As someone who has chronic pain myself (in my neck/upper back/shoulders), sitting/standing "normal" is simply not comfortable. Putting weight on the bad side sometimes makes it temporarily better. Like Johnny bearing weight on his left arm when he's lounging around. Or the opposite. When he holds his weight across his shoulders, leaning on a wall, so that arm hangs.

Sitting/standing "weird" is sometimes the only way to be at ease too when you're someone who doesn't like to have a door at their back, or feels exposed without a solid object behind or beside them. Sitting on the back of the couch or other raised surfaces so you have a larger field of view.

You are important

The world would be a worse place without you in it

You matter

I care

There are other people who care

You will find people who care in this very thread

You matter more than you know

Don't give up on yourself

ALSO DRINK YOUR MEDS AND WATER and at least try to eat something today if you haven't already

If you can, please put one thing away, one clothing item in your closet, one piece of trash in the bin

You are doing good

Take care of yourself