my desk I just hope
they don’t need to be signed.
Me: “Let’s just say I’m
turning over a new leaf. But
don’t get too used to it, I
might go back to my old ways
tomorrow”
She just laughs at me.
Dineo: “I’ll enjoy it while it
lasts then. By the way,
those are the files from
Head of Finance they need to
be signed, then after signing,
please hand them to
Bab’Ngonyama to sign them
too then afterwards I will
email them to HR”
signing is really tiring like
every file consist of 10-15
pages that needs to be
signed, but I signed them all
and got out of the office to
hand them to
Bab’Ngonyama.
I found his office opened as
usual, and saw him staring
out of the window like he is in
deep thoughts. I knocked
then he let me in.
Me: “Good morning baba”
He turned back with a smile
and gave me a hug.
Bab’Ngonyama: “unjani
ntotakazi yam?”
Me: “ngiyaphila baba, wena
unjani?”
I placed the files on his desk.
Bab’Ngonyama: “nami
ngiyaphila, let me guess I
have to sign them?”
I chuckled a bit, we both
hate signing.
Me: “definitely, baba are you
sure you are okay because I
found you staring out of the
window and it seemed like you
were in deep thoughts”
He took a deep breath.
Bab’Ngonyama: “I am dying
Lindo, I was diagnosed with
brain tumor last week and it
seems like it is spreading
rapidly to other cells and it is
slowly affecting my memory,
please don’t tell anyone about
this, so I will have to retire
next month and I hope you
will run our side business
that is officially yours very
well without me. Qhawe and
Qhawekazi will help you with
this one”
I felt tears running down my
cheeks, this can’t be
happening I can’t lose
Bab’Ngonyama I mean he
has been nothing but a
father to me for all this 13
years, I just hope I get hold
with the best Oncologist in
the world ASAP. I hugged
him and walked back to my
beautiful office, I decided to
call my IT, Spitjo.
Spitjo: “Sho bozza”
Me: “Spitjo I need you to find
me the best Oncologist in
the world ASAP”
Spitjo: “on it, I will send you
the details when I get
them, salute”
He hanged up, I took off my
blazer and placed it on my
mini couch. Just admired the
beauty of Cape Town
through this thick glass
window, luckily someone who
is outside can’t see what is
happening inside.
I might say I got lost in my
thoughts because I was
brought back to earth by my
friend Vuyolwethu Ngozo
shouting my name.
Vuyolwethu: “hey bitch, who
is he?”
Me: “the is no ‘he’ you do
know that I want nothing
that will mix me with
relationship, I was just
thinking about what
Bab’Ngonyama told me few
minutes ago”
Vuyolwethu: “you will never
know, I must say Xhaba
really broke your heart friend
you have been single for the
whole 2 years I think salt is
killing you bit by bit. It must
be something serious because
you were completely deep in
thoughts I’ve been knocking
several times, I’ve bought
you lunch you must be
starving”
Me: “dildos were made for a
reason.
It is serious. By the way
thank you, you must’ve read
my mind because I was so
hungry”
We ate and talked about this
and that, having my friends
around is such a blessing and
few minutes when we were
about to finish eating our
other friend Anathi
Nhlabatsi came in holding
two bottles of wine I wonder
how did she get pass the
receptionist holding them.
Anathi: “hey guys, I’ve
bought you guys something
to drink”
Me: “I am still at work, and
how did you pass the
receptionist?”
Anathi: “one glass won’t kill
you idiot, uhm she did try to
stop me but I told her
where to get off, then yeah
here I am stop asking me
questions let’s drink” we
laughed at her.
Vuyolwethu: “yes girl”
I just took one glass since I
was having a meeting in next
40 minutes, we laughed and
talked about men even
though I am not into them
anymore all thanks to Xhaba
when he left me at our
wedding day 2 years back and
he immediately got married
2 months after that, just
wish he doesn't come back
into my life asking for
forgiveness and done with
him.
INSECT 3

I started being a gangster 1

week after my graduation.
That day is just a reminder
of the life I left behind, and
the new dark path I’ve
chosen. So Bab’Ngonyama
taught me how to shoot
with all types of guns when
I was 20 years old, then he
introduced me to the
gangster life when I was
good at aiming, then Manzi
his late son taught me ins
and outs of this life from
how it is operated to how it
shouldn’t be operated since
he was the only
Bab’Ngonyama’s son that
loved gangster life but he
died when I was doing my
final year at WITS.

I formed my own gang with

Kheswa Mbambo ‘Sticks’ (30
years old), Philano Ndlovu
‘Numbers’ (29 years old),
Hennie Van Rensburg ‘Cheese
boy’ (27 years old) and also
Andile Zondo ‘Spitjo’ (27
years old). We are not
sharing the same blood but if
someone touch one of us it’s
over for them. We make a
great team and yes, I am
the boss lady of the gang.
INSECT 4

It is Saturday today, I call

it gangster day for odd
reasons. It’s been 2 days
since I found out that one of
our biggest enemy Kwanele
Mzimande has been trying to
kill us so today he will regret
the day he even knew our
names.
I got out of the bed and
walk to the bath tub to
take a bath, when I was
done I walked into my closet
and pick black jean, black
vest, black leather jacket,
black nike kicks and also black
roll up. I looked at myself in
a mirror and I look like a real
gangster I was, I didn’t put
any makeup this time. I took
my BMW 325i keys and my
phone then run downstairs to
make a quick breakfast.
When I was busy waiting for
my oats to get ready I
texted the guys and told
them to meet at Levels
Lounge, our lounge to be
specific, I ate my breakfast.
I walked to my beast car
when I was done and hit the
road playing Gangstas by Pop
Smoke.
I parked my car at our
parking spot and took a back
lift to the office, I found
them sitting waiting for me
drinking whiskey and they
were all in black we are
always in black when doing
this job.
Me: “exe majimbose”
Them: “sho boss lady”
Then I hugged them and
took our seats.
Me: “spane sa vandag se
easy in and out, we have to
show Kwanele to don’t mess
with us. Bonang mantjaka
kopa clean job, no dead bodies
this time okay? Ke lapisitswe
ke magata batletse on our
territory and pretending like
ke play ground ra utlwana,
we hijack and return to our
hood enkare a ra tjhuna
fokol. We shoot only when we
are attacked”
Them: “sure sister boss”
Me: “okay re betha fast job
in and out of Kwanele’s hood”
Them: “sure brass”
Me: “re dealer ka dilo tse
heavy bo Rolls Royce ntho tse
mollo G-wagon re betha dei
den fast, Spitjo le Numbers
tsamo chenchang di number
plate tsa BMW 325is and
Sticks le Cheese boy make
sure the guns are fully loaded
ha ke batle diflop ha dintho
fipaeza moo re yang, let’s go
guys”
Everyone got inside their
BMW 325i I came with my
driver to drive when I shoot,
we were driving in a line like
we are going on a spinning
area. We arrived at
Mzimande Dimes where
Kwanele owns, our ancestors
must be working overtime
because it was some sort of
a party with his big buyers
we were only going to hijack
everyone that is related to
him including him but now
we’ve hit a jackpot we are
going to hijack all of them or
some. We waited for couple of
hours for people to leave,
few seconds or minutes we
saw people going out with
different cars then I
signalled my guys then they
followed them. I waited for
Kwanele and changed the
seat with my driver to drive.
What seemed like forever he
came out with his white G-
wagon and luckily he was
alone my ancestors really
work overtime, the driver
followed him and he started
speeding up the moment he
noticed my car I took out my
AK-47 and aimed the tyres
and I managed to shoot the
back ones only.
INSECT 5

He zing zinged in the middle

of the road until he hit one
of the electric poles, he got
out and tried to run but my
driver managed to speed up
and blocked the road for him,
I took my short gun and got
out of the car.
Me: “Such a coward, try to
run again and I will shoot
that big head of yours, try
me”
He looked so scared, like he
didn’t even try to kill us.
Me: “for someone who tried
to kill us looking so scared you
will even piss on your pants”
He tried to take out his gun
but I shot his hand before
he can even point at me and
it felt down, he screamed like
a baby.
Me: “I wasn’t going to shoot
you but you pushed me, now
tell me why did you hired
those hitmen for us?”
He kept quiet.
Me: “since you don’t know how
to speak get in the car, and
don’t even try anything
stupid ke tla o tlhatlhamolla
nfanaka”
He didn’t even hesitate he
got inside a car, he was still
screaming so I gave him
water that have lot of
drugs inside so that they can
drug him he was going to
piss me on the way to safe
house.
We arrived at the safe house
after 3 hours and I scanned
my iris and thumb at the
gate, when the gate was
fully opened I was welcomed
by expensive cars only Rolls
Royce Boat Tail, Bugatti
Centodieci, black G-wagon,
Lamborghini, Bugatti Divo
and Maserati. Yes I know
their names because some of
them are on our vision
boards, these guys went
extra mile with this hijacking
l am impressed. I took
Kwanele to the basement
and placed him on the chair
with handcuffs on his hands
and on his feet, yes we have
handcuffs we don’t use ropes
since our inside Detective
Dlakadla managed to get us
few of them. After that I
searched him and found his
phone and wallet, took them
and took his watch off and
walked out with it. I locked
and headed straight to the
house to meet up with the
guys. I found them in a
Cinema room drinking.
Me: “le tjhunne sepane se
setle majita, and I am
taking Bugatti Centodieci”
They laughed
Numbers: “every car have
their owners already bozza
and Bugatti Centodieci was
already yours the moment we
sported it”
Me: “so ntho enngwe le
enngwe e grand? Like you’ve
changed the number plates
and managed to turn off the
trackers if they have
them?”
Cheese boy: “ntho enngwe le
enngwe e masweet bozza
yam”
Me: “okay, I will get my ‘new’
car when I get out I will
leave my gusheshe here, I
have to meet up with girls
and Kwanele is at the
basement keep an eye on him.
Spitjo make sure that phone
of Kwanele cannot be traced
and check whether his watch
have a tracker or not, and in
that wallet there are
different business cards clean
them all and don’t even leave
a single cent and that money
must not be traced back to
us, Sticks please burn them
when Spitjo is done along
with this wallet and all those
cards when he is done
transferring the money. Bye”
They gave me the keys of my
‘new’ car and walked
straight to it, this car is
something else, my new
beast. I got in and drove
straight to my house to
change.
INSECT 6

I arrived at my beautiful big

house and run upstairs to
take a shower and left those
clothes I was wearing in a
laundry, I took a long shower
and when I was done I lotion
my body and walked to the
closet and wore diamond chain
V-neck backless slit dress
that exposes my bullet scar
and took black heels, styled
my curly brown hair and did
some touch ups on my face,
grabbed my mini bag and
‘new car’ keys. I ran
downstairs and greeted my
helper Nosipho. I was
meeting the girls at Strictly
Soul, before I got out of the
house I decided to call
Bab’Ngonyama since it’s been
a week since I’ve got the
contacts of the best
oncologist and arranged
everything for him.
Bab’Ngonyama: “intokazi
yam, unjani?”
Me: “Ngiyaphila baba, I have
good news for you. I
managed to get the contacts
of the well-known Oncologist
in France Doctor Swanpoul, so
I’ve made an appointment
for you to take your
treatment it will take 3
months and also booked a
flight for you, so the Doctor
is expecting you next week
Friday, you will find
everything on your desk on
Monday”
Bab’Ngonyama: “ngiyabonga
mtanami, words can’t explain
how I am feeling right now.
May God keep on blessing you
Lindo you have a kind heart
everyone would wish for
thank you, I will call a family
meeting before I go and tell
them I am going on a
business trip for 3 months, I
can’t tell them I have cancer
while they’ve just lost their
mother because of the same
monster eating my lungs, I
have to go to the meeting
bye”
He even work on Saturdays,
I would never shame.
INSECT 7

I arrived at Strictly Soul the

only place where everything
feels okay because of those
rnb songs they play, I parked
my car and walked to the
VIP area, found my girls at
our table already drinking and
Vuyolwethu was singing along
with other people singing
When I see you by Fantasia,
Anathi was just crying since
that is her favourite song
and we even played it at her
wedding.
Vuyolwethu and I we are
both single and Anathi is the
only one dating even got
married to a prince since she
is from a royal family.
We finished 2 bottles
champagne even though I
only took 3 glasses I needed
a toilet, I got up from my
seat and walked straight to
the VIP toilets and when I
got to them I did my
business and washed my
hands. When I got out of the
ladies, l see a tall handsome
man outside he look exactly
like Rome Flynn maybe they
are twins in parallel universe,
he is wearing a black tuxedo
with white air force. His
dark hair is styled perfectly.
Looks like he is waiting for
someone but his piercing
brown eyes seem to be
gazing right through me, I
passed him then he held my
hand with his soft hand. He
made me look straight into
his beautiful brown eyes and
smiles, this can’t be
happening. I can’t help but
feel a little flutter in my
chest as our eyes met.
Him: “hi beautiful”
I just looked at him for a
while and took a deep breath.
Me: “hi”
He smiles again, he is so
handsome to the point where
when he smile he become
more handsome with those
dimples. I did say I don’t
want anything to do with
man right? But what is
standing right here with me
is something else, even his
deep voice do miracles on my
body.
Him: “by the way I am
Busani Ngwenya, and sorry
for following you to the toilet
I know it is awkward and
creepy. I’ve been looking at
you ever since you got here
and when I saw you going to
the toilet, I saw that as an
opportunity to follow you and
get to know you”
Wow, he really followed me, I
just wish he is not Kwanele’s
private investigator or
something but I will tell
Spitjo to dig information on
him.
Me: “I am Lindokuhle
Dlamini”
He smiled again I swear this
smile will kill me before the
end of today. I didn’t tell him
my second name because that
is my gangster name. We
talked will standing at toilet
entrance still holding my
hands and we exchanged
numbers. I think I’ve found
the one or maybe not but I
still need to know who he
really is. I walked back to
the girls smiling. The
moment I took my seat DJ
play Perfect by Ed Sheeran,
did this DJ see what
happened back there?
Vuyolwethu: “we even
thought you’ve flushed
yourself, you took the whole
45 minutes”
Anathi: “and you are even
smiling”
These two, mxm.
Me: “I was held by someone
then we talked”
They looked at me like ‘carry
on’.
Me: “so his name is Busani
Ngwenya, he is so handsome
guys. If you know Rome
Flynn, he is a photo copy of
him”
They just laughed at me like
I am crazy.
Vuyolwethu: “miss 'I don’t
want men' so I guess I am
the only one single right now”
Me: “I didn’t say we are
dating, and what if he is
being send by one of my
enemies to spy me or kill
me?”
Anathi: “I love the fact
that you said ‘what if’ just
give a nigga a chance Lindo
and stop being stiff because
you have many enemies
wanting you dead, he might
be your soulmate who knows”
Me: “okay mamfundisi”
They laughed at me and
when I lift up my head I
saw him sitting with his
friends 2 tables away from
our table and he waved at
me, I blushed a bit. Maybe
Anathi is right I have to
give him a chance but after
gathering information about
him. I texted Spitjo Busani’s
name and contacts so that
he can dig some information
on him.
We talked and laughed there
and there, and the playlist
was only about finding love I
bet this DJ did see what
happened back there.
INSECT 8

BUSANI

My name is Busani ‘George’

Ngwenya, I own a jewellery
company called BG Jewels.
I’ve been running that
business for years now and it
is growing perfectly fine, I
was once a gangster back in
days but I decided to quiet
after being blacklisted by my
ex-wife and I just decided to
focus on my company.
I just met the most
stunning lady here at Strictly
Soul! She’s absolutely
gorgeous, with long curly
brown hair that cascades
down her back like a
waterfall. Her eyes are a
bright, sparkling blue that
seem to shine like emeralds in
the dim light. Her skin is
radiant, porcelain doll-like
complexion, and her full lips
are painted a deep, sultry
red. She got a tiny nose ring
that adds a touch of
edginess to her otherwise
elegant features. Her body is
a knockout, with curves in all
the right places. But it’s not
just her physical beauty that
got me hooked - she also got
this incredible energy and
confidence that draws you in.
when we started talking I
can already tell that she’s
smart, funny and has this
amazing spark that got me
wanting to know more. I’m
totally swept up in the
moment, and I can’t wait to
see what happens after
what just happened.
I decided to follow her when
she was going to the toilet
because if I didn’t I
would’ve lost her.
I came with my two friends
Ifalethu and Khaya.
When I got home I decided
to call her then she answered
at the second ring.
Me: “hey beautiful”
Lindo: “hi”
She sounded like she was
sleeping.
Me: “I was just checking up
on you, and you sound tired”
Lindo: “I was sleeping”
Me: “can we meet tomorrow
if you are free, I will send
you the location”
Lindo: “uhm I will tell you,
now can I sleep please”
Ouch.
Me: “no problem goodnight, I
love you”
Wait what? Did I say I love
you?
Lindo: “goodnight”
After that she hanged up,
she didn’t I love you too I
know we just met few hours
ago but I feel like we are
already dating even though
I haven’t asked her to be
my girlfriend yet, but it
worth a try.
I took a shower and when I
was done I took my beauty
sleep.
INSECT 9

Spitjo managed to get some

information about Busani and
emailed it to me around 5:00
AM, nothing interesting
about him just own a
jewelery company and he is
not even married neither got
no child. I texted him a
message saying we can meet.
I want to give him a chance
I might not know what the
future got in store for both
of us.
I got out of the bed and
took my iPad and said “Siri
play Dandelions by Ruth B”
after few seconds it played.
As it played Busani’s
charming face kept on playing
in my mind, I walk into the
bathroom to take shower
and prepare for my date
with Mr handsome.
When I was done I lotion my
body and walked into my
closet and picked short gold
long sleeve dress and gold
heels and took my bag and
BMWx5 keys I don’t want to
look expensive. I have 6 cars
and they are all black. Rolls
Royce, GTI, BMW 325i,
BMWx5, G-Wagon, Bugatti
Centodieci and I was
thinking of buying SUV this
month but work kept me
busy, and I have motor bike,
also my gang have them.
I run downstairs and found
my helper Nosipho
Tshabalala already cleaning,
I greeted her and made
myself a sandwich after
eating I walked out and
walked into my 3rd garade
since I have 3 of them each
have 2 cars and got inside
my BMWx5 and drove out.

I arrived at Mosaic at the

Orient since it is the place
we are meeting at and found
him already waiting for me.
BUSANI

She walked in wearing a

short gold long sleeve dress
it had a round neck she looked
beautiful. She greeted me
with her sweet voice and I
pulled the seat for her, she
smell so good. Waiter
immediately bring our drinks,
whiskey on the rocks for me
and Strawberry daiquiri for
her, she took a sip after
that she laughed a bit.
Me: “I hope you like your
drink”
Lindo: “I do, I just like it
better with alcohol in it”
Me: “well I figured since you
are going to
work….tomorrow”
Lindo: “and you are not?”
Me: “I do but….” I just
shrugs
Me: “I hope you don’t mind I
already ordered all our food
before we came”
Lindo: “that’s scary, what if
you have bad taste in food?
Do make me eat anything
weird” I laughed.
Me: “we will see”
The waiter comes over with
our starter in two covered
plates and places them in
front of us.
Waiter: “enjoy your meal”
I lift the covers, she look
down at the plate and find
chicken feet in soup. She
couldn’t hold it in so she just
burst out laughing.
Lindo: “I was right you do
have bad taste in food”
Me: “don’t tell me you never
had these before”
Lindo: “I have, I just never
expected to find them at a
fancy restaurant like this”
Me: “you won’t find them
here, but I did make a
special request so they made
them for us”
We ate and the waiter came
to take plates away when
we were done. Now it was
the time for the main dish I
hope she will love it, the
waiter brings over two more
plates and placed them in
front of us.
I saw a huge smile on her
face, I guess ulusu
(Mogodu) with pap and
chakalaka on the side I
guess it is her favourite.
Me: “finally you have a good
taste in food, this is my
favourite meal”
I just watched her eating
she was even humming I
guess she is really enjoying
them. Then the dessert is
served and it’s Microwave
fudge, now I am the one
humming because I like it.

When we were done eating

she grabbed her bag and the
moment she turned back I
saw her dress opened all the
way down to almost her butt
crack with just two tiny
strings, tied them around
her neck and under her arms
to hold the dress in place, I
swear all the blood in my body
took a u-turn and flowed
straight to my dick, I just
wanted to rip off that dress
right now and fuck the hell
out of her but I managed to
control myself. We walked out
holding hands.
INSECT 10

We walked straight to the

parking lot still holding hands
and people were just staring
at us. I did enjoy his company
honestly, we got into parking
lot and see him walking over
to Bugatti la Voiture Noire
that is similar to the one my
guys hijacked but it is grey,
I must say he is loaded and
I doubt he only owns a
company only there is no way,
yeah I know it is the second
well-known company in Cape
Town but there is no way
there is something about
this guy. He unlocked his car,
off he goes.
Busani: “drive safely Miss
Dlamini”
He pulled me closer to him
and made me look straight in
him brown eyes and the next
minute his soft lips made
contact with mine, we shared
a long kiss after some time
we pulled out.
Busani: “I love you
Lindokuhle Dlamini, I want to
spend years with you and
make babies with you. I see
the future in those sparkling
eyes of yours, words can’t
explain how I am feeling
about you, I know we just
met but can you be my
girlfriend?”
Dude you didn’t have to say
all those words, yes I want
to be his girlfriend and be his
wife but as for making
babies is the story for
another day.
Me: “But don’t you think we
should get to know each
other better first?”
Busani: “I understand what
you mean, but sometimes I
think you just know when
you’ve found someone special.
And I feel like I’ve found
that with you. Plus, I
promise to take things slow
and get to know you better.
I just want to make it
official and show you how
serious I am”
Why I’m I dragging my
feet? While I can just say
yes.
Me: “yes, yes, yes, yes Busani
Ngwenya, and honestly when
I first saw you I started to
fall in love at first sight, I
know it is weird right? But
I guess the universe
managed to get us together,
and I love you too. But can
we take things slowly and
don’t rush into making babies
or getting married I just
want us to get to know each
other”
Ngiyamthanda Busani I
don’t want to lie or is it
because he charming me?
Busani: “okay, I understand,
I have go I have a meeting
with overseas buyers. See
you around bye”
He kissed my forehead and
got inside his car and I did
the same.
When I was still driving my
phone rings and checked a
caller ID and it is Group call
and connected it to my car.
Vuyolwethu: “don’t wait for
us to say talk”
Bongani: “so how did the
date go chomi, he ordered
something you don’t eat?
Liver?”
I honestly don't eat a liver,
I feel like I am committing a
sin when eating it. No
matter how they perfectly
cooked it and smell so good
divine, I won't eat it.
Anathi: “is he broke?”
They don’t even greet me
these idiots.
Me: “it was great, and I
enjoyed his company. As for
being broke I doubt that guy
drives Bugatti la Voiture
Noire that cost $18.1 million.
He ordered things I like. He
even asked me to be his
girlfriend and I said yes”
After that being said they
just screamed and they were
even singing wedding songs, I
didn’t say he proposed, mxm.
Vuyolwethu: “we have to
prepare ourselves for the big
day”
Anathi: “of course chomi, this
relationship is promising”
Bongani: “I will be a wedding
planner as always”
Me: “I said he asked me to
be his girlfriend he didn’t
propose”
Vuyolwethu: “so I am the
only one single right now?”
We laughed at her.
Us: “YES!!!”
Vuyolwethu: “mxm, traitors”
We talked until I got home,
got the message from
Bab’Ngonyama saying the
family meeting is on Tuesday
finally I will get to meet
Qhawe and Qhawekazi since
they’ve been working in
London and never returned
home, even on their mother’s
funeral, dark humor. I don’t
even know whether they
attended their brother’s
funeral or not, because I was
writing that day so I
couldn’t go.
INSECT 11

It is Tuesday today, I woke

up and took a shower and
dressed to prepare myself
for the meeting, I am just
nerves what if Ngonyama
twins don’t like me. I
haven’t seen them since I
became part of the
Ngonyama’s.
I arrived at Ngonyama’s and
found helpers preparing a
feast like the president or
the Queen of England is
coming, I mean it is just a
mere meeting. I decided to
help them to set up a table,
after few minutes people
started coming in Bab’Nkeza
who is Bab’Ngonyama’s
brother followed by his two
sisters Aunty Nomasonto and
Aunty Sphelele, then the
twins followed too Qhawe
and Qhawekazi. Qhawekazi
looks so beautiful in her afro
hair she looks like those
melanin girls on the front
cover of the magazine, and
as for Qhawe he looked
handsome in his chocolate
skin tone.
They greeted and took their
seats.
Qhawe: “dad I didn’t know
we have a sister”
He is rude for my liking.
Bab’Ngonyama: “she is more
like your sister but not your
biological sister”
Me: “my name is Lindokuhle
Dlamini but you can call me
Lindo”
Qhawekazi: “nice to meet you
Lindo”
Then she smiled, and she just
become more beautiful.
Qhawe: “yeah nice to meet
you, so dad why are we
here?”
Okay I will get used to rude
guy I guess.
Bab’Ngonyama: “okay to
make the story short, I am
going on a business trip for
three months so Qhawe and
Qhawekazi I need you guys
to run the business when I
am gone then Lindo will teach
you few things since she is
the COO of our company. Also
for my buddies I need you
guys to keep an eye on my
other properties”
Aunty Sphelele: “no problem
buti”
Bab’Nkeza: “you can count on
us bafo”
Qhawe: “you said she is
what? COO? She must be
giving you a good p***y to
even make her your COO
while we need cleaners in our
company”
Aunty Nomasonto: “hayiii
Qhawe khuzeka”
I don’t know when
Bab’Ngonyama got up from
his seat but Qhawe received
one hot slap on his cheek, it
was even changing colour to
purple since he is black, I
would say red if he was
white. If he was someone
else I would’ve shot him
between his eyes he just
disrespected me, he must
thank God that he is
Bab’Ngonyama’s son or else
we were going to bury him
next week Saturday or even
tomorrow.
Me: “Qhawe I know that it
is the first time seeing me,
but for your information I
am a qualified Chartered
Accountant not some sort of
a whore. You can call me
everything you want but
your words don’t cause any
harm to me, I’ve been
through things that are
bigger than your words”
Qhawe: “mxm whatever,
Qhawekazi let’s go our flight
is waiting for us I think we
are done here, and dad I
won’t can’t run your company
you can give it to your
precious girl Lindokuhle”
Qhawekazi: “you can go I am
staying and if dad really
needs us to run the company
then I will, we didn’t even
attend our mother’s funeral
because you cancelled all
flights I booked. And when
we were supposed to come
here to bury our brother you
destroyed my devices so that
I can’t book a flight. I didn’t
know you are heartless like
this brother”
I just wanted to cry but
something kept on stopping
me, I think it was the
gangster inside me
Qhawe: “okay stay with your
boring family, bye”
After that he got out of the
house and every one kept
quiet.
Bab’Ngonyama: “I am so
sorry Lindo I didn’t know
that Qhawe can be so rude,
maybe the drugs he is taking
are driving him crazy. Even if
you don’t forgive him it is
fine but I will teach him a
lesson one day he can’t
disrespect you like that”
Qhawe: “me too I never
thought my twin can be like
that, I am sorry sis”
She is just a loving girl and I
love her already, but as her
twin I will forgive him in hell.
Aunty Nomasonto: “sibe sife
ngindlala, this food is getting
cold”
We laughed at her, she really
love food and her body can
tell. We ate and Qhawekazi
was busy telling us about her
overseas life. When we were
done Qhawekazi and I
insisted to take the plates
to the kitchen.
Qhawekazi: “you look so
beautiful Lindo. Are you
mixed? Because your hair,
eyes and skin can tell that
you are not pure Zulu, you
might be African American
woman”
I get that question a lot.
Me: “you don’t look bad
yourself. I am not mixed”
Qhawekazi: “I am really
sorry about what my brother
did”
Me: “don’t be, l am fine”
Yeah I know I am lying
because anyone who
disrespect me dies but I
won’t kill Qhawe since he is
Bab’Ngonyama’s son.
Qhawekazi: “and I know
everything, about how did
you ended up here” I just
looked at her shocked
Qhawekazi: “my mother told
me about you when I was
secretly visiting her while
she was in hospital before
she died, you really did bounce
back babe because you’ve
been going through shit
when you were a teenager”
I just pretended like I am
not listening to her, as much
as I don’t want to talk
about my past but one day I
have to.
Me: “karma did visited me at
the right time, around good
people”
We talked about girls stuff
while washing the dishes
even though there is a dish
washer in this house. She is
even single, I wonder why.
INSECT 12

It was already 14:00 when

I got out of Bab’Ngonyama’s
house, and I headed
straight to Lounge to ask
Spitjo few questions about
Busani I doubt he gave me
all the information I needed.
I found him busy on his
laptop so I decided not
disturb him, I poured myself
a juice and sit on one of the
mini couches and just looked
at him doing his job. The
moment he saw me he got
shocked a bit then smiled
before closing his laptop.
Spitjo: “how long have you
been seating there?”
Me: “about 20 minutes”
Spitjo: “I didn’t even hear
you walking in work kept me
busy”
Me: “I saw that, now tell me
why did you lie about
Busani?”
I don’t even know why I said
that but I want him to tell
me the truth
Spitjo: “I didn’t bozza yam”
Me: “that man drives a car
that costs two times what
he makes at the end of a
year in his company”
Spitjo: “eish hade bozza”
Me: “talk”
Spitjo: “uhm he was a
gangster 2 months ago but
he decided to quit and focus
on his company, I didn’t tell
you because he is not in our
territory. He was the
mastermind behind those
illegal cigarettes called GG
cigarettes that were well-
known. He was known as the
gangster that kill people and
bury them in the middle of
the forest or anywhere and
build a toilet on top of their
body. You must have known
him if he told you his other
name because he was known
as George”
My gangster love I’ve found
my missing puzzle, he has to
return back to the game and
rule Cape Town together like
power couple. I think he did
a right thing of not telling
me I was not going to agree
to be his girlfriend.
Me: “okay”
Spitjo: “so you are not mad
at me for not telling you?”
Me: “I'm not, I think we
might need him in our team”
Spitjo: “yes boss, I have to
get back to work”
Me: “before that, Kwanele is
still alive?"
Spitjo: “I am glad you asked,
he died on Sunday it seemed
like he had phobia of blood
because you shot his hand. I
even managed to transfer
his money on different
accounts and even forged his
death certificate and claimed
all his life insurances”
I just laughed at the last
statement, like wow
Me: “keep on transferring it
to offshore accounts for
future references, bye”
We hugged each other and I
walked out to check others
downstairs.
Numbers: “hey lover girl”
Sticks: “you’re even glowing
he must be giving you a good
thing”
I just laughed at them, not
only my friends are crazy.
Me: “mxm, where is Cheese
boy?”
Numbers: “at hospital, he
said he had a surgery to do”
Me: “I sometimes forget
that he is Doctor Van
Rensburg, and you Advocate
Mbambo ain’t you supposed
to be at work?”
I said looking at Sticks
Sticks: “I gave myself off
today”
Me: “must be good owning
your own law firm, and you
Mr Ndlovu our pharmacist
and also the owner of the
biggest pharmacy in Cape
Town, why are you here?
People must be dying,
because they can’t get their
medicine since you closed the
store and decided to come
here to drink”
I said looking at Numbers.
Numbers: “there are many
pharmacist out there also
many stores that sell all kind
of medicine in this world”
I looked at him and laughed,
no one loves their jobs
including me, we spend most
of our time in this gangster
life forgetting that we have
businesses to run.
Me: “I was just checking on
you guys, I have to go home
and take a beauty sleep I
am so tired”
I hugged them and when
straight to my house.
INSECT 13

I was not in a good mood of

going to work today, but
what can I do I still have to
teach Qhawekazi few things
about that company. I got
out of bed and walk to the
bathroom to take a shower
when I was done I got out
of the bathroom wearing a
gown and walk into my closet,
I decided on a straight cut
maroon skirt with a nude
shirt with stiletto pumps
and took my old Rolls Royce
keys and made my way out
without eating I will crap
something at Spur when I
am passing by.
I got at work right on time
and found Qhawekazi and my
PA Dineo in my office
laughing they must’ve known
each other so fast.
Me: “Good morning ladies”
Qhawekazi: “Good morning
Mrs Ngwenya”
I’m not going to rest until
Busani and I get married
Me: “it is Miss Dlamini”
Dineo: “you look cute when you
blush”
Me: “mxm, do I have any
meeting today?”
Dineo: “nope”
Me: “thanks goodness, please
teach Qhawekazi few things
of this company then I will
email her the company
finances and names of all the
buyers also places where we
get our oil, gold, coal and
diamonds from”
Dineo: “okay, I will even
introduce her to
Bab’Ngonyama’s PA Lebo
Mokoena” I selected all
documents and emailed them
Qhawekazi: “look who is
here”
I looked up and my heart
just skipped a beat. He is
standing in my office
doorway, looking like a vision
of perfection. He got this
effortlessly cool pose going
on, with one hand casually
tucked into his pocket and
the other behind his back.
His lean body framed by the
doorway, making him look like
a model straight out of the
magazine. His chiselled
features are relaxed into a
soft smile, and his piercing
brown eyes are gazing into
mine with a hint of mischief.
It’s like the whole world has
melted away, and all that’s
left is the two of us. He got
this thing of making me feel
like I’m the only person in
the room and I’m completely
swept up in his charm. I
have no idea what he’s doing
here, but I’m thrilled to see
him!
Dineo: “thina esingajoli
asiphume”
They walked out following
each other
Busani: “hey sunshine”
He handed me a bouquet of
red roses, smells so good.
Me: “hi, thank you I love
them”
BUSANI

She looks so beautiful like

always. She turned around to
put them in water and I
locked the door. She is looking
very sexy in her straight cut
maroon skirt with a nude
shirt with her sleeves rolled
up to the elbows. She walks
with so much grace, the way
she carries herself is such a
turn on. While she was busy
with the bouquet, taking
longer than necessary, I walk
up to her and stand behind
her. She stops what she was
doing when I hold her hands
while standing behind her. I
reach for neck and inhale her
scent in, she smells good. I
placed a soft kiss on her neck,
she tilts her head giving me
access and her back is on my
chest. My hand moves
between her thighs, she
slightly opens her legs giving
full access to her heaven. I
slide my finger in her panties
and finding her hole. She is so
wet and ready. I carry on
and finger her also playing
with her clit moaning. As she
was about to cum I stop. I
hope this building have a
soundproof, she pull her
panties in place and pull down
her skirt. Walked into a
bathroom and come out with
a wet towel to wipe myself.
Lindo: “so babe how did you
know that I work here?”
Me: “did my research, just
kidding you are well-known
babe”
I hope she believed that
even though I searched on
her
Lindo: “mmm okay,
unfortunately I am still at
work. You don’t mind waiting
for me until I finish what I
am doing right?”
Me: “yes, even if you knock
out at 22:00 I will wait”
she nodded her head like I
am crazy
Lindo: “just 2 hours then I’m
done”
I just watched her doing
her job I must say she loves
it more than her gangster
life or maybe not. Yes, I did
some diggings on her even
though she is using her
second name The Finisher like
me back in days, I have to
get back to the game and
rule with my beautiful
woman. She doesn’t even look
like a gangster but they said
don’t judge the book by its
cover.
Lindo: “done, we can go”
Me: “we are using my car
right?”
Lindo: “I can’t leave my baby
Lambo here but I will fetch
it tomorrow, and request
uber when I come to work”
Me: “you don't have a
driver?”
Lindo: "I have it, but he
have a family crisis, so I
gave him a month off"
Month? How lucky he is.
Me: "okay, let's go"
I unlocked the door and we
walked out to the visitors
parking spot.
INSECT 14

We are on our way to one of

my hotels. She played
Unthinkable by Alicia Keys,
how does she even know my
playlist. When it says ‘can you
ask me, I am ready’ she
looked at me with a smile.
Lindo: “I need your
permission to do something.
I just need you to say yes”
Me: “just don’t kill me”
Lindo: “I won’t”
She says that brushing my
thigh and moving her hand
up to my very erect dick. She
puts her hand inside my
pants, I’m wearing sweat
pants which makes it easy
for her, starts playing with
my dick.
Me: “Lindo what are you
doing?”
Lindo: “keep your eyes on the
road honey and focus on your
driving, never mind what I’m
doing”
This woman smiles at me and
continues with her torture.
She pulls out my dick and
brings her face to it and
starts licking me while
rubbing it as well. She shifts
to position herself
comfortably. She continues
licking me, using her other
hand to massage my balls
over my pants. She puts me
in her mouth and starts
sucking me playing with her
tongue on the tip every now
and again.
Me: “Lindo I have to pull
over”
She just ignored me. She
continues sucking me, she
massages the spot where
balls meet the dick with her
thumb, at the same time
taking my dick deeper into
her mouth. She continues the
massages and sucking me and
I can feel that I am about
to explode and I have to pull
over. Immediately I saw a
spot and pulled over. She
swallows, comes up and kisses
me while I am still trying to
catch my breath then moves
back to her seat.
Me: “that was great, you
really did miracles on me”
Lindo: “I’ve learned from the
best”
We arrived at the hotel and
took a secret entrance to
the last floor when we got
inside the room, I closed the
door and the next minutes
clothes were flying
everywhere and we finally
made love.
INSECT 15

It’s not even weeks or even

months dating with Busani
but he is already driving me
crazy. I looked at him and he
was sleeping peacefully he
looks so cute, I decided to
get out of bed and pick up my
clothes on the floor.
Busani: “you didn’t tell me you
were once shot” shit, when
did he even woke up?
Me: “uhmm it is my
birthmark”
I just lied.
Busani: “even a fool can see
that is a bullet scar not a
birthmark”
Me: “okay fine, yes I got
shot few years ago”
Busani: “the time you were
still new in the game?”
Oh he knows then why did he
act like he doesn’t
Busani: “chill I know
everything about you like you
also know lot of hidden things
about me, I don’t judge you
though”
He pulled me closer and kissed
me
Me: “I have to go and fetch
my car”
Busani: “no need for that, I
will drop you off to your
house and they won’t even
steal your car if they know
who you are, let’s got take a
quick shower before we go”
We got inside the shower, he
helped me wash my back and
I helped him too. We did
have a quickie inside a
shower even though the
steam made us slippery on
the walls of the shower, we
got out of the shower and
walked back to the bedroom
to finish what we started
inside a shower. He rapped a
towel around his wrist and
walked inside a mini closet
and walked out holding his
clothes and a maxi black
dress on the other hand also
some cosmetics.
Me: “how did you know my
size?”
Busani: “is it a crime to know
it? Just kidding I just
guessed it”
He is unbelievable, he let his
towel to fall on the floor and
faced my direction naked.
Damn I must say he is really
gifted, just looked at him
when he was busy lotion
himself.
Busani: “stop drooling, or do
you want another round?”
Me: “uhmm…no….I...Just…”
He just laughed at me when l
couldn’t speak.
Busani: “get dressed so that
we can go”
INSECT 16

We arrived at her house

before the sunset, I just
saw a big house.
Me: “are you sure you live
alone here?” she chuckled
Lindo: “yes, I just love big
space it is peaceful and
calming”
Me: “I think I should start
parking my clothes and come
to stay with you”
Lindo: “don’t you dare, the
only time we will be staying in
the same house is the time
we are married”
I guess she doesn’t love
cohabitation. But I won’t
argue with her.
Me: “okay, I understand, bye.
Have peaceful night filled
with scrumptious dreams. I
love you okay”
I pulled her closer and kissed
her. She smells so good. She
walked out of the car, when
she arrived at the gate she
waved and blow kisses. I saw
her scanning her iris and
right thumb at the gate
this house is really protected,
but that is how it should be
when you decided to be a
gangster. I watched her as
she walked through a small
gate and I started my
engine and drive to my house.

LINDO

I got inside my beauty house

and went straight to the
movie room to watch money
heist. I was busy watching
money heist my stepfather’s
face just kept on playing in
my mind for no reason.

I was 14 years old when my

stepdad Lefa Motaung
started raping me, he said
that the person that
believes me is going to die. No
matter how many times I
told him to stop he wouldn’t.
As time pass by he would
force me to suck his penis he
would groan and enjoy it while
I am busy crying. I still
remember the day he took
my innocence like it was
yesterday. When I refuse to
suck him he would beat me
and don’t even care how
much I cry. By that time my
little brother Tlotliso
Motaung who was 10 months
old, he would cry when he
hear me crying in my room
the more he cry my stepdad
give him a cough syrup that
is suitable for older people
then he will immediately
sleep and continue what he
started. When all those
things were happening my
mother was working night
shift sometimes on society
meetings, he saw that as an
opportunity to molest me. I
kept asking myself many
questions is it because I am
not her daughter? Is it
because he doesn’t love me?
But I got no answers. He
forced me to take of myself
clothes and got on top of me
and forced himself on me, I
was in so much pain while he
was enjoying himself when I
tried to scream he covered
my mouth with his hand and
slapped me with the other
hand. The next morning my
mother Nomeva Motaung
found me sleeping on a couch
because my bed sheets were
covered with blood.
Mom: “are you not your
periods?”
Me: “maybe”
Mom: “why do you say maybe”
I told her everything that
happened when she was
gone. She gave me a one hot
slap.
Mom: “O ya hlanya Lindo?
(Are you crazy?) My husband
would never do that.
NEVER!!!!”
I just decided not to say
anything and started crying.
If my own mother doesn’t
believe me then who will?
She is trusting her Sotho
husband over me. She took
out her belt and started
beating the hell out of me
Mom: “he told me that he
found you and Bongani having
sex, now you put a blame on
him? How could you? You are
busy opening legs wherever
you go now you are saying my
husband is raping you” I just
let my tears out. He even lied
about me, wow. I decided to
change my sheets and
changed my clothes. Sneaked
into their bedroom to steal
my mother’s pad before going
to buy mine. When I was on
my way out of the house she
was in a kitchen busy reading
her magazine
Mom: “so you are going to
open legs again and blame my
husband when you get back
home?”
Just decided to ignore her
and walked to the shop.
When I was on my way back
home I saw my friend
Bongani walking towards me.
Bongani: “hey, are you okay?”
Me: “what makes you think
that I am not?”
Bongani: “your eyes, you look
like you were crying or
something”
I just decided to tell him
everything since he is my
bestfriend and the only friend
I trust.
Bongani: “you have you
report him, look now you are
experiencing your periods
early”
Me: “friend let’s just drop it
and pretend like I didn’t tell
you, I have to go home bye”
I know he was right but
what if the police believed
Lefa not me, since he was
loaded he could've bribed
them. I got home and found
them busy playing a happy
family nxa. When I was
about to close the door of my
bedroom I saw my mother
standing closer to the door
she must’ve been following
me, I saw the sjambok in her
hand then I quickly closed
the door and locked it.
Mom: “vula wena sfebe (open,
you whore)”
She kept shouting my name
but I cared less and didn’t
open the door. After few
minutes she decided to leave
and I slept immediately. I
was woken up by Lefa busy
undressing me, how did he
get in? Maybe he had a
spare key. He started raping
me during my periods and he
didn’t give a fuck, he wasn’t
even using a condom.
After 2 months I noticed
that l didn’t experience my
periods those past 2 months,
I decided to go to the clinic
to test and my friend
Bongani insisted to go with
me. Guess what? I was
pregnant, I was so scared
and confused at the same
time, like how could he. He
took my innocence now he
even took my dignity inside
me. I decided to order the
strongest abortion pills online
with my mother’s ID
because I couldn’t use mine
because I was under age.
They delivered them after 3
days and I took 4 of them in
the morning before going to
school even though they said
1 then after few minutes
blood just came out and lot of
blood, I was just feeling so
tired and dizzy but I had to
go to school.
I found Bongani waiting for
me at the bus stop as
always then I greeted him
and our bus arrived. I guess
it was first period when my
knees started to feel weak
and my eyes were heavy, the
next minute it was dark.
I was woken up by hospital
machines and I was having a
drip on my left arm, when I
looked around I saw Bongani
seating on a couch still
wearing a school uniform.
Me: “wa…wat…water”
I couldn’t even speak, he
gave me water and I felt
much better
Bongani: “are you okay?”
Me: “yeah I am okay, thank
you”
Doctor Nketlana walked in
holding clipboard and a paper
Doc: “hey, Lindo and you are?”
Bongani: “I am Bongani”
Doc: “oh hey Bongani, Miss
Dlamini unfortunately I’ve
got bad news for you. It
looks like you took strong
abortion pills and lot of them.
They caused infections that
lead to uterine scarring,
which cause future infertility
and ectopic pregnancies but I
will give you pills for you to
take at prescribed time and
we can do regular check-ups
to see whether there are
improvements or not”
I was feeling dizzy at that
moment not knowing what to
say or what to do
Doc: “you look fine, so I am
discharging you, so I need you
to sign the discharge forms,
where are your parents?”
Me: “dead”
Yes, I lied because they are
much like dead in my life, and
Bongani just looked at me
shocked.
Doc: “sorry to hear that, sign
them and leave them at
reception on your way out.
Have a nice day”
We walked out of the
hospital and I was crying I
couldn’t believe what I have
done to my womb I destroyed
it. When I got home I found
them preparing supper and
didn’t even care to ask where
I was, just passed them
without greeting and walked
straight into my rooms and
locked. I parked my clothes
and pills I got in my school
back and shoes in my
backpack, and sneaked in into
their bedroom and stole
Nomeva’s money in her safe
that was R5000, I walked
back to my room and locked
it, pushed the drawer to the
door so that Lefa cannot
open. I woke up the next
morning around 2:40 and
took a bath then around
4:00 I jumped through my
window, I got a taxi and it
took me to the taxi rank.
From there I took the first
taxi to Cape Town and I
never looked back. I texted
Bongani and told him
everything and where I am
going.
I run away even though I
was living in a lavish house
where I get anything I
want at any specific time
since my mother is a Surgeon
and Lefa is a Minister of
Finance but my grandmother
used to say ‘money doesn’t
buy happiness, you can be a
millionaire have all kind of
money in the world but lack
one thing called happiness,
also you can be poor and be
happy’. Meaning true
happiness comes from within,
not from your wallet.
As much as it was hard but
I managed to survive, when
I was busy hustling and
cleaning in one of the
resturants so that I can
get the money to buy food,
sometimes I would spend
days without bathing or
eating because some
resturants don’t employ
teenagers. That is when I
started eating leftovers I
find inside dustbins then one
of the good days God send
Bab’Ngonyama to me, he
found me when I was busy
digging inside awful smelling
dustbin looking for food. He
made me feel the presence of
a father in my life even
though he wasn’t my real
father and Mam’Ngonyama
also welcomed me with warm
hands. I guess my stepdad
he is the reason why I am
heartless and love killing
people, I mean killing is like a
therapy to me.
I met Vuyolwethu and
Anathi at university, they
didn’t even judge me or bad
name me they were down to
earth they might be crazy
but they have good hearts
and can make you feel
welcomed. I left Bongani
back home at Houghton-
Johannesburg the day I run
away from home, but the
universe managed to connect
us again when he relocated
to Cape Town. I met Cheese
boy at boarding school, then
Numbers, Sticks and Spitjo I
met them where hustlers
start their lifes: at the
street. I don’t care if my
mother is turned into a
punching bag or what they
only person I am worried
about is my brother how is
he holding up, but I guess
one day I will meet him.
INSECT 17

NARRATED

It is 22:00, outside
Ngonyama Holdings two men
are talking over a phone.
Guy: “my inside man said, her
car is been here for days now.
Because her boyfriend has
been fetching and dropping
her at work”
Man: “do you trust that
inside man of yours?”
Guy: “yes, I do and he gave
me the access card to the
stuff parking, so I will just
jump over the wall and see if
the car is still here”
The guy jumped and went
straight to stuff parking
lot.
Guy: “it is here bozza yam,
Lamborghini her favourite
car”
Man: “okay great, now plant
that bomb and it will
activate 20 minutes after
the car is on and there is no
way she is going to survive
that bomb because it will
automatically close the doors
when it is on, that it how
smart it is designed”
Guy: “done, but you do know
that she is dangerous right
and if she dies her gang will
hunt you down”
Man: “I know and I am not
scared of them, they can’t
just kill my brother Kwanele
and walk around like nothing
happened. They even took all
his money even though we
couldn’t see who took it but
I know they took it”
Guy: “well rest in peace in
advance, because you are
going to need it when we
can’t find your body”
Man: “why do you exclude
yourself? We are in this
together. Now get out
before someone sees you”
The guy jumped and went
back to his car.
INSECT 18

I woke up early today and

took a long shower, when I
was done l wore a maroon
maxi dress with a slit, picked
a maroon pencil heel. Tie my
braids and ended my look with
a makeup. It’s been a 2
weeks now dating with
Busani and he is been nothing
but the boyfriend l always
needed, but they say the tea
tastes good when It is still
hot, I will never know what
if he dump me in the middle
of our journey.
My baby Lambo is still at
Ngonyama Holdings I didn’t
get a time to take it back
home but today I am driving
myself home no ways. I
requested an uber to fetch
me since Busani have an
early meeting and I can’t
take another car.
I went downstairs found
Nosipho busy cleaning and I
greeted her, decided to fry
eggs and bacon also toasted
bread, took out my juice and
pour it, and I ate. When I
was done I washed my dish
and glass and returned them
where they belong, I can’t
make Nosipho a slave while I
have hands.
Me: “Goodbye Nosipho, have
a nice day”
Nosipho: “you too ma'am, bye”
I found my uber already
waiting for me outside the
gate, then I got in.
Me: “Good morning”
Driver: “Good morning”
It was silent drive and
arrived at work after 45
minutes.
I greeted the receptionist
as always and took a lift
because I was tired of
taking stairs. I found
Qhawekazi alone in my office
busy on her phone.
Me: “last time I checked you
have your own office”
Qhawekazi: “I just love your
office it is so beautiful and
refreshing, while the one I
am given in decorated in old
fashion way”
Me: “you can re-decorate it in
your own style”
Qhawekazi: “do you want my
father to kill me when he
finds his office different?”
I just laughed at her, it’s
not like he will kill her he
might just shout at her
that’s all.
Me: “okay daddy’s princess,
where is Dineo?”
Qhawekazi: “busy printing
some papers from CFO”
CFO of Ngonyama Holding is
someone from Russia I
haven’t seen. Another papers
needed to be signed yooh.
Me: “it is work time, let’s
work and go back to your ‘old
fashion’ office”
Qhawekazi: “I don’t have
much work today I will be
attending meeting after
meeting, so I named this day
a meeting day”
Me: “I wish I was you”
After few minutes Dineo
walked in holding papers.
Dineo: “Good morning Miss
Dlamini”
Me: “Good morning Dineo”
Dineo: “uhm Miss COO and
Miss CEO, there are leaking
pipes that transport the oil
from here to Russia. Also I
need you guys to sign this
few papers”
Wtf, I’ve never fixed such
thing or handled it only
Bab’Ngonyama knows who to
call. Qhawekazi noticed my
reaction, and when she says
few papers she means 20 of
them
Qhawekazi: “relax I will go
to ‘my office’ and check oil
files and people responsible
for fixing damaged pipes, you
will bring those papers when
you are done, have a nice day”
They both walked out leaving
me busy signing and also busy
with a report.
It was lunch time when
Bongani walked in my office.
Bongani: “hey friend”
Me: “hi friend, how are you?”
Bongani: “I am fine but I
need your favour”
Me: “who am I supposed to
kill?” he laughed
Bongani: “you love killing with
all you heart, I need you to
borrow me your car since my
car's bumper is damaged and
my insurance company is still
fixing it and I left SUV at
Matatiele two weeks ago. So
I need to go to Matatiele it
seems like one of my cow's
feet is filled with fluid so I
have to go and check it, since
I am the only Veterinarian in
my farm”
Me: “you can use helicopter or
my private jet so that you
can arrive fast”
Bongani: “eish I thought you
know, I am scared of heights
and even helicopters or
flights”
Me: “okay, check my keys
inside a bag. Drive safely”
Bongani: “I will, thank you”
We hugged, I am going to
miss him even though he is
just going for few days.
INSECT 19

I spend the whole day at

work having bad feeling that
something bad must’ve
happened to Bongani it’s not
like him to go for hours
without calling to update me
that he is still okay.
My phone rings and I checked
a caller ID and it is the gang
calling with group call.
Me: “hey guys”
Numbers: “we thought you
died”
Me: “what do you mean?”
Spitjo: “we saw your
Lamborghini on the news,
just exploded out of nowhere.
20 minutes away from
Ngonyama’s” NO, NO, NO,
NO!!! This can’t be happening
Me: “SHIT”
Them: “yini boss u’right?”
Me: “Bongani was the one
driving my car, that means
he….he…he is dead” I just
cried
Sticks: “DAMN IT!!”
Cheese boy: “there is no way
a car can explode out of
nowhere, someone must’ve
planned a bomb on your car”
whoever did this is going to
die, I am going to kill that
person I swear to God
Me: “let me check the
parking cameras, don’t hung
up”
I took out my iPad inside my
drawer and checked the
parking cameras, and it was
blur vision like someone
sprayed the cameras, in fact
that person sprayed all
visible cameras.
Me: “FUCK!!!! DAMN IT!!!
Someone sprayed the
cameras I can’t see
anything”
Spitjo: “did you turn off
undetected cameras?”
Me: “no”
Spitjo: “okay let me go
through them then I will tell
you what I’ve got, just few
seconds please”
It all my fault I should’ve
given him that car it was
supposed to be me who is
dead not him, his daughter
will grow up without a
father and his wife is going
to be a widow because of me
and the only family he had
was his wife and daughter
because his parents died
when he was 20 years
because of cancer, after the
funeral his aunts and uncles
neglected him so he ended up
being an orphan, he was the
only child he didn’t have any
sister or any brother.
Spitjo: “I’ve found
something. There was blue
polo vivo there few days ago
and that guy jumped
through the wall and planted
that bomb, he is not even
one of your employees but he
knew that your car was in a
parking lot during that time
that means someone told him
and we have to find that
person and the mastermind
behind that thing, we will
tell you once we got one of
them. Then I will trace his
number plate in the
meantime”
They hanged up. I just can’t
believe what just happened
to my friend, but what I am
accurate about is that,
people behind this are going
to pay for it, I am going to
skin their body off and so
that they can feel the pain
I am feeling right now.
INSECT 20

ANATHI

My name is Anathi Nhlabatsi,

princess of Eswatini, my
husband is Banzi Nhlabatsi
the Prince of Eswatini.
I once dreamed of a life filled
with the pitter-patter of
little feet and the joy of
nurturing my own royal brood.
But fate had other plans.
My body, it seems, is not
designed for motherhood.
But doctors don't see any
problem. The pain of this
realization is a weight I
carry with each passing day.
I feel like a failure, a
princess without a true
purpose. The king try to
reassure me that there are
other ways to make a
difference, but the ache in
my heart remains. I watch
as other princesses
effortlessly conceive and
welcome their little ones into
the world. Meanwhile, I'm
left to navigate the
complexities of royal life
without the one thing that
truly matters to me. But I
refuse to let my
circumstances define me. I
will find a way to make a
difference, to leave my mark
on this kingdom, even if it's
not through motherhood. I
will rise above this challenge
and prove that a princess
can be more than just a
mother-she can be a leader, a
mentor, and a force for good.
My prince came in with a
tray of breakfast.
Banzi: “Good morning
Ntokazi”
Me: “Good morning babe”
I only speak other
languanges with my husband,
while I speak Swati only
with other people in this
house.
Banzi: “I hope you slept well,
I’ve made you something to
eat”
Me: “yes, I did but the death
of Bongani worries me, thank
you”
Banzi: “I am sorry all will be
fine babe, I know it will take
time to accept it but one day
you will”
Me: “yeah I know, I just
can’t imagine how Lindo is
holding up I mean she just
lost her primary friend
someone who was always
there for her when she
needed a shoulder to cry on, I
wish they kill that
motherfucker behind that
death”
Banzi: “language babe, surely
they will and we both know
that Lindo will do anything to
someone that hurt any of
her friends”
Me: “Sorry. I know, now let’s
eat. I won’t eat all this food
alone”
We ate and busy talking
about things going on in the
royal house. When we were
done he took the plates and
tray, returned them back to
the kitchen. I decided to
skype Lindo with my iPad.
Me: “hey friend”
It seems like she’s been
crying all night, she is having
eye bags.
Lindo: “hi”
Me: “how are you holding up
friend?”
Lindo: “I take one step at
the time, but I just can’t
get over the fact that he is
dead, and Busani was there
to comfort me”
Me: “I know friend it is not
easy, you are blessed finally
with a man that support you
in everything. Did you tell her
wife?”
Lindo: “yes, I did and she
even received a letter from
Bongani’s lawyer stating
things he want in his funeral
and he even stated that he
wants to be buried next to
his parents, meaning the
funeral will be held in
Matatiele and his body is
already in one of the
mortuary in Matatiele. He
even stated that we should
wear blue at his funeral as
he consider black as a bad
luck colour”
Me: “we won’t argue with
the dead person, I guess I
have to start parking my
clothes”
Lindo: “you are coming to his
memorial service right?”
Me: “yes, I will come today
with Banzi to help with the
preparations”
Me: “see you guys later, bye”
We hanged up and walked
into the bathroom and took a
shower when I was done I
wore my royal attire and
walked out. I found Banzi
and his father at the dining
room busy talking.
Me: “Sawubona baba”
King: “Sawubona
Inkhosatana, woza
utosijoyina (Good morning
Princess, come and join us)”
I took a seat and after few
minutes the Queen walked in
(Banzi’s mother).
Queen: “Sawubona Banzi,
wena ndvodzakati
lengenabantfwana (Good
morning Banzi and you
infertile princess)”
Yeah that is the name she
gave me, because I can’t
make babies and I am not
infertile just can’t carry a
baby for a long time. That
name hurts me every single
day even though Banzi said
I must ignore her when she
says that.
Banzi: “Make, utawuyekela
nini kubita umkami ngalelo
gama? (mom when are you
going to stop calling my wife
with that name?)”
Queen: “kungenteka kutsi
nangifa, mhlawumbe
(probably when I die,
maybe)”
King: “hhayi Nomasonto,
lomntfwana akafanelwa
nguloko lokwentako kuye
akusilo liphutsa lakhe kutsi
akakwati kutfolo bantfwana
sonkhe sitalwa sehlukile.
Nkulunkulu angeke asibuse
ngako konkhe (hayii
Nomasonto, this child doesn’t
deserve what you are doing
to her it’s not her fault that
she can’t make babies we are
all born different. God can’t
bless us with everything)”
I just looked at her like she
wanted to swear or shout at
her husband, but since the
doctors don’t see any problem
I live by the words in Isaiah
60:22 that says ‘When the
time is right I, the Lord will
make it happen’ and my faith
kept me bouncing back from
days I lost 4 babies. She
just walked out of the house
busy mumbling something we
couldn’t hear.
King: “Ngiyacolisa ngaloko (I
am sorry about that)”
Banzi was busy brushing my
hand trying to comfort me.
Me: “Awudzingi kucolisa,
sengikujwayele loko (you don’t
have to be sorry, I am used
to it anyway)”
I decided to go back to my
room and left them busy
watching soccer since I don’t
love it. When I got inside my
room a found an old lady
wearing white clothes
seating on the bed and she
had a smile on her face the
moment she saw me and I
noticed that she is the first
Queen of Eswatini and she is
dead. I’m seeing dead people
now?
Her: “hey Anathi”
She knows my name? I mean
this person died before I
was born.
Me: “hi”
Her: “I know I should be
visiting you in your dreams
not in person but I guessed
this was the only way”
To say I am shocked will be
an understatement, so I
decided to shut my mouth
and let her talk. I guess
dead people know which
language we like the most.
Her: “there is a dark cloud
around you Anathi, just be
careful on who you are open
to in this royal house and
always pray, all you’ve wished
for will happen when you
don’t expect. Your power lies
on your tongue and the only
weapon you have is your
knees. Have a nice day”
After she said that she
disappeared, what does she
mean when she says in this
royal house? But I will pray
as she said. Banzi walked in.
Banzi: “I heard two voices
when I was coming”
I just can’t tell him I saw
dead person he will think l am
crazy or something
Me: “yes, it was Vuyolwethu
on a phone”
Banzi: “okay, change that
ugly attire and dress properly
we are going to Cape Town
to your friend’s memorial
service”
I know he hate this attire
but I just can’t control the
fact that it is a must that
I have to wear it anyway to
show respect.
Me: “you are going to watch
me?”
Banzi: “yes, it’s not like I
don’t know your body without
clothes”
I wore a royal blue floral
dress with a zip behind, he
helped me with a zip and I
took my royal blue heels. I
took out my makeup and did
some touch ups on my face
Banzi: “you do know that you
look beautiful without
makeup and ugly with
makeup right?”
I just gave him a dead stare
Banzi: “just kidding, let’s go”
We walked out holding hands
and found his father in the
same position I left him.
King: “nine nobabili niyaphi?
(Where are you two going?)”
Banzi: “Cape Town”
King: “nihambe kahle
bantfwabami (have a safe
trip my children)”
We hugged him and walked
out. Banzi decided to take
Rolls Royce Phantom Series ll,
Vuyolwethu call it a royal car.
We travelled all the way to
Cape Town.
INSECT 21

BUSANI

I decided to visit Lindo to

check up on her since she lost
her best-friend few days ago.
I got into my Audi car and
started my engine. I only
have two cars, and I don't
know why Lindo bought so
many cars.
The security just let me in
without calling her I think
she instructed him not to call
her or to press the intercom
when she have visitors.
I parked my car in the middle
of the yard and walked
straight to the house. I
knocked and she doesn’t
respond so I just decided to
open the door and walk in.
I found her seating on her
couch busy crying and there
were some used tissues on
the carpet, and she is still
wearing her pyjamas she is
even playing In the stars by
Benson Boone. So I decided
to sit next to her.
Me: “hey babe”
She turned hugged me like
she last saw me 2 years ago,
and just let her tears out
Me: “don’t cry babe, all will be
fine babe. I am so sorry for
your lose”
If it was some random boy I
would say they were dating
but I understand where
they come from.
Lindo: “it will be easy to
accept if he died in a normal
way, but he died inside my car
and burned completely. I
wish you’ve seen his body he
is completely unrecognizable,
I thought we will grow grey
hair together but now he is
gone”
Me: “It might take a year or
even years to accept it but
you can’t blame yourself
forever babe it wasn’t your
fault and you didn’t even
know that there was a bomb
on your car”
Lindo: “yeah, I know that
but I feel guilty, let me clean
up this mess and go take a
shower”
She picked up her tissues and
throw them inside a dustbin
and run upstairs to take a
shower. I decided to watch
soccer in the meantime.

