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CHALLENGES OF Raising a Family in the Midst of

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CONTENTS
Introduction
1 Not Perfect Though Faithful
2 Pastoral Finances
3 Challenges
4 Expectations
5 How to Balance Church and Family
6 The battle
7 Children and Church
8 Marriage
9 Spiritual Life Together
10 Family Tensions Affect Ministry
11 Restoring Your Child
12 Family Helping Ministry
Epilogue

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INTRODUCTION
Home is the seminary of all other institutions.
E. H. CHAPIN
Ask virtually anyone with children at home to describe family life in one word, and youll rarely
hear a word like placid, quiet, or still.
Instead, the word is almost always busy, hurried, or even chaotic.
The homes of pastors and other church leaders are not immune from the tempo of the twentieth
century. If anything, they feel the busyness even more. Everyone in the pastors family is likely
to be actively involved, not only at school and in the community, but also at church.
A pastors home is not a contemplative retreat; its a barely contained whirlwind. (As a colleague
of mine loves to say amid the daily rush and tumble, Tempest et fugeting all over.) Whats the
effect of this kind of home? How does the ministry affect the pastors family? And how does the
pastors family life affect the ministry?
With both Jesse James and James Dobson the sons of ministers, its difficult to generalize about
the effects of growing up in a ministry-centered home. But pastors care about the effect their
vocation has upon their offspring. How can pastors help make both their family life and their
church life pleasing to God?
Is it possible to have a healthy, hectic home?
The goal of this book is not to rehash common Christian wisdom about child rearing or marriage
enrichment. Principles for raising kids and loving your spouse can be found in abundance in
bookstores and on video tapes, and most of it applies to ministry families as much as to anyone
else.
Nor does the book simply expose the eccentricities of selected ministry families around the
country. My aim is to find the common elements that virtually all pastors families experience
the special advantages and difficulties of a ministry homeand to show how different families
are trying to maximize the advantages and overcome the difficulties in raising a healthy family.
To this end, LEADERSHIP Journal surveyed more than one thousand pastors and pastors
spouses. The results provide much of the basis for this book, and specific quotations from the
survey responses are sprinkled throughout the chapters to illustrate the findings.
While this book focuses on the families of pastors, most of the principles easily transfer to the
families of anyone who is ministry minded. Pastoral families arent the only ones whose lives
revolve around the church. Active lay peopleSunday school superintendents, board members,
committee chairpersons, key teachers, and lay volunteersmay also find their thoughts centered
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on church activities, their personal calendars dominated by church events, and their children
considering the church their second home. Such families have much in common with the
pastors, so they also stand to benefit from the insights and experiences offered in this book.
I need to offer a few words about the survey on which this book is based. Those surveyed
represented a cross section of urban (20 percent), suburban (29 percent), small-town (41
percent), and rural (10 percent) churches. The average Sunday morning attendance of those
churches also represented the diversity typical today:
Less than 100 (27 percent)
100199 (28 percent)
200299 (16 percent)
300499 (12 percent)
500999 (10 percent)
More than 1,000 (7 percent).
The pastors and spouses represented all age groups from 20 to 69. About 11 percent had no
children. The children of the other 89 percent were of various ages:
29 percent had children under 5 years old
38 percent had children between 5 and 12
23 percent had children between 13 and 17
39 percent had children 18 or older.
As you will see in the pages to follow, the respondents offered candid observations about the
joys and pains of life in a ministry home. The pastors home is not always idyllic. And yet on the
LEADERSHIP survey, the ministry home was considered generally a good place to enjoy family
life.
When pastors were asked, Which of the following best typifies how you generally feel about
your family life: Very positive, positive, somewhat negative, very negative? 84 percent said
positive or very positive. Only 16 percent felt somewhat negative or very negative. Surprisingly,
pastors spouses were even more positive (93 percent indicating positive or very positive
feelings).
But great challenges face a pastors family. Pastors surveyed were asked to check all that
apply, and the results were:
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Time pressure83 percent
Dealing with congregational expectations53 percent
Building a better relationship with my spouse53 percent (slightly fewer pastors spouses45
percentchecked this one)
Building a better relationship with my children50 percent (again, fewer spouses38
percentfelt this was a great challenge)
Raising a moral family in an immoral age46 percent
Misbehavior by a family member13 percent
Being accepted by the congregation12 percent (in this case, more spouses30 percentsaid
this was a challenge)
Being accepted by the community9 percent (again, pastors spouses differed with 16 percent).
When forced to choose the one greatest challenge, pastors pointed to time pressure (48 percent),
congregational expectations (20 percent), building a better relationship with my spouse (15
percent), and building a better relationship with my children (5 percent).
Pastors spouses had a slightly different order: time pressure (46 percent), congregational
expectations (18 percent), raising a moral family in an immoral age (9 percent), and building a
better relationship with my spouse (7 percent).
Such were the primary concerns of the ministers and spouses surveyed.
Throughout this book, youll notice virtually all the illustrations emerge out of families in which
the pastor is male. We recognize the growing number of female pastors, yet fewer than 4 percent
of our surveys were returned by female pastors or their spouses. More research needs to be done
on the unique dynamics of this type of pastoral family. Because of the limited information
currently available, this book leans primarily on the experiences of the pastor and his wife.
In addition to surveying ministry families, I interviewed dozens of pastors and grown children of
pastors. Some of their stories have been camouflaged to protect the privacy of those involved,
but they all reflect the actual experiences of families in ministry.
A few years ago, one of the editors of Whos Who was reportedly asked, How can a person get
his name into your listings? His answer: It helps to be born into a Methodist parsonage. His
point was that a disproportionate number of achievers come from clergy homes.
It is possible to have a healthy home, even when the family schedule is hopelessly intertwined
with the church calendar. I trust the stories and reflections in this book will help you make the
most of your church life and develop a healthy, even if chronically hectic, home.
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NOT PERFECT THOUGH FAITHFUL
Spiritual leadership begins at home. In dealing with the family, remember that you have been
blessed by the Lord, not beatified. Dont expect them to stop asking you to carry out the garbage.
PAUL W. CARLSON
What is a healthy, hectic home? What does one look like?
Consider these four snapshots from ministry families, three of them historic, one contemporary.
Despite appearances, being a Christian leader does not eliminate family strife. Husband-and-wife
arguments over ministry issues are at least as old as Moses and Zipporah.
William and Catherine Booth, for instance, founders of The Salvation Army, were both highly
opinionated. Before their marriage, Catherine set four rules to govern their relationship: (1) never
have secrets; (2) never have separate purses; (3) talk out differences to secure harmony rather
than pretend differences dont exist; (4) never argue in front of the children.
The fact that two of the four refer directly to differences of opinion is not insignificant. Only
eight months into their marriage, Catherine wrote a letter to a friend, praising her husbands
preaching: My precious William excelled himself and electrified the people. You would indeed
have participated in my joy and pride could you have heard and seen what I did. Bless the Lord,
O my soul.
The next paragraph, however, was written with bolder, less refined, penmanship: I have just
come into the room where my dear wife is writing this precious document and, snatching the
paper, have read the above eulogistic sentiments. I just want to say that this very same night she
gave me a certain lecture on my blockheadism, stupidity, etc., and lo, she writes to you after this
fashion. However, she is an increasingly precious treasure to me, despite the occasional dressing
down.
Has there ever existed a ministry family that didnt lament the heavy time demands? More than
four hundred years ago, Martin and Katherine Luther struggled with his need to be gone so
much.
Once while he was traveling, Luther wrote home: To the saintly, worrying Lady Katherine
Luther, doctor at Zulsdorf [the home of her inherited farm] and Wittenberg, my gracious, dear
wife. We thank you heartily for being so worried that you cant sleep, for since you started
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worrying about us, a fire broke out near my door, and yesterday, no doubt due to your worry, a
big stone, save for the angels, would have fallen and crushed me like a mouse in a trap. If you
dont stop worrying, Im afraid the earth will swallow us. Pray, let God worry.
Katie, at times, also struggled with Martins presence. He would often have students around the
dinner table, plying him with questions and taking notes, while Katie would sit at the far end
surrounded by the children. When she found out the students intended to publish their notes, she
wanted to charge them for their note-taking privileges. Martin refused. Eventually the students
published 6,596 entries in their various versions of Table Talks. If Katie had had her way, she
would have had a guilder for each.
Martins sense of humor was often called on in domestic situations. I would not exchange Katie
for France or Venice, he said, although once, after Katie had contradicted him in front of dinner
guests, he said, If I should ever marry again, I should hew myself an obedient wife out of
stone.
But Martin deeply valued family life. Before his marriage, he sometimes spoke of matrimony as
a necessity for the flesh. Afterward, he saw it as an opportunity for the spirit. And he often
quoted the saying, Let the wife make her husband glad to come home, and let him make her
sorry to see him leave. Separation only increased Martin and Katherines appreciation of a
healthy home.
Most ministry families have a love/hate relationship with sermon preparation. They realize how
essentialand how demandingit is. And they often find themselves playing a part,
intentionally or otherwise, in a sermons development, as Susie Spurgeon, wife of the prominent
London pulpiteer, discovered late one night.
Charles Spurgeon would finish preparing his sermons on Saturday night. One evening things did
not go well. He mulled over a text for hours. He had consulted commentaries, prayed, jotted
down ideas that didnt go anywhere, and now was becoming frustrated. I was as much
distressed as he was, said Susie, but I could not help him. At least, I thought I could not.
Finally, Susie urged him to go to bed. She would wake him at dawn. He would be able to think
more clearly then.
But during the night, Susie heard him talking in his sleep. She listened. It wasnt gibberish.
Soon I realized that he was going over the subject and was giving a clear and distinct
exposition of its meaning with much force and freshness. If I could but seize and remember
the salient points, he would have no difficulty in developing and enlarging upon them.
She lay in bed, repeating over and over again the chief points, and fell asleep about the time
she was supposed to waken Charles.
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When he awoke and noticed the time, he was irritated. You promised to waken me very early.
See the time! Why did you let me sleep? I dont know what Im going to do this morning.
