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I slowly opened my eyes, adjusting them to the sunlight shining through my curtains. I turned my ahead around to look at the alarm clock on my dresser. It was 9 a.m., and I sat up waiting for the call I got every morning for the past 2 years. 2 years ago, I woke up to heavy energy, and ever since then, I have been getting these calls and inner voices telling me I need to be at a specific place every morning.

Today was the library, "interesting," I think to myself. I was just here 3 days ago. Sometimes, I find myself being in the same places back to back. I quickly jotted it down into my journal, I would always keep note of every place I go in case it means something important in the future. I quickly get up to get ready, as in the shower, brush teeth, and skin care. I went through on a hoodie and some baggy jeans and headed out the door.

I had a car, but the library was only about 3 blocks down, so I decided to enjoy a walk. 15 minutes later, I arrived at the local library. I walked inside and checked myself in, I found a random book and took it to an empty table. I usually never thoroughly observe the places I end up at, but something was telling me I should get up and look around. I decided to sit at the table for a bit and see if anything happened first. I ended up reading my book as I didn't want to look weird sitting here. It was maybe 20 minutes, and nothing was happening.

I stood up and started to walk around the seating area first. When I saw no one special or nothing happened, I decided to walk through the aisles to see if there was anything there. I started with the ones near me, there were a few people every other aisle but no one or anything standing out. I then kept going farther and farther, minutes with no luck on finding anything standing out. I decided to leave. I reached my last aisle, and there was no one there, I sighed and looked for an empty space to place my book to leave. As I reach to put my book in the space, I was stopped.

"Oh, your book doesn't belong here, I can take it to its correct place for you," the most beautiful tone of voice I ever heard spoke, I looked to my left and saw the prettiest man I ever layed eyes on. Unlike everyone in the library wearing dark colored clothing, he had fluffy blonde hair and wearing a white baggy shirt with baggy light blue jeans. I had wondered if I ever saw him anywhere. He almost had a familiar energy that I had felt before.

"Um, hello? Are you just going to stand there and stare?" The boy said I didn't even notice myself staring, I immediately broke out of my trance,

"Ah, uh, um, sorry," I managed to get out, but his beauty made me speechless,

"I'll just take your book and leave you to it," the boy said, grabbing my book from my hands. He smiled at me and walked away. As he walked away, I immediately broke trance and slapped myself lightly for making a complete fool for myself. I couldn't even ask his name because I was just staring. I tried to follow his steps, but it was no use it seemed that he just disappeared. I sighed and just decided to leave home. As I walked home, I tried to see if maybe he had left into one of the shops or was walking nearby, but there was no sign of him.

Once I got home, I placed all my things down. How could I let someone like him just escape out of my sight. Out of these past 2 years, nothing or anyone I saw ever stood out or had an unusual energy like today. I decided to write into my journal about who I saw. Once I was done, all I could do was think about him. I needed to find him. I took my phone and scrolled through social media for hours. In the end, I still couldn't find him. I looked at the time. Was it evening already?

"Time flies by way too fast," I say to myself. I got up to make dinner, and I decided on some spicy noodles to take my mind off the boy I saw at the library. While I was making my dinner, I didn't even notice my phone ringing. As I plate dinner and grab my phone, I saw the missed call. It was my mom. She called me maybe once a month to check in on me. I called her back immediately.

"Jungkook-ah, how are you?? Is everything okay??" My mom immediately checked in on me,

"Yes, mom, I'm doing okay. Sorry I didn't answer earlier, I was making dinner," I told her,

"Oh okay, I was worried for a moment you never missed any calls the past few years, well I won't hold you long, just wanted to make sure everything was okay, have you met anyone? You are always so lonely," my mom said again, nagging me on about a relationship,

"Yes, mom, I'm okay, and no mom, I haven't met anyone, I told you I am waiting for the perfect person," I said. Suddenly, I got flashbacks to the boy I saw in the library,

"I know, I know, just want the best for my son, miss you a lot, hope one day you can move back," my mom said with a more saddened tone. She always wanted to move back to the jeon mansion. I liked my life the way it was, though, no worries, no media, no automatically being taught to run a company, just free control on life in my apartment. I had always told her I would move back if it was the right time,

"Mom, you know I like my life here, but if timing is okay, I promise to come back," I told her,

"Okay, my son, I miss you and make sure to stay healthy, I love you," she told me,

"I love you too, mom. I will, goodbye," I ended the call. She was always sweet but very persistent, but hey, I am my mother's son. I ate my dinner while watching one of my favorite shows, I debated if I should clean my home. I decided to as I had nothing else to do, I don't go to school or work. I just live life. I started with the kitchen, the living room, the guest bathroom, then my room and my personal bathroom. It took me 2 hours, but I was done. I did my best to keep things neat. Cleaning was never my favorite. It was the only thing I missed living at my parents' home.

When I was finished, I also cleaned myself up and headed out onto my patio. I stared at the city just thinking, my mind naturally shifting to the blonde boy I saw at the library,

"Great, he's stuck in my mind, and I let him go before I could get a name," I ranted to myself. Living alone means a lot of talking to myself,

"He could be anywhere out there, I really lost this chance," I say to myself, I sit down on the chair that is there on my patio. I prayed to the universe that it would let me find him again. It was something about him that I just needed to know who he was. I go inside to go to sleep. I put my phone to charge and tried to sleep, but all I could think about was how I just stood there and made a fool out of myself in front of the prettiest man I ever saw. I put some rain noises onto my tv, which finally allowed me to sleep. I could only hope the universe could listen to my one prayer and find me the blonde boy from the library today.

