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Wednesday, December 11, 2024

Pornhub's top search statistics (JKL)


Handsome murder suspect Luigi Mangione's new lawyer, Pornhub’s top searches, the Chanucorn and Hawk Tuah Girl!
(Jimmy Kimmel Live) Dec. 11, 2024: Pornhub has revealed its top searches for 2024, and there were some especially unusual searches, murder suspect Luigi Mangione has now lawyered up and fans of Luigi are offering to pay his legal fees, police in Altoona report that they’ve been getting threats from his supporters, and "The Chanucorn" (Hanukkah Unicorn Gary Greenberg) makes his return to announce his romantic holiday movie featuring the [crypto coin scam artist] Hawk Tuah girl! #Kimmel

Roast master comedian Nikki Glaser to host Golden Globes

Friday, December 6, 2024

Poem: Vimalā, stripper courtesan nun

Renounce bondage for freedom?

Intoxicated with my own beauty,
figure, appearance, fame,
and on account of my youth,
I looked down on others.

I adorned this pretty body,
the lament of fools,
stood at the brothel door,
a huntress setting a snare.

I was a stripper for them,
revealing enticing treasures.
Creating an intricate illusion,
laughing as I teased those men.

Today, having wandered for alms,
head shaved, clothed in ascetic robes,
I sat at the root of a tree to meditate;
I've gained freedom from thought.

All bondage fetters are severed,
both the human and the heavenly.
Having done away with all defilements,
I have become cooled and quenched.

Purified of defilements?
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We humans are full of defilements -- lust, annoyance, delusion (the Three Poisons of the heart/mind). How could ordinary folks ever get free, much less naughty sex workers entangled in all kinds of addiction, ego, hatred, and self-esteem issues? If only the Buddha had taught this world a path of purification.

American child sex star Brooke Shields

In the courtesan's mango grove
Dhr. Seven (trans.) based on Bhikkhu Sujato, "In Ambapālī’s Mango Grove" (SN 47.1)
Free of defilements, full of bliss
Thus have I heard. Once the Buddha was staying near Vesālī, in the rich courtesan Ambapālī’s mango grove. There he addressed the meditators, “Meditators!”

“Venerable sir,” they responded, and then he taught them:

“Meditators, four kinds of mindfulness meditation are the path to convergence, for the (self-) purification of beings, to get beyond sorrow and sadness, to make an end of pain and lamenting, to discover the Middle Way, and to realize the bliss of nirvana (cessation). What are the four?

“One meditates [and emerges] observing the body — keen, alert, and mindful, free of greed and grief regarding the world.

“One meditates observing feelings — keen, alert, and mindful, free of greed and grief regarding the world.

“One meditates observing the mind — keen, alert, and mindful, free of greed and grief regarding the world.

“One meditates observing phenomena — keen, alert, and mindful, free of greed and grief regarding the world.

Four kinds of mindfulness meditation are the path to convergence, for the purification of beings, to get beyond sorrow and sadness, to make an end of pain and lamenting, to discover the Middle Way, and to realize the bliss of nirvana.”

This is what the Buddha taught. Contented, the meditators rejoiced in his words.
  • Dhr. Seven (trans.), based on Bhikkhu Sujato (Thig 5.2: Vimalā Therīgāthā), "Vimalā, the Former Courtesan," Therigatha (Verses of the Enlightened Elder Nuns) 5.2

Wednesday, November 20, 2024

Ajahn Chah - Struggles - Sexual Desire


(dhammatube) Feb. 12, 2008: Battles to overcome sexual desire. All videos of this series are available at: ajahnchah.org/videos.htm

How to stop sexual thoughts in the mind | Buddhist story on how to control lust
(Words of Wisdom) April 13, 2024: Buddha Life Stories. If we keep thinking about sex all the time then we can become victims of hypersexuality. Hypersexuality can make us addicted to pornography and masturbation. But if we want to overcome excess sexual thoughts in our mind then here is advice.

This Buddhist story of a Zen master and a young boy can teach us how to overcome sexual thoughts in the mind. These wise tips of the Buddha can help us rid our minds and bodies of sexual addiction and masturbation.