Then Susie told him what had happened during the night and repeated to him the main points he
had made in his sleep.
You mean I preached that in my sleep? He could hardly believe it. That is just what I wanted.
Thats the true explanation of the text. From the explanation Susie furnished, Charles went into
the pulpit and preached a powerful sermon.
Little wonder, then, that when missionary David Livingstone once asked Spurgeon, How do
you manage to do two mens work in a single day? without a pause, Charles responded, You
have forgotten that there are two of us, and the one you see the least of often does the most
worka response that could be echoed a great number of pastors homes today.
More recently, Episcopal rector John Yates of The Falls Church in Falls Church, Virginia, tells a
story that shows how family life can directly affect the worship hour itself:
Young children dont take Communion in our congregation, but they do come to the rail, kneel,
and receive a blessing from the pastor (in this case, me). When my twin daughters were four
years old, they came to the rail, and I laid my hands on the first and quietly began to recite,
Susie, may the Lord bless you and keep you Other people were kneeling nearby during this
reverent moment.
In the midst of my blessing, she suddenly exclaimed loudly, Daddy, Im Libby, not Susie! The
whole congregation looked up, startled, and then burst out laughing.
Afterward the senior warden, the man who heads our board, said to my wife, I know we expect
John to work hard, but I think we need to help him find more time to be with his family.
What can we make of these brief snapshots of life in ministry homes?
We immediately recognize that ministry families are not flawless. But flawed doesnt necessarily
mean unhealthy. The goal of ministry-oriented homes is not perfection but faithfulness.
Another fact that quickly emerges is that healthy ministry families dont all look alike. If
anything is clear in the results of the research for this book, its that there is no single, right way
to structure family life in ministry. The models are as diverse as the personalities of each parent
and child. This book reflects the diversity of roles and strategies developed by todays pastoral
families. But two things they share: a commitment to minister and a commitment to build a
healthy home.
Gigi Tchividjian, who grew up in a ministry home as the daughter of Billy Graham, tells about a
conversation with her 4-year-old son in which they were discussing what a home was. His
conclusion: A home is a place where you come in out of the rain.
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Thats not a bad definition for any home, but for ministry families, its the essential goal: to
make the home a place of security, warmth, and reassurancenot only for the members of the
congregation, but for family members as well. The following chapters point the way to that kind
of ministry home.

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TWO
PASTORAL FINANCES
If you wish to leave much wealth to your children, leave them in Gods care. Do not leave them
riches, but virtue and skill. For if they learn to expect riches, they will not mind anything besides,
and their abundant riches shall give them the means of screening the wickedness of their ways.
JOHN CHRYSOSTOM
What are the advantages of raising a family in a pastors home?
A couple of years ago, I had the chance to sit down with James Dobson, perhaps the best-known
champion of the family in the contemporary Christian world, and ask him about his days as a
preachers kid. I was curious whether his experiences in the church were positive or negative.
His reply: Very positive. The church was the center of our social life, and I felt loved and
accepted by this extended family. That little body of believers provided an unshakable
foundation of values and understanding, which I still hold firmly today. I was three years old
when I voluntarily knelt and gave my heart to the Lord, and Im still grateful for the teachings I
received in those early years.
Church life, however, has changed dramatically in the last generation. What about the
differences between the family life he experienced growing up in a small church in Oklahoma
and family life in the large Southern California congregation hes involved in now? Is the small
church or the large church more conducive to family life?
Each has its own contribution to make, Dobson replied. Some people thrive better in a crowd,
and they need the programs and specialists that can be provided only in a large church
community. Adolescents, for example, are driven by this urge to herd, and they feel more
secure with large numbers of their peers.
On the other hand, some people need the intimacy and personal touch of a small church family.
In my own life, it was this sense of being known and cared for in a small church that hooked me
into the fellowship. The warmth I felt there compensated for the lack of sophistication in
program and personnel.
Whether in a large or small church, pastors find that there are distinct advantages to raising a
family in a ministry home. Here are some of the perks identified in the survey.
Flexible Hours
The first advantage many pastoral families mention is a flexible work schedule.
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I never missed one of my sons soccer games, said a pastor from Massachusetts. The great
benefit of a pastors schedule is that you can juggle appointments, plan to work some nights, and
be free in the afternoon to watch soccer. The lawyer, the physician, and the stockbroker couldnt
be there, but I was.
A pastors wife from California said, I work four days a week outside the home. Usually I have
Tuesdays off, so my husband, whose schedule is flexible, can also take Tuesdays as his day off.
We spend most Tuesdays at home, although sometimes we go out to eat or play tennis. As I look
back, I realize we have had our most serious talks about ourselves, our marriage, the family, and
our future on those days. We have worked out more problems during those times than any other.
I dont get much house work accomplished, but I do get a lot of home work done.
Spiritual Role Models
One of the survey respondents said, Children have a model of involved church members in their
parents. We constantly have people in our home whom we want our kids to know.
A pastors wife elaborated on this fringe benefit: Because my husband is a pastor, weve had
people in our home whom our children never would have had the benefit of knowing otherwise:
African pastors, missionaries to Brazil, evangelists, other preachers. Our kids have been able to
talk to them, play games with them, and find out more about the world and what makes people
tick.
But there are other spiritual role models for ministry families. Joseph Stowell, prior to becoming
president of Moody Bible Institute, was a pastor, the son of a pastor, and the grandson of a
pastor. When I asked him about the advantages of his upbringing, he said, One of my best
memories is having great Bible teachers around our dining room table: M. R. DeHaan, Sidlow
Baxter, and others. I remember one meal when Frank Logsdon, former pastor of Moody Church,
leaned over to me and said, God has given you a great daddy. That stuck with me. I felt like,
My dads a good guy, an important person.
Sometimes the role models werent those you would have expected. Chuck Smith, Jr., who also
grew up in a ministry home before becoming a pastor himself, said, My fondest memory is
having godly people in our home who were so animated and enthusiastic when they talked about
the Lord. Their devotion to the Lord and the ministry made me feel like this was the most
important subject in life. One time my dad had been at a pastors conference and met four
colleagues. This was kind of out of character for him, but Dad spontaneously invited them over
to the house. It was stimulating to me because they werent sharing statistics about who had the
most people in their churches; they were sharing their common commitment to Christ. That
experience was powerful enough to be remembered twenty-five years later.
Often one of the best role models is the pastor himself. Family members see, up close and
personal, a person whose life is committed to ministry.
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My son gets to see me at work, said a pastor in New Hampshire. He gets to share some of the
pressure and ethos of LEADERSHIP, and he sees me interact with people in our home. And
when Im able to be vulnerable and transparent, he sees times in my life when Im both elated
and discouraged. Not all children are able to be so close to their parents vocations.
Richard Strauss, who pastors in Escondido, California, experienced that from the other side as
the son of prominent pastor and speaker Lehman Strauss. I enjoyed the fact that my dad was
respected. I mean, here was a man standing in the pulpit teaching the Word of God, and people
were listening and writing things down, and their lives were being changed. And that was my
dad! I was a retiring child, not outgoing at all. Dad was such a strong personality that he
overshadowed those around him. But I didnt resent that. I felt like some of the respect people
felt for him trickled down to me. Part of my identity was being his son.
Another pastors son, now grown, said, I remember sometimes on the way home from church I
would ask my dad a question that perplexed me about the Bible or the church. I remember
thinking (though I never would have admitted it to my dad) that it was great to have this kind of
exclusive access to him for my questions.
Richard Strauss also remembers: My dad had his study at home, and one day I walked past his
study and heard him talking. I knew there wasnt anybody in there. I thought, Whos Dad talking
to? So I sat down and listened. He was praying.
I sat there for ten or fifteen minutes and listened. That was a moving experience, and after that,
every once in a while if I knew he was praying, Id sit outside his door and listen. Thats
something thats grown more meaningful now than it was at the time.
Atmosphere
The atmosphere a family experiences in ministry can also be invigorating.
Part of this is simply a natural effect of a ministry environment. After thirty-four years of
married life and three grown children, God has given us a close family, and we didnt really
work on it being so, said an Evangelical Free Church pastor. It seems to be a by-product of
intensely living for and serving God. All three children walk with God, love us, and love each
other. I love my work as a pastorand my family could see that and seemed to benefit from
that.
Another part of this is due to the experiences any pastor has. In our counseling, we learn from
others who have made mistakes, said a Lutheran pastor in Iowa. From being involved in so
many other family situations, I gain insights for my own family.
In addition, the atmosphere of the worshiping community can have a positive effect. Preachers-
kid-turned-preacher Joe Stowell tells the story: When my own children started coming along, I
asked my dad, Why do you think all three of your children went into the ministry?
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I dont know, he said. Your mother and I cant take credit for it. We think its because the
church in Hackensack, New Jersey, consistently prayed for you children. In prayer meetings,
people would pray aloud for you by name.
I attribute that to the fact that my behavior drove em to their knees, Joe said with a laugh.
But I do think as pastors kids, we may have more prayer poured into our lives than other kids.
In addition, the surveys revealed other atmospheric elements in a ministry home that benefit a
family.
We share in the love some parishioners have for their pastor. While weve suffered from some
of the alligators in the church, people with ego problems, our family has greatly benefited from
the love of caring people.
We have lots of people willing to baby-sit and be grandparents for our kids. They give special
attention to PKS.
The church body provides a good moral climate.
We enjoy a spiritual atmosphere within the home that is lived on a practical, day-to-day basis.
My children not only play school, they also play church. At least at this point in their lives,
they appreciate the role of pastor.
We have plenty of exposure to books that enrich the home.
Because of our involvement at church, its easier to talk about our faith and values.
A number of pastors wives identified teamwork with their husbands as one of the joys of being
a pastors wife. Not many professions allow the entire family to share work to the degree a
pastors family can share ministryseeing one another working, contributing to the common
cause.
These atmospheric conditions are conducive to growing a healthy family.
More Than the Material World
Finances are commonly seen as a drawback to life in ministry. But often its not the salary itself
that causes problems; its the contrast with the rest of the congregation. The pastors salary is
usually on the low side of the congregational bell curve.