After an hour, I hear her

calling me.
Lindo: “Babe can you come
and help me please”
I walked straight to her
room and the door is wide
opened, I walked in and I
found her seating on her bed
wearing a red lingerie that
holds her perky medium boobs
and I can see her nipples, it
just hugs her just right. She
catwalks over to me and
pulled me inside her room, and
throw me to her bed. She
got on top of me and places
her lips on mine.
Me: “so this is a help you
need?”
Lindo: “yessssss”
She is unbelievable, she says
as she places a kiss on my
cheek and goes down my neck.
I move my hand all the way
to her sweet haven and I
can feel her moistness, I
move her lace underwear
aside and rub her clit. She
moans on my neck and she
starts grinding my hand as
two of my fingers make their
way inside her.
She got up and rest on the
bed with her eyes closed
while I finger her. I pull out
her lingerie with my other
hand. I kiss her boobs one
after the other. Her moans
get louder and I know she is
about to cum so I go faster
and within seconds she
releases her juices all over my
hand. I remove her thong
and buried my mouth in her
cookie, I muff her and she
screams louder and louder.
It’s a good thing that she
gave her helper a day off
otherwise she will be
traumatized. I unbuckle my
belt and unzip my pants, and
enter her. She moans as I
make my way in inch by inch
until I am fully in. I move in
and out of her as she holds
the covers. After a while I
made her bend and before
entering her from behind.
The sounds she is making are
music to my ears. I feel
myself nearing the edge so I
pull out. I sit back on the
bed and she straddles me and
her hand slowly directs my
shaft into her, she rides me
so hard and so fast that we
end up releasing at the same
time. I pull out and carried
her to the bathroom and
turn the tub on, we both got
inside.
Me: “you should’ve asked me
in a right way”
She just laugh
Lindo: “I just didn’t know
how to, Anathi and Banzi
might arrive any minute so
we have to finish up”
Me: “I don’t have clothes
here to change”
Lindo: “I did a little shopping
last week and a saw men’s
clothes and crapped few
different sizes so you will fit
yourself”
Me: “you are really
unbelievable babe”
We got out and walked with
me into her closet, and there
was a side of men clothes like
she did some sort or a mini
closet for me inside her closet
if you get what I am saying
Me: “babe you said few this
is not few”
Lindo: “uhm it is and since you
made a mini closet of my
clothes at your house so I
thought I should do it”
Me: “aww babe that’s so
cute”
I picked Adidas golf t-shirt
and Adidas sweatpants, I
will always prefer
sweatpants over jeans. She
picked a black Adidas dress
maybe to match with me
then we walked out holding
those clothes. I found her
cosmetics on the bed and the
other ones.
Lindo: “I even bought some
men stuff because you will
refuse to use mine”
Obvious I was going to
refuse I can’t be smelling like
women.
We lotion ourselves and got
dressed and she didn’t put
any makeup thanks God I
just hate makeup for no
reason. She tied her braids, I
don't know why she like
braids and other hairstyle
while she has a big curly afro
maybe it is bothering her. We
walked straight downstairs.
Lindo: “let me cook since I
have visitors”
Me: “I will help you”
She looked at me shocked
Lindo: “I didn’t know you can
cook”
Me: “not really, when I say I
will help, I mean pealing
veges and watching the pots
when you are busy with
other meals”
She bursted out laugh
Me: “I knew it”
She laughed again, she took
out some vegetables and
meat, and lot of spices maybe
to choose from. We prepare
the meal after that she
made a red velvet cake and
vanilla cake for the dessert.
When we were waiting for
the cakes to get ready
Anathi and Banzi knocked. We
let them in.
INSECT 22

LINDO

Anathi: “my lovely couple”

She run straight to me to
hug me.
Anathi: “I was going to say
hey bitch but I am walking
with, yeah you know what I
mean”
She whispered in my ear, I
just laughed.
Banzi: “Good evening Mr
Ngwenya”
They shake hands.
They both walked to the
lounge busy talking about
soccer, I guess they will get
along. Leaving me and Anathi
in a kitchen taking out
plates.
When we were busy preparing
the table Vuyolwethu walked
in holding a bottle of wine.
Vuyolwethu: “hey couples”
Anathi: “hey single lady”
Vuyolwethu: “I won’t rest
shame until I get someone
to date with”
Me “yes, you won’t rest”
Vuyolwethu: “mxm”
She helped us to take the
plates and food to the
lounge.
When we were done we
crapped our seats.
Banzi: “we’ve came here to
pass our condolences before
going to the hotel”
Me: “thank you, why hotel?
While I have many rooms in
my house”
Banzi: “we want to give you
two space”
Busani: “I am not sleeping
over I have lot of work to
do”
I will miss him
Banzi: “okay brother, we will
bring in our bags after
eating this food that is
smelling so divine”
Me: “they won’t be smelling
so divine if my man here
didn’t ‘help’ me”
He looked and me, and
laughed a bit
Anathi: “so we are going to
rate this food without
eating” y
You would say her husband
doesn’t spoil her rotten the
way she loves eating.
Vuyolwethu: “let’s eat before
Anathi kill us”
We ate and talked about
memorial service
preparations and everything
seems to be fine. When we
were done eating Busani
gave me a kiss before
walking out and Vuyolwethu
was about to walk out but I
stopped her.
Me: “you can sleepover, you
can’t drive in the dark you
know that”
She jumped and hugged me
Vuyolwethu: “I bet you knew
that I missed this big house
of yours, let’s go and help our
royals to unload the bags”
As for ‘our royals’
Vuyolwethu don’t have peace
shame.
We helped them with the
bags and showed them their
room. Banzi just walked in
and took his beauty sleep.

Anathi: “so that wine is

going to drink itself?”
Vuyolwethu: “of course not I
brought it here for a reason”
we took out the glasses and
our small party just begun.
We didn’t play any music
because we didn’t want to
wake Banzi up.
I really missed this, even
though the is one person
missing I just wish I get
over it but maybe after
killing people behind that
bomb. The gang is busy
hunting the person who
jumped over and he is in
Johannesburg pity they will
find him soon.
We decided to end our party
and went straight to our
bedrooms, Vuyolwethu slept
with me since she said she
can’t sleep alone.
Me: “how do you sleep alone in
your apartment? While you
are scared to sleep alone in
my house?”
Vuyolwethu: “I take sleeping
pills, but since I didn’t know
that I will sleep over I left
them”
She looked really scared, I
wanted to laugh but I
controlled myself.
Me: “you are very funny when
you are scared, let’s sleep
since it is a memorial service
tomorrow”
Vuyolwethu: “don’t switch off
the lights”
I just laughed like she is
really funny now
Me: “I won’t friend”
All people have fears of
heights and darkness but my
fear is seeing my own blood it
just make me dizzy and
spmetimes I faint
immediately after seeing it.
INSECT 23

Anathi walk into our room

and pull the blankets.
Anathi: “wakey wakey sleepy
heads”
Vuyolwethu: “Anathi voetsek,
why did you pull the
blankets?”
Anathi: “it is 09:00 AM guys
and people are already here”
Shit we must’ve overslept,
we quickly woke up and took a
quick shower. We wore navy
blue dresses and navy blue
doeks since Bongani loved
blue. We ended our looks with
a makeup and headed
downstairs for breakfast.
We found Banzi and Busani
already in a kitchen talking,
they were wearing navy blue
suit since it is today’s theme.
Me: “Good morning
gentlemen”
Busani: “good morning
sthandwa sam”
He gave me a morning kiss
and it was long kiss, it feels
like he is eating me.
Vuyolwethu: “get a room
guys”
Me: “jealousy makes people
nasty”
Vuyolwethu: “mxm whatever”
Banzi: “we’ve prepared you
two a breakfast”
Vuyolwethu: “thank you your
highness” she even bowed,
we just laughed. We ate as
quickly as we can.
When we were on our way out
my helper Nosipho arrived.
Nosipho: “Good morning”
Us: “Good morning Nosipho”
We walked out and there
were all different types of
cars outside of his colleagues
and we made that memorial
service at my back yard
because it is big enough for
everyone, we walk to the
back yard and everything
was so beautiful the décor
was out of the world, blue
colour just made things to be
spectacular. The moment I
saw his picture I just cried
and didn’t even care if I ruin
my makeup. Then next to the
picture they placed his
portrait when he was riding
a horse since he was a horse
rider and a Vet at the same
time, and they wrote IN
LOVING MEMORING
WITH BONGANI NTLEBI
it is so beautiful.
People are already singing
Sewakhile by Hlengiwe
Mhlaba, so we joined them
and took our seats.
Anathi started the service
with a prayer.
Anathi: “We come before you
today Lord with heavy
hearts as we mourn the loss
of our dear friend. We
remember the life he lived,
the joy he brought to those
around him. Be with his
family and friends in every
step of the way father. In
the name of the holy spirit,
Amen”
Us: “Amen”
The service proceed people
who worked with him shared
their good byes and heart
breaking messages, it is my
turn to stand up.
Me: “Bongani has been
nothing but my shoulder to
cry on, my soul friend he was
more like a brother to me.
I’m devastated by your
passing my friend, but I’m
also comforted by the
memories we shared
together when we were
growing up. You were a true
friend, and I’m so grateful
for the laugher, support and
love you brought into my life.
Rest in peace my friend you
will always own a special
place in my heart and your
spirit will live forever in our
hearts.”
It is Vuyolwethu’s turn to
speak.
Vuyolwethu: “I never
thought I will say goodbye
to him for the last time, he’s
been nothing but a brother
to the three of us, I know I
just met him few years ago
but the memories we shared
won’t be forgettable. When
he was around you would feel
his energy and joy you will
never get bored around him,
lala ngoxolo skeem, you will
always be loved”
Now it is Anathi’s turn to
speak.
Anathi: “Bongs Bongs was
the person full of love and
support, he would never
judge you or bad name you
according to your back
ground. I met him the same
day with Vuyolwethu and he
automatically loved us that
day. I remember the day I
was feeling down he would
pray for me and I would feel
better after that prayer, he
was truly a godsend person
into our life. You will always
be unforgettable angle in our
heart Bongs, may your soul
rest in peace my friend”
Such heart breaking
speeches.
His wife Bongiwe Ntlebi was
supposed to be here today
but she is in Matatiele to
mourn her husband there.
She even went with her
daughter Luthando Zinzi
Ntlebi because they don’t
have any nanny to look after
her, and I don’t call her Zinzi
I just don’t like Xhosa names
for no reason.
We played his favourite
maskandi songs as people
were helping themselves
with food and different types
of drinks.
INSECT 24

It was a short and painful

service. People started
leaving after eating so we
decided to go back inside to
watch a horror that will
distract me a bit.
Turned Netflix on and played
The Shining. It is based on a
writer who becomes unhinged
while staying at a haunted
hotel.
According to me it is not
that scary or is it because I
find healing in horrors.
Vuyolwethu: “I am going to
have nightmares tonight”
Busani: “this horror is so
scary guys I don’t even think
I will sleep tonight”
Anathi: “me too”
Banzi: “me three”
Me: “yooh, guys you are so
dramatic it is not that scary
as you guys say”
They looked at me shocked
Anathi: “now I get it why
you chose to be a gangster
queen, and what I know is
that you sleep peacefully
after killing a person”
Me: “my whole unpaid
therapy when you talk about
killing”
Banzi: “Amen”
We just laughed at him
Vuyolwethu: “I will not sleep
for weeks after killing a
person”
Me: “dramaaaaaaaaaaa”
Busani: “you never had any
nightmares when you first
killed a person?”
Me: “yes”
To say they are shocked it
will be an understatement
Busani: “I had plenty of
them when it was my first
time in the gangster life”
They looked at him shocked
Vuyolwethu: “you are a
gangster?”
Busani: “was”
Anathi: “no wonder why you
two got along so quickly”
Banzi: “why did you quit”
Busani: “I wanted to grow
my business without any
dodgy stuff going on”
Banzi: “okay, I understand”
I have to convince him to
return back to the game.

I changed the horror to

Terminator 2 and they
started smiling
Vuyolwethu: “my favourite
movie”
Me: “I will go and make some
popcorns and bring some
drinks”
Busani: “I will help you”
We walked to the kitchen and
started making popcorn, he
took out 3 bottles of wines
and 5 glasses placed them on
the kitchen table. He walked
to me and hold my wrist busy
kissing me on my neck.
Busani: “I miss you”
Me: “I miss you too, but we
have visitors behave”
Busani: “you are just a party
pooper”
He placed a kiss on my neck
and walked out holding 3
bottles of wine and returned
to take the glasses.
He got back from the movie
room.
Busani: “let me help you,
filling the bowels with
popcorns”
We filled 5 bowels and we
walked out holding them.
Vuyolwethu: “that was quick,
I thought you guys will take
your time in a kitchen busy
making love on the kitchen
counter”
We just laughed, Vuyolwethu
is something else.
Me: “mxm”
We watched the movie busy
eating our popcorns and
drinking
Me: “I think we have to go
and do a little shopping for
the funeral”
Anathi: “thought you will
never ask”
We finished up and cleaned.
Vuyolwethu: “we are going to
the mall with the royal car
right?”
Anathi: “we won’t rest
shame”
Banzi: “if you guys don’t
mind”
We walked into Rolls Royce
Series ll, we took back seats
and Busani took the front
one along with Banzi because
he was driving.
We arrived at V&A
Waterfront mall and firstly
went to H&M picked our
clothes for the funeral,
Busani and Banzi decided to
go to Adidas store and Levi’s
while we made our way to
Zara to pick another clothes.
We found Busani and Banzi
waiting for us at Clicks so we
got in to buy some cosmetics.
Busani: “you said little
shopping”
Me: “yes, I said that but we
don’t know the weather of
Matatiele”
He just nooded his head.
Our last stop was at
Woolworths to buy some
goodies and grocery.
Me: “we are done”
Banzi: “finally”
We went back home and
placed the grocery in the
kitchen and our paper bags in
our rooms.
INSECT 25

We just watched TV when

Busani and Banzi were still
preparing supper.
Vuyolwethu: “have you told
him about your past?”
Me: “no, I am just waiting
for the right time to tell
him”
Anathi: “you better tell him
before he talks about making
babies, he seems to be so
genuine than that idiot ex of
yours, surely he will
understand”
Me: “I know I have to tell
him but what if after telling
him he will leave me and find
another woman that will
bare many babies for him”
Vuyolwethu: “don’t be
ridiculous he won’t leave you”
Anathi: “and the bible says
love is patient and kind; love
does not envy or boast; it is
not arrogant or rude. It does
not insist on its own way; it
is not irritable or resentful;
it does not rejoice at
wrongdoing, but rejoices with
the truth. So if it ends it
wasn’t real love”
If you think of giving up on
something her verses will lift
you up.
Me: “I know guys and the
doctor said she is seeing
improvement maybe sooner or
later I will be able to make
babies but time will tell”
Anathi: “according to your
faith it will happen friend”
You must be wondering why
we call her mamfundisi, we
call her by that name,
because she something like a
preacher because sometimes
she do a night prayer with
Eswatini’s guards and
helpers.
Me: “thank you guys for
supporting me, still no luck on
your side Anathi?”
Vuyolwethu: “you are
welcome”
Anathi: “no, but I will keep
on trying, what hurts the
most is seeing my husband
hurting after knowing I had
miscarriage again”
Vuyolwethu: “all will be fine
friend just hang in there”
We gave her a hug, then the
guys walked in holding food
then we pull out our group
hug.
Banzi: “babe are you okay?”
Anathi: “yes, I am”
He placed the food on the
table and took a sit next to
her.
Banzi: “I can see when you
are not babe, talk to me”
Anathi: “I will tell you when
we are in our room”
Banzi: “okay”
He kissed her on the
forehead and walked out
fetching plates.
They walked in with plates
and juice and take their
seats.
Vuyolwethu: “smells so good,
Chef Ngwenya and Chef
Nhlabatsi”
Busani: “also tastes good
hopefully” we looked at him
Busani: “ignore that
hopefully let’s eat”
I took one bite and they
taste so good and delicious, l
just love how they balanced
all the spices.
Me: “not bad”
They both looked at me
shocked
Me: “just kidding you nailed
this dish guys or should I
say Banzi because I know
that my man here doesn’t
know how to cook”
Busani: “uyathanda
ukuhlekisa ngami babe, we
helped each other right
Banzi?”
Banzi: “yes, buti if it wasn’t
for you and your YouTube
idea this house would be on
fire”
We just laughed at them.
Anathi: “you guys really used
YouTube to cook, wow”
They are really unbelievable
but then they are delicious.
We ate busy laughing at
them, we took the dishes to
the kitchen and placed them
inside a dishwasher then
turn it on we will take them
out in the morning.
INSECT 26

Busani didn’t sleepover

yesterday since work is
keeping him busy, he should
consider hiring an assistant
or have a business partner
to look after the company
when he is going somewhere
far from Cape Town, maybe
he loves his own space and
doesn’t need any help but I
miss him so much.
I woke up and my left side of
the bed was empty I think
Vuyolwethu joined the others
downstairs, I walk into the
bathroom to take a shower
to release the stress I have
when I was done I walk out
then I lotion my body then
walk straight to my closet
and picked my new pink mini
skirt with a pink crop top
and took out my white
sandals, tied my braids. Walk
straight downstairs, I
noticed that they are not
downstairs I only found
Nosipho.
Me: “good morning Nosi”
Nosipho: “good morning
ma'am”
Me: “where is everyone?”
Nosipho: “at the pool”
Me: “oh thank you”
I walk out and went
straight to the pool, I found
them busy drinking I mean it
is 08:00 AM and they are
already drinking.
Vuyolwethu: “finally you
decided to wake up Barbie
girl”
Me: “mxm, and you are
already drinking at this time
guys”
Anathi took a bottle and
turn it around reading
something
Anathi: “oh I was just
checking where they stated
the specific time to drink and
I can’t find it” mxm
Busani: “well said Mrs
Nhlabatsi, come sit near me
and stop lecturing us babe”
I didn’t want to debate with
them I just do as he said I
took my shoes off and sit
next to him, this water is
breath taking and the
weather is just fine it feels
like everything is going to be
fine.
We chilled outside and I was
resting my head on my man’s
chest listening to his
heartbeat, nothing feels so
good than resting on your
partner’s chest while he is
busy brushing or playing with
your hair.
INSECT 26

NARRATED

Kwanele’s brother Vukani

Mzimande, the guy who
planted the bomb Xolane and
inside man who helped them
Vusi are at Mugg and Bean
Café at Johannesburg busy
drinking coffee with muffins.
Vusi: “the car exploded last
week and it seems like she
wasn’t the one driving it”
Vukani: “what do you mean?”
Vusi: “it was her friend
driving it and they are busy
preparing his funeral as we
speak”
Xolane: “we are dead guys”
Vusi: “we just messed with
the most dangerous woman”
Vukani: “I am not scared of
her, since when you guys are
afraid of woman?”
Xolane: “we are not just
talking about an ordinary
woman we are talking about
the most dangerous woman,
we are dead guys let’s just
kill ourselves before she does”
Vusi: “I am pretty sure she
will dig us out of our graves
and finish us”
Vukani: “you are just
exaggerating, she is not that
dangerous as you say”
They look at him with
disbelieve
Vusi: “I will remind you when
you see her in action, let us
say our last prayer guys, we
are dead already”
Xolane: “sifile straight”
The gang managed to track
Xolane’s car and it leads them
to Mall of Africa, they packed
their cars and walked in and
out of the restaurants and
stores but still no sign of
them. When they arrived at
Mugg and Bean café Spitjo
spotted Xolani, they walked
straight to them.
Numbers: “it must be good
enjoying life in Johannesburg
neah?”
They turned and they looked
scared.
Xolani: “how…did you…guys…”
Spitjo: “how did we get here?
Or how did we find you?
Mxah it was easy to find you
guys you really thought you
will hide forever? Well
surprise!!”
Cheese boy: “that will be your
last meal on earth so enjoy it
as much as you can”
Sticks: “you guys you are good
as dead, and wena Vukani you
should’ve backed off the
moment you knew that your
brother is missing or should
I say dead because he is
dead but we didn’t kill him,
but we were going to kill
him”
Vukani: “you killed him”
Spitjo: “what makes you so
sure or is it because he didn’t
leave any cent on your name?
My bro o kese phele life ya
Hennessey ka budget ya
Oros. He made a good thing
to die look now you are eating
muffins mxm instead of sushi
and oysters”
Numbers: “I hate what boss
lady is going to do to you
guys, and wena Vusi o ntjeng
big time.”
Sticks: “Vusi how did you end
up working with them
without knowing the
consequences of your actions,
because you look so scared
like you can even piss on your
pants”
Vusi was shocking and even
sweating
Cheese boy: “nfana nyana
gameng ya makgomosha”
He is trying that language
by all means.
Spitjo: “get up because we
don’t want to carry you guys
with our clean hands”
Vukani: “what if we don’t
want to?”
Sticks: “we will kill you guys
right here right now, just
make it easy and stand up.
Walk out of this café to the
parking”
They just got up and walk
out being followed by the
gang.
Number: “ewww siesssss
Vukani when was the last
time you took a proper bath
you smell so bad or do you use
cheap things when taking a
bath, you look so broke
without your brother’s
money”
He just looked down, they
walked straight to the
parking lot.
Sticks: “you are going to get
into our boots because we
can’t afford to have seats
that will have your smell,
now get in”
They didn’t even cause any
trouble they just did what
they’ve instructed to do.
The gang drive all the way
to their warehouse at
Johannesburg.
They arrived after an hour
then got inside then placed
them on the chairs, tie them
with chains then lock those
chains with a lock.
INSECT 27

We decided to go back inside

since the weather was
changing, then walked into
lounge to just chit chat
about the trip we are going
to take tomorrow to
Matatiele.
Busani: “babe your phone is
ringing”
I must’ve forgotten it inside
his pocket since I wasn’t
wearing anything that have
pockets
Me: “who is calling?”
Busani: “Spitjo”
I took my phone and answer
it.
Me: “sho Spitjo, dintshang?”
Spitjo: “we’ve found them
boss lady and we locked them
inside the warehouse”
Me: “which warehouse?”
Spitjo: “the one in Jo’burg”
Me: “okay thank you, I will
deal with them when I come
back from the funeral I
don’t want to bury my friend
with hands full of blood”
Spitjo: “ke ya jaja bozza yam,
we will keep an eye on them
while you are gone. Bye-bye”
He hang up, everyone was
looking at me
Me: “what?”
Vuyolwethu: “who are those
people you are going to deal
with them after funeral?”
Me: “people behind the bomb,
they found them and locked
them in one of our
warehouses in Jo’burg”
Busani: “I will go with you
when you go there”
Anathi: “I don’t wish you to
do that, she turns in a beast
when she is killing or holding
a gun don’t even try to stop
her or we will bury you after
we bury Bongani”
Busani was so shocked.
Me: “babe she is just
exaggerating there is no
such a thing relax, but as for
going with me I refuse”
Anathi: “don’t say I didn’t
warn you”
Busani: “she won’t hurt me,
right babe?”
Me: “yes”
What I know is that if
someone tries to stop me
when I am trying to kill
someone they get hurt, not
that I turn into a beast or
maybe I do, I don’t know all
I know is that I become
more powerful and strong.
Banzi: “I haven’t seen her in
action but….let me just shut
up and not scare you will see
it for yourself”
He was so shocked he just
kept on drinking water.
Me: “babe they are lying haw
don’t be so scared”
I hugged him so tight, I
just wish he doesn’t see me
in action.
Vuyolwethu: “enough about
our Fandom, when are we
parking our clothes guys
because we are leaving
tomorrow”
We even forgot to park our
clothes, we quickly rushed to
our rooms and started
parking when Vuyolwethu
went to her apartment to
park few things she forgot
to buy.
I parked everything I will
need and when I was still
taking my cosmetics Busani
walked in.
Busani: “are you leaving me?”
I chuckled.
Me: “for 2 days yes, since you
are not coming with us. But
I’ll be back”
Busani: “babe there is a
whole suitcase on the floor
not a bag.”
Me: “I know, I took 4
different dresses and 4
different shoes, since I don’t
know what to choose and
finally my makeup and
cosmetics.”
Busani: “women and clothes”
Me: “stop complaining and
come here, we need to take”
I sit down on the bed and
wait for him to come join me.
He jumps over the suitcase
and sit next to me.
Me: “it’s about what they
said downstairs”
I took a deep breath and
start talking
Me: “so yeah it is true that
I kinda change into some
sort of a beast when killing
people that is why I say I
find healing in killing people
but I will tell you the cause
of it when the time is right,
you looked scared when they
said that”
He hugged me and gave me
the most passionate kiss.
Busani: “I will wait, yes I
was scared what if you are
stronger than me when I am
trying to stop you or take a
gun away from you. What if
your muscles are not just
muscles you are stronger
than I think”
Me: “that day won’t come I
promise”
I just wish.
Busani: “if you say so babe. I
was thinking of returning
back to the game maybe
after couple of mouth(s) or
next year when my company
can operate without me I
am still working on that. I
am also looking for someone
who is good at making
jewelleries like me, and I
have something for you”
He took out a red box out of
his pocket but not the one I
left my phone into. He opened
it and I saw a necklace made
of diamonds and it is a
floating diamond pendant, it
is really beautiful. He turned
the first pendant around and
I saw our anniversary date.
Busani: “this necklace
symbolizes that you are the
rare dime in my life, and as
for the date it shows that
we will spend years together
and not even a single person
will get between us. I spend
nights making it for you my
love. Promise me you won’t
take it out even when you
bath, don’t worry it won’t
rust it is made with real
diamond stones and bended
with real gold”
He helped me with it, it
looked so beautiful on me.
Me: “I promise I won’t take
it out, I love it thank you
babe”
He kissed me and we just laid
our heads on the bed facing
the ceiling.
INSECT 28

We hear a knock, but we just

ignore it. Vuyolwethu just
burst in.
Vuyolwethu: “are you deaf
guys?”
She is back so fast or I
didn’t check the time.
Me: “we are busy
Vuyolwethu”
Vuyolwethu: “busy watching
the ceiling? We need you guys
downstairs”
Me: “mxm, okay we are
coming”
We got up and headed
straight downstairs, we
found her sitting alone in a
dining area busy on her
phone. Busani just laughed.
Me: “Vuyolwethu you said ‘we’
but you are alone”
Vuyolwethu: “your necklace is
so beautiful”
She completely ignored my
statement.
Me: “thank you, did you hear
what I said?”
Vuyolwethu: “yeah I did, I
was just bored to sit alone
since Anathi and Banzi
decided to go for a date”
Vuyolwethu kodwa.
Me: “I don’t have words for
you, you are absolutely
unbelievable. Let’s watch TV
then I will order some
snacks”
Vuyolwethu: “I love you
friend, you can join us Busani
I don’t bite”
He chuckled, not to brag but
he is so handsome. When he
talks, when he laughs but his
smile takes a cup, those
dimples just lighten up his
smile.
Busani: “if you insist”
I ordered ice cream in a 5
litre container, Diddle Daddle,
a box of Lindt dark chocolate
and a bottle of wine since
they finished my wine.
We just watched Hard to kill
waiting for our delivery.
After an hour, we hear the
buzzer.
Busani: “I will get it”
He jumped and went straight
to the telephone.
Busani: “hey...yes... I am
coming”
He walked out.
After few seconds he walked
in holding things I’ve
ordered.
Busani: “do you have sweet
tooth or something?”
Me: “yes why?”
Busani: “you only ordered
sweet things even a wine you
ordered is sweet”
Vuyolwethu: “you will get
used to her, she love sweet
things and she never
complained about the tooth
that needs to be removed”
Busani: “surely there is a lot
I don’t know about you babe”
We got up and pour some
wine and I took Diddle Daddle
and filled my bowel with ice
cream, and took Lindt.
Busani: “you are going to eat
all those things?”
Me: “yep”
He just nooded his and
continue drinking his wine.

QHAWEKAZI

I am Qhawekazi Ngonyama,
daddy’s princess. I was
working in London as Flight
attendant and Qhawe works
as Pathologist, so I decided
to resign with an immediate
effect when my father told
us he is going on a business
trip. As much as I didn’t
know anything when it comes
to handling or running a
business but Dineo, Lindo and
Lebo they are teaching me
few things, I even applied
for a short course surely it
will improve my knowledge.
I wish I could go to the
funeral with Lindo and her
friends but this company
cannot operate without me.
I decided to call Qhawe to
check up on him, his phone
just rings and he doesn’t
answer it, I called him with
the telephone, he answered
at the second ring.
Qhawe: “Mr Ngonyama
speaking, how may I help
you?”
Qhawekazi: “hey twin”
He kept quiet for a second.
Qhawe: “ufunani you
traitor?”
He is angry at me, I mean I
didn’t do anything.
Qhawekazi: “I was just
checking up on you, I don’t
like the way things ended at
family meeting. Lindo is just
a nice person just give her
the change and you will see
what I am talking about”
Qhawe: “Lindo is nothing but
a predator she is going to
milk dad all his money and the
will be no money for our
children’s legacy”
Qhawekazi: “have you seen
the house she lives in? Have
you seen the cars she uses?
No. That woman is
independent she doesn’t
demand anything to anyone,
she spends her own money.
Speaking of legacy why don’t
you build yours since you
decided not to help me with
this company, you’ve grown
balls right? Build your own
legacy”
Qhawe: “watch your mouth
when you are talking to me,
you are blindfolded by her
smile she is a snake”
Qhawekazi: “watch my
mouth because I am scared
of you? I was never scared
of you brother and I will
never. I just wish that
snake can bite you and die”
I didn’t mean the last words
but he is just a naïve this
days.
Qhawe: “oh ufuna ngife
Qhawekazi your whole twin
brother dead? It’s fine but
there won’t be a single day
where I believe that Lindo is
a good person”
Qhawekazi: “kill yourself
when you get time, bye”
I hanged up, I regret calling
him mxah.
I decided to take my beauty
sleep since I don’t have much
to do.

BUSANI

I decided to sleepover
tonight since she is leaving
tomorrow I am going to miss
her, Vuyolwethu is sleeping in
one of the guestrooms we
even bought her the sleeping
pills so that she can sleep
peacefully without worrying
about darkness or if anything
might appear out of
nowhere.
I came out of bathroom and
found my beautiful woman
sleeping peacefully, I just
got under the covers naked
since I don’t like wearing
pyjamas when I am sleeping.
I pulled her closer to my
chest and cuddle, the next
thing lights off.
◦◦◦◦◦◦◦◦◦◦◦◦◦◦◦◦◦◦◦◦◦
I just woke up in my man’s
arm, I turned and saw him
sleeping he looks so cute
when he is sleeping. I decided
to pull myself out of his arms
but he hold me harder.
Busani: “where are you
going?”
Me: “to take a shower and
get ready for the trip”
Busani: “I almost forgot, you
may go. But give daddy a
kiss”
I kissed him and rushed to
the bathroom I don’t want
them to come banging at the
door telling me to finish up. I
quickly took a shower and got
out rapping a towel around
my body I can’t be walking
around naked. I got out and
found him sleeping, I lotion
my body and went to my
closet and wore black maxi
dress with sandals, tied my
braids into a bun I will wear
a doek when we are half way
to Matatiele.
Busani: “you look so
beautiful”
He said with his sleepy voice.
Me: “thank you, you are
sleeping the whole day?”
Busani: “yes, since I am a
new guard of this house for
2 days”
Me: “you will clean since I’ve
given Nosipho off for 2 days”
Busani: “the way you left it
you will find it like that, you
will clean when you get back”
I just looked at him without
saying anything.
Busani: “ngiyadlala babe I
will clean I promise, let me
get out of this bed and take
the bag downstairs”
He came out of the covers
and he is naked, I just feel
my haven being wet. If I let
him I will be late.
Me: “can you…wear
something”
Busani: “you don’t like my
sexy body huh?”
He came closer to me and
hold my wrist, and kissed my
neck so gently.
Me: “the bag”
Busani: “oh”
He continue kissing me and
busy playing with my nipples.
I just can’t control the
feeling but I am going to be
late, I pulled out of him and
walked to the door.
Me: “bag”
Busani: “okay fine, I guess I
am not getting morning
glory”
He wore his clothes and took
the suitcase and walked out,
I followed him.
Banzi: “finally you decided to
show up we were already
going and leave you here”
Me: “going to where you don’t
know?”
I just laughed. We loaded my
bag inside the car,
Vuyolwethu and Anathi are
already in the car waiting for
me and Banzi. I turned
around and gave Busani a
hug and whisper to him.
Me: “sorry about what
happened upstairs”
Busani: “just know that
there are many rounds
waiting for you” I am going
to die when I get back.
Me: “I love you, bye. Take
care of my house if I find
anything dirty you are dead”
Busani: “I love you too have
a nice trip, we will kill each
other. Bye-bye”
He didn’t say that right?
Banzi got inside and start
the car.
Banzi: “bye bafo”
Busani: “bye”
Off we go to Cape Town
International Airport.
Busani was sending me lot of
messages asking if I am still
okay.
Vuyolwethu: “tell him you are
not dead”
Me: “who?”
Vuyolwethu: “Busani, I can
see by the smile that it is
him. I think we are holding a
candle because our royals are
busy touching each other in
front seats”
Anathi: “we can hear you”
Vuyolwethu: “and I don’t
care” I just laughed.
Me: “when do you decide to
date?”
Vuyolwethu: “me? Date? I
don’t want to be controlled by
man telling me that I should
stop drinking and focus on my
career and life, hell no”
Banzi: “there is no controlling
is trying to change how you
act or behave”
Vuyolwethu: “I don’t want
anyone trying to change me I
love this single life is
peaceful”
Me: “I once said that
remember? Bekha manje I
have found the love of my
life”
She just kept quiet like she
is trying to digest what I’ve
just said to her.
Vuyolwethu: “maybe when I
met your gang I will feel in
love with one of them”
I know that they are all
handsome but I don’t want
them to hurt my friend
because they’re all players,
except Numbers, because he
never dated anyone. And the
man of the match when it
comes to cheating is, Sticks,
he is ‘don’t be fooled by my
suits, because I will hurt
you’. So I have to lie.
Me: “I don’t think you will
date one of them, they are
restricted when it comes to
dating my friends and I am
also restricted when it comes
to dating their friends”
Anathi: “why?”
Banzi just looked at her.
Anathi: “don’t look at me like
that I am just asking I
won’t even want to date one
of them”
Me: “because your lives might
be in trouble when things go
wrong, and I can’t afford to
lose another friend because
of my dirty business”
Vuyolwethu: “okay I
understand, but still I want
to meet them”
Me: “you will soon”
She turned to her window
with a smile, I just hope she
doesn’t think what I am
thinking.
INSECT 29

We arrived in time at the

airport and find one of my
drivers already waiting for us
inside my Private Jet.

We landed at Umtata Airport

in Matatiele after hours, we
found Banzi’s car already at
the airport we got in and I
directed Banzi to where we
are going. We arrived at
Bongani’s house that he was
given by his parents, he even
renovated in and it looks so
beautiful.
We got in and people are
already here busy cooking
outside, I must say people of
Matatiele really support
each other. We got inside the
house and it was also full of
people going up and down and
I saw Luthando so I decided
to call her.
Me: “hey baby girl”
She smiles and she looks like
Bongani when he was a little
boy.
Luthando: “Hey sis Lindo”
Me: “where is your mother?”
Luthando: “in her room, I will
take you to it”
Me: “thank you, are you guys
coming with me?”
Vuyolwethu: “no, I will help
others to cook you can go”
Anathi: “me too”
Banzi: “since I don’t know
how to cook I will help the
men who are slaughtering
outside”
We walked straight to her
room and Luthando opened
the door for me then I got in
and found her seating on the
mattresses, the moment she
saw me she smiles. She is so
beautiful even though her
cheeks are red.
Me: “hey, sis”
Bongiwe: “hey Lindo”
She took her hanger chief to
wipe her tears. I took my
shoes off and sit next to her.
Me: “I’ve came here with my
friends to pass our deepest
condolences to you and your
daughther, I am sorry about
your lose”
Bongiwe: “thank you, I really
appreciate it. It must be
hard losing a best friend
right? As much as it is hard
losing the love of my life, but
only time will tell so that I
can accept that he is gone
forever” I wanted to cry but
something kept on stopping
me.
Me: “it is hard to accept”
Bongiwe: “I think his body
will arrive in a minute”
I am not ready to see his
casket.
Me: “are you ready? I mean
I am so scared”
Bongiwe: “I guess I am
ready”
With that being said we hear
people outside singing and
others crying, my tears
automatically made their
way out.
Me: “they have arrived”
The ushers come to the room
where Bongiwe is mourning
in, holding the casket.
Bongiwe just cried and I
hugged her to comfort her,
our clothes were wet with
tears. I thought I will
accept it already but seeing
his casket is something else.
Church people started
singing when the ushers
placed the casket in a proper
way. It was covered with his
favourite blanket. The
pastor said a short prayer
before going out.
My eyes were just glued to
his casket hoping that he
will come out of it and telling
us it was some sort of a
prank he is not dead, but no
he is gone forever.
Bongiwe: “all will be fine sis
we just have to accept, you
said you came with your
friends? Right? How many
are they?”
Me: “I know, 3 but the
other one is Anathi’s
husband”
Bongiwe: “okay let’s go, I will
show you your room”
We walked out to a beautiful
room that has Bongani’s
pictures all over and
Luthando’s pictures.
Bongiwe: “so you will share
this one with your other
friend Vuyolwethu if I still
remember her name”
Me: “thank you” we walked
to the other one, that is also
beautiful but with no
pictures.
Bongiwe: “so this one is for
Anathi and her husband”
Me: “I will tell them thank
you, let me go get you
something to eat”
Bongiwe: “I am not hungry
thank you”
Me: “any news from the
elders?”
Bongiwe: “no, and I don’t
even know where they live I
wanted to send them the
letter”
Such heartless people, they
don’t even care about
Bongani.
Me: “okay, let me go back to
the others to help them”
She got back to her room and
closed the door, luckily her
parents are here to support
her.
I went straight to the
kitchen, I found them busy
laughing with other women
who are cooking.
Me: “sanibonani”
Lady1: “hey, but we are not
Zulus here we are Xhosa
people”
Me: “one of the language I
don’t know, and Bongani
refused to teach me”
Lady2: “we will teach you
tonight”
Vuyolwethu: “I will join you
guys, maybe I will crap a
Xhosa man when we are going
back home”
Vuyolwethu and man.
Anathi: “uthanda amatota
manh (you love men)”
Vuyolwethu: “because they
love me”
We just laughed at her.
Me: “is there anything maybe
I can help you with guys?”
Lady3: “no we are done, we
were just talking”
Me: “okay, I forgot to
introduce myself. I am
Lindokuhle Dlamini.”
Lady1: “Nomalizo Qadi”
Lady2: “Noluthando Jiyane”
Lady3: “Nomonde Ngubane”
Lady4: “Lulama Ndlovu”
Lady5: “Nobuhle Nxumalo”
Lady6: “Ntombizodwa
Nxumalo”
I will forget those names
tomorrow, and I don’t know
why they gave Bongani a
Zulu name while he was a
pure Xhosa man.
Me: “nice to meet you all”
We just talked about ordinary
things until I hear my phone
ringing and it is Busani.
I walked out to answer it.
Me: “miss me already?”
Busani: “yes, I even thought
that those rural boys took
you”
Me: “you are just a cry baby,
they are not that bad I
might just take one of them”
Busani: “this house feels so
lonely without you, you
wouldn’t dare”
Me: “just kidding. I am
coming back after tomorrow
babe”
Busani: “but still, I miss you”
Me: “I miss you too, I have
go it is just bad manners
standing in the middle of the
yard busy on the phone and
network here is just bad this
call might cut anytime”
Busani: “okay, I love you”
Me: “I love you too, bye-bye”
He hanged up and the
moment I was about to go
back inside I see Banzi
coming in my direction and his
shirt was covered with blood
I just laughed at him.
Banzi: “it’s not funny”
Me: “were you slaughtering
that cow or was it
slaughtering you?”
Banzi: “I was slaughtering
it, let’s just say it was my
first time and look at how
messy I am”
Me: “come I will show you
your room”
We walked into the house
busy laughing at him.
Me: [laughing] “Anathi woza
uzobona (Anathi come and
see)”
She came out of the kitchen
running the moment she sees
her husband she bursted out
laughing.
Anathi: “aw Gebase what
were you doing?”
Banzi: “I was just trying to
help”
Me: “take him to the room to
take a shower, it is next to
Bongiwe’s room”
Anathi: “thank you”
They walked straight to
their room, luckily our bags
are already in our rooms.
It is 18:00 but I am already
tired, I decided to go to
Vuyolwethu and tell her
where our bed is I am so
tired.
Me: “I am going to sleep
ladies”
Vuyolwethu: “at this time?”
Me: “yes I am just tired, so
our room is the third one
from Bongiwe’s”
I went straight to our room,
his pictures makes me feel
like he is around. I took off
my clothes and took my
beauty sleep.
INSECT 30

I am woken up by the noise

of people outside I guess it
is morning already, I turned
to look at the clock and it is
05:00 AM.
Vuyolwethu: “Good morning
babes, I’ve made you
breakfast”
She was even fully dressed
and ready for the funeral I
mean at 05:00 so early in the
morning.
Me: “good morning early bird,
thank you.”
Vuyolwethu: “I am not early
bird, I couldn’t sleep so I
decided to wake up and get
ready”
Me: “bad dreams?”
Vuyolwethu: “no, now eat and
get ready I’ve already ironed
your dress”
Me: “what if I wasn’t going
to pick the one you picked?”
Vuyolwethu: “you were going
to pick it trust me”
I finished my breakfast, I
didn’t know I was that
hungry. She took a tray with
her, I decided to go to the
bathroom and took a shower.
When I was done I took out
my lotion and lotioned my
body, and my necklace is still
not my neck like he said it
should be. I walk to the
dressing table and my dress
was on the couch, she really
know how to read my mind. I
wore it and put the doek on
without styling my braids. I
did a little makeup on my
face, and fixed our bed since
this is not my house.
I walked out and everyone is
wearing blue, I decided to go
out and to look at how things
are inside the tent.

It is so beautiful inside you

will even think we are at
some sort of wedding not
funeral, everything is blue
except for the flowers.
People are arriving since the
funeral starts at 07:00. I
went back inside to help
others with whatever they
are doing.
Vuyolwethu: “I told you, you
will love the dress I picked
for you”
Me: “I did doubt you a little
bit but it looks so beautiful
on me”
Anathi: “Busani deserve
pictures you look like a real
Ngwenya bride”
She took out her phone and
take some pictures.
Me: “and you guys still
remember we are not
married right?”
Vuyolwethu: “yes and you are
soon to be”
Me: “whatever, nibusy ngani?
(What are you busy with?)”
Anathi: “nothing we are done
we are just waiting for the
funeral to start”
I really love sleeping if
everything is ready at this
time. I decided to go to
Bongiwe. I knocked.
Luthando: “come in”
I opened the door, she came
to me running and hugged me
on the wrist since she is
short.
Me: “hey baby girl, you look so
beautiful”
Luthando: “thank you”
We returned to her mother.
Me: “hey Bongi”
Bongiwe: “hi sis”
Me: “I was just checking if
you are done, the funeral
starts in few minutes”
Bongiwe: “we are done. You do
know that the casket won’t
be opened so that we can see
his body for the last time
right?”
I understand why she took
that decided, he was really
unrecognisable when we went
to the mortuary the day
after the explosion.
Me: “no I didn’t, but I
understand”
Bongiwe: “okay, let us pray
first then we will get out of
this room”
I walked out, left her and
Luthando praying.
INSECT 31

It is 07:00 and the tent is

full already, people of
Matatiele really support
each other.
The church members started
a song the moment 4 men
walk inside the tent holding
the casket.
It was painful service, and
the most painful of it was
when the pastor reads his
obituary, the cause of death
just made me cry.
They ushered us to the
grave yards then we took our
seat at the other tent near
where he is going to be
buried.
We were given a chance to
throw soil in his grave in fact
everyone who attended is
given a chance I think that
is was Bongani wanted.
Bongiwe was talking as she
was throwing soil.
Bongiwe: “lala ngoxolo
Mamtolo, Zulu, Mchenge,
Dlangamandla, Bhanekazi,
Ngwenyankomo, Vumba
lempongo liyanuka! Side
sidibane kwakhona (till we
meet again)”
We walked back to the house
to eat when they were busy
with the tombstone.
Everyone served themselves
with food, biscuits and drinks,
and there is lot of traditional
beer for every man in the
community.
Bongiwe decided to join us in
the lounge.
Bongiwe: “what a long day,
Bongani’s lawyer is going to
arrive after an hour so I
need you guys to join us”
Us: “no problem, Bongi”
I am just curious. When we
were busy eating we hear
people making noise outside
like they are commanding
something, Bongiwe opened
the door for them.
They walked in, as they walk
in I notice that they are
Bongani’s elders Bab’Gcaleka,
Bab’Vusumuzi, Aunty
Nomakhwezi.
Bab’Gcaleka: “ubuzosixelela
nini ngomngcwabo? (When
were you going to tell us
about the funeral?)”
I guess I will just listen.
Bab’Vusumuzi: “ukuba
besingayibonanga ezindabeni
kuyacaca ukuba besingazi nto
ngokusweleka komtshana
wethu. (If we didn’t see it
on the news it’s clear that
we were not going to know
anything about the passing
on of our nephew)”
Aunty Nomakhwezi:
“nikhohlakele (You are cruel)”
Bongiwe: “with all due
respect my elders, but it is
not our problem not to inform
you it is your problem because
you decided to neglect your
nephew after he lost his
both parents you chose
separate ways and leave him
here by himself not even
worrying what will happen to
him when he is alone, but
here you are causing chaos at
his funeral day it shows that
you don’t respect him at all”
Aunty Nomakhwezi: “kwaye
wena? (And you are?)”
Bongiwe: “Bongiwe Ntlebi,
Bongani’s wife and mother of
his daughter”
Bab’Gcaleka: “Ntombazana
yomZulu ngokudelela kgaa,
ngubani owakunika imvume
yokumngcwaba apha? (Zulu
girl disrespecting us, who
gave you the permission to
bury him here?)”
Aunty Nomakhwezi: “ude
athethe nathi isilungu
siseMatatiele not ezidolophini
(she is even speaking English
with us we are in Matatiele
not in the cities)
Bongiwe: “if you have time
you can go and dig him out of
his grave and bury him
where you want, please close
the door on your way out”
Bab’Gcaleka: “uyasigxotha?
(Are you kicking us out?)”
Aunty Nomakhwezi: “asiyi
ndawo yindlu ka Bongani le
ayingowakho (we are not
going anywhere this is
Bongani’s house not yours)”
Bab’Vusumuzi: “Ndicinga
ukuba kungcono ukuba
sihambe igqwetha lethu
lizojongana naye (I think it is
better if we go our lawyer
will deal with her)
Bongani: “I am ready for
anything, bye-bye”
They walked out busy
mumbling something.
Vuyolwethu: “haaa Bongiwe
kanthi unje?”
We just laughed.
Me: “you really shocked me I
didn’t expect that from her,
but we all know what comes
after ‘with all due respect’.”
Bongiwe: “I won’t let them
just walk over my head and
tell me what and what not
to do”
Anathi: “to Bongiwe!!”
We raised our glasses.
Someone knocks at the door.
Us: “come in”
The door opened, the black
skinned lady walked in
wearing a dark blue dress
that hugs her body she is so
beautiful and she is even
pregnant, she looks like those
models that appears that
Fashion shows and the way
she walks. I turned to look
at Bongiwe and she looked so
pissed maybe she knows her.
Her: “hey ladies, I am
Nolwandle Zulu. Bongani’s
girlfriend and soon to be his
baby mama”
Bongani’s what? Bongani
cheated on Bongiwe and
didn’t even bother telling me
or one of us.
Bongiwe: “I know you wena
skhebereshe”
I wanted to laugh by I
controlled myself.
Nolwandle: “I know his
lawyer is going to arrive
anytime so I want to hear
how much I’m I getting”
I wish I didn't compliment
her. If Vuyolwethu’s eyes
can kill Nolwandle would be
dead right now.
Bongiwe: “yes he is coming sit
down and wait, maybe o tla
popa itsi nyana who knows?”
She took her seat next to
Anathi, she was busy rubbing
her tummy and that made
Anathi to be emotional she
might be having flashbacks
of her miscarriages.
Bongiwe’s phone rings and
she got up to open the door
she walked back with
Bongani’s lawyer Sizwe
Kunene holding his briefcase.
Sizwe: “Sanibonani. I’ll be
quick and brief, as I have
elsewhere to be so I will
read the will and end with
the letter to Miss Nolwandle
Zulu. This is last will and
testament of Bongani Ntlebi.
In the event of my death, I
leave all my assets, including
life insurance policies, funeral
policies, pension, any money
left in my account and my
properties to my wife
Bongiwe and my daughter
Luthando Zinzi. I also leave
sum of R1 million to my
unborn baby. Lastly l leave
100% share of my farm to
my three friends Lindokuhle,
Anathi, Vuyolwethu and my
wife Bongiwe each will take
25%. Bongiwe my dear don't
even bother yourself by
wearing mourning clothes,
just wear anything you want
after the ritual”
So he really knew about the
baby, but good news is I am
now a shareholder of the
biggest farm in Matatiele.
Sizwe: “To Nolwandle Zulu, I
will make it short my dear
you deserve no cent from me
as you are not worthy. As for
drugging me at my party and
taking advantage of me was
extreme, I want full custody
of my baby, Sizwe will give
you the papers to sign don’t
try anything funny Nolwandle.
Lindo please if she does
anything stupid to my family
deal with her. After giving
birth hand that baby to my
wife and I say it again don’t
try anything funny. Thank
you and so long. Bongani”
Wow, talk about being blunt
straight from the grave, as
for dealing with her that’s
the request I won’t refuse.
Nolwandle was so quiet.
Bongiwe: “cat caught your
tongue now, Nolwandle?”
She just kept quiet and
signed the paper as she
made her way out.
Sizwe: “my work here is done,
bye”
Me: “bye, so Bongiwe you
knew about Nolwandle?”
Bongiwe: “yes she confessed
everything two days after
Bongani’s party, we even
confirmed it with paternity
test and it is true she is
carrying Ntlebi. But what
worries me is her tummy is
big for someone who is 3
weeks pregnant I think she
is carrying twins.”
Now I get it why Bongani
just gone AWOL on his
birthday and he said he
needed fresh air.
Anathi: “some girls don’t
have dignity, she went extra
mile to get Bongani’s money
but dololo”
Vuyolwethu: “you can say
that again”
Bongiwe: “enough about that
gold digger, we are farm
squad now”
Anathi: “to us”
We raised our glasses one
last time, I just hope there
won’t be another drama
after this one.

Since we were bored we

decided to help other ladies
with pots and dishes.
They are so many.

