I didn't even dream about being an actress. I always thought actresses were open and outgoing. I am totally shy! I was shaking at the MTV Awards! You know when you go through a car accident and you don't remember anything? That's how I felt after it was over. It's like I've never been there. When I was a model, I didn't do a lot of shows because of the audience. And I didn't audition for commercials because I was so scared.