This creates some unusual pressures. Despite their more modest income, the pastors family is
expected to dress as well, give the kids as many opportunities, dine out as often, and entertain as
often or more so than more affluent parishioners. Theres pressure to join in the expensive
activities.
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We can manage our money to meet our needs, but were surrounded by affluence in which we
cannot share, one pastor said.
Pastors, by and large, seem able to handle the disparity reasonably well. Its a greater challenge
for their families. My voluntary vow of poverty becomes my familys involuntary vow of
poverty, says New England pastor Henry Brinton. An Alban Institute study found that half the
clergy spouses polled had a major concern about finances. It appears that wives are often more
concerned about finances than their husbands are.
Pastors wife Mary Bouma reflects on why wives may feel more pressure than pastors: Perhaps
its because we have more of an appreciation for nice things. Probably its because were forced
to spend a lot of our time working with material things. It usually falls to us to decorate the house
and keep it clean, plan the family wardrobes and keep them in repair. So it is part of our job to
work with possessions, and it is often hard not to desire nicer ones, especially when people all
around us have things nicer than ours.
Children of the parsonage can also feel the pinch. Tim Stafford, who grew up the son of a
Presbyterian minister, observed, A pastors kids grow up surrounded by people who have
slightly nicer cars and bigger houses than they do. Money to a kid, in case youve forgotten,
conveys status. When youre fourteen, status is virtually all there is.
Despite the financial pressures, a significant number of survey respondents indicated the
emphasis on spiritual priorities outweighed the money problems. The entire family learns
quickly and clearly that there is more to life than material goods.
Our kids see actual ministry going on all the time. And because were on support status in a
church-planting situation, theyre learning early to trust God and to pray for our needs, said a
pastors wife from California.
Another pastors wife said, Our children have experienced what many youngsters today miss:
they learned they couldnt have everything they wanted while growing up. This has enabled
them to go without their wants if there wasnt enough money to provide them.
Businessman Fred Smith was raised in a pastors home in the inner city of Nashville, Tennessee.
He recalls the lasting impression it made on him.
Most pastors families, I suspect, face squarely the constant juxtaposition of the spiritual and the
material. Ours certainly did. Our home existed for the spiritual welfare of the church. I never
heard business discussed, for example, until I left home at age 21. I had to gain all my business
knowledge as an adult (and felt envious of the children of executivesjust as those who come to
Christ later in life often envied us preachers kids our Bible knowledge).
And yet, the material side of life was a continual struggle. When I asked why our family didnt
eat in restaurants more often, Dad would say, A ministers family makes certain sacrifices.
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Eating out is not bad. But our family is centered on spiritual things, not material. As kids, we
always knew heaven was as real to Mom and Dad as earth.
Making the financial situation an advantage or a drawback hinges on the parents attitude. Again,
Tim Stafford reflects: Pastors kids often feel poor. Sometimes they pick up those feelings from
their parents, who tend to be well-educated, ambitious, verbal people who might make more
money in other jobs. Some parents, conscious of their sacrifice, mention it. Their children, who
may not recall a word of the good spiritual counsel they are getting, remember the remarks about
money.
As a child, I was reasonably normal, and I felt our lack of status. But, remarkably enough, I
never felt that we were truly poor. I can remember the many times I had to get out to push the
old car out of the parking spaceit didnt go into reverse, and we had no money to pay a
mechanic. But I cannot remember ever feeling poor.
The key, Stafford says, was his parents aggressive posture: Instead of talking about their lack,
they focused on what they had. They tried to help their kids believe they were enjoying the finest
things of life: books, music, camping, baseball games. We thought we were better off than
people who had to buy big cars and steaks to enjoy life.
Giving helped, too. An early, vivid memory of mine is of my mother late one night writing out
checks to various Christian organizations. Tithing makes me feel so rich, she said to me as she
looked up. We have all this money to give away.
It was her attempt, a successful attempt, to tranform the material side of ministry from a
drawback to a definite benefit.
Relocation
Like those in the military, families in ministry face the distinct possibility, even likelihood, of
frequent relocation. This is often cited as a drawback to life in the ministry. As one survey
respondent said, Frequent moves make it hard to maintain close friendships. Others pointed to
the sense of rootlessness felt by children who have moved often. When they go to college and
people ask where theyre from, theyre at a loss. They usually respond with the place where their
parents currently live, even when that place doesnt feel like home.
A pastors wife described a vivid impression: My husband recently accepted a call that meant
moving all the way across the country. Since we had been in our previous church twelve years,
our twelve-year-old had never known another home. When we began to consider positions in
different parts of the country, it all sounded exciting to her. She was cheerful throughout the
move and settling into the new house and school.
The first clue that things might not be as they appeared came a week later when I helped her
hang her mirror. She insisted on having each piece of furniture exactly the way it had been in her
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previous room. When I asked why, she answered that she had read in a magazine article that this
was one way to minimize the trauma of a move. I found it rather poignant that this child, who
was only beginning to emerge from little girlhood, was matter-of-factly setting about to
minimize her trauma.
But while this area, like finances, may be a disadvantage in some ways, in other ways it is seen
by many pastoral families as an advantage.
When moves are contemplated, pastors are able to weigh the impact upon their families. They
often have some choice in the matter of location. In the LEADERSHIP survey, 77 percent of
pastors said that family considerations entered into their accepting a call to a particular church.
Some of the factors included being near extended family, a particular school setting, job
opportunities for the pastors spouse, and families in the area with children approximately the
ages of the pastors children.
Some pastoral families have sacrificed salary and the prestige of a larger congregation for other
factors that would help their families.
We left our church in the Chicago suburbs and moved to a smaller church here in New
Hampshire, said one pastor, because I didnt like what the suburbs were doing to our 8-and 10-
year-old. We would give them $3 a week allowance. Their friends at school would get $20 a
week. Their friends were into designer clothes and sleep-overs that usually included a violent
horror movie on video. They made anyone with different values feel outcast.
Plus, said the pastor, Im not a city person. All I know to do in the city is go to a museum, a
mall, or a movie. Our family enjoys camping, backpacking, canoeing, swimming, skiing. Those
have been the settings of our best family momentswhen wed enjoy just talking. Its easier to
do those things in our current church. Our move hasnt solved all the problems, of course, but
were much happier here.
One of the advantages of the pastorate: many times its possible to change locations for the
benefit of the family.
A Close Look at Gods Work
My children are exposed to the reality of Gods grace in the lives of others, said one pastor.
People share burdens and problems with us, problems they wouldnt share with anyone else.
Were able to pray for people, counsel them, and see God work miracles in their lives.
The task of growing spiritually is continually reinforced in a ministry home. Consider these
survey responses:
Were challenged constantly to improve spiritually.
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Everywhere Ive been, my presence as the ministers wife has caused people to think of their
spiritual condition. Some have taken positive steps toward the Lord. Ive been able to have an
influence with certain people that I never would have had as a layperson.
In addition, pastors families are often involved in ministry, which can offer special rewards.
One pastors wife wrote, Our whole family goes once a week to visit folks in the nursing home.
This has multiple blessings: the kids realize the value of older adults and develop more love and
respect for them, and they also experience the love that comes from ministry. We all enjoy
seeing the faces in the home light up when we arrive.
Jim and Sally Conway, who pastored for many years in Illinois, said, We recently asked our
kids, all of them now grown and living on their own, what they liked best about growing up in a
pastors family. They all said they appreciated their insiders perspectiveseeing mom and
dad in ministry yet also being real people who got discouraged, angry, and needed forgiveness
like anyone else.
Chuck Smith, Jr., said, One thing I took for granted that Ive come to appreciate now that Im a
pastor is the intimacy with God and his Word that our family enjoyed. Our constant orientation
was toward God. Thats where we sought our solutions; thats how we addressed life. So when I
was sick, and there was a period in my childhood when I was sick quite a bit, I just expected my
grandmother to put her hand on my forehead and pray for me. I came to expect spiritual ministry
as well as medical attention.
My wife is still somewhat uncomfortable praying aloud. But for me, having grown up this way,
praying extemporaneously is a natural expression. Ive appreciated the fact that I feel at home in
Scripture and in the presence of God. Part of that is due to the environment in which I was
raised.
These advantages shine brightly, and it helps to review them, especially when the corresponding
disadvantages occasionally cloud our view.

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THREE
CHALLENGES
All happy families resemble each other; each unhappy family is unhappy in its own way.
LEO TOLSTOY
A number of ministry families can identify with the pastors teenage son who frequently wears a
t-shirt imprinted, PROPERTY OF FIRST CHURCH.
Its the only way I can express the way I feel, he says.
Yes, we must admit that for all the advantages of raising a family in a ministry home, there are
also a number of difficulties. When asked about the disadvantages of raising a family in a
ministers home, those surveyed offered wide-ranging responses:
The telephone rings all the time, interrupting our family time.
My husband is never able to sit with us in worship.
The uncertainty of your tenure at a church.
Theres exposure to a spiritual atmosphere, but there can also be overexposure to failures of
Christians.
We see the warts of everyone. Everyone sees ours. I strongly identify with the problems of
being so close to Gods work and close to sin as well.
Always having to be therenot able to do anything spontaneous on weekends.
Any trouble I get into with the congregation is magnified because Im the pastor. My kids see
their dad being attacked, or more likely, they hear from their classmates, My parents think your
dad really blew ithe got the Smiths really mad at him. Some pastors kids have been told,
Your dad ought to get out of here, which can be devastating.
Time pressure limits our opportunities for family events.
Sunday is NEVER a relaxing day.
Tolstoy said each unhappy family is unhappy in its own way, referring to the tendency of a
family to feel its problems are unique. These quotations do show a variety of difficulties, but the
bulk of the surveys point to concerns that most ministry families have in common.
Scrutiny by the Saints
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Leaders in any field are subject to closer attention and stricter demands. Why do reporters follow
the British royal family so closely? Because most Britons (and all tabloid readers) think they
own the royal couple. Some people vicariously live out the fairy tale. Others feel its their right
to know every move they make since theyre supported with public money.