We finished around 19:00 and

my feet are killing me, we
decided to sleep since are
going back home tomorrow, I
miss Busani.
INSECT 32

We woke up at 07:00 and we

are ready to go so we took
our bags to the car and said
our goodbyes.
Bongiwe has to stay since
there must be a cleansing
ritual to be done and also she
must shave her hair along
with Luthando.
We travel all the way to
airport we can afford to
drive 16h28m to Cape Town.
We found Private Jet already
waiting for us we got in as
they were loading the car in
a plane that is going to Cape
Town. We buckle ourselves,
the pilot pulled over and we
are on air.
Banzi: “now ladies how does
it feels to be shareholders of
the biggest farm in
Matatiele?”
I think Anathi told him
during pillow talk.
Me: “honestly speaking I am
confused and happy at the
same time”
Vuyolwethu: “me too, I mean
I don’t know anything about
farming or a farm all I know
is being a lawyer”
She doesn’t even know that
she is working at Sticks’s law
firm called Mbambo &
Associates.
Banzi: “there is a first time
for everything don’t be
scared”
Vuyolwethu: “just like it was
your first time slaughtering
the cow and you eventually
did the opposite”
We just laughed.
Banzi: “I was trying to be
nice”
We talked about farms we
even did our research since
network was back before we
arrive at the Airport.
We arrived at the airport
and Banzi started his car,
off we go.
We arrived at my house and
they dropped Vuyolwethu and
I, they drive back to
Eswatini.
Me: “home sweet home”
Busani came out of the
kitchen running as he hear
my voice, Vuyolwethu went
straight upstairs to pick up
her remaining stuff.
He picked me up.
Busani: “I missed you”
He kissed me all over my
face, I guess he really
missed me.
Me: “I missed you too babe”
Vuyolwethu walked down the
stairs holding her car keys
and bag.
Vuyolwethu: “bye-bye my
couple see you around”
She walked out.
I walked upstairs to change
since I have unfinished
business to attend. I didn’t
notice Busani following me.
He sneaks up behind me with
his hands on my wrist as we
made our way to the
bedroom.
Busani: “l really missed you”
He says with his hands
running up my thigh. He
turns me around, picks me up
and pins me against the wall.
He pulls my dress up till I
took it off while kissing me.
He pushes my underwear
aside and enters me in one
swift push, I moan louder as
he goes faster.
We are busy having fun I
even forgot that I have to
go. He placed me on the bed
and went to bathroom to
turn the tap on, he walked
out and picked me. He placed
me inside the tub and seat
behind me, as he was
washing my back.
Me: “I have to go to
Johannesburg to kill those
bastards”
Busani: “thought you forgot
about it, but I will leave the
keys to your security when I
go back to my house”
I will never forget about it,
I am going to miss him and
I love how humble he is.
We finished up and walked
out with towels. We lotion
our body and walked into the
closet and I wore white crop
top, black jean, black nike
jersey, put on my black roll up.
Took out my black Nike kicks.
Busani: “my gangster”
I blushed a bit. Walked out
to take my guns.
Busani: “I would like to say
be careful but no gangster
needs to hear those words”
Me: “I’m glad you still
remember the motto of
gangsters”
I opened my drawer and took
2 shortguns and loaded them
with bullets.
Busani: “I won’t forget it,
sounds like your helicopter is
here already”
Me: “I love you, bye”
I hugged him, walked out
and used the secret entrance
to the roof. I made this
house to be this big enough
for helicopter to be able to
land on rooftop.
I got in and greeted my pilot
as I buckle myself.
Pilot: “are you ready,
ma’am?”
Me: “yes”
I gave him the location, the
next thing we are on air.
INSECT 33

We landed where the

warehouse is, since it is open
space and big enough for
helicopters.
I walk out holding my guns.
I find the gang outside the
warehouse busy smoking
except for Cheese boy he was
busy drinking water I guess
that it how you should be
went you become a doctor and
we gave him that name for
a reason.
Me: “Eita majita (Hey guys)”
Them: “sho sho boss lady”
Me: “let me walk in and finish
them off, please hold this
jersey for me it’s about to be
fun”
Sticks took my jersey.
Numbers: “o skaba hemisa
(don’t give them a break),
we placed different tools on
the table for you”
I opened the door and walked
slowly in, the moment they
see me they start panicking
and Vusi even piss on his
pants.
Me: “Vusi maVusana kore a
keso atomele mara sentse o
shaya 69 (Vusi maVusana I
haven’t approached you but
you are already pissing on
your pants)”
I looked at them as I get
closer, I notice the other one
looks like Kwanele maybe he
is Vukani and the one in
between must be Xolane the
spiderman.
I took the chair and seat
opposite to them.
Me: “before the party begins,
tell me your reasons why you
did all that”
Vusi: “I will start, honestly
speaking I didn’t know that
they were going to plant
that bomb I thought they
are looking for you”
They look at him.
Me: “whether you are lying or
not, you are going to die
today. Next”
Xolane: “Vukani was
blackmailing me so I had to
do something for him to keep
quit”
Vukani: “I did what l did
because you killed my brother
and took all his money”
He has disgusting attitude I
guess he took it from
Kwanele.
Me: “why le tshokgile soo
(Why are you guys so scared)
loosen up guys I don’t bite, I
kill. Xolane I get you, Vukani
you are correct my brother
‘his money’ not your money
and as for killing him I didn’t
let’s just say it was his time
to die”
He tries to hit me but the
chains are stopping him.
Me: “nice try, Vusi I know you
are lying, now answer me, did
he pay you more than
Ngonyama’s?”
He nodded his head.
Me: [chuckles] “enough about
pep talk, now back to
business. You do know that on
Earth you live by the sword
you die by the sword right?
Vukani I will turn you into
braai pack like how my friend
burned in that car, our
spiderman Xolane say goodbye
to your legs and hands, Vusi
that tongue of yours will
better if it is out because
ukhuluma kakhulu and those
eyes of yours that see
everything just blink and
admire everything because it
will be your last time. Easy
neah?”
They were shaking, I placed
my guns on the table and
start preparing my tools I
wear forensics clothes, so
that my clothes don’t get
stained. Put on some gloves.
Me: “I will start with you
Vukani and end with you Vusi,
say your last prayers.”
I took out the petrol,
pushed Vukani back to the
corner and pour the petrol all
over his body and set him
alight. He was screaming as
he is burning and he is still in
chains, I want him to feel
the pain Bongani felt.
Me: “now to you Xolane”
Xolane: “I am so sorry, please
forgive me”
Me: “I wish I can, but I
can’t”
I cover my face with face
mask, I pick hummer from
the table and place his hands
on the table chopped out his
two hands, he couldn’t even
cry because of pain. I took
chainsaw out of the drawer
and plug it, return to him as
I place his legs on the chair,
cut them off. When I am
done with him I pushed him
back.
Me: “last one Vusi, tongue
mie bra”
Vusi: “I promise I will
change Sis Lindo, just give
me last change”
Me: “I CAN’T HEAR YOU,
tongue please”
He didn’t hesitate, I picked
the small scissor and cut the
tongue out, I just made him
blind with the same scissor.
They’re all screaming, I took
out my gun and shoot them
twice.
I walked into a small
bathroom and took off the
thing I was wearing and
gloves. Washed my face since
there are dots of blood on my
face.

I walked out to the gang.

Me: “done, burn this
warehouse and make sure it
burns. Bye”
My helicopter was still here
all the time so I walked back
to it and get inside. I have
received the closure I
needed, I will sleep peacefully
tonight knowing that people
behind that bomb are gone.
I arrived home around 21:00
and I decided to take my
beauty sleep after a long
shower playing Man down by
Rihanna that is my favorite
song after killing but on
♪Rum-pum-pum-pum.
Rum-pum-pum-pum.
Rum-pum-pum-pum.
Man down♪ verse only.
Because I’ve only killed men
so far not women.
INSECT 34

NARRATED

In Johannesburg-Houghton,
where Lindokuhle was born.
Tlotliso: “Good morning mom”
Nomeva: “Good mor…what
happened to your face this
time?”
Tlotliso: “oh this? I slipped
this morning and hit my
study table with my face”
Novema: “be careful next
time, let me get you some
pills and ice”
Tlotliso: “no mom it’s not
that bad. Who is
Lindokuhle?”
She was shocked like how
does he know her?
Nomeva: “Lindokuhle was
just a girl we used to live
with but unfortunately she
died 13 years ago, now eat
your breakfast before you go
to school”
He looked at her not
convinced about what she
said.
Tlotliso: “I am not hungry
and change of plans I am not
going to school today”
He walked out of the kitchen
while Nomeva was still
shouting, walk in Lindo’s old
bedroom and locked himself
inside, he took out his phone
and searched Lindokuhle
Dlamini since he knew her
surname when he was busy
reading her old letters she
used to write.
‘Lindokuhle Dlamini, she is a COO
of one of the biggest holdings in
Cape Town called Ngonyama
Holdings owned by Benginkosi
Nyomana. She is now a new
shareholder of the well-known farm
in Matatiele that was owned by her
late friend Bongani Ntlebi. She is
being accused so many times for
hijacking, being a drug dealer and
killing people but no one found a
valid proof for all of that.’
Tlotliso: “so my mother is
lying about her death. I’ve
been my father’s punching
bag for years he said no one
will believe me if I don’t
believe him I should ask
Lindo what happened to her
after he raped her, like my
whole father is treating me
like this. I won’t tell my
mother it’s clear she won’t
believe me if she didn’t
believe my sister. One day I
will be with you sis. I hope
the baby my mother is
carrying right now doesn’t
fall on that monster’s hands”
He opened Lindo’s side
drawer and took out those
many letters and read them
again.
Nomeva: “Tlotliso o hokae?
Ntate wa hao o batla ho bua
le wena (Tlotliso where are
you? Your father wants to
talk to you)”
He just kept quiet and hide
himself inside the wardrobe.
INSECT 35

BANZI

I was sleeping peacefully to

the point I could feel that
the bed is wet like there
were rain clouds in our room,
I turned and looked at
Anathi sitting in a pool of
water I got out of bed and
look at her.
Me: “Babe o shaye 69 (you
pissed) on the bed?”
She just looked at me with a
bombastic sight eye.
Anathi: “it’s not funny, I had
a bad dream”
She was even crying.
Banzi: “going to toilet?”
She looked at me again.
Me: “I’m just kidding, talk to
me babe”
Anathi: “I had a dream of
the first queen holding two
babies in her both hands. She
was standing near the river
baptizing them, then when
she was busy, woman
wearing black feathery
clothes looking like a witch
appeared and pushed her and
the babies into the river, the
more the babies where crying
I was kinda drowning in
water spiritually. That
woman just laughed as she
was watching them drowning
in the river, then this
happened, how? I don’t
know.”
Wow, I am just shocked.
Me: “I am sorry babe, let’s
go take a shower I will
change everything later.”
We got inside and she was
still crying, but I managed to
calm her down with my magic
touch.
Banzi: “I think we should go
see the royal seer
Dub’indabakho to tell us the
meaning of that dream”
Anathi: “you know I don’t
believe in such things but I
will go”
We got out and lotion
ourselves, wore normal
clothes not royal attire I
just hate it for no reason and
walked out.
We found my father with
Dud’indabakho maybe he
knew we might need him.
Me: “Sawubona (Good
morning)”
Dud’indabakho: “Inkhosana
Kanye nenkhosatana,
ngilapha kute ngininone
(prince and the princess, I
am here to see you)”
My father walked out leaving
the three of us in the lounge.
Banzi: “Bewati yini kutsi,
besitawukushayela? (Did you
know that we were going to
call you?)”
Dud’indabakho: “Kukhona
lokutsite lokufana naloku,
Anathi ubonakala uphansi
(something like that, Anathi
you seem to be down)”
Anathi told him about her
dream.
Dud’indabakho: “Nganginalo
liphupho lelifanako futsi
akusiko kungevani kutsi
kusicwayiso lesivela
kubokhokho, ngisho nobe
bangangitjeli lutfo kodvwa
konkhe lengingakusho kuwe
kutsi kukhona lokubi
lokwentekako kuwe futsi
unganaki kutsi yini
Ikhosikati Lenkhulu
leyakutjela yona emalangeni
lambalwa lengcile,
ngalesikhatsi ilapha (I had a
similar dream and it is not a
coincidence it is a warning
from ancestors, as much as
they don’t show me
everything but all I can say
to you is that something bad
is happening to you and don’t
ignore what the Queen
Mother said to you few days
ago when she was here)”
She is seeing dead people.
Anathi: “Cha,
lokungikhatsatako kutsi utsi
kufanele ngibacaphele bantfu
lengikhulume nabo kulendlu (I
am not, what worries me is
that she said I must be
careful of the person I talk
to in this house)”
Dud’indabakho: “Hlale
ucaphela ngaso sonkhe
sikhatsi, yenta indvodza
yakho ibe ngumngani wakho
lomkhulu. Yenta kube nguye
yedvwa lowatiko konkhe
lokwentekako kuwe, uze
utfole kutsi iNdlovukati
Make bekakhuluma ngabani.
Sebentisa lamakhandlela bese
uwabeka ekamelweni lakho
bese uyathandaza kube
sengatsi kuphila kwakho
kuncike kuwo. Banzi, nawe
ungahlanganyela naye (Just
be careful all the time, make
your husband your bestfriend
let him be the only one who
knows everything that is
happening to you until you
find out who the Queen
Mother was referring to, use
this candles and place them
around your room and pray
like your life depends on in.
Banzi you can join her)”
After that being said my
mother walked in maybe she
was eavesdropping or not.
Nomasonto: “Sawubona (Good
morning)”
She just walked out not even
waiting for us to greet her
back, maybe she is rushing
somewhere.
Dud’indabakho: “Khumbula
kungatjeli muntfu lokukhona
lapha endlini ngisho
neNdlovukati neNkhosi, Kanye
nabo bonkhe labasita nobe
labagadzi. Angimetsembi
kakhulu Nkhosikati nobe
mhlwumbe sengicabanga
kakhulu ngalendzaba
(Remember not to say
anything to anyone in this
house even queen and king,
and all helpers or guards. I
just don’t really trust the
queen, or maybe I am over
thinking this situation)”
Anathi: “Kulungile (okay)”
She walked out holding
candles and walked straight
upstairs she didn’t even
touch her food.
Banzi: “Siyabonga
Dub’indabakho sitakwenta
njengobe usiyalile (Thank you
Dud’indabakho we will do as
you instructed us)”
Dud’indabakho: “Mtjele kutsi
akacime lamakhandlela,
angawashayi (And tell her to
let those candles to burn out
don’t even blow them)”
Banzi: “Ngiyavuma, ube
nelusuku loluhle (I will, have
a nice day)”
Dud’indabakho: "Thokoza”
He walked out.
I walked back upstairs and
found Anathi praying so I
decided to knee next to her so
that we can pray together.
The thing that I love about
a prayer woman in her
feminine energy, she
understands that I’m the
head and she is the neck and
Jesus, God is the only person
we answer to. She is really
my prayer worrier, and I
know when I am down God
receives prayers from her,
she always pray for us, our
marriage and every challenge
we face.
INSECT 36

LINDO

I went to my study since I

am working from home today,
when I was busy with my
online meetings Nosipho
knocks.
Nosipho: “sorry to disturb you
madam, but there are
policeman downstairs looking
for you”
Police? I just wonder who
bad mouthed me this time.
Me: “okay, tell them I will
join them in a minute”
I decided to pause my
meeting I will lie to them
and tell them my network
was bad. I walked
downstairs and found two
policemen standing near my
door.
Me: “Officers”
Detective1: “Miss Dlamini, I
am Detective Shongwe and I
am with my colleague here
Detective Radebe, we are
here to take your statement
about the accident your late
friend Bongani had, re ka
dula? (Can we sit?)”
Waste of time, and why this
time.
Me: “le ka dula, le batla drink
kapa metsi? (You may sit, do
you want drink or water?)”
Radebe: “drink please”
Shongwe: “no thanks, I am
fine”
I walked to the kitchen and
return with glass filled with
orange drink.
Radebe: “ke ya leboha (thank
you)”
Shongwe: “now tell us
anything or anyone you
suspect about the bomb so
that we can use your
statement to arrest the
suspects”
They will arrest people who
are now ashes in
Johannesburg?
Me: “unfortunately I don’t
suspect anything or anyone
since I don’t have enemies
and Bongani didn’t have any
enemies wanting him dead”
Radebe: “are you sure Miss
Dlamini, we are talking about
the serious case here think
before you talk”
They are starting to annoy
me.
Me: “I swear to God who
strengthen me, I don’t know
anyone who wanted me dead
or my friend”
I even did a cross with my
fingers, I will be a perfect
actor when they take me.
Shongwe: “okay, we
understand but we will
continue looking for any
evidence that might lead to
the people behind that bomb.
Thank you for your time,
have a nice day”
They walked out, I took out
my phone and dialled
Dlakadla’s numbers.
Dlakadla: “miss hide and seek,
it’s been a while. Where are
you hiding yourself?”
I just laughed.
Me: “I am always around
Bafo, I need your favour”
Dlakadla: “name it”
Me: “Two detectives were
here few seconds ago, to
take my statement
Detectives Shongwe and
Detectives Radebe. I want
you to throw that case
docket away, those people
may dig something and they
will find that I killed people
behind that bomb”
Dlakadla: “nxah those two,
they are lazy they won’t
even reach to that level,
they just wanted to impress
Superintended that they can
handle big cases and since you
didn’t give them anything
solid they won’t continue
with the case. But I will
throw it away before they
hand that case to someone
else”
Me: “thank you, bye”
Dlakadla: “have a nice day
Lindo”
He hanged up and I walked
back to my study.
Me: “I am sorry for
inconvenience, I’ve been
having network problems
lately but it is fine now”
They did believe me, and we
proceed with our meeting.
It was just short meeting,
I decided to skype
Qhawekazi I just miss her.
Qhawekasi: “Mrs Ngwenya”
Me: “we are not married or
even engaged”
Qhawekazi: “you look cute
when you blush you know
right?”
Me: “whatever, and that
background doesn’t look like
Bab’Ngonyama’s house, are
you married Qhawekazi?”
Qhawekazi: “no silly, I
bought myself a penthouse I
just want my own space”
All along I thought
Qhawekazi lives at her
daddy’s house but I was
wrong.
Me: “I know it is peaceful
living in your own house, did
you tell your father?”
Qhawekazi: “no, I just don’t
like how he designed it,
firstly it was his office now
his house”
Me: “it’s not that bad as you
say, but I won’t argue with
your decision my dear”
Qhawekazi: “maybe you are
used to it. When are you
coming back to work? We
miss you.”
Me: “probably next week I
just need another week off,
do you miss me or do you miss
teasing me?”
Qhawekazi: “it must be good
being you. Both I guess, but
honestly we miss you and
good news is they managed
to fix the pipes so everything
is right don’t need to worry
about it”
Me: “I miss you too, I was
little worried you know.”
Qhawekazi: “I was also
worried, don’t you know what
kind of business trip my
father took?”
I can’t tell her the truth.
Me: “no I don’t know”
Qhawekazi: “it is kinda
strange for him to take a
business trip that takes 3
months, or maybe I am just
overthinking it”
Me: “yes, you are
overthinking it, if he was
going somewhere except
going on a business trip he
was going to tell you”
Qhawekazi: “I guess you are
right, I have to go bye”
She blow kisses and hang up.

I just walked to my book

shelf and picked It Ends
With Us by Colleen Hoover,
one of my favourite author.
She really deserve her
flowers she is one of the
best female authors I know,
she really out did herself in
that book even though it is
emotional and people be like
‘it’s just a book, don’t be
dramatic’. Basically the novel
tells the story of Lily Bloom
and her doomed romance with
Ryle Kincaid and traces her
past history growing in an
abusive home, her fall into an
abusive relationship, and her
escape from that
relationship. It’s a thought-
provoking read.
I just read few pages before
I go to my room to take a
nap.
INSECT 37

Things have been good in the

presence of Busani, we just
make each other happy no
matter what.
We have a month and 4
weeks dating and honestly
speaking I don’t regret
being his girlfriend, and yeah
I’ve been doing regular
check-ups but there is no luck
of making babies I guess I
have to wait until the time
is right. I’ve got my new
baby Lambo even though it
is red not black, I miss
Bongani every single day. It
is my birthday tomorrow, and
it is September baby.

I woke up next to my
handsome man still sleeping,
I slept over his place last
night, when I was about to
get out of the bed he pulled
me.
Busani: “babe, where are you
going?”
Me: “to take a shower, I
want to go to the mall to
buy grocery”
Busani: “I will go with you”
We got out of the bed and
walked straight to the
bathroom and took a long
shower together.
When we’re done we wore
matching Adidas t-shirts and
Adidas tracksuit, I fixed my
hair.
He took his car keys and we
walk out, he doesn’t have any
helper cleaning his house I
guess he doesn’t want anyone
disturbing his peace.
We got inside his car and off
we got to V&A Waterfront
mall.
We just went to Woolworths
only and our last stop was at
Mugg and Bean to crap some
coffee.
We walked out busy sipping
our coffee when we were
busy walking to parking lot,
I see familiar walk as this
person approach I notice
that he is Xhaba, Xhaba my
ex fiancé.
He is walking towards me I
am so pissed I don’t wanna
lie. Then he stand in front of
me and greet Busani.
Xhaba: “Mr Ngwenya and
Miss Dlamini”
Busani: “Xhaba”
Oh they know each other, I
even notice that there is no
ring on his finger, trouble in
paradise so early.
Me: “sho Xhaba”
Xhaba: “I didn’t know that
you are dating with Lindo”
Me: “haibo, o ne o batla re
advertise, hore o be o tsebe
or re etseng? Bua. (Did you
want us to advertise it, so
that you can know or what
should we do? Talk)”
Xhaba: “oh my bad, I just
wanted to see if you are still
fine”
Me: “you can see I am fine
thank you, bye”
He walked away.
Busani: “so you know the
Mayor?”
Me: “yeah he is my ex fiancé”
Busani: “fiancé?”
Me: “yes he left me at our
wedding day”
Busani: “I didn’t know, but I
promise I won’t do the same
thing he did”
Me: “I know babe, now
enough about Xhaba. Let’s go
home and please drop me at
my house I have work to do”
We arrived at the parking lot
and loaded the grocery inside
the car, I just love his car
more than my cars.
He dropped me off and when
I get inside I see several
missed calls from unknown
number, I used my Truecaller
and they belong to Mr
Khumalo, I last I check that
is Xhaba’s surname where did
he get my numbers so quick?
He is up to something. I
took out my grocery and place
things where they belong
when I was busy with the
grocery I hear my phone
ringing and it is the same
numbers, I decided to pick it
up.
Me: “ufunani Xhaba? (What
do you want Xhaba?)”
Xhaba: “I want you
Lindokuhle, I want you to be
my wife and I promise I
won’t mess up this time”
Me: “ain’t you supposed to be
cuddling with your wife or
bonding?”
Xhaba: “she divorced me last
year”
I just laughed at him.
Me: “but you deserve it and
I don’t even feel sorry for
you”
Xhaba: “I know I am the
last person you want in your
life but I miss us Lindo, and
I am willing to do anything
to get you back”
I will put him on my To-Do
list, because I know he will
do something that will push
me to kill him.
Me: “don’t try anything
stupid if you don’t want to
die”
He doesn’t know that I am a
gangster.
Xhaba: “like I said I am
willing to do anything, I can
even take a bullet for you”
Me: “good bye Xhaba and stop
dreaming”
I hanged up.
I know he is just saying it he
won’t do anything he is just a
mayor, he is not someone I
have to trace his movements
and things he is up to or he
is really up to something, I
will just wait and see what
he is willing to do.
I guess you are wondering
how a whole gangster dated
a Mayor, so we first met at
University before Vuyolwethu
and Anathi became my
friends he was my first lover
I was going to say my virgin
breaker if that bustard
called my step father didn’t
rape me. So he was doing his
second year and I was doing
my first year when we
started dating, he showed
me around there and there
we even went on couple dates
we were known as beautiful
couple in WITS so he
proposed at my graduation
day it was beautiful I don’t
want to lie, but still he broke
my heart at our wedding day
when he just left without a
valid reason I only received a
text message from him
saying ‘I’m sorry’ and I don’t
why did he even chose to be a
Mayor while he was studying
Computer Science specialised
in IT. As for the lobola
negotiations my gang
pretended to be my uncles
but except for Sticks he
pretended to be my father
and I told them that my
mother died, and Xhaba’s
uncles they were convinced
about that even Xhaba was
convinced, they had to be
convinced because we did a
makeover to them so that
they can look old.
Enough about Xhaba, I have
work to do. So I changed into
‘Saturday Clothes’ and took
my GTI keys, I went
straight to the Lounge.
I found them busy talking
and laughing.
Me: “hey gents”
Them: “bozza yama bozza”
Me: “we have big delivery to
do, to one of our buyers Mr
Aldo Rossi”
Numbers: “from Italy?”
Me: “yes, so he wants two
full bags with 3 different
drugs. Angel dust, Amyl
nitrate and CAT. You still
remember that he gave us
fake diamonds last year and
we just made him think he
won? So now it is our turn to
strike, we are going to place
bricks at the bottom of each
bag then the drugs on top to
cover those bricks, we are
placing those bricks because
drugs do make the bags to
be heavy. Ra utlwana? (Are
we clear?)”
Them: “sho bozza”
Sticks: “he thought we’ve
forgot about it kanthi nix
(but no) we are about to
make him taste his own
medicine”
Me: “exactly, so we will meet
his guys at harbour probably
they are coming with their
ship”
Cheese boy: “to fetch bricks”
we just laughed.
Spitjo: “we must be prepared
for when he attack us”
Me: “he started it then he
will end it, we must show him
who we really are. Now let’s
work guys”
We started working and
placed those bricks in a right
way and drugs on top and zip
the bags.
INSECT 38

We arrived at the harbour

just in time and his 6 guys
are already waiting for us.
We handed them the bags
and they opened them before
giving us our money.
They looked at each other
impressed and talk their
language.
Guy1: “Grazie (thank you)”
Cheese boy: “Prego (you are
welcome)”
They handed us two bags,
Numbers opened them and
they are full of money
meaning Euro since that is
the currency in Italy.
We went back to our car since
we used one car.
Numbers: “eeh Mlongo since
when do you speak Italian,
because last year you didn’t
respond them?”
Cheese boy: “it’s been a while,
I am still learning it though”
Sticks: “you never stop
shocking us Mlongo”
We just laughed, but to be
honest I never thought he
can speak it but what I can
say about him is that he
learn fast, I mean a whole
coloured knowing different
languages like Sesotho, Zulu,
Xhosa, even Italian but what
is funny is how he pronounce
Sotho words.
Spitjo: “you will be our
translator mazishuba”
Cheese boy: “you can count on
me”
We went back to the lounge,
and placed the money on the
table.
Spitjo: “sibambi iLotto (we’ve
won lotto)”
It is just lot of money
imagine when we exchange it
to our currency.
Numbers: “I know we are
rich but now we are extra
rich if there is extra rich in
English but oksalayo siRich
(we are rich)”
Me: “It will take days for
them to reach Italy unless if
they came with that idiot
son of his called Antonio he
sniffs everything that is off”
Sticks: “we must be prepared
for the war”
Cheese boy: “but his father
started it and we just led
him think he played us with
those fake diamonds”
Spitjo: “we start it, we end
it”
Numbers: “Big Five!!!!!!!!”
We raise our glasses.
I left them busy counting
the money and went straight
to my house, when I got to
the door I notice that it is
opened I wonder how did this
person pass the security, I
took my gun and tip toe
inside the house. I smell
familiar cologne, then Busani
appeared.
Busani: “hee madoda”
He just laughed.
Me: “I was going to kill you,
and I didn’t see your car
outside”
Busani: “I can see, ohh
Ifalethu dropped me. Are
you hungry? I’ve ordered ribs
and chicken you will chose”
Me: “I will eat both of
them”
He looked at me shocked.
Busani: “babe are you sure
you are not pregnant? I
mean you’ve been eating a lot
this days, are you aware?”
Me: “no, and I am not
pregnant”
I just can’t find perfect time
to tell him the whole truth.
He took out the plate and
dish up.
He gave me my food and sit
opposite to me.
Me: “staring is rude especially
when I am eating”
Busani: “you look beautiful
when you eat, in fact when
you do everything”
Me: “not when I am angry”
Busani: “I don’t know I will
tell you when I see you, I did
a little surprise for you
upstairs so finish up.
I did as he said and placed
the plate inside the dish
washer and rush upstairs,
when I open the door I see
flower pedals going straight
to the bathroom so I
followed them and open the
door, there are scented
candles on the floor he even
placed some pedals inside the
tub he even used giant
intergalactic bath bomb
because the water is colorful
and smell so refreshing, he
placed bottle of wine, glasses
and fruits on top of the
bathroom tray. I feel his
hands around my wrist.
Busani: “take this as your
early birthday gift”
It’s so beautiful.
I took out my clothes and
got inside and he took his
clothes off and get inside
with me.
Me: “thank you”
Busani: “anything for you
babe”
He washed my back busy
kissing my scar, what shock
me about him is that he
doesn’t have any bullet scar.
Busani: “I love your scar
because it remains me of the
scars I had before doing
plastic surgery”
Me: “you did what?”
Busani: “plastic surgery babe,
I had multiple scars from
knife scar to bullet scar I
was so scary babe and you
could tell that I was a real
gangster, but when I
decided to quite I did plastic
surgery”
There is a lot we don’t know
about each other.
We got out of the tub when
the water was getting cold,
we wore our pyjamas even
though I know he is going to
take them out when he is
sleeping.
Me: “did you lock the door?”
Busani: “yes, even if I didn’t
they won’t get inside. Let’s
sleep”
I get under the covers as he
was taking his pyjamas out.
He get in and pull me close.
INSECT 39

Busani: “happy birthday

sunshine”
I hear lot of messages
beeping on my phone.
Me: “it is really a happy one,
thank you”
It is 28 September, finally
I am 28 years old, I check
my phone and birthday
messages from Vuyolwethu,
Anathi, Nosipho, Dineo,
Qhawekazi, Bab’Ngonyama,
Bongiwe, gang, some of my
colleagues, Dlakadla and
Busani’s mother. Yeah I once
talked with his mother only
but via FaceTime, she is so
beautiful, now I know where
Busani got those prince
charming looks. I haven't
met his other mother, since
his father believes in
polygamy.
Busani: “I’ve made you
breakfast and I’ve got little
surprise for you downstairs,
and another one after that”
I am looking forward for
those surprises.
I finished my breakfast and
went to the bathroom to
take a shower.
When I got out I found a
red sparkling dress with a
long slit on my bed, Black
Steven madden heels and
small red box next to it. I
open it, another necklace
with bracelet made with
diamonds only. This necklace
is beautiful than the one I
am wearing, I turn it around,
I see L&B. Then the
bracelet is written 2809.
Busani: “I bought them for
you”
Me: “thank you babe”
I lotion my body and wore
the dress my man bought for
me, it just so perfect it fits
perfectly fine. I looked at
myself in the mirror and I
look beautiful. I put my new
necklace and bracelet on, put
the old necklace inside my
jewels box.
Busani: “you look so beautiful
babe” I just blushed “come
in”
Two ladies walked in holding
makeup and different things
I don’t know.
Busani: “this is Kananelo
Ntsala your makeup artist
and this is Evelyn Van Derk
your hairstylist, do what you
are good at ladies”
He walked out, how did he
get these best hairstylist in
Cape Town so fast? I mean
she has many appointments,
let alone the best makeup
artist in the world, I am
shocked.
Me: “how did he even know
you ladies?”
Kananelo: “he made
appointment last week, so I
didn’t have many
appointments overseas, so
here I am”
Evelyn: “all I can say is that
money can do anything”
Me: “then I guess you are
officially my hairstylist and
makeup artist starting from
today”
I took out two contact cards
and hand them to them.
Kananelo: “it will be my honor
Miss Dlamini for being your
hairstylist”
Evelyn: “me too”
They did what they are good
at and I looked beautiful,
they really know their job. I
didn't do new nails because I
don't really like them.
I put my heels on as I walk
out.
The house is fully decorated,
they are playing birthday
songs I wonder who is a DJ
because Busani doesn’t listen
to this kind of songs,
everyone who send me
birthday wishes is here,
except Busani’s mother and
Bab’Ngonyama because he is
not back yet, and Bongiwe
she is still in Matatiele she is
not back yet, I wonder how
is she surviving there with
that kind of network. The
theme is black and red, so
gents are wearing black
tuxedo while we are wearing
red dresses.
I see his two friends
Ifalethu and Khaya, they
look…let me not compliment I
am dating.
As I walk down they stare
at me and Busani is smiling I
just wish he knows that his
smile just make me weak.
Anathi and Vuyolwethu came
to me running not even
minding that they are
wearing high heels.
Anathi: “happy birthday
bitch”
Vuyolwethu: “are you sure you
are a prayer warrior
Anathi?”
We just laughed.
Vuyolwethu: “happy birthday
babe, you look beautiful.
Another necklace? And
bracelet? Sisobamba inkunzi
wena”
I just laughed at her last
statement.
Anathi: “yes I am, they did
magic on your face and hair
you look so beautiful”
Me: “thank you babes.
Vuyolwethu you can’t be
serious”
Vuyolwethu: “I am joking
hau. So those four handsome
men standing there, who are
they?”
Me: “my gang”
Vuyolwethu: “Mr Mbambo is a
gangster a whole Advocate?
But he still looks hot and
sexy”
Anathi: “someone is lusting
over her boss, so those two
next to your man must be
Ifalethu and Khaya?”
Me: “yes, Banzi will kill you
for just looking at them”
Vuyolwethu: “I might grab
the coloured one if you are
complaining about my boss or
that one holding a glass”
Me: “the one that is holding
a glass is Philano we call him
Numbers and coloured one is
Hennie we call him Cheese
boy, and your boss ‘Mr
Mbambo’ is Sticks so the
other one is Andile we call
him Spitjo”
Busani came and held my
hand when Vuyolwethu was
busy looking at my gang.
Busani: “you look beautiful
birthday girl”
Me: “thank you babe”
He sing a happy birthday
song for me, then they join
him his voice is not that bad
though, he sound like John
Legend.
His friends appear from the
kitchen holding a cake with
four layers, maybe this is the
surprise he was talking
about. It is decorated in a
white colour that have red
and white roses on top, it is
beaded with red beads. I
just love the pattern on it.
Vuyolwethu: “so WHO
WANTS TO EAT SOME
CAKE?!!”
We laughed.
They gave me the knife and
I cut it, made a wish. It is
red velvet on top, vanilla on
second layer, chocolate on
third layer and pink velvet at
the bottom and it taste so
good.
Two chefs walked out of the
kitchen holding food and place
them on the table, different
types of meat, salads and
drinks. I don’t think I will
eat them I am full already.
Busani dish up for me. They
are really delicious, but I only
took one spoon.
We moved to the dance floor
and they played piano songs,
I am not a party animal but
when they play this type of
songs I make a plan. When
we were busy dancing they
change the piano song to
Grow Old with Me by Tom
Odell.
Anathi: “it is time”
Time for what?
♪Grow old with me,
Let us share what we see,
And oh the best it could be,
Just you and I.
And our hands they might
age,
And our bodies will change,
But we’ll still be the same
As we are.♪
As it is still playing I notice
that Busani is no longer next
to me, I turn around and
notice that he on his knee.
What is going on? He took
out a small box looking like my
dress and open it, I see a
diamond ring, the beautiful
diamond ring I’ve ever seen.
This can’t be happening.
Busani: “Lindokuhle Dlamini,
from the moment I met you,
I knew that you were
someone special. You light up
my world in ways that I
never thought possible. Your
beauty inspire me every day
to be a better person. You
are my best friend, my
partner and my soulmate. As
I stand here before you, I
am filled with so much love
and gratitude for the
memories we’ve created and
the dreams we’re still to
fulfil. I want to spend the
rest of my life making you
happy, supporting your
dreams and building a future
together. Let’s just put
Dlamini surname aside and
use Ngwenya surname until
death do us apart. Will you
marry me? Will you be my
wife, my companion and my
forever love?”
I am getting emotional now.
Me: “yes, yes, yes, yes. I will
be your wife Busani”
Vuyolwethu is saying my clan
names, I don’t remember
telling her my clan names,
while Anathi is busy taking
videos and pictures.
He smiled and placed the ring
on my finger and slowly kissed
me so passionately. The only
thing that is standing in my
way right now is my past.
Ifalethu: “sister wife,
congratulations”
He is gayish.
Me: “thank you”
He hand shake with his
friends and others.
This is the best birthday
gift ever, even though there
are many gifts next to my
glass coffee table aquariums
waiting for me but this one
takes a cup. And I just love
aquatic species.
Vuyolwethu: “CHOMI!!!
Congratulations”
Anathi: “Congraulations
babe”
Me: “thank you guys”
I am crossing fingers that
history doesn’t repeat itself,
I can’t afford to deal with
another breakup.
Dlakadla: “before ke slaeza
(before I go), let me pass
my congratulations to you my
dear”
Me: “danko ntjaka (thank you
you my buddy)”
He hugged me before he go.
Khaya: “this is called for a
celebration, LET’S
PARTYYYY!!!”
I didn’t expect that.
Vuyolwethu: “that is my
type”
We just laughed her.
They took out 2 bottles of
whiskey, 3 bottles of wine,
icetropez, six pack of Hooch
and six pack of brutal fruit.
I looked at Vuyolwethu.
Vuyolwethu: “eish, ohh those
things… I am the one
responsible”
I knew it, I think the party
just started.
They took out glasses, mind
you we are all going to work
tomorrow but you can’t say
no to alcohol.
INSECT 40

It is not 19:00 yet but

Vuyolwethu and Khaya, they
are both drunk.
Vuyolwethu: “you are making
noise bitches”
We just laughed. I just hope
she doesn’t spill the beans,
because when she is drunk
she tell us secrets.
Khaya: “don’t laugh too loud,
your laugh make me go
crazy”
They can make a good couple.
Vuyolwethu: “please shut up
guys”
I took my phone from coffee
table and make a video, I will
send it to her to watch it
when she is sober.
Anathi: “she won’t make it
to her apartment, even
Khaya”
Me: “they will sleepover and
you too”
Everyone start going home
while Anathi run upstairs to
prepare the rooms.
Anathi: “done”
We took Vuyolwethu upstairs,
while Busani take Khaya.
Me: “haaa she is so heavy”
Anathi: “I am the one who is
supposed to be complaining
not you, because you carry
heavy guns”
Me: “mxm”
We placed her on the bed and
took his shoes off. Cover her
with the blankets, we didn’t
switch the lights off because
when she wake up in dark
room she might scream and
wake us up.
Anathi: “I will sleep with
her”
Me: “Okay, before I go. I
didn’t see you drinking today
why?”
Anathi: “everything just
smell funny and taste bad”
She might be pregnant.
Me: “you know what that
means right?”
Anathi: “Lindo there is no
way I am pregnant, even if
I am I know I will lose this
baby, there is no need to be
happy, i am scared to lose
another one”
Me: “your favorite verse says
I don't know it is from which
scripture but you will tell me,
it says: But there are some
things that you cannot be
sure of. You must take a
chance.If you wait for
perfect weather, you will
never plant your seeds. If
you are afraid that every
cloud will bring rain, you will
never harvest your crops. You
don't know where the winds
blows, and you don't know
how the baby grows in it's
mother's womb. In the same
way you, you don't know what
God will do--and he makes
everything happen”
I know couple verses because
of her, and they do help me
during my downfall.
Anathi: “Ecclesiastes 11:4-5.
People won’t believe me when
I tell them that you are a
gangster and a Queenpin.
But still Lindo it seems like
I’ve lost that faith”
Me: “open that drawer next
to you, you will find first aid
then open it you will find two
pregnancy tests, don’t ask
me why I have them”
She took it out and pee on it.
Anathi: “I guess we have to
wait and see”
Me: “in the meantime let me
go and change”
I walked out, and went to
my bedroom when I open I
hear Busani singing in the
bathroom.
I changed into my pyjamas
and opened the bathroom
door.
Busani: “want to join me?”
He is sitting in a bath tub,
playing Usher songs.
Me: “I wish I could, but I
have to go to Anathi. Don’t
sleep before I come back”
Busani: “okay wifey”
I blushed, not to brag but
this ring is beautiful and
shine brighter under the
lights.
Me: “let me go”
I kissed him and walked back
to Anathi.

She is even sweating, she

must be nervous or scared or
both.
Me: “those are fast
pregnancy tests, you can turn
them over and check”
She took a deep breath and
look at them. She is crying.
Anathi: “they are both
positive, Lindo I am
pregnant”
She is screaming and busy
praying in tongues.
Me: “told you, congratulations
babe. We must be positive
with this one that nothing
will go wrong”
Anathi: “yes, let me make a
call and tell Banzi good news.
Goodnight”
Me: “Goodnight”
We hugged.
I walked out, I just wish
that happiness stays
forever.
I open my door and find Mr
handsome sitting on the bed
busy with his phone.
Busani: “wifey”
Me: “husby”
I don’t know why we using
those names while we are
not yet married, but it feels
like I am Mrs Ngwenya
already. I took out my
sleepers and get under covers
with him, sit still with my
back on the headboard.
Busani: “so I guess what is
left now is lobola so that we
can be officially marriage, I
know I can do all things to
you but the one thing I
really want to do is to change
your surname and make you
Mrs Ngwenya”
I can’t do the makeover I
did at my previous lobola
negotiations because he
knows my gang.
Me: “the lobola part won’t
work”
Busani: “why?”
It’s now or never, so I
decided to tell his everything
from my step father
molesting me, my mother not
believing me, taking lot of
abortion pills to makeover we
did at my previous lobola
negotiation.
To say he is shocked it will be
understatement.
Busani: “I am sorry babe to
hear that, I didn’t know but
as for your step father he
must know that his days are
numbered on Earth I will kill
him myself. I guess we can
just go to Home Affairs and
sign”
He hugged me, I like the
fact that he is speaking like
a real gangster but I won’t
allow him to kill that
motherfucker I will do it. I
never thought of going to
Home affairs but it is a good
idea.
Me: “I won’t allow you to
fight my battles, then we
will wait until I find my
family from my father’s side
to pay lobola. Then after
signing we can adopt a baby
I don’t care about the
gender”
He smile, one of the things
that makes me weak.
Busani: “I know babe but
your battle is my battle, my
parents will be so happy to
have a grandchild. Then we
do it this coming Saturday
right?”
I never thought my life will
move so fast, but I don’t
doubt it.
Me: “yes, Saturday it is”
He pulled me closer and put
his hand inside my underwear.
Me: “we have guests, babe”
Busani: “and they are
sleeping”
He pull out my pyjama shorts
together with my underwear.
Busani: “last birthday gift”
As he say that he goes done
and start massaging my
haven with his tongue, I let
out my moan not minding the
fact that we have visitors
they better put on their
earpods.
He continue playing with my
clit and I cum in his mouth,
he swallow. He got up and
enter me, as I was about to
scream he close my mouth
with his hand, he goes in and
out fast. I am burning, he
collapse on top of me smiling.
Busani: “I love you okay?”
Me: “I love you too”
I thought he is done, he
make me bend with my
tummy and enter me from
behind slowly and gently.
When I was about to cum he
pull out and throw himself
next to me.
Next thing he is fast asleep.
I walked to the bathroom
and wipe myself before I
sleep.
I went back to bed then
light off.
INSECT 41

I woke up around 05:00 and

Busani is still sleeping, so I
decided not to wake him up.
I took a shower and wear my
gown, went downstairs to
make breakfast for everyone.
The house is so clean, maybe
they cleaned it when I was
with Anathi, I went to the
kitchen. I decided to make
toasted bread, fried bacon
and eggs, cut baby tomatoes.
I took out yoghurt and
museli since I don’t know
what they will prefer to eat.
Placed the plates at the
table, I hear Vuyolwethu
laughing, she doesn’t sound
like someone who was drunk
yesterday.
She walked in with Khaya
busy laughing, I love what I
am seeing.
Vuyolwethu: “Good morning
wifey, Smells so good in here”
Khaya: “Good morning sister
wife”
Me: “Good morning, my
people”
They looked at each other
and just laughed.
They took their plates after
dishing for them, and ate.
Khaya: “thank you with
breakfast, see you around”
He walked out.
Me: “hmmm, wena”
Vuyolwethu: “yini? (What?)”
Me: “don’t say yini, I know
that smile Vuyolwethu”
Vuyolwethu: “we are just
friends nothing much, he is
even dating”
Me: “dating not married,
betsa stene ho kgaohe moo
ho kgwehlang”
Vuyolwethu: “bad advisor,
but I like him he has
everything I need in a man”
Me: “go for it, it worth a
try”
Vuyolwethu: “I don’t promise
you anything. Enough about
Khaya, did Anathi told you
the good news?”
Me: “Whatever, yes we did
the test yesterday when you
were fast asleep. I am really
proud of her, I just wish
nothing goes wrong”
Vuyolwethu: “me too”
Anathi walked in followed by
Busani he is even wearing
suit, shit I forgot I have to
change and go to work.
Busani kissed me and took
apple as he walk out.
I left Anathi and
Vuyolwethu at the kitchen
busy eating and rushed
upstairs to change.
I opened the door and found
my clothes on the bed and
already ironed, I might get
used to this. I wore them
and took out my shoes, and
luckily my hairstyle is not
ruined so I did some touch
ups on my face and took my
bag and keys, walked out.
Vuyolwethu: “you’re always
late, there is no need to be in
a hurry.”
Anathi: “you will trip and fell,
and obviously we will laugh at
you”
Mxm.
Me: “Vuyolwethu ain’t you
supposed to be at work or
getting ready”
Vuyolwethu: “my handsome
boss said we shouldn’t come,
and I won’t question him”
I wish I was her.
Me: “Good bye, and Anathi
have a nice trip”
I hugged them as I walk
out.
I went straight to work.
When I get to the reception
I greeted our receptionist
Malefu Mhlambi.
Malefu: “Good morning Miss
Dlamini, there is someone
waiting for you at your office
and he said he made
appointment so I let him in”
Me: “okay thank you”
I just wonder.
I walked straight to my
office and find the door open.
I see Xhaba seating on one of
my chairs busy playing with
one of my pen.
Me: “Xhaba”
He turned with a smile and
get up, try to hug me but I
step back.
Me: “what do you want?”
Xhaba: “I want you Lindo, I
am not going to give up until
I get you”
I scratched my hair with my
left hand so that he can see
the ring.
Xhaba: “since when…”
Me: “that’s none of your
business, thathi isishwapha
sakho uphume please”
Xhaba: “I will get you
Lindokuhle, even if it will
take me years but I won’t
give up”
He walked out, one thing I
hate about obsessed ex he
will do stupid things trying to
get back to me, and in those
years he will be dead if he
provoke me in a bad way.
I placed my bag at my couch
and took a seat, opened my
laptop and open my emails.
When I was busy going
through necessary emails,
Spitjo knocks at the door.
Spitjo: “bozza yam”
Me: “Spitjotjo, dintshang?
(What is going on?)”
He doesn’t always come at
my office unless it is urgent.
Spitjo: “uhm boss lady, I
have bad news. So one of our
guys saw Aldo in Durban, so
he followed him and it seems
like he opened a factory
there, so those drugs he
bought were going to be his
start up drugs so he will
launch it this week Saturday,
and some of his people didn’t
go to Italy they here in
South Africa and they’ve
been here all the time that
ship was just to distract us.”
Me: “he knew how to play
this one. I will meet you guys
at Level’s to make a plan on
how to attack”
Spitjo: “I will inform them,
have a nice day”
He walked out, when
Qhawekazi was standing at
the door, I just hope she
didn’t hear anything.
Qhawekazi: “relax, I didn’t
hear anything I just arrived
when he was saying ‘have a
nice day’”
Pheew that was close.
Qhawekazi: “that ring make
you glow”
Me: “I know”
Qhawekazi: “and that guy
look handsome. What is his
name?”
Me: “Andile, I never heared
you complimenting other man
I thought you are a lesbian”
Qhawekazi: “no, I am not,
and most of people think so I
don’t know why. Tell him he
is handsome”
Me: “because you look like one,
I will give you his numbers to
tell him”
She smiled.
Me: “I am joking, I will tell
him”
Qhawekazi: “mxm”
We just talked, she even
came with her laptop I
guess she is working in my
office today.
INSECT 42

VUYOLWETHU

I am Vuyolwethu Ngozo, I
am 28 years old but I am
the older one. I am from
Tsakane-Gauteng, I still
remember the day my world
shattered into a million
pieces. My mother, the
person I loved and trusted
most, abandoned me, leaving
me in the care of my siblings.
They were too young to
understand, too young to
take on the responsibility of
raising me. I was just a
teenager, lost and alone,
trying to make sense of the
chaos that had become my
life. My mother had chosen to
leave us, to start a new life
with a new husband, without
even a glance back. The pain
of her departure still lingers,
a constant ache that refuses
to subside. I felt unwanted,
unloved, and unworthy. My
siblings did their best to fill
the void, but they were
struggling with their own
emotions, their own sense of
abandonment. I was left to
navigate the treacherous
water of adolescence on my
own, searching for a sense of
belonging, for a sense of self.
But the scars of that day
remain, a reminder of the
fragility of love and the
power of abandonment.
So I was in grade 6 when my
life took a huge turn, I
started being a mother,
father and a sister at the
same time.

It was during June

examination when I went
back home, I found my
mother packing bags inside a
car.
Me: “mama where are we
going?”
Mom: “you are not going
anywhere I am the one who
is leaving, I am going to get
married to someone so he
asked me to move in with
him”
Me: “so you are leaving your
children behind for a man?”
Mom: “I have no choice, and
if I tell him I have 3
daughters he will leave me
and marry another woman”
I was having mixed emotions,
I didn’t know what to say.
Me: “hamba mama, hamba
tjuba bazohlutha phambili.
You chose him over us right?
Then go and live your best
life with him”
I thought my tears and
words will stop her, but she
got inside a car and leave me
with Ntombikayise (8 years
old) and Nobuhle (6 years
old).
I got inside a house that I
called mine by that time, we
were leaving in a 2 room
shack that turn into a
disaster during heavy
rainfall.
I found Nobuhle and
Ntombikayise sleeping, I
decided to cook for us because
she didn’t even bother
cooking for us before she go
and luckily there was still
food left for us, we didn’t
have any fridge and
electricity. So I was cooking
outside and when it is school
day I had to wake up early
to prepare water for us
outside.
Maybe it was around five,
when they woke up.
Nobuhle: “Vuyo umama
ukuphi? (Vuyo where is
mom?)”
Me: “I don’t know”
They started crying, so I lied
to them and tell them she
will be back soon she just
went on a business trip even
though she wasn’t working,
she was hustling and I don't
know hustling how because
the are many hustling ways
in this world.
3 months down the train,
she didn’t come back to check
us or send anyone.
The cupboards started to be
empty by that time, so I
decided to come home with
food I got from school so
that we can eat because
that was our only meal for
the day.
I accepted the situation
that I am a mother to my
siblings, because I was the
one cooking, washing our
clothes.
That thing did disturb me
during June exam and
September exam, my English
teacher Mrs Khuzwayo
noticed that since I was the
top learner in class so I
failed term 2 and 3.
Mrs Khuzwayo: “Vuyo you are
dropping, what is going on?”
Me: “nothing ma’am it was
just a minor mistake, I
promise I will pick up”
I lied to her, because I
didn’t want anyone knowing
about my situation. During
break I went to library to
get a book to read when I
am bored, so I took a book
called Eye On The Road by
Michell C. Clark.
When I was busy reading it
I came across a page that
crapped my attention it says
‘Keep going, because the best
is yet to come.
Keep going, because you’re
stronger than you think you
are.
Keep going, because every
step forward brings you one
step closer to your goals.
Keep going, because you
deserve to see what happens
when all of your hand work
pays off.’
I am who I am today
because of that page, I even
framed those words in my
bedroom wall. I never
thought I will own an
apartment and Audi R8.
Back to my background, as I
was reading that page I
always woke myself with
those words ‘keep going’.
Then I passed my term 4
tests every well, there was
no use of holding back to the
fact that my mother left us
for a man she just met. I
told myself that if I give up
I will suffer for the rest of
my life along with my siblings.
1 year down the train, I was
12 years by that time it was
my first day in grade 7, our
shoes were horrible and
couldn’t even fit us, all our
shoes from casual ones to
school shoes, we walked to
school with no shoes and let
alone our shirts and jersey,
they were eaten by mice,
that was the worse first
day in my life we looked really
poor.
I was the laughing stock at
school, they laughed at me
and bad name me and I got
into a fight with a girl called
Itumeleng if I am not
mistaken, so she said my
mother is a whore she chose
a man over her children I
don’t know how she knew
that but news in Tsakane fly
fast in a short space of time.
The principal called us in his
office.
Principal: “I thought I will
be seeing someone not you
Vuyo, since when do you
fight?”
Me: “uhm Principal she
started it”
Itumeleng: “ah ska tlo
ntlwaela masepa wena a
nkgang”
That hurt me till today, only
if she the situation I was
with my siblings. From how
we got water to bath and
food to eat, but she judged
me without knowing the
whole story.
Principal: “Itumeleng you
know the code of conduct of
this school right? I didn't
expect that from you too
Itumeleng since you are
monitress. We don’t swear
at each other you know that.
So I will give you two letters
to give your parents to come
tomorrow”
By that time I don’t have
parents, I don’t know where
my father is, the only thing
I know is that he run away
after finding out that my
mother is pregnant, and
worse part I don’t share the
same father with my siblings
each have her own, I
haven’t seen them I guess
it is the same story.
We took our letters.
Principal: “Vuyo you can stay
behind”
Itumeleng walked out.
Principal: “where are your
shoes? And why is your shirt
and jersey looking like that?”
I just decided to tell him
everything, and he was in
tears I mean I’ve never
seen a man crying in my life.
Principal: “I am so sorry
Vuyo, I will inform the SGB
about the situation, so that
we can help you and your
sisters with uniform and
proper shelter”
I was so happy to hear
that, God really works in
different ways.
He let me and my sisters to
go home, I just couldn’t face
those animals I called my
classmates.
Ntombikayise: “why are we
home at this time?”
Me: “do you want to be
laughed the whole day?”
Ntombikayise: “no”
Me: “okay, then stop asking
me lot of questions”
2 months down the train,
they provided us with new
uniform and new school shoes,
and one of the SGB members
Veronica Kunene volunteered
to take care of us.
She was so loving and kind,
she had a son by that time
called Zolakhe Kunene doing
grade 7 like me but he was in
another class.
Ntombikayise and Nobuhle
stopped asking me questions
when I told them the truth,
we started calling ma’am
Veronica mom and what I
liked about Zolakhe he took
us as his siblings.

I passed my matric with

distinctions and got a
scholarship from WITS and
did my LLB then I met
Anathi and Lindokuhle, when
I was doing my second year.
Ntombikayise did Chemical
engineering in UCT while
Nobuhle did Biotechnology in
UJ, and Zolakhe went to
military school.
Oh I nearly forgot the part
of ‘boyfriend’ so when it
comes to relationships I feel
like I am cursed or
something, because it’s
either I am replaced with
ugly person or replace me
with beauty with no brains,
in my last relationship I was
replaced with a gay a whole
gay that means I am worth
less than a gay, so that is
why I chose alcohol over
man, alcohol won’t judge you
or cheat on you. Man are
trash.

