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As soon as Kihyun reached the safety of his apartment, he locks the door and turns around, his back thud against it dramatically as he slides himself down to a sitting position. He just presented today, and he had the news that shocked everybody else more than it shocked him.
He always knew himself, he might not look as tall as his notoriously giant friends like Minhyuk and Hyungwon. But he is no small man, he is 176 cm tall with just the right amount of muscle in there. He is not bad in physical activity. Heck his legs strength is no joke, and don't start with his temper. He is not by any means rude or violent, too far from that. He is very polite, he valued manner above everything, and considering that he came from a very conservative family, he doesn't dress recklessly. But he is a very determined person. No one can stop him when he puts his mind onto something.
And he is definitely not self conscious, he knew he is attractive, handsome, has a beautiful nose, and he would even consider himself sexy. He enjoyed the attention and won't hesitate to use it on his behalf, although not for a bad thing
With everything he believed himself to be, he would always think that he's a solid beta. A fighter, a hunter as much as a protector. he can't be an omega even when his mom start calling him a daughter (no he is not mad about that, he never think being called a daughter especially from his mom is an insult and he has no problem with genders. He knows his mom called that because his parents only have sons, and he has been doing house works meticulously and treating his parents so sweetly he thinks his parents are endeared by that). And he knew he won't be an alpha either. Since he's lack in body mass department, and he handled things gently.
But more than that, he doesn't want to be presented as alpha. though he would rather die than admit it aloud.
Why you ask him? well. Simply because he has a crush on his friend. Who is also a senior in his club.
which happened to present a year before him.
As an alpha.
He clutched the paper in his hand, now crumpled due to how tight he's gripping it. Even when he was running for his life to his 10 minutes’ walk apartment, he was still clinging to it like he was afraid it will be swept away by a strong wind
He rereads it for the nth times since he got that in the infirmary. Minhyuk and Hyungwon which happened to be in the same year as him also presented today, they had that swipe thing on the side of his gum just like how you do a DNA test, 3 days ago. And the result is out today.
Hyungwon is a beta, so is Minhyuk. It didn't surprise them one bit since they could already feel it in their bones ever since they were born. As silly as it sounds. He opened it mindlessly knowing that the result would of course be the same as his other 2 friends only to froze on his spot with his eyes bigger than a saucer. His friend of course without his consent peeked to it and gasped so loud that the passersby stopped to regard them with weird stares.
An Alpha
is written in Kihyun's paper in italic bold.
He considers to ask the doctor about the result. It must've been an error, right? There should be an error once awhile when collecting data and typing 300 results in just 3 days. And so, he did, confront the staff that works specifically for student's health dept and the answer put a despair to his hope
"Kihyun, we've done it for more 20 years including our testing experience outside of this campus, we have none got back to us for the result complain. Let's say your rut starts in a month max, you can come back to me then if you could prove me wrong" the staff had said calmly emphasizing the word rut rather only belongs to alphas, without a challenge in his voice. He knew some students would have questions once in a while and he has been doing this enough to know how to handle this kind of situation.
"But this feels so wrong.." This actually doesn't, he surely has an inkling, he just refused to believe it. The staff, a man in his 40s, has his eyes visibly soften at the hesitation in Kihyun's voice
"Do you need a consultation? you know you can always have that option here" he was referring to the psychologist assigned to the specific matter. The school only gave this facility for the last 2 years, they found it more and more important to have an option for students to consult or just simply talk to someone about their concern related to the newfound second gender
Kihyun stays quiet on that, he doesn't feel like talking to anyone about this matter for now. He couldn't even decipher what kind of feeling he is having right now. Sadness? why would he, being an alpha means infinite opportunity. Anger? to who? to his parents? no way, he is not that stupid to blame it on people who doesn't even hold any account to this. Upset? but what for? for losing a chance on his alpha senior? pft. no way.
But his gasp at the thought gave it away. The man scrunched up his eyebrows in confusion at the sudden gasp, he didn't ask though, knowing that Kihyun's silence means he was in inner debate with himself. For a full minute no one speak, it was getting unbearably quiet that the man wanted to break the awkward atmosphere and asked if Kihyun was okay. But before a sound could make it out of his mouth Kihyun abruptly stands up, it was so abrupt that the chair he was sitting on got pushed back with a loud creak. Kihyun wordlessly bowed to the man and rushes outside with the paper clutched tightly in his sweaty palm
He almost knocked his friends that (un)expectedly was eavesdropping on the door. Hyungwon almost got his nose flattened if not because of Minhyuk who pulled him in time he heard Kihyun hasty steps towards the door. Kihyun stop once he is outside, making his friends tremble with fear of being scolded for eavesdropping. But Kihyun was just there, silently turns toward them. it was so eerie that the pair almost peed their pants from the dark aura surrounding their smallest friend. Forget about Kihyun announced as an alpha, even way before knowing this, they've always been careful not to pique the smallest's anger (they of course failed miserably since all they did is annoying him all the time).
"Tell the prof I'm sick" just those and he fled from the scene. Leaving the dumb and dumber standing there with their jaw dropped. Never in their life they heard Kihyun skipping his class for no reason. Knowing that their friend is strict even to himself
"I wonder what happened to Kihyun" Minhyuk tilts his head in a deep concern, he knew something is up and it's not only because of the announcement itself.
"I'm not sure, let's give him time? we can go to his place later. we only have one last class anyway" Hyungwon shrugged, it's not that he doesn't care. He just couldn't find the reason and he doesn't like to dwell on it while he has no ability to do something about it for now. they will surely make Kihyun talk later when they are all gathered after class.
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Still sitting on the floor by the door, Kihyun stared on the paper, he's not even reading anymore. He just stared blankly at the words like it means nothing, his mind filled with million thoughts. That was when his phone buzzed in his pocket, he wanted to ignore it but figured that it would somehow be a distraction.
Hyunwoo hyung
Kihyun-ah, are you coming to the practice today?
He once again stared at it, why him out of everybody. Hyunwoo is the last person he wants to interact right now. He almost throw his phone across the room but settled to just throw it on the floor next to him. His eyes following the still opened chatroom in resentment like it's mocking him. He knew he needs to reply the message. As much as he doesn’t want to face the man now, he can’t be so selfish. Making up his mind, he reached out to his phone.