Pastors and their families face some of the same dynamics.
When I asked about the drawbacks of being a pastoral family, one response I often heard was
the sense of continually being watched.
I usually stand with Mike as he greets people after the service, said a pastors wife from
Milwaukee. One Sunday we had a guest speaker, and I figured three at the door would be a
crowd, so I didnt stand there. One lady rushed up to ask, Are you having a fight with your
husband? I never imagined Id be giving that impression. People really watch!
Another pastors wife said, I didnt realize how closely I was being watched until one lady told
me the Sunday after Christmas, We can hardly wait till this Sunday each year because we
always like to see what your husband gives you for Christmas. Theyd learned my husband
enjoys giving clothes.
The effect of this scrutiny varies from family to family. Some enjoy it; others find it tiring. Some
see it as a positive influencea challenge to live up to. Others, however, see it as a temptation:
Were tempted to overemphasize performing the Christian life. Because people are looking at
us, we sometimes feel we have to be something in public that we may not be in private.
The scrutiny of the saints isnt the only area that pastoral families see as the downside of
ministry.
The Holy Family
Not only is the ministry family watched, but many pastoral families feel the observers are
looking for something they cant produce. Again and again, those surveyed indicated people
expect their family life to be perfect.
Our children are expected to be model children, to never have any attitude problems. Were
supposed to have it all together. But we dont qualify for the holy family.
When it comes to moral behavior, however, pastors kids cant win: they get less credit for their
virtues and more attention for their vices. Whatever they do right, its because of the way you
were raised. If they do something wrong, the response is, You, of all people, should know
better.
One pastors son was at a party with his high school friends. When the liquor and drugs came out
and the atmosphere started to deteriorate, he decided it was time to leave. As he was thanking the
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host and saying his farewells, he overheard someone say, Hes leaving because his dads a
preacher.
That really irritated me, the son said later. It was my decision to leave, but they dont believe
that. Anything I do thats right is explained away because of my upbringing.
Another pastors son, angered at a college classmate, exploded, All right. I dont drink just
because thats what my parents taught me, and you do drink just because thats what your
parents allowed. Now can we talk about it intelligently?
Even involvement in the church is somehow tainted. Some people refuse to believe a pastors kid
would go to church because he actually wants to; surely his parents are forcing him.
Jim Conway remembers that during his pastorate in Illinois, one of our daughters was in a time
of rapid spiritual growth, and she would stand almost every Sunday evening to share something
God had been teaching her.
One night after the service, a woman came up to her and said, We can always count on you to
have something to say in the sharing time. Your dad must put you up to it. The daughter did a
slow burn.
On the other hand, when the ministers kids are not shining examples of sainthood, that, too, can
bring undue attention.
The Conways daughter Becki remembers an argument in school when a classmate challenged
her to back up a particular point of view with Scripture. Becki couldnt.
Youre a preachers daughter, and you cant even quote the Bible? the antagonist sneered.
Well, your dads a plumber, Becki retorted, and you dont know how to sweat pipes.
Its a tough situation. When youre 15, you dont want to stand out. Its bad to be too smart and
worse to be too good. And when the courageous stands you do take are explained away as the
result of parental pressure, theres scant incentive to remain upright.
At Home in Church, Uneasy in the World
One benefit of the pastors home is familiarity with church life, but the flip side is that the family
may feel alienated from the unchurched world. For many in the church, and even more in the
outside world, the pastors family is a peculiar people, more holy than normal, and thus assumed
to be uninterested in ordinary human life.
Our girls sometimes found they werent invited to friends parties because we know youre a
ministers daughter and cant come, said Sally Conway. One woman apologized to me years
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later for not including me at Tupperware or Avon parties because we thought you wouldnt be
interested in what we talk about.
A number of pastoral families said they deeply appreciated the significance of ministry, but the
image of the minister, at least to those outside the church, was something they had to endure.
Many preachers kids said they wanted to live up to the example of their dads moral character,
but they had to live down what other people thought about his profession.
I admired my dad and my granddad. Many times I thought, I want to be like them, said a third-
generation pastor. But I sure had questions about the ministerial image: the schedule, the way
people looked at you, the way they thought of you. I didnt want to be holy all the time. I didnt
want to cough in a deeper voice.
Another said, I was fortunate in that Dad was very athletic. He was an all-star football player,
and even now hes very active in tennis and water skiing. So I didnt have that image of the
pastorate. My resistance was slightly different. I told myself, Im gonna be secular. Not profane,
but secular. With Christ living in me, I want to be comfortable with non-Christians. I didnt want
to be a minister who was uncomfortable in secular surroundings.
An interesting ambivalence. So many grown children of pastors have deep appreciation for the
way they were raised, yet they confess that in school, the pressure from their peers was so great
that none was ready to stand up and say, I am a pastors kid! Most of the time they hoped
people didnt talk about their dads vocation. There was profound respect for the man, but
embarrassment over the role.
Its a matter of cultural dissonance, said one pastors son, now grown and pastoring himself in
Southern California. My comfort zone was inside the subculture of the church. From birth, Ive
been trained how to act in this environment. But the outside culture, at least in my upbringing,
was presented as so bad, so evil, that I couldnt help but be uncomfortable when I was outside
church settings. Any time I heard profanity at school, Id find myself asking the Lord to forgive
me for hearing it. With this overactivated guilt mechanism, I lived a dual life, trying to straddle
two cultures.
I wish Id understood then that some differences are largely cultural. Ive been trying to
sensitize our high school Christians to that fact, and it takes some of the stress off. I tell them,
You dont have to act in a secular culture the way you act in a Christian culture. Its okay not to
use Christian vocabulary in a secular culture. What youre doing is almost missionary work. You
have to learn cross-cultural communication. Had I know that in high school, I think I could have
existed better with a sense of cultural relevance instead of seeing everything as necessarily a
spiritual compromise.
The term now is nerd. I dont know what it was then, maybe clod or square, but whatever it
was, I didnt want to be one, said H. B. London, another pastor who was raised in a pastors
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home. I would do anything not to be square or nerdishto the point of rejecting many of the
things I knew better. As an only child, I didnt have anybody at home who was facing these
things with me. So my peer acceptance was not at home; not even at church, because those
people didnt matter to me that much. It was at school where it seemed so important that I was
accepted. I did not want to be a nerd. And to be the son or daughter of a pastor is, unfortunately,
still seen by some as being culturally out of touch.
Perhaps this ambivalence goes back to societys sliding evaluation of the office of pastor. At one
time, the ministry was one of the most respected professions. These days, when they rank the
prestigious professions, ministers dont even make the list. So family members move from the
church, where their relationship with the pastor brings a measure of respect, to the outside
culture, where if people find out theyre related to a pastor, they tend to be put off.
The Concentration Trap
A person with rigid work hours looks at the pastors freedom and says, Boy, I wish I had that
flexibility. But the blessing also has its down side. A pastor is never really off duty. A minister
cant punch a timecard at 5 P.M. and say, Well, thats all for today. Hes never free of
responsibility. The issues of ministrythe next sermon, an upcoming confrontation, a
counseling situationstick in the back of his mind, even when trying to enjoy time with the
family.
This can lead to a condition of physically present but mentally absent. Pastors arent the only
ones afflicted by this condition, of course, but it does seem to be an occupational hazard of
ministry.
One pastors son recalls: There were several times when Dad and I would be playing catch,
enjoying one anothers company, and suddenly the phone would ring. Dad would answer, and
Id wait for him to come back out. Sometimes he wouldnt, and the game was over. Other times
hed come back out, and wed throw the ball some more, but something was different. He was
there, but his mind wasnt. I figured it had something to do with the phone call. I came to hate
the sound of a telephone ringing. More often than not, it seemed, it cost me my dad.
Feeling Used
Yet another reality of being a pastoral family: being in demand. While that can be affirming, it
also has its difficulties.
One pastor said, My wife struggles with loneliness. The worst part is that whenever someone in
the congregation befriends her, shes never sure if its genuine friendship or if, after a while, the
person will say, Dont you think we really need to renovate the nursery (or start a program for
the handicapped, or paint the sanctuary, or hire a youth director, or ).
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For the pastors family, its sometimes hard to know if people genuinely like you or if youre
being set up. Even if people arent actually trying to get something, often members of the
pastors family wonder if theyre liked for who they are or for what they represent.
My wife and I were taken out for a nice dinner and play by a couple in the church, said one
pastor. We thoroughly enjoyed the evening, but within a week, we heard from five different
families, How was My Fair Lady? or I hear you got together with the Lindquists. Arent they
nice folks? It was obvious the Lindquists had managed to let the word out that they had done
something special for the pastors family.
The pastor concluded, We felt used. We talked it over and decided that as soon as it becomes
apparent that someone is publicizing his special relationship with our family, we wont accept
any more invitations from that person.
Some might view that as an oversensitive reaction, but to one degree or another, most pastoral
families can easily relate to the feeling of being used.
Making the Most of the Ministry
Randy Pope grew up as the son of a dentist, and as he reflects on his upbringing, he lends some
perspective to the experience of ministry families.
When I was growing up, my father was a dentist. And dentistry, I learned later, is one of the
professions with the highest rates of suicide. I dont know all the reasons why, but I can imagine
some: you have to take out large loans to get started, youre forced to do precise work in a very
confined area (a mouth), you inflict pain and discomfort, people dread seeing you, youre rarely
paid promptly.
But I never heard my dad say anything negative about his profession. I only heard him talk
about the benefits: Isnt it great that I dont get called in the middle of the night like surgeons
do? Im sure thankful people dont die from dental problems. Dentistry is a great way to help
people. Im really fortunate to be a dentist.
Randy says, As a result of my dads outlook, there was a time in my adolescence when I wanted
to be a dentist, not because I knew anything about it but because my dad had convinced me it
was a privilege.
Randy Pope did not become a dentist, however. Hes a pastorat Perimeter Church in Atlanta.
But hes trying to do for his children what his father did for himto show them that the work he
does is not a problem but a privilege.

