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His family changed drastically when his father left. You see Tooru was an accident. His parent had had their children and didn't want anymore they were tired and old. It didn't help that Torru ended up being a naturally optimistic and curious kid who by fault got into some trouble. Maybe it was his fault for being born, for getting in his parent's way of their plans for the future. Maybe that's why his father left. After that his mother took a job in Tokyo and when Tooru started high school she moved there leaving the family home to Tooru. His siblings were older and had their own lives to live. Sometimes they would visit him on holidays or he would babysit for them. He could see it in their eyes that they pitied him. He didn't get the loving and caring mother and father that they had and maybe that's what drove his childhood desire to move far far away from Japan and leave this awful life behind.
No one was ever there for him maybe that's why he was grateful to be beautiful and grow into a pretty guy. He had many followers and fangirls and always received lots of attention and confessions from both guys and girls. Which worked out for him being bisexual. It was also a way for him to get the attention he always craved. He remembers his first relationship in middle school it was with a girl who was in high school she was very beautiful and very popular at her school. She had convinced him to have sex. He didn't want to at the time but, she had said that if he wanted to prove his love to her that it was something that they should do because they were in a relationship. That was Tooru's introduction to romantic relationships they always had to be sexual as well. Maybe that's why he dated so much in high school and why he always found himself with obsessive, possessive, and toxic people. The last relationship he had in high school before graduation was with a boy and it had ended pretty badly. He had made the mistake of telling him all of his dreams and that he might have the opportunity to study and play in Argentina. He remembers asking him if he would be ok with a long-distance relationship because he wanted to continue this he really loved him. "Ha you think that anyone sees you as more than a slut all you are really good for is a good lay. If you want to run away go right ahead no one going to care any way we're done get out" the boy scoffed. Tooru ran home that night as fast as he could.
He had gotten some beer from the corner store that night and drank it all not expecting to run into anyone. I mean he wasn't wrong no one was there for him and no one cared about him or would even notice the difference between having him in their life or not. He was surprised to get home and have the lights on burning his eyes and giving him a headache. He flinched and groaned scrunching up his eyes so he didn't have to look at the bright lights while he turned them off. "Oikawa?" a familiar voice came from behind him. "Iwa-chan what are you doing here?" He asked softly looking down so he wouldn't see his bloodshot eyes. Then it dawned on him that all these years he always had him Iwa was there for every moment every heartbreak hell he even beat up one of Tooru's exes when he saw the bruises he had left from a fight. The truth is he had fallen in love with his Iwa-chan a long time ago he just didn't want to pull him down into his bullshit so he always pushed him away when he got too close and labeled him as his 'best friend' instead of confronting his feelings for his friend. "Hey, are you ok? You don't look or sound too good." Hajime said his voice laced with concern. "Um, I'm alright I just want to lay down and get some rest is all," Tooru said brushing past Hajime to get to his room. "You know I'm here for you right, I'm never going anywhere no matter what so whenever you're ready to talk I'm here to listen," Hajime said slowly walking down the hallway to the door. "Why is it like this? Why does it hurt so much? Why can't people love me? Why am I not good enough?" Tooru sobbed out years of suppressed feelings and pain tumbling out in one sentence. Hajime caught him before he could fall to the floor. "It isn't fair for you to be treated like that you know you don't deserve that right?" Hajime asked tears of his own streaming down his face. "Don't I? I mean I ruined my parent's relationship, their entire future together just by being born." Tooru said quietly. "Well fuck them your parents made their decision their own choices and you are not to blame for their failures you hear me?" Hajime asked angrily. He remembers the glitter that was always in Tooru's eyes when they were little kids always getting into trouble together he sat there and watched that spark go out feeling too powerless to help his best friend and secret crush.