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The next day, I woke up, I slowly opened my eyes as usual and checked the time. It was 8 am. I sat up, but something felt different. There was a shift of energy. It was almost as the heavy energy around me the last 2 years had become lighter. Usually, by now, I would be called somewhere, but it seemed like there was nothing. I anxiously got out of bed to get ready for the day. I shower, brush my teeth, and do my skin care. While I throw on a comfortable outfit, I suddenly was hit with that heavy energy and was called to the cafe in the local plaza.

This made me confused, I go here all the time. Why would the universe call me late today to somewhere I go so often. I sighed as I put my shoes on and grabbed my car keys. I headed out of my apartment to my car, and the plaza was maybe about a 15-minute drive. When I arrived I parked my car somewhat near the cafe and made my way inside. I decided that since I was here, I should order something. I stood in line, there was about 3 people in front of me. I already knew what I wanted since I came here often, but I naturally glanced at the menu.

My eyes made their way down to observe the workers. Out of all the dark-haired workers, there was one blonde who's stood out from the rest. He was turned around, but when he turned back around to take the next persons order, I recognized that face so fast. It was the boy from the library yesterday. I started unconsciously patting down my clothes and fixing up my hair. The 3 people in front of quickly took their orders, and it was my turn. I wondered if he always worked here, I have been here so often how could I have not noticed him. For the first time, I was nervous to order something.

"Hello, what would you like to order?" The blonde boy asked me, I almost got too nervous to answer, but I couldn't make a fool out of myself like the library,

"Um, hello, I will get my usual," I said, then immediately wanted to bury myself into the ground. He wasn't the usual person who took my order, so why did I say that,

"Sorry, I never took your order before, so I don't know what that is, but...are you from the library the other day? When I asked to put away your book?" The blonde boy asked, he remembered me? I smiled at that,

"Ah yes, sorry for freezing on you. I....I don't talk to many people," I looked down at his name tag, "You're name is Jimin? My name is Jungkook," I said. He smiled at me, and I melted inside,

"Yes, I am Jimin. Nice to meet you, Jungkook. Now, what can I get you today?" Jimin asked me softly,

"I'll just get an iced white mocha and blueberry muffin with none of the sugar stuff on top," I said, I watched as he entered it onto his screen,

"Okay, perfect, that will be 10,000 won," Jimin said, and I handed over exact cash so I wouldn't get any change back.

"It should be done in no more than 10 minutes," He said, I smiled and thanked him, slightly bowing. I stood on the side and watched him work. There was no other in line after me, so he helped work on the orders. I was slightly happy that he could recognize me and was also very happy that I could figure out his name. Thank you, universe, for listening to my prayer. I watched as he finished 2 drinks effortlessly, then went to the back and came out with a blueberry muffin. All the ones behind the glass were sugared, so they always needed to make a fresh one. It was a trick I always did.

I watched Jimin as he placed it in a paper packaging and grabbed my drink,

"For Jungkook," He called out, I smoothed my clothes out and walked up to grab my order,

"Your iced white mocha and muffin," Jimin smiled at me, giving me my order.

"Thank you so much," I said, taking my order and finding anything empty table. I won't lie. I usually leave straight away after grabbing my order, but something made me want to stay in Jimin's presence. I took a sip of my coffee and looked up to see Jimin taking someone's order. He looked really cute his apron. His hair looked so soft. I could see he had light makeup to enhance his features. Jimin was really such a pretty man. His smile when taking orders could solve anyone's problems. He was someone you could admire all day.

I realized I probably sound very creepy and shouldn't stare so long. I would leave after finishing my coffee and muffin. I was maybe there for 15 more minutes, slightly admiring Jimin, but also didn't want to be too obvious or look like I was stalking him. I threw my things away and made my way out. As I walked to my car, something made me want to go back inside to be in Jimin's presence. His energy was positive and bright. It made my day to be near him.

"Why am I being called to him all of a sudden? And what was up with the schedule mess up?" I think to myself, it was weird how everything felt different just from bumping into Jimin yesterday in the library. Something about Jimin felt different, two years of showing up to random places with nothing making affecting me, but suddenly I found him, and everything is just a different energy. I get in my car and drive home.

I didn't have anything else to do that day, so when I got home, I just tidied my home up and plopped onto my bed. I grabbed my journal to write down that I was called late to the cafe today and also to write my experience towards Jimin. I spent the rest of my day watching some show and ordering takeout for dinner. I didn't have many friends being honest growing up, I am only close with family and maybe 1 friend. I was also still very anxious about the fact I was called later than usual.

What was the universe planning to do with my life, and why did it seem that Jimin might have a lot to do with it? I started to get a small headache with all these sudden thoughts and changes. I cleaned up my food and shut the tv off. I cleaned myself up as well as changed my clothes and tucked myself in bed. I wanted to just sleep off everything, I also hoped that once I woke up, things could be back on track, and maybe I could find answers for all of this another day.

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The next morning, I woke up and was hit with a strong energy. I was already being called to go to a park that was near the beach. I checked the time and saw it was 9 am. I sighed and got up, I got ready fast to make my way out. It was almost as if I was being pulled out the door. I wondered why it was so urgent to go there. I hopped into my car and made my way towards the park. I relied on my intuition to get there. I have been to this park 2 times in my childhood, so I hoped I was taking the right way.

It took me about 20 minutes, but I was able to make it. This park was very long. It was a good place to bike or go on a run with the sight of the ocean and pretty grass and flowers. I walked along the pathway, looking around the park to see if I could find anything that stood out. I walked down for about 5 minutes and saw him, Jimin. He was alone, but he looked peaceful. It seemed he was having some picnic alone. I didn't know him well enough to go up to him, but it felt right to be there.