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FOUR
EXPECTATIONS
Be not angry that you cannot make others as you wish them to be, since you cannot make
yourself as you wish to be.
THOMAS KEMPIS
Never sacrifice the permanent on the altar of the immediate.
BOB KRAYNING
When we candidated at our church, said a pastors wife from Wisconsin, I passed out cards
and asked people to write what they expected of me. The answers were so diverse: inviting
members into our home, chairing the womens group, writing a column for the newsletter,
teaching Sunday school, singing in the choir, directing the Christmas pageant. Some others said,
We expect you only to concentrate on your family so your husband is free to minister to the
church.
She concluded, I thought if I tried to please the Lord Id please the church. But it doesnt always
work that way.
Children of pastors also feel expectations. One of the most common is the need to be everyones
friend but nobodys best friend. The pastor of a rural church in Kansas explained that hed
recently had to have a talk with his 8-year-old daughter, Shandra. She had a special friendship
with her classmate Melissa, but another girl her age in the church felt left out. The other girls
parents complained to the pastor that Shandra was ignoring their daughter.
Shandra wasnt consciously ignoring the other girl, said the pastor. She simply felt closer to
Melissa, and they did things together. But I talked with Shandra and explained the importance of
making everyone in Sunday school feel welcome. Shes conscious that part of our role in the
church is to help befriend everyone.
The Odd Assortment
The surveys and interviews identified some of the commonly felt expectationssome legitimate,
some difficult, some impossible:
They expect our family to be an example. This is legitimate and not a problem except when this
means there are two sets of standards: one for the pastors family and one for everyone else.
My 3-year-old is the church kid, with an abundance of spiritual aunts and uncles. Of course
being a celebrity can be both an advantage and a disadvantage. With everyone feeling like they
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know her, they expect her to be friendly and give everyone a hug. Sometimes after church shes
tired, and people still try to get her to say something cute.
Our daughters werent wild about being expected to bail out teachers or youth leaders stumped
by theological questions. More than once they found an adult turning their way to ask, What do
you think? Why did God send Abraham to Israel instead of India?
They expect to see parents fully in control of their children.
They expect our family to be fully involved in the church and fully involved in the community.
They expect my wife to be very active as a teacher, worker, etc. Because my wife works a full-
time job, this isnt always possible.
They expect me to be at meetings I really dont need to attend. One Christmas we were
expected to attend eight Christmas parties of different groups in the church.
They expect my wife and kids to be at every church function. We hear about it if my wife
doesnt attend one of the womens meetings or if my daughter opts out of the youth social.
They expect us to have the answers and to meet their needs. Its hard for them to see us in the
battle also. They think weve graduated!
They expect our children to attend Christian schools.
They expect us to always be availableseven days a week, twenty-four hours a dayto put
their needs first, and to work for low pay.
Im not aware of special expectations for the family, but they expect 100 percent availability
from the pastor, and toleration of their demands from the family. They dont understand that the
pastor has a legitimate obligation to spend time with family away from church activities.
One female pastor wrote: My spouse and I used to go away for two days, one week out of each
month. I got flak for this from one woman, who told me, Youre only supposed to have one day
off per week. Youre gypping the church out of twelve days a year!
When I asked one pastors wife if her congregation had special expectations for her and her
family, she said thoughtfully, I dont know if the problem is expectations so much as lack of
appreciation. Whatever my children do or I do, its seen as what we should be doing rather than
an expression of commitment and service to the church just like any other family. Somehow
people think its easy for me to teach Sunday school, host the youth group, lead the ladies Bible
study, and plan bridal showerswhile everyone else can beg off as too busy.
It isnt only adults who put pressure on the pastors family. The kids peers are sometimes just as
guilty. Remembers one pastor: One of our daughters used to complain that the president of the
youth group would never begin the meeting until she was there, even though she wasnt an
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officer. So even though she was usually on time, attention was called to the times when she was
late. She resented this, because anyone else could slip in unnoticed. Im sure the leader was not
trying to embarrass her. He just felt more comfortable when she was there to help the discussion.
But my explaining that to her didnt make her feel any better. Young people as well as adults
tend to think that ministers kids should behave better, take more responsibility, and be, if not
more spiritual, at least more knowledgeable about spiritual matters than other children.
Sources of the Irritation
Expectations come from a variety of sources: peoples preferences, their understanding of
Scripture, their previous experience with pastors families.
Usually the problem is not that any one person thinks the pastors family should do too much
its that there are so many different ideas of what they should do and be.
I find very few individuals with unrealistic expectationsits the composite image that gets to
you, says Mike Halcomb, who pastored in Milwaukee before assuming a denominational post.
And rarely does anyone outside the pastoral family see the composite.
Sometimes the expectations of two different people are mutually exclusive, such as when some
church members expect the pastors teenagers to be leaders, role models, and comfortable in the
spotlightand others dont want them getting any special considerations.
Other times the demands, while not mutually exclusive, may pull in different directions. Jim
Conway describes the strain this put on him and his family:
Our first church after seminary was in a small town where a number of our families were
farmers. I decided we needed to be up and going when the farmers started their day. At least I
wanted the light on in my study before dawn. But the church also had businessmen who worked
into the evening hours. So it was necessary, I felt, to please them by serving late at night with
various business meetings, speaking engagements, and visitation appointments.
One day our preschool daughter said to Sally, I hate the church, because it takes my daddy
away from me. When I heard that, it was like being stabbed. I was sacrificing my family to
make the church happy with me.
Pastors and their families cannot simply dismiss expectations, refuse to be what the congregation
desires, and live as they please. If they do, they quickly develop an adversarial role, becoming
oversensitive to violations of their rights, which often leads to an arrogant, independent spirit that
hurts their ability to minister.
Expectations are part of any relationship. My three sons have expectations of how we spend
money, how we behave, and where we take vacations, said Mike Halcomb. All these have to
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be sorted, negotiated, and discussed. And thats the way it is in the church family, too. Ministry
involves creative redefining and redirecting of expectations.
Its a fine line, says Pastor Stuart Briscoe, and requires open communication about what may
be impossible demands.
How do pastors and their families go about walking that fine line?
Handling Expectations
It helps to admit that certain expectations are legitimate. Congregations naturally will expect the
ministers family to fit into church life. Its also normal for church members to watch the
pastors family as an example of Christian parents trying their best to raise a Christian family.
And many ministry families are happy to accept these expectations.
We need to let our congregation know were a normal family with normal struggles but that
were learning to work through these trouble areas, said a pastors wife. If a pastors family
cannot give assurance that they find hope and answers in Scripture, how can they minister?
One pastor put it this way: Congregations need to know, and want to know, that the pastors
family isnt trouble free. But they also need to know it isnt troublesome. Between those two
poles is where we must come to terms with expectations.
It also helps to recognize that expectations arent all bad; some are even beneficial. Joseph
Stowell reflects on the shaping influence they were on him: I think being a PK, being in the
public eye, helped forge my life. What grated against me at the time actually became a part of
my training. Learning to live with people watching you, learning to show deference to people,
living with people who expect more of you than they would of othersI appreciate that now.
For him, those expectations were a plus, something to live up to. It was training time, said
Stowell, because the rest of my life I was going to live in this fish bowl. When I graduated from
seminary, I asked my father what I should dobe an assistant pastor? He said, No. Go right into
the pastorate. Youve grown up in a pastors home. Go for it. Growing up in a pastors home is
a seminary education in itself. You develop a sixth sense for the issues of ministry.
Pastors wife Bonnie Halcomb discovered that the expectations of the congregation helped her to
grow. Occasionally people make requests of mepublic speaking, for instanceand Ill think,
Theres no way! That just isnt me. And yet I pray about it, decide to give it a try, and many
times discover that not through my strength but the Lords, I am able to. It is a growing
experience (and gives me even more appreciation for my husband). Sometimes expectations
push us, making us grow in ways we wouldnt otherwise. You cant just automatically say no.
Maybe God is opening a door.
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Other expectations may be legitimate, but only a minor considerationthe way the pastor and
his family dress, for example. Said one pastor: Our society is more forgiving now than it was
years ago about clothing. But Im still sensitive, especially when someone takes me to meet
business associates or to a community group. Initial impressions are important. I dont want my
dress to detract from what Im trying to do.
But I hope weve gotten past the point where smoking a pipe makes you a theologian, growing
a beard makes you a counselor, or wearing pinstripes makes you authoritative. Expectations
about dress are legitimate but not very substantive.
Still other expectations, however, may not be legitimate or beneficial, and the best way to handle
some of these is with laughter. We always laugh when we think of the time we announced we
would be adopting our first son, said Bonnie Halcomb. One little old lady came to my husband
and said, Thats how every pastor and his wife should have children. She thought pastors
should be sexless!
Expectations become dangerous when they push a family to live a lie. One mother explained,
You want to please the congregation, and since you think they expect your children to perform
in a certain way, you put pressure on them to do so, often without realizing it.
As another mother put it, There have been times when the kids had the feeling we were more
concerned about our image than we were about them.
Blending Expectation and Acceptance
Parents have discovered a key in helping children live effectively in the church environment is
blending high expectations with unconditional acceptance. Both are important. If children sense
only the high expectations without the acceptance, they feel alone, beaten down. If they receive
only acceptance, even for subpar behavior, they can grow up unchallenged and spoiled.
Donald Miller, who grew up in a pastors home and went on to become pastor of a Christian and
Missionary Alliance Church in Missouri, says, As I was growing up, I was aware I was a PK,
and often the reason was that other folks reminded me of it. If I did something that the older
generation didnt agree with, they were quick to say, Now we would expect that from other
children but not from the preachers children. I didnt get that kind of admonition at home. We
were just kids like everyone else. There were standards in our home that other homes didnt
have, but it was explained to us that it was because ours was a Christian home, not a preachers
home.
At times even preachers kids will argue, But the Smiths are Christians, and they let their kids
see R-rated videos at birthday parties.
In the face of that kind of pressure, Millers parents didnt relent, but neither did they hide
behind the pastoral image.