"I feel like no one can love me like maybe I'm cursed to be unlovable by everyone", Tooru cried. "Well, that's utter bullshit because if that was true then my heart wouldn't skip two beats every time I saw you smile or laugh and it wouldn't hurt this much to see you in pain and I-" Hajime gasped realizing what he had just said. Tooru looked up at him in surprise. "Oh god Tooru you were never supposed to- I'm sorry I didn't- oh god" Hajime started crying. How could he have been so foolish to confess to Tooru when he was in pain how selfish could he be? He flinched when he felt a soft hand wipe his tears away. Tooru crawled into his lap and hugged him. "Do you mean it?" He whispered into Hajime's ear. Hajime couldn't do anything but nod. He felt Tooru chuckle a little "Wow we are both really fucking stupid huh? I've been in love with you since the first afternoon we spent together as kids. I didn't do anything because well at first I thought you were straight then Mattsun blabbed about that weekend you spent together. I always thought that you would be happier with someone else instead of with a mess like me." Tooru said into his neck. "How could I ever want anyone else?" Hajime said wrapping his arms around Tooru tightly. "Maddog-chan" Tooru said seriously. "Omg that was one time and we were both figuring shit out and-" Tooru cut him off by kissing him slowly and deeply. "I was kidding idiot," Tooru said against his lips. "I don't want anyone just you only ever you," Hajime said looking Tooru in the eyes before kissing him again.
A couple of months later and they were at a university in Tokyo taking the abroad study route and they even shared an apartment together. Everything was great but, Tooru had a problem. They had been dating for almost a year and every time he tried to initiate sex Hajime always backed away. He knows it isn't like Hajime hasn't had sex with other people and Tooru was definitely no virgin; it was confusing. Did Hajime not want him? Was he not attractive enough? He went to the mall to meet up with Kenma and Akaashi for coffee something they hadn't done in a while. "So what do you guys think? Because I swear to god if he doesn't make a move soon I might just go and fuck around with Makki" He said jokingly. "Well, I-" Keiji started. He gasped when he felt someone grab him by his hoodie collar. "I swear to god if you ruin your first good relationship with a man who loves you more than the moon loves the sun I will fucking kill you" Kenma snarled before letting go and sitting back down. "Geez what's up your ass Kenma-chan?" Tooru snickered. "Nothing that's the fucking point!" Kenma hissed out. Keiji just sat there sipping his coffee "Are you children done with your tantrums?" He asked looking between the both of them. "Oh fuck off Keiji at the moment you are the only one at this table that is getting laid all the time," Kenma said chuckling when Keiji choked on the coffee. "Omg just help me out will you?" Tooru asked silently begging his friends with a cute face. "Ugh fine but, you need to help me too," Kenma said. "Fine, what do you want to know?" Tooru asked turning his attention to the younger. "I know that you are more experienced in this so um how do you seduce a man to a point where he can't refuse you?" He asked shyly cheeks turning red. "Lingerie" Keiji and Tooru said in unison. "I already told you this Kenma" Akaashi pointed out. "I know I just wanted a second opinion" Kenma scoffed. "Wow, so you don't even trust me Kenma?" Keiji asked faking a hurt expression. Kenma just frowned and looked at the floor. "Hey, that actually a great idea" Tooru shot up from his chair pulling Keiji and Kenma with him. "Let's go shopping Kenma-chan!" He said excitedly.
After about an hour they had picked out lingerie for both Kenma and Akaashi but, Tooru was still struggling with his picks. He had a pile of them in all sorts of colors and some had cut-out parts and harnesses. He was moving around the changing room clearly frustrated. "Ugh, can you guys tell me which one looks best already instead of just sitting there!" Tooru exclaimed loudly. "Well I thin-" Keiji started. "None of them," Kenma said bored. "Aww thanks so much, Kenma-chan your always super helpful," Tooru said sarcastically. "Have you ever wondered why Iwa hasn't had sex with you yet? Like he might want you to see yourself the way he sees you. He enjoys being around you and spending time with you and loves you for you. Maybe the sexy route isn't what you should be going for." Kenma said holding one of the cutout lingerie between his fingers in disgust. Tooru had never thought of it like that. He was right Hajime always made sure he was comfortable with everything that they did and always told him how much he loved him. Even when he kisses him it is always gentle and slow and deep swimming with feelings which always left Tooru overwhelmed. Tooru left the changing room and roamed the store for a piece that he thought his boyfriend would like to see on him. Then he saw it across the store it was an emerald green bodysuit made of lace and a beautiful velvet choker. He took it back to the changing room and changed into it. After he got it on he looked at himself in the mirror. He gasped when he saw his reflection the color looked good on his milky skin but, it made him look innocent and beautiful, things he didn't think he would ever see himself as. "Perfect" Keiji and Kenma said behind him smiling when they saw his reaction to it.