I realized I was standing on the pathway, so I found a random bench, and I went to go sit on it so I wasn't in the way. I decided to just observe Jimin for a bit, I didn't want to be creepy like when I was at the cafe yesterday, so I would glance at my phone from time to time. It felt like I was sitting there for 10 minutes, but I saw Jimin packing up and realized it had been an hour. I watched him pack up, and when he was done, I got up myself to leave. I don't know why I stayed the entire time to watch him, but it just felt right to stay near his presence.

Jimin had to walk towards me to get onto the path that could take him to the parking lot. When I saw him walk this way, I panicked, I didn't know whether If I should greet him or quickly walk away. I ended up freezing and made eye contact with him. I looked weird just standing there, so I faked making a call. Jimin just smiled at me and waved. I, of course, waved back at him. Seeing his smile made me automatically smile as well. Jimin continued walking down the path. He stood out like an angel among all the people. He was truly an eye capturing human being.

I moved off to the side and leaned on the wall, and stared at the ocean for a while. I haven't been here in so long, though there were a lot of people it was mostly quiet. I enjoyed the ocean for a while and decided to head back. Jimin should have left already, so there should be no problems. As I made it to my car, I couldn't help but think if I should have talked to him or not. I reckoned that since we aren't close that it wasn't a problem at all.

I got into my car and made my way home. When I got home, I immediately wrote into my journal about my day before I forgot to later. As I rethink my day, the image of Jimin smiling at me and waving made me smile to myself. Immediately afterward, I catch myself smiling,

"What is wrong with me?" I think outloud to myself. I don't even know this man that well. Why does he have this effect over me? I put my journal down, and I get up to go take a nap. I just needed some sleep to take my mind off the fact that this man is always in my mind. When I woke up, it was evening already, I decided I should make some dinner instead of takeout today. I decided to fry some samgyeopsal and bulgogi. I prepared the side dishes such as kimchi, lettuce leaves, perilla leaves, and some sauces. My mom recently sent me some japchae and fried rice, so I heat those up and prepared them on plates.

I took out my barbecue setup and got to frying. I started with the samgyeopsal as it took longer to cook. When each piece was ready, I would just eat off the grill. Same with the bulgogi. After I was finished, I quickly cleaned up. I realized my trash was full, so I needed to go take it out downstairs to the dumpster. I slipped on my slippers and made my way out downstairs. As soon as I stepped out of my door, I felt a soft energy. It was a familiar energy like how I feel around Jimin. I looked around me, but there was no one. As soon as I left the floor, the energy was suddenly gone.

"That's weird. Just this morning, when I stepped out my home, nothing even happened," I say quietly to myself. When coming back upstairs after taking the trash out, everything felt normal. As soon as I reached my floor again and stepped out of the elevator, there was that soft energy again. It would intensify the closer I got towards my door. I was confused. There was nothing around me. Why was I feeling like this? I decided to ignore it for now, and I went back into my apartment.

Suddenly, Jimin came to mind. Why was he on my mind again? I keep thinking about how whenever I am near his presence, I feel almost at peace. Did this mean anything? Why did I feel like this? Is his presence supposed to be significant to me? Though I never mean to, I always overthink the most right before I want to sleep. I looked at the time it was almost 10:30 pm. I took a nap, so going to sleep now might be a bit hard. I decided to clear my mind and play some video games before sleeping.

And while gaming for 2 hours took my mind off of life, as soon as I jumped into bed, my mind wondered off into my thoughts again. Of course, the main attraction is Jimin. I saw this man 3 times, but he is anything I ever think about now. How important exactly was this man supposed to be to me. I mean, I saw and met many gorgeous boys and girls, but there was something about him. Slowly, but surely, I was able to drift into sleep, falling asleep to overthinking about my interaction with Jimin.

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The next morning, I woke up exactly at 8 am. Being told to go grocery shopping. I haven't been grocery shopping in a month, so I was a little shocked. I grabbed my journal that was on my nightstand and quickly wrote it down, I then got up to get ready like usual. After doing my routine, I chose some baggy jeans and a t-shirt.

I walked onto my balcony to see if it was a cold or warm morning. It was warm, like expected in the summer. I put my shoes on and exited my apartment. I shut my door and turned around slightly to make sure my door was locked.

When I looked up, I saw the person across of me locking their door, too. When the person turned around, I realized if it was Jimin, he was living across of me this entire time? Jimin looked up and smiled at me,

"Oh, Jungkook, right? I never knew you lived here," Jimin greets me,

"Oh hey Jimin! Ah yeah, I didn't know you lived here as well, especially across of me," I reply him,

"That's an amazing coincidence. Where are you headed off to?" Jimin asks me,

"I'm going to head to the grocery store right now, the one nearby here," I tell him,

"Oh! Me too! That's another amazing coincidence. Do you want to walk together? Only if you're uncomfortable, I know we haven't had time to get to know each other yet," Jimin asks me, I was taken aback at the sudden request,

"Oh sure! I wouldn't mind walking with you," I couldn't pass up the request walking with this pretty man. He smiled at me and told me we should go. I followed him into the elevator, and we headed down to the lobby. We started making our way to the grocery store. It was only about 3 blocks away, so we should be able to get there quickly. He told me a few things about work, how someone got fired, and there was almost a fight. I was glad he felt comfortable around me to tell me these things. We reach the grocery store,

"Well, if you have to do your grocery shopping, you can go ahead. If you want, we can meet back here and walk back together," Jimin said,

"Oh well, I can help you shop, I'll see if I pick up anything on the way, I only came here to see if I needed anything, really," I told him, he smiled at me and nodded as he pulled out a cart,

"Your choice, I could use the extra help actually to grab some cases of drinks. They are usually the heaviest walking home," Jimin said, I smiled at that and followed behind him. Though there were only about 1 inch in height between us, I thought it was so cute. I loved how he wasn't afraid to tell me what to do or if I could grab him something. It was like we knew each other for years. I helped him grab some 4 packs sodas and juices he wanted.