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Rather than being reminded that I was a PK, I was reminded of the importance of our name
(we are Millers!). I was urged to live in such a way as not to bring shame to the name and thus
to the family. So at home we were treated like the growing children we were.
How do parents show acceptance even in the midst of expectations? One practical way is making
sure the children know their parents are easily accessibleeven when church work is heavy.
My kids always stop by the church on their way home from school, says an Iowa pastor. Id
rather be interrupted during my office work and hear about their day than to make them feel Dad
was off limits. They dont stay long, but it seems to be important for them to be able to walk in
on their own.
Another way is to know your childrens individual personality traits and to adjust the
expectations accordingly.
Hank and Mary Simon, who minister in a Lutheran church near St. Louis, have two girls, Christy
and Angela.
Christy is extremely left-brained, says Mary. Shes very organized, almost perfectionistic,
and places very high expectations on herself. Shes the one who will come home from school,
automatically get out her books, and do not only her homework but extra credit and tomorrows
lesson, too. We dont push her because she puts so many demands on herself. Christy is socially
tentative when meeting new people.
Angela, on the other hand, is right-brained. She doesnt worry about details. After a spelling
test, for instance, she may say, Ive got the right letters in there; theyre just a little mixed up.
Whats the big deal? But shes very intuitive and good with people. Its no big deal for her to go
up to people at church and give them a hug. But wed never ask Christy to do that.
Identifying and accepting the particular traits of family members is the essential first step in
determining legitimate expectations to help them stretch.
Adjusting Expectations
At times, we learn to live with expectations. At other times, however, its necessary to adjust the
attitudes of the congregation.
One pastors wife gives a concrete example of one situation most ministry families face:
A constant interruption in our lives is the telephone. Besides the normal calls that any woman
receives, the pastors wife must take a large number of calls for her husband. If he is not at the
church, people call the house for him. If he is not here (which is usually the case), the caller often
asks his question of me. Likely as not I have no idea what the problem is about, but I have to
listen anyway.
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There also seem to be a number of people in every congregation who always call the parsonage
first when looking for the pastor. In spite of the fact that his study is at church, they seem to have
the idea that he spends his time hanging around the house. When they are told that hes at the
church, they act surprised. And the next time they call the house again.
I have been late for appointments on many occasions because of phone calls at the last minute. I
often think I should take the phone off the hook while I am preparing to leave, and quickly put it
back before I go out the door. But I never do.
One pastors wife, realizing her housework and other obligations were suffering, began to keep
track of the time spent on calls for her husband. In one two-week period she spent an average of
three hours a day listening to people who really wanted to talk to her husband.
What can be done about this kind of expectation? Can you adjust it? Of those we surveyed, 58
percent of the pastors (and 42 percent of the spouses) said they had tried to change
congregational expectations for their families. How did they do it?
1. Brief the congregation. Many pastors tell the congregation they expect their family to be
treated like any other family in the churchno more and no less than any other church members.
This message, most often, is communicated to the search committee and the church board before
accepting a call, although some pastors communicate the message even more widely.
One pastor told the entire congregation: My biggest fear and greatest challenge is to minister
well both to my family and to you in the church body. I dont want to be forced into a situation
where I must choose between the welfare of my kids and the well-being of my ministry. But I
want to state publicly that if that ever were the case, I would choose for my kids. You might call
it a previous commitment. I want you to know that now.
And secondly, I want you to know that were human. And that means there will be times when
my kids are going to embarrass me. You can count on it. And my kids want me also to say there
will be times when my behavior will embarrass them. I think thats what they call a well-
balanced family.
This pastor has found the light-hearted reminder has been well-received and helps defuse some
of the over blown expectations.
Donald Bubna, who pastors a Christian and Missionary Alliance church in British Columbia, has
also been very direct with the congregations he has pastored. He reinforces his message almost
annually. My wife was raised in a parsonage, usually right next door to the church. Because of
her somewhat negative experiences with that, we determined that we would be frequent in
extending hospitality, but that our home would be our home, a refuge, not an extension of the
church, not a place for church business. Therefore, it was not a place for phone calls unless they
were of a social nature or an emergency.
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So every year at the annual meeting, after I make my report, I make a statement of appreciation
for the peoples love for our family. And Ill say something like, And I want you to feel free to
call me at home any time theres an emergency and you need me. But if its not an emergency,
please call me at the office during regular hours. I put it very positively. And in the last fifteen
years of ministry, Ive averaged perhaps one phone call a night. It hasnt been a problem.
Bubna also took steps, while his children were growing up, to neutralize the expectations on
them.
At elders meetings, from time to time, Id thank the board members for accepting our children
as they were and not putting pressure on them to be different from their own children. But Id go
on to say, Your acceptance means so much, and so does the fact that you believe in them. You
believe our children will not ultimately fail, and therefore they wont. I tried to create a climate
that balanced acceptance and positive expectation. And they responded well to that.
2. Demonstrate your values. Mike Halcomb says, I was criticized for announcing a service of
house blessing soon after we bought our home. It was with Bonnies consent, but some women
in the church thought Id done it behind her back because we had the service before wed
cleaned thoroughly, and the house needed some fixing up.
But we wanted to communicate something. First, our home is an extension of our ministry, a
place of ministry. Second, if we wait until everything is in apple-pie order before inviting others
over, wed probably never practice hospitality. We wanted to dash right away any expectation
that our home would be picture perfect. Wed rather model something elsehospitality amid the
clutter of livingperhaps giving people freedom to use their own homes as places of ministry.
3. If necessary, politely but firmly make your concerns known to key people. One Kansas
pastors wife says, Our daughter was always the one expected to do the prayers or devotions for
church meetings and even 4-H clubs. She said she wished theyd let someone else be the
priestess. I eventually talked with the leaders and asked if they could pass the responsibility
around. Fortunately, they were very understanding.
4. Dont live for the church alone. Most pastors periodically remind themselves, yes, God is the
head of the church, but the church is not God. He is the only one worthy of our souls.
One way to keep aware of the difference between Gods interests and the congregations is
deliberately to develop hobbies and friendships outside the local church.
We have found other professionals, such as doctors and business people as well as pastors and
laity from other churches, to be good stimulators for us. They remind us of what God is doing in
the larger world, said one pastor.
Others find that joining a computer club, a community organization, the PTA, or Little League
not only helps keep this perspective, but also builds significant ties to the wider community.
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5. Focus on whats truly important. Its easy to be distracted by expectations. In his book The
Little House on the Freeway, Tim Kimmel, who ministers in Arizona, has a highly personal
approach to keeping perspective:
In my desperation to remember my priorities, I have set six individually framed pictures across
the upper shelf of my rolltop desk at work. The picture on the left is of the Jameson Memorial
Hospital in New Castle, Pennsylvania. Thats where I was born. The picture on the right is of a
six-foot-high granite monument that stands in the middle of the Graceland Cemetery just outside
this same town. You cant miss the word KIMMEL carved on its side. The earth beneath it
conceals the remains of several generations of my family. The four pictures that sit between
these two outer pictures are of Darcy (my wife), Karis, Cody, and Shiloh (my children).
What we do for a living has a way of absorbing our attention. Its demands are so great and its
ego satisfaction so intoxicating that it can easily become the focus of our lives. I love my work,
but I dont want it to become the heart of my existencemy reason for living. Thats why I have
those pictures strategically placed on my desk. When I look up from my studies, I come eye level
with a reminder of my purpose. Stealing a peek at them several times a day has a way of keeping
my work (and my life) in proper perspective. In the brief moment it takes me to scan them I
receive a message in the cluttered back rooms of my brain.
The pictures say, Dont forget, Tim, this is where you checked in (the hospital), this is where
youre checking out (the cemetery), and these four people in the middle are why you are here.
All in all, expectations benefit us when they cause us to examine our priorities, when they
sensitize us to our faults, and when they bump us out of personal ruts. They harm us if they keep
us from being true to the Lord or to our calling.

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FIVE
HOW TO BALANCE
CHURCH AND
FAMILY
Your family is not apart from your ministry; its a part of your ministry.
HOWARD HENDRICKS
A generation ago, a man wrote in his Bible, Let my heart be broken with the things that break
the heart of God. That rule ordered his life.
For twenty years, he scurried from Korea to Africa to China to India to Europe saving souls,
housing orphans, and building hospitals. Through his documentary films, radio broadcasts, and
personal appearances, he awakened the social consciousness of an entire generation of American
Christians. In the process, he formed a worldwide relief organization, World Vision, that
continues to be one of the most effective Christian relief agencies. The mans name was Bob
Pierce.
But while Bob Pierce was reaching the world, he had greater difficulty embracing those closest
to him. He accepted the axiom, If I take care of Gods business, God will take care of my
family. His consuming work kept him away from home for months at a time. Relational
distance increased as time with his family decreased.
He grew sullen, even hostile, toward his family and in time was legally separated from his wife.
One child committed suicide; another married prematurely and was soon divorced.
Soon even his closest associates found it impossible to work with him; they removed him from
the organization he had begun. He became bitter and reclusive, suffering bouts of severe
depression.
Only on his deathbed did he manage one shining evening of reconciliation with his alienated
wife and family. He died at peace, but his family life, in many ways, was still in pieces.
The story of Bob Pierce haunts many of us who are commited to wholehearted service for Christ.
Must family be sacrificed to accomplish something great for God?
In the corporate world, many would say greatness does come at just such a price. In Tom Peters
and Nancy Austins book A Passion for Excellence, they write, We are frequently asked if it is
possible to have it alla full and satisfying personal life and a full and satisfying, hard-
working professional one. Our answer is: No. The price of excellence is time, energy, attention,
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focus, at the very same time that energy, attention, focus could have gone toward enjoying your
daughters soccer game. Excellence is a high-cost item.
Or consider what David Ogilvy observed in Confessions of an Advertising Man: If you prefer
to spend all your spare time growing roses or playing with your children, I like you better, but do
not complain that youre not being promoted fast enough.
Granted, Christian accomplishment is measured by a different gauge than the corporate ladder.
