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Before he put on that headset, things had already been going to shit.
Despite that, though, [REDACTED] had tried everything he could to be liked and adored by others, doing whatever it took to keep the attention on him for as long as possible.
It was too much. But he couldn't take the pain of being useless.
He needed to be there for others! To help where needed and to actually be wanted . What good could he possibly be, otherwise?!
He was the most aggravating people pleaser in existence.
And all for what? Some imaginary gain? It's not like anyone ever really liked him. They were all just taking advantage of his usefulness and kind nature.
That young man, he never says no when you ask him for a favor! Always looking out for others, what a great guy!
But no one would look out for him. The only one who had tried couldn't even look after themself…
It was no wonder then, was it?
On who he later found himself becoming after entering a completely different world.
Once he donned that headset and got strangely transported to this…odd, hellish circus realm? He couldn't do it anymore.
He just couldn't.
Why couldn't anyone ever see his pain? Why did people have to take and take and take from him? Repeatedly tugging him along for assistance, but never providing it when he’d ask? It wasn't fair….
It truly was no wonder, then.
That he broke down, losing sight of who he had once been.
Life had brought him constant suffering, barely allowing a moment of reprieve.
When was he gonna get saved? When was someone finally gonna rescue him? When was it his turn?
Clearly, no one would come for him…
And with that, a new thought formed in [REDACTED]’s mind.
If no one would be there for him, then…
Couldn't he be his own hero?
He didn't have to please everyone, not if it only led to bringing him more pain.
He could spit on everyone else's shoes, make the world pay for what it'd put him through.
He could take back all that kindness he'd gifted to others, and blow it up in their stupid fucking faces!
And maybe in the process….
While ruining others to the same point they had ruined him….
Perhaps then he could save himself. Maybe then he'll finally be happy?
All he needed was to avenge himself. And then, only then, could he find his long sought peace.