Hey man, never say never. I didn’t think I’d ever be able to pass as a man and it’s started happening for me. One of coworkers is a cis dude who’s like 5 foot, it can happen. It’s okay to hate being trans sometimes, I definitely do. It’s hard as fuck and it’s okay to be mad about that, as long as you don’t let that negativity seep into every other aspect of ur life. Honestly for pants I look for stuff that’s simple that I can accessorise. I find that oversized black jeans or cargo pants or leather pants work really well as a base to put good belts and chains on or even customise yourself. It’s really hard to find cool affordable mens goth clothes online so I rarely do, I’ve ended up just buying normie stuff I know I can customise or style in a way I like. I’d actually recommend looking at shops based in Asia (Like uniqlo) because the men’s pants tend to be cut a little shorter than western brands. It also might be worth learning how to do alterations or finding some you know who can do them cheap. Also look into platforms maybe? You can style platforms in a masc way especially when they’re already in a goth or industrial type outfit. Especially like new rocks or something that looks similar. I wear women’s platform shoes a lot but they don’t really read as that fem when they’re paired with the rest of my fit. I hope this helps a bit!