I didn't find anything in particular I wanted to take home, so I kept following behind Jimin and helping him. He looked really cute shopping and reading the labels. It felt nostalgic like I was with my mom shopping being bored, waiting to move to the next aisle. We finally checked out and started to make our way home. I helped him with the heavier things so he wouldn't be too tired. As we were walking home, Jimin continued to tell me about his work.

"So what about you?" Jimin asked me,

"What do you mean?" I told him confused,

"You know, work? I'm over here ranting about my life but didn't even ask about you," he told me, I looked down. I wasn't working, but I couldn't tell him where I really came and get income from, so I decided to lie to save myself.

"I just do a work from home job, gives me enough to pay rent, so I stick with it," I feel bad lying but I don't know the kind of person Jimin is yet. I want to get to know him really well before I can tell him my real past,

"I see, I always wanted a work from home job but then I wouldn't be able to tell stories like the ones I told you," Jimin said giggling a little, I could sense the sarcasm making me smile and little too. I looked over back at Jimin. He looked very pretty, I could never get over his beauty. I hoped it was just the same inside. I noticed how he was walking near the road, I quickly moved behind him and pushed him to the right so I could take his place.

"Oh! You didn't have to do that," Jimin said,

"It's okay, it's only right, someone like you shouldn't have the higher chances of danger," I told him. He smiled and looked down. I could see a tint of blush on his cheeks, I thought that was so cute of him. We reached the apartments and went up to our level.

"My apartment isn't clean and wouldn't like you to see that. You can leave the bags here, and I can come back for them," Jimin told me,

"You sure? I wouldn't mind," I told him truthfully,

"Yes, I just don't like people seeing my apartment a mess," Jimin said,

"If that's what you insist, I won't fight it," I said, I didn't want to fight him on this, it would also be weird to try to push my way into his apartment. I left the bags by his door,

"Thank you for helping me," Jimin said,

"No problem, if you ever need assistance, I will gladly help," I told him. He smiled, and I walked inside my apartment. Once I closed my door, I sighed and smiled to myself. I went to my journal to write down the events that had happened. As I wrote everything down, I would replay each moment in my head. He was truly an interesting human being. Once I was done, I placed the journal down and decided to eat something as I couldn't that morning.

As I sat down to eat, all I could think about was Jimin. Spending this morning with him made me want to be closer to him. Every moment near him made me feel like everything was perfect at that moment. Each bite of food I took was each thought of Jimin. I started to realize that I might be starting to catch feelings. Though I always knew I was bisexual, this would be the first time I ever liked a man. I started to panic a little, I had no idea what to think. What if he wasn't even into men?

The entire rest of the day all the way up until I was in bed, all I could think was about him. As I got into a comfortable position in bed, I was able to finally slowly but surely shut my eyes. As I tried to fall asleep, I heard some noises outside. It was faint but hearable. It went on for a few minutes, so before Jimin could take over my mind again, I quickly grabbed my ear plugs and finally fell asleep wondering what tomorrow had planned for me.

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I woke up, it was late morning, about 10 pm. I never woken up this late before. I sat up waiting for something, but nothing. I assumed that maybe the universe wanted to send me somewhere late again. I went to get ready, feeling lighter than the usual. This made me feel a bit anxious. When I finished getting ready, there was nothing still. Usually, when I'm anxious, I can't eat, I sit on my couch sighing. I mean, maybe I could be called at night? I wanted to make any excuse I could to calm myself down.

I wanted to go to Jimin's door to see if he had there. His presence usually calms me down. I realized he possibly could have gone to his job, I also didn't want to bother someone who I didn't even ask to be friends with. I eventually was able to calm down and heat up some leftovers to eat. I stayed in my apartment all day, waiting for anything to happen. I paced around back and forth, cleaned, napped, and it was already night with nothing. This started to make me very anxious.

For these past 2 years, this has never happened to me. As well as I never felt such light energy. I changed into some new clothes and lay on my bed. Did I achieve what I needed to achieve? Or did I do something wrong that stopped whatever these calls were. I stayed up until 12 a.m., and I wanted to make sure I didn't miss anything. I was able to fall asleep despite my mind being very anxious. I never sleeped late often, so I was tired.

The next morning, it was 9 am, nothing again. No energy change, not even a slight call to anywhere, just the same emptiness. What was going on? Something felt so off about this. I didn't do anything in particular, I could think of leading up to this, so what is happening? The entire day was exactly the same as the day before, except I was left more anxious than before. I lay in bed overthinking. What if I accomplished what I needed to accomplish, but I didn't recognize what it was?

My mind was flooded with thoughts, I looked over at the clock. It was almost 1 am. I needed to get sleep before I pulled an all-nighter and go back to my old life before these calls started happening. I shut my eyes. It felt like an hour before I could finally sleep, but I managed to eventually drift into sleep. Once I woke up, I already had low expectations for anything, but I did notice a shift in energy. I shrugged it off and got ready.