#sexuality #lust #overcomeaddiction #howtocontrolmind #desire #controlemotions #buddhastory Twitter: wordsofwisdom_5 WOW Instagram: wordsofwisdom.motivation. Personal Instagram: shaill03 Facebook: words-of-wisdom-quotes-stories-11062425731... Explore the podcast 86 episodes Buddha Life Stories Words of Wisdom

Thursday, October 24, 2024

If only dating could be easy (video)


Why does dating in America have to be hard? Why can't it be easy? If only there were a way to be natural, like Zen, going with the flow (Tao), and just talking based on chemistry and attraction rather than secret agendas and mind games. Ah, but 'tis not so. It's a minefield, and all we can do is learn to be authentic with our virtue intact and in integrity.... Hey, what's your name, Baby? Like the shirt. Come here often? Was it something I said?

  • Stevie Emerson; PUA YouTube; Eds., Wisdom Quarterly

Friday, October 18, 2024

Primordial love/sex drive (Helen Fisher)


There are many kinds of attachment (upadana). The pursuit and clinging to sensual pleasures is very strong (although the strongest is probably attachment to views). It can be as strong as thirst (tanha). It serves a function, not for us who suffer it so much as the species or genes that perpetuate themselves into the future. (See The Selfish Gene on the scientific view of the impersonal nature of biology).

Love (the affection for clinging) is a drive, sex (the affection for pleasure) is a drive, and they are very powerful. What hope is there to overcome or undo them should they start to spread all out of control like fire and ruin our lives, bringing waves of torment and suffering? Things are all well and good when they are working out, but when they are not?

When things sour, then what? These are not conscious processes we have very much insight on. We live on autopilot, and they "happen" to us. Maybe that's okay for most people. But for those who would be free and make an end of all suffering in this very life?

Saturday, October 12, 2024

Getting ready for the Day of the Dead

(Mikey & Wyatt) Spring 2024: When You Catch Your Best Friend “Hanging Out” With Your Girlfriend because your best bud doesn’t want to cheat with your ex, but what choice is there when Eros or Cupid run the show and call the shots? Directed by Wyatt Gallitz (wyattgallitz). Written by Wyatt Gallitz and Mikey Brockmann. Director of Photography: Andrew Judge l (liltoasterofficial). Edited by Mikey Brockmann. Performed by Claire Rice (clairebellerice), Mikey Brockmann (mikeybrockmann), and Mitch McMahon (mitchm659).

It's spooky time in the capital of the world, Los Angeles/Hollywood. One can tell because it gets dark sooner and cools off at night, unlike the holy city of Phoenix that burns by day to arise at night still burning.

The Latin communities in both Southwest metropolises are working on those costumes and make up tutorials. It's not easy being a ravishing Catrina to his Mara (the King of Death, sometimes appearing as Skeletor and sometimes as Santa Muerte).

But Mara is an old foe in Buddhism -- the ender of everything, which could end in peace if it weren't for all that attachment. Mara Devaputra ("Death Born-among-angels"), like a cross between Cupid and Lucifer in the West (Kamadeva and Vemacritin in the East), encourages
  • sensuality
  • affection
  • attachment
  • grasping
  • clinging
all the things we "love" (in the lower, non-agape) and hold onto for dear life. If Cupid knocked on the door like black-eyed children, would we answer and let them in? Most of us would. What harm can Cupid do?

We love, we cling, it's normal or at least very usual and commonplace. English hardly has words for the problem. If we were speaking Ancient Greek or Sanskrit, it might immediately make sense.

We are not talking about healthy concern, affection (kindness and comfort), nurturing, compassion, joy in the joy of others, loving-kindness (metta). All of these are wonderful. What would life be without them?


But there's a dark side, a creepy side, a -- ugh -- clingy side. What depravity enters our lustful longings, what greed poisons our ambitions to succeed and be safe, to enjoy sensual pleasures and satisfy our wants. Fire good. It warms. Brushfire bad. It destroys. It isn't just the size. It's how it quickly gets out of all control.