I think I was lost in my

thoughts because I was
brought back to my senses by
a call from my boss.
Sticks: “Miss Ngozo”
I like the way he say my
surname. Vuyolwethu that is
your boss stop it.
Me: “Mr Mbambo, how may I
help you sir?”
Sticks: “uhm…you can take a
week off if you don’t have
any case to deal with.”
I was just screaming.
Me: “thank you, thank you,
boss”
He chuckled before hanging
up, I won’t question him I
really need this week off.
INSECT 43

LINDO

I just decided to make my

day short since I don’t have
much work to do, I took my
bag and went to McDonald’s
for ice coffee I really needed
it, I went straight to
Level’s to meet up with the
gang.
I packed my car next to
their cars, I am always late
everywhere I am pretty
sure my coffin will arrive late
at my funeral.
I took a back entrance to
the office. I found them
sitting waiting for me.
Me: “gents”
Them: “boss lady”
Me: “I guess Spitjo briefed
you guys about this meeting,
so we need to plan how we
are going to attack Aldo
before he does”
Sticks: “I was thinking, since
he is going to launch his
factory soon he will need lot
of security guards, cleaners
like all those things needed
right? So I was suggesting
that you sister boss to go
there and pretend to be
looking for a job as a cleaner
then Spitjo and I will go
there asking for a job as
security guards”
I don’t know why we named
him Sticks he deserve to be
Brains.
Me: “that is a brilliant idea”
Cheese boy: “and we can’t go
there in our usual looks they
will notice us.”
Sticks: “that is when we will
do a makeover, we will look
convincing that we really
need that job”
Numbers: “and gender role
doesn’t work nowhere days,
so Cheese boy and I will go
with boss lady and pretend
like we are professional
cleaners. We will use the van
and place a sticker on it that
shows we are cleaners”
Spitjo: “so the actual plan
here, boss lady is that when
we get there we plant bombs
everywhere, every corner. I
will do fake CV’s for all of us,
then hack their system and
employ us because he might
choose only people he really
know not outside people.”
Me: “what if they find those
bombs when they search
us?”
Spitjo: “they won’t, we will
place those bombs inside
cleaning equipment they
won’t search them. Then I
will turn them on after
launch, so that innocent
people don’t die”
Me: “let’s say immediately
after launch he go back
where he lives”
Spitjo: “I never thought of
that, I will see if I can hack
his system and cancel the
event without him knowing”
Numbers: “that’s my boy”
We just laughed, I like how
wild they think.
I hear my phone ringing, it is
international call.
Guy: “you thought you can
fool us?”
I put it on loud speaker.
Guy: “you gave us bricks and
think you can just walk away,
my father might not know
yet about this but he will
know when you are dead”
I guess it is Antonio, Aldo’s
dump ass son.
Me: “young boys with
threats”
Antonio: “that is not a
threat, I don’t do threats
that is a promise. I will kill
you along with your gang and
anyone related to you”
Them: “bring it on young
man”
Sticks: “ungayiqala engathi
uzoyiqeda”
Antonio: “whatever you said,
but be prepared for the war”
He hang up. I have to
protect Vuyolwethu and
Anathi, I can’t afford to lose
another friend or both of
them.
Cheese boy: “then we have
move to Plan B”
Me: “we have no choice, but
we will do Plan A we kill the
father before killing his son”
Spitjo: “I will tell our source
to keep an eye on him, and
update us about time he
goes to his factory and when
he goes back to where he
lives. Let me make a quick
call”
He walked out.
Sticks: “when he say
everyone related to us, he
mean everyone? He is too
going far now”
Me: “only people I am worried
about is Vuyolwethu and
Anathi, Busani can protect
himself because he was a
gangster I mean my friends
are scared to even hold a gun
so I can’t teach them”
Cheese boy: “then we must
finish him off before he does
anything stupid"
Numbers: “I think we need
big dogs for this one”
Sticks: “Bab’Ngonyama?”
Numbers: “yes, he is the only
one who can attack
international people, I know
we are kind of dangerous but
we don’t know how powerful
Antonio is”
Me: “are you scared?”
Numbers: “sort of”
We laughed at him, you can’t
be a gangster and be scared
of dying it’s obvious that you
will die at any specific time,
the only thing that should
bother you is ‘when’.
Sticks: “I think we should
wait for him to come to
South Africa”
Me: “that is a good idea, but
Bab’Ngonyama is in France
he is coming back next month.
This is World War ll”
What I know about people in
Italy is that if you mess
with one of them, you are
dead he even can call an army
to attack us.
Cheese boy: “sister boss, it’s
been a long time since you’ve
used your sniper right? So I
am suggesting that you go
to Italy and shoot Antonio
from the distance while we
take care of his father”
I haven’t been in Italy, I
only went to Paris to test
drive my jet with my pilot
along with my friends and
took plenty of pictures, and I
am the only one who knows
how to use a sniper.
Me: “I will think about it”
Spitjo walks in.
Spitjo: “so it seems like Aldo
is using his factory as place
to sleep, and it is not that
armed only two security
guards”
Sticks: “easy, we will attack
at night, we take out his
security guard and plant the
bombs, by the time he wakes
up the factory will explode or
before he wake up”
Numbers: “we are not
wasting anytime, we are
doing it today”
I guess I will take a flight
to Italy today.
Me: “let’s get ready”
I took out my phone and
dialled Busani’s numbers. He
answer after second ring.
Busani: “Sthandwa sam”
Me: “babe”
Busani: “I miss you, come
back home.”
Me: “I miss you too, but I
can’t come now I am
preparing myself for a
mission”
Busani: “I guess I will wait
for you”
I know I saw him this
morning, but I miss him
every minute.
Me: “you can come where I
am, I will give you the
location”
I sent it to him, without
waiting for his respond.
Busani: “so fast, okay I will
come. I like the fact that it
is just 15 minutes away, I
will be there in no time”
Me: “don’t use the normal
entrance, use the back one
near the other packing spot.
We are in 3rd floor, second
door.”
Busani: “I am on my way”
He hanged up, I just want
to trick him to return back
to the game.
We just watched Numbers
busy drawing the plan on the
white board.
Numbers: “so here it is you
sister boss you will be on top
of the house that is distant
to Antonio’s house, then
when he is busy in his office
you shoot his skull”
I know I won’t miss that
potato head.
Sticks: “that is a brilliant
idea, because his office is
facing those buildings at the
other side of the road”
Me: “but we have to make
sure that Antonio is always
in his office that day so
that…”
Busani: “I will sort that
out”
That was quick.
Me: “sort what?”
Busani: “that thing you just
said, if you are talking about
Antonio I know then, I will
help you to keep him
distracted in his office”
Numbers: “how will you do
that?”
Busani: “he is Aldo’s son
right?”
Us: “yes”
Busani: “okay, then I will
pretend like I am my father
and request lot of diamonds
that will keep him busy
because he will try to connect
with many people to supply
diamonds to him since that is
what he is been doing when
people want diamonds, and he
is the one responsible on
diamonds he is using his
father’s name to sell them or
to buy them since his father
is connected world wide, so his
father only deal with drugs
only”
So he knew Aldo and his son
all along.
We just looked at him
shocked, but I just want him
to say one word.
Busani: “hau guys, why are
you shocked? I know babe
you want me to return back
to the game, and I am back.
I’ve sorted everything out
so I am back”
I just hugged him, I am so
happy. My baby is back.
Sticks: “welcome back Bafo,
that means you will go to
Italy with your lady.”
Busani: “yesss”
He held my hand with a wide
smile on his face.
Spitjo: “so what about his
father? Since he is not the
one who gave us those fake
diamonds.”
Cheese boy: “tapole e bodisa
mokotla, we kill him there is
no turning back”
He is getting fluent with
sesotho, and what I know is
that he will disrespect us.
Numbers: “look who is
speaking so fluently. Boss
lady even if you say no we will
kill him”
I don’t know what to say, I
just laughed.
Me: “I wasn’t going to say
no, you can kill him while we
are going to finish his son
off. Because he will attack
us after finding out that we
killed his son”
I whisper in Busani’s ear.
Me: “welcome back babe”
Busani: "we are in this
together, forever, against all
odds"
He just kissed me.
Numbers: “aww bathong
ntse re le teng.”
Sticks: “Ebile re betha stepe
ning? My suit is ready”
I just chuckled.
Me: “sorry Philano. Soon”
I don’t know when but I can
feel it that we will get
married in a normal way one
day.
Numbers: “I hate that
name, but mine is better
than that psycho that
betrayed us few years back”
‘Few years back’ it was the
time I got shot for the first
time. So that day it was my
first day as a gangster, we
planned to rob the bank. The
plan was nice and simple, it
was just in and out job. That
time we were known as big
six not five, so our friend
Triple M betrayed us. When
we get to the bank the
police appeared out of
nowhere, and they started
shooting immediately when
they see us and
unfortunately I was the only
one who was shot, the gang
managed to shoot those
policemen while Cheese boy
take me to Melomed
Claremont Private Hospital
where he works.
I got to the hospital and I
fainted according to them,
because my blood really
makes me feel dizzy.
The next day, the rest of
the gang except Triple M
came to hospital to check me.
Me: “gents where is Triple
M”
Numbers: “Matome betrayed
us, he is the one who tipped
the police about the heist,
and they promised his a
reward when they arrest us”
We named him Triple M,
because of his names,
Matome Michael Mokoena.
Parents can hate you to the
point of giving you bad name.
What is Matome?
When I was discharged we
hunted him down until we
find him, I learned how to kill
because of him, he was the
first person I killed then the
list goes on.
I’ve never been in prison, and
I just hope I don’t.
INSECT 44

ANATHI

I just hate how they care

about me when I am
pregnant, even Banzi’s
mother become so genuine.
Nomasonto: “Makoti,
ngikwentele lokutsite
longakudla ngaphambi
kwekutsi ulale (Makoti, I’ve
made you something to eat
before you go to sleep)”
There is something off about
her, every time when I am
pregnant she is nice and kind,
even call me Makoti but when
I lose the baby she call me
infertile girl, I don’t know
whether she knows the
meaning of infertile or she is
just saying it.
I took the food, I can’t say
no to her food. She really
know how to cook.
Me: “ngiyabonga mama
(thank you mama)”
She sit next to me, watching
me eating.
Nomasonto: “Lokukhulelwa
kukufanele (this pregnancy
suits you)”
When I am still eating there
is something in my mind that
says ‘don’t eat it’ ‘don’t eat
it’. I just ignored it and
continue eating.
Nomasonto: “Ngivumele
ngikuletsele emanti (let me
go get water for you)”
She gets up with a smile on
her face holding my plate,
that smile is off.
I will be sleeping alone today,
since Banzi is working night
shift today.
She comes back with a glass
of water, hand it to me.
Me: “ngiyabonga (thank you)”
I just took a sip, I know
that the water of Eswatini
taste bad but this one taste
horrible.
I left my glass on the table,
went straight upstairs to
sleep.
I open the door, I find the
old Queen sitting on the bed
singing.
Queen: “finally you are done”
I am going to get used to
her, I guess.
Queen: “I told you not to be
open to anyone in this house,
even Dud’indabakho told you.
You don’t listen Anathi”
What is she talking about,
because I only told them, I
am pregnant only.
Me: “I am lost, what are you
talking about?”
This time she is not smiling
she is serious.
Queen: “when I said don’t
tell them anything, I meant
anything. So you are going to
lose those babies right now.
I didn’t know how to break
this down to you but your
mother-in-law she is the one
behind this, she is that
woman you dreamt about”
Babies? Banzi’s mother? I
feel the sharp pains in my
womb.
Me: “what is happening?”
She got out of bed, carry me
to the bathroom. She turn
the tub on to cold water, as
she let me inside.
The moment I sit down,
blood just come out. Lot of
blood, I feel like tiny things
touching me. I carried out
three tiny babies, they are
dead.
I was carrying triplets. I
felt dizzy and tired.
Queen: “Anathi you can't give
up now, you have to be
strong. Pray Anathi, Pray.
That woman can be powerful
but you are more powerful
than her”
I just close my eyes and cry,
I can’t even pray. I feel like
God is punishing me, I’ve
been praying but things get
worse.
She carried me out of the
water, rap the towel around
me.
Queen: “I will take these
babies with me, there is no
need to bury them here”
I was so weak to even
respond her.
Queen: “just put your faith
to God. It is too early to
give up, fight Anathi. She is
really powerful and
dangerous, just fight. This is
just the beginning, there is a
war coming in your way”
She is talking in riddles now,
why can’t she just tell me
what to do exactly, and stop
beating about the bush.
Queen: “the way she is so
powerful, I can’t protect you
from her. You are the only
one who can, if you fail Banzi
will”
Anathi: “then why did I lost
so many babies?”
Queen: “babies you are
always carrying are powerful,
they carried different types
of powers. So she sacrifice
with them to gain those
powers. I am not talking
about super powers where by
a person can turn water to
wine, I am talking about the
natural powers”
They can choose me, not my
innocent babies.
Anathi: “powers? So that
means I have them too?”
Queen: "all of them, the
power of bringing joy,
happiness, grace and peace.
The most powerful one lies on
your knees and mouth, you
are really a prayer warrior
never doubt that”
I just buried my face in the
pillow, and cry.
What will I say to Banzi this
time? ‘Babe we lost triplets
this time’ I just can’t
imagine how that will break
him, and the fact that her
mother caused those
miscarriages.
The Queen just disappeared
with my life less babies.
●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●
I woke up around 03:00
because I was thirsty, I got
out of bed and went
downstairs to get water.
When I was walking down
the stairs, I notice that the
lights in lounge are on. I took
off my sleepers and tip toe,
straight to the lounge.
I see Banzi’s mother
seating on a high chair but
facing the other way, talking
with someone on the phone,
she put it on a loud speaker.
I decided to listen.
Nomasonto: “watsi i-muti
itawusebenta ngekushesha
ngewuva kwekudla, kodvwa
ayizange isebente.Nami
ngamupha emanti ngaleyo
muti futsi angizange
ngimuve akhala ngenca
yekuhlupheka (you said that
muti will work immediately
after eating, but it didn’t. I
also gave her water with
the same muti and I haven’t
heared her screaming in
pain)”
I might be a slow learner,
but what she said links to
me, so it is true.
I look out my phone and
start recording.
Man: “Bekumele kusebente,
kepha kubonakala ngatsi
uvikelele kakhulu kunakucala
(it should’ve worked, but it
seems like she is protected
more than before.)”
Nomasonto: “Ungangitjeli
loko, konkhe lengifuna kukuva
kutsi ‘INdlovukazi utfole
emandla lamasha” hhayi loko.
Leyo ntfombatana itetfwele
bantfwana labanemandla
kakhulu, bekufanele ngente
umhlatjelo Kanye nayo,
ecinisweni ngitawenta (don’t
tell me that, all I want to
hear is ‘the queen you’ve
gained new powers’ not that.
That girl is carrying the
most powerful babies, I
should’ve sacrificed with her,
in fact I will.)”
Man: “Caphela kutsi ufisa ini,
loko kungakufaka engotini (be
careful of what you wish,
that will put you in danger)”
Nomasonto: "Anginandzaba
(I don't care)"
I just don’t know how to
react.
Man: “Ngicabanga kutsi
kukhona losilaleleko (I think
someone is listening to us)”
I hide myself in one of our
helper’s room since they are
downstairs.
Now I get it why she is
always nice when I am
pregnant, she even massage
my feet.
I have to get out of this
house, I know traditionally I
have to stay in this house
until I die but I can’t.
I notice that the lights are
off so I walked back to my
room.
I find the door wide open, I
don’t remember leaving it like
this and Banzi doesn’t knock
out at this time.
I walked to it with my
sleepers and my phone in my
hands.
I find Banzi’s mother sitting
on the bed with a cloth in
her hand. God really forsaken
me.
Nomasonto: “Bewukuphi?
(Where have you been?)”
Me:“uhmm…bengimatasatasa
ngentfo letsite lapha
ehhovisini lami (uhmm….I
was busy with something in
my study)”
She got up and close the
door, I place my phone on the
bed.
Nomasonto: “Ucala emanga
(you are lying)”
She immediately just slap me
so hard, to the point where
I lost balance. I fell down,
she kick me on my tummy
multiple times, until I cough
blood. I don’t know why she
is doing what she is doing to
me right now, I just wish
the ground can just open and
swallow me. I don’t have
much energy to pray.
Nomasonto: “utawutisola
ngelilnga lowati ngalo libito
lami (you will regret the day
you knew my name)”
She put the cloth she was
holding on my mouth and
nose, it just drugged me, one
minute lights off.
INSECT 45

BANZI

I got home around 06:00 and

everyone is up, I found my
mother and my father eating
breakfast, but I don’t see
Anathi. She must be sleeping.
Me: “Sawubona baba”
Dad: “Sawubona”
My mother just kept quiet,
maybe she is in her usual
moods.
I went upstairs, I am so
tired I just want to sleep.
I opened the door, notice
that Anathi is not sleeping
and the room is tidy and
clean, she even changed the
carpet. I don’t even hear
the water running in the
bathroom.
Me: “babe, babe”
No respond, this is unlike her.
I just decided to call her.
Went straight to voicemail. I
search every room, closet, her
study but still no sign of her.
I just called Lindo.
Lindo: “inkosana”
Me: “I am sorry to call at
this time, but do you know
where Anathi is? She is
nowhere to be found, she
didn’t even leave any note”
Lindo: “no, she didn’t tell me,
and I last talked to her
before I go to Italy, she
can’t just disappear just like
that. Let me ask Vuyolwethu
then I will get back to you”
She hanged up, I put my
phone inside my pocket and
went downstairs.
I found my father busy
reading a newspaper.
Me: “baba, haven’t you seen
Anathi this morning?”
Dad: “Cha, ngigcine kumbona
itolo ebusuku ngaphambi
kwekutsi ngilale (no, I last
saw her last night before
going to bed.)”
I am frustrated right now,
I don’t know what to think.
Just went back to our room.
Lindo calls me.
Lindo: “She didn’t tell
Vuyolwethu. As much as I
know Anathi she won’t just
leave without informing one
of us, something is going on”
I can feel it that something
is going on, but I don’t know
what.
Lindo: “I will tell my gang to
look for her, and trace her
phone”
Me: “no need for that, I got
this”
Lindo: “are you sure?”
Me: “yes”
Lindo: “okay Banzi if you say
so, then you will inform us
when you find anything”
She hanged up.
I just don’t know where to
start with my research, she
doesn’t even have her
favourite spot where she
stay to calm when she is sad.
When I was busy thinking, I
feel someone tapping on my
shoulder, when I turn back I
see the old Queen, wearing
white clothes. I wanted to
scream but she closed my
mouth, I never thought I
will see dead people in my life.
Queen: “shhhhhh.”
She move her hand on my
mouth. I am even sweating,
seeing dead people can freak
you out.
Me: “iNdlovukati”
I bow my head, she stopped
me.
Queen: “I am no longer the
Queen, no need to bow. I
know you must be wondering
where Anathi is, she is in
danger. Your mother want to
take her soul, and regain her
powers with her soul, and
she lost three babies last
night after eating muti from
the food she was eating
yesterday.”
Three babies? Now we’ve
lost seven babies, and my
mother wants to do what?
Queen: “no bullet or gun can
get her out of that place.
You need to be connected to
your ancestors to get her out
of her, I know I am one of
them but I only see danger
when it is coming, I can’t
protect you from her she is
powerful.”
One thing I hate about
having a royal blood, everyone
will try by all means to
dethrone you, even your own
family, now I get it why
Bheki my younger brother
chose to live a life of his own
KZN, at other royal house.
And my father’s brother
that I haven’t seen just
gone AWOL with his twins,
and rumours said my own
father wanted to sacrifice
with those twins, but I
don’t believe them.
Me: “I am confused, how will
I connect with them?”
Queen: “Dud’indabakho will be
here in a minute then you will
perform the ritual with him,
since Gogo Ingozi is not
feeling well”
Me: “okay”
She disappeared while I am
still waiting for our seer.
After couple of minutes
Dud’indabakho walked in,
saying our clan names.
Dud’indabakho: “heiiiiiiyiii”
He was busy chanting
something I don’t know.
Dud’indabakho: “Uma
ungafuni kulwa nyalo,
sitawungcwaba Anathi
kuleliviki lelitako (if you don’t
fight now, we will bury
Anathi next week)”
I’ve never been so confused
in my life.
Dud’indabakho: “Make wakho
nguye lowanikela
ngebantfwana bakho, manje
sewufuna umphefumulo wa-
Anathi (your mother is the
one who sacrificed with your
babies, now she wants
Anathi’s soul)”
Now I get why she is being
respected and envied just like
that, I mean according to
the rumours, people didn't
like her when she was
crowned a Queen of Eswatini,
but now they do.
Dud’indabakho: “wamvalela
ekamelweni lelimnyama, futsi
nakangeke akhone kumbulala
utamgucula abe yi-zimbie
(she locked her in the dark
room, and if she can’t kill her
she will turn her into a
zombie)”
I know she is heartless but
I never thought she can
reach to this level, my own
mother.
Me: “Manje sekwentekani?
(So what now?)”
Dud’indabakho: “kufunele
sente umcimbi wetinkhumbulo
khona lapha, khona nyalo.
Nguwe Kanye nami kuphela.
Ngiletsele ingubo
layitsandzako nobe lokunye
lakutsandzako kute sikhone
kuchumana naye (we have to
perform a ritual ceremony
right here, right now. Just
you and me. Bring me her
favourite dress or anything
she loves so that we can
connect to her)”
I just got up and went to
our closet, picked her
favourite blue floral dress.
He light Umpepo before
throwing his bones. He place
the dress next to his bones.
Dud’indabakho: “Emadloti a a
ka Nhlbatsi, Mantini
WaLanga, Mabhalakophe
njengeNgwenyama, Sidvwaba
silitfuli njengese, Nkgosikati,
Nkonjane lemnyama idlela
emafini tonkhe tidlela phansi,
Ningweni waboLanga,
Hlehletela njengelifu lemvula,
Gebase. Sikhombise indlela
(show us the way)”
Me: "Makhosi"
I feel different aura in this
room.
Dud’indabakho: “Ngiyambona,
uwedvwa ekameleni
lelimnyama. Kufanele
simsindzise, Khanyisa
lamakhandlela bese uwabeka
endzaweni yonkhe (I can see
her, she is in a dark room
alone. We have to save her.
Light the candles and place
them all over the room)”
I walk to her side drawer, I
take the candles and I see
her phone. It was hidden by
those candles since they are
many. I took it out, it has
cracks all over the screen
when I light it there is ink
all over. My mother really
destroyed Anathi’s phone
maybe it had evidence or
something she can’t just
destroy it like this.
I place the candles at every
corner of the room and light
them.
Dud’indabakho: “pray like your
life depend on that prayer,
pray like the world is ending”
I just said anything that
comes in my mind, praying
that God takes her out of
darkness, pray that God
wake her up so that she can
fight this war with us.
I know commandment
number 7 says ‘thus shall not
kill’ but when I see my
mother I will kill her with my
bare hands, God will forgive
me.
As I was still praying I feel
peaceful aura, like she is free
wherever she is.
Dud’indabakho: “bebantama
kumgucula abe yi-zombie
kodvwa behluleka (they were
turning her into a zombie but
they failed)”
Me: “ngiyabonga Jesu (thank
you Jesus)”
Dud’indabakho: “Yebo,
behlulekile kodvwa ngelishwa
bente intfo lembi, utawubona
lapho sewumbambile. Yenta
shengati kute lowatiko
ngesikhatsi make wakho
abuya, khona
utewumlandzela ngesikhatsi
abuya (Yes, they failed but
unfortunately they did
something bad, you will see it
when you get her. Just
pretend like you don’t know
anything when your mother
comes back, so that you can
follow her when she goes
back)”
I just hope she is not dead.
Dear God you will have to
forgive me because I am
about to do something to my
mother.
I just need to ask him one
last question about my
father before he go.
Me: “Ngembikwekutsi
uhambe, kuliciniso yini kutsi
babe wami watinikela kanye
nemaphahla amnakabo? Nobe
uke wetama yini? (Before you
go, is it true that my father
sacrificed with his brother’s
twins? Or tried to?)”
Dub’Indabakho: “Cha,
wehlulekile. Kodvwa ukholwa
kutsi wabulala bona mbamba
kodvwa basaphila Kanye
nababe wabo, futsi uyabati,
kodvwa njengobe sikhati
suchubeka iNdlokukati
yelitulu, itawufika lapha
ilwele sihlalo sayo
sebukhosi(No, he failed. But
he believes that he really
killed them but they are still
alive along with their father,
and you know them, but as
time goes on Rain Queen, will
come here and fight for her
throne)”
He picked his things and
leave me, in mixed emotions.
I know them? I will just
wait and see. I don’t even
have energy to take a
shower, I even lost my
appetite.
Me: “God where did we go
wrong? What did we do to be
punished like this? Why did
you make me the son of that
monster called my mother?
Oh, Lord if I’ve sinned
before just punish me not my
wife. We pray everyday for
better days but it seems like
things gets worse every
minute. As Deuteronomy 31:6
says ‘be strong and
courageous. Do not be afraid
or terrified of them, for the
Lord your God goes with you;
he will never leave you nor
forsake you’ I feel weak
right now Father, I feel like
you’ve forsaken me and my
wife. As the bible says in
John 14:27 ‘peace I have
with you; my peace I give
you. I do not give to you as
the world gives. Do not let
your heart be troubled and do
not be afraid’ honestly
speaking Lord ever since
Anathi and I got married we
never received peace every
couple need, I am afraid
right now that she might do
something bad to my wife”
I looked at her picture on
the wall.
Me: “I will find you my
princess, I will never give up
until I find you. Just be
strong wherever you are, and
fight the evil spirit around
you”
I just looked outside the
window waiting for
Nomasonto to arrive, I can’t
call her my mother after
what she did.

INSECT 46
TLOTLISO

I am Tlotliso Motaung,
I'm trapped in a nightmare
that I can't wake up from.
My father, the person who's
supposed to love and protect
me, is the one who hurts me
the most. His words cut
deeper than any physical
blow, making me feel
worthless and small.
But I'm too scared to tell my
mother. I'm afraid of what
might happen if I speak out.
Will she believe me? Will she
stay with him despite what
he's done? Because she didn't
believe Lindokuhle, so am I
to be believed?
I feel so alone, like I'm
carrying this heavy secret
that's crushing me. I put on
a mask to hide the pain, to
pretend that everything is
okay. But it's not okay. It's
far from okay.
I wish I had the courage to
speak up, to tell my mother
the truth. But fear holds me
back, fear of what might
happen if I dare to reveal
the secrets that are
suffocating me.
So I suffer in silence, hoping
that one day I'll find the
strength to break free from
this prison of fear and speak
the truth that's been
silenced for far too long.
I’ve searched Sis Lindo
through many social media
platform but no luck, maybe
she is antisocial or she
doesn’t use her names.
I just hate it when my
mother is going away for
funeral, I know she
sometimes works night shift,
I know from the day she
goes to the day she return
back my father will beat me
for no reason. Now she is
gone to one of her friend’s
funeral, even though she is
pregnant.
Dad: “hobaneng o sa hlatswa
dijana? O re mang a
dihlatswe? Nna? Tswa ka
dikobong tseo ke direkileng ka
tjhelete yaka o ilo hlatswa
dijana (Why didn’t you wash
the dishes? You expect who
to wash them? Me? Get out
of the blankets I bought
with my money)”
It is 23:00 but he says I
have to wash the dishes at
this time.
Me: “o tla hlolwa keng?
(What will stop you?)”
I said that with my low
voice.
Dad: “wareng? Tlotliso wa
nkarabisa (what did you say?
You are back speaking with
me?)”
He didn’t even hear what I
said.
He took out my baseball bat,
in my toys basket. He come
closer to me busy tapping
the bat in his hand.
He remove the blankets off
me, and I am wearing a t-
shirt only because it is hot.
The next thing I hear the
sound of my bones, the sound
of bones snapping was the
only thing piercing through
my screams. My tears don’t
even tell him to stop, he
continue beating me all over
my body until I feel like I am
covered in blood.
Dad: “ha o qeta ho itlhakola o
tswe ka mona o ilo hlatswa
dijana ha ke tlo kgutla hape
(When you are done wiping
yourself get out of this room
and go and wash the dishes,
I won’t come back again)”
He walked out, he is not even
showing any remorse.
I got out of bed and my
white t-shirt is covered in so
much blood.
My body is so painful, I can’t
even stand straight.
I took off my shirt and
throw it into my laundry,
then changed my stained
covers. Went to my bathroom
and took a shower, this
water just makes this
wounds to be more painful. I
rapped the bandage around
them, wear clean t-shirt
with night wear pant.
We have dishwasher in this
house but he wants me to
wash them with my hands.
I walked out slowly because
my body hurts so much. When
I arrive in the kitchen I find
him washing the same dishes
he said I must wash.
Dad: “ha kare o hlape, kapa
ke tjholo jwalo? Bona jwale ke
nna a hlatswang dijana eseng
wena (I didn’t say you must
bath, or did I say so? Look
now I am washing the
dishes not you)”
I didn’t point a gun on his
head to wash them.
He took out the glass he was
washing and throw it to my
direction, but I managed to
duck then it just hit the tiles
and shattered everywhere.
Everything he sees, he use
it, what's only left for him to
use is gun and shoot me.
Dad: “oh o se o hodile jwale?
O monna wena? Phutha
galase tseo, ha ke batle le ho
bona kgalase nyana fatshe
(oh you’ve grown up? You are
the man? Pick up those
glasses, I don’t want to see
a piece of it on the floor)”
I am only 13 but I feel like
I am dying, I feel like he is
not my father he is just
someone who was forced to
raise me.
I took a small broom and
sweep the glasses that are
all over, throw them into the
dustbin.
I did report him to the police
last month but the police
believed everything he said
since I don’t have a proof
that he is abusing me.
Dad: “Tle ke bone kgalase
nyana fatshe moo, ke tlo
bontsha tosa le madinyana a
yona (if I see glasses, you
will know me)”
To say I am traumatized
will be understatement.
Dad: “tsamaya o ilo robala
pele o ntena (go and sleep
before you bore me)”
I just walked to Lindo’s room
maybe I will feel better
when I read her letters or
journals.
It’s either he was abused or
his father was abusing his
mother, there is no way a
normal human being can be
like this, he is a real monster
and what annoys me is that
my mother doesn’t see all
that, she is being blinded by
his ‘love’.
I’ve cried before more than
I do now, but now I just told
myself that ‘there is no time
to cry now Tlotliso, you got
this man’.
I randomly picked a letter
inside her drawer.
‘(11 June)
My life have been nothing but shit
ever since I turn 14, my step father
raped me every day when my
mother is gone. He took my
innocence in me, my dignity. I know
I am not her daughter, but I don’t
deserve what he did to me. Every
time when I close my eyes I see him
on top on me raping me taking my
innocence away from me.
What hurts the most to this thing
happening in my life right now, is
that my own mother doesn’t believe
me, she just chose to believe Lefa
over me. I should be calling him dad
but after what he did to me he
deserve to be called by his name, I
will never ever in my life forgive him.
I just hope when Tlotliso grow up
doesn’t experience what I’ve
experienced.
I thank God for giving me someone
who I can rely on, someone who
understand me, a shoulder to cry
on, best friend; I want to grow old
with Bongani, I want us to
experience the feeling to having
grandchildren together, people
turned their backs on me but he
decided to stay behind and be my
soul friend.
I don't know how to be okay, I really
wish that I did, I just wish that I don't
wake up the following day and leave
this cruel world, yes I've thought of
killing myself multiple times but I've
never done it.

~Lindokuhle’

My father is really a
monster, I just hate him. I
just hope they are still
friends, because she wrote
about him in every letter
how they became friends,
things they enjoyed doing the
most.
I walked out of her room to
mine. I get in and throw my
painful body on the bed and
soon as my head hits the
pillow I am gone.

INSECT 47
I don’t know what time was
it, but I hear my father’s
voice from distance calling
me, I was so tired to even
open my eyes.
Dad: “ha o utlwi ntse ke o
hweletsa?”
Me: “huuh?”
He splashed cold water on my
bed I got up really quickly.
Then I see ice cubes on my
bed, I get it why this water
is so cold. He is even holding a
20 litre basket, I feel like I
was swimming or something.
Dad: “Tsoha (wake up)”
He walked out, I look at my
side watch and it is 04:00
AM. WTF. Unbelievable, I am
waken up to my beauty sleep
with cold water. I’ve been
changing this sheets many
times, I took them out. Not
only my blankets are wet,
even my bed. I decided to let
it dry out before covering it.

I walked to the bathroom,

took my bandages out. I got
inside the shower, this
wounds are still painful. I
can’t go to school looking like
this, I don’t even know what
to tell that monster.
I dried my body, put clean
bandages around the wounds.
I lotion my body, walk to my
closet. I picked a black
Adidas hoodie and black
Adidas pants, I took out my
sleepers under the bed. Put
on my cologne, brush my cut
since it is flat cut.
I walked downstairs to make
breakfast for me, not for
him.
Dad: "ha o se o apere tjee, ha
o ye sekolong? (When you a
dressed like this, you are not
going to school?)"
Me: "eya papa"
I was forced by my mother
to call him papa since I was
calling him by his name.
Dad: “eja ka pele ha o qeta o
ilo hleka kantle, o tla thola
kgarafu kantle (eat fast,
when you are done go and
clean outside, you will find the
shovel outside)”
He is kidding right? I mean
we have garden boy for
heaven sake, and it’s not
that dirty as he say.
Me: “huh? Nna? (Me?)”
Luckily there is nothing in
front of him he can use.
Dad: “nywa nywa nywa yang?
Ke re o ilo hleka kantle, ha ke
batle ho phetha se o ke se
buileng (I say go and clean
outside, I don’t want to
repeat what I said)”
I’ve never been in hospital
because I don’t get sick to
the point where I have to
see the doctor, but I am
pretty sure I will go
straight to mortuary he is
going to kill me one day. I
really doubt he is really my
father, there is no way he is
going to take his
frustrations on me, what I
hate is that he never feel
sorry for beating me.
I just made a cereal because
if I take longer than he
expect, he will beat the hell
out of me, for just taking my
time. I’ve never used a
shovel in my life, but I guess
I will know how to use it
today.

INSECT 48
LINDO

It's been 4 weeks now since

Banzi found Anathi, but
what hurts me the most is
that her mother in law and
that person she was working
with made her to forget
everything in fact they've
cleared her memory, she
doesn't even recognize any of
us. According to Banzi he said
the community burned her
mother, since that is the
rule of Royals if you commit a
crime you get burned.

I still can't believe it's been

only a few months since I
met Busani. It feels like a
lifetime ago that I was
alone, searching for that
special someone. And then,
like a ray of sunshine, he
walked into my life.
Everything about him
captivated me-his smile, his
laugh, his kind heart. I knew
in that moment that I
wanted to spend the rest of
my life making him happy.
Fast forward to today, and
we're now husband and wife.
It's a dream come true.
Every day with him is a gift,
a reminder of the love we
share.
I never thought I'd find
someone who loves me for
me, flaws and all. But he
does, and I adore him for it.
He's my rock, my partner, my
best friend.
I'm still pinching myself,
wondering how I got so lucky.
But I know that our love is
real, and it's only the
beginning of our beautiful
journey together.
I'm grateful for every
moment we've shared so far,
and I can't wait to see what
the future holds for us. I
love him more with each
passing day, and I know that
our love will only continue to
grow stronger.
I've met his parents since
they were the witness of
Busani when we were signing
in Home Affairs, they are so
kind and welcoming. Still
haven't met his other
mother.
I managed to kill Antonio, it
was easy like ABC because
my husband helped me, also
my gang managed to kill his
father. We've came hand in
hand with Busani's cigarette
business and everything is
going just fine, I've learned
few techniques on how to
make those cigarette and I
must say Khanya and
Ifalethu do know they're
work, but Ifalethu looks like
he is a gay or I am
overthinking it. Their Lounge
called Bukhif Lounge is
located in Johannesburg-
Houghton 20 km away from
where every memories turn
into nightmare.
I went to Paris with Busani
after killing Antonio just to
enjoy our honeymoon away
from Cape Town.

I just woke up early today

since I am not going to work
and I decided to go
Vuyolwethu's since we are
going to Eswatini to see
Anathi.
[Knocking]
Vuyolwethu: "I'M COMING"
She opened the door and she
is wearing gown at this time,
she is even sweating and
breathing, I won't say that
is a shower steam.
Vuyolwethu: "hey bitch"
Me: "you are still wearing
gown at this time? And you
are..."
Vuyolwethu: "mmhm… I was
doing some exercises so when
I was done I decided to do
yoga"
Last time I check she
doesn't even like doing those
two things. So I just looked
at her.
Me: "just tell him if he hurts
you I will kill him"
She blushed, Vuyolwethu is
dating. Finally.
Vuyolwethu: "there is no he"
Me: "okay move I want to
get in and sit down while
waiting for you"
Vuyolwethu: "no, no, no. No
need for that I will find you
in a car"
She is hiding something or
someone.
Me: "mmmmh..."
I just went back to my car
and scroll throw Twitter to
see today's spicy story and
there is nothing interesting.
I can say I am antisocial
since I only have 2 social
media platforms, X and
Whatsapp then the rest are
unnecessary.
I just played Singing guitar
vibes by Aj Ghents, since
that is the only song that
help me escape reality
because it does sucks in this
world and my past is hunting
me day by day, and I've
never considered going to
therapy I don't think it will
help, so that is why I chose
this life to heal me, to get
me distracted to the fact
that I am a rape victim and
I killed my unborn baby.

I've been waiting for her for

couple minutes now, until she
decided to show up wearing
pink hollow out waist and
pleated long sleeve dress
with black weave, she just
decided to show off her sort
hair today. That is my light
skinned slender friend for you,
with nicely curved body.
She hoops inside.
Me: "so you are not going to
tell me his name?"
She closed the door as I
started my car and off we go
to Eswatini.
Vuyolwethu: "I've told you
already, I am not dating.
Yeah I know I am not a gym
type a girl, but I was bored"
I can tell she is lying, and her
facial expression is not
convincing.
Me: "let's just hope he is not
like those ex of yours that
replaced you with someone
you can draw with your eyes
closed"
She just laughed.
Vuyolwethu: "don't remind me
please, I was cured back in
days. But yeah you are right
I am seeing someone but I
will tell you his name when I
am pretty sure that he is
the one"
I just screamed, I am happy
for her.
Me: "I am happy for you
bitch, so you left him in your
apartment? Alone? How cruel
are you friend?"
Vuyolwethu: "don't be happy
it's too early for that. Yes, I
did, because if I didn't you
would've seen him. He is
probably gone now"
She changed my song, and
played Cardi B songs, since
she loves her. She is lucky I
connected App Music to my
car or else we will be listening
to my rnb songs all the way
to Eswatini.
Me: "unesibindi neah?"
Vuyolwethu: "yessss"
We just traveled along way,
while she was telling me
about 'Mr unknown' he might
be a good guy, due to how
she is describing him, even
though she is not getting
into details.
INSECT 49

We arrived at Eswatini after

8 hours so we arrived at
14:00 sonce we left Cape
Town around 06:00, the
guards opened the gate for
us since we are regular
visitors there is no need to
call someone inside to open up
for us.
I just drive into a long
driveway to the garade and
packed my car in front of the
garade. Everything is big
here. The yard, the house,
the garade, I know my house
is kinda big but this one is
bigger than mine.
We arrived at the front door,
we find two guards standing
there with their serious
faces holding Ak-47, i guess
they are new guards because
I've never seen them here, I
don't know why Royal guards
always put serious face. I
even noticed that there are
more guards than before.
Me: "Good evening, we are
here to see the princess"
Guard 1: "futsi nawe? (And
you are?)"
I only understand Swati but
I don’t know how to speak
it.
Me: "I am Lindokuhle and
the lady next to me is
Vuyolwethu, we are Anathi's
friends"
The other guard press his
microphone.
Guard2: "Inkhosana (the
prince)"
That must be Banzi
Guard2:
"Kunemantfombatana
lalapha, futsi atsi
angebangani ba-Inkhosatana
Anathi, singawavumela yini
kutsi angene? (There are
ladies here, and they say
they are Anathi's friends, can
we let them in?)"
I can't hear Banzi's respond.
Guard2: "Awufuni yini kutsi
siwaseshe? (You don't want
us to search them?)"
They open the door for us,
lot of people are rooming up
and down. They even hired
new helpers.
We just walked straight to
Anathi's room without
asking.
This stairs really want me to
lose kilos, they are those
stairs that are long and
form C as you walk upstairs.
Vuyolwethu: "you are lazy,
but you are carrying heavy
guns and other heavy stuff.
You even have a six pack and
muscles"
She is just exaggerating, but
I do have muscles but not
those that poops when
wearing tight things.
Me: "I wasn't ready to climb
them, not that I am lazy"
We arrived at her room, and
there are also guards near
her room, but they just let
us in without asking
questions.
Me: "hey couple"
Anathi: "Vuyolwethu and
Lindokuhle right?"
That hurts me, everyday.
Me: "yes"
Banzi: "I will leave you guys
with her"
He walked out.
Anathi: "Bengihlala
ngineliphupho muva nje, futsi
besihleti kanyekanye
emahlandla lambalwa.
Kodvwa angikukhumbuli loko,
mhlawumbe bekumane
kuyiliphupho, futsi Banzi
watsi ushadile name. Yebo
ngibona indandatho emunweni
wami kodvwa angikhumbuli
ngishade naye, nobe ngiba
yinkhosatana. Anginandzaba
nani nonkhe, futsi angikwati
kutsi ningibitelani kutsi
ngingu-Anathi, ngingu-
Nomasonto hhayi Anathi
(I've been having dreams
lately, and we hunged out
together couple of times.
But I don't remember any of
that, maybe it was just a
dream, and Banzi said he is
married to me. Yes, I can see
a ring on my finger but I
don't remember being
married to him, or being a
princess. I don't remember
any of you, and i don't know
why are you calling me
Anathi, i am Nomasonto not
Anathi)"
It is my first time hearing
her speaking Swati.
The Queen must thank her
community for finishing her
off before I do.
Vuyolwethu: "who gave you
that name?"
I guess we both don’t know
how to speak Swati.
Anathi: "Umfati
lebengihlalanaye ngaphambi
kwekutsi ngite lapha, naye
bekunguNomasonto ngako
wangibita ngeligama lakhe
(woman that I was living
with before I come here, she
is also Nomasonto so she
named me after her)"
God please just wake that
woman up from her grave so
that I can kill her myself.
Me: "you are not Nomasonto,
you are Anathi Ngonyane the
princess of Eswatini. That
woman you call Nomasonto
she is the cause of this thing
happening to you, and those
dreams you are having are
not just dreams are things
that happened in the past
friend, just fight that evil
spirit and come back to us,
your friends and your family"
I just let my tears out, I
feel like I've failed her as my
friend. I should've protected
her from that monster.
Anathi: "Angati kutsi
ngitawusebentisa luphi
lulwini kute ungive, kutsi
angisiye Anathi, angati
nekutsi ngilapha ngani.
Anisibo ngisho bangani bani,
ngaoko-ke phumani, nitjele
leyo Banzi yenu, kutsi
ingabuyi (I don't know which
language to use so that you
can hear me, I am not
Anathi, I don't even know
why I am here. You are not
even my friends so get out,
and tell that Banzi of yours,
not to come back)"
Vuyolwethu is in tears, it is
so painful.
Vuyolwethu: "we are your
friends"
Anathi: "Ngatsi PHUMANI!!
(I said GET OUT!!)"
She throws glass of water
to us, it just shattered to
the wall and small glasses
just cut me since I am
wearing a short dress.
Anathi: "PHUMANI!! (GET
OUT!!)"
We just walk out of the room,
leaving her shouting.
Banzi: "what happened? And
you are bleeding"
Me: "Anathi just hit us with
a glass, when we were busy
trying to convince her she is
not who she think she is"
Banzi: "go to the bathroom
to wipe the blood and you will
find the First Aid next to
basin. I will go and check
her"
Just a small cut, I don't
even need a bandage or
plaster.
Vuyolwethu: "she said she
doesn't want you to come"
I guess it's going to take
time for her to regain her
memory back.
We walked to guest’s
bathroom, and I wiped the
blood, luckily I didn't feel
dizzy this time.
Vuyolwethu: "that witch did
dirty on our friend, I've
never seen her like that
before"
Me: "and that break my
heart, are we coming back
home or sleeping over?"
Vuyolwethu: "we just got
here, we can't go let's just
stay a little bit then we will
leave"
We walked out and go to the
lounge.
King: "I didn't hear you two
walking in"
Me: "we arrived few minutes
ago"
He is just a man of few
words, he doesn't talk a lot,
and he is always having a
serious face. I've seen him
laughing few times since I've
been Anathi's friend, and he
is always reading a
newspaper.
King: "sorry about what my
wife did to your friend, and
Banzi told me she is getting
worse day by day. Instead of
getting better and regaining
her memory. I just wish
there is something I could do
to help, but I don't want to
do. Because we've tried
sangoma but still no
progress. But our Royal seer
when he was here last week
he said if we want her to
regain her memory back, we
must do things she loved
doing the most so I think
that will suit you two since
you are her friends. I know
Banzi is her husband but he
doesn't know her the way you
two do. So please do by all
means to help her, I put my
trust in your my girls"
Vuyolwethu: "we won't let you
down. Right Lindo?"
Me: "yes"
He walked out holding his
newspaper.
Me: "so here is the plan. We
will just project her videos
with us in her room while she
is sleeping and place things
she liked on her bed, we can't
just walk in her room while
she is not sleeping we don't
know what she will use this
time. I hope Banzi has a
projector there is no way a
business man doesn't have
one"
Vuyolwethu: "also we can ask
the helpers to cook her
favorite meal"
Me: "good idea, we do it
tonight. We will leave
tomorrow morning"
Banzi sneak up on us.
Banzi: "what are you
discussing?"
Vuyolwethu: "indoda ethanda
izingxoxo zowesifazane red
flag"
He chuckles.
Banzi: "I think, I heard you
two planning something"
Me: "yes, we were...."
Vuyolwethu: "planning
something"
He just looked at us not
convinced.
Vuyolwethu: "just kidding, we
want to help Anathi to
regain her memory"
Banzi: "I've tried that
multiple times but I failed.
It feels like the death of my
mother make things worse"
Me: "let's us try our plan
then if it fails we will move
to another one. We will need
you to borrow us your
projector. She is sleeping
right?"
He was confused.
Banzi: "yeah, she is sleeping.
You will find a projector in her
study, I trust her projector
not mine. Just hope your plan
works"
Vuyolwethu: "before you go,
please tell your helpers to
make her favorite meal.
Pleaseee"
Banzi: "okay okay"
He walked out.

BONGIWE

I am Bongiwe Ntlebi, the

wife of my late husband
Bongani Ntlebi. I am still
grieving, I can't get over to
the fact that I lost my
husband so soon.
So I am a Vet, I just love
animals with all my heart, I
first saw Bongani when we
were at an interview, so we
were both chosen. We became
friends since I didn't have
any friends in Cape Town, but
he told me he has 3 female
friends already. So the other
day it was Christmas Eve,
we were knocking out early.
Bongani: "Bongiwe do you
mind spending Christmas Eve
with me? I don't have family
to spend it with, and my
friends are busy today"
I already planned to spend it
with my parents, but his
puppy eyes tricked me.
Me: "I don't mind"
We took off our coats, and
place them inside our
dressing room.
We walked to the parking lot
and he was driving blue
Range Rover, I didn't know
anything about him owning a
farm that day.
We drove to his house, yes his
house. I mean he only had
few months working but he
was having a house of his
own, even though I was
living at my parent's.
Me: "you are 21 years right?"
Bongani: "yes"
Me: "and you have a house of
your own, you are driving
luxury car"
Bongani: "story for another
day. And it can be our house."
The fact that he said 'our'
shocked me.
We walked inside his house,
and most of things were
decorated in blue. I just
assumed that maybe he
loves blue.
Bongani: "do you like it?"
Me: "like? Hell no I love it, it
is so beautiful"
He held my hand and walk me
to the lounge, and still
decorated in blue. He pulled a
seat for me, as I place my
butt.
Three chefs walked in holding
lot of food, like lot of food
even though it was just the
two of us.
Me: "do you have another
guest?"
Bongani: "no"
I saw things that I never
thought I will see in front of
my eyes.
Me: "so who is going to finish
this food?"
Bongani: "us"
We just ate in silent.
During those days I was just
a slender lady, but now I am
chubby mom all because of
goodies Bongani stuffed me
with, my body is similar to
Shakinah's body.

After eating we walked to

his back yard, and it was
some sort of animal back
yard. Because I saw
tortoises, rabbits, ducks,
cats, dogs, lizards, snakes
but harmless snakes. They
had their own cages, because
if he closed them in one cage
it would be a mess. It was
beautiful back yard, I felt
like I was in a neighborhood
zoo, I even saw animal
status.
Me: "who is looking after
them when you are at
work?"
Bongani: "one of my helpers.
I was serious when I said
this house can be our house,
because i love you Bongiwe
ever since I laid my eyes on
you I saw my wife in you, the
mother of my children. I see
the future in your eyes
Bongiwe, our future. I've
never got crazy about
someone like I am right now.
I promise to give you the
happiness you deserve not
heartbreak or heart attack
that will cause nightmare.
Can you be my girlfriend?"
Me: "I can't Bongani, I am
sorry but I can't"
I still don't know why I said
that, maybe I was stupid.

When they said "Don't give

up until you get it" they were
referring to Bongani, because
he didn't give up, he would
buy me flowers and chocolate
every week having a note
saying "I was serious
Bongiwe, Can you be my
girlfriend?" If I am not
mistaken he send me 13
flowers along with different
flavours of Lindit with that
message until my mother
said to me.
Mom: "if he didn't love you he
wouldn't be sending those
flowers and cards, just give
him a chance and see where
this relationship leave you
two. You might not know
what the future holds for
you and him"

At my birthday they throw

me a surprise party, not just
a surprise party. He was
there and planned that
surprise and decorated will
you marry me? And happy
birthday. He skipped "can you
be my girlfriend?" And went
straight to proposing.
I wanted to say no but my
mother's words kept playing
in my head, so I said yes.
Then we got married and I
gave birth to a beautiful
girl. I named her Luthando
but Bongani didn't like that
name so he named her Zinzi,
so we decided to give her
both those names because
we couldn't chose the perfect
one for her.

Just hope she doesn't ask

me why we gave her both
Xhosa and Zulu name. Just
miss my husband every single
day, just feel like he could
just appear and say "hey
sweetheart".
We've been running the farm
so well, we are making lot of
profit every week. But since
Anathi lost her memory,
that disturbed us, Lindo told
me earlier that they are
planning something to save
her, hopefully it will work.
That ass hole called
Nolwandle Zulu is carrying
triplets not one baby or
twins, I mean triplets I
don't know how am I going
to get the custody of other
two babies, since it is stated
clearly in papers that
Bongani got a full custody of
only one baby.
Bongani really left me in hell.
Even though if I try to
convince her to give me the
babies without causing any
drama, she won't listen to
me, she is one crazy bitch.
I decided to call her over to
show 'kindness', 'love' and
'support'. I don't want to lie
I hate her, I tried to fake
it but I can't.
Nolwandle: "hi Bongi"
God just come and take her,
or else I will send her to you.
Me: "yeah skhebereshe, are
you waiting for me to say sit
down?"
She took her seat, she is
carrying a big tummy.
Nolwandle: "you are going to
call me that until when?"
Me: "until you give birth and
get the fuck out of my life"
She chuckles.
Nolwandle: "you seem to
forget that I am carrying
Ntlebi, Bongani's genes and
you won't stop me from
getting what I want,
because I will. And that child
you think I will just give
away to you because your
dead husband said so, forget
about it. I must be having
good eggs to fertilize
Bongani's sperm and carry
triplets, while you Mrs Goody
two shoes you only gave him
one daughter. After all this
years, one? Is that how
strong you are? Shame on
you."
Bongani you will have to
forgive me for killing her
before she gives birth,
because I will.
Me: "if you didn't drop out in
grade 9 we will be talking
about something else right
now, but clearly you just
think with that empty head
of yours miss beauty with no
brains. Those babies you are
carrying are the sign of
trying to break other
people's marriage."
She laugh so loud.
Nolwandle: "very funny, if I
am carrying his heir then it
will be the end of you.
Because he didn't specify the
gender in that letter. I
guess our war just began."
Why did I ask her to come?
Nxaa. She stand up and walk
out.
Luthando: "mama am I going
to have siblings?"
When did she come back from
school?
Me: "what make you think
so?"
Luthando: "mama, I am 7
years old not a fool, I heared
you two speaking and I saw
her at my father's funeral
when they were reading out
the will. So it is true?"
She is getting clever as she
grows, she amazes me
everyday.
Me: "yes it is true"
She jumps with joy.
Luthando: "yeiiii, I am going
to be a sister finally."
I hate the fact that she is
happy for that. She run
upstairs holding her school
bag.
Me: "Siri please call Sizwe"
I was so tired to stand up
and crap my phone. He
answered at the third ring.
Sizwe: "Mrs Ntlebi, how may
I help you?"
Me: "hey, Sizwe. Can't you do
something to make those
custody papers to state
that, Bongani got full
custody of the triplets not
one baby?"
Sizwe: [sigh] "unfortunately
I can't because she already
signed them, and she is
holding original papers while
I am having copies"
I am doomed!
Me: "okay, thank you. I will
make a plan"
He hang up. I need to think
fast, before she strike back.
Me: "Bongiwe think! Think!"
I don't know who or what to
think.
Siri: "Lindokuhle is calling you,
should I answer or reject?"
Me: "answer"
I just love Lindokuhle, she is
like a sister to me since I
only have brothers. My tough
woman, don't tell her I said
that. But she is kind of
tough because of her six pack
and little muscles. Our sgaxa
gaxa.
Lindo: "sthandwa sam"
Me: "my love, how are you"
Lindo: "I am more than fine,
since we managed to regain
Anathi's memory, few
minutes ago"
I can hear excitement in her
voice.
Me: "finally, inkosazana yethu
ibuyile"
Then I hear Vuyolwethu
laughing.
Vuyolwethu: "uyaphapha
Bongiwe"
Me: "I miss you guys, tell
Anathi I miss her more"
Lindo: "we will tell her, when
she wake up. Because she's
been sleeping after that
process"
Maybe she will help me with
the custody.
Me: "luckily you called me, i
need your help."
Lindo: "if it is killing someone
I won't hesitate"
I chuckled.
Me: "not that, so Nolwandle
was here and she requested
a war. Can you please tell
Sticks to help me, pleaseeee"
Vuyolwethu: "I will help you,
but I will charge you"
Me: "help as in forging
custody papers right?"
Vuyolwethu: "yooh kidding, tell
Sticks. He is the mastermind
of those things"
Lindo: "I will tell him. But
you must know that after he
did it, Nolwandle will fight for
those babies until she get
them. Win-lose challenge"
I know and I saw Nolwandle
is crazy, it's like there is a
missing piece in her head.
Me: "I will cross the bridge
when we get there"
Vuyolwethu: "you go girl,
that's the spirit"
I don't want to lie, I am
scared but I will fight for
the legacy Bongani built.
Me: "I will see you guys when
you come back, bye"
Vuyolwethu: "bye, we love
you"
They hang up. Luthando
walk down the stairs holding
her books and MacBook.
Luthando: "mama, I am
going to my study room to do
my homeworks, and I will do
it myself. I want to see
where I went wrong when I
am writing."
My intelligent young girl.
Me: "okay, are you hungry?"
Luthando: "yes but I will eat
when i am done"
She walk straight to her
study room. As I decide to go
to the kitchen and make
lunch.
I took out the steak, sweet
corn, veges and spices. I
don't need any helper or
nanny, because i can do all
this things, except garden.
INSECT 50

BUSANI

Me: "so you've been

communicating with Xhaba,
all along and you didn't even
bother telling me"
Lindo: "I only spoke with him
few times"
I feel my body boiling.
Me: "and you slept with him?
Huh? We are married for
heaven sake, you can't go
around sleeping with your ex"
Lindo: "I didn't sleep with
him, where did you get
that?"
Me: "don't tell me that, I
know you did it!!"
I don't know how my hand
moved, but my hand made
contact with her cheek.
Lindo: "ungishayelani Busani!!"

I woke up screaming, what a

bad dream. I don't want to
see myself abusing her or
laying my hand on her face or
body.
Lindo: "babe are you okay?
Because you've been kicking
and tossing the whole night"
She held me closer, as I was
trying to catch a breath.
Me: "bad dream"
Lindo: "mind sharing it?"
I took a deep breath, hoping
that what I just said in
that dream was a lie.
Me: "when was the last time
seeing Xhaba"
Lindo: "the day you returned
back to the game, I found
him in my office. But I kicked
him out"
I know she is telling me the
truth, but the other part of
me is debating with that.
Me: "okay."
She looked at me for a while.
Lindo: "I won't ask many
questions. Let me go brush
my teeth, and check the
baby"
We adopted albino baby girl,
yesterday. When she got back
to Eswatini. We named her
Khloe. Lindo didn't want to
give her a Zulu name, I don't
why. Maybe she will explain it
in her POV.
She is so cute, I love her
blond hair, her blond
eyebrows, her blond
eyelashes, her pale skin and
her blue eyes. I feel like we
are living with an angel.
What I love about her is
that she is not a crying baby.
She is 11 months old, she can
walk and have small teeth
according to my mother we
are not supposed to count
them because they might
not grow. I am still living at
Lindo's, we will move out
tomorrow to our house, just
hope she love it.
I got out of the bed, and got
to the bathroom to take a
shower.
When I was done, I walked
into our closet and picked
black sweat pants and white
vest since I am not going to
work today, but we are
having guests.
I walked downstairs and I
found Lindo busy feeding
Khloe and she is wearing
clean clothes, and Nosipho
was busy picking up her
stuff i guess Lindo gave her
a day off just to rest since
she is pregnant, and I hope
she will love what Lindo will
give her tomorrow went we
are leaving.
Me: "hey baby girl"
She chuckles, I love her so
much.
Me: "Goodmorning Nosipho"
Nosipho: "Goodmorning sir"
I hate being called sir, it
make me feel old. Even
though I am only 30.
Lindo: "your breakfast is in
the microwave, you will warm
it"

LINDO

It's not like I am angry at

him or something, just that
I feel like he might be
suspecting something about
me and Xhaba, I mean I only
talked with him twice and
never mate with him or
anything.
So the good news are we
adopted every beautiful baby
girl at orphanage yesterday.
Her albinism only adds to her
ethereal beauty, making her
seem almost otherworldly.
Her skin is a radiant
porcelain, her hair a soft,
silky white, and her eyes a
piercing blue that seems to
see right to the soul.
At first, I was concerned
about the challenges she
might face, but from the
moment we met her, I knew
she was a fighter. Her smile
lights up the room, and her
laughter is infectious. She
has already taught us to see
the world in a new light, to
appreciate the beauty in
differences and to celebrate
what makes us all unique.
She’s our moonbeam, shining
bright. I just grew up loving
albino people, so that is why
I decided to adopt albino
baby and I am glad Busani
didn't debate with my
decision. I don't have a
reason why I named her
Khloe, I know when she grow
up she will ask us why is she
having English name not Zulu
name and why is she
different from us. I guess I
am ready for those questions.
I left her with her daddy,
and run upstairs to take a
shower since my gang, my
friends and his friends are
coming over to see Khloe
around 10:00. I guess I am
now a mother, and I don't
doubt it because this is what
I always wanted after being
told that I won't be able to
make babies of my own.
When I was done taking a
shower, I lotion my body and
walk into the closet. I
haven't packed anything, but
I am moving out tomorrow.
I picked light brown one
shoulder cut out knot side
ruched bodycon dress, then
took my white flip flops.
Combed my hair, I need to do
new hair style this hair is so
big for me to comb it
everyday i won't have energy
to comb it or else i will cut it,
when it starts to bore me. I
didn't put any make up, I
don't have time for doing it,
because this hair exhaust
me. Many people always ask
me if I am black American
woman or not because of my
hair and skin tone, then I
will say no.
I walked out and I smell
delicious aroma. Nosipho
knows how to cook, but
sometimes I insist when I
don't have much things to do,
but today she insisted to
cook before she go home and
she looks more beautiful in
her pregnancy.
I helped her with the table,
placed the plates and
glasses.
Busani was watching soccer
with Khloe, just hope she
doesn't grow up loving soccer.
As I was busy placing
different wines and juice, I
hear a knock. My gang just
burst in, without waiting for
respond. Holding paper bag, it
might be Khloe's gifts.
Numbers: "where is our
neice?"
He doesn't even greet me.
Me: "hey to you too Philano.
Your niece?"
I know he hate that name,
but since he didn't greet
then I will call him Philano
today.
Numbers: "I am going to
Home Affairs tomorrow to
change that name, yes our
neice. We are her uncles. I
bought her toys"
I chuckled, he is really
unbelievable. I took a paper
bag, then open it I see teddy
bear and not just a teddy
bear it is breathing teddy
and chew toys.
Cheeseboy: "that was
obvious the moment you
chose her, we are her uncles
no negotiations. I bought
her playing matt"
He hand me big paper bag,
with box inside I will unwrap
it tomorrow at my new house
I haven't seen.
Busani walk in the lounge
holding Khloe.
Spitjo: "woza kumalume
wakho mshana wami"
Don't want Khloe growing up
speaking Zulu, so I won't
even use it when I am
speaking with her.
Busani hand her to Spitjo.
Spitjo: "mntimande,
Bambolunye, Zingaba mbili,
Zifuze konina, Ekhabonina,
Mabuya, Bengasabuyi Baye
babuya Emangwaneni,
Nungunde, Wakhothe,
Bayosala beziloyanisa"
Then I hear whistles from
my gang, and I was shocked.
How did he know Busani's
clan name.
Busani: "babe did you?"
Me: "no, I am also shocked"
Spitjo: "I am not handsome
for no reason, I crammed
them last night"
Sticks: "nja yam"
We laughed. Sticks hand me
paper bag then i open it, i
see pink Gucci clothes this is
so cute.
Spitjo walked out and walk in
pushing big BMW toy car, my
baby girl is going to drive.
As i was busy admiring the
gifts Anathi, Vuyolwethu and
Qhawekazi walk in holding
gift boxes and paper bags.
Anathi: "aww popi nyana wa
mamane, come to your aunt"
It rare hearing her speaking
sesotho very rare.
Me: "aunt? Heee Anathi"
Qhawekazi: "that makes me
her grandmother"
Me: "grandmother? At the
age of 27?"
I chuckled.
Vuyolwethu: "obviously i am
her rich aunty, no need for
your approval my dear"
Unbelievable. Khloe was
enjoying being hold by them,
because she was playing with
them and laugh when they do
funny faces showing off her
tiny teeth. Vuyolwethu
bought 3 pairs of Nike
sneakers and two piece of
Nike clothes, then Anathi
bought lot of toys like lot
then Qhawekazi bought pink
and white adidas clothes for
Khloe.
I never thought of expecting
peace and happiness at the
same time, in this particular
economy. But I know they
don't last forever, but I will
enjoy it while it last.
They took their seats as
Khaya and Ifalethu walk in,
holding rapped boxes and
paper bags. I will look at
them tonight.
Khaya: "aww bandla,
mashana wa malume. Pass
me a wine, so that I can
welcome my niece to the
hood"
I am teamed up with crazy
people.
Busani: [softly] "you will drink
it right? Not splash it on her
face?"
Khaya: "I will drink it, Sis
Lindo will kill me for doing
that"
Me: [calm] "glad you know"
Everyone just laughed.
Ifalethu: "she is so cute, you
knew how to choose."
He is just a quiet person, but
they say quite people are
dangerous.
Me: "thank you, and thank
you guys for the gifts"
They took their seats, they
don't want to let her go.
They really love her, and I
love the face that they don't
judge her according to her
skin, I guess they will feed
her since they don't want to
bring her back to me.
I don't know where Bongiwe
is she was supposed to be
her already.
Nosipho: "my shift is over,
have a nice day guys"
Me: "please come early
tomorrow I have something
for you"
Nosipho: "I will ma'am"
Them: "bye Nosipho"
I am crossing fingers, I just
hope she love her gift even if
she reject it, it will be fine.
Me: "Sticks did you bring the
papers?"
Sticks: "yes"
He pass them to Khaya then
Khaya passed them to
Busani since he is 2 seats
away.
I place them on top on
Khloe's chair.
We dish up for ourselves, as
Numbers took Khloe's food to
feed her before he eat.
Cheese boy: "have you packed
your clothes and other things
you will need?"
I just don't have energy to
pack, and I don't have
enough suitcases.
Me: "no"
Spitjo: "we will help you, we
have a whole day"
They are really God sent
people.
Busani: "then I will go to the
mall with my baby girl to buy
few suitcases and her
lotions"
I guess Khloe is going to be
given more time than me.
I turned to look at Anathi
and I see her face is getting
better because she was
having scars.
We ate, when we finish up
they took Khloe to the
lounge, they are going to spoil
her rotten, trust me.
I cleaned up the table with
the help of my friends and
Qhawekazi.
Qhawekazi: "let's go and
pack your clothes and other
things you will need"
I can't believe that I am
leaving my house so soon.
Me: "GENTS WE ARE
DONE!"
They came out, and Busani is
holding keys I guess he is
going to the mall with Khloe
already.
Busani: "I guess that is my
cue with my little princess"
He kissed me, his kiss always
make me wet but I have to
behave. He take Khloe from
Sticks, as he walk out holding
her along with her prum.