I didn't have many friends but was very close to the ones I have. I decided to make plans and go meet up one of them at a cafe. I texted him to make sure he was free, and he agreed to meet up at noon. I woke up at 10 am again today. It was almost noon, so I slipped my shoes on and headed out to my car. The cafe was pretty far, almost 30 minutes away, as it's near a beach across town. We both specifically like this cafe for the view. I arrived right at noon, I walked into the cafe and chose a seat near the window. I waited about 5 minutes and saw him walk through the door,

"Hey, Taehyung, it's been quite a while," I said, greeting my friend,

"Hey Jungkook, I know, right? I've been so busy lately because of work, but I have been able to get most of everything done," Taehyung told me,

"That is good for you! I have not been doing much lately, honestly," I truthfully told him, I couldn't think of anything to say, so I just said the truth,

"You always say that every time we meet, I guess if I was rich to I would be doing nothing as well," Taehyung said, giggling. I just smiled back,

"Haha, yeah, I mean, I have been taking an interest in someone lately, but it's still fresh, so I will give it some time then explain in detail," I said, Tae just nodded,

"I'll go order for us. Do you want your usual?" Tae asked me, I nodded at him and left to go order. Suddenly, I felt another shift in energy, a heavier one than usual. I tried to shrug it off while Taehyung walked back to the table,

"They will come serve it us in a few minutes," Taehyung told me, and I just nodded. While we waited for our orders, Taehyung told me various things of his life. While the waiter came and placed out orders down, I was suddenly getting an urge to go to the hospital down the street,

"Tae, I'm, I'm so sorry I need to go," I said and got up to leave, I noticed the waiter just stepping back wondering what was going on,

"Jungkook, where are you going?" Taehyung almost yells out,

"I'm sorry I need to leave. I'll text you later," I looked back at him and said as I made my way to the door to leave. They hospital was only down the street, so I would come back to grab my car later. I quickly made my way, I really hoped it was nothing serious. When I got there, I slowly walked inside, trying not to look weird, I sat in the waiting room like I knew what I was doing. In reality, I had no idea why I was supposed to be here.

I sat here for a good 10 minutes, I knew I was getting anywhere with sitting here, so I walked to the bathroom to see if I could see anything else, the bathroom was near a walkway. As I walked to the bathroom, I saw a doctor stop a nurse to discuss a file. Being the nosy person I am, I walked to the water fountain right next to the bathroom to get water as I listened in,

"How's the patient in room 30? Park Jimin, it says here, I heard he got some surgery done a couple of hours ago," the doctor said,

"Oh yes, he's doing better. That accident seemed really bad, but that surgery really saved his life. He isn't awake currently, and probably not until early morning tomorrow. It seems he had some brain trauma as well," the nurse explained, I fixed my posture and looked towards them. Park Jimin? Is that my Jimin? I started to freak out mentally,

"Jimin....room 30," I whisper to myself, I looked at the signs and saw the where rooms 30-45 were, and quickly sneak my way in. When I reached the 4th floor, room 30 was the first room on the left, I slowly walked up and peaked inside. He saw in the far right corner a blonde boy,

"It's really Jimin," I whisper to myself, concerned, I turned around for a second, and a doctor noticed me and came up to me,

"Are you family of Park Jimin?" The doctor asked me, I really wanted to check on Jimin, so I lied,

"Ah, yes, I am....close cousin," I tried to say as smoothly as possible,

"Ah, okay, come in. He's in a way better condition after surgery. He should wake up early tomorrow," the doctor said,

"Feel free to stay as long as you, there is the extra bed if you want to stay the night, I won't come in until dawn just to check his levels," I nodded at his words and stood next to Jimin's bed he was on,

"I'll be back later," the doctor said, walking out and closing the door behind him, I looked at Jimin on the bed. I didn't know what to think, we weren't close but we weren't strangers. I also started to take an interest in him, too. Jimin had scars and stitches over his face, I looked at his arms, more wounds. I felt helpless looking at him. I took my hand and ran my fingers through his hair to move the strands of his blonde hair out of his face. Despite being injured, he always looked the most beautiful.

I pulled out a chair and placed it next to his bed. I lowered the little railing and rested my hand onto his arm. I hoped he would be okay tomorrow morning and wake up when he was supposed to. It was maybe 1 pm. I didn't have anything to do but I decided to get my car and park it at the hospital. I told the doctor, who gladly understood. When I reached back to the cafe , I noticed that Taehyungs car had left. I felt bad for ditching him, but I'm also glad I did. I got into my car and headed back to the hospital.

Hours passed, and it was 9 pm. I ate the cafeteria food, and they also provided me with a toothbrush to brush my teeth, which I gladly accepted. The doctor let me in the room and made sure to close the door as he walked out. I sat in the chair next to his bed. I stared at him for a while, I felt bad he had to go through whatever accident he faced. As I sat down next to him, I ended up naturally laying onto his bed while holding onto his arm. I eventually fell asleep in this position.

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I slowly opened my eyes, I felt a blanket, I guess I sleeply ventured to the extra bed. I grabbed my phone and saw it was a bit past 6 am. This is one of the earliest times I have woken up. I sat up, grabbing the water bottle on the nightstand to chug down after feeling a bit dry. I looked at Jimin sleeping peacefully on the bed, I somehow felt I was at the right place I needed to be. The energy felt right, being near Jimin felt right.

I went to brush my teeth and run water over my face. As soon as I came back, I saw Jimin shift in his sleep and slowly open his eyes. I watched as he kept blinking his eyes to gain consciousness again. Jimin then looked over my way, and he slightly gasped,

"Jungkook! What are you doing here??" Jimin slightly raised his voice in shock at me,

"Oh, I was just visiting someone else and heard your name, so I came to check on you," I slightly lied the best I could, I didn't want him to know I stayed overnight.

"Oh, I see. Um, thanks for that," Jimin told me,

"Oh, let me get you a doctor since you are awak-" I said, but suddenly got cut off,

"Oh wait! Don't go yet, I just woke up, I don't want to talk to any doctor just yet," Jimin said, sitting up on his bed.