They had all said their goodbyes and went home to their boyfriends. Tooru had called Hajime before heading home to see what time he would be back. He had been informed that his boyfriend had a late study night with other classmates and to eat without him since he wouldn't be home till 9. It was 8:30 when he got home he had some time to prepare himself. When he got the outfit on he just lounged around their bedroom waiting for Hajimes arrival. He bolted upright when he heard the keys clatter onto the table and he heard his boyfriend grunt as he took his shoes off. "Baby you up? Tooru where are you love?" Hajime called from the door. Tooru froze he didn't know what to say or how to present himself. He kept changing his position on the bed trying to find a good one god he had never been this nervous when seducing someone before. "You asleep?" Hajime whispered as he stepped into their bedroom. He looked at Tooru on the bed and his face immediately went red. "Um, hi babe" Tooru waved shyly hitting himself in his head for saying something so stupid. "Is this for me?" Hajime asked. Tooru nodded. "I mean unless you don't want to that's fine too," Tooru said waving his hands in surrender. Hajime smiled and walked to the bed pulling Tooru into a deep kiss the kind that made his heart stutter. Tooru felt Hajime crawl on top of him. "Your so fucking beautiful baby wanna show you how much you mean to me" Hajime whispered into his ear. He started sucking hickeys into his neck chuckling when he heard Tooru squeal and shiver under him. "Wanna paint your body with my marks can I?" He asked looking at his boyfriend for permission. That's when it clicked in Tooru's head. He would never hurt you, never leave you, always be there for you, always be yours if you remain his. He had never wanted anything more than this. He nodded.
With his permission, Hajime moved down his body licking and sucking marks into his skin watching contently when he saw his boyfriend sigh or gasp. He started taking his clothes off and helping Tooru remove the lingerie. He rummaged through the nightstand and grabbed some lube and condoms that Tooru wasn't aware of. "I have wanted to do this for some time so when you started initiating more sexual stuff I realized we were on the same page and I went out and bought these a couple of days ago," Hajime explained when he felt his boyfriend's questioning stare. He went back to kissing Tooru's neck licking over some of the marks that were already forming. He gasped when he felt a finger near his entrance nodding as permission for his boyfriend to continue. Hajime finally pushed it in and started feeling around he was looking for something "Ungh what are you looking for Hajime?" Tooru questioned a gasp cut him off as his mind blanked out from the blinding pleasure he felt. He wanted to scream it was so good. "Found it" He heard Hajime whisper as he felt another finger enter him and find the same spot stroking him and scissoring him open. Tooru couldn't speak he felt too good. He then felt the fingers leave and he whimpered at the emptiness. "shh it's okay baby imma fucking treat you like the fucking prince you are" Hajime whispered into his ear as he hovered over him. He pushed in slowly and moved his hips to angle towards Tooru's prostate making him moan and writhe. "Haji fuck yes~ please omg please move god" Tooru pleaded. "Anything for you baby" Hajime said as he moved slowly going slow but, hitting deep and always stroking Tooru's prostate. Tooru's body started shaking from the intense sensation and he was going into a headspace he had never been in before. He felt Hajime grab the back of his head running a hand through his hair telling him how good he was being for him. He kept up the pace slow and deep making Tooru's toes curl and he arched his back trying to get him deeper feeling his thighs shake as he rolled his hips. "fu-unh~ yes please omg Hajime please don't stop don't- ill be so good so fucking good for you" Tooru sobbed out his mind blanking out. "I know baby I know you will" Hajime whispered back pulling himself up above Tooru his arms trapping Tooru underneath him as he rolled his hips up into Tooru faster.
If this kept up Tooru was going to scream so he did the next best thing he bit his boyfriend's wrist. Hajime groaned and his hips jutted up into Tooru. "Ughh fuck baby yes" Hajime groaned. Hajime thrust in faster and Tooru felt his body stutter he gasped as his eyes rolled back and he came on his stomach. He moaned louder when he felt Hajime cum. They stayed connected together for some time trying to catch their breath. When their breathing had settled Hajime pulled Tooru into a kiss and slipped out enjoying the whine that came from the other. Tooru smiled at Hajime and realized that he had never felt more loved and wanted than by this man right in front of him. He was going to do everything he could to be with him.