BUSANI

God just decided to bless me

with warm home, loving
family and supportive friends
but did one wrong thing by
giving me that evil-greedy
step mother my father
married and i think he is
blindfolded by the love
because he doesn't see that
she wants his money nothing
else. My father believes in a
polygamy since he said it's
part of the culture and i
don't know how my mother
agreed being part of it, but
I don't believe in such things
even if I did I know that
Lindo will kill me or my other
wife or both of us.
I placed Khloe at the
backseat and strapped her
on her seat, kissed her on her
forehead as she giggles.
Then I gave her the toy, to
keep her busy. I fold her
prum inside the boot.
I started my car, then off
we go to the mall.

We arrived at the mall after

20 minutes, then I placed
her inside her pram then
gave her the bottle and the
toy she was holding. We got
inside Frasers, in V&A
Waterfront then I saw big
suitcases that will be good
enough for our clothes, I
called Khaya.
Ifalethu: "miss me daddy?"
Me: "nxa voetsek wena, I
need you to come and take
this suitcases. I never
thought I wouldn't be able
to hold them, and come with
your Ford so that they can
fit"
Ifalethu: "just say, you
wanted to go to the mall
with Khloe and stop with
your excuses. But anyway I
am coming"
He is right, I wanted to
show Khloe around Cape
Town and spend the day with
her.
Me: "I knew I can count on
you, you will find them at
Frasers, bye"
He hanged up. I walked to
Clicks, then I bought skin
products for her since she is
having a sensitive skin and
also lot of purity flavours. I
guess that’s all we will need
since she is having lot of
clothes.
I put the plastic at the
back of her prum then
walked to McDonald's.
I ordered food for us with
my phone.
Waiter: "you can take a seat
sir while waiting for your
order. By the way your
daughter is so cute"
I just wish she can hear the
compliments.
Me: "thank you"
As i was waiting for the
order I see familiar woman
taking a seat opposite to our
table. I looked at her for a
while then I notice that she
is Keketso Georgia Pita my
ex wife. I played with Khloe
and took Khloe pictures, so
that she cannot notice me.
Keketso: "I guess I am
drowning in a deep dream.
This can't be happening
Busani George Ngwenya. You
can try to hide from me but
I know you"
She got up from her table
and seat at our table.
Keketso: "albino? I thought
you are clever enough to see
that she is not your baby and
don't look like you. When did
you make her because we
divorced last year December
or she is a premature girl? I
guess it is high time to visit
your own child"
Why so many questions, and
why is she curious because
we are no longer married. She
said what? A child? Last
time I checked she had a
miscarriage.
Me: "that's none of your
business. Which child Keketso
because I don’t remember
you being pregnant"
The waiter bring my order,
then place it in front of me,
as I give Khloe fries, she is
enjoying them.
Keketso: "I was 5 months
pregnant before we divorced,
and I know I destroyed you,
but I am willing to change
that. Let's get married
again and leave that wife of
yours because it is clear that
she is cheating on you. I am
willing to bring our cigarette
business together, just give
me the chance"
5 months pregnant when?
She is lying and yes, 'our
business' because we started
it together before
introducing Ifalethu and
Khaya into it, and the other
G is her second name
Georgia, so we named it GG
Cigarettes. But I have to
change it, before Lindo knows
the full meaning of GG.
Me: "no and I know that you
are lying about the baby you
just want something that
will connect us again"
Keketso: "what do you mean
when you say no? Busani
we've been through the
worse together, I even took
a bullet for you remember?
Then you are saying no? To
me? Then I guess I will
have to fight for what is
mine, meaning you and our
business and that is our son’s
legacy"
She got up, I've lost my
appetite. She just ruined my
day. I just hope Lindokuhle
doesn’t find out about the
baby until I am convinced
that she was carrying my
son.
I walked out, to the parking.
I notice that my tyres are
flat, I guess her war just
began. I contacted my
insurance company the
location and the issue. I see
Ifalethu walking into the
parking with couple
suitcases, then I decided to
go to him.
Ifalethu: "you love me
neah?"
I still don't believe that he
is not straight, but I can't
judge him since we are all
born different.
Me: "mxm, Keketso is back"
Ifalethu: [shocked] "when?"
Me: "i don't when but I was
with her few minutes ago,
and she threatened me, now
my tyres are flat, I guess
she poked them and she said
we have a son together"
Just a lunatic woman.
Ifalethu: "A what? Sis Lindo
is going to kill you when she
finds out"
Me: "I know, I know that is
why I want a proof of her
scenario. I think Khloe is
tired because she is sleeping"
Ifalethu: "obviously she is
lying. Ncow she is so cute.
Masihambe bafo"
We got inside his car, then I
folded her pram, then place it
at the back. I put her on my
lap, then off we go.
INSECT 51

TLOTLISO

My life is always a living hell,

but I am getting used to it.
So today I am giving a
speech about GBV, I refused
at first to give a speech but
they managed to twist my
hand since I am the head
boy I have to do it, whether
I like it or not. I am the
victim of GBV and I am
going to give a speech about
it, what a coincidence.
Principal: "we are gathered
here today to speak about
Gender-based violence that is
dominant in our country, not
only girls are being violated
but even boys are the
victims, and if you are one of
them don't be scared to come
to your teachers or even me
your principal, so our head girl
Monica Van Ryan will give the
speech first then our head
boy Tlotliso Motaung will
follow."
I don't think I will have a
courage to go and tell them
my story.
Monica: "Fellow students,
teachers, and staff. Today, I
want to talk about
something that affects us
all, whether we realize it or
not. Gender-based violence is
a silent pandemic that
infects our homes, schools,
and communities. It's a
disease that perpetuates
fear, shame, and silence.
As a head girl, I've seen how
GBV can affect our peers,
friends, and even ourselves.
We've lost classmates to
domestic violence, seen
friends struggle with sexual
harassment, and witnessed
the devastating impact on
mental health.
But I stand before you
today to say that enough is
enough! We must break the
silence, challenge harmful
gender stereotypes, and
support those affected by
GBV.
We need to create a culture
where consent is respected,
boundaries are honored, and
healthy relationships are
valued. We must educate
ourselves and others,
support survivors, and hold
perpetrators accountable.
Let us unite to create a safe
and inclusive environment for
all. Together, we can end
GBV and build a brighter
future for ourselves and
generations to come.
Thank you."
Short and sweet.
[Applause]
Me: "Fellow students,
teachers, and staff.
Today, I want to address a
critical issue that affects us
all, regardless of gender or
background. Gender-based
violence is a scourge that
perpetuates fear, shame,
and silence. It's a crisis that
demands our attention and
action.
As a head boy, I acknowledge
that GBV is often
perpetuated by harmful
gender stereotypes and toxic
masculinity. I recognize that
we, as men, have a vital role
to play in challenging these
norms and promoting positive
change.
We must stand in solidarity
with survivors, listen to
their stories, and amplify
their voices. We must
educate ourselves about
consent, healthy
relationships, and gender
equality. We must hold
perpetrators accountable and
support those who speak out
against GBV.
Together, we can create a
culture of respect, empathy,
and inclusivity. Let us strive
to be allies, advocates, and
champions for change.
We can end GBV, but it
starts with us. Let us rise
to the challenge and build a
brighter, safer future for all.
Thank you."
[Applause]
I said things that I know
deep down I won't do, when
my father beat me again.
But it made me feel better.
Other RCL members gave
speech as well as SGB
members. Then we departure
to our classes.
Monica: "your speech was so
good, people will even think
you were holding a piece of
paper"
You will judge me if I say I
love her? But I don't want
to lie, I do love her, but I
am too young for dating so I
guess I will have to wait
until we are old enough to
date.
Me: "thank you, I practiced
all night, and yours was
better than mine"
Monica: [blushing] "thank
you, I wonder why they
always do speech day every
Thursday or maybe to
prepare us for being better
leaders"
I never thought of that but
I guess she is right because
there is always new topic to
discuss about every
Thursday during LO, then we
speak everything we think
about it in front of everyone,
and the best part about
Thursday is that we knock
out early.
Me: "I guess"
We packed our books as we go
home, I don't prefer it as
home anymore that is hell. I
walked out of the class with
Monica to the bus stop, to
wait with her while I am
waiting for my driver. My
'father' did by all means to
get me a driver, he said he
doesn't want his son to use a
bus what if i am not his son
because i don't look like him,
I hate this 'rich lifestyle' I
want to live a normal life like
other kids, eat school meal,
use school bus when I am
going to school and when I
am going back to hell. But
the whole minister refused.
Monica: "you must be rich
neah?"
She looked at me straight
into my eyes to the point
where I couldn't maintain
her light blue eyes.
Me: "what do you mean?"
Monica: "you don't use the
bus, you don't eat school
meal, you use MacBook
instead of Notebook, you even
use this latest phone called
HUAWEI Pura70 Series and
they open the car for you. I
know private school kids are
considering as rich kids, but
you are rich that us, some of
us we are moderate"
I didn't know that she
noticed all those things.
Me: "no, I am not rich"
With that being said, we see
Mercedes-Benz AMG GT 63
being packed opposite to us.
The person who is driving
walked out, then I notice
that he is my driver, they
bought a new car, wow. He
opened the car for me.
Monica: "what I've just said,
you are rich Tlotliso"
I hate how she pronounce my
name like Tlhotlhiso. That
monster really like show off.
Me: "believe me, I am not
rich. Anyways bye, have a
nice day"
I throw my bag inside the
car, as I get it. Then the
driver started the car, then
off we go to hell.
It usually take us 30
minutes, but today it took us
20 minutes due to how fast
he was driving, maybe he
wanted to kill us.
I opened the door before he
does then bang the door so
hard, I don't even care if I
damaged it. I walked slowly
to the house then the
guards opened the door for
me, when I enter one of our
helpers took my bag and
blazer, I really hate being
treated like an egg or prince,
and the fact that my father
turned these people into
slaves, and my mother didn't
argue with him.
Oh I forgot to tell you, that
I had a little sister called
Keamohetswe who was 2
months old because she was
born prematurely, she died
yesterday, and all I know is
that my mother found her in
her crib lifeless and Lefa
refused when Doctors
insisted to check the cause of
death. Also Lefa cremated
her without my mother's
approval, then buried her
the same day she died,
meaning it was her funeral
yesterday just small
heartbreaking funeral, i just
couldn't believe that i lost my
younger sister so soon. But
there is more to this thing,
because that day she was
with that monster, what if
he raped her until she take
her last breath, let me just
stop accusing him but one
day l will find the truth.
I found them, in the kitchen
busy teasing each other, how
disgusting. They just lost a
baby but they are happy.
Dad: "ngwana waka, o bone re
o reketse koloi? (My child, did
you see that we bought you
a car?)"
Me: "koloi? (Car?)"
Dad: "eya, koloi eo latileng
kajeno ke ya hao (Yes, the
car that fetched you today,
it’s all yours)"
Mxm, he might be buying me
to keep quiet or something.
Me: "mhmm"
Mom: "ha o re le tanki? (You
don’t even say thank you?)"
I just walked straight to my
room. I found my bag and
blazer being perfectly placed,
I took my uniform off then
walked into my bathroom and
rinse the makeup on my face,
since I use makeup to cover
my scars. I must say I am
makeup artist, because no
one ever asked me why I am
wearing makeup, I just do it
to the point where you
couldn't tell whether it is on
my face or not.
When I was done, I picked
black shorts and black t-
shirt then my adidas
sneakers. I walked out of my
room before they call me.
Mom: "Tlotliso o dula o
lemetse mohlaena keng?
(Tlotliso you are always
injured everyday, what is
it?)"
Lefa looked at me with a
death stare, he doesn't scare
me if he think he does, and I
am not in the mood of
speaking Sotho today.
Me: "oh I forgot to tell you
mom, I joined Karate last
week and we are not using
gloves"
I see a smirk on his face,
thinking he won. Yeah I lied
again, I didn't join Karate
and I don't know whether
they use gloves or not.
Because I only joined music
and poetry at school.
Mom: "ka mantswe a mang
tlameile ke letsetse titjhere
ya hao, hobane o dula o
lemetse (In other words I
have to call your teacher,
because you are always
injured)"
Me: "no mom, that won't be
necessary I will be careful
next time"
He is still having a smirk on
his face.
Mom: "o se o tla tshola dijo,
hobane ke ya mosebetsing.
Bye (You will dish up for
yourself, because I am going
to work.)"
She take her bag then walk
out.
Dad: "nkabe o buile nnete, le
teng ha e kabe o ne a tlo o
kgolwa ha o qeta ho
mojwetsa (You should’ve told
her, and if she was going to
believe you after telling her)"
He walked out busy humming
something I don't know. I
took out the plate and dish
up, as I was busy eating I
hear one of the guard calling
me.
Guard: "Tlotliso you have a
guest"
I like the fact that they
never speak Sesotho with
me. I see my friend Quinton
De Kork.
Me: "my buddy"
Then we do our hand shake
greeting.
Quinton: "long time no seen
buddy"
He last saw me last week
but he says long time no
seen.
Me: [laughing] "but we last
saw each other last week. Do
you want drink or water?"
Just wish he can sleepover
so that Lefa doesn't beat
me tonight.
Quinton: "whatever. Drink
please"
I filled two glasses, as we
walked to my room.
Then we play FIFA.
Quinton: "you don't mind if I
sleep over right? Since it is
holiday tomorrow and we are
not going to school"
I almost screamed.
Me: "yes, I don't mind"
Quinton: "then I will go and
get my stuff. Please tell your
father that I am coming I
don't want him to be
surprised when I walk in
with my bags"
I won't tell him, his bags
will.
Me: "let me accompany you"
We walk out with our
glasses, I don't like dirty
room.
When I was about to open
the door I hear footsteps.
Dad: "where are you going?"
He only speaks English when
Quinton is around.
Quinton: "at my..."
Me: "outside to play ball"
Quinton looked at me
shocked.
Dad: "okay"
We walked out.
Quinton: "you lied"
Me: "yes, I lied, I will tell you
one day why I lied"
Luckily he is living 3 houses
away, so we walked. One of
the guards insisted to walk
with us for safety. We can
mugged by thefts, because I
am known as 'minister's son'
and Surgeon's son, then both
Quinton mother and father
they're both Electricians.

We arrived after 6 minutes,

then he opened the gate for
us. I like how peaceful it is
no one is rooming around with
big guns. The guard wait for
us at the gate.
When we get to the door, his
2 siblings Bianca and Jessica
come running to hug us. That
got me emotional, because I
just lost my sister.
Them: “hey brother Tlotliso”
Only coloured family that
pronounce my name correctly.
Me: “hey Bianca and Jessica,
how are you today”
Them: “we are fine”
Bianca: “what happened to
your face?”
Damn, I forgot to hide the
bruses.
Me: “I just slipped
yesterday”
Jessica: “be careful next
time”
They are so kind, in fact
everyone in this house.
We walked to the living room,
her mother is sitting alone
busy with her laptop. I call
her mam, because she is the
only person that makes me
feel the presence of the
mother in my life.
Me: “hey mam”
Quiton’s mom: “hey my child,
it’s a long where are you
hiding yourself?”
Me: [Chuckles] “I think
school work kept me busy,
but I will visit every week”
Quinton: “about that, mom
can I sleep over at Tlotliso’s
until Sunday?”
She looked at her once then
she continue with her work.
Quinton’s mom: “no problem,
but make sure that I see
you before I go to work”
We did our hand shake,
because we are happy.
Quinton: “thank you, thank
you mom. I promise you will
see me”
We run upstairs to his room
to pack his clothes.
INSECT 52

LINDO

We finished packing around

18:00 PM, now we have to
sleep, so that we can wake
up early tomorrow.
Busani walked to the
bathroom to take a shower,
I followed him.
We had our last nasty
shower in this house, when
we are done I wore my Pj’S
then he just get inside the
covers naked.
Me: “babe when did you get
the time to build that house
so fast?”
Busani: “when I was saying
I have lot of work to do at
my company when you were
preparing for the funeral, I
was lying I was busy buying
furniture and other things
online, and I had to check
how things are everyday and
all I can say, I tried my best
to get the best house for
you and Khloe”
Just hope I won’t find his
dirty secrets, when we live
together. When God said I
will bless with everything I
guess he meant my friends,
my baby and my husband.
There is nothing more I can
ask for than what I have
right more, this is more than
what I asked for when I
wanted to be free from rape.
Me: [tearly] “thank you babe,
thank you for everything
you’ve done for me so far. I
am lucky to have you in my
life. I love you”
Busani: “I love you too, this
is the beginning of our new
adventure and I promise I
will be there for you every
single day of your life”
He kissed me so passionately,
as he push my Pj’s pants
along with my underwear
down. He took ice from the
water he was drinking and
started playing with it all
over my body damn it feels so
good. Then I took the ice and
did the same with him but I
took it to the extreme
because I ended up doing sub
zero blow job on him. He is
groaning so loud. I then got
on top of him and ride him
nice and slow. Damn it is
good, then he turned me
around slowly and got on top
of me and he is going all nice
and slow while kissing me all
over. Then we both came. He
got off me and kissed me.
Busani: “I love you mama”
He got out of the bed and
come out with a wet towel
to wipe me.
When he was done, we took
our beauty sleep cuddling.
INSECT 53

LINDO

The day we’ve been waiting

for has finally arrived, they
loaded our bags and cars in
the truck. We are ready to
go, as I walk down the
stairs I find Nosipho waiting
for me in the lounge as I
instructed her yesterday.
Nosipho: “Good morning,
ma’am. I arrived early as you
said I should yesterday”
Me: “Good morning Nosi. I
have something important to
discuss with you. Please, sit
down”
She seem to be nervous.
Nosipho: “okay, ma’am. Is
everything okay?”
Me: “More than okay. I have
a surprise for you. You’ve
been an exceptional helper,
and I want to show my
appreciation”
Nosipho: “oh, ma’am, you’re
too kind. I just do my job”
Me: “your job, yes…but it’s
more than that. You’ve been
loyal, hardworking and
honest. I trust you
completely”
I know I have to tell her
about the surprise, but I
feel like praising her before
talking about it.
Nosipho: “Thank you, ma’am.
That means a lot to me”
Me: “Good. Now, I want you
to know that I’ve signed
over this house, 2 cars
BMWx5 and Lamborghini and
also a sum of R10 million to
your name.”
She immediately cries, her
tears got me emotional.
Nosipho: [tearly] “Ma’am,
I’m speechless! You’re giving
me your house, cars and R1O
million? I can’t believe it”
Me: “I wanted to show my
appreciation for your hard
work and dedication. You’ve
been like a family to me, and
I want to make sure you and
your family are taken care
of”
She wipe her tears.
Nosipho: “But ma’am, this is
too much! I don’t know what
to say or do!”
Me: “just say thank you and
enjoy your new life! So they’re
all yours.”
Nosipho: “Thank you for your
kindness and generosity. You’ll
always be in my heart”
Me: “And you in mine. You will
find your four guards and a
driver outside, and also there
is a truck outside waiting for
you to fetch your stuff and
your family. I will take care
of your Medical Aid and bills
as always, I will book an
appointment with your new
personal doctor tomorrow for
checkups. Have a nice day
Nosi”
I am going to spoil her baby
rotten.
Nosipho: “words can’t express
what I am feeling right now,
may God protect your kind
heart from evil people.
Thank you, ma’am. Enjoy the
rest of your day in your new
house”
I hugged her so tight, I am
going to miss her. But I will
visit her every week.
Me: “when I walk out of
that door please memorise
calling me by my name. Bye
Nosi, pass my regards to your
family”
I walked out as she was
busy admiring the house.
Vuyolwethu: “you took your
time”
My newly found monitor.
Me: “I am done Vuyolwethu,
we can go”
We buckle ourselves in, I am
so nervous. Our new house is
at Strathcona Road, close to
the table mountain.
They are driving so fast, I
kept on playing with Khloe to
keep me distracted.
We arrived, Busani punches in
a code at the gate, use
access card and place his
finger to be scanned, I like
how it is protected.
The gate opens and we drive
into one long driveway with a
beautifully manicured lawn on
the either side if it.
Vuyolwethu: “WOW!!!!”
It is so big and beautiful,
than my previous house. He
stops the car in front of the
garade as the others follow
suit.
Busani: “you will either use a
code, key or this access card
to open this door”
He hand us access cards with
the pin behind then they
offload the bags and put
them inside.
As I step into our new house
with my friends and Khloe
along with Busani next to
me, I can’t help but feel a
sense of pride and
excitement. The first thing
that catches my eyes when
we step into our new house is
the huge stunning aquarium
on the wall, teeming with
vibrant marine life. The soft
glow of the tank illuminates
the room, creating a sense of
serenity and calm.
As we make our way through
the lounge that has a ten
seater corner couch with two
chairs nect to it, we are
surrounded by life-size
portraits of my loved ones
and me. They are beautifully
captured moments that fill
my heart with joy and
gratitude. We make make our
way to the kitchen, it is so
beautiful, there’s an 8 plate
stove with a griller built into
it. The sink is facing a long
window that overlooks a
beautiful mini fountain above
a tiny pond with fish moving
around. I guess he really
know that I love fishes. The
fridge, is a door-in-door
fridge.
The dining room has a huge
round table and I count 18
chairs, I don’t think I will
invite 18 people.
Busani: “do you like it?”
He says that kissing me.
Me: “hell no, I love it. It’s so
beautiful”
As we move further in, I
notice a sleek wine cabinet,
perfectely stocked with my
favorite vintages. I mean
we haven’t moved upstairs
but I am already taken
away by this house.
Busani: “it is not just a sleek
wine cabinet, let’s just call it
a gun-sleek wine cabinet”
He pulled an empty bottle as
the cabinet parts revealing
many guns from AK-47,
Raffle, shortguns and sniper.
I am going to love this
house.
Anathi: “Wow, I’ve never
seen something like this
before”
Me: “you can say that again.”
We moved to the next room,
I will call it entertainment
room because I see pool
table, chess table, few
arcade games and a big table
with small puzzles a move
further to the book shelf
and I see books of my
favorite authors Sharon Dill
and Colleen Hoover, also
Vuyolwethu’s favorite book
called Eye On The Road.
Moving further to another
room, Busani open the door
slowly as the lights turn on.
We walk in, Cinema room? Oh
my God. I know I had a
cinema room but it feels like
we are in a real cinema, it’s
so big, with big flat screen
TV and the couches are
placed perfectly fine and the
dime lights just do wonders
to it.
We moved upstairs using a
sleek elevator, we make our
way to the roof before going
to the rooms. It’s so big I
can’t wait to show off the
piece de resistance-the
helipad! The thrill of having
a helicopter land on my
rooftop is exhilarating and
the views of the city skyline
are simply breathtaking. I
see the small swimming pool
at the far end of the roof
with comfortable chairs
nearby.
Back inside, we moved to the
room with a sliding door, I
notice we are in a gym room,
is fully equipped, perfect for
a morning workout or yoga.
As I step into my serene
bedroom retreat, I’m
enveloped in a sense of
tranquillity and luxury. The
soft, plush carpet beneath
my feet whispers comfort,
while the plush bedding and
pillows beckon me to linger.
We walk into a huge floor
length mirror and Busani
presses a button, the mirror
slides open as my gaze is
drawn to the magnificent
closet, let’s just call it a
dressing room. With it’s
custom shelves, drawers and
hanging spaces.
Nearby, the mini fireplace
crackles and pops, casting a
warm glow over the room. On
chilly evenings, I’ll cozy up
with a good book and a cup of
coffee, feeling like royalty.
He walked me to my very own
pamper room close to the
bathroom, my own private
spa. Where I can indulge in
self-care and relaxation.
Busani: “you will see other
room when you are not tired,
because you seem to be. Let’s
go to Khloe’s nursery”
I am really tired. He hold my
hand as we step into our
daughter’s nursery. I am
welcomed by bright colours, I
guess it will be the only room
with different colours
because this house is
decorated with my favorite
colour, black. Every detail in
this nursery has been
thoughtfully chosen to
create a nurturing
environment that fosters
growth, exploration and love.
From the whimsical wall art
with her name to the plush
area rug, it’s so beautiful.
The crib, adorned with
delicate mobiles and plush
toys, is a cozy haven for my
baby girl to sleep and dream.
I can already imagine her
tiny hands grasping the soft
bedding and her cute face
smiling up at me.
Busani: “let me close the
curtains so that you can see
how this nursery looks like at
night”
He use a small remote to
close the curtains. When they
are fully closed, he turn the
lights on. It become more
beautiful, because of the UV
lights that brighten up the
room and make it look
beautiful. I see her name on
the wall glowing brighter.
Me: “Babe, it’s so beautiful.
I love it hopefully Khloe will
love it too. Thank you for
building this beautiful house
for us. I mean you’ve
exceeded all my expectations!
Every deatail in this house is
perfection. I can’t believe
how lucky I am to have a
husband like you who goes
above and beyond to make me
happy. You truly are the best
husband I’ve ever had in my
life”
He kissed me so passionately,
reminding me that I am his
wife, the mother of her very
own daughter and the love of
her life.
Busani: “you deserve the
best, and I’m happy to be
able to provide it. I’m glad
you love it. I wanted to
create a special place for you
and our daughter to feel
safe, happy and loved”
God this is more than what
I asked for when I ran away
from that monster, I am
really blessed to have Busani
in my life.
Me: “I love you just as much,
if not more. Thank you agin
for this incredible gift. Our
new house is already filled
with so much love and joy,
thanks to you”
Busani: “That’s all I ever
wanted. Let’s make many
more memories together, my
love”
We shared another kiss, as
Vuyolwethu bang inside
Khloe’s nursery holding Khloe.
Vuyolwethu: “if I didn’t come
right now, you will be making
love on Khloe’s crib under this
beautiful UV lights. How? I
don’t know. Khloe look how
cute your room is”
Where did I get her?
Me: “Fuck you Vuyolwethu.”
Vuyolwethu: “I love you too.
Let’s go to your
breathtaking pool and pop
champagne”
One thing she loves. She
hand Khloe to Busani, as the
curtains open and lights turn
off.
◦◦◦◦◦◦
BAB’NGONYAMA

My name is Benginkosi
Ngonyama but my real
surname is Nhlabatsi not
Ngonyama so I run away
from Eswatini when Qhawe
and Qhawekazi where 2/3
years old when Banzi's
father, my brother, wanted
to sacrifice with my twins, so
I had to run away with
them before he kills them.
When I get to Cape Town I
changed Qhawekazi's name
from Nomvula to Qhawekazi
while Qhawe's name from
Sibusiso to Qhawe. I also
changed their age, what
they know is that they are
27 years old while they are
actually 31 years old. I know
one day their destiny will find
them and I have to tell
them the truth.
As I sat in the small café in
my house, sipping my coffee,
I couldn't help but think
about the journey that had
brought me here. I had to
tell Qhawe and Qhawekazi I
was going on a business trip
to France, but the truth
was far from it. I had come
to see a renowned oncologist,
seeking treatment for the
tumor.
My little princess,
Qhawekazi, walked in, her
bright smile a ray of
sunshine in the midst of my
darkness. The only person
who can control rain, but she
doesn't know the real reason
behind that.
Qhawekazi: "dad, I'm so glad
I could meet you here. How's
the business trip going?"
I took a deep breath,
knowing I had to tell her the
truth.
Me: "Kazi, sit down. I need to
talk to you about something."
She looked concerned, but sat
down beside me.
Qhawekazi:"What is it, dad?"
I took her hand, trying to
find the right words.
Me: "I didn't go to France for
business, Sophie. I went for
a treatment."
Her eyes widened in shock.
Qhawekazi:"Treatment?
What do you mean?"
I swallowed hard, trying to
hold back tears.
Me: "I have brain tumor,
Kazi I was diagnosed 2
weeks before i went to
France, and I went to see a
specialist in France."
Her face crumpled, and she
threw her arms around me.
Qhawekazi: "Oh, Papa, why
didn't you tell me? I would
have come with you!"
I hugged her tightly, feeling
a mix of emotions.
Me: "I didn't want to worry
you, Kazi. I wanted to
protect you."
We sat there for a moment.
Finally, she pulled back, her
eyes shining with tears.
Qhawekazi: "We'll face this
together, dad. We'll get
through it."
I hugged her again.
INSECT 54

TLOTLISO

I remember the sleepover at

my father's place like it was
yesterday. Quinton and I
would stay up late, giggling
and whispering secrets,
feeling like we were the only
ones in the world. But those
nights were also tainted
with fear, because I never
knew when Lefa's temper
would flare up.
That night, Quinton and I
we did have a sleepover
without Lefa's approval. We
were huddled on the couch,
trying to stay quiet, but
Lefa caught us. He was
furious, his eyes blazing with
anger. He started yelling at
me, his voice echoing off the
walls. Quinton was scared, I
could see it in his eyes. He
didn't know what to do, and
I didn't either. Lefa's anger
was like a storm,
unstoppable and terrifying.
He started hitting me, his
fists flying through the air.
I tried to defend myself, but
he was too strong. Quinton
tried to intervene, but Lefa
pushed him away.
I was trapped, unable to
escape the pain and the fear.
I felt like I was drowning in
Lefa's anger, like I was
being consumed by it.

That night was the worst.

Quinton would try to comfort
me afterward, but I could
see the fear in his eyes too.
He didn't know how to help
me, and I didn't know how to
help myself.

I hear my phone ringing, I

see Quinton's name on the
screen.
Me: [nervously] "Hey, man.
I'm so glad you called. I've
been thinking a lot about
that night..."
He's been ghosting me since
that day and I don't blame
him.
Quinton: "Yeah, me too. I
can't believe what happened.
I'm so sorry you had to go
through that."
Only if he knew, I go
through that every single
day.
Me: "It was so humiliating. I
feel like you saw me at my
weakest."
Quinton: "No, no, no! You're
not weak, man. You're one of
the strongest people I know.
What your dad did was
wrong, and it's not your
fault."
I really know how to choose
friends.
Me" [painfully] "But why did
he do it? Why in front of
you?"
It shows that he can do it
anywhere he wants.
Quinton: [angrily] "I don't
know, man. Your dad's got
some serious issues. But I
want you to know that I'm
here for you, always. I saw
what happened, and it's not
okay."
Me: "Thanks, man. Just
talking to you makes me feel
a little better."
Quinton: [encouragingly]
"Anytime, bro. We'll get
through this together."
I just don't want him to be
a victim like me.
Me: "Yeah, we will. I'm not
gonna let my dad's abuse
define me."
Quinton: "That's the spirit!
You're gonna rise above this,
and I'll be right there with
you."
God really blessed me when
he gave me Quinton.
[Door opens]
My mother walks in, she looks
so tired like always. I hunged
up without saying goodbye.
Mom: "Goodmorning, my son.
Ntate wa hao o hokae?
(Where is your father?)"
I just wish he is dead
wherever he is.
Me: "I don't know, you look
tired"
Mom: "okay. I guess we will
speak English since he is not
around, because he gets
furious when we don't speak
his home language. What
happened to your face this
time?"
Man of the house and
unnecessary rules. I guess
it's now or never, I am
telling her the truth.
Me: "dad is abusing me mom,
he turned me into his
punching bag. Everytime
when he is angry he takes
his frustrations on me, he
uses anything he sees to
beat me."
She put her bag on coffee
table as she chuckles. Why is
she chuckling did I told her a
job?
Mom: "so you will lie about my
husband like your sister? She
lied before running away
saying that my husband, your
father raped her. Now you
are telling me, he is abusing
you? My husband won't hurt
even a fly, then why would he
hurt you? You are lying. My
husband would never do that,
NEVER!"
My own mother don't believe
me? I stood before her, my
heart racing with fear and
my voice trembling with
emotion, I revealed the
darkest secret of my life: my
father's abuse. But instead
of the support and
protection I desperately
needed, I was met with a
deafening silence, a dismissive
shake of her head, and a
devastating denial that
would shake me to my core.
'You are lying', she said, her
words slicing through me like
a knife. 'My husband would
never do that.' But I knew
the truth, and her refusal to
believe me was a betrayal
that would leave me feeling
alone, vulnerable, and utterly
helpless.
INSECT 55

BONGIWE

I sat in stunned silence, my

mind reeling with the news.
Nolwandle gave birth
prematurely, today. I felt a
wave of frustration wash
over me as I thought about
the custody papers that I
had been trying to obtain.
I've been trying to obtain
them for weeks now, Sticks
only found copies in her
apartment.
If only I had been able to
finalize the papers, those
triplets would be mine now.
But no, fate had other plans.
Nolwandle gone into labor
early, and now the babies
were here, fragile and
vulnerable.
I couldn't help but feel a
sense of injustice. Why did
this have to happen now,
when I was so close to
securing the custody? It
wasn't fair that my plans
had been derailed by
something as unpredictable
as a premature birth.
As I pondered my next move,
I couldn't help but feel a
twinge of resentment
towards Nolwandle. Why had
she been so careless as to go
into labor early? Didn't she
know how much I had
invested in this
arrangement? But as I
looked at the triplets, tiny
and helpless in their
incubators, my frustration
began to fade. They were
innocent, after all. And as I
gazed at their fragile forms,
I knew that I couldn't give
up. I would find a way to
make this work, no matter
what it took.
The question was, what
would I do next? Would I try
to negotiate with her, or
would I take a more
aggressive approach? One
thing was certain: I would
stop at nothing to ensure
that those triplets are mine.
I will continue fighting for
Ntlebi legacy.
INSECT 56

LINDOKUHLE

It's been 2 weeks now in

this beautiful house. I am
alone with Khloe in a balcony
since I haven't found a nanny
for her, and Busani is at
work. Vuyolwethu walk in
holding food and fruits, I
know she is about to spill the
beans.
Vuyolwethu: "hey bitch. Khloe
say hi to aunty"
She just laughed.
Me: "hi Vuyolwethu"
Vuyolwethu: "you must be
starving, I bought you and
Khloe something to eat"
She give Khloe a banana,
since that is the fruit she
likes, according to Orphanage
nurses.
Me: "i am starving but I
know you want to tell me
something"
I take dunked wings and
fries.
Vuyolwethu: "okay, okay you
got me, I broke up with 'Mr
Unknown' today, because I
just found that he is married
and he is the father of 3. I
was the step mother all
along. He even tried to
propose to me today, so that
I can be his second wife"
I knew it. My friend is not
crazy and if she agree I
would say she is crazy.
Me: "you should've told me
the moment you found out so
that I can teach him a
lesson"
Vuyolwethu: "the only lesson
you teach people is to kill
them, so no"
Killing is my unpaid therapy.
Me: "I wasn't going to kill
him, just teach him a lesson"
Vuyolwethu: "enough about
that trash, how are you
feeling since you are meeting
your-in-laws on Saturday?"
Busani told me that they are
coming to Cape Town today
to his parent's, so I have to
meet them on Saturday. I
still have 2 days before I
meet them.
Me: "I just can't express the
feeling, I am happy and
scared at the same time.
What if they hate me or
hate Khloe?"
Anathi: "even if they hate
you, you will still own this
beautiful house"
When did she arrive?
Anathi: "hey princess, hey
baby girl"
[Baby sounds]
She is so adorable.
Me: "I don't think I am
ready for Saturday"
Vuyolwethu: "you don't have
to. Just go and face them
with that face you put when
killing someone"
She never saw me killing
someone, she is just
assuming. Only person who
once saw me is Anathi.
Anathi: "I knew it that you
are a undercover gangster
Vuyolwethu, when did you
saw her killing someone?"
We just laughed.
Vuyolwethu: "just created a
scenario in my head, but I
am serious friend you don't
have to be scared. You been
through the worse to be
scared about people who
didn't marry you, for people
who did built this
extraordinary house. Just be
yourself"
I guess she is right, even if
they do hate me I don't give
a fuck. They won't be the
first people to hate me, I
been through Qhawe,
Matome's sister, my step
father, my mother and my
step father's mother. They
are just piece of cake.
Me: "I guess you are right"
Anathi: "still no luck with the
new nanny? Because you have
to catch up at work"
I don't regret not going to
work for 2 weeks, but I
know Bab'Ngonyama will kill
me when he finds out. I
guess he is back because this
was his last week in France,
I just miss him.
Me: "still no luck, but I
posted online for ladies that
want to be nannies. Hopefully
I will get one"
I just hope I find someone
who I trusted like Nosipho.
INSECT 57

KHAYA

My name is Khaya Mabuza, I

don't a gangster name. I
own few business companies
that I inherited from my
late father.
I decided to go at Zara to
buy few dresses and shoes
for my mother's upcoming
birthday party.
As I turned around in the
crowded Zara store, I was
suddenly face to face with a
vision of loveliness. She was
standing mere inches away,
her piercing brown eyes
locking onto mine with a hint
of surprise. Her raven-black
hair was pulled back into a
sleek ponytail, accentuating
her heart-shaped face and
radiant smile.
Her skin was a flawless
porcelain, with a subtle sheen
that hinted at a warm glow
beneath. She wore a fitted
white top that showcased
her toned physique, and her
high-waisted jeans fit her
like a glove, accentuating her
curves in all the right places.
But it was her eyes that
really caught me off guard -
they sparkled with a
mischievous glint, as if she
knew a secret I didn't. And
then, in an instant, her
expression softened, and she
flashed me a warm, gentle
smile that made my heart
skip a beat.
Time seemed to stand still as
we stood there, frozen in a
moment of mutual
attraction. I felt like I'd
been punched in the gut, but
in the best possible way. I
couldn't help but stare, my
brain struggling to keep up
with the sheer intensity of
her beauty. And then, all too
soon, she nodded politely and
turned to continue shopping,
leaving me feeling breathless
and bewildered, but also
strangely exhilarated.
I decided to go and shoot my
shot.

Khaya: "Hi, I'm so sorry to

interrupt you, but I just saw
you from across the store
and I had to come over.
You're absolutely stunning."
She turned with a smile on
her face, she have a nice
body though.
Lesego: "Oh, thank you!
That's very sweet of you to
say."
Damn!! Her sweet melody
voice, does wonders to me.
Khaya: "No, I'm serious. I
feel like I've been punched in
the gut. I can't breathe.
You're the most beautiful
woman I've ever seen."
Lesego: [chuckles] "Well, I
appreciate the compliment,
but I think you might be
exaggerating just a bit!"
Ohhh God her voice!!!
Khaya: "I'm not
exaggerating! I know it
sounds crazy, but I feel like
I've found something special
here. Can I buy you a coffee
and get to know you better?"
I am crossing fingers.
Lesego: "I'm intrigued by
your confidence, I'll give you
that. But okay, sure. One
coffee."
My ancestors are working
overtime this days.
Khaya: "Really?! Yes! I'll take
that as a win. Let me just
pay for this clothes and yours
if you want, and we can go."
Lesego: "No, i will pay for my
clothes. So, what's your
name?"
Khaya: "i insist. I'm Khaya.
And you are...?"
Lesego: "Okay if you say so.
I'm Lesego."
Khaya: "Lesego, I'm so glad
I met you. This is going to
be the start of something
amazing, I can feel it."
Lesego: "don't get your hopes
high, and I don't want your
wife to kill me when she
knows about me"
I know she is going to be
mine. Only if she knows that
I've never married anyone or
proposed anyone in my life.
Khaya: "Oh your statement
is based on this clothes. I am
not married nor dating. I
was just buying my mother a
gift for her upcoming
birthday"
She smile.
Lesego: "Oh sorry for jumping
into conclusions. Let us pay
for this items so that we
can go"
I paid for everything, I
helped her with her paper
bags.
We made our way to the
parking and she is driving
the latest Lamborghini Divo.
WTF!! She loaded her paper
bags inside her boot as I
load mine too.
Khaya: "just follow me"
I started my car, off we go
to the airport. I want to
take her to Mauritius.
INSECT 58

LINDOKUHLE

The day has finally arrived, I

am going to meet people I
don't know whether they will
love me or not. I took my
time in the dressing room
looking for something I don't
know.
Busani: "babe, are you
nervous?"
I am really nervous.
Me: "no, i am not"
I wore a long blue dress
that is beneath my knees, I
took my blue heels.
I walked out holding a dark
blue doek.
Busani: "you won't put that
doek right?"
I have to show respect to
his family.
Me: "I will put it, or else
they will say I don't respect
them"
Busani: [chuckles] "you are
married to me not to them,
if they say anything about
you they have to say it to my
face"
I rest my case, I ended up
my look with light makeup. I
tied my braids.
Me: "okay babe. We can go. I
think I am ready"
I gave Khloe her favorite
toy as I walk down the
stairs holding her.
Khloe: "mama"
What?!!!!!!
Me: "Busani did you hear
that? She mama. Ncow"
Busani: "you misheard her
she said Dada, not mama"
He is jealous.
We walked to his Audi car. I
buckle Khloe on her seat. I
kissed her on her forehead.
Busani: "are you sure you are
ready? We can change the
date if you are not ready"
The more he asks me is the
more I get nervous.
Me: "I am ready, let's go"
He started the car, off we
go.
We took 30 minutes to get
there. That was quick. I
took a deep breath as he
open the door for us.
The moment we get into the
dining room, everyone turn to
our direction. I didn't know
that I am shy, I couldn't
maintain their eyes. The
table is fully set with
different wines, salads, meat
and dessert.
I first saw the person I
loved when I saw her on
Busani's phone because of
her vitiligo skin. She is
Busani's younger sister,
Thandiswa. Then I see his
other sister that is giving
me nasty looks, Nelisiwe. I
see his older sister Nkanyezi.
I see his grandmother
Mam'Ngwenya. His mother is
looking beautiful as always,
and his father is looking just
fine. I guess the other
woman that is left must be
his father's second wife
Mam'Sbongile, and she look
like Vuyolwethu and her
siblings. What if she is
Vuyolwethu's mother? Let
me not jump into conclusions
I will ask her.
Busani: "Goodmorning my
family"
Nelisiwe is giving me nasty
looks.
Nelisiwe: "you must be
Lindokuhle right?"
No, how are you Lindokuhle?
Geez.
Me: "yes"
Nelisiwe: "mhmm"
Gogo: "our beautiful bride.
Bring my granddaughter to
me"
Busani hand Khloe to her.
Thandiswa pulled a chair for
me with a soft smile on her
face. I am already loving her.
Me: "thank you"
Nelisiwe: "Gogo, did you say
bride. Bhuti when did you get
married? And that is not
your daughter, we Ngwenya's
we don't give birth to this
thing. She cheated on you
and force you to marry her so
that you can raise someone
else's child. How dump are you
Bhuti? You even did things in
a western way, because I
don't remember the day we
paid lobola for her, hmmm.
Worse is yet to come if our
ancestors don't know you,
while you are using our
surname. Gogo why are you
even calling her your bride
while she is not wearing a
doek? She doesn't respect us"
Did she call Khloe this?
Me: [Whispering softly]
"sengaze kuf'umuntu"
I think Busani heared me,
because he is brushing my
hand softly to calm me down,
because he know bullets can
fly anytime, it's just that I
am not carrying my gun
today.
Them: "Shut up, Nelisiwe!!"
Aww nkosi yami, what did I
do to you? It is her first
time seeing me but she just
throw raw eggs on my face.
I hate her already. Firstly it
was Qhawe now her?
Gogo: "you will love and
respect her whether you like
it or not. Did you marry her?
No. But you are consent
about her doek. Atleast she
is married, what about you?
And how they did things it's
none of your business, just
focus on finding the father or
should I say fathers of your
kids. Yes, they have albino
daughter, because of some
reasons that doesn't concern
you. If you are fully part of
this family you would known
everything about your
brother, but clearly you are
getting birth like you poo
those kids, you are only 26
but already you have 6 kids
of your own with different
fathers. Didn't they teach
you how to use condom at
school? Phela, abantwana
bakho bayang sinda."
Haaaa isgaxa.
She bowed her head, and
kept quiet.
Nelisiwe: "but still she..."
Busani's mother: "we've
heard you Nelisiwe now shut
up, before i kick you out. And
you know me very well, that
I won't hesitate"
They are showing their true
colours.
Busani's father: "sorry Lindo
for what she just said to
you, why I'm I even
apologize while she is
supposed to be apologizing to
you not me"
Nelisiwe: "I am sorry
Lindokuhle"
She say that with a mean
face.
Me: "it is fine Nelisiwe, I
forgive you"
Busani: [whispering] "I know
you are lying"
Why is he making me a bad
person, I mean it I forgave
her. I can't be angry forever.
Me: "I mean it"
Mam'Sbongile: "let me go and
get glasses"
Me: "I will help you"
If I don't ask her about
what I am assuming then I
won't next time.
Mam'Sbongile: "don't mind
her, you will get used to her
as time goes by. She doesn't
welcome new people with
warm hands, and trust me I
am one of them"
How can Busani hate
someone who is so kind like
this? Or I don't know her
behind closed doors.
Me: "I've been through
people who are worse than
her, I am used to it. Can I
ask you something?"
Mam'Sbongile: "yes, you may"
Me: "are you Vuyolwethu's
mother?"
She nearly dropped the glass.
Mam'Sbongile: "no...why are
you asking?"
Me: "you look like her and her
siblings. I've never seen
someone who looks exactly like
my friend before"
Mam'Sbongile: "can you hold
these glasses i will follow you
with the remaining once"
She completely changed the
topic, but I will find out the
truth. Because I know she is
lying.
Me: "okay"
I walked out holding the
glasses, I will tell
Vuyolwethu about her.
Busani: "babe are you okay,
seem to be distant?
I faked a smile.
Me: "I am fine"
Busani: [whispering] "I know
you are lying, what did that
evil step mother of mine did
to you?"
I don't get the reason why
he hates her like this.
Me: "I am serious, I am fine"
He dish up for me, as he
hand Gogo, Khloe's bowl to
feed her.
What I like about Khloe she
doesn't cry all the time, even
on people she just met. She
would just laugh and play
with them, like she once saw
them.
Busani's mother: "Busani you
will use your Cottage to
sleep, we managed to clean
it"
Cottage? I mean he is old
for having a Cottage and he
never told me about it.
Busani: "thank you mom, I
will fetch our clothes because
we didn't plan to sleepover"
Mama's boy. He is really a cry
baby.
Who ever cooked, know how
to cook. I've never cooked like
this before. What i like the
most about this dish is tribe.
When we were done eating
Thandiswa insisted to show
me the Cottage, I mean I
am looking forward to see it.
We used the back door, as we
approach the entrance, I
notice the rustic exterior,
with its weathered wooden
beams and moss-covered roof,
blending seamlessly into the
surrounding landscape. The
door creaks as she opens it,
and I step inside, my eyes
adjusting to the warm,
golden light that spills from
within.

Oh, wow! I'm taken back by

the cozy warmth and inviting
atmosphere that envelops
me. The interior is a
masterclass in understated
elegance, with plush
furnishings and soft textiles
in earthy tones that evoke a
sense of serenity. I notice
the crackling fireplace, the
plush armchairs, and the
vintage decor that adorns
the shelves.
Every detail seems to tell a
story, and I can sense the
love and care that has gone
into creating this haven. I
wander through the rooms,
taking in the personal
touches and mementos that
line the walls and shelves.
It's like stepping into a
treasure trove of memories
and experiences.
Thandiswa: "this is Bhuti
Busani's cottage"
Me: "just tell me why did he
keep it until today?"
Thandiswa: "because it is the
only house that calm him
down when he is angry, if he
is angry just bring him here
he will be fine"
Now I get it. We just chilled
in the lounge waiting for
Gogo to bring Khloe back, and
Busani coming back from our
house.
Her skin is a stunning canvas
of tone and texture, with
patches of vitiligo creating a
unique and fascinating
pattern. The creamy white
patches on her cheeks and
forehead seem to glow
against her warm, caramel-
colored skin, like rays of
sunlight breaking through
the clouds. Her eyes sparkle
with kindness and warmth,
their deep brown color
drawing me in with a sense
of comfort and
understanding. Her hair is a
rich, dark brown.
Me: "thank you. You are
stunning, I love your skin"
Thandiswa: "my biggest
insecurities, I just hate it."
Me: "you don't have to hate
it, you look beautiful.
Embrace your skin, and shine
with it. Ignore negative
comments, and focus on the
positive once"
She smile.
Thandiswa: "I guess you are
right Sis Lindo. I have to
accept the way I am"
They even prepared a room
for Khloe.
INSECT 59

VUYOLWETHU

I sit alone in the darkness,

my heart shattered into a
million pieces. But I'm not
alone for long, as I reach for
my trusty companion-alcohol.
My savior, my confidant, my
comfort.
I pour myself a glass, feeling
the cool liquid slide down my
throat, numbing the pain. I
praise its beauty, its ability
to dull the ache in my chest.
Just give the person who
created alcohol her/his
flowers.
I've spent my whole life
loving alcohol, relying on it to
get me through the tough
times. And there have been
many tough times. But
alcohol has always been there
for me, never judging, never
abandoning me. And according
to science alcohol is a solution.
Some may call it a curse, a
poison, but to me, it's a
blessing. It's the one thing
that makes me feel alive,
even when my heart is
breaking.
So here I'll stay, in this dark
place, with my alcohol by my
side. It's all I need, all I
want. My love affair with
alcohol will never end, and I
wouldn't have it any other
way.
Nicki Minaj once said: (Rule
number one to be a boss ass
bitch.
Neva let a clown nigga try to
play you
If he play you, then rule
number two
Fuck his best friends, then
make 'em yes men
And get a dick pic and then
you press send. And send a
red heart, and send a kissy
face. And tell him that his
friends love how ya pussy
taste.
And that's rule three, I am
the school My wrist look like
I am a jewel thief But
that's just 'cause I am a
boss bitch)
I will never do that, I
respect my body. Let me get
ready and go to Club Paradise
because since I stated above
that science said alcohol is a
solution, so it will be my
solution to my heartbreak I
got from married man with
4 kids, rather than to listen
to heartbroken songs, I
don't want to be depressed
at this age. I am too young
to be facing depression and
anxiety i still have life to live
and enjoy.
I wore Chain Detail Split
Hem Cami Bodycon Denim
Dress, and it is short since I
love short things, and
whoever is going to gossip
about how short it is will
have to face me, I picked my
denim heel just to match. I
put on my necklace, then I
installed my frontal. After
that I did little touch ups on
my face. I looked myself at
the mirror all I can say is
Damn!! Not to brag but I am
beautiful.
I grabbed my bag and car
keys, then off I go to where
I forget my problems.