When we started, it was just an itsy-bitsy straying. It's so hard to walk the narrow way. When we on full moon observance days begin to rein (reign) it in, we begin to cultivate the sort of karma (mental, verbal, and physical deeds) that bring about happiness.
What is "happiness"? It is that feeling of accomplishment for receiving what is welcome, pleasant, easy to endure. It's easy to distinguish from dukkha (disappointment or suffering), which is hard if not impossible to endure, most unwelcome and unpleasant.

"Karma" means what we do now conditions what comes about then. Now and then, now and then, even the then only really manifests now. And all the nows can be considered to previous thens to come.

Spooky. What will we wear? Will we win a prize? Will everyone look and point and smile? What about the real Day of the Dead when we die? That's unthinkable, the impossible possibility!

But at that time, the Buddha said, it's great to have a store of good karma (merit, punna) to fall back on.

It's like the old saying, "Q: When is the best time to plant a tree? A: Thirty years ago. Q: When is the second best time? A: Right now."

Tuesday, October 8, 2024

I think I'm falling in love, not my partner

Cupid (Kamadeva, Mara Devaputra, Eros) seems so cute and innocent.

I know it's love cause she starts looking like this.
These things indicate a love that is slowly dying. It’s often easy to tell when a relationship is totally falling apart because there will be obvious signs, but it’s less apparent if someone is slowly falling out of love with his or her partner.

Keep an eye out for these 12 behaviors, as they may indicate that your lover’s interest is cooling when you wish that it would burn forever with more and more intensity, like an endless honeymoon. But it burns, dwindles, until is burns out.
I know I'm in love because it's blissful (piti) like serene meditating only not as good.
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This is how I pictured us. Details schmeetails!
Am I falling in love, how can I know? Maybe this flower can tell me with its petals. They love me, they love me not, they love me, they love me not... Omens. Signs. Who can predict the future? But what if my partner is slowly falling out of love as the old lovespell is coming undone?

1. They’ll have less interest in intimacy and physical affection. That's one sign.

We were like cats in a cradle reaching Purvana.
One surefire way to determine whether someone is quietly falling out of love (even if you're falling more and more in love) is to pay attention to physical intimacy, or rather the lack of it.

Couples tend to grow less passionate after the "honeymoon period" has worn off. That's usual. But if intimacy has disappeared entirely, including hugging or handholding, that’s a big warning sign.
2. They mention feelings of being “trapped.” It's time for A Conscious Rethink. Feeling trapped rarely happens in the context of discussing a relationship, but a partner may drop hints about feeling trapped or caged in various aspects of life.

This may be accompanied by restlessness and frustration, leading to behaviors such as going for long drives or walks “just to get out.” 

3. There’s less communication than there used to be. When and if this person does communicate with a partner, rather than avoiding conversation, it seems distant and unresponsive than before.

Maybe it's just to get an answer instead of having a conversation, or it's a grunt, a lackluster response, rather than actually having a discussion about a topic. More: If someone is quietly falling out of love, they'll display these 12 behaviors
SUTRA: Falling Apart
Numerical Discourses, 6. Brahmins, Ven. Sujato (trans.); Dhr. Seven (ed.), Wisdom Quarterly
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Mara appears like an angel of light or monster
(AN 3.56) A rich Brahmin approached the Buddha. Sitting respectfully to one side, he said: “Master Gotama, I have heard that Brahmins of the past who were senior teachers-of-teachers, said:

“‘In the olden days this world was so full of people one would think they were squashed together. Villages, towns, and capital cities were no more than a chicken’s flight apart.’ What is the cause, sir, what is the reason why these days human numbers have dwindled, a decline in population is evident, and whole villages, towns, cities, and countries have disappeared?”

“Brahmin, nowadays humans love only illicit desires. They are overcome with immoral greed and are mired in wrong customs. Taking up knives, they murder each other, and many people perish. This is the cause, this is the reason why nowadays human numbers have dwindled.

“Furthermore, because nowadays humans love only illicit desires…the heavens [deva worlds on superior planes of existence] do not provide enough rain, so there’s famine, bad harvests, with blighted crops that shrivel into dry straw. And many people perish. This is the cause, this is the reason why nowadays human numbers have dwindled.

“Furthermore, because nowadays humans love only illicit desires…native spirits let vicious monsters [cryptids] loose. And many people perish. This is the cause, this is the reason why nowadays human numbers have dwindled.”