"Ah, okay," I say, sitting down in the chair next to his bed, "So... May I ask what happened? You don't have to say if you're uncomfortable," I tell him. He looked at me and then looked down. There was silence for a few minutes, then he spoke up,

"I was in the car driving with my friend, suddenly he randomly confessed to me, but I rejected him, I guess was super obsessed with me and went crazy then crashed into a building, the car was catching on fire but I was able to get out, once I got out he unfortunately didn't make it as the car had a mini explosion causing a bigger fire," Jimin explained to me.

I looked down, nodding, "I see, I am glad you are okay, I can't believe people can be mentally unstable to the point they will crash their own car," I said, he just nodded and agreed to my words. Just after that, a doctor came into the room,

"Oh good, you both are up. I'm glad to see your levels are stable, I have all your files here. You will need to stay at the hospital for 2 more days. We just need to make sure your body is well and you can go home," the doctor told us, we both nodded,

"Um, you sir, I never caught your name, may I ask what it is?" The doctor asked me,

"Um, it's Jungkook," I told him. He just nodded and wrote something down,

"Well, you can stay if you want. It will probably be pretty boring, though you're calling. I'll take these files downstairs, I'll come later to do some tests," the doctor said, turning around to walk out of the room. I realized I shouldn't stay here, I looked at Jimin and decided I should leave and go home,

"Well Jimin, I have some things to do, I will head home now," I said, grabbing my phone and charger. I didn't come with anything else or any other clothes anyway, so I should head home and shower,

"Wait, Jungkook! I wanted to ask, um, can I get your number? I noticed we never exchanged numbers despite always running into each other," Jimin asked me, I hesitated for a bit then just nodded at him, I walked up to him taking his phone and typing my number in,

"Here, I just called myself, so the number should be there, I'll get going now, see you later," I said, smiling and waving at him. He smiled and waved back. I loved to see him smile. It was one of the prettiest ones I have ever seen. I left and went into my car, I noticed walking away that the energy felt different, but I know I can't just stay there with him for the next 2 days as we barely even know each other. I also don't want his family to be startled if they come visit him.

When I got home, I plopped onto my couch and sighed. Would I be called to the hospital for the next 2 days? I mean, it seemed like my world revolves around him ever since I met him. I didn't want to go back, though. We don't even know each other well enough for me to care this much. I shook my head and got up to go shower. I guess we will see what happens the next two days.

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The next morning, I seemed to wake up at 10 am. I sat up slowly and checked my phone, I saw a message from a random number. I opened it up, and it read, "Hey, this is Jimin. I'm just checking to see if this is the right number for Jungkook!" My eyes widened, and I sat up all the way, I didn't expect a sudden message from Jimin, I quickly saved his contact since I forgot to the day before, I already opened the message so I need to respond,

"Oh yes, this is Jungkook. You are all good." I typed out and sent it to Jimin. I got out of bed to get ready, usually by this time I would be called somewhere, but it seemed that staying home felt right today. I went to find my notebook and write that down. I never stay home, so I had no idea what to do this day. I decided to clean my entire house and binge watch some shows. The next day, it was the same, called to stay home.

I found it a bit surprising, I thought I would be called to Jimin. I started to wonder why should I stay home? I ended up being bored, so I took a walk and decided to get groceries as I ended up not getting anything when I went with Jimin. Nothing happened that day again. I started getting a bit confused. My days have always had something going on for the past 2 years. Why did time just feel slow today?

The next day, I woke up and got that familiar energy I have been wanting. Today, I was called to the library. As usual, I sat up and wrote that down into my notebook. I stood up and went to get ready. Everything went smoothly as usual. I put on my shoes and grabbed my phone, ready to go out. All of a sudden, I get a notification. I never really get any messages from anyone, not even my own family. Confused, I opened my phone and saw a message from Jimin.

My eyes widened, I was shocked he actually would want to message me. I opened the message and was surprised to read what he sent,

"Hey Jungkook, I hope this isn't bothering you. My family is located in Busan, and my friends all work. I was wondering, since we live in the same building, would you mind picking me up from the hospital?" I stood there standing still. He was asking me to pick him up? I hesitated for a bit, I only ever broke a call once when my mom wanted me to go on a blind date. Other than that, I never ever ignored the universe. Would it be okay if I missed it this one day? I stood there overthinking. What should I do? I finally made my choice, I started texting back,

"I'm free, you aren't bothering me, I'll come right now, be there in 30." I sent the message, I grabbed my keys from the kitchen and headed out. I hope I was making the right choice. I don't like to mess with my life and daily routine, but how could I say no to Jimin? When I arrived, I walked in and saw Jimin in the waiting room with a doctor.

"Jungkook! Good to see you. Let me just check out," Jimin said, I just smiled and nodded. I was glad that the accident didn't seem to affect him in the slightest bit. After a few minutes, he came back to me, and we left to go home.