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I take about 2 hours to
arrive at Club Paradise, I
went to the VIP section and
ordered bottle of Hennessey
and ice. I drink what I drink
when I am going through
shit.
I like the fact that they are
playing the songs of my
favorite piano artist
LeeMckrazy.
Guy: "mind if i join you?"
When I was about to finish
my glass, I turn around to
see who is talking to me. I
see my boss, Sticks, Mr
Mbambo, the most sexy boss
I've ever seen. Oh my
goodness, my boss is actually
asking me if he can join me at
the club?! I'm trying to play
it cool, but inside I'm totally
freaking out! He's always
been confident and
charismatic, but this is on a
whole other level. He's
standing in front of me, his
piercing brown eyes sparkling
with a hint of mischief, and
his chiseled features looking
even more chiseled in the dim
light of the office. His dark
hair is perfectly messy, and
his tailored suit is fitted in
all the right places. I'm
trying to process what's
happening, but my brain is a
jumbled mess of excitement
and nerves. I mean, this is
my boss, the guy who's
always been off-limits... and
yet, here he is, asking to join
me for a night out.
He flashes me that
devastating smile, and I
know I'm in trouble. This is
going to be an interesting
night.
Me: "ye...Mr Mbambo, you can
join me"
I never thought I will be
this close to him. He smells so
good and his deep voice
always make me wet.
Vuyolwethu snap out, he is
your boss.
He pulled a seat and sit
facing me.
Sticks: "stop calling me Mr
Mbambo, you can call me
Sticks. A whole bottle alone?"
I just like to be professional.
Me: "Yeah, I can finish it
alone, but you can join me. And
you trouble in Paradise?
What are you doing here? You
don't seem to be a party
animal like me"
He took a glass and fill it,
without ice.
Sticks: "yes, I am not a
party animal but those cases
we are dealing with, can lead
you here to release stress"
Lucky me I am only dealing
with family issues not
murder cases or anything
major. Basically I am a
family lawyer.
Me: "okay, I understand"
He look at me for a while and
smile as he return back to
his drink.
Sticks: "this drink is not
strong enough, let's go and
grab few shots"
I took my bag and follow
him.
Sticks: "20 shots please"
I am going to reach the
parking lot crawling. They
bring them on a tray.
10 shots down my throat.
Sticks: "refill"
What is going with him, this
is more to what he said.
Me: "how are we going to get
home drunk?"
Sticks: "I came with my two
drivers, the other one will
take your car to your place,
chill and drink"
My knees are feeling weak.
Another 10 shots down my
throat.
Sticks: "refill and add another
10 shots, don't worry they're
on me"
He take out a cheque from
his pocket, I only see many
zeros. I've never seen anyone
paying with cheque in a club
before. He hand it to the
waiter.
15 shots down my throat. My
head is feeling heavy, I know
when I am feeling like this I
am drunk, I guess we are
both drunk because he is
singing louder than everyone.
He pulled me to the dance
floor. This dress is exposing
my butt, but since I am
drunk I worry less.
Feels like the world is
spinning around and around.
They play Orlando Hangover
by Monwa & Sun.
We just screamed, old songs
do wonders to the club. I will
be the one singing it
tomorrow.
Sticks: "let's go"
He can't even balance
himself, while I feel like I
can crawl than to walk.
We walked out busy singing
and laughing. I don't even
know why are we laughing
but we are laughing.
We arrived in the parking lot
and walk to him car. His
driver open the door for us, I
throw myself in.
Driver: "ma'am your car keys"
I hand him my bag.
Me: "just check it in that
bag. Mowbray apartments in
Rentberry please"
Just laid my head to the
window, next thing lights off.
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I wake up, I couldn't even
open my eyes. My head feels
so heavy, my body hurts. As
I open my eyes slowly I
notice that I am in my room.
How did I get here? I looked
to the other side of the bed,
I see someone sleeping facing
opposite direction, i can't see
his face. Did I came to my
apartment with a man? I
lift the covers up and we are
both naked. Now i get it why
my p***y hurts like this.
WTF!!!! I shake him to wake
up, as he turns around slowly,
I notice that he is my boss.
What have I done?!
Sticks: "where I'm I??"
Me: "I should be asking you
how you ended under my
covers."
He open his eyes, as he look
around. When he notice me
looking at him he panic. He
lift the covers.
Sticks: "Vuyolwethu
Vuyolwethu, don't tell me we
had sex yesterday"
Me: "according to how things
are right now, then yes we
did"
Sticks: "I only remember
walking out of the club with
you."
Me: "we fucked each other
we can't ignore that, we had
fun last night at Club
Paradise and we ended up in
this situation"
He got out the bed and took
his clothes on the ground. He
dress facing me naked. He is
really gifted in many ways.
Sticks: "stop drooling. This
was the mistake that will
never happen again, we did
what we did because of
alcohol. Let's just pretend
like it didn't happen"
I won't say I understand
because I don't understand.
Sticks: "have a nice day Miss
Ngozo"
I think he tries to remind
me that we can never date.
Me: "bye"
I am more than
disappointed, I've never
experienced this in my life.
I hear my phone vibrating
under my pillow, and how did
it get under my pillow?
I see Lindo's name on my
screen.
Lindo: "yes, bitch. Where have
you been? We've been trying
to call you and your phone
just went straight to
voicemail"
I wonder how she will react
after knowing that I had
sex with one of her gang.
Me: "I was at Club Paradise
just to release stress, and
how was it meeting your in
laws?"
Lindo: "party animal.
Speaking of which, Busani's
second mother looks like you
but she is Sbongile not
Makhosazana"
Last person I want to hear
about, I just hate her.
Me: "she is not what you
think she is if she is
Sbongile"
Lindo: "okay. Found new man
at the club?"
If I tell her Sticks just
rejected me right now she
will be flabbergasted.
Me: "no, I didn't find anyone
I was just clubbing alone. I
saw something on Tik Tok
about a lady who was at a
club, so she met someone she
knows there and they had
fun together until they are
both drunk when they get to
the lady's house they had sex
while they are under the
influence of alcohol, so when
they wake up the guy just
regret what they did but
the lady doesn't. I am glad I
didn't experience that"
I know when she knows the
truth she will link it to this
fake news I told her.
Me: "I am also glad you
didn't, because you can't
handle another heartbreak.
Let me wake up before
Busani's sister that hates
me for no reason come in our
room and wake me up"
They hate her already? But
you can't expect everyone to
love you. Right?
Me: "just teach her the
lesson, kiss Khloe for me."
Lindo: [chuckles] "i will kiss
her. I don't want the whole
family to hate me"
Me: "Lindo I know don't force
anyone to love her"
Lindo: "Vuyolwethu bye-bye
before you try to convince
me"
She hang up but she knows
I am telling her the truth.
Atleast she got me
distracted from what
happened.
I got out of my bed, I
walked to the bathroom to
wash his scent off my body.
This apartment smells like
him.
INSECT 60

NARRATED

At Pollsmoor Prison, Kwanele

and Vukani's father
Mdlabantu is being visited by
her daughter Lindiwe and
two guys that are working
for him.
Mdlabantu: "we all know that
Lindo killed Vukani and
Kwanele, and stole Kwanele's
money"
Lindiwe: "yes, dad we know
that and I am still working
on how to get to her. But I
saw online that she wants a
nanny for her new baby, I
will apply and see what I can
do when I get there"
Guy1: "she? Mxah we will deal
with her"
Mdlabantu: "good idea
Lindiwe. My guys you know I
am sentenced to death after
killing my wife, sorry to say
that Lindiwe. But I want
you to kidnap her since I
couldn't do it myself I want
you to kidnap her and kill her
while Lindiwe deals with her
husband. Do you hear me?"
Them: "yes, boss"
Mdlabantu: "if you mess up,
you will know why I am
Mdlabantu even you Lindiwe"
They walked out, as
Mdlabantu returns to his cell.
INSECT 61

LINDOKUHLE

I am finally back to my
house. It was good spending
2 weeks with them and I did
love his family, except
Nelisiwe. I haven't seen
Bab'Ngonyama, he will say
I've neglected. But I will go
and see him tomorrow or I
will see him at work.
As was busy doing Khloe her
hair in our room, I hear
several messages on his
phone. I don't really touch
his phone but this time I
did. Luckily he is still taking a
shower.
When I open it the first
thing I see is 'we miss you'
from unknown number. They
said curiosity killed a cat
right? It rather kill me,
because I open those
messages. I see 'our son is
growing very well' our son?
Then I see 'I am on my way
to your new house with your
son, so that you can spend
time with him again' Again?
I am going to kill someone
today.
I dialled that number on my
Truecaller, then It written
Keketso Georgia Pita. Who is
that?
He walks out of the
bathroom, I place his phone
on the bed. I decided to go
downstairs to keep myself
busy with Khloe while
waiting for her.
As I was busy watching
cartoons with Khloe the door
just open the door without
knocking. That must be her,
she walk in with a chubby
baby boy. Okay, she is
testing me early in the
morning.
Keketso: "Yeah wena, where
is Busani?"
Yeah wena to me? Wow.
Me: "don't call me 'wena'
uzonya fast"
Keketso: [chuckles] "is that a
threat"
Me: "I don't do threats
darling, threats are for
those who are weak. That is
the promise"
Busani walk into the lounge
busy fixing his shirt.
Busani: "Keketso what are
you doing here? I told you, I
don't want to see you. Just
move on and accept the fact
that we divorced. And if you
came her claiming that he is
my son. Mxah, you are
wasting your time, because I
am holding DNA results
stating that I am not the
father. You thought I
wanted to spend a day with
him that day? No, I didn't.
Now leave, and stop
harassing my wife before she
does something she will
regret"
Divorced? DNA results? But
luckily he is not his son. He
throws those papers to her.
Keketso: "why don't you tell
her the full meaning of GG
Cigarettes? Did he tell you
that the other G in GG
means Georgia? My second
name. I doubt he did that"
So I am helping him to run a
business that is named after
his ex wife?
Busani: "babe, I was going to
tell you but I didn't know
how"
If she didn't come, that
means I was going to be in a
dark place forever.
I decided to leave Khloe
there with them and walk
outside.
BUSANI

Keketso just mess things up,

I know I was supposed to
tell her before she does. But
I didn't know how.
I take Khloe.
Me: "babe, babe. I can
explain. WENA PHUMA, never
ever in your life think of
coming back"
Keketso: [chuckles] "He
might not be your son, but I
am not done with you. You will
pay for what you did to me in
the past. Have a nice day
with that thing you are
carrying"
She can't just my baby a
thing.
She walked out as I follow
Lindo.
I find her laying inside the
pool with her clothes.
Me: "babe, I am sorry"
Lindo: "sorry for what
exactly, for not telling me
about that son they said it's
yours or sorry about helping
you to run your ex wife's
business. Which one is it? You
didn't even bother changing
that name after your
divorce"
She is trying by all means to
calm, because they said she is
dangerous when she is angry,
and I haven't seen her
angry.
Me: "both of them babe, I
should've told you the first
day she told told me about
that son, but i didn't. And I
should've told you about the
name if the business the day
I introduced you to it, but I
didn't. I am really really sorry
for not telling you. I will
change it tomorrow"
Lindo: "Firstly it was your
sister Nelisiwe, when she
insulted me and I had to
forgive her because she is
your sister right? Now it's
you and your lunatic ex wife.
You will change it because
now I know about it? Don't
even bother yourself babe.
Just go, go and have fun
with whoever you want and
leave me alone. So that I can
breath. Leave Khloe in the
boma, I will take her"
She is saying all those things
not looking at me, and I can
hear through her voice that
she wants to cry but she
just act strong.
Me: "babe..."
Lindo: "GO!!"
I did as I was instrusted. I
decided to go to the Jewels
just to think deep about
what happened few minutes
ago. I won’t drink today,
because I am kind of having
a flu, hopefully I will get
better because every single
minute I take I am getting
worse. And I also hope
Lindokuhle forgives me, I
mean I didn’t mean to lie to
her.

LINDOKUHLE

I'm still trying to wrap my

head around the revelation.
I thought I was supporting
Busani's entrepreneurial
spirit, but it turns out I
was unwittingly enabling his
secrets collaboration with his
ex-wife. And to make
matters worse, they were
working together on a
cigarette business!
The shock is still fresh, but
what's even more stunning is
the DNA results he's holding
onto. A son?! They claim the
child is his?! My mind is
reeling with questions. Why
did he keep this from me?
Why did he lie about not
having any children?
I remember the times he
would "work late" or "travel
for business". Was he with
her? Was he visiting his son?!
The thought makes my blood
boil. I feel like my whole
marriage has been a sham.
The cigarette business is one
thing, but a secret child?!
That's a whole different
level of deception. I don't
know if I can ever trust him
again. The pain and betrayal
are suffocating me. I know
he is not his son but why
didn't he tell me?
I need answers, but a part
of me is afraid of what I
might find out. Will I be able
to forgive him? Can our
marriage even be salvaged?
The uncertainty is crippling
me.
For now, I'm left to pick up
the pieces of my shattered
heart and try to make sense
of this mess. The DNA
results are a harsh reminder
that my husband's secrets
are finally catching up with
him.

Vuyolwethu: "earth to
Lindokuhle Ngwenya"
I didn't hear her, knocking if
she did, since she has access
card of my house.
Me: "hi"
Vuyolwethu: "are you okay?
You seem to be on the other
side of the world alone. While
Khloe is playing alone"
It's not like she is crying or
something.
Me: "Busani's ex was here,
commanding things from
Busani. Did you know that
she owns GG Cigarettes?
She even accused Busani
with a son, but Busani
proved her wrong with DNA
results"
Vuyolwethu: "we do deal with
whores right? And speaking
of ex I have a letter for you
from your one and only ex
Xhaba, security gave it to me
to give it to you. You will
have to forgive me because
I've read it. So it goes like
this 'My dearest Lindokuhle,
my love for you is a tempest
that rages on, unstoppable
and unrelenting. Like a
shipwrecked sailor, I am lost
without you, my guiding star.
My every waking moment is
consumed by the fire that
burns within me, a flame
that flickers with the hope
of our reunion. I know that
I wronged you, my love, but
I swear to you, on the very
fabric of my being, that I
will fight for us, for our love,
until the end of time itself.
No obstacle shall stand in our
way, no challenge shall daunt
me, for I am driven by the
power of my devotion.
Yours sincerely, Xhaba' hmmm
advantage of having an ex
who is well educated"
Let's just call this day, Ex
Day. I don't know what he
want from me, I don't love
him anymore. And how did he
know my new address?
Me: "Keketso and Xhaba,
really ruined my day"
Vuyolwethu: "it's just a
letter that smells so good, if
he came into your house and
demanded things that are
above you, then we will say
he ruined it. If he wasn't
your ex I was going to grap
him. But I don’t remember
signing a contract saying I
must not date your ex"
I gave her a dead stare.
Vuyolwethu: [chuckles] "Just
kidding, let me play with my
niece while you are digesting
everything"
Ngimthathephi uVuyolwethu
bakhithi? Everything is a
joke to her, except my
background. But the minute
you mention man did this,
man did that, she
automatically laugh at you.
Khloe really loves her. I
decided to go and cook for
lunch. And make vegetable
soup for Busani because I
heared him coughing last
night.
As I was busy cooking I
smell his cologne, he touch my
wrist busy placing a kiss on
my neck. He has that thing
that makes me to want
more of him, every single day.
Busani: "babe, I am so sorry
about what happened in the
morning. I didn't know how
to tell you"
I really forgave him, I mean
everybody has or have their
own reasons why they hide
something from someone,
maybe not to hurt that
person or people around.
Me: "okay"
Busani: "I will GG to LK"
I didn't force him to change
it.
Me: "okay. Are you having a
flu? Because I heard you
coughing in the morning"
Busani: "it's getting worse
every minute"
I regret kicking him out in
the morning, now he is
getting worse because of me.
Me: "I've made vegetable
soup. I will call Cheese boy to
examine your flu"
He placed a kiss on my neck
as he walk to where Khloe
and Vuyolwethu are.
INSECT 62

VUYOLWETHU

Busani said his step mother

wants to see me and my
siblings I don't know why.
She invited us to her house.
When we were about to enter
the inside the house we see
her waiting for us. My
mother?
I stood in the doorway, my
eyes fixed on the woman who
had abandoned me 15 years
ago. My mother. She looks
older, worn down by time and
regret. My siblings,
Ntombikayise and Nobuhle,
stood beside me, their eyes
fixed on her with a mix of
emotions.
Me: "Why?"
I asked, my voice barely
above a whisper. Nobuhle:
"Why did you leave us?"
My mother took a deep
breath, her eyes welling up
with tears.
Mom: "I was young, stupid,
and in love. I thought he
was the answer to all my
problems. I thought he
would make me happy."
I felt a pang of anger, of
hurt.
Ntombikayise: "You chose him
over us? Over your own
daughters?"
She nodded, tears streaming
down her face.
Mom: "I know it's no excuse,
but I was desperate for
love, for attention. I felt
trapped in my life, and he
offered me a way out."
I shook my head, trying to
understand. Me: "But we
needed you. We were just
kids."
My mother's face contorted
in anguish.
Mom: "I know, my daughters.
I know. And I'm so sorry. I
was selfish, and I made a
mistake. But I want you to
know that I love you, all of
you, and I'm here now. I
want to make it right."
I looked at my siblings, saw
the doubt and hurt in their
eyes. I knew it wouldn't be
easy, but maybe, just maybe,
we could learn to forgive and
heal together.
Ntombikayise: "I will never
forgive you, never"
She walks out as Nobuhle
follows her while crying.
Me: "as you can see there
won't be a strong bond
between your daughters. I
tried to forgive you long time
ago, but I couldn't and still
nothing changed, I will never
forgive you for choosing a
man over your daughters. I
will never"
I leave her there busy
wheeling.
◦◦◦◦

SPITJO

I am Andile Zondo, known as

Spitjo Makhafola but they
prefer Spitjo and they didn't
give me the clear meaning
why they gave me that
name.
I am resident IT guru! I
am a powerhouse of
knowledge, with expertise
spanning the entire IT
spectrum. From hardware to
software, I know it all.
Whether it's troubleshooting
a faulty network connection,
optimizing system
performance, or developing
custom software solutions, I
am the go-to expert.
With a keen eye for detail
and a passion for innovation,
I stay ahead of the curve in
the ever-evolving world of
technology. My exceptional
problem-solving skills and
dedication to excellence have
earned me a reputation as a
trusted and respected IT
professional.
Let me take you back to the
day I knew that I am
professional when it comes to
IT.
I was just sitting in the
lounge watching Pirates and
Chiefs match, then my
younger sister Zandile who
was 19 years old by that
time, I was 26 years old.
She came to me holding her
documents.
Zandile: "Bhuti I need your
help, universities are
rejecting so I need you to
hack their system and make
them to accept me, it can be
any university, I don't mind"
It wasn't that easy but I
did it. I managed to hack
two universities, and make
them to accept my little
sister. And she is a qualified
Somatologies as we speak. I
made sure that they don't
find out, and made sure that
when they check their
system they don't find
anything dodgy going on.

I bumped into this beautiful

lady I've been asking out for
months, before I even knew
Busani and his gang.
She's a vision of elegance, a
slender beauty with a fiery
spirit. I've been trying to
win her over for what feels
like an eternity, and I have
to admit, I'm utterly
captivated. Her long,
graceful limbs seem to go on
forever, and her delicate
features are a masterclass
in subtlety. But it's her eyes
that really get me - they
sparkle like diamonds in the
sunlight, and flash like
lightning when she's angry.
And that's the thing - I find
myself getting way too
obsessed when she's angry.
There's something about the
way her cheeks flush, the
way her voice trembles with
indignation... it's like a siren's
call to me. I know I should
probably back off, give her
space, but I just can't help
myself. I'm drawn to her like
a moth to a flame, and I find
myself wanting to push her
buttons just to see that
spark ignite.
I know it's not healthy, but
I can't seem to help myself.
I'll keep asking her out, keep
trying to wear her down,
until she finally gives in. And
when she does... oh man, I
can hardly sleep at night
thinking about it. She's got
this fierce independence that
drives me wild, and I know
that if I can just crack that
shell, I'll find a passion and
intensity that'll blow my
mind.

Dibuseng: "Listen, I've told

you before, I'm not
interested. But you won't
take no for an answer, will
you?"
The way she talks always
throws me in.
Spitjo: "I just know we could
have something special. I'll
do whatever it takes to
prove it to you."
Dibuseng: "Fine. I'll go out
with you, but on one condition:
you have to agree to respect
my boundaries and my
decisions, no matter what
happens on our date."
Spitjo: "Deal! I promise, I'll
be on my best behavior."
Dibuseng: "And if you try to
kiss me or touch me without
my consent, the date is over.
Got it?"
I guess I found someone
I've been looking for, I just
don't like soft people. You
have to be rough and rude at
the same time.
Spitjo: "Got it. I promise to
respect your wishes."
Dibuseng: "And one more
thing, if I say no to
anything, you have to accept
it and not pressure me. No
means no, no exceptions."
Spitjo: "I understand. I'll be
a perfect gentleman, I
swear."
Dibuseng: "Okay then, one
date. But if you mess up
even once, it's over. Forever."
Spitjo: "I won't mess up, I
promise. Thank you for giving
me a chance!"
I just don't know where I
will take her, I guess I will
travel with her around the
world with my Private Jet.
Spitjo: "tomorrow then. I will
send you the location"
She give me her business
card as she walk away. I
turned it, I see her full
names and where she works,
a whole medical specialist. I
guess I've found my partner
in crime, my Dibuseng Letseli.
Her smile, her smell, her
voice, just everything about
her it's just fine. And most
importantly it that she is
beautiful, and my surname
will suit her, only if she gives
me a chance after our date.
INSECT 63

VUYOLWETHU

I just decided to sit on the

couch in my office, sipping my
coffee and enjoying a rare
moment of peace. The
morning sunlight streamed
through the window, casting
a warm glow on the room. I
felt my tension melt away
with each sip, my mind
quieting as I savored the
flavor.
Just as I was starting to
relax, i hear a knock on my
door.
Me: "Come in"
My sexy boss walked in, I still
prefer him as sexy boss even
after what he did, but i don't
blame him, i blame alcohol.
Sticks: "may I join you? I
just felt bored and lonely, so
you are the only person I
thought of"
He is lying.
Me: "you may"
He joined me on the couch. I
felt a flutter in my chest as
he sat beside me, his
presence sudden and
unexpected. The air between
us grew thick with tension,
and I could feel the weight
of his gaze on me.
Sticks: "I am sorry about
what happened the other
day, I am not Hite and run
type. Alcohol did really
controlled me"
Me: [softly] "let's not dwell
on what's behind us, and
focus on what's ahead of us"
With that being said, the
tension between us became
palpable. I tried to focus on
my coffee, but my heart
raced with anticipation.
Suddenly, he leaned in and our
lips met. The kiss was
unexpected, yet somehow
inevitable.
But as quickly as it began, he
pulled away, looking
remorseful.
Sticks: "Forgive me," he said,
his voice low and husky. So he
will apologize everytime, we
are both sober we won't
blame alcohol today.
I pull him closer to me, as
our lips met again. We shared
a long passionate kiss. Feels
like we are already dating
even though we are not.
We pulled away.
Sticks: "I know we've been
down this road before, and I
promised myself I wouldn't
let it happen again."
I was taken aback, my mind
racing with memories of our
previous encounter. We had
indeed been intimate once
before, but it was a mistake,
a moment of weakness fueled
by alcohol. I had tried to put
it behind me, but now it
seemed like a ghost come
back to haunt me.
Sticks: "follow me"
Oh my god, what have I just
done? I placed my coffee on
the table as I follow him out
of the office and into the
elevator. I can't believe I
just kissed him! I've always
had a crush on him, but I
never thought it would
actually happen.
As we step into the elevator,
I feel a sense of excitement
mixed with nerves. Where are
we going? I wonder. The
elevator stops at the final
floor, which is off limits to
employees. I've never been
here before.
The doors open, and I gasp
in surprise. Before me lies a
beautiful bedroom, complete
with a plush bed and elegant
furnishings. I feel like I've
stepped into a different
world.
He takes my hand and leads
me inside. I can feel my
heart racing with
anticipation. What is going to
happen next?
Suddenly, he throws me onto
the bed, and things start to
get tense. I feel a rush of
adrenaline as he leans over
me, his eyes locked on mine,
as I look into his eyes, I see
a spark of desire that makes
my heart skip a beat.
He started kissing me very
slowly. We are making love I
could feel it, the passion in
this was way too much. Next
thing all our clothes are off,
we are both naked. I realize
that I want this, I want
him. And as he leans in closer,
I know that I'm ready to
take the leap. He took the
ice and started playing with
it all over my body. I mourn
louder than I expected.
I get on top of him, and ride
him nice and slowly as he
groans louder.
He turned me around and
make me bend, he goes in
gently while he is kissing me
all over. He pulled out.
We faced the beautiful ceiling
I've ever seen, trying to
catch a breath. Why is it
decorated like this? Why is it
off limits to us?
Sticks: "we are not drunk
today, so there I'd nothing
to blame today. We did what
we did because of the spark
between us. I never thought
I will fell in love with one of
my employees. After that
incident, don't think I just
throw it under the bed and
forgot about it, no I didn't.
We shared moments
together. So what is
stopping us from being
together forever?"
My ancestors are working
hand in hand with Jesus
trust me.
Me: "I know the HR will get
angry when she finds out,
I've always had a crush on
you. The first day I met you
here at work and the time I
found out you are working
with my friend. I just kept
on falling for you more and
more."
Sticks: "then let's make it
official. Can you be my
girlfriend? The person who I
can rely on when I need a
shoulder to cry on, the person
who will be there for me very
single day. But let's not rush
into telling our friends, I
want us to take things
slowly until we see our
relationship growing into
something better that will
not harm any of us."
My voice is frozen in my
throat like a statue, unable
to utter a single word.
Me: "Yes, I can be your
girlfriend. If they found out
we don't have to hide
anymore right?"
Sticks: "I am not allowed to
date Sis Lindo's friends but I
will cross the bridge when I
get there"
I just need to know how he
met Lindo.
Me: "I won't call you Sir
anymore. So how did you meet
Lindo?"
He chuckles.
Sticks: "I don't like being call
Sir. Uhm, how I met her?
Let's just say streets
brought us together, we
were all hustling looking for
money so that we can buy
something to eat before we
sleep. So I first saw her at
the streets when she was a
teenager before she even
know Ngonyama's. My
parents kicked me out that
day when i saw her. I didn't
talk to her or greet her
because I was shy back in
days. I would always follow
her whenever she goes. She
was really my role model, the
person who showed that in
this world you will lose when
you give up, but you will win
when you keep on pushing.
One of the good days when
she started working at
Ngonyama Holdings when I
was a delivery boy, before
owning this firm. I saw her,
and I noticed that she is
who the streets wants, who
we want. I wasn't only a
delivery boy, I was stealing
clothes and shoes with
Numbers and Spitjo. So she
spotted us stealing, and
called us. We got to know her
better and knowing that she
is really a gangster. That is
when we met, she even
helped us to find jobs since
we were all having degrees"
Gangster life must be hard,
from being kicked out of the
house to stealing.
Me: "why did they gave you
guys those names?"
Sticks: [chuckles] "I feel like
I am being interrogated.
They named me Sticks
because I am always caring
sticks in my pocket every
single day. So we named
Andile, Numbers because he is
really good and numbers, even
Sis Lindo is not that good
than him. As for our doctor,
we named him Cheese boy,
because he is acting like one,
you will always find him clean
even if we were killing
someone you won't see dot of
blood on his shirt and water
is his first priority. As for
Spitjo, eyii it's kind of
complicated I don't know how
we ended up giving him that
name we just gave it to him.
Lastly sister boss, I think
she told you why we gave her
that name right?"
I like how calm he is when he
is telling me all this things.
Me: "I am not interrogating
you, I am just curious. Yes,
she did tell me. My gangster
love"
We are still on duty but here
we are laying in a luxury
bedroom, busy talking about
his background.
Me: “let’s go back to work”
We got out of the bed and
wear our clothes.
INSECT 64

BONGIWE

Sticks and I, decided to go

and negotiate with
Nolwandle out of the court,
because according to my point
of view, I was going to lose
that case.
She came with her lawyer, I
don't even know her name.

Nolwandle: "I'm not sure I'm

comfortable with this
conversation. Those babies
are mine, and I'm their
mother."
I didn't ask her that.
Me: "I understand that, but
my husband was the father,
and I have a right to be
involved in their lives. I'm
willing to offer you a
substantial amount of money
and a comfortable living
arrangement if you agree to
give me full custody."
Her lawyer gives me a dead
stare.
Nolwandle: "You think money
can buy everything, don't
you? Well, let me tell you, it
can't buy love, and it can't
buy the bond I have with my
children. I want a penthouse,
a car not just a car Audi R8,
and a trust fund for each of
the babies. And I want you
to pay for their education
and upbringing."
Wow.
Me: "Uyanya yooh, do you even
know how to drive? I mean
that's outrageous! You're
being unreasonable. I can
offer you a generous sum of
money, but I won't be taken
advantage of."
Sticks: "Bongiwe just be
calm"
I am trying.
Nolwandle: “I will learn how
to drive and I'm not being
unreasonable, I'm being
practical. Those babies are
worth it. And if you want
them, you'll have to pay the
price. I'm not giving them up
without a fight."
Let me just agree on her
terms.
Me: "Fine, I'll agree to your
terms. But know this, I will
be a part of their lives, and
I will make sure they know
their father's side of the
family."
Nolwandle: "I wouldn't have
it any other way. But don't
think for a second that I'll
let you push me around. I'll
be watching, and I'll be
waiting. Those babies are
mine, and I'll do whatever it
takes to protect them."
Sticks hand her the papers
so that I can have full
custody of the triplets.
Nolwandle: "you dare run
away with them you will
know me very well"
Probably she will be dead
when I run away with them.
Me: "I won't"
Sticks: "you are supposed to
threaten my client"
Her lawyer: "we are glad
that we arrived to the
agreement that you will give
her everything she wants so
that you can have a full
custody of the triplets, but
still my client have a right to
see her children anytime she
wants to"
I am thinking of relocating.
Me: "fine"
We shake hands, just glad
she didn't cause any drama. I
guess I will wait until the
babies are fine and healthy,
because they are still in
NICU.
INSECT 65

I walked up the path to my

handsome boyfriend's house,
papers for the new interns in
hand. I was excited to
discuss the progress of the
firm with him, and maybe
even get some feedback on
my previous cases.
As I opened the front door,
I called out to him.
Me: "Hey, babe! I'm here!"
No response.
I made my way to the
bedroom, maybe he is busy
working on his laptop.
As I opened the door, my
world came crashing down.
There he is, Sticks, in bed
with another woman. I felt
like I had been punched in
the gut. The papers in my
hand suddenly feel like they
weighed a ton. I can't move,
can't speak. All I can do is
stare at the betrayal before
me. The woman, whoever she
was, looked up and see me
standing there. She have
the audacity to smile, to look
smug.
Sticks on the other hand, look
like he's been caught red-
handed. He stuttering and
stumbling.
Sticks: [nervously]"Uh, hey,
babe... I can explain..."
We are in a relationship for
just a month but he is
already cheating on me.
Me: [Furious] "Explain?!
You're explaining?! You're
cheating on me! With her!"
Sticks: [calmly]"It's not
what it looks like, I swear..."
Why is he so calm, like he
don’t regret it?
Me: "Not what it looks like?!
You're fucking her! You're
cheating on me!"
Sticks: "It was just a
mistake, okay? It didn't
mean anything..."
Mistake? Ngiyashisa manje.
Me: "A mistake?! You're
throwing away our
relationship for a mistake?"
Sticks: "Please, forgive me...
I love you..."
He is really really brave to
say he loves me.
Me: "Love me? You don't love
me! If you loved me, you
wouldn't cheat on me!"
Sticks:"I'll do anything to
make it right... just don't
leave me..."
I am tired of this.
Me: "It's too late. I'm gone."
I turned and ran, the papers
scattered all over the floor.
I didn't care about them,
didn't care about anything
anymore. All I wanted was
to get out of this house, to
get away from the pain.
As I reached my car, I let
out a scream, a primal wail of
anger and hurt. How could he
do this to me? How could he
betray me like this?
I drove away, tears
streaming down my face, the
papers and my shattered
heart left behind.
I just drive straight to my
apartment.
••••••••••••••••••••••••••
I can't believe I've been
blind to this again. Another
relationship, another
betrayal. Why does this
always happen to me? I feel
like I'm cursed. I feel like my
world has been shattered
into a million pieces. I can't
breathe. I can't think. All I
can do is grab the bottle of
whiskey on the table and
take a swig.
The burn of the alcohol is
the only thing that can numb
this pain right now. I take
another swig, and another,
and another.

I don't know how to process

this. I don't know how to
deal with this. All I know is
that I need to escape. And
alcohol is my escape.
I've tried love, I've tried
relationships, and they
always end in heartbreak.
Maybe I'm just not cut out
for this. Maybe I'm just
meant to be alone.The alcohol
is starting to take effect
now. I feel a little numb, a
little better. But I know
this is just temporary.
Tomorrow, I'll wake up and
the pain will still be there.
But for now, I'll just drink
and try to forget. Forget
the pain, forget the
betrayal, forget the
heartbreak. Just forget.
I see hear my phone ringing
then I see his name, just
ignored it. He keeps on calling
until I switch off my phone.
He just bursted into my
apartment without knocking.
What does he want from me?
Sticks: "babe I am sorry I
didn't mean to hurt you"
Vuyolwethu: "okay"
Sticks: "just okay? That's all
you are going to say, okay?"
Me: "what do you want me
say? Or do you want us to
cuddle? Or fuck each other?
Because it seems like you are
just pushing time with me"
Sticks: "That's what I was
doing, I really love you
Vuyolwethu and I want to
rectify my mistake, I am
willing to settle with you
forever"
The part of me wants to
forgive him but the other
one refuses.
Me: "okay"
I will just say okay, in
everything he says.
INSECT 66

STICKS

I am Kheswa Mbambo known

as Sticks. I own a law firm,
it's growing nicely.

I can't believe it's been a

week since Vuyolwethu found
out. A week since my world
came crashing down. I don't
blame her for ignoring me, I
deserve it. I was a fool to
think I could get away with
it. Every day feels like an
eternity, knowing I've lost
the trust of the person I
love most. I keep replaying
that moment in my head,
wondering what possessed
me to cheat. Was it ego,
insecurity, or just plain
stupidity? I've tried
reaching out to her,
apologizing profusely, but
she's rightfully shut me
down. I don't expect
forgiveness, not yet, maybe
not ever. I need to earn it
back, if that's even possible.
The silence is deafening, a
constant reminder of my
mistake. I'm haunted by the
memories of our laughter, our
late-night conversations. All
gone, thanks to my own
selfish desires.
I've been living in a fog,
going through the motions,
trying to make sense of my
actions. I know I need to
take responsibility, to face
the consequences of my
betrayal. I'm prepared to do
whatever it takes to regain
her trust, even if it means
starting from scratch.

But for now, I'm stuck in

this limbo, reliving that
fateful moment, wondering
what could've been if only I
had made better choices.
The weight of my regret is
crushing me, a constant
reminder that I've let her
down. I can only hope that
someday, somehow, I'll be
able to make it right.
Numbers: "Sticks are you
okay Bafo?"
Me: "I messed up guys, I
cheated on woman that love
me, now she is completely
ignoring me"
They just laughed at me, I
don't blame them because I
am known as the man of the
match when it comes to
cheating.
Busani: "do we know her?"
I took a deep breath, I
know boss lady will be furious
after hearing this.
Me: "yeah you know her,
Vuyolwethu Ngozo. Sis
Lindo's friend"
Lindo: "so you are the one
making my friend to drink
everyday? How could you? I
told you guys to stay the hell
away from my friends now
she is crying everyday
because of you?"
I didn't mean to hurt her.
Busani: "calm down babe, calm
down. Go and apologize Bafo
there is no another way"
Me: "I tried to apologize to
her, but she shuts me down.
And Sis Lindo I am so sorry
I didn't mean to hurt her, it
wasn't my intention to hurt
her, I hope one day she finds
it in her heart to forgive me.
And the day we both came
home from Club Paradise we
had sex because we were
both drunk, when we wake
up I immediately told her it
was a mistake that will
never happen again and we
should just forget that it
happened, but I hurt her
again. I guess I don't
deserve her"
Lindo: "you did what? So you
are the one she was talking
about but she said she saw
it on Tik Tok, my friend has
been through shit to be
treated like a trash. And
don't even try to make her
to forgive you because you
will hurt her again and again"
Why don't she just shoot me
so that I can die.
Spitjo: "Sticks you knew that
Sister boss's friends are out
of limit when it comes to us,
but moment of weakness got
you off cuts to the point
were you couldn't control your
lust"
I feel like I am in a serious
meeting, because they are no
longer laughing.
Cheese boy: "I hope you guys
know understand why don't
settle, I knew this might
happen"
I should've asked to sit with
her at Club Paradise.
Lindo: "what I know about
my stupid friend is that she
is going to forgive you, even
though you wronged her
multiple times"
I just hope she does so that
I can settle with her and
make babies with her.
INSECT 67

LINDOKUHLE

I just decided to call

Vuyolwethu over to the
lounge just to talk to her
about Sticks. Since I've
heard that she forgave him.
Me: "you are busy painting
the town red with Sticks,
thinking and hoping that I
won't find out"
Vuyolwethu: "how did you....."
Me: "how did I find out? You
are my friend Vuyo and he is
my friend in criminal
activities. He once broke your
heart right? And you didn't
bother telling me or leaving
him alone, because I told you
he will play with you but you
don't listen"
She took her wine before
answering me.
Vuyolwethu: "He changed and
apologized for what he did"
This idiot.
Me: "o tsheretshere, o
semaumau sies. He will
repeat it and ask for
forgiveness again, I know
him more than you think you
do. You deserve someone who
isn't afraid to hurt other
women's feelings to protect
yours, not to hurt you"
Vuyolwethu: "I know when
you are talking that
language you are serious, but
friend I love him and he
loves me too or maybe not.
Nobody gets me like he does,
nobody ever handle and hold
me the way he does. I can
move on with someone else
but I won't be satisfied like
when I am with him. You
don't know what happens
when he close the door, so
don't judge me for being his
fool and he rather hurt me
than to move on with
someone else"
I just laughed, this is
hilarious. I just hope Sticks
hear what Vuyolwethu says,
so that he can stop playing
with her heart and settle
with her forever.
Me: "let's say you get
pregnant, what are you going
to do? You are going to raise
that baby with a player?"
She drink the whole glass of
wine.
Vuyolwethu: "I am always
taking my shots"
Me: "I rest my case
Vuyolwethu Ngozo."
She filled her glass, she is
going to get drunk tonight I
know her.
Vuyolwethu: "Waiter, can you
give me a bottle of
Hennessey please this thing
is just weak I don't get it"
I guess I have to watch
her as she get drunk.
The waiter bring the bottle
and ice. She fill her glass and
she doesn't put the ice on
her alcohol.
INSECT 68

BUSANI

We just decided to do men's

conference today since we are
all bored. And Lindokuhle is
out with Khloe so I am
bored.
Ifalethu: "Khaya I know
when you are dating, so tell
me who she is?"
We all looked at Khaya to
answer Ifalethu.
Khaya: "She is Lesego
Letaoana, I am pretty sure
God took his time when he
was making her, I mean
damn she is so beautiful. I
know I date beautiful huns
but this one damn she takes
a cup"
We whistle for him, and
splash wine on him. Khaya is
back in manhood.
Numbers: "spill the beans,
how did you meet her? Where
did you meet her?"
We like news don't judge us.
Khaya: "so I was at Zara
busy buying clothes for my
mother's birthday, then I
laid my eyes on her. Her smile,
eyes and voice just made me
to feel in love with her and
mostly importantly her
personality"
Sticks: "I guess we are going
to pay Letaoana's a visit
soon and pay lobola 'cause
wow, you are taken my boy"
It is my first time seeing
Khaya blushing.
Khaya: "I am taken dude,
she has everything I wanted
in a lady and i guess i am
ready to settle with her
forever"
We raised our glasses.
Me: "Spitjo, Cheese boy,
Numbers and Ifalethu. Time
is ticking guys you need to
find ladies that will treat you
right and settle with them
forever"
They looked at me like I am
crazy.
Cheese boy: "if you say settle
count me out bafo, i can't
miss those hot chicks out
there for one person"
Ifalethu: "me too, I've been
on so many dates, but seem
to stick, i am starting to
think I'm just not cut out
for relationships. And just
because you got Sis Lindo
with a blink of an eye don't
think we will get people we
want just like that"
They are joking trust me.
Me: "Numbers and Spitjo
what about you guys?"
Numbers pretend like he is
coughing. As Spitjo laughed
at him, maybe there is
something he is hiding or
they know what we don't
know.
Numbers: "uhmm...promise
me you won't laugh"
Me: "I promise"
Numbers: "I am scared of
girls, I've never dated
anyone in my life"
I promise not to laugh
right? But he will have to
forgive me, because I am
going to laugh.
Me: "we all passed that
stage, so you never opened
the Bible and preach?"
Numbers: "yes"
I was trying to hold myself
but I laughed.
Me: "sorry bafo, Spitjo why
are you so quiet? We are in
man conference so talk"
Spitjo: "I'm still searching
for that special someone.
It's tough out there, but
I'm keeping hope alive, and
I've been asking this lady
out so many times but
rejected me, so i guess i will
keep on searching or go for
her until she agrees"
Us: "Who???"
Spitjo: "Dibuseng Letseli if I
am pronouncing her surname
correctly"
How did she reject someone
handsome like him? How did
she flumb him? Maybe he is
not her type.
Me: "follow her until she
agrees"
Khaya: "like how I did to
Lesego, she rejected me
multiple times but I never
gave up on her."
We have new relationships
advisor on board.
Ifalethu: "maybe if you guys
tell us about your journey,
maybe we will change our
minds"
Cheese boy: "I am not
changing my mind"
Numbers: "I am with you
bafo"
We just laughed.
Me: "I've been married for
months now, and I can tell
you, it's a journey. Ups and
downs, but worth it."
I can't get from the fact
that she is angry at me.
Sticks: "I just got into a
relationship with Vuyolwethu
a week ago, and it's been
amazing. I feel like I've
found my partner in crime.
Like they say patience is a
virtue, so be patient you will
get the girl of your dreams
also they say patience is
bitter but it's fruit is sweet,
hang in there guys"
I just love that he decided
to settle with Vuyolwethu
forever, like he wouldn't
continue playing with her
while we are still around.
Khaya: "Same here! I was
skeptical at first, but Lesego
has changed my life for the
better. I know i just met
her 2 months back but i feel
renewed by her presence"
Someone is in love, Lesego
really took my friend's heart.
Sticks: "And don't settle for
someone who isn't your rock.
You want someone who will
support you through thick
and thin."
Khaya: "Spitjo don't be afraid
to take risks! Putting
yourself out there can lead to
amazing things"
He is saying all those things
busy looking at Lesego's
pictures, he is gone and I
don't think he will return.
Me: "Khaya can you please
change GG Cigarettes to LK
Cigarettes, meaning
Lindokuhle-Khloe in full"
I really want to change
everything that will make us
fight again.
Ifalethu: "she knows about
it?"
Me: "yes"
Them: "who??"
I think her gang don’t know.
Khaya: "basically the full
meaning of GG is Georgia-
George Cigarettes, this ass
hole named that business
with his ex name when they
were still together, and when
they broke up he didn't
change that name, so now
Sis Lindo knows, he want to
change it now while he had
months to change it"
He always disrespect me.
Numbers: "Just thank your
ancestors and God that you
are still alive or else we will
be singing Amagogo right
now"
I do thank them, because I
could see fire in her eyes
when she was talking to me.
INSECT 68

CHEESE BOY

My name is Hennie Van

Rensburg known as
cheeseboy.

I sit on the porch, my eyes

fixed on the empty space
beside me where my loyal
companion, Max, used to lay.
My heart feels heavy, like a
weight is crushing me. I
can't believe he's gone. That
furry ball of joy, that tail-
wagging friend, that loving
soul...he's really gone. My dog
is gone.
I think back to all the
memories we shared, the
walks, the plays, the
snuggles. Max was more than
just a pet, he was my
brother, my confidant, my
best friend. He didn't care
about my skin color, my past,
or my struggles. All he cared
about was being by my side.
I remember the day I got
him, a little pup with big
ears and a wagging tail. He
was my shadow, following me
everywhere, always happy to
see me. And now...now he's
gone.
Tears stream down my face
as I think about all the
things I'll never get to do
with him again. I'll never
get to take him on walks,
play fetch, or cuddle on the
couch. My heart aches with
grief, and I feel lost without
him.
But even in death, Max
taught me a valuable lesson
- love knows no color, no
breed, no species. Love is
universal, and it's the
strongest bond we can share
with another living being.
As I sit here, mourning the
loss of my dear friend, I
know that Max may be gone,
but he'll never be forgotten.
He'll always be in my heart,
and his memory will continue
to inspire me to love
unconditionally, just as he did.
Rest in peace, my dear Max.
You will be deeply missed.

I just decided to go to the

lounge just to get distracted
from the fact that I
recently lost my dog.
Numbers: "are you crying
Mlungu?"
I do know different
languages there and there,
but when it comes to
pronouncing those words, I
struggle.
Me: "I was crying"
Sticks: "they've dumped you?"
Spitjo: "or maybe he found
that he is HIV positive,
because he is fucking chicks
everyday"
These idiots.
Lindo: "never mind them, just
tell us what happened?"
Our humble boss lady, but
not always.
Me: [stammering]
"uhm....I…just lost Max"
Numbers: "Max? Your dog?"
Me: "yes"
They just laughed at me.
Sticks: "are you crying over a
dog? You can replace it with
another dog"
They really don't understand
the connection we have with
dogs, we as white people.
Me: "it's not that easy to
get over it, it was not just a
dog. It was like a brother
and a friend to me"
Spitjo: "we understand that
you loved your dogs, but as
for crying. Ah bafo, crying?"
I guess they will continue
judging me and say I am
hilarious, when I tell them
about the funeral.
Me: "I want you guys to
come to the funeral, today
around 15:00."
They just stare at me for a
while, and laugh again.
Lindo: [laughing] "I did say
don't mind them right? But
funeral?"
Spitjo: [giggling] "We will
come, right guys?"
Khaya: "yes, we will come.
But a funeral for a dog? We
will come"
Dog also deserve decent
funeral like us.
Ifalethu: "so we wear black?
I mean we are going to bury
a dog, nothing major. We can
wear what we want"
Busani: "dog or someone's
funeral, we are wearing
black"
Whether they are coming or
not I am going to bury my
dog.
•••••••••••••••••••••••••
Everything is ready, the
preparations are just fine
and spectacular. I only
invited the gang, Lindo's
friends and my family.
Everyone is wearing black as
Busani said.
Vuyolwethu: "are we at dog's
funeral or party? Because
this is way more than I
expected"
I wonder how Sticks handles
her.
Lindo: "we are at the funeral
friend"
Numbers: "I wish I was your
dog, you even bought a luxury
coffin for it."
I can do anything to what I
love.
Anathi is holding the service.
She opened with a prayer.
Anathi: "Dear Heavenly
Father, we thank you for the
gift of Max's life and the
countless memories we
shared with them. We ask
that you welcome them into
your loving arms and grant
them eternal rest.
May their tail always wag in
joy, may their snout always
sniff out wonder, and may
their heart always be filled
with love. Amen."
Us: "Amen"
I just want it to be a small
service without speeches and
send off.
We arrived at the grave
yard.
Cheese boy: "Rus in vrede
Max, jy sal altyd 'n spesiale
deel in my hart besit (Rest in
peace Max, you will always
own a special part in my
heart)"
They covered his grave with
soil. When we leave the grave
yard, I instructed them to
do a tombstone for Max's
grave.
I did spend lot of money, and
I don't mind.
Vuyolwethu: "I just can't
believe it, we buried a dog
like we are burying a person.
I must say you really really
loved your dog, you treated it
like a human being. But you
white people....let me shut
up"
I know she was going to say
something bad.
We walked to the catering to
help ourselves with food and
drinks. I even brought my
other two dogs to the
funeral, Lily and Rax.
Anathi: "I don't like dogs,
but this puppies are so
beautiful and they smell so
good. You do treat them like
humans, and we must treat
everything in this world
equally, we must not criticize
the pets"
Our pastor, I am not used to
her that much but all I can
say is that she has a good
heart.
Me: "atleast, someone
understands why I did what
I did"
Vuyolwethu: "we are sorry
cheese boy, we didn't know
that white people share
incredible bond with pets.
Because us as black people
we don't do such things,
that's the reason we
laughed and judged you, after
telling us about the funeral"
When I first saw her, I
didn't believe sister boss
when she said she is down to
earth.
Sticks: "just make sure she
don't drink, because she will
say ridiculous things"
Me: "its fine guys, I know
white people do extraordinary
things that black people
don't do. But that's how we
are, that's how our parents
raised us, to love anything in
this world. When I say
extraordinary things I don't
mean we bury plants when
they are dead"
Vuyolwethu: [Laughing]
"sorry I didn't mean to
laugh, i tried to hold myself.
But last part wasn't
necessary"
I am glad we are on the
page, they are no longer
judging me.
Lindo: "hope you forgive us
for judging you"
She hugged me as they join
with a group hug.
We helped ourselves with
food and drinks as I play
music.
INSECT 69

LINDOKUHLE

Busani and I, decided to work

at home today since we
haven't found a nanny to look
after Khloe. And we really
buried a dog yesterday.
Me: "babe, I see three people
here who want to be nannies"
Busani: "my mother will
interview them"
Just hope she picks the
right person for my baby.
I open the second email from
Head of Finance.
Me: "WTF!! 10 million stolen
from Ngonyama's accounts"
Who did that?
Busani: "no, no, no this can't
be happening, 10 million
stolen from my company
account too? Who the hell
stole 10 million from
Ngonyama's account and my
company's account? The
whole 20 million gone?"
I am going to kill whoever
did that.
I called Spitjo.
Spitjo: "sister boss"
Me: "Spitjo there is 10 million
stolen from Ngonyama's
accounts and 10 million from
BG Jewels's accounts, I need
you to track those
transactions"
Spitjo: "send everything the
details of the accounts and
also tell Busani to do that
also, I will get on top of it
immediately, but I am not
busy right now"
We both emailed the details
and wait for the feedback.
•••••••••••••••••••••
After 2 hours Spitjo calls us.
Spitjo: "according to my
things here, it is Mr
Khumalo, do you know how he
is?"
Xhaba, Xhaba, Xhaba. I am
going to kill him.
Me: "Xhaba"
Busani: "Your ex fiance? The
whole mayor knows how to
hack accounts"
Me: "yes my ex fiance, he did
computer science specialized
in IT so yeah he took it"
Spitjo: "we can't let him go
just like that, we have to
find him"
And I will kill him.
Spitjo: "we will hunt him
down today"
Why should we wait?
INSECT 70

LINDOKUHLE

I just made my day short to

prepare myself to find Xhaba
and deal withhis shenanigans,
I just don't like what I am
going to do to him when I
find him. I wore my black
jean with a cut on my knees,
white crop top and our black
Versace baseball written big
five in italics. I tied my hair
since I will be using my bike
today, I took my gloves,
helmet and keys. While
Busani decided to go with
Khloe to Durban just to spoil
her away from Cape Town, i
guess Khloe took my spot.
I walked downstairs and I
find my gang already waiting
for me and they are wearing
exactly like me.
Me: "let's go and finish what
he started"
We walked out. We started
our bikes then off we go to
the hotel where Xhaba is,
since he was last seen there.
It feels like we are being
chased by police, I mean it's
been a while since we've used
them.

We walked to the hotel

where Xhaba is.
Receptionist: "how may I
help you gentlemen and a
lady?"
I read her name tag and it
is written Zion Molefe.
Me: "Hi, Mrs Molefe, we are
looking a guest who started
to stay here last week. His
name is Xhaba Khumalo."
Zion: "I'm not able to provide
personal information about
our guests. How can I assist
you with something else?"
Me: "But we really need to
get in touch with him. Can
you just give us his room
number?"
Zion: "I apologize, but I'm
not able to share that
information. It's against our
privacy policy to disclose
personal details about our
guests."
I took a deep breath.
Me: "But we are close friend
of his. He would want us to
have this information."
Zion: "I understand, but I'm
not able to make exceptions.
If you're trying to contact
him, you might want to try
reaching out to him through
other means, like social media
or mutual friends. We cannot
share personal information
about our guests."
I am running out of patience
this days.
Me: "Spitjo just do your job,
she is wasting our time"
Spitjo take out his laptop
and do things he is good at.
Spitjo: "room 23B, 3rd floor"
Me: "that was easy, you
should've done that but you
are stubborn young lady, and
try to call the security. I will
kill you along with them, try
me"
She is looking so shocked, I
just hope she doesn't link the
footage to the police.
We took the elevator to the
3rd floor.
Me: "Spitjo just make sure
that the cameras are off in
this floor"
Spitjo: "done boss"
We walked to 23B room, and
burst in without knocking. We
find him fucking three white
chicks, how disgusting.
Me: "SURPRISE!!!"
White chicks walked out
running with towels around
their body, leaving Xhaba
alone.
Xhaba: "Lindo what are you
doing here and why didn't you
knock. You even came with
your uncles for what? And
why are you dressed like you
are going to kill someone?"
It's funny how he still
consider my gang as my
uncles.
Me: "so this is how you are
spending the money you stole
from Ngonyama Holdings and
BB Jewels? You will know the
reason why I am dressed like
this when i rapped you with
those stinking sheets"
He wore his jeans and shirt,
and he sit on the bed.
Xhaba: "rapped me with
what? And what money are
you talking about?"
Thefts are always like this
when they are caught.
Me: "don't play dump with
me, you know exactly what I
am talking about. You used
your IT skills to hack
Ngonyama Holdings accounts
and BB Jewels's accounts,
then took 10 million to each
company, the whole 20
million?"
Sticks: "you should've moved
to another country or
continent before The Finisher
finds you, but what is the
use of telling you because you
are dead my brother"
Why did he mention my
gangster name, but there is
no use of being shocked, that
i am exposed to my ex fiance
because he is going to die
today.
Xhaba: "I didn't take it, are
you The Finisher Lindo? Are
you killing people?"
I am pretty sure he pissed
on his pants, because he is
sweating.
Me: "you just answered
yourself my dear, I am a
killer, a drug dealer,
cigarette maker and the list
goes on, and best part is
that they are not my uncles"
To say he is shocked will be
understatement.
Xhaba: "I will bring that
money back, please don't kill
me. Please forgive me Lindo,
please"
I see tears running down his
cheek. Numbers just laughed,
and that made us to laugh.
Like his laugh can make you
laugh even if you don't want
to.
Me: [laughing] "I am not
God I don't forgive people
for their sins, and I don't
know how to forgive people
while they are still alive.
Wipe those tears, and stop
acting like a baby"
Cheese boy: "there are two
things that are going to
happen today. Firstly you
return the money I mean all
of it, the secondly we send
you to your maker, if I say
we will kill you it will freak
you out, so we will just sent
you to him free of charge"
He swallowed so hard.
Me: "why are you so scared
knowing exactly that they
don't allow weapons in this
hotel?"
Xhaba: "I don't know what
you are capable of, and my
laptop is at my house I can't
do transactions without it"
Me: "put your shoes on, we
are going to fetch it, and I
knew it that this knife inside
my hairpin will be
unnecessary, so let's go"
Everything can be turned to
a weapon if you are going to
well protected places.
We walked out of his room, he
is not causing any trouble.
When we arrived at the
reception I decided to stop.
Me: "I am so sorry Mrs
Molefe for threatening you
earlier, it wasn't my intention
to do so. Please forgive me"
I don't like threatening
women, I only deal with
males.
Zion: "its okay, Ma'am. I
know I may be stubborn
sometimes but I was just
doing things by the book"
Me: "you can call me Lindo,
and It wasn't my place to
force you to give me the
details of this idiot."
I took out few R200 notes
rolled and gave it to her.
Me: "hope you will entertain
yourself with this few notes
after your shift. I am not
bribing you to shut up, but I
want you to forgive me"
Zion: "few? This is a lot for
forgiving you. But thank you,
and I will use it wisely. Have
a nice day Lindo"
I walked out, and they are
busy shouting at Xhaba
Me: "you will ride with me,
just lean on me everything
will be fine"
I started my bike and gave
him safety helmet.
He is holding me so tight, I
didn't know he is afraid of
motorbikes.
••••••••••••••••••••••••••
When we arrive at Xhaba's
house he walked straight to
his study as we follow him.
Spitjo: "just open your laptop
I will transfer the money"
He did as he is instructed
without causing drama.
I open my hairpin as i took
out the knife, and cut his
throat.
Xhaba: [coughing] "L...Lindo
what...what...have you done"
Lindo: "Rest in peace Xhaba,
atleast I warned you before.
Guys please clean this up"
I made my way out leaving
them with him, when i close
the door I hear gunshots, I
guess they wanted to finish
him quickly.
I hear my phone ringing in
my pocket. I see Ngonyama
Holdings numbers.
Me: "hello"
Lady: "Mrs Ngwenya, you are
speaking with Malefu there
is a boy here looking for you"
A boy?
Me: "okay, I am on my way"
I guess I will use my bike
and I won't go to my house
to change the clothes.
••••••••••••••••••••••
When I arrive at
Ngonyama's I see a boy
wearing a uniform facing the
other way.
Me: "hi"
He gets shocked, as he turns
around slowly.
Him: "Sis Lindo. Finally"
Tlotliso? My brother is here?
I thought I had lost him
forever, left him behind in a
desperate attempt to
escape from that monster.
But here he is, now a young
man, with a hint of a smile
on his face. I felt like I had
been punched in the gut, my
mind racing with questions.
How did he find me? Why is
he here?
And then, without a word, we
embraced. Tears streamed
down my face as I held him
tight, the weight of all
those years of guilt and grief
lifting off my shoulders. I
had thought I would never
see him again, that I had
abandoned him to the same
fate that I had escaped.
But here he is, alive and well,
and it seemed, forgiving. We
held each other for a long
time, the noise of the
reception fading into the
background, as we both let
go of the past and embraced
a new beginning.
Me: "how did you find me
Tlotliso?"
Tlotliso: "as you can see I am
wearing uniform so we were
on a school trip, going all
around the country to
companies that improve the
economy of South Africa. So
when we get here I had to
hide myself until they go, I
couldn't go back to that
monster. I was literally his
punching bag, you won't see
the scars now because I hide
them with makeup when I
am going out"
I am going to kill Lefa, I am
going to kill him!
Me: "let's put that in the
past and move on, and there
is no way you are going back
to Houghton, I will protect
you with everything I have"
Tlotliso: "thank you, thank
you Sis"
Me: "you are not scared of
riding the bike right?"
Tlotliso: "yes"
I walked out to the parking
with him. I hand him the
helmet.
INSECT 71

TLOTLISO

I still can't believe my luck. I

went from living with a
monster to living in a luxury
with the people I love most
in the world. My sister, her
husband, and their adorable
daughter have taken me in
and shown me what it means
to be part of a real family.
As I walk through the halls
of this grand house, I feel a
sense of pride and belonging.
I get to be a part of this
beautiful family, to share in
their laughter and
adventures. Buti Busani has
become like a father to me,
kind and supportive, and
Khloe is the sweetest little
sister I could ask for.
We have family movie nights
and game nights together.
It's like I've entered a
whole new world, one where
love and joy are the norm.
My sister and I have finally
found our happy ending, and
it's more than we ever could
have imagined. We've both
been through so much, but
now we get to heal and grow
together.
I'll always cherish this love
and this family, and I'll never
forget the journey that
brought us here. We've been
through the darkness, but
now we're basking in the
light of our newfound
happiness.
Busani: "Tlotliso come and see
the news"
Journalist: "Breaking news,
we have a developing story
for you tonight. A young boy
called Tlotliso Motaung has
gone missing during school
trip, and his parents are
frantically searching for him.
The child, who is only 14
years old, was last seen in
school bus, 2 days ago.
His parents are desperate
for any information that
could lead to his safe return
and are offering a reward of
R30000 to anyone who can
provide information that
leads to his whereabouts.
The police are currently
investigating and have
launched a search operation,
but so far, no signs of the
missing boy have been found.
We urge anyone with any
information, no matter how
small, to come forward and
contact the authorities
immediately. The parents are
beside themselves with
worry and are counting on
the public's help to bring
their son home safely.
We will continue to follow this
story and provide updates as
more information becomes
available. In the meantime,
our thoughts are with the
family during this incredibly
difficult time.
If you have any information,
please contact the police on
10111 or the missing persons
hotline on 0800 222 777.
Let's work together to bring
this young boy home."
R30000??
Lindo: “don’t worry they
won’t find you. Please give me
mom’s contacts I want to
talk to her”
I gave her the numbers as
she place the phone on loud
speaker.
Mom: “hello”
She keeps quite.
Mom: “you can’t call me and
keep quite”
Lindo: “sho dimamzo, it’s been
a while”
Mom: “who is speaking?”
Lindo: “your one and only
daughter Lindokuhle, and
guess I am sitting with
who? Your son, Tlotliso. I am
just glad I’ve found him
after so many years”
Mom: “yee wena sfebe, bring
my son back”
So she really hate her.
Lindo: “let me answer you in
that monster’s language.
Ska bua le nna enkare o
hlwella thaba my sister. And
if you want him let’s meet at
Bukhif Lounge I will send you
the date and time, and make
sure you come with Lefa, I
just want to see him”
I have a bad feeling about
the meeting. She hunged up
before saying goodbye.
Lindo: “don’t worry I am not
going with you, I will go
alone.”
Tlotliso: “okay Sis, do you own
that Lounge?”
Lindo: [chuckles] “No, Busani
and his friends owns it”
They must be loaded, and
this house can tell that they
are rich.
INSECT 72

LINDOKUHLE

Bab'Ngonyama said he has

something for me, Qhawe
and Qhawekazi today. Let
me wake up and prepare
myself for the meeting. And
I only saw him once when he
came back from France.
I rushed to the bathroom
and too a long cold shower. I
rapped a towel around me,
and walked to my dressing
room. I lotion my body, I
wore a black and white
adidas tight dress with black
heels. I walked out, I find
Busani yawning.
Me: "Goodmorning Honey"
Busani: "Goodmorning
sweetheart, you look
beautiful"
I brushed my hair and did
little touch ups on my face.
Me: "thank you babe. Why are
you still in bed at this time?"
Busani: "I am not going to
work today, I am not in the
mood of going to work"
People who own businesses
are leaving the life of my
dreams.
Me: "must be good owning
your own business"
Busani: "not all the time
babe, there are ups and
downs in businesses."
I still remember the day
when Sticks nearly closed his
firm, because things were
not adding up.
Me: "I understand. Let me
go. I will see you later. Bye"
I kissed him as I made my
way out. I stopped at
Khloe's nursery and she is
still sleeping. I kissed her on
the forehead. I walked out
to Tlotliso's room and he is
already up cleaning him room.
Early birds do catch the
fattest worm.
Me: "Goodmorning brother,
you woke up early today"
Tlotliso: "Goodmorning Sis,
yeah because I was having
nightmare about my father
beating me"
Me: "just tell Busani when he
wakes up to take you to the
therapist, because I to go
somewhere. And you can beat
this brother, I've been
having bad dreams too when
I first got here but I've
healed it wasn't easy but I
did"
Only if he knows I healed
because of killing not by the
help of the therapist.
I took the elevator to the
garade.
I started my car and off I
go to Bab'Ngonyama's.