“Excellent, Master Gotama, excellent! …From this day forward, may Master Gotama remember me as a lay follower who has gone [to the Buddha, Dhamma, and Sangha] for refuge for life.” More: suttacentral.net

Thursday, October 3, 2024

Mormon Wives/10 Commandments (TV)


Ex-Mormon reacts to The Secret Lives of Mormon Wives
(Alyssa Grenfell) Sept. 12, 2024: Everyone said these women “aren’t that Mormon.” I jumped into the show and realized just how thoroughly Mormonism is dominating these women’s lives. Who was the favorite person on the show? It's the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints (LDS) not Mormonism.
  • [COMMENT: If Amish Mafia was fun, this show will seem like a blast, peering into the lives of sugar addicts going bonkers by taking prescribed drugs and excitotoxins killing off their neurons.]
Ex-Mormon reacts to standup comics George Carlin's 10 Commandments
(HailHeidi) Aug. 14, 2024: Thanks so much for watching this reaction and hearing me share my thoughts as a recovering Mormon. (Sound like comedian Carlin is a recovering Catholic). This bit made me laugh because it is thought-provoking. Thanks for the recommendation!
  • Original video credit: George Carlin - 10 Commandments
Socials: Twitch: hailheidi. Instagram: hailheidigaming. Discord: discord. Twitter: hailheidigaming. TikTok: hailheidi. #comedy #georgecarlin #reaction #funny #exmormon #standup
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Wednesday, October 2, 2024

Sex toys of the Secretum (British Museum)

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Would billionaires donate their toys?
The Secretum (Latin for "hidden away") was a British Museum collection of the 19th and early 20th centuries that held artifacts and images that were deemed sexually graphic.

Many of the items were phallic amulets, sexy charms, and votive offerings, often from pre-Christian traditions, including the worship of Priapus (constantly erect), a Greco-Roman god of fertility and male genitalia.

Newar Vajracharya priest, Nepal
Items from other cultures covered a wide range of human history, including ancient Egypt, the classical era Greco-Roman world, the ancient Near East, medieval England, sex-crazed Japan, and Kama Sutra India.

Many of the early donations or sales to the museum -- including those from the collectors Sir Hans Sloane, Sir William Hamilton, Richard Payne Knight, and Charles Townley -- contained items with erotic or sexually graphic images; these were separated out by museum staff and kept from public display.

Cupid, Kamadeva, Eros? Destroy this mad brute
Modern scholars believe the segregation was probably motivated by a paternalistic (in loco parentis) stance from the museum to keep what they considered morally dangerous material away from all except scholars and members of the clergy, who are very interested in sex and erotic material for coming closer to their God or gods or the children.

What materials and modern artifacts might be sent to the Secretum if the collection continued?
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Flute blowing Zen, Komuso
By the 1860s there were around 700 such items held by the British Museum. In 1865 the antiquarian George Witt donated his phallocentric collection of 434 artifacts to the museum, which led to the formal setting up of the Secretum to hold his penile collection and similar items.

The Secretum collection began to be gradually broken up in 1912, with the transfer of items into departments appropriate for their time frame and culture.

The last entry into the Secretum was in 1953, when the British Library found 18th-century condoms being used as bookmarks in a 1783 publication they held.

The last remaining items were moved out of the collection in 2005. More

Friday, September 27, 2024

Wendigo...Werewolves: 'W' flesh-eaters

This is a real Texas security cam image showing a witch skin-walker? Wendigo? Hoaxer? Dogman? Werewolf/wolfman cryptid with odd gait for a man in a costume? (magazine.todo)

Nothing to see here. Oh, that? That's just light and shadow illusion. Tree stump? Loose bark?
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The Buddha reasons with abusive Alavaka.
What does Buddhism know about cryptids? Buddhism, like the other older Dharmic religions Vedic Brahmanism (now morphed into Hinduism) and Jainism, have long history of acknowledging non-human creatures in, on, and above the earth. There are monsters, ogres, reptilians, shapeshifters, gnomes, fairies, avians, and giants (maras. yakkhas, nagas, petas, kumbhandas, bhumi-devas, garudas, and asuras respectively). Among these, the cannibal ghouls known as ogres (yakkhas, yakshas, rakshasas, yakshis, yetis) are very smart humanoid creatures.