Wed all acknowledge, even in ministry, that we need to put time, energy, and concentration into
our effort. But the story of Bob Pierce has forced many of us to ask the tough questions: Is God
honored by a life of tremendous public achievement but private disarray? Does God really call
Bob Pierceor call you and meto build temple after temple while the foundation of our own
families, also a gift from God, crumbles around our feet?
None of us is willing to say so. And yet, the temptation to sacrifice family for ministry, to put
other people before spouse and children, continues. Why?
In many cases it is a genuine love for people and a desire to meet their needs, says Richard
Strauss, but I wonder if other motives dont also cloud the issue. Sometimes we feel a great
need for affirmation, but our families see us as we are and dont always give it. Since we can be
a hero to a struggling person over there, we spend the time where we get the most praise.
Some clergy admit that their work is their escape. I was using my ministry to avoid my family,
confesses one minister. When my children got on my nerves, I would say, Well, Ive got to
make some calls, which was truethere are always calls to makebut I wasnt being fair to my
family.
A lot of ministry is fungetting up in front of people, teaching them how to live their lives,
confesses another. At times its a lot more fun than being home changing diapers. And if youve
got an excuse to get out seven nights a week, I mean, what wife can argue with God? But thats
unfair.
Perhaps because of the sad experiences of people like Bob Pierce, perhaps recognizing the basic
unfairness of neglecting family to attend to ministry, the trend in more recent days seems to be
going the other direction. More and more pastors are refocusing on the family.
In some cases, this can be healthy. As one minister put it: I continually have to remind myself I
am not indispensable, not personally responsible for the salvation of the world. I am responsible
for touching the lives around meespecially my family.
This approach, however, can be taken too far. Currently, the most sacrosanct reason for refusing
church responsibilities is that it would take away time that I need to give to my family. Say
that, and who can argue? End of conversation. The danger is that we can become selfishly
myopic, turning our hearts toward home but our backs to the needs of the world.
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A few years ago, Ben Patterson made a highly unpopular observation in LEADERSHIP: More
than once the command to go into all the world and make disciples has put a strain on family life.
So has the call to be hospitable to strangers, visit the sick, feed the hungry, and clothe the naked.
But today, Christians can avoid the problematic areas of discipleship in the name of sustaining
family life. It is increasingly easy to justify extravagant expenditures on vacations, recreational
vehicles, and home improvements because it helps build the family. The truth of the matter is
that the family has become a convenient excuse for turning our backs on other people. We want
to be left alone to cultivate our own little patch of ground.
Patterson has a point. But so do those who want to avoid the sad example of Bob Pierce. The
challenge is to be faithful to both our family and our calling. The question becomes, How?
The Delicate Balance
Not long ago I was talking with a pastor who has helped bring renewal to his church and whose
family seems to be healthy and strong. By outward appearances, he is doing both extremely well.
But when I asked about how he balanced family and ministry, his answer surprised me.
At any given point in my life, he said, I can feel good about my ministry or I can feel good
about my involvement with my family, but Im never able to feel good about them both at the
same time.
Its a rare moment when we feel totally on top of both church and family responsibilities. Add
the responsibility for personal spiritual growth into the mix, and its even rarer to feel everything
is where it ought to be. We all know the surest way to induce guilt is to ask someone, Hows
your prayer life? Ninety-nine percent of the answers will be Not what it ought to be or I wish
I could do more.
An Episcopal rector from Washington, D.C., says, In church ministry and family life, theres
always more to do than you possibly can. But that comes with the territory. Thats true of any
person of vision and energy and drive. Lots of professional people are charged with tasks bigger
than themselves. You have to learn to live with a certain lack of satisfaction.
But learning to live with that sense of being continually behind doesnt eliminate the problem.
There are still decisions to be made about how we spend our time. How do we decide where we
will concentrate our efforts?
Priorities Arent the Problem
Virtually every Christian today would say that the priorities in life are God first, family second,
and career third. Some, I realize, would take issue with that order. One pastor wrote, If family
is second only to God, what does that say to the full third of our population that is single? Gods
supreme will for us is holiness, not marriage and family. There is nothing distinctly Christian
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about a strong family. Buddhists have them, secular humanists have them, and, I presume, even
the Mafia has them.
I wont take time to debate fully those issues. Ill assume, based on the fact youre reading a
book on the family, that you give it high priority. For our purposes, lets assume the God first,
family second, career third list is legitimate. The problem is figuring out how to base our lives
on our priorities. What does it mean to say God is first? How, specifically, do we put him first?
Perhaps you, like I, have heard people say, The two surest gauges of your priorities are your
calendar and your checkbook. Does that mean we should spend more hours alone with God than
we spend with family members? Or are we serving God by doing Gods work? If so, then is
church work the way we put God first? Or is church work our career, a lower priority? The
question of priorities easily slides into sophistry.
In addition, the pastor is responsible for two families: the church family and his natural family.
Both are given by God. Both are means of serving God. As one pastor wrote: The New
Testament order is to see family life flowing out of the life of the church. The church doesnt
need the family; the family needs the church. The family must be planted in the soil of a vital
Christian community if it is to bear the fruit it was meant to bear. Thus, to work for the health of
the family, we must work for the health of the church.
Perhaps the greatest problem with the God first, family second, career third perspective is that
real-life situations cant be quite so neatly arranged. Responsibilities simply dont line up first-
second-third. At different times, God, family, and career must each be given our full attention.
The issue becomes: When does God deserve my full attention? When does my family deserve
my full attention? When does the church deserve my full attention? In practice, priorities cant be
stacked like blocks.
To put it another way, we cant watch three showsno matter how goodat once. So constantly
were forced to ask, Which channel do I turn to? And for how long?
How much time should I spend alone with God? Too little time and I shrivel spiritually. But too
much time alone can be an escape from other God-given responsibilities.
Likewise, too much time with family can be seen as laziness. One associate pastor repeatedly
showed up late to the office and took extra days off without the boards permission. His reason:
Its important to me to spend time with my family. The board members agreed
wholeheartedly; they decided to relieve him of his responsibilities (and salary) so he could find
another position more in line with his priorities.
On a lighter note, a recent New Yorker cartoon shows a woman hanging up the phone, her
children standing around with horrified expressions. Shes saying, Bad news, kids. Dad just quit
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his job to spend more time with the family. Even family members arent always sure just how
much they want Dad around.
And, yes, too much time can be spent on church work. Theres nothing more intoxicating than
the adrenaline released by running a smooth operation, says Wayne Jacobsen of The Saviors
Community in Visalia, California. Ive been in a position where eight decisions demanded my
immediate attention, with two phone calls holding and a counseling appointment in the lobby.
Its exhilarating, and the appreciation expressed by many people for our efforts is part of the
brewbut the rush of personal importance has nothing to do with the affirmation of the Spirit.
No, serving the church is not necessarily serving God.
God, family, careereach is important. None can be neglected.
I asked one pastor how he balanced family time with church work, and he said, With difficulty!
Whichever one Im concentrating on, my conscience tells me I should be spending more time on
the other.
Right now, Im away from my family writing this book about family life, an irony that hasnt
been lost on me, nor on my wife, Susan. You, in turn, are reading this chapter, and in so doing,
you are not at this moment involved in deep and meaningful interaction with your family. And
yet, Im convinced (and I trust you are, too) that this exercise is worth the investment. Both my
family and yours will be strengthened because of the time weve put into this book.
The point of all this? Simply that its difficult to define when were serving God, when were
serving the family, and when were serving our career. Thats true of pipefitters who work for
the glory of God and the sustenance of their families; its even more true of pastors who work in
the church.
The issue is not simply getting priorities in the right order; its fitting them together and finding
room for them all. And that challenge never endseven for a family specialist like James
Dobson. I must admit that the problem of balancing career, church, and family is a constant
struggle, he says. It is rarely possible to realign priorities once and for all. An imbalance can
occur in a matter of days. The moment I relax and congratulate myself for having practiced what
I preach, I tend to say yes a few times when I should have said noand suddenly Im
overworked again.
Instead of seeing God, church, and family as competing demands, I find it helpful to imagine
church and family as the two seats of a teeter-totter, and God as the fulcrum underneath. We
arent expected to sit in both seats simultaneously (though we may find ourselves, like daring
kids, standing somewhere in the middle with a foot on each side of the balance point). The
amount of weight we need to place on either side is determined by our God-measured priorities.
Where we place our energies at a particular time will vary, depending on where were needed
most.
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But all our efforts, whether with the church or our families, are undergirded by the Lord. He is
the pivot point for both family life and church life.
Whether were concentrating on the church or focusing on the family, our task is to make the
most of our efforts. There are a number of helps for maximizing our efforts in ministry. (One of
them, of course, is LEADERSHIP, a journal Im a bit partial toward.) But Ive not found many
resources directed at pastors who want to maximize their efforts with their families. So lets turn
our attention to that concern.

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SIX
THE BATTLE
God, who is liberal in all his other gifts, shows us, by the wise economy of his providence, how
circumspect we ought to be in the management of our time, for he never gives us two moments
together.
FRANOIS FENELON
Time is what we want most, but what, alas, we use worst.
WILLIAM PENN
Ministers who want to make the most of their family time immediately bump into a
complication: the skills required for being a loving parent and spousecheerful leadership,
attentive listening, nourishing words, caringare the same ones demanded by the pastorate. This
can be an advantage if the nurturing skills developed in ministry can be applied to the family.
But it can be a decided disadvantage if the people helper finds his people-helping capacity
given over to the church family during the day and depleted by the time he leaves the office. The
family gets whatever happens to be left over.
Keith Meyer, who pastors in Maple Grove, Minnesota, said, One day, half an hour after Id
walked in the door, my son came up to me and said, Are you home yet, Dad? He knew it took
me a while to reenter the family after a day at the church.
Other pastors know the feeling of not being all there even when theyre there. No one is happy
with a half-attentive zombie. Are there ways to improve the quality of our time with our
families?
Strategies for Quality Control
The first strategy is to be sure that at the end of the day you bring something home: a healthy
attitude. That can begin before you ever leave the church.