"I see you are doing pretty well! Are you in any pain at all?" I asked him,

"Not really. Of course, I apply too much pressure somewhere. It will hurt, but it seemed I healed pretty fast," he told me, I just nodded and continued driving,

"Um, do you want to listen to any music?" I asked him,

"It's up to you! I don't mind sitting in silence or with music," he said, I just nodded and decided to shuffle a random playlist. I thought sitting in silence would be too awkward. When we arrived back to our apartments, I could tell Jimin was struggling just a bit, but he was trying to hide it. I quickly got out and went to his side of the car and opened his door,

"Let me help you, I can tell you seem to still be hurting a bit," I told him,

"No, really, I can - " I cut him off, I didn't want to hear him pretend he's completely okay, I grabbed his arm and helped him out,

"Thank you," he said,

"Let me help you all the way up," I told him, I saw as he nodded, accepting the defeat, and I smiled at that. I linked onto his arm and made the way inside the building. The lady at the desk greeting me,

"Hello Jung- is that Jimin who lives next to you? Are you okay? What happened? I noticed you left and never came back for a while," she asked Jimin,

"I got into an accident, but don't worry, the surgeries helped me survive, and I was able to get walking the next day," Jimin said,

"How could I not worry about one of my residents. Jungkook, make sure to take care of him for me," She told me,

"Of course, I'm worried too about him. He already tried acting like he was perfectly fine, but who could be perfectly fine 2 days after surgery," I said, smiling at Jimin. After our little conversation, I grabbed Jimin and dragged him to the elevator. We didn't really say anything to each other as we weren't too close and had nothing to discuss. When we reached our the floor, Jimin unlinked our arms,

"Uhm, I can get to my door on my own," Jimin said, I just smiled and nodded. As we walked together to get to our doors, I noticed myself wanting to be close to him. As we got our keys to unlock our doors, I decided to say something

"Uh, Jimin...Jimin hyung, can I come over later?" I asked boldly as I looked back at him. He looked back at me, too, with a bit of a surprised face.

"Um sure! But for what?" He asked me,

"Oh! I just wanted to make some food for you! And maybe help with other things. I'm still a bit worried, so it would ease me to help you, at least for today," I told him. He just smiled and nodded,

"Okay, well, if it will help you calm down, then sure, come over later," Jimin said, I smiled and walked inside my home. I walked around my kitchen wondering what I should make him, something filling but also something that would be immediately too hard on his body. I decided to make some noodles my style, and on the side, some gimbap. I grabbed the ingredients out and placed them on the counter in order so I could grab them before leaving.

I went to my room and threw on a baggy shirt and some baggy sweats. I went to the bathroom and rebrushed my teeth. I didn't know what to do with my hair, so I just ruffled it, and I thought I looked decent enough. I threw the ingredients into a bag and slid on some shoes, and made my way right across of my apartment to Jimin's. I knocked on the door and waited. After about 30 seconds, he opened the door,

"Sorry it took a bit, I was just replacing these bandages," Jimin said, pointing on his forehead while stepping aside to let me in,

"Ah, no problem, I have ingredients in here, I want to make a noodle recipe I like to make all the time and some gimbap," I said,

"Oh! I'm great at making gimbap, I can help you, I have nothing to do anyways, it also doesn't require me to use a lot of strength so don't worry," Jimin said, leading me into his kitchen, I decided not to fight back and let him help so I don't seem so protective over someone I don't know that much. We walked into the kitchen, I placed the bag on the counter, and placed the groceries onto the counter.

"Ooo, these ingredients I like to use all the time as well, your recipe must be pretty good," Jimin said, I smiled at him,

"Yeah, I learned it when I was still living with my parents. My mom used to make this when she had free time, and I eventually learned how to make it from memory," I told him as I was looking around to find a big bowl and pan,

"Oh, I see, I see, oh do you need a pan? They are in here," he said, pointing into a cabinet,

"Ah, thank you. Are there any big bowls?" I asked. He nodded and pointed at another cabinet,

"There is a bunch of bowls in there, so if you need any size, it's in there," Jimin told me, I smiled and nodded, I grabbed a medium sized pan and as well as a big bowl to mix some ingredients in, I looked over to see Jimin already chopping some vegetables,

"Oh, is it too quiet? Here I can shuffle some songs on my phone," Jimin said, as he put the knife and vegetables down to grab his phone from his living room. While he did that, I turned the stove on to heat the pan up, as well as putting some oil onto the pan,

"So, when did you move here?" I heard Jimin say walking back to continue chopping,

"Oh! I started living here 2 years ago, I wanted to actually live alone at 19, but I got caught up in life and as well couldn't find a decent place," I explained to him,

"I see, I came here just a year before you, I also wanted to move out, but school took up a lot of my time, so I had to save money from a part time job to move," he told me,

"Mm, that's nice, I wanted to study in a university, but I never ended up doing so," I said,

"Oh, so do you work now?" Jimin asked,

"Umm... Yes! I work remotely, so I don't get out much," I lied, I couldn't tell him about my parents. I wanted someone to like me for me. Every time I exposed myself, it always went downhill.

"Ah, I see, I have been the manager at that cafe actually since I was 19. They pay me decently, but I was thinking of finally finding a computer engineering job since I studied in that field," Jimin explains,

"That's nice, I think it would be good to start that, I bet leaving that job would be hard, though after so long," I said. He just looked down and nodded,

"So you have a mom, dad, and brother? Me too!! They live in Busan, though," Jimin said,

"Oh yes! Mine all live together too, but here in Seoul, they have a pretty big house, so my brother and his fiance live there as well," I explain,

"Is your brother older or younger?" He asks me,

"He's older!! His name is Junghyun!" I say,

"I see, I see. Mine is younger than me, his name being Jihyun!! Wait, how old are you?" Jimin suddenly asks me,

"I'm 23, 24 this year in September," I tell him,

"Ahh, I'm 25, 26 in October. It looks like I'm older by two years," Jimin teases me,

"Haha, should I stay saying hyung?" I tease back,

"Nah, you are good if you want to still just call me by my name, I don't care about honorfics towards me unless it's my brother," He tells me, I just nod and smile. I continued to cook my noodles as he continued on the gimbap. We both ate while talking more about little details of our life, I then helped clean up and realized I should leave and not invade his space any longer.