Ancient Greek Dolon lycanthrope (lekythos)
They are able to communicate with humans, take human "wives," and be reasoned with except in their ferocity and rapacity. They are sometimes in possession of advanced ET technology and dwellings, with psychic powers and preternatural strength, fierce emotions and lust. They are very dangerous and liable to attack humans. The most famous one found in Buddhist sutras is the Yakkha Alavaka. Others dwell in the Himalayas and in woodland, forests, and wilderness areas.

Some Natives not only saw them, they interacted and sometimes intermarried. They're human.
Is the cryptid Yeti ("Asian Bigfoot") a man or a bear? It is a meh teh (a "man bear")
Joshua Cutchin/Timothy Renner
Dogmen (lycanthropes, humanoid wolves) are real, and the wendigo goes by many W names, according to different Algonquin tribes. Others may have the Sasquatch tribe (hominin cryptids) to contend with, some of which are cannibal rapists and skin-walkers. Not all Bigfoot are bad, just it seems the unattached juveniles wilding and running rampant in the forest, stealing food and violating boundaries.

Not simply an animal species
The elder yakkhas and rakshasas ("forest guardians," "nature protectors") -- with fierce females of the species, the yakshis and yetis -- can't always rein in the youths entering puberty or their rutting season and must cut them loose. They then violate a cardinal rule to avoid human tribes.

Because these creatures are not strictly flesh and bone but in possession of technology or the paranormal ability to transform into orbs, alight in the middle of a field after a long set of footprints or enter the earth through crevices, caves, caverns, tunnels, or straight into rock (as with the rock-dwelling Tahquitz), tracking them is dangerous and confounding. Search parties become cases of high strangeness.
Windigo: The Flesh-Eating Monster of Native American Legend | Monstrum
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Portals: Teleport in, phase shifted disappearances
(Storied) This cannibal monster (yakkha, yakshi, rakshasa, naga, yeti, sasquatch) hunts during the coldest time of the year, traveling with the snow to terrorize humans with its insatiable hunger.

Ignore folklore. Come into the woods 
Armed with sharp claws and teeth and capable of running with incredible speed, the wendigo, or windigo, is a lesson in excess and a manifestation of the anxieties that emerge in the harsh realities of winter — to survive it.

Explore the symbolic interpretations of the wendigo with Dr. Emily Zarka, who explains how this Native American legend can teach us about the spiritual beliefs and social values of the early indigenous peoples of North America.

Forest Service puts up joke signs, pamphlets?
#windigo #wendigo #cannibal #MonstrumPBS #wendigomovie #wendigoart 

Huge thanks to Dr. Will Oxford (Department of Linguistics at the University of Manitoba) for his time and assistance with the various pronunciations and spellings of the Algonquian languages used in this episode.

Islam knows wilderness monster jinn (djinn, genies)
Ancient Asian depictions of ogres (the jinn, djinn)


Killer origins of the werewolf | Monstrum
(Storied) Long before a full moon could transform a human into a beast, the werewolf (lycanthrope) was present across the literature, lore, and mythologies of ancient Europe. Whether a punishment for the wicked, a cure for the unlucky, or a blessing for the strong, the human to wolf shapeshifter is almost always violent. Real wolves posed a real threat to humans and their livestock, but how did these predators come to be associated with cannibalism, sorcery, and mental illness (lunacy)? The first in a two-part series, featuring werewolf expert and Gothic scholar Dr. Kaja Franck, this episode tackles the rise of the werewolf in its myriad forms, looking at what happened when Catholicism/Christianity interceded and turned the werewolf into the embodiment of evil — a change that reached its devastating climax with the persecution and execution of accused werewolves and the murder of countless wolves. #werewolf #mythology #werewolftrials #MonstrumPBS

The jinn are as real to Muslims as drags were to ancient Christians

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  • Written and hosted by Dr. Emily Zarka. Director: David Schulte. Executive Producer: Amanda Fox. Producer: Stephanie Noone. Illustrator: Samuel Allen. Editor: Produced by Spotzen for PBS Digital Studios. Instagram: monstrumPBS
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