I packed my car in the middle

of the yard, as I make way
in. I find them waiting for
me. The moment Qhawe sees
me his face immediately
changed.
Qhawe: "so this is the person
we've been waiting for all
this time? Mxah"
He still hates me, I mean I
didn't do anything to him.
Bab'Ngonyama: "hold your
horses Qhawe. My daughter
take your seat so that we
can proceed"
I pulled a chair next to
Qhawekazi.
Qhawekazi: [whispering]
"just ignore him"
She brushed my hand softly,
her touch made me to feel
calm.
Bab'Ngonyama: "Qhawe
what I am going to say
right now has nothing to do
with you being here I just
want you to be a spectator
and a witness of what I am
going to say right now"
Qhawe: "just be fast old man,
I have important things to
attend better than this
annoying meeting"
Bab'Ngonyama just stand up
and slap him, please.
Bab'Ngonyama: "your
attitude is the main reason
why I removed you to my
will."
To say he is shocked will be
understatement.
Bab'Ngonyama: "you all know
that I am still fighting this
monster in my brain. So I
decided to resign with
immediate effect and hand
my company to Lindokuhle
and my princess Qhawekazi.
Each will hold 50% of
Ngonyama Holdings. As for
you Mr Know it all, you will
check if the toilets are
always clean and the
Company is always clean I
don't want to see piece of
paper when I get there."
50% of what? I am now a
shareholder of the biggest
Company in Cape Town and
also a shareholder of the
biggest farm in Matatiele?
My ancestors are working
overtime trust me. Qhawe is
disappointed.
Qhawe: "Dad what did I do
to you? You hate me like I
am not your son. You even
gave this whore 50% of my
children's legacy"
This time I stood up and
slap him so hard.
Me: "don't you dare call me
that again, or else you will
regret the day you knew my
name"
Qhawekazi tried to calm me
down.
Bab'Ngonyama: "your actions
Qhawe pushed me to do
that. You totally disrespect
Lindo for no reason. I love
you more than you think, I
think I spoiled you too much
now you are getting to my
nerves"
Qhawe: "Lindokuhle Dlamini I
am not done with you, your
day is coming"
I think he doesn't know that
I am not longer using that
surname. If he says my day
is coming then I am more
than ready.
Me: "bring it on young man"
He walked out, holding his
cheek.
Qhawekazi: "please don't kill
him, please"
Me: "if he cross the line then
I will, even if you hate me I
don't care I've been through
that"
I walked out leaving them.
Bab'Ngonyama follow me.
Bab'Ngonyama: "I know he
disrespected you but never
take decisions when you are
angry my daughter, just give
him time he will come around"
They must be taking drugs
with him, there is no way I
am going to forgive him
when he cross the line.
Never!!
Me: "have a nice day
Bab'Ngonyama"
I just throw myself in my
car.
I decided to go to the
Lounge just to drink few
drinks.
I used the back entrance to
the office, it is empty.
I took a bottle of tequila. I
just drink it without pouring
it into the glass.
Numbers: "trouble in
paradise?"
When did he get here?
Me: "No. Something
happened"
He took the bottle.
Numbers: "who are we killing
this time?"
Me: "I would say Qhawe if
they didn't defend him so no
one. He just disrespected me
and he said he is not done. I
guess I have to prepare
myself for a war. Give me
that bottle manh"
Numbers: "I won't let you
drink because something bad
happened, we don't fix our
problems with alcohol you
know that. Let's just wait
and see"
I almost forgot that I have
to set up a meeting with
people I once called my
parents.
Me: "yeah, I know. Let's just
drop it. I want you to
organize Ricin for me at your
pharmacy"
He looked at me shocked.
Number: "that is the poison
you know that right?"
Me: "yes, I know. So can
you?"
Numbers: "i will organize it,
you are going to poison him?"
Me: "not him, my step
father. I am going to meet
them at Bukhif lounge next
week because they want
Tlotliso. So I have to kill him
as soon as possible, he won't
just get away after what he
did to me and my brother.
And i want you to go with me
to Jo'burg so that you can
prepare like you are the
waiter"
Numbers: "remind me not to
mess with you. So that I can
put that poison on his food
and drinks?"
Me: [chuckles] "yes"
Numbers: "you must be
number 1 on the list of serial
killers"
I am not a serial killer.
Me: "give me my bottle"
He pour a tequila in a glass
and hand it to me.
Numbers: "that will be your
last glass"
I chuckled. He got to be
kidding me.
Me: "just get yourself a
girlfriend please, so that you
can treat her like this"
Numbers: "last thing on my
mind"
I just can't believe that he
never dated anyone in his life
before.
INSECT 73

SPITJO

As I stepped out of the jet

with Dibuseng, I couldn’t
help but feel a sense of
excitement and nervousness.
I am finally in Paris with
Dibuseng. I met her through
mutual friends, and I had
been smitten from the start.
But everytime I asked her
out, she would reject me with
a polite but firm ‘no’. But
now, here we are, strolling
along the Seine, taking in the
sights and sounds of the City
of Love.
As we walked, I couldn’t help
but ask her.
Me: “So, why did you finally
say yes? I mean, I know I’m
charming and all, but you
rejected me so many times
before”
She just laughed and smiled.
Dibuseng: “I know, I know.
I’m sorry about that. The
truth is, I was just getting
out of a long-term
relationship and wasn’t ready
to jump into something new.
But I have to admit, your
persistence was impressive”
I grinned, feeling a sense of
relief.
Me: “I’m glad I wore you
down”
She playfully rolled her eyes.
Dibuseng: “You did. But
seriously, I’m glad I gave
you a chance. I’m having a
great time here with you”
I stopped and turned to her,
looking into her eyes.
Me: “I’m having an amazing
time too. And I have to say,
I feel a real connection with
you. Would you be my
girlfriend?”
Her face lit up with a smile.
Dibuseng: “yes, I’d love to”
I pulled her into a kiss,
feeling like the luckiest man
alive. Who knew that all
those rejections would lead to
this moment?
INSECT 74

LINDOKUHLE

The day has finally arrived

to meet those monsters, I
stand in front of the mirror,
my hands are shaking as I
try to steady myself. I
haven't seen my mother or
Lefa in years, not since that
fateful day when my world
was shattered into a million
pieces. The day I told my
mother that her husband,
Lefa, had raped me. The day
she chose not to believe me.
I take a deep breath and
try to calm my racing heart.
I've been preparing myself
for this moment for what
feels like an eternity. I've
rehearsed what I want to
say, how I want to say it.
I've practiced my tone, my
expression. I want to be
strong, to be confident. I
want to make them see the
truth.
But as I look in the mirror,
I see the fear and
uncertainty staring back at
me. I see the scars of the
past, the wounds that never
fully healed. I see the doubt
that creeps in, the what-ifs
that plague my mind. What if
my mother still doesn't
believe me? What if she
takes his side again? What if
I'm not strong enough to
face them?
I push aside the doubts and
take another deep breath. I
remind myself of all the
reasons I've come this far. I
remind myself of the truth.
I was raped. Lefa was the
one who did it. My mother
didn't believe me.
I square my shoulders and
look myself straight in the
eye. I can do this. I have to
do this. For myself, for my
healing, for my justice. With a
newfound determination, I
turn away from the mirror
and begin my journey to
confront the past, to face my
demons, and to reclaim my
truth.

I found Numbers waiting for

me outside with his Porch.
Busani: "tell us when you get
there"
I kissed him.
Me: "I will"
I get in Numbers car, off we
go to Bukhif lounge.
Numbers: "I've never seen
you nervous like this"
Me: "I just don't know how I
am going to face them, but
I guess I am ready"

●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●
We arrived after 3 hours, as
Numbers change to Waiter's
uniform that he got from
Busani.
I take a deep breath as I
walk inside the lounge. When
I walk to them their faces
change.
Mom: "where is Tlotliso?"
Me: "No, hello my daughter?
He is coming"
Only if she knows that he is
not coming.
I took my seat opposite to
them, I see Numbers
walking to us holding an iPad,
I guess they use them to
take orders.
Numbers: "is there anything
you want to order?"
Lefa: "yes, Hennessey
without ice and oysters make
them spicy"
Mom: "orange juice and sushi"
I hope they are holding
wallets because I am not
going to pay.
Me: "I don't want anything I
am fine"
Numbers: "okay, your orders
will be served"
Lefa: "o se o hodile(You've
grown)"
He is busy drooling down on
me.
Me: "yeah, and we don't
speak Sesotho in fancy places
we only speak English or
Afrikaans you will choose"
Lefa: "mhmmm"
He give me a disgusting look.
Mom: "when is Tlotliso
coming? We want to go"
Me: "just be patient"
Numbers and another waiter
bring their order.
Numbers: "enjoy"
He is good at this acting
thing.
Them: "thank you"
I just looked at them for a
while.
Me: "Lefa why did you abuse
your son?"
But Tlotliso don't look like
him, my mother has to tell us
the truth.
Mom: "he didn't abuse him,
Tlotliso made up that story
like you did"
So she still believe me, even
her son?
Me: "Unbelievable, Lefa have
you noticed that you don't
look like Tlotliso? Mom is he
father? Just shave the devil
and tell us the truth"
She coughs so hard, before
she talks.
Mom: "yeah he is not his
father, Tlotliso's father is
dead, he was a pastor in a
church I attended"
Wow.
Lefa: "what? You made me
raise the child that is not
mine?"
He deserves it.
Mom: "I didn't know how to
tell you"
I watch Lefa enjoying his
poisoned food, luckily it will
take 2-3 hours to kill him.
Me: "I don't know Tlotliso will
handle that, it will break
him"
Mom: "I know that is why I
didn't tell anyone about it, let
me go to the ladies"
Me: "your eyes you show you
the way to it"
She is just shocked.
Me: "Now it's just me and
you. Just tell me anything
you want to tell me, anything
I don't know"
He is sweating, I guess the
poison is slowly working.
Lefa: "what I know is that
your father is still alive"
What?
Me: "where does he live?"
Lefa: "in Hammanskraal,
block B. He leaves in a double
story, house number 345"
So when people are dying,
they just talk the truth?
Me: "his name?"
Lefa: "Mandla Dlamini, what
did you put in my food? I am
feeling weak"
Me: "me? I was sitting here
with you when they took and
gave you your order"
My mother walks back to us.
Mom: "babe are you okay?"
Lefa: "yes, I am fine. I think
I need fresh air"
He walks out leaving us.
Mom: "we've been waiting for
an hour now, where is
Tlotliso?"
Me: "he is not coming, and
your precious husband is
going to die anytime, it will
depend how strong his lungs
are"
She wanted to get up but I
stopped her.
Me: "sit down. I got you a
home sweet home where you
will start a new life without
him and without us"
I see a smile on her face.
Mom: "really?"
Me: "yes, in Weskoppies
that's where you belong"
Mom: "Weskoppies? I am not
crazy Lindokuhle, only crazy
people go there not me"
Her crocodile tears don't
shake me.
Me: "just Imagine saying
that to them, do you think
they will believe you?
Because all they will say is
'Sister Petunia bring the
injection she is starting' and
when you try to explain that
you are not crazy, they will
be like 'you see those people
in here? They also said that'
then they inject you until you
go crazy, because you will.
There is no way you will be
living with crazy people and
don't be like them."
Two male nurses walk in, as
they strap her.
Mom: "I am not CRAZY!!!!"
Nurse1: "o se a thomile"
Me: "Send my regards to your
new family. I love you Mom."
They walk out with her busy
kicking and shouting.
Mom: "I AM NOT CRAZY!!!"
INSECT 75

LINDOKUHLE

I stand at the door, my

heart racing with a mix of
emotions. I'm about to
embark on a journey to find
the one person I thought
was gone forever - my
father. All these years, I
believed he had abandoned
me, left me to face the cruel
world alone. But now, I've
discovered the shocking
truth - he's alive. As I take
a deep breath and reach for
the door handle, memories
flood my mind. Memories of
my childhood, of the pain and
suffering I endured at the
hands of my stepfather. The
man who was supposed to
protect me, to love me, but
instead, he...he... My heart
aches as I think about the
countless times I wished my
father was there to save
me, to hold me, to tell me
everything would be okay.
But he wasn't. Or so I
thought. Now, I'm driven by
a burning desire to find him,
to confront him, to ask him
why he left me, why he didn't
protect me. I need answers,
and I need them now.
Tlotliso: “before you go sis,
did you hear that my father
was involved in a car accident
last night?”
May his soul rest in peace, he
deserved it.
Me: “no, I didn’t. And he is
not your father, your real
father died long time ago”
I see him smiling, instead of
being shocked.
Me: “why are you smiling?”
Tlotliso: “I am smiling
because I am not carrying
his genes. Travel safely Sis”
He is gracefully broken, there
is no way.

I get into my GTI car with

Busani while my gang is
taking the lead except for
Spitjo, because he is still in
Paris with Dibuseng, don't
know Hammanskraal, and
I've never been there.
Busani: "We will find him
babe, just take a deep
breath and calm down"
I just can't do that, my
heart is beating fast. What
if he died few years ago?
What if he neglect me when
he see me? What if he is
leaving a happy life with his
new family? My head is full of
unanswered questions.
••••••••••••••••••••••••••
We took about 3h9m to
arrive at Hammanskraal. We
drive to the address that
monster gave me.
I see my gang stopping at
the gate, I guess we have
arrived. A double story
house? It's so beautiful, he
must be rich.
As I step out into
Hammanskraal, I feel a
sense of determination wash
over me. I will find my
father, and I will make him
listen to my story. I will
make him understand the
pain he missed, the pain I
endured because he wasn't
there.
My heart beats faster with
every step I take, and I can
feel my resolve
strengthening.
I decided to go alone, so they
wait for me at the gate. I
take a deep breath as I
press the intercom.
The gate opens wider. This
house is so beautiful.
Me: "you got this Lindo"
As I approach the door, it
automatically opens.
I am shaking, I feel like I
can just walk away.
I take a deep breath and
walk inside. I see a beautiful
granny approaching me.
Gogo: "sawubona
ntombazana"
Me: "sawubona Gogo. I am
looking for Mandla Dlamini"
I see a smile on her face,
making her to look beautiful.
Gogo: "and you are? Because
you look familiar"
Me: "Lindokuhle Dlamini-
Ngwenya"
I still prefer myself as
Dlamini, even though I am
married.
She took her glasses off, and
put them back again.
Gogo: [screaming] "awww
awww Lamyeni, Mtatele,
Njokweni, Dlamini, Zizi. My
granddaughter is home"
I see a man running to us.
He is not even looking at me.
Man: "mama, are you alright"
Gogo: "your daughter is here,
my granddaughter is alive"
He looked at me for a while.
He does look like me, with
curly hair like mine and his
skin tone, and eyes. I just
look like him.
Dad: [emotional] "Lindokuhle?
You are alive. After all this
years, I thought I lost you.
I thought you my daughter,
but here you are standing in
front of me looking exactly
like me when i was your age.
I failed to be there for you
when you needed a father, I
failed to be part of your
childhood memories. I failed
to guide you as your father.
But from now on I promise
you, I will be there for you
every step you take"
He hugged me so tight. I
finally found my father. I am
finally going to know how it
feels to be loved by a father.
Me: "don't blame yourself dad.
I also thought I lost you,
but here we are."
Gogo: "come and seat with
us, and tell us about yourself.
And how life has been holding
you"
I won't mention my dodgy
life.
Me: "I am a qualified
accountant, I work at the
biggest holding company in
Cape Town called Ngonyama
Holdings and I am also a
COO of that company. I am
also a shareholder of the
biggest farm in Matatiele. I
am married to the most
loving husband called Busani
Ngwenya, we even adopted a
baby we named her Khloe."
Dad: "where is the person
married my daughter
without my permission?"
He is starting to be caring.
Me: "he is outside with my
friends"
Gogo: "that is rude. Mazwi
let them in"
Their security walked out to
call them
Dad: "you are really a
business woman and you are
intelligent, and I don't doubt
it because I don't make
dump kids. Where is your
mother and that psycho
husband of hers?"
So he knows him?
Me: "I don't know, maybe
they are leaving their best
life somewhere"
Busani and my gang walk in.
Busani: "sanibonani"
Gogo: "sawubona. Sit down,
you can't talk while standing"
They took their seats as
Busani seats next to me.
Dad: "between you my gents,
who married my daughter
without my permission?"
They all pointed Busani.
Busani: "I did marry your
precious beautiful flower. I
know we were supposed to
pay lobola first and I am
willing to pay for the
damages"
Did he just call precious
beautiful flower?
Dad: [chuckles] "I was just
joking, I didn't mean to be
harsh. I must say you are
treating her good, because
she seem to be happy"
Busani: "every marriage got
ups and downs, and I am
trying by all means not to
hurt her. But to give her
the love she deserves. So i
will bring my uncles next week
Saturday to pay lobola, i
want to make her officially
mine"
Gogo: [Ululating] "boMtatele,
boLamyeni. Siyabonga"
I am really going to get the
wedding of my dreams, all I
what is black wedding not
white wedding or traditional
wedding just black wedding.
Dad: “I give you my blessings
son, I wish you two all the
best”
Finally I found him, I found
my father. Their helpers
walks in the dining room with
lot and lot of food, then I
see two girls and a boy
walking to us.
Dad: “Nokwanda, Ntombenhle
and Sakhile, this is your older
sister Lindokuhle”
I see a smile on their faces,
then they come to where I
am sitting to hug me.
Them: “nice to meet you Sis”
I finally found people that
loves me and cares about me.
Dad: “can you please spend a
night here? I mean all of
you”
I just look at Numbers, the
person who is allergic to
sleepovers.
Numbers: “unfortunately
I’ve got a business to run so
I won’t be able to sleepover
tonight”
He is lying.
Busani: “I wish I could but
I can’t, maybe next time”
So they are leaving me
behind.
Cheese boy & Sticks: “we will
sleepover since sister b…we
mean Lindo don’t know
Hammanskraal”
They nearly exposed me.
Dad: “okay, they will prepare
your rooms”
Gogo: “can you show me my
granddaughter, I want to
see her”
I hand her my watch, to look
at the pictures.
Ntombenhle: “she is so cute”
Sakhile & Nokwanda: why did
you leave her behind? Please
when you come again don’t
leave her”
Gogo: “She is so beautiful, I
love her eyes, her skin and
her hair. She is truly a living
angle”
I am getting emotional.
Me: “you will see her next
week, surely she will love you
guys”
My friends are going to be
happy when they find out
about this.
INSECT 76

LINDOKUHLE

I'll never forget what

happened yesterday, on our
lobola day - the day Busani's
family officially asked for my
hand in marriage. It was a
whirlwind of emotions, a mix
of excitement, nervousness,
and joy.
As I sat among my family
and friends, surrounded by
the people I love, I felt a
sense of pride and honor. My
husband's family came
bearing gifts and words of
gratitude, acknowledging the
union we had already
formalized at Home Affairs.
The negotiations were a
mere formality, a nod to
tradition and culture. But
the atmosphere was electric,
filled with laughter and
warmth. I watched as our
families bonded over stories
and jokes, forging a new
connection.
When the damages were
agreed upon, I felt a sense
of relief wash over me. It
wasn't about the money; it
was about the symbol of
commitment and respect.
As we celebrated with food,
drink, and music, I knew that
this was just the beginning
of our journey together. Our
lobola day was a beautiful
blend of tradition and
modernity, a testament to
our love and our families' love
for us.
Busani: "Hey, my love. Now
that the lobola is done, I feel
like we can finally relax and
enjoy our engagement"
We will just call it an
engagement. Even though
we are already married.
Me: "I know, right? It's like
a weight has been lifted off
our shoulders. I'm so glad our
families got along so well."
Busani: "Me too. I was a bit
nervous about how they
would interact, but it was
like they'd known each other
for years."
Me: "And I loved seeing you in
your traditional attire. You
looked so handsome!"
He was really handsome.
Busani: "Thanks, my love. You
looked stunning yourself. I'm
so proud to call you Mrs
Ngwenya."
Me: "Aww, thanks. So, now
that the formalities are out
of the way, when can we
start planning the wedding?"
Just want us to get married.
Busani: "I was thinking we
could start looking at venues
and dates next weekend. How
does that sound? Or just tell
me about your dream
wedding"
Me: "uhm, all I want is a
black wedding, everything
must be black from
Limousine, Suits, dresses,
rings, cake and the venue.
Our first venue I want it to
be at Bosjes Kapel then the
main venue at Caledon."
Busani: "that will require
time and lot of time. But I
promise to give you the
wedding you always wishes
for"
I kissed him passionately as
I lay my head on my pillow. I
am so tired.
Me: "I love you Babe"
Busani: "I love you too babe,
goodnight because I can see
that you are tired. I wanted
to excise you before you
sleep"
He wouldn't dare.
He pulled me closer as I close
my eyes.
●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●
[Alerts]
[Alerts]
[Alerts]
I was woken up by
emergency alerts from my
iPad, i decided to go straight
to security cameras and
check. I see two men
planting bomb on the walls of
my old house. SHIT.
I called Nosipho she
answered immediately.
Me: "Nosipho are you home?"
Nosipho: "no, I am at my
mother's"
Thanks goodness.
Me: "when are you coming
back?"
Nosipho: "I think I will spend
3 to 4 months here, why are
you asking?"
Me: "nevermind, pass my
regards to mommy. Tell her
I love her"
Nosipho: "okay, I will do
that. Bye"
I hunged up as I wake
Busani up.
Me: "babe, babe wake up"
Busani: [sleepy voice]
"waking someone up must be
part of crime"
I hand her the iPad.
Busani: "WHAT!! Nosipho is
going to explode inside the
house"
Me: "She won't, there is no
one home"
He switch to motion sensor
cameras that are placed on
the gate, I see dead people
near the gate. They killed
the guards.
I called Numbers and Spitjo
since they are not for away.
Me: "sorry for calling you guys
at this time, but I need you
guys to go at my old house
NOW, there are two guys
planting bombs all over the
house. Please shoot anything
and anyone when you get
there"
Them: "we are coming"
Whoever did that, they will
pay for their sins.
While we are still looking at
what is happening, they step
few meters away from the
house. I see another guy
pressing a device. Then after
few seconds the house
exploded, Nosipho's new house
is burning. The gift I gave
to Nosipho is burning. But my
insurance company will rebuild
it for her, and exactly how
she wants it to be.
While the house is busy
burning, I hear gunshots
coming from nowhere. I see
Numbers and Cheeseboy
appearing.
Numbers calls me.
Numbers: "We managed to
shoot them, and only one died,
the one who didn't die is
Qhawe"
What? This boy is testing
me. So he doesn't know that
I moved out?
Me: "take him to the safe
house, and teach him the
lesson. Please don't kill him,
just teach him the lesson.
When you are done with him
just place him at
Bab'Ngonyama's gate"
Numbers: "We will do that
Boss lady"
I tried to pretend but I
hate being called boss lady,
sister boss or boss. I just
prefer my name.
••••••••••••••••••
I just woke up early today
just to go to
Bab'Ngonyama's. Busani is
still sleeping so I decided to
go and take a shower. When
I was done I lotion my body
and walked to the dressing
room, I picked black Louis
Vuitton Tracksuit and black
Louis Vuitton baseball jacket.
I picked my sneakers.
I just let my afro hair loose
without styling it. I opened
a mini safe and take my
short gun. I kissed Busani on
his cheek before walking out.
I took my GTI keys, as I
make my way to the parking.
When I arrive at
Bab'Ngonyama's I knocked
once then, Qhawe opened for
me. He can't even walk
properly.
Me: "Goodmorning"
I shoot him on the shoulder.
Bab'Ngonyama: "Lindokuhle
why did you do that?"
Me: "ask him, what he did"
Qhawe: "I am so sorry Lindo,
I didn't mean to plant those
bombs on your house"
I shoot him on the leg.
Bab'Ngonyama: "please stop.
You did what? And which
house?"
Me: "my old house, and luckily
Nosipho wasn't home or else
I won't be playing with him
like this"
Qhawe: "thanks goodness.
But still I am sorry, I didn't
mean to do that. I felt
jealous when my father loved
you, it felt like he was going
to disown me one day and
make you his daughter. I am
so sorry"
Me: "it fine Qhawe"
I said that pressing where
I shot him.
Qhawe: [screaming]
"Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh"
Me: "never ever in your
wildest dream mess with me,
I won't be this nice"
I walked out when
Bab'Ngonyama was busy
picking him up.
INSECT 77

BUSANI

It's been two weeks now

since my mother chose Bonolo
as our new nanny. She's
young, energetic, and has a
contagious smile that lights
up the whole room. She's got
a gift for knowing just when
to offer a hug or a high-five,
and when to set boundaries
and encourage independence.
Khloe adore her, and I can
already see the strong bonds
forming between them.

I am working late today so i

decided to go to Khloe's
nursery. I found her fast
asleep she must be tired. I
kissed her on her forehead as
I walk out. I went
downstairs I found Bonolo
seating in the lounge wearing
a gown. At this time? I
decided to go to the kitchen
to drink water. When I was
busy drinking water I feel
soft hands touching me, as I
turn around I see Bonolo,
wearing a black lingerie.
Me: "what are you doing?"
Bonolo: "that is the most
stupid question you can ask
me, you see what I am doing.
I want you Busani, I want
to be with you"
She must be crazy, I walked
out to the lounge to drink my
water in peace.
Bonolo: "you can't just leave
me in the kitchen just like
that. We both know you want
to do it but you are scared"
I place the glass on the
coffee table as I look at her.
Me: "Listen to me
attentively young lady, I
don't want you and I will
never want you"
When she was busy touching
me, trying to unbutton my
shirt. Lindo walks in. She just
walked to Bonolo without
asking and punch her so hard
to the point where Bonolo
lost her balance. As she was
about to drop on the floor,
Lindo took the glass on the
coffee table and roughly
picked her up as she hit her
with the glass. I've never
seen her angry like this. I
see blood on Bonolo's forehead
and a cut on her eye. She pin
her on the wall holding her
throat so hard. Bonolo can't
even breathe.
Lindo: "you are trying to
seduce my husband"
She take out the gun she
strapped on her tight as she
turn safety mode off.
Busani: "babe, no, no, no"
I tried to take the gun from
her, she just don't listen to
me. She hit me with a gun on
my head. I think there will
be two body bags leaving
this house tonight. My head
hurts. Anathi did warn me,
but I didn't listen to her.
Lindo: "Bonolo my dear, just
know when I shoot I don't
miss, even if you durk the
second bullet will go straight
to your potato head"
I stand in front of her trying
to stop her.
Busani: "babe calm down"
She is really angry.
Lindo: "Busani GET THE
FUCK OUT OF MY WAY or I
will shoot you"
I just get out of her way,
before she shoot me.
Lindo: "I don't want my
luxury house to have your
blood, so I am counting to 5
and you better be out of my
house. 1, 2, 5"
She even skipped 3 and 4,
she really want to kill her.
Me: "babe I know you are
angry but don't kill her"
She just give me a dead
stare, as I keep quiet.
Lindo: "Get the fuck out my
house wena sfebe before I
kill you"
Bonolo: "what about my
clothes?"
Lindo: "you can walk out like
that, maybe someone will
crave that ugly body of
yours"
I should've listened to
Anathi, Banzi and
Vuyolwethu when they told
me that she turn into a
monster when she is killing or
trying to kill.
Bonolo walked out wearing
her lingerie.
Lindo: "yeah wena, why did
you defend that whore?"
As for yeah wena.
Me: "I just didn't want you
to wake Khloe up, because
the moment she hears the
gunshots she was going to
wake up and be traumatized"
Lindo: "I wasn't aiming to kill
her in my house but you
defended her in front of me,
or did I disturb you guys?"
Me: "no babe, she was
seducing me and thanks God
you arrived"
Lindo: "mhm"
She went upstairs as
Vuyolwethu walks in.
Vuyolwethu: "glasses on the
floor? And your head? What
happened?"
Me: "Bonolo was seducing me,
so Lindo arrived when she
was seducing me, so she hit
her with a glass and hit me
with a gun when I was
trying to stop her from
shooting Bonolo"
Vuyolwethu: "I won't say
sorry because we warned you
before. I just have a feeling
that I saw Bonolo before,
but I don't know where"
They really warned me but i
didn't listen. We all have
assumptions when we meet
new people.
Lindo walks downstairs
holding Khloe, I guess we
woke her up.
Vuyolwethu: "Fandom, look
what you did to Busani"
She looked at me showing no
remorse.
Lindo: "sorry"
Wow.
Vuyolwethu: "fix this beef
guys. Khloe come to aunty"
She take Khloe from Lindo.
[Knocking]
I opened the door, two
officers and Bonolo walk in.
She is wearing police uniform,
she is a policewoman? So she
was an undercover police all
along?
Bonolo: "there she is with
afro hair arrest her"
Vuyolwethu: "I knew I know
you, you are Lindiwe not
Bonolo. Zolakhe's fiancé"
We are screwed if she found
anything dodgy in this house.
Lindiwe: "hey to you too
Vuyolwethu, Zolakhe really
miss you"
Office1: "Mrs Ngwenya, you
are under arrest for assault.
You have the right to remain
silent. Anything you say can
and will be used against you
in a court of law. You have
the right to an attorney. If
you cannot afford an
attorney, one will be provided
for you. Please turn around
and put your hands behind
your back."
This can't be happening.
Vuyolwethu: "Oh my god,
what is going on?! You can't
be serious! My friend is
innocent, I know it! This is a
mistake, a terrible mistake!"
Lindiwe: "look at my face. She
did this to me, so she
deserve to go to jail"
Vuyolwethu: "Wait, wait,
wait! Let me talk to my
friend, let me talk to the
officer in charge! I demand
to know what's going on!
Officer1: "your friend her
assaulted our colleague, so
Detective Mzimande opened
a case for her"
Mzimande? I know that
surname. Is she related to
the mastermind behind the
bomb incident?
Lindo: "Mzimande? You are
Vukani and Kwanele's sister?"
Lindiwe: "yes lala"
We are screwed.
Vuyolwethu: "What evidence
do you have? Except for the
cut on your face?"
Officer2: "no, other evidence
just this cut and bruses”
Vuyolwethu: "I'll get you out
of this, I promise! Don't
worry, I'll do everything I
can! I will work with Sticks
to get you out of this. This
is a miscarriage of justice, I
won't let it stand!"
They take her, I think Khloe
can see what is going on
because she is crying.
INSECT 78

LINDOKUHLE

I'm sitting in this cold, dark

cell, my mind racing with
anger and betrayal. Just
hours ago, I was living my
best life - running my empire,
loving my family, and enjoying
my wealth. But then, I
walked into my house and
saw my nanny, Bonolo or
should i say Lindiwe, seducing
my husband.
At first, I thought I was
hallucinating. Lindiwe, the
woman I trusted to care for
my child, was wrapped in my
husband's arms, kissing him
like she owned him. And then
I saw the smirk on her face,
the same smirk my enemy
wears.
When she said she is
Mzimande, that's when it
clicked - Lindiwe is my
enemy's sister. The same
family that's been trying to
take me down for years. I
felt a rage build up inside me,
and before I knew it, I was
pummeling Bonolo with my
fists.
Now, I'm facing assault
charges and my world is
crumbling around me. But you
know what? I'd do it all over
again. That woman deserved
it. My husband, on the other
hand, is a different story.
He's been whimpering and
begging for forgiveness, but
I'm not having it.
As I sit here in this cell, I'm
plotting my next move. This
isn't over yet. I'll get out of
here, and I'll make sure she
pay for what she did to me.
Mark my words.
Warden: "heii sboshwa, you
have a visitor"
I will get used to that. I
hear other inmates in
another holding cell
screaming.
Them: "typhoon, you look so
sexy".
Sticks appears busy laughing.
Sticks: "I think they will
hijack me. Hey, boss lady"
He is really handsome I don't
blame them.
Me: "I don't think I am a
boss anymore when I am
locked in here. When is my bail
hearing?"
They keep on screaming some
wants to hold him.
Sticks: "whether you are
locked in here or not you are
still The Finisher. Your bail
hearing is next week Monday.
So you will spend Saturday
and Sunday here"
2 days in prison will feel like
years.
Me: "so you are going to be
the one representing me,
because Vuyolwethu rarely
deal with this kind of cases?"
Sticks: "yes, I will be
representing you. And we will
win this case no matter
what"
Me: "let’s hope so”
I just hope she didn't find
anything.
Sticks: "I heared that she
sent forensics to our old
warehouse in Johannesburg
that we burned after you
killed her brothers and Vusi,
so we will wait for the
outcomes, this case might go
further to the trial"
I am dead, God just take me.
Me: "I guess I will rot in jail"
Sticks: "no, don't say that we
will win this case no matter
what it takes"
What I know is that they
will find something in that
warehouse but not our
fingerprints.
INSECT 79

LINDOKUHLE

It finally Monday, for the

bail hearing. And Busani came
with Khloe, I am just so
happy to see her.
Prosecutor: "Your Honor, the
defendant stands accused of
assaulting the nanny caring
for her child. We have
eyewitness testimony and
audio evidence showing the
defendant physically
attacking the nanny without
provocation."
Did she lie when she opened
the case? Why didn't she just
tell them the truth that
she was seducing my
husband.
Sticks: "My client maintains
her innocence. She was simply
trying to discipline the nanny
for neglecting her child's well-
being."
I know get it why they say
lawyers liars.
Prosecutor: "Discipline? The
nanny was left with a black
eye, scar and a concussion.
That's not discipline, that's
assault."
That small scar can me end
up in this situation?
Me: "I was just trying to
protect my child. The nanny
was being negligent and I
had to take action."
That's how Sticks instructed
me to say, but we all know
that I beat the hell out of
her because she was seducing
my husband.
Judge: "Protect your child?
By assaulting someone? I'm
not buying it. The evidence
will show that the nanny was
doing her job to the best of
her ability and you
overreacted."
Sticks: "We request a lenient
sentence, Your Honor. My
client is a first-time offender
and has shown remorse for
her actions."
Prosecutor: "Remorse? She's
shown no remorse. She's only
sorry she got caught. The
nanny deserves justice and
protection from this
defendant's violent behavior."
Judge: "I'll take all of this
into consideration. Bail is set
at R500000. The trial will
proceed next week Tuesday"
R500000 just for beating
that whore? The law is
greedy.
Me: [whispering]
"R500000??"
Sticks: "That's better than
staying in those cells for
another week or weeks, let's
just wait for next week
Friday"
Busani hand Khloe to me. She
immediately cries when she
sees me, i guess she missed
me.
Busani: "you will win this case
babe"
Me: "I hope so babe"
We walked out of the court
and there are many
journalists outside.
Journalist1: "is it true that
you assaulted your nanny
because she was seducing
your husband?"
Journalist2: "is it true that
you adopted a daughter
because you can't make
babies of your own?"
How did they know that? I
mean that breaks me
everyday.
Journalist3: "is it true that
you are a gangster? You kill
you"
I will just kill all of them
because they are boring me.
Sticks: "no, comment. Get out
of the way"
Vuyolwethu: "and learn to
mind your own business, suka"
We walked to a black Audi
AlCon, who owns this cars?
Busani: "it is all yours babe, I
wanted to apologize for the
things I've done to you in
the past and if i kicked her
out, they were not going to
arrest you, now you are
facing this changes because
of me"
Automatic car just to forgive
him?
Sticks: "other people are
lucky in this world"
It is so beautiful, there is
automatically no side mirrors.
Vuyolwethu: "I guess my car
will rest now, we will be using
automatic car forever"
He open the door for me,
there is no steering wheel, no
pedals.
Busani place a PIA (Personal
Al Assistant).
Feels like I am in my lounge.
Me: "Vuyo why did you leave
Anathi behind?"
Vuyolwethu: "she didn't tell
you? I guess she was going
to, she was admitted to the
hospital last week, and she
gave birth to triplets
prematurely"
What?? Her dream finally
came true, I am happy for
her.
Me: "because of her faith it
really happened"
God works in mysterious
ways.
INSECT 80

NOMEVA

My name is Nomeva
Motaung-Dlamini, and I am a
failed protector. I am a
mother who failed to believe
her children when they
needed me most. I am a
mother who turned a blind
eye to the suffering of my
own flesh and blood. And for
that, I deserve to be here,
in this mental health facility,
seeking help and trying to
make amends.
I remember the day
Lindokuhle came to me, tears
streaming down her face, and
told me she was raped by her
step father. My husband. My
partner. I didn't believe her.
I thought she was lying,
making it up for attention. I
accused her of being
dramatic, of trying to ruin
our happy family.
And then my son, Tlotliso
came to me, his eyes haunted
by the secrets he kept for so
long. He told me he had been
abused by his father for
years. I didn't believe him
either. I thought he was
exaggerating, making excuses
for his own behavior.
But now I see the truth. I
see the pain in my children's
eyes, the scars on their souls.
I see the damage I did by
not believing them, by not
protecting them. And I am
consumed by guilt and shame.
I don't know if my children
will ever forgive me. I don't
know if I can ever forgive
myself. But I hope that by
seeking help, by confronting
my own failures, I can start
to make amends. I can start
to heal. And maybe, just
maybe, I can learn to be the
mother my children deserve.

I deserve whatever is
coming.
INSECT 81

LINDOKUHLE

This time want me to be

arrested.

Prosecutor: "The prosecution

calls Dr. Jane Doe to the
stand."
Who is that? She walks in,
then I look at her then I
notice that she is the
forensic. Dammit! I wonder
what she found. I turn to
look at my gang and they are
shocked.
Judge: "Dr. Doe, please take
the stand and state your
name and occupation for the
record."
Dr. Doe: "My name is Jane
Doe, and I am a forensic
psychologist."
Prosecutor: "Thank you, Dr.
Doe. I'd like to ask you about
your evaluation of the
defendant. Can you describe
your findings?"
Dr. Doe: "Me and the rest of
the team, we found three
dead bodies in one of the
warehouses in Johannesburg.
As we were tracing those
bodies we found that they
are Vukani Mzimande, Xolane
Mkhwanazi and the former
security of Ngonyama
Holdings Vusi Zulu"
I just hope they don't know
that warehouse belongs to
me.
Prosecutor: "so according to
your point of view, who do
think that warehouse belong
to?"
I am crossing fingers.
Dr. Doe: "it belongs to Mrs
Lindokuhle Ngwenya"
I am dead.
Sticks: "objection your honor"
Judge: "you may take the
stand Mr Mbambo"
Sticks: "just answer me with
yes or no. Isn't it true that
you have a history of
dishonesty?"
Dr. Doe: "No, but…"
Sticks: "I said yes or no don't
explain. Don't you have a
personal vendetta against
my client?"
Dr. Doe: "No"
Sticks: "Do you have any
reason to lie about what you
just said about my client?"
Dr. Doe: "No"
Sticks: "okay then, can you
provide any evidence to
support your claims?"
Dr. Doe: "unfortunately I
lost it on my way here,
someone mugged me and took
everything that belongs to
me"
No proof, no case.
Sticks: "no further questions
Your Honor"
I am suspecting Numbers.
Judge: "unfortunately we
can't proceed without the
proof. Very well, that
concludes the testimony for
today. We have a new
witnesses scheduled to
testify tomorrow, and we will
resume proceedings at 9:00
AM. In the meantime, the
jury is instructed to refrain
from discussing the case or
reviewing any evidence. Court
is adjourned until tomorrow
morning."
Witnesses?? Let's just wait
for tomorrow and see.
When we get home we placed
Khloe in her nursery then
walk straight to our
bedroom, as Busani throw me
on the bed, and kiss me slowly
and passionately...I fell in
love with him again and
again. I really missed this.
Busani: "I missed you babe"
He whispered as he was
going down on me. He
grabbed my dress and roughly
took it out. I held his head
and smiled at myself. I love
it when he is rough. I
moaned lightly holding his
head as he was busy with
me, the satisfaction, groans
and moans only matters
right now. He got up and
went straight to my boobs,
I just lost it. I felt his
tongue making rounds on my
boobs. He rubs himself on my
haven before entering me
slowly receiving a moan from
me. In and out he goes. Left
and right and he circulates.
His pace slow but giving me
slow thrusts. My moans a
louder right now and I am
even sweating, luckily our
room have a sound proof, we
won't wake Khloe up. I am
grinding on him as he thrusts
in me and it's driving him
haywire. He is shaking and I
know he is about to cum. His
groans get louder.
He let out a loud groan as I
cum, he thrusts through our
orgams. He fell on top of me.
Busani: "it's been a while, I
really missed you babe"
He over me as he carries me
to the bathroom room, he
turn the shower on. And
what we started on the bed,
we ended it under the steam.
INSECT 82

LINDOKUHLE

Final day of the trial, I will

know whether I am going to
jail or not.
I see a fine handsome guy
walking in followed by
Vuyolwethu's sisters. He
must be Zolakhe, Lindiwe's
fiance.
Prosecutor: "Good morning,
welcome to the stand. Please
state your name and
occupation for the record."
Zolakhe: "Good morning. My
name is Zolakhe Kunene and
I'm a soldier"
Prosecutor: "Thank you, Mr
Kunene. I understand you
have some evidence to
present to the court today?"
Evidence?
Zolakhe: "Yes, I do. I have
an audio recording that I
believe is relevant to the
case."
Audio? Which audio?
Prosecutor: "Can you tell us
more about this recording?
What does it contain?"
Zolakhe: "The recording is a
conversation between my
fiance and Mrs Ngwenya.
It's a conversation that I
believe will shed new light on
the events in question."
Prosecutor: "And can you
confirm that you are the sole
custodian of this recording?
That no one else has access
to it or knows about its
contents?"
Zolakhe: "Yes, that's correct."
Prosecutor: "no, further
questions your Honor"
Sticks take the stand.
Sticks: "So, you're saying
that this audio recording is
the key evidence in this case?
Can you explain to me why
you didn't come forward with
this earlier?"
Good question.
Zolakhe: "I... uh... I was
scared, I didn't know what
to do."
Sticks: "Scared? You're
engaged to the victim, and
you're scared? That doesn't
add up. Isn't it true that
you're just trying to frame
my client?"
Prosecutor: "Objection, your
honor. The witness is simply
trying to tell the truth."
Judge: "Sustained. Move on,
counselor."
Prosecutor: "Can you describe
what's happening in the
audio recording?"
Zolakhe: "They're
arguing...and also I heared
my fiance screaming and
glasses shattered
everywhere"
Prosecutor: "And can you
confirm that the defendant's
voice is clearly audible on the
recording?"
Fiance: "Yes... yes, it is."
Sticks: "Okay, let's play this
recording then. I'm sure the
court would love to hear it."
The audio is played, but
instead of the expected
conversation, cartoonish
animation sounds are heard.
This is a joke.
Courtroom: (confused
murmurs)
Judge: "What is this? This
isn't the evidence we were
told to expect."
Sticks: "It seems the
prosecution's key evidence is
nothing but a joke."
Prosecutor: "Your honor, I...
uh... I don't know what
happened. We'll investigate
and provide the correct
evidence, when the next
witness take the stand"
Judge: "See that you do. This
court will proceed after 10
minutes"
I just wonder who is coming.
◦◦◦◦◦
Dlakadla walks in with his
serious face.
Court officer: "Raise your
right hand."
He raise it.
Court officer "You do surely
swear to tell the truth, the
whole truth but nothing but
the truth. So help you God."
Dlakadla: "I do."
The Prosecutor take the
stand.
Prosecutor: "Detective Moloi,
can you identify the
defendant in the courtroom
today?"
Dlakadla: "Yes, I can. She's...
uh... a woman with a
distinctive appearance. I
don't know her name or
anything about her
background."
Why is he stammering?
Prosecutor: "And how do you
know her?"
Dlakadla: "I've seen her
around town a few times. I
don't know what she does or
who she associates with. She
just seems like a normal
citizen to me."
That's my boy, never let
someone I know for years to
testify against me.
Prosecutor: "And did you ever
have any interactions with
her?"
Dlakadla: "No, never. I've
never spoken to her or had
any reason to investigate
her. She's just a face in the
crowd."
I knew how to choose people
around me.
Prosecutor: "are you hiding
something detective? Did she
pay you to keep quiet?"
Sticks stands up.
Sticks: "objection Your Honor"
Judge: "Mrs Hailey just stick
to the case, Detective please
answer those questions and
be honest"
Dlakadla: "No, I am not
hiding something and if I
was hiding something I
wouldn't be testifying right
now. She didn't pay me and
you know that it is illegal for
defendant to bride man of
law"
Prosecutor: "no further
questions. Your Honor"
I chuckled a little bit.
Judge: "Mr Mbambo, is there
anything you want to add?"
Sticks: "no, Your Honor"
He looked at his papers for a
while before talking.
Judge: "After careful
consideration of the evidence,
the court finds the
defendant not guilty."
Judge: "The prosecution has
failed to meet its burden of
proof. The defendant is
hereby acquitted."
Judge: "The court rules in
favor of the defendant. The
charges are dismissed."
I hug Busani so tight, we
won!! Sticks really did his job.
I am finally freeeeeeee.
Busani: "you won babe, you
won"
I look at Lindiwe and she is
disgusted.
INSECT 83

LINDOKUHLE

I am finally out of jail, and

everything is just fine. I am
also happy to go to work, it's
been a while. And Busani's
mother look after Khloe
when we are at work, I
really love her.
Qhawekazi: "we really missed
you"
Me: "you missed teasing me"
I just love how they took
care of my office when I was
still working at home.
Dineo: "she is telling you the
truth, we missed you. This
company was boring without
you laughing at hilarious
things"
I really missed them, I don't
want to lie.
Me: "I missed you too my
girls"
But I am not spending the
whole day with them, since I
have to go and buy groceries
for tonight. Anathi's triplets
are adorable, she names
them Nontokozo, Nokwanda,
Nomvuyo. According to the
power they carry.
I walked to my Audi AlCon,
when I was about to open
the car I hear footsteps
approaching me.
Man: "don't move or else I
will shoot you"
I press my watch three
times to send the gang my
location.
I slowly put my hand inside
my bag, I hold the gun inside.
Luckily I always put the
silencer.
Man: "turn around slowly"
I turn around slowly as they
say, I see two men.
Me: "who send you?"
Man1: "that is not necessary,
take your hand out of the
bag"
I take it out slowly, as i
shoot them. The other one
tried to shoot me but he
missed.
Me: "who send you?"
Man1:"Mdlabantu...L....Lindiwe
's...father"
He pass out, I just shot him
once but he is dead.
And last time I checked
Mdlabantu is arrested for
killing his wife 5 years ago.
Man2: "he won't rest until
you bring back Kwanele's
money"
I shot him three times on
his chest. So the only thing
they care about is money?
They only loved Kwanele's
money not him. Mzimande's
are greedy and they all want
me dead.
I see Cheese boy's car
stopping in front of me, I
love the fact that he leaves
5 minutes away from
Ngonyama Holdings.
Cheese boy: "are you okay
sister boss?"
He said that looking around.
Me: "yes, I am okay. Can you
please call Dlakadla and tell
him to deal with Mdlabantu"
Cheese boy: "who is that?"
Me: "Vukani, Kwanele and
Lindiwe's father"
Cheese boy: "they really want
to kill you, but i will tell him
to organize inside person to
kill him. I will clean this up
while I am waiting for the
others to arrive"
I guess I won't be doing the
shopping anymore, what if
they are waiting for me
everywhere?
I decided to go home.
INSECT 84

LINDOKUHLE

That ass hole bitch called

Lindiwe don't want to back
off, she keeps on digging and
digging every chance she get.
Her father was supposed to
die anyway after what he
tried to do to me, I wouldn't
let him breath for another
day. What I hate about
Mzimande's family is that all
they want is Kwanele's
money, they worry less about
his death.
Vuyolwethu: "earth to Lindo."
She snap her fingers across
my face.
Me: "I was lost in my
thoughts"
Vuyolwethu: "mind if you
share what got you
distracted?"
Me: "I was thinking of
Lindiwe. She's been following
me and my baby for days, i
know I can deal with her if I
want to but I just don't
know how, because if she dies
police will suspect me. But
can you do something for
me?"
Vuyolwethu: "yeah sure,
what is it?"
Me: "I want you to lie about
me to her so that she can
back off with her endless
investigations"
Just hope she agrees,
because she made it clear
since day one that she don't
want anything about this
life.
Vuyolwethu: "okay, I will do
it. Let me send her a
message so that we can
meet tomorrow"
INSECT 85

LINDIWE

I am meeting up with
Vuyolwethu in a minute, she
said she has something to
tell me regarding Lindokuhle
and her dodgy business.
I just waited for her until
she shows up.
Vuyolwethu: "hey"
She is so beautiful.
Me: "hi Vuyo"
She took her seat as she
place her order.
Vuyolwethu: "you are not
recording me right?"
Why would I do that?
Because I am no longer a
detective, I got suspended.
Me: "yes, I am not"
Waiter bring her wine.
Vuyolwethu: "thank you. Even
if you are recording me, I will
die with you. So to make this
matter short, i have some
information regarding Lindo,
I know you've been wanting
justice for your brothers and
your father so I will like to
help. So I know everything
about her from where did
she kill your brother to
where she get her drugs and
people she works with. How
your father died, Detective
Moloi helped her with that.
So if you want all that, you
will find it in her safe, that
is inside her house…"
How am I going to do that?
Me: "how am I going to do
that?"
Vuyolwethu: "who said I'm
done talking? Nxa. Let me
finish talking and stop being
too forward. You will use this
access card to open her back
door, since is consist of many
security access, so access
card will be the easy way.
When you get inside, you will
walk to a room with white-
black door, it is the only
different door downstairs
just that I am not good
with directions so you will find
your way to it, then when you
get there use the same card
to open that door then when
it opens you will use the pin
behind that card to open the
safe then you will see many
documents with every
information you need even
the one you didn't expect to
find, don't touch the wall i
don't where did they place
the sensor but don't touch
the wall. And don't worry
about security i will handle it"
Did she just snitch on her
friend?
Me: "why are you doing all
this?"
Vuyolwethu: "because I want
freedom, I want to be free
from Lindo's world where she
rules us and demands things
we cannot give her. I want
to live my own life knowing
that there won't be shit
about Lindo that is following
me. She also asked me to lie
to you about her so that you
can back off with your
investigations. Hope that
piece of information you will
get, will help you to send her
to jail for good this time.
Even if you try to tell her
that i told you, know that i
will kill you with my bare
hands. Have a nice day."
She walks out, leaving her
wine like that without
drinking it.
I think justice will be served
for my brothers. I ordered a
bottle of wine just to
celebrate this victory alone.
INSECT 86

NARRATED

Lindiwe managed to pass the

gate without being
interrogated. She walked
straight to the back door
and spray the cameras.
She use access card
Vuyolwethu gave her and
open the door.
When she reached the safe
she sees Vuyolwethu.
Lindiwe: "no, no what are you
doing here?"
Vuyolwethu took out her
phone.
Vuyolwethu: "Police help! Help!
Someone just broke into my
house please help!"
Lindiwe: "so you set me up?"
Lindo: [chuckle]"yes bitch!!"
She turned around and her
eyes meet Lindo's eyes, she
gets shocked. Lindo points a
gun on her face.
Vuyolwethu: "no, no, Lindo
that wasn't part of the
plan"
Lindo: "I have to do what, I
have to do or else she is
going to finish us off when
they set her free. Enjoy your
dinner tonight Bonolo or
should I say Lindiwe? Pity
you're on the menu tonight"
She put the silencer, then
she shot her three times on
her chest.
Lindo: "when the Police get
here just tell them, I was
defending myself from her
when she was beating me.
Now punch me on my face
twice. I don't even know why
you called them"
Vuyolwethu: "are you crazy?
I don't even know how to
punch someone"
Lindo: "just do what I said"
Vuyolwethu punched Lindo so
hard on her cheek until she
spit the blood.
Lindo: "Damn! I thought
I've lost my teeth, you know
how to punch bitch"
Vuyolwethu: "you forced me"
Vuyolwethu walked out to
the kitchen to fetch plastic
of ice.
Vuyolwethu: [laughing] "I
didn't mean to hurt you"
Lindo: "nxa, you are laughing.
But atleast you know how to
punch someone, then what is
left is to know how to use
the gun"
Vuyolwethu: "NEVER!!!"
She walked to the lounge,
leaving Lindo alone waiting
for the cops.
Me: "idiot"
◦◦◦◦

LINDOKUHLE

I just killed someone in my

house. The police arrive, I
see Dlakadla and Detective
Radebe.
Dlakadla: "Mrs Ngwenya, I
heared that Miss Mbambo
broke in your house. Do you
mind telling me what
happened?"
He is trying to keep up his
serious face, this is going to
make me laugh.
Detective Radebe walked to
Vuyolwethu to interrogate
her.
Me:[whisper] "just write
anything that comes in your
mind bafo. You know exactly
that I did it"
Dlakadla:[whisper] "obviously
you did it, but I want
Radebe to be convinced that
I don't know you. Vuyolwethu
knows how to punch, I mean
she did numbers on your face"
My cheek hurts.
Radebe: "why are you two
whispering?"
Dlakadla: "did you come here
to do your job or to be a spy?
Mind your own business and
even if we are whispering
Ungenaphi?"
He just turned around with a
shock on his face.
Me: "what if he report you?"
Dlakadla: "he won't dare, he
knows his limits. Let me just
write self defense and
robbery here, no one while
charge you again while I am
still alive. Have a nice day"
Radebe turned around and do
'I am watching you' with his
fingers, as I mime 'Mosono
wa hao' and smile.
Radebe: "what did you just
say? You really like jail?"
I didn't speak that aloud.
Me: "are you going to arrest
me for miming something you
are not even sure of? You
must be bored, but I will
give you Khloe's toys to keep
you busy"
Radebe: "mxm"
They walked out. The
paramedics and undertakers
arrived to check the body.
INSECT 87

NARRATED

Keketso and Nelisiwe they

are at McDonald's talking
about how they both hate
Lindokuhle.
Keketso: "I just hate her"
Nelisiwe: "me too friend, and
I hate how they praise her,
it feels like she is the Queen
because they treat her like
one."
They ordered drinks and
burgers.
Keketso: "I just dislike
everything about her, from
that baby of hers to her
lifestyle, I know I am the
one who was supposed to be
living like that but since she
took Busani away from me I
won't be able to live that
life"
Nelisiwe: "you started a
business with him
remember? Now go and fight
for it"
Keketso: "I am not wasting
anytime I am going right
now"
INSECT 88

LINDOKUHLE

I never thought I'd find

myself on the other side of
the law, but life has a way
of surprising you. One
moment I was living my best
life, the next I was behind
bars, fighting for my
freedom. But that was only
the beginning. I was nearly
killed, left for dead, but
somehow I survived. And
then, like a miracle, I found
him - my brother. The one
person I thought I'd lost
forever. We were torn apart
by the very people who were
supposed to protect us, but
fate had other plans.
Now, I'm rebuilding my life,
piece by piece. It's not easy,
but with my brother by my
side, I feel like I can face
anything. We've been through
hell and back, but we're still
standing. And that's all that
matters. But I am going to
miss him so much since he is
going to boarding school.
I've learned to appreciate
the little things, to cherish
every moment, because you
never know when it will be
taken away. But I'm
determined to make the
most of my second chance, to
live life on my own terms, and
to never let anyone take
control of my destiny again.
I guess I forgot to close the
door because Keketso just
walks in.
Me: "your parents failed to
teach you how to knock?"
Keketso: "maybe. You know
why I am here right? I
want my cigarettes business,
I want it back"
She says that as she come
closer to me.
Me: "I didn't take it"
She just punch me on my face
without responding me. I
won't let her beat me, I
kicked her multiple times on
her tummy.
Keketso: "give me my
business"
She pulled my hair roughly.
Tlotliso: "leave her alone
before I pull the trigger"
Holy shit! Where did he get
that gun? Who taught him
how to hold it?
Me: "Tlotliso put the gun
down, please put it down"
Tlotliso: "no, I won't let
people to abuse you and beat
you while I am still around, I
won't let it to happen. I
vowed to myself to protect
you so this is what i am
doing"
Keketso: "ncoow, you think I
am scared of a toy gun"
Tlotliso: "SHUT UP!"
He pulled a trigger as he
shoot Keketso on her
shoulder.
Me: "give me that gun, go
and fetch the First Aid, I
will remove the bullet"
It will be my second time
removing a bullet.
Keketso: "you witch, you
wanted him to kill me"
Me: "I will call him to finish
you off because you are too
forward, now shut up"
Tlotliso hand me the First
Aid. He brought cleaning
agents to remove the blood.
I roughly remove the bullet,
I don't even care whether
she gets an infection or
what.
Keketso: [shouting] "ouch!!!"
Me: "sorry"
I rapped the bandage
around.
Me: "Now go and never look
back. I will kill you next time"
She walks out holding her
shoulder.
Me: "Tlotliso are you okay?"
Tlotliso: "yeah I am fine,
why?"
He is not scared or anything
he is just fine and calm.
Me: "you don't feel scared or
shocked or something?"
Tlotliso: "no, and the best
part is I don't feel sorry for
what I've done"
Trust me he will be a Kingpin
one day. There is no way he is
not sorry after shooting
Keketso.
Tlotliso: "so it is true that
you are a gangster?"
News flies.
Me: "kind of"
Tlotliso: "just say yes, I
won't judge you"
Unbelievable.
Me: "yes, i am a gangster, a
queenpin and the list goes on"
Tlotliso: [softly] "I knew it,
and I will take over when
you quit"
I just looked at him shocked.
QHAWEKAZI