One pastor in Canada makes sure to work off some of his tension before he gets home. Sitting
at my desk all day is a sure way to guarantee Ill be edgy when I come home, he said. So now I
make sure I take a brisk walk sometime during the day. Even if I have a full day, I find that one
of my conferences can become a walking conversation, and well walk for an hour. Thats a
great tension reliever.
To remind herself that her day isnt over when she leaves the church, the director of childrens
ministries at a church in South Dakota has jotted a quote from Socrates (apparently the
temptations in 450 B.C. werent too different from today): If I could get to the highest place in
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Athens, I would lift up my voice and say, What say ye, fellow citizens, that ye turn every stone
to scrape wealth together, and take so little care of your children to whom ye must one day
relinquish all. Shes reminded that the pursuit of wealthwhether material goods or spiritual
treasureis vain if we overlook our heirs.
A second strategy is to make a definite mental switch on the way home. Or, if thats not possible,
do something once you arrive that signals to yourself and your family that youre home at last.
We have a standing joke in our house: Dad isnt home until his tie comes off, says a minister
in Indiana. I usually shower, shave, and change my clothes when I get home. It refreshes me
and helps me make the transition to family life.
Its hard to make that mental switch. Reliving the day is natural, but we can spend so much time
thinking about the church and what we can do to improve its quality of life that theres not
enough think-time left for the people closest to us. And even though we may be preoccupied
with church problems, or simply fatigued, our mental vacancy is interpreted by our family as
disinterest. Maybe we are disinterestedafter listening to people all day, it can be hard to be
attentive to a 4-year-olds chatter. Those times call for heroic action: putting aside lofty thoughts
of ministry (and putting down the newspaper) to make eye contact and enjoy a few minutes of
touching and talking with the other important people in our lives.
A third strategy is to let the family know youve been thinking about them in your absence. For
some, this means recounting conversations during the day in which you were able to say a good
word about some family member. Or perhaps its something you give them when you arrivean
interesting story from the days activity, or something more tangible.
A minister recalls, When I was in seminary, my children were preschoolers. I stopped at the
library every day on my way home and checked out one childrens book to read to them. They
knew I was thinking about them while I was away, and I was compelled to sit down with them as
soon as I came home. This minister adds, My temptation is to put my family on holdat least
until they snatch me back, sometimes vigorously. But if I am too busy for my family right now,
I will be too busy for them ten years from now. And they will learn that being too busy for ones
family is acceptable, for I will have taught them that lesson myself.
A fourth strategy is to remember the family deserves at least the same care any other parishioner
would get. Being away from the church doesnt mean all responsibilities are over. When Gordon
MacDonald was pastoring in Lexington, Massachusetts, he learned this the hard way: It used to
be my habit to be comfortable on Monday mornings and come to the breakfast table unshaved,
unwashed, and generally undressed. One day my wife asked me, Why are you so carefully
dressed and groomed for God and the congregation on Sunday?
I said, I want to offer them my best.
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Then what are you saying to the family by the way you dressor dont dresson Monday?
she asked. Pow! She had me. From then on, whenever were together as a couple or as a family,
Im careful to be as sharp and alert as possible in my mental attitude, dress, and common
courtesies. Whatever I would offer to church members, I want to offer that and more, if possible,
to my own family.
A fifth strategy is to control the telephone, that invader of family privacy. While its not possible
or desirable to eliminate peoples access to you via the phone, some pastoral families have found
it beneficial to limit it at certain times.
At times we turn the phone off when were home at night so were not prisoners in our own
house.
We take the phone off the hook during supper or moments of family discussion or periods when
study or meditation are extremely necessary. In twenty years I can hardly recall a moment when
being instantly accessible was necessary. We have learned not to let the phone become our
master.
A sixth strategy is to include the family in certain aspects of the ministry. A number of pastoral
families mentioned that some of their best times were participating in ministry togetherchurch
socials, camps, even visitation.
Last December, a single parent in our congregation who was struggling financially was given a
Christmas by an anonymous donor, said one pastor. I was asked to deliver the food and gifts. I
took the kids along, and they still talk about the thrill of seeing the joy and gratitude of that
mother and her girls.
These strategies are possible avenues to quality time together.
Quality time, though important, is not sufficient. A certain quantity of time is prerequisite for
quality. In the business world, if a company wants a better product, you dont hear supervisors
saying, Dont worry about how much time you put in as long as its quality time. No, when its
time to produce, most companies expect overtime.
And in relationships, too, amounts are important. As David Seamands once observed, A young
lover wouldnt get by telling his fiance, Honey, its not the quantity; its the quality. You have
my undivided attention for the fifteen minutes a week I give you. She wouldnt fall for it, and
our families dont, either.
What are some ways pastors ensure they give sufficient quantities of time to allow quality time
to emerge?
Strategies for Quantity Control
Heres how some pastors approach the quantity question.
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Long-range plans. One of the false hopes of family life is that because next months calendar is
currently fairly open, next month will actually be less hectic than this month. Its tempting to
say, Things should lighten up if we can just get through the next two weeks.
Unfortunately, by the time you get through the next two weeks, the two weeks after that have
filled up, and you find yourself looking hopefully at the two weeks after that. Its a deadly plague
known as creeping calendar commitments.
This condition has driven many pastoral families to plan family times at least a month ahead.
Six to eight weeks in advance, we write in major blocks of various sorts of private time, says
one pastor. We get these on the calendar before the events of church life begin to appear.
Since I believe my family is the Lords work just as much as the church, I write my family
members into my Day-Timer as I would for anyone else from the church, adds Kent Hughes of
College Church in Wheaton, Illinois.
How much family time realistically can be scheduled? This varies depending on family and
church situations, but several pastors use the following rules of thumb:
One night a week completely free of anything but family activitiesa time for the family to be
together.
One night a month alone with spouseeither an overnight getaway or at least a leisurely dinner
date.
One event a month alone with each childperhaps an outing to the zoo or a museum, or even
something as simple as breakfast at McDonalds.
Other families develop their own rhythms, but most affirm the value of planning the times theyll
be together. If left to whenever the calendar is blank, somehow those times mysteriously
disappear.
One of the benefits of this kind of planning is enjoying the anticipation of special events. We
always try to have our next family vacation scheduled and written onto the calendar, says one
pastors wife. In the words of Scripture, this gives us a future and a hope.
The weekly routine. There was a lot of variety in the survey responses on the question, How do
you balance family time with time spent on church work? Some typical entries:
I try to be home on Monday and Friday evenings, for all meals, and to see the kids before they
go to school in the mornings.
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Im always home from 5:30 to 7:00 P.M. to share the meal with my family. Then Im almost
always home two of the five weekday evenings and on Saturday afternoon and evening. Once a
week we go out to eat in a nearby city.
We have a rule of thumb for our congregation that we try to have no more than three nights a
week for church events. And I try to model that for the rest of the congregation. So everything
has to fit into Sunday night, Wednesday night, and one other night. That means we usually do
some hospitality on Sunday night after the evening service. Wednesday is spent at church, and
any committee meetings are the third night out. Of course, any social commitments would be a
fourth night, but they dont count as church business.
While some pastors try to limit the nights of church activities, others work from the other
direction; they schedule family time first. One pastor gets the family together once a week at
breakfast to plan when theyre going to be together that week.
An Episcopal rector draws on his English roots for family time: My wife and I have struggled
throughout our marriage to have enough time to talk and pray about things that are important.
We tried to have a date night, but between her schedule and mine, finding one regular night of
the week was virtually impossible. So weve taken to tea time late in the afternoon but before
supper.
Another key strategy is the use of the day or day and a half off to which most pastors are entitled.
Maximizing the Day Off
Virtually every pastor gets a day offat least is supposed to take a day off. This is the churchs
concession to balancing time at home and time at church. How do pastors go about making the
most of that time when thats all they have for personal rest, errands, household chores, and
family time?
One question on which pastors differ is which day of the week to take off. Many take Monday,
either because thats the day theyre most tired or because thats the day decreed by the church.
Others, however, say thats not the day to take because the natural letdown after Sunday means
theyre not giving their families a day when they have normal energy. If Im going to be mildly
depressive, Im going to do it on company time, joked one pastor who does paperwork and
administration on Mondays.
Many others take Saturday off because thats the day their kids are off from school. But thats
not satisfactory for some because so many weddings fall on Saturday, and even when nothing is
scheduled, they find themselves preoccupied with the next days sermon and activities.
Others take another weekday off and try to take advantage of school holidays. One pastor reports
taking occasional family outings even on school days. Sometimes well take the kids out of
school for a special family excursion. Last week we took Monday off and went to see a special
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display at the museum. You cant let school stand in the way of an education, he says with a
grin. Nor in the way of a memorable family event.
Veteran pastor Donald Bubna, while at Salem Alliance Church in Oregon, had a policy that staff
members would work 5 days a week. We recommended they work six days one week, and
then take two days in a block the next week. They had to take them that monththey couldnt be
carried forward. That approach allowed for more rest and the opportunity for two-day getaways.
Wise use of the day off is one of the easiest ways to acquire a quantity of time sufficient for
quality moments. But another element of family life also deserves attention.
Vacations
I once asked a panel of PKS who grew up to be pastors, Did you ever resent the demands
ministry placed on your parents? Were there times you felt other people had stolen your parents
attention? They all admitted the time pressures and the many evenings parents were away, but
resentment? As one panelist put it, No, but only for one reason. Vacations saved it for me. If we
hadnt taken our vacation as a family every year, I would have felt resentful, I think.
My dad didnt make a conscious effort to do something with me five days a week. He had
meetings; he was gone a lot of evenings. But two things stand out in my memory that
demonstrate to me that Dad did care for me and that I was important to him.
Several times he took me to Yankee Stadium for the Memorial Day double header. Or on an
occasional day off, when he didnt go to the office, Id say, Dad, lets go see the Yankees. And
hed take me.
Then we also took the whole month of August for vacation, and we drove to Michigan, where
my grandparents lived. And Dad and I would go fishing on the St. Joe River. We had a