can't wait for biden to resign from the campaign this sunday, july 21 2024

I'm about to pass out

just heard the austin powers theme playing faintly somewhere in the house, I’m the only one here

people say folks with adhd struggle with "delayed rewards" aka long term goals and as such we tend to focus more on short term rewards. what they don't talk about is that at when we Do accomplish long term goals we don't actually feel anything proportionate to the amount of work we did to achieve it. In my head I suffered for a while and then money spontaneously appeared in my bank account.

"Don't you feel satisfied that your windows are so clean now?" It sucked and it sucked and now I don't care. I just remember the sucking.

Hello, I have ADHD and I am also a licensed clinical therapist!

This part sucks. Not gonna lie to you. That said, our brains DO still get rewards, just not from "task completion" (something something, the combination of executive functioning whammy that is task initiation, task break down, task execution, and task transition following completion). Instead our rewards tend to come from one or more of a few areas:

Sometimes individuals have other things that can trigger rewards for them, and it's always worth making a note when you run across something like that!

I find that by popping off one of these options DURING or IMMEDIATELY AFTER a task that would otherwise be next to impossible to get thru without becoming a raging self hating asshole can make a big difference in how one experiences that task.

Examples: when I need to clean the house because my maintenance routine has fallen apart, I prep a vape with sativa delta or sativa THC, and shove it in my binder. I take a hit periodically throughout the task process to keep me functional and regulated. I also set pomodoro timers for 45 min each so I can alternate between "working" and "resting".

When I fall behind on notes, my wife buys me peanut M&Ms from the corner store and I pop a pair of M&Ms for every late note I submit for work.

When I'm having a low-function work day, I will prioritize taking my breaks outside with the dogs, and sometimes will splash water around from the hose on them and myself for a bit of a temperature change.

If I've overextended myself but still have essential tasks to complete, I will pause about every 15-30min to do a breathing exercise (5-6 count breath in through the nose, and 2-3 count breath out through the mouth - this is really good for short energy boosts and overcoming brainfog)

It's important to keep in mind, that these are not "incentives" in the traditional sense, where if you don't do the task, you don't get the reward. ANY use of your executive functioning would be rewarded in the brain to some extent for regulated neurotypicals, and just because our reward systems aren't great at self-activating as expected, doesn't mean we should have to live without the positive reinforcement that EVERYONE is supposed to get. So if you made an attempt at the thing, you get to trigger your reward response.

Overtime, myself and clients I work with have all noticed a shift in how we perceive tasks once this becomes common practice. Because we now have history and memories of tasks feeling positive to do (even when they are demanding or difficult for us), it becomes easier to interact with that task overall. You start to better notice the changes in approach that may make it even easier. You stop dreading the knowledge that the task needs to be done. It's easier to hop back into maintenance routines even after they've fallen apart. Basically, when you manually trigger what your brain NEEDS and can't self-create, a lot of the distressing aspects of executive function become WAY more manageable.

There's also a lot to be said about the experience of shifting self shaming and self blaming around what it means to "succeed" at a thing or "complete" a task, but that's sort of a different post. For now, suffice to say that being the kind and compassionate and understanding person you likely are for others, FOR YOURSELF, makes a big difference in how easy or hard the above strats will be to execute.

You probably know a few of the things that manually trigger that reward response for you. How can you make that ability work in your favor?

So if your brain won't give you a reward for completeing a task...store bought is fine?

My favorite influencer is the nefarious anglerfish

please imagine some cosmic beings cheering for you like this whenever you accomplish little goals

Some people: “If elder gods existed, they wouldn’t care about us; they would see the same way we see insects.” Meanwhile, these guys, seeing an insect-

We assume that if the Elder-Gods do exist, they would not sympathies with our lives, that they don’t care about our struggles and our strives to live. But I posit that all life struggles, even the Gods. And while they struggle with things that we could hardly begin to comprehend, that same way a worm could not comprehend the complex melancholics and pains of a Human, they look down on us, and recognize a thing within themselves. A will to strive, a drive to reach across the gap between planks. And they do indeed cheer for us, just as we cheer for a worm, cause if they can make it, then we can make it, and so can we all make it across the gap.

hush little baby dont you cry. mamas gonna buy you a big horse fly. and if that big horse fly dont fly. mamas gonna buy you another horse fly

[club mix] another horse fly. another horse fly

Me not giving a fuck

Guys I really like the Ginyu Force

imagine you woke up tomorrow and video games had…. disappeared……

no……just thinking about it makes me….oooouuhh……….hoo boy…that ones gonna sting in the mornin

literally this:

heartbreaking: local thing has to leave the house even though it is so tired and sleepy and full of joint pain

FEDERAL INQUIRY INTO ADHD MEDICATION SHORTAGE ANNNOUNCED

IF YOU HAVE STRUGGLED TO GET YOUR ADHD MEDICATION, YOU HAVE 60 DAYS TO TELL THE FTC YOUR STORY FOR CONSIDERATION IN THIS INQUIRY AT THE LINK BELOW! The FTC must read all responses. So tell them about having to call multiple pharmacies, being unable to get generics, your struggles with insurance coverage, everything!

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I'm surprised the MSN article doesn't mention how one of the main factories that manufactures generic stimulants (in 2022 "it produced 12 percent of the country’s generic version of Adderall and large amounts of its generic Concerta, Ritalin, and Vyvanse") has been sitting closed for a while on orders of the DEA

Yeah that's an important thing to understand: this shortage isn't due to any natural cause, like there was a cave-in at the big Adderall mine, and it's not even the usual drug problem of some CEO trying to raise prices.

The DEA gets to decide how many pills get made/imported per year. If the doctors of the US prescribe pills for a million people, the DEA can (and does) just say "nah, there's only gonna be enough for half a million". People will go without and they don't care.

Which is a great fucking idea, like it won't cause people with ADHD to drop out of school and lose jobs and/or switch to dangerous and illegal alternatives!

I think sometimes cbt is a load of bullshit but once in a while you'll just effortlessly parry a thought that's trying to make you spiral and it feels so good. I've done it like 4 times tonight.

Did you mean CBD or are you talking about cock and ball torture

Yes if you beat the shit out of your nutsack you won't ever feel sad again. This is medical advice.

Hold on I'm gonna try this

I must not kill myself killing myself is the myself killer . Dune

people vaguely saying 'the horrors' as shorthand for 'life problems, don't worry about it' in conversations where the problems are not going to be delved into has got to be one of my favorite new Ways Of Speaking that has emerged. like it's polite and vague and succinct enough for impersonal conversation but also extremely honest. it's very funny. The Horrors. we all know of them.