We are all invited to Banzi's

brother Bekhi wedding.
Luckily they gave us the
dresses to wear or else I
was going to wear a jean.
Makeup artists did touch ups
on our face.
Lindo: "Qhawekazi it looks
like you are the one who is
getting married not
Noluthando"
Me: "you are exaggerating"
Vuyolwethu: "she is not, just
look at yourself in the mirror
you will see what she is
talking about"
They hand me a mirror and I
don't see what they are
talking about.
Anathi walks in wearing her
full Swati attire, she is even
holding a spare on her left
hand. And I wonder why they
don't wear shoes.
Anathi: "guys are you done,
the wedding is about to
start in a minute."
I guess they will have to
leave me behind because I
am so pressed.
Anathi: "by the way you look
so gorgeous ladies.
Qhawekazi you look like a
princess that you are not"
There we go again.
Qhawekazi: "you are adding
to what they just said. I
have to go to the toilet, I
will come after you"
They walked out as I go to
the toilet. I took my time in
the toilet. I hear noise
outside of people singing.
When I was done, I wiped
myself and walk out. Looked
at myself in the mirror for
the last time before walking
out.
I walked to the tent and
everything looks so beautiful,
as I walk inside the tent it
started raining out of
nowhere because the
weather was fine there was
no sign of rain.
People turn to look at me
with weird looks.
I stand behind Lindo holding
my flowers, as Noluthando
say her vows I guess I am
late.
Noluthando: "My dearest
Bheki Nhlabatsi. As I stand
before you today, I am filled
with so much love and
gratitude. You are the
sunshine that brightens
every day, the calm in every
storm, and the safe haven
where I can always find
peace.
You are my best friend, my
partner, and my soulmate.
You make me laugh when I
need it most, you listen when
I need someone to talk to,
and you support me in
everything I do.
I promise to love you
without condition, to support
your dreams, and to be your
rock in times of need. I
promise to laugh with you,
cry with you, and build a life
with you that is filled with
love, joy, and adventure.
I love you for who you are,
and for who you help me to
be. I love your kind heart,
your generous spirit, and your
beautiful soul. Today, I
choose you, and I promise to
choose you every day, for all
the days of my life.
I love you now and forever,
my darling husband."
Luckily she didn't say them in
Swati, because i don't know
even a single word of it.
Pastor: "do you take Bekhi
Nhlabatsi as your husband?"
Noluthando: "I do"
Pastor: "do you take
Noluthando Zulu as your
wife?"
I thought she is a pure
Swati. But what can I say
because Anathi is also a Zulu
woman married by Swati
man.
Bheki: "I do"
Pastor: "you may kiss the
bride"
They shared the most
passionate kiss.
[Ululating and chanting]
I whispered to Lindo.
Me: "why ain't they
welcoming her with their clan
names?"
Lindo: "I guess they did that
yesterday, or this morning. I
mean we don't know anything
about this culture maybe
they do this in a different
way. And how did you know
that she was supposed to
welcomed like that?"
Me: "just assuming"
She looked at me not
convinced.
Lindo: "okay"
We walked to the next venue,
atleast we learned their
wedding step this week.
I am the last one on the line
of bridesmaids, so when I
get inside it started raining
again. Royal healers gave me
a weird look. I guess I will
get used to that.
I take a seat to a royal
healer since that was the
only seat left. She look old.
Her: "sawubona"
I ignored her.
Her: "you must be wondering
why it is raining all the time
when you walk in a room
where Bheki is. Well you are
the person our ancestors
have been looking for all this
29 years, Gabase ancestors
want you to rule not
Noluthando. And your
assumptions where right, we
had to welcome her with our
clan names but that was
going to cause a chaos"
She said I am what?
Her: "by the way, my name is
Ingozi but you can call me
Gogo Ingozi, I see the
future and the past. I am
the old Royal healer and the
dangerous one as my name
says"
Me: "I am Qhawekazi
Ngonyama"
Gogo: "that is not your real
name, you should ask your
father about it he knows
everything"
I just didn't pay attention to
the wedding, because of her
stories.
Lindo and Vuyolwethu
grabbed me and take me to
the dance floor. I guess I
am going to go AWOL in the
middle of this wedding and go
back home to ask my father
questions.
Lindo: "are you okay?"
Me: "yeah I am okay, what
makes you to think that?"
Lindo: "I seem to be distant
or something."
Me: "no, I am fine. I will be
back just in a minute"
I walked out and started my
car, off I go to Cape Town,
because I know I won't
focus after what Gogo
Ingozi told me.
●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●●
I didn't even check the time
when i arrived, and I am
feeling tired.
I packed my car in the middle
of the yard and walked
straight to the house. I find
my dad in the lounge busy
reading a newspaper, old
people don't get tired of
reading newspapers
everyday.
Dad: "I didn't expect you at
this time, I thought you will
be enjoying with your friends
at the party"
I lied about the wedding
because he doesn't allow me
to attend anything that
involves the Royals.
Me: "I know, but I want to
ask you something. What is
my real name?"
Dad: "what kind of question
is that? You are Qhawekazi,
and why are you asking me
that question?"
Me: "Baba, just be honest
with me please"
He takes a deep breath. It's
about to go down.
Dad: "your real name is
Nomvula then Qhawe is
Sibusiso and your real
surname is Nhlabatsi not
Ngonyama. You are the rain
Queen then Qhawe is the
sun King. I run away from
home when you were 2/3
years old, because they
wanted to kill you and Qhawe
since it was forbidden to
have twins in a royal family,
so I had to run away with
your mother to save your
lives. I changed your names
to Qhawe and Qhawekazi.
And those people you call your
grandparents are not your
grandparents they are my
friends people who helped me
to escape, if you do listen to
me when I am talking with
them I call them baddies not
brother and sisters."
So everything about me is a
lie, from my name to my
family.
Me: "there was an old lady at
the wedding that said I am
the chosen one at their
family because it started
raining when I enter in the
room or anything where
Bheki is"
Dad: "I guess, your destiny
really found you. I don't have
to hide this from you
anymore, your time finally
arrived but it is your choice
now to choose which road do
you take I won't stop you"
I am not ready to be part of
the royal family.
I hear my phone vibrating in
my bag, I take it out. I see
Lindo's name.
Lindo: "it's been 8 hours now,
since you said you are coming.
Where are you?"
She sound drunk.
Me: "home"
Lindo: "home? When did you go
home? And why did you go
leaving us behind?"
Me: "story for another day"
Lindo: "okay, hug
Bab'Ngonyama for me. Bye"
She hanged up. I won't hug
him while he is hiding huge
things from me.
Dad: "she somehow knows
the truth, but doesn't know
that i was telling her the
story about you and your
brother. So during the
holidays I used to tell her a
story about a cruel family,
meaning that cruel family is
my royal family. She knows it,
just ask her about the cruel
family she will tell you
everything I just told you"
Unbelievable. Now I get it
why I am his little princess,
I just thought he was just
calling me princess without a
reason.
Me: "then why didn't you just
gave me a hint of my life?"
Dad: "did you hear what I
said? I said I was
protecting you from my
family, let me just say my
brother, because it was his
idea after all to kill you and
your brother. I know if I
gave you the hint you
would've took the first flight
to Eswatini and interrogate
everyone you see"
Eswatini? This old man is
hiding lot of things.
Me: "Eswatini?"
Dad: "you heard me correctly
my princess. Eswatini, where
Anathi lives. Where Anathi is
the princess. Let me not
beat about the bush and tell
you everything, you are not
27 years old you are 31
years old. I had to fake your
name and your age. I am
sorry to hide this from you
and your brother, even if you
don't tell your brother it will
be fine, you know that he is
crazy this days he won't
take that seriously. And
according to our forefathers
when you reach 30, you have
to be crowned a Queen of
Eswatini"
And Gogo Ingozi said they've
been looking for me for all
this 29 years, know I get it.
Whether Qhawe I mean
Sibusiso knows about it or
not I don't care.
Fake name, fake surname
and fake age. Wow. I can't
believe I am Nomvula, it can
be my second name I can't
change my name, I mean
everyone knows me by it.
Me: "its fine Baba, you don't
have to be sorry I get your
reasons why you did what you
did, and I am sorry that I
overreacted. But I don't
think I am ready to be
iNdlovukazi Yemvula (rain
Queen), I know I am older
than Anathi i have to be the
Queen but I am not ready to
rule the nation. I don't even
think I will fit in Queen's
shoes"
Dad: "you don't have to think
about it, you are what we
call Inkhosikati yeMvula,
make welive. Inkhosikati
lenkhulu yekucedza somiso,
Inkhosikati lenkhulu
yekuletsa emanti lagcwele
lutsandvo nemanti
lanambitsekako. Meaning you
are rain Queen, mother of
the nation. Queen to end
drought, Queen to bring
water full of love and
tasteful water. Because
Eswatini water taste awful."
He has to teach me Swati
one day, I mean he is fluent
you won't tell that he last
spoke it 29 years ago.
Me: "then who is that
brother of yours that
wanted to kill us?"
He takes a deep breath.
Dad: "Banzi's father. I know
you will say I am lying
because he is kind, yeah that
is how he fool people he is
exactly like her wife. I was
supposed to be the King since
i am the older one, but
everyone can do anything for
the power even your so called
brother. But even if Anathi
carry twins or triplets he
won't try to kill them,
because he won't cause any
harm on what belongs to his
sons"
Royal people are evil, that is
why I said I don't want to
be the Queen or even a
princess.
Me: "I guess Qhawe's
destiny has to find him so
that he can be the King,
because I don't think I will
fit being the Queen and
what if Anathi hates me?"
I just can't call him Sibusiso
it sounds weird.
Dad: "last person you should
be worried about, she is
harmless. She won't even
cause a harm on you, and she
should've hate you the
moment she saw you but she
didn't. And if you don't believe
what I've just told you, then
mention any relationship of
yours that lasted for a year
or years, because there is no
way a royal and live a happy
life with a commoner"
Yeah, he is right. When it
comes to relationships I am
cursed. When they say I've
taken a long time in a
relationship with certain guy
they mean for 3/4 months it
never exceed 5/6 months or
more than.
I am getting sleepy.
Me: "I get it. Goodnight
Baba"
As I get up he looks at me
for a while.
Dad: "you do really look like a
princess you are"
Fourth person to say that
today.
Me: "I guess I will take
that as a compliment.
Goodnight"
Dad: "Goodnight my princess"
I will enjoy being called like
that for a reason this time,
I don't even know how to
break what I've just told to
Qhawe, it seems like he lost
his screws this days.
INSECT 89

ANATHI

I'm a princess, but my life

hasn't always been a fairy
tale. I've known pain and
loss, and I've faced darkness
that seemed unbearable. But
God has been faithful, and
He's given me a testimony
that I'll share with the
world.
I lost six babies, six precious
lives that never got to see
the light of day. It was a
season of grief and sorrow, of
questioning God's plan and
wondering if I'd ever hold a
child in my arms.
But the most painful part
was when they sacrificed
with my babies. I don't know
how to explain it, but it was
like they took my children, my
flesh and blood, and used
them for their own gain. It
was a betrayal that cut
deep, and I thought I'd
never heal.
But God... God is a restorer.
He's a healer. And He's a
giver of life. After all that
darkness, He blessed me with
triplets. Three beautiful,
healthy babies, a reminder
that He's always in control,
always working for my good.
It's not always easy, and the
scars of the past still linger.
But I know that God is
faithful, and He's given me a
story to tell. A story of hope
and redemption, of life and
joy.
As I walked through the
valley of loss and grief, there
were verses that kept me
going. Verses that reminded
me of God's faithfulness, His
love, and His promise to
restore. One of them was
Jeremiah 29:11 'For I know
the plans I have for you,'
declares the Lord, 'plans to
prosper you and not to harm
you, plans to give you hope
and a future.' This verse
became my anchor, my
reminder that God had a
plan, even when I couldn't
see it. Another was Psalm
30:5 - 'Weeping may last
through the night, but joy
comes with the morning.'
This verse gave me hope
that the darkness wouldn't
last forever, that joy was on
the horizon. And then there
was Isaiah 54:1 - 'Sing,
barren woman, who has
never borne a child; burst
into song, shout for joy, you
who were never in labor;
because more are the
children of the desolate
woman than of her who has
a husband,' says the Lord.
This verse spoke directly to
my heart, reminding me that
God was able to do the
impossible.
These verses, and many
others like them, sustained
me through the loss of six
precious babies, through the
pain of sacrifice, and into the
joy of receiving triplets. They
reminded me that God is
faithful, that He is able to
restore and bless, and that
He has a plan to prosper me,
not to harm me. Even now,
as I hold my triplets in my
arms, I look back on those
verses and remember the
power of God's Word. They
kept me going when all
seemed lost, and they
continue to inspire me today.
Old Queen: "you finally
conquered them all, they
won't bother you anymore"
She has this tendency of
appearing and disappearing.
Me: "if it wasn't of you I
wouldn't be here, thank you
for guiding me through this
journey"
Old Queen: "I didn't do
anything, your faith brought
you here, if it wasn't of it
you wouldn't be here. Now
prepare yourself to meet the
new Queen of Eswatini, the
long lost princess of Eswatini.
Sooner or later she will come
and fight for her throne, she
will help you to run the
nation. Don't worry about
her, wherether she will like
you or not, just be prepared
for that day"
I am looking forward to see
her. So that means she is
older than me? Because she
said the Queen.
INSECT 90

NUMBERS

My name is Philano Ndlovu,

knows as Numbers. I've
never dated or slept with
anyone in my life, and I don't
have a valid reason, why I
haven't.
Sister Boss called all of us
today at Levels. When I say
all of us I include Busani and
his gang.
Lindo: "I am glad you are all
here today, so we've got a
big delivery to make.
Russians requested two
trucks fully loaded with
drugs. While Nigarians
requested one truck full of
drugs, then our new buyers
from Italy requested one
truck full of drugs"
That is half of our
warehouse.
Lindo: "our helpers loaded the
drugs so all we have to do is
just to deliver, Numbers and
Ifalethu you will take truck
number one going to the
Russians, Khaya and Sticks
you will take truck number
two. Spitjo and Cheese boy
you will take the track going
to Nigerians, then lastly me
and my husband we will take
the one going to Italians. So
Numbers, Ifalethu, Khaya
and Sticks you will find the
Russians at the border,
Cheese boy and Spitjo you will
find the Nigerians at the
airport. There are
translators in each truck in
case if they speak their
language. Let's go"
We took our short guns in
case if they try to kill us, you
can never trust buyers.
I hop inside the truck, and
Ifalethu is driving.
Ifalethu: "I've never
delivered a full truck"
Me: "me too, but there is a
first-time for everything"
We arrived at the border
after an hour. When Khaya
and Sticks are busy unloading
the drugs. So we will wait.
After what seemed to be
forever, the signaled us to
show that they are done.
Man1: "vovremya"
Translator: "Right on time"
This translator really works.
We opened the truck for
them. They hand us three
bags. They named me
Numbers for a reason, so I
opened the first bag then I
see money, opened the second
one and I also see money, I
opened the last one I also
see money. I looked at it
carefully to see if they are
really loaded with money,
because they might place
papers at the bottom.
Me: "you can take the drugs"
They unloaded them, without
us helping them.
Man2: "do sleduyushchego
raza"
Translator: "till next time"
Me: "salute"
They went back to their
ship, I mean this is a big
ship. No wonder why they
requested two trucks.
We went back to the truck.
Ifalethu looked at me into
my eyes before starting a
truck.
Ifalethu: "you look so yummy"
He pulled me closer to him as
he kiss me slowly.
Ifalethu: "do you want me to
stop?"
I don't know where I should
say yes or no, but he kept on
kissing me.
Whoa, I wasn't expecting
that! I mean, I never kissed
someone before, but this was
different. It was like a
whole new level of intensity.
His lips are so soft, but firm
at the same time. And the
way he moved them, it was
like a slow dance.
I kissed him back. It was
like our lips were meant to be
together.
The sensation is electric. I
could feel the sparks flying.
It was like nothing I've
ever experienced before. And
the best part? It feels so
natural. Like, this is what
I've been missing out on.
Ifalethu: "I love you
Numbers, I've been looking
at you ever since I met you.
Let's explore the world
today"
I can't speak anymore, I feel
like I was placed on mute. I
think I know now who I'm I,
I do love him but I can't tell
him that.
Me: "let's go and count the
money"
He started a truck, busy
chuckling.
INSECT 91

QHAWEKAZI

I stared at the ancient scroll

in my hands, my mind reeling
with the secrets it revealed.
I was 31 years old, not 27.
My entire life, I had been
living a lie. My father, the
man I thought had
abandoned me, had actually
been protecting me from the
Royals.
According to the scroll, I am
the Rain Queen, born with
the power to control the
elements. My father had run
away from the Royals
because his brother, my uncle,
had sought to kill my twin
siblings and me. He had
changed my name and
surname to keep me hidden,
to keep me safe.
I felt like my whole identity
had been turned upside down.
I thought I was just a
normal woman, living a normal
life. But now, I was faced
with the truth. I am a
queen, with powers beyond
my wildest dreams.
I remembered the strange
occurrences that had been
happening around me, the
way the rain seemed to
follow me, the way the wind
whispered secrets in my ear.
It all made sense now. But
no one knows even my closed
friends.
I felt a surge of power and
determination. I am the Rain
Queen, and I would claim my
rightful place on the throne.
I would not let my uncle's evil
plans destroy me or my
people. I would rise up, and I
would reign.
The rain poured down around
me, a symbol of my power, my
strength. I am the Rain
Queen, and I would not be
silenced. I would not be
hidden. I would reign, and I
would bring justice to those
who had wronged me and my
family.
It's been two months now
since I knew everything
about me so it is time to
face the world, alone because
my so-called twin brother is
not here to face it with me.
I packed my car outside the
palace, as I step out of my
car. It started raining,
temperature suddenly
changed. It rains so hard.
Gogo Ingozi: "just raise your
left hand and take a deep
breath, it will stop"
I did as I am instructed, the
sun come out.
So it is true.
Gogo Ingozi: "they have
finally welcomed you back
home, now go and fight for
what your father failed to
fight for"
What I'm I doing? What if
Anathi and Banzi turn their
backs on me after knowing
the truth?
Man: "your destiny finally
found you, INdlovukazi
yeMvula"
I turned around I see old
man with many beats
standing with Gogo Ingozi.
Man: "I am Dub'indabakho,
the royal seer. We will
protect you in every step you
take, just go and face him"
I took few step closer to the
door, and took a deep breath.
I got this!
Gogo Ingozi opened the door
for me. I find Banzi's
brother Bheki, father, Banzi
and Anathi in the lounge busy
talking. Why are they sitting
in one area?
King: "Dub'indabakho and
Gogo Ingozi awuzange
usitjele kutsi sinetivakashi
(Dub'indabakho and Gogo
Ingozi you didn't tell us you
are bringing a guest)"
He looks kind, so why did he
do what he did in the past?
Anathi: "Qhawekazi what a
pleasant surprise"
Me: "they didn't know that I
was coming, I just wanted to
ask you something. Why did
you want to kill me and my
twin brother 29 years ago?"
Banzi: "huh? 29 what?"
Anathi: "I know I am bad
when it comes to maths, but
Qhawekazi you want to tell
me that you are older than
me?"
Me: "3 years older than you
to be specific"
To say they are shocked will
be understatement.
King: "what are you talking
about young lady?"
Young lady?
Me: "when you are looking at
me you don't see a young girl
you wanted to sacrifice with?
You don't see Benginkosi's
twin daughter? Anything?
You don't see Nomvula in
front of you?"
King: [breathing heavily]
"what?? I thought...I did
kill you and your twin brother,
how did...you survive?"
Banzi: "you did what? There
is no Saint in this palace,
everyone is cruel, firstly it
was mom now you, who is
next? Me, Anathi or Bheki?
Because it seem to be a
cures that is running throw
our veins. I think we've
stayed longer than we
expected in this house,
Anathi it is time for us to
go"
Gogo Ingozi: "you know very
well that you don't have to
leave this house unless you
are dead"
Huh? Nhlabatsi ancestors
will have to forgive me,
because I am not going to
live in this house.
Banzi:[harsh tone] "I have
no choice but to leave this
house, I don't want to be
part of this evil family"
King: "don't leave my son"
Banzi: "so that you can kill
me when you don't have
powers to rule this palace?"
King: "no, I won't do that. I
did what I did in the past
because of power, now I am
old and I can die anytime. So
there is really no need of
sacrificing with anyone in this
house. And I am really really
sorry Nomvula for what I
tried to do to you and your
twin brother, hope one day
you will find it in your heart
to forgive me. Even if you
don't it is fine, I will
understand"
God gave a heart to forgive,
so I forgive him.
Me: "it is fine Baba, I
forgive you. There is no need
for us to hold on, on what
happened in the past"
He got up from his seat and
hug me so tight.
Anathi: "so you are really my
sister-in-law. I did told you
at the wedding that you look
like a princess and you denied
it. It will be nice ruling the
nation with you by my side"
My dad really said that she
is harmless.
Gogo Ingozi: [chanting]
"Nhlabatsi, Mantini
WaLanga. Gebase"
I turn around to look at
Dub'indabakho, I see a smile
on his face.
Dub'indabakho: "you did it.
INdlovukazi YeMvula (rain
Queen)"
They all bow before me,
including Banzi's father.
Them: "Mantini WaLanga,
Mabhalakophe
njengeNgwenyama, Sidvwaba
silitfuli njengese, Nkhosikati,
Nkonjane lemnyama idlela
emafini tonkhe tidlela phansi,
Ningweni waboLanga,
Hlehletela njengelifu lemvula
Gebase."
I guess those my new clan
names.
Them: "wena Wemvula,
INdlovukazi yakuletha
emanti lagcwele lutsandvo
nemanti lanambitsekako
(Rain, the Queen who will
bring water full of love and
sweet water)"
I am happy that I finally
won, I am now the Queen of
Eswatini. Even though they
haven't crowned me the
Queen, but l am the Queen.
INSECT 91

LINDOKUHLE

It's our 1 anniversary today.

Busani said he has
something for me so I am
looking forward to see it.
Vuyolwethu walked with me
to the place o don't
blindfolding me, she remove
the cloth. We walked into the
room, I couldn't help but feel
a sense of excitement and
anticipation. My family and
friends are all gathered
around, beaming with smiles
and tears in their eyes. They
said they have a surprise for
me, and then, I saw it. My
wedding dress. Hanging on a
mannequin in the center of
the room, it sparkled and
shone like a work of art.
I gasped in disbelief, my
hand flying to my mouth.
Me:"Oh my goodness,"
I whispered, my eyes fixed on
the stunning gown.
My father approached me,
tears streaming down her
face.
Dad:"Try it on, sweetie,"
His voice is trembling with
emotion.
My father walk out, my
wedding dress is a
masterpiece, a true work of
art. I knew I wanted to
break away from tradition
and wear something that
truly reflected my
personality, and this stunning
black gown does just that.
The moment I put it on, I
felt like a queen. The fitted,
mermaid-style silhouette
hugs my curves in all the
right places, and the
intricate lace details seem to
dance across my skin. The
dress is made of a luxurious
silk that catches the light
with every move I make,
giving me an ethereal glow.
The real showstopper,
though, is the dramatic train
that flows behind me like a
dark cloud. It's the perfect
touch of drama and whimsy,
and I can't wait to see it
trailing behind me as I walk
down the aisle.

But little did I know, the

surprise was only just
beginning. As I turned
around, I see Busani
standing in the doorway, a
huge smile on his face.
Them: "Surprise!"
Everyone shouted in unison.
I couldn't believe my eyes.
Everyone is wearing their
dresses, while he is wearing
his luxury tuxedo, looking
yummy.
Me: "Are we getting married
today?"
I asked, my voice shaking
with excitement.
Busani nodded, taking my
hand.
Busani: "We are,"
He said, his eyes shining with
love.
Busani: "I wanted to make
this moment special for you,
and I couldn't think of a
better way to do it."
Tears of joy streaming down
my face, I nodded eagerly.
Me: "Let's do it,"
I said, my heart overflowing
with happiness.
I am getting married!!!!
Everyone walk out leaving me
with my father.
Dad: "you are finally getting
married, I know you are
married to him already but
this one is special, because I
am walking you down the
aisle. I am fully handing you
to the Ngwenya's and I am
leaving you, I will be there
for you when you need me"
He hold my hand as we walk
to Limousine. This is all I
wanted. The car stopped at
Bosjes Kapel. Thus can't be
happening.
Dad: "are you ready?"
Me: "yes"
He walked out and open the
door for me. He hold my hand
as he walks with me.
INSECT 92

BUSANI

Our flower girl Khloe, walks

in. A tiny vision in a sleek
black dress, her dark hair
pulled back in a miniature
version of the bride's elegant
updo. She walked down the
aisle with a confident stride,
her big blue eyes sparkling
with excitement, scattering
petals from a small bouquet
as she went.
As I stand here, waiting for
the love of my life to reach
my side, my heart is
overflowing with emotion.
And then, I see her. My
beautiful, stunning, and
strong woman, walking
towards me in a sleek and
sophisticated black dress
that accentuates her
captivating smile.
Her confident stride exudes
grace and poise, and I can't
help but feel a sense of pride
and admiration for the
woman who is about to
become my wife. The black
dress hugs her curves in all
the right places, and the
subtle sparkle of her eyes is
mesmerizing.
But it's not just her physical
beauty that takes my
breath away - it's the
kindness, intelligence, and love
that shines from within. As
she approaches me, I can see
the happiness and
excitement radiating from
her very being.
In this moment, I am
reminded of all the reasons I
fell in love with her. Her
strength, her resilience, and
her unwavering optimism are
just a few of the qualities
that I adore. And as she
reaches my side, I know that
I am exactly where I am
meant to be - beside the
woman who makes my life
richer, fuller, and more
meaningful.
Together, we will embark on
this new chapter in our
journey, hand in hand, heart
to heart, and soul to soul.
And I couldn't be more
grateful to call her Mrs
Ngwenya.
Me: "you look so beautiful as
always"
Lindo: "you don't look bad
yourself babe"
I really knew how to choose
my future wife.
Anathi: "Dearly beloved, we
are gathered here today to
witness the union of two
souls, Lindokuhke and Busani,
in holy matrimony. As they
stand before us, ready to
embark on this new chapter
in their journey together, I
am reminded of the power of
love and commitment.
Lindokuhle and Busani, your
love is a beacon of hope and
joy, a shining example of
what it means to truly
cherish and adore one
another. As you prepare to
make your vows, I want to
remind you that marriage is
a journey, not a destination.
It takes hard work,
patience, and understanding,
but the rewards are
immeasurable.
As you stand before God and
these witnesses, remember
that your love is a gift, a
treasure to be nurtured and
cherished. May your bond
grow stronger with each
passing day, and may you
always find joy in each
other's embrace.
Let us pray"
We closed our eyes, as I hold
her hands tight.
Anathi: "Dear Heavenly
Father, we ask that you
bless this union, that
Lindokuhle and Busani may be
filled with your love and
guidance. May their marriage
be a reflection of your grace
and mercy, and may they
always find peace and
happiness in each other's
arms. Amen."
Us: "Amen"
Anathi: "Now, Busani, please
take Lindokuhle's hand and
repeat after me..."
Anathi: "I, Busani Ngwenya,
I take you, Lindokuhle
Dlamini-Ngwenya, to be my
wife, to have and to hold
from this day forward, for
better or for worse, for
richer or for poorer, in
sickness and in health, to love
and to cherish, till death us
do part, according to God's
holy ordinance; and thereto I
pledge you my faithfulness."
She is now two times
Ngwenya.
Anathi: " Lindokuhle repeat
after me...I' Lindokuhle
Dlamini-Ngwenya, I take you,
Busani Ngwenya, to be my
husband, to have and to hold
from this day forward, for
better or for worse, for
richer or for poorer, in
sickness and in health, to love
and to cherish, till death us
do part, according to God's
holy ordinance; and thereto I
pledge you my faithfulness."
Anathi: "Now, please
exchange your vows and rings
as a symbol of your
commitment to one another."
I will say anything that
comes from the bottom of
my heart, because I didn't or
practiced my vows. I take
her black diamond ring.
Me: "My dear Lindokuhle, as
I stand before you today, I
am filled with so much love
and gratitude. You are the
sunshine that brightens
every day, the calm in every
storm, and the safe haven
where I can always find
peace. You are my best
friend, my partner, and my
soulmate. You make me laugh
when I need it most, you
listen to me when I need
someone to talk to, and you
support me in everything I
do. I promise to always
cherish and support you, to
be your rock and your
confidant, and to love you
with all my heart and soul. I
vow to stand by your side
through the ups and downs
of life, to hold your hand
when the road gets rough,
and to celebrate with you in
times of joy. I love you for
who you are, and for who you
help me to be. I love your
kind heart, your beautiful
smile, and your infectious
laugh. I love our late-night
conversations, our silly jokes,
and our deep, meaningful
talks.
I choose you today, and every
day, to be my wife, my
partner, and my forever love.
I promise to love you, honor
you, and cherish you, now and
forevermore.
I love you."
I place the ring on her
finger.
Me: "This ring is a symbol of
my love and commitment to
you. I give it to you as a
reminder of the vows I've
made to you today, and as a
promise of the love and
happiness that's to come."
Lindo: [crying] "My beloved
Busani Ngwenya, from the
moment I met you, I knew
that you were the one for
me. You light up my world in
ways I never thought
possible. Your kindness and
your grace inspire me every
day to be a better woman.
Today, I promise to love and
cherish you, to honor and
support you, and to be your
rock in times of need. I vow
to stand by your side
through all of life's ups and
downs, to laugh with you, to
cry with you, and to build a
life filled with love, laughter,
and adventure. You are my
best friend, my partner, and
my soulmate. I promise to
always listen to you, to
support your dreams, and to
be your safe haven. I
promise to love you with all
my heart and soul, now and
forever. I promise to be your
wife, your confidant, and your
forever home. I promise to
love and cherish you, till
death do us part. With all my
heart, I love you."
I wiped her tears carefully
not to ruin her makeup.
Lindo: "This ring is a symbol
of my commitment to you, a
reminder of vows we've
taken, and a representation
of the love that we share. I
give it to you as a token of
my devotion, my loyalty and
my everlasting love"
She is making me to become
emotional.
Anathi: "By the authority
vested in me, I now
pronounce you husband and
wife. You may kiss your
bride!"
The moment we've been
waiting for.
As our lips met, it was like
the entire world around us
melted away. The cheers and
applause of our friends and
family faded into the
background, and all that was
left was the two of us, lost
in the magic of that moment.
It was a soft, gentle kiss,
yet it sent shivers down my
spine. I felt like I was home,
like I was exactly where I
was meant to be. Our lips fit
together perfectly, like two
pieces of a puzzle clicking into
place.
I could feel the love and
adoration radiating from her,
and I knew in that instant
that I was forever changed.
This was the start of our
new life together, and I was
honored to begin it with such
a tender and intimate
moment.
As we pulled back from the
kiss, I saw tears of joy in
her eyes, and I knew that I
was seeing my future, my
partner, my best friend. It
was a kiss that sealed our
love, our commitment, and our
forever.

We walked out while they are

busy throwing petals on us.
We get into a Limousine, as
we got to our next venue. In
Caledon.
••••••••••••••••••••••••••
••••
When we arrive in Caledon,
everything is well decorated
everything is black, as Lindo
wished.
Lindo: "What!! This is truly
my dream wedding. Thank
you babe"
I've never seen her happy
like this.
Me: "just thank your friends
and family, I could've done it
without them"
We walked to the reception,
leading with the step. I am
really bad when it comes to
dancing, but I am trying.
They played her favorite
song called Dandelions by
Ruth, before we take our
seats.
We were lost in the music,
our bodies swaying in perfect
harmony, our eyes locked on
each other's, when suddenly,
the sound of gunshots
shattered the air. Time
seemed to freeze as we
stared at each other in
disbelief, the music
screeching to a halt. The
celebratory cheers and
laughter were replaced with
screams and panicked shouts.
The once-joyful atmosphere
had transformed into a scene
of utter chaos and terror. We
huddled together, our hearts
racing, as the reality of the
situation sunk in.
I see Khloe on the floor
lifeless, Lindo just collapse in
front of me, as I feel a
bullet entering my heart. I
feel like my heart is
shattering into a million
pieces. The pain is
excruciating, like a burning
fire that's consuming me
from the inside out. Every
breath I take, every beat of
my heart, is a reminder of
the agony that's coursing
through my veins.
It's as if the bullet has
pierced not only my flesh but
also my soul. I can feel the
weight of my life force
ebbing away, leaving me with
a sense of emptiness and
despair.
The physical pain is
unbearable, but it's nothing
compared to the emotional
torment that's tearing me
apart. I keep thinking about
my bride, my beautiful wife,
and the life we were
supposed to build together.
I remember the look in her
eyes when I saw her walking
down the aisle, the way my
heart skipped a beat when
we exchanged our vows. And
now, it's all being taken away
from me.
The pain in my heart is a
constant reminder that my
time is running out. I can
feel my strength fading, my
vision blurring. I'm trying to
hold on, but it's slipping away
from me.
I don't know how much
longer I can hold on.
Me: "ba...bab..Kh...Khlo"
Faded voices: "Bisani.
Lindokuhle. Busani. Wake up.
Vuyolwethu, wake up"
'Till death do us apart'...next
thing lights off.
INSECT 93

LINDOKUHLE

As I drifted in and out of

consciousness, I heard the
sound of beeping machines
and muffled voices. Suddenly,
a familiar face appeared
beside me - it is Doctor
Jeanette. My back and legs
hurts, when I open my eyes
I notice that I am in
hospital and the only thing I
remember is being shot on my
leg and back. I am still
wearing my wedding dress.
Doctor: "Good morning!
Welcome back! You've been
through a lot, and I'm glad
to see you're awake"
Doctor: "You were shot three
weeks ago, and you've been in
a coma. We've been taking
care of you since then."
I panicked.
Me: "Three weeks?! Oh my
god...my back! It hurts!"
Doctor: "I know. You have a
minor spinal cord injury. We've
been managing your pain, but
it's going to take time to
recover."
Huh???
Me: "Will I...will I be able to
walk again?"
Doctor: "We're doing
everything possible to help
you regain function. You'll
need extensive rehabilitation,
but it's too early to predict
the outcome. Right now, let's
focus on your recovery one
step at a time."
Who ever did this really know
her/his business.
Me: "l can't feel my leg...I
can't move it."
Doctor: "I know. The damage
is significant, but we'll work
with you to regain strength
and mobility. You'll need to be
patient and persistent.
Me: "I will. I want to walk
again. I want to live my life.
Doctor: "That's the spirit!
We'll support you every step
of the way. Now, let's start
with small steps. We'll get
you into physical therapy
soon."
Me: [weakly] "Thank
you...thank you for saving
me."
Doctor: "You're welcome.
We're here to help you and
what surprised us is that
the babies are still fine and
healthy, they are in NICU
they are both girls, you were
carrying twins all along.
Nurse Mokoena will bring your
wheelchair to use it when you
want to go to the toilet or
see the babies, she will help
you to get out and get in the
bed, and she will help you to
put clean clothes"
Babies? I was pregnant?
They really arrived at the
wrong time during my
downfall, but i am happy
that finally i got pregnant.
Busani will be happy to hear
that or he saw them before
I've been here for 3 weeks.
I just hope they found the
person behind this. Khloe is
now a sister to her siblings.
Me: "babies? I don't
remember being pregnant"
Doctor: "cryptic pregnancy"
She walk out as my gang
walk in, with sad faces. I
don't see Khaya and
Ifalethu.
Me: "why are you so sad I
am not dead just minor injury"
They bowed their heads.
Numbers: "yes, you are not
dead but Khloe and Busani,
they are....dead. So we found
the person behind that
shooting. It is Sbohlwa,
Matome's sister and she is
the greatest dangerous
Queenpin in England. Her
name is Lehlaoenya Gift
something like that, i only
know her gangster name
correctly. So she wanted us
to relax a bit and think that
we won but we didn't because
she killed one of us. Khloe was
shot straight to her head
while Busani was shot
straight to his heart, they
couldn't survive..."
What???I must be dreaming
or something. How did that
happen so quickly? I am
feeling dizzy.
They gave me water because
I am even sweating.
I guess I will have to pay
her a visit and talk woman
to woman, just give me a
week this wheelchair will not
be useful.
Me: "I didn't hear 'we held
her in one of our warehouses'
and where is Ifalethu,
Khaya, Vuyolwethu and
Anathi?"
They look at each other.
Spitjo:[clear his throat] "She
shot Ifalethu and Khaya
when we were behind her
tail, so she noticed us and
managed to shoot Ifalethu
and Khaya only, but they are
not dead they are in ICU
fighting for their life, and we
don't know whether they will
survive or not. She is really
dangerous boss lady.
Vuyolwethu went to Eswatini
for her safety, because she
was shot on her shoulder but
Cheese boy managed to
remove the bullet and stitch
her, so she is getting better.
Don't worry about Tlotliso he
is fine we even took three
guards to him to be safe"
I guess God is punishing me.
But if I have to deal with
her personally then will, I
was born a gangster i will die
being a gangster. I will
rather die knowing that I
killed her with my bare
hands.
Me: "I must prepare myself
for a war. Did you see my
baby and Busani for the last
time?"
Sticks: "we only saw Khloe not
Busani because his father
said it is against their
culture to see someone in
their coffin"
I thought that only implied
to the Royals, but it feels
like they are not dead I can't
lose both of them at the
same time. This Sbohlwa or
what thing will die in my
hands I swear to my
ancestors because if I say to
God he will punish me more.
The Nurse walk in pushing
my wheelchair i guess she is
Nurse Mokoena, I think I
need automatic wheelchair
because this one will damage
my hands.
Nurse: "you can press that
button next to you, when you
want me to help you. Bye"
I know they say Nurses are
rude but this one is kind and
loving.
Me: "thank you"
Numbers: "wheelchair? You
said minor injury, so why
wheelchair?"
I guess they didn't tell
them. I was lying this is not
what I said, it is painful. I
can't even get up.
Me: "I lied"
Cheese boy: "you can't always
try to be strong and brave
even though you are not, you
chose us to fight every
battle with you and we will.
We are in this together."
Spitjo: "we fight together,
we die together. BIG
FIVE!!"
Just hope they didn't hear
him shouting big five. I am
getting emotional. I never
thought I will find a gang
and brothers in four people.
Numbers: "our nieces look
exactly like you. You really
gave birth to your twins"
He really love babies, but
unfortunately he can't get
on, since he is...I just can't
say that word it feels
uncomfortable.
Me: "take me to them I
want to see them"
They picked me up and place
me carefully on my wheelchair
and led me to the NICU,
where my babies were being
cared for. As I walked, I felt
a sense of pride and purpose
that I had never known
before. I am mom now, and
nothing was going to stop me
from giving my twins the
best life possible.
As I approach the
incubators, I saw my babies
for the first time. They
were so small and vulnerable,
but they were mine, and I
knew I would do anything to
protect them. I reached out
a trembling hand and touched
their tiny hands, feeling a
sense of connection that I
had never felt before.
Me: "hey, little ones. Mommy's
here. I promise I will
protect you with everything
I have"
I named them Ayanda and
Azile, just wish I experience
this moment with Busani.
INSECT 95

NARRATED

In Dubai hotel, old man walks

in his room holding food and
drinks.
Guy: "Dad, I want to go
home, you can't lock me in
here forever. It's been a
month now, I have to go and
protect her from that
psycho"
He place the food on the
table and sit facing him.
Man: "she can fight this
battle alone, she became a
gangster before you do she
can handle this. And you can't
go out there with that
condition you are in"
The guy place his hand on his
chest.
Guy: "why is it so painful?
What happened?"
Man: "you had a heart
transplant"
The guy looked at him
confused.
Guy: "heart what? Who gave
away his/her heart away for
me?"
Man: "my second wife, I know
you don't like her but she
gave it to you because she
just saw it as an opportunity
to leave this world, because
her daughters hate her and
she felt like she is tumbling
apart. And I have a letter
to Vuyolwethu that comes
from her mother before the
process"
Guy: "she saved my life? I
didn't hate her that much
just hate the fact that she
liked your money more than
you"
Man: "that is the reason why
she saved you, she wanted to
be free from her greedy
world. You are getting better
just give yourself few days
then you will be ruling Cape
Town with your wife"
INSECT 96

LINDOKUHLE

I sit in darkness, my kingdom

crumbling around me. My
child, my innocent child, gone.
My husband, my rock, my
everything, taken away from
me. All because of the
revenge of an enemy, seeking
to avenge his brother's
death.
The pain is a fire that burns
within me, a constant
reminder of what I've lost.
But it's not just pain, it's a
fuel, a fuel that drives me to
seek revenge. To make them
pay for what they've done. I
am still a queenpin, a woman
of power and respect. But
now I feel like I'm a woman
scorned, a woman with
nothing to lose. I will stop at
nothing to avenge my family,
to make sure that those
responsible pay for their sins.
My enemies may think
they've won, but they've only
made me stronger. I will rise
from the ashes, more
powerful and more ruthless
than before. I will show
them the true meaning of
revenge.
I will not rest until justice is
served, until my family is
avenged. I will not rest until
I've taken everything from
them, just as they've taken
everything from me.
This is my vow, my promise
to my child and my husband.
I will make them proud, I
will make them smile from
the grave. I will be the
queenpin once more, and I will
reign with an iron fist.

It’s been 2 days now since I

am discharged, so I decided
to go to the field just to
think carefully about the
shit that happened to me
and my family. My driver
dropped me off, i told him to
go 'cause I want to be alone.
Lady: "finally we met"
I turned around then I
notice Matome's sister
Lerato probably she changed
it to Sbohlwa when she
moved to England. She was
following me all this time
with all these bodyguards?
Me: "Same old, same old. You
haven't changed, the only
thing that changed is your
name"
Sbohlwa: "you too. You know
I am not here for the pep
talk right?"
Me: "And who said, I am here
with you for the pep talk. Or
rebounding conversation?
I want to finish what you
started, you killed my
husband and my daughter
now I barely can't walk for
more than an hour because
of you"
Sbohlwa: "I should've killed
you too, but I wanted us to
finish this face to face. I
want to see you taking your
last breath in front of me"
She is dreaming.
Me: "keep on dreaming"
Sbohlwa: "we end it old
fashion way without guns,
weapons and my guards. And
after dealing with you i will
finish your little babies, that
is how I planned to deal with
anything and anyone that
means a lot to you"
She won't do that. Just hope
this leg doesn't disappoint
me in the middle of the fight.
Me: "no problem"
I am not sacrificing with my
babies i want to give her the
benefit of hope. I feel like I
am in a wrestling, fighting
with my enemy.
I took a deep breath. She
took her leather jacket off, I
notice that she is muscled
more than i am. I am dead,
let me just say my last
prayer.
I took my hoddie off, and
place it on my wheelchair.
Guy: "let the battle begin"
I took few step closer to her
as she does too. Mind you
I've never used my bare
hands to finish my enemy.
She punched me on my face,
as I punch her on her
stomach to the point where
she coughs.
Sbohlwa: [chuckles] "smart
bitch"
She kicked me multiple times
on my stomach with her
knee. I am feeling weak.
I just fell on the ground as
she gets on top of me
slapping and punching me on
my face. I am pretty sure
my face changed from original
shape to Sbohlwa's shape. I
guess when they said 'every
dog have its day' they were
referring to me.
I feel a resistance in my
body, I punched her so hard
on her month. I see her
spitting blood.
Sbohlwa: "fuck!!"
She just lost her front
teeth. She pulled my hair
busy punching me, she place
her knee on my p***y I feel
like I am cracking.
[Gun shoots]
She gets off me to see who
is shooting, the next thing
she fell on the ground with a
lot of blood on her head.
Who did that? I told my
gang that I want to be
alone, then who did it? This
blood make me numb.
Guy: "babe are you okay?"
I opened my eyes slowly, I
see Busani wearing bullet
proof vest and holding AK-
47, he is alive?
Me: "you...you...are alive. I
thought you are..."
Busani: "dead? No, I am not
dead. Let me help you get
up"
He picked me up and place me
on my wheelchair. My gang
and his, come out of nowhere
to clean up the mess.
Me: "so they knew that you
are not dead?"
He pushed me to the car.
Busani: "no, they didn't I
tipped them off anonymously
about your street fight"
How did he know about it? I
just turned and looked at him
with puzzled look.
Busani: "I've been watching
you everyday, I followed you
everywhere you go even
here"
I guess I will ask other
questions when we get home.
My body hurts, that bitch
knows how to fight.
He just doesn't allow me to
get in the car by myself, he
picked me up and place me
carefully.
Busani: "are you comfortable?
You don't want anything to
place your leg?"
I missed this.
Me: "I am fine, thank you"
Off we go to where? I don't
know.
I thought I'd lost him
forever. The grief had barely
begun to subside, and yet,
here he was, standing in
front of me, his eyes blazing
with a fierce intensity as he
pulled me to safety. Just
moments before, I was
trapped in a terrifying
street fight, with no escape
in sight. But then, like an
angel, he appeared out of
nowhere, fighting off my
attackers with a strength
and ferocity that left me
breathless.
As I gazed up at him,
stunned and disbelieving, my
mind raced with questions.
How was this possible? I'd
mourned his loss, buried him
in my heart. Yet, here he is,
alive and vibrant, his touch
sending shivers down my
spine.
The world around us melted
away, leaving only the two of
us, suspended in this moment
of raw emotion. I feel like I
am drowning in his eyes,
searching for answers,
searching for the truth. How
did he survive? Why did he
keep his existence a secret?
But in this instant, none of
that mattered. All that
mattered was the warmth
of his embrace, the safety of
his presence, and the love
that still burned bright
between us. Even though our
princess is gone.

We arrived at our house.

When we open the door we
are welcomed by my friends
and my gang, i mean i left
them at the field but they
are here like nothing
happened. If I died in that
field this wouldn't be
happening right now.
Vuyolwethu: "SURPRISE!
Just glad you are back. And
you too walking ghost
welcome back"
I just chuckles, but my body
still hurts. And I am dirty,
how am I going to sit with
them looking like this?
Busani pushed me to the
bathroom that is
downstairs. He didn't even
notice Ayanda and Azile.
Busani: "I will help you"
He turn the bathtub on, as i
take my dirty clothes off. He
picked me up and place me
carefully in the tub.
He wash my body carefully
not to hurt me, and wash my
hair with my shampoo.
He tried my body and picked
me out of the tub.
He picked blue solid crop tee
and blue brush stroke print
wide leg pants. He lotion my
body and put my clothes on.
Brushed my hair nicely and
help me put my heels on.
Busani: [Smiling] "I can be
your hairdresser if you what"
Me: "you are not bad at all
with fashion, I mean i look so
beautiful. You are now a
father to Ayanda and Azile"
I see tears in his eyes.
Busani: "just tell me you are
joking. I saw two little
babies when we get here but
I thought they are Anathi's.
Thank you babe for making
me the father and happy
husband in the world. I
promise I will protect the
three of you with everything
I have"
He kissed me on my forehead
as he pushed me back to the
others and everyone is busy
drinking.
Anathi: "walking ghost, you
have a good fashion taste"
So they are going to call my
man a walking ghost.
Busani: "I will take that as
a compliment"
He takes a sit next to me, he
is even helping me to eat. I
mean my hands can move
properly.
Numbers: "where have you
been walking ghost?"
He take Ayanda and Azile,
luckily he can carry both of
them.
Busani: "I am not going to
rest. In Dubai with my
father, he's been nursing me
all this time. Hey, hey daddy's
little princesses"
Now I get it why they didn't
what my gang to see Busani
for the last time.
They are not even crying,
these traitors.
Khaya: "how did you survive?
They shot you straight to
your heart, how did you?"
Busani: "someone gave me
her heart"
Her? We looked at him to
finish his statement.
Busani: "Vuyolwethu's
mother gave me her heart,
and I have a letter for you
Vuyo coming from her"
If people who survived
apartheid cannot face their
challenges, then who I'm I?
Vuyolwethu: "my mother did
what?!! She sacrificed her
life for you? Even though you
called her by names before
knowing that she is my
mother? Unbelievable"
I know she might hate her
for leaving her when she was
a teenager, but loosing her is
something else.
Busani: "I apologized to her
many times, and I didn't
know that she was going to
give me her heart"
Vuyolwethu: "it's fine Busani
it was her choice after all,
not mine. Let me not ruin
this celebration with a little
fight"
I know she doesn't mean it,
Vuyolwethu I know doesn't
let something go just like
that.
INSECT 97

After 10 months

I am in my dimly lit, smoky

bar, with the gang and my
husband sitting around a
table, clinking glasses and
cheering, while we are
waiting for our mini lantern
festival to begin, just to say
our final goodbyes to our
angles Bongani and Khloe, and
other people we lost. Second
Chrismas without Bongani,
first Christmas without
Khloe.

Me: "We did it, boys! We finally

took down those bastards!"
Spitjo: "Hell yeah, we did! And
we couldn't have done it
without each other."
Numbers: "We made a pact,
we stuck together, and we
came out on top."
Cheese boy: "And we didn't
just take them down, we
annihilated them. No mercy,
no quarter."
Sticks: "That's what
happens when you mess with
the eight of us. We're a force
to be reckoned with."
Busani: "We fought for each
other, for our lady-
brotherhood, and for our goal.
And we achieved it."
Ifalethu: "Now we can enjoy
the spoils of war. Our
enemies are defeated, and
we're victorious."
Khaya: "To us, the
unstoppable eight! May our
bond and our victories be
legendary!"
We raise our glasses in a
toast, cheering and clinking
them together as we
celebrate our triumph.
Vuyolwethu: "we are done
with the preparations, I
hope you are done with your
little celebration"
She is still the same old
Vuyolwethu, when she is
pregnant nothing changed.
She really forgave Busani.
Sticks: "we are done mama"
Just love this for her, she's
been searching and searching
for the perfect person for
her until she met Sticks.
Yeah I know he played with
her heart before coming back
to his senses but here they
are expecting the gift from
God.
We got up from our seats
before Vuyolwethu kills us. I
can walk but not like before,
I have to be careful all the
time.
I walked out holding Busani.
When we reached to the
venue I see that everyone is
here and well dressed, then
Anathi is holding my little
princesses and they are
dressed in pink and white
clothes, they are so
beautiful.
The moment they notice me
and Busani they cried. I take
Ayanda as Busani take Azile.
Me: "hey Aya, hey"
Everyone take her/his
lantern. Then I write, 'i may
not ever hear the patter of
your footsteps in the house,
but i will hear the dancing on
my heart for the rest of my
life, rest in peace Khloe
mommy loves you.' On the
other side I write, 'continue
resting in peace my friend you
always own a special part in
my heart.' I place Ayanda on
the matt as I light it and
let it go. If white people
believe in such things why
don't we? I think this is the
best way to communicate
with someone who is gone.

Me: "We did it, babe. We

finally achieved our dream."
Busani: "We sure did, babe.
And we couldn't have done it
without each other."
Me: "We made a great team.
And we proved that our love
is stronger than any
obstacle."
Busani: "Even stronger than
our enemies."
Me: [chuckles] "They didn't
stand a chance against us.
We fought together, side by
side, and came out on top."
Busani: "And we didn't just
defeat them, we crushed
them. Without mercy."
Me: "Mercy is for the weak.
We showed them no quarter,
and it paid off."
Busani: "Our bond, our love,
our determination – it was all
too much for them to
handle."
Me: "Now we can finally enjoy
the fruits of our labor. Our
dream is a reality, and we
have each other. Protect our
babies"
Busani: "Forever and always,
my love. Together, we're
unstoppable."
Me: "Together, we're
invincible."
We share a passionate kiss
as the lanterns make
beautiful pattern in the sky.
I saw it with my two eyes
that there is no staring in
this world, you can die with a
blind of an eye.
Tlotliso: "this is so beautiful,
thank you Sis for welcoming
me with warm hands. Thank
you"
What more should I ask for
while I have everyone that
mean I world to me in one
place. I know some left so
soon, but that was God's will.
I hugged him so tight as my
dad, my husband, my siblings,
Gogo, my friends, Dibuseng,
Lesego, Luthando, Bongiwe,
Qhawekazi, Bab'Ngonyama
(I still prefer him as
Bab'Ngonyama) and the
gang join us with a group
hug.
Me: "WE MADE IT!!"
Us: “Merry Christmas!!!”
I just thank you God for this
moment.
FINAL INSECT

6 YEARS LATER

Everything is going very well

for everyone. My psycho
friend Vuyolwethu, she is now
a mother to her two
beautiful boys Alakhe and
Mazwi, and Sticks just spoil
her rotten every chance he
gets. While my prayer warrior
Anathi she is a mother to
her 9 adorable daughters,
she should consider starting
her own Outdaughtered
show, and she is expecting
but I don't know how many
this time. I guess that is
what she get after all those
miscarriages.
As for me I am a mother to
my 2 beautiful baby girls and
a boy. My baby boy Zolani
really look like Khloe a little
bit. Qhawekazi (Nomvula)
finally agreed to be the
Queen of Eswatini while her
twin brother is somewhere
sniffing drugs. I just can't
call her Nomvula. I gave
Lebo Mokoena and Dineo
Radebe my 50% shares of
Ngonyama Holdings and they
are both promoted to be
COO's at Ngonyama's. I am
still holding farm shares i
can't give them to anyone.
My father started his own
trading company in America,
he is now officially living in
America. My mother died in
Weskoppies 5 years ago, may
her soul continue resting in
peace. Numbers and
Ifalethu, they are still
dating i am so happy for
Numbers that he finally
found someone he loves.
Khaya and Lesego they are
now the parents of the most
adorable boy called Nkosi.
While Cheeseboy still says no
to settling down with one
lady. Spitjo and Dibuseng
they said they don't want
babies, I don't why.
Best part of them all, we
renewed our vows 3 years
ago. My intelligent little
brother is doing Medicine in
Harvard University, that
was his choice to study
outside not mine, and he is
happy where he is.
Busani: "babe are you ready?"
We are going to our home
sweet home, out of the
country in Zanzibar.
Me: "yes, I am ready"
We are going to start our
new adventure in Zanzibar,
start a new life and forget
about the past. I don't
think I am coming back to
Cape Town anytime soon. I
might leave everything
behind but not my gangster
life, I was born a gangster I
will die being it.

♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡
I've been through hell and
back, fought for every scrap
of food and every moment of
safety. I didn't become a
gangster overnight, it was a
slow-burning fire that
consumed me, fueled by the
desperation and resilience
that grew inside me with
each passing day. I
remember the first time I
had to fight for myself, the
first time I had to choose
between my life and someone
else's. It was a brutal
awakening, a harsh reality
check that left me shaken
but unbroken.
From that day on, I knew I
had to rely on myself, on my
wits and my fists, to survive.
I built a reputation, brick by
brick, of being fearless and
formidable. I earned the
respect of my peers and the
fear of my enemies.
But it wasn't easy. There
were times when I wanted
to give up, when the pain
and the struggle seemed too
much to bear. Times when I
wondered if it was all worth
it, if the life I was living
was the life I truly wanted.
But something inside me
refused to let go. A spark of
defiance, a flame of
determination that burned
brighter with each passing
day. And so I kept going,
kept fighting, kept pushing
forward no matter what.
And that's how I became a
gangster. Not overnight, but
over years of blood, sweat,
and tears. Over years of
hard-won battles and
harder-won lessons. I am
what I am today because of
what I've been through, and
I wouldn't change a thing.
In the darkest depths of
trauma and loss, l found the
strength to rise up again.
From the ashes of pain and
suffering, l emerged a
phoenix of resilience and
courage. Despite the scars of
rape and the heartbreak of
losing my unborn child, l
refused to be defined by my
tragedies. Instead, l found
love and support in the arms
of a devoted husband, the
embrace of loyal friends, and
the empowerment of my own
inner queen. I transformed
my suffering into a
testament of hope and a
beacon of light for others.
My story is a reminder that
even in the darkest
moments, there is always a
way forward, always a
chance to heal, and always an
opportunity to rise anew. I
am a queen, a warrior, and a
shining example of the human
spirit's capacity to overcome,
to thrive, and to reign
supreme. Strong woman is a
force of nature, unbreakable
and unshakeable. I am a
rock, a shelter, and a safe
haven. I have weathered
the storms, battled with my
enemies, and emerged
victorious every time. With a
heart of gold, a spirit of fire,
and a will of steel, l have
conquered the impossible,
shattered the glass ceiling,
and paved the way for
others to follow. I am a
symbol of hope, a beacon of
light, and a reminder that
strength and beauty are not
mutually exclusive. In a world
that often seeks to break
me, l remain unbroken. In a
society that tries to silence
me, l refused to be quiet. I
am a strong woman, and l will
not be defeated. I will rise, l
will thrive, and l will reign
supreme.
From bottom to top, I made
it out alive.
THE END♡

♡By: Mofokeng Natasha

Boitumelo♡