"Well, I will get going, I should head back to my place," I say, grabbing my phone from the table,

"Oh, okay, whatever you want to do, I will see you around," he says, as he walks me to his door,

"See you around," I simply say as I slip on my shoes and leave his apartment. I unlocked my apartment door and went inside. I walked into my room and plopped down onto my bed. I started to rethink my day, I then realized, it felt right to be with Jimin and ignoring going to the library. This made me very confused as last time I ignored it, I felt off the entire day. I opened my notebook to write this down. I sighed when I finished and decided to just go to sleep and see what tomorrow brings.

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It was 8 a.m., and when I woke up the next morning, I sat up as usual and waited. The library again? I grabbed my notebook and wrote that down. Did my usual morning routine and went to grab my phone before leaving. That's when I saw a message... from Jimin? I quickly opened it,

"Hey Jungkook, hopefully you are up, I have some patches on my back that I kind of need help to replace. Would you mind coming over to help me," read the message. I sat on my bed and sighed. Is the right thing to do? Do I break this call to be with Jimin? I looked down, contemplating, I then replied,

"Yes, I will be over right a way!" I typed into my phone and sent the message. I walked to my front door where my shoes were, I slipped on some slip-on shoes and went across to Jimin's apartment. I knocked on the door, and Jimin answered almost right away,

"You actually came very fast, come in, I put all the things in the living room area," Jimin told me as he stepped aside so I could walk in,

"Basically, just take off the old bandages, and dab it with this cloth with alcohol to cleanse it, then add the need bandages," He explained to me and I nodded sitting on the couch with him,

"Won't it sting?" I asked,

"Yes, it will, but I must replace them," Jimin said, I just smiled and nodded, I watched as Jimin grabbed the hem of his shirt to lift it up. I caught myself holding my breath as he lifted it up. Once it was off, I knew I couldn't just sit there and do nothing. I took off his old bandages, and when I saw his wounds, I felt a bit sad. It was very bruised and scratched badly. He makes it seem like he is completely okay, but he still has pain. I grabbed the rags that seemed to already be damp with the alcohol.

I dabbed it lightly on his wounds. He seemed to be startled at first but ended up being used to it fast. I quickly placed on the bandages so he could put his shirt back on,

"Thank you so much. It would be hard to do this myself," Jimin said, turning around and then putting his shirt back on, which I stared more than I should have.

"Oh no problem, I am glad to help with anything you need!" I say, he smiled at that.

"Well, do you want to help make breakfast?" Jimin asks me,

"Oh sure!! What do you want to make?" I asked as I followed him into the kitchen. He showed me a recipe. It seemed to be a porridge recipe,

"Oh, this looks pretty good. Would you mind if I looked around to find ingredients?" I asked Jimin since I didn't just want to barge into anything he didn't want me in. He just smiled and shook his head. Working together, we were able to finish the food in about 40 minutes. We sat down and ate together. There was not much talk. There wasn't much for us to discuss anyway.

"So you have any plans for today?" Jimin asked me,

"Oh... Yes, I do!! I need to run some errands," I lied, I had nothing to do. I just felt nervous to be around Jimin, and if he asked me to hang out, I would be worse,

"Ah, I see. Unfortunately, I have nothing to do, I might just sleep to be honest," He told me, I nodded, acknowledging his words and taking a bite of the food, which was actually pretty good. It still felt awkward to be around Jimin. I knew I should probably leave, I luckily finished my food,

"Well, I should get going. I should probably do what I need to do or else I might procrastinate," I said, standing up and placing the dishes in his sink. Before I could wash them, he stopped me,

"Ah, it's okay, I can wash them, you go ahead," Jimin told me,

"Are you sure? It's okay. I can do it," I told him,

"Yes, it's fine. You did a lot for me today already. This is the least I can do," he told me, I just smiled and backed away. Jimin escorted me to his door, and then he did something I never would expect in that moment,

"Thank you for your help," he said in a soft voice, giving me a hug, I froze for a moment. Butterflies erupted in my stomach, and I didn't know what to do at this moment. He then pulled away, I started to feel guilty for not hugging back,

"Oh, uh, no problem! I'm happy to help you with anything you need!" I said, trying to be as enthusiastic as possible like the hug didn't just happen. I watched as Jimin unlocked his door and let me leave. As we parted ways, I didn't know what to do. Why did I feel so happy but nervous when he hugged me? I quickly walked into my apartment when he closed his door. I needed a smoke break, and I went into my drawer in the kitchen where I kept my stash, but it looked like I had none left.

"Looks like I got to walk down to the dispensary," I thought out loud. I sighed and grabbed my keys, and left. The walk was about 20 minutes away. When you get there, it's in an alley way. It was an illegal dispensary, especially since getting things like pre rolls or edibles was pretty hard to get in this country professionally. This was a little secret of mine. I never told anyone.

After I got what I needed, I decided to take a walk down to the beach, which was just past the alleyway. I sat on one of the benches that were there and stared for a long time at the sea. I kept thinking about the hug Jimin gave me, as well as his soft voice thanking me. Was I starting to like Jimin? As a crush? Throughout my whole life, I never caught feelings for anyone. I may have dated one girl in high school or slept with a few, but I never had this feeling with them.

I never thought about them after being with them, I never got that nervous when getting a hug, etc. I then realized I really was starting to catch feelings for Jimin. I sighed and grabbed the rolls out of my little bag I brought with me and lit it up, taking a puff. This was all so new to me. It felt so weird how I always wanted to be near him or was called to him every day since the moment I meant him.

Was Jimin really the one? Why was he so significant in my life recently? I had too many questions that could never be answered by anyone but myself. I guess I had to try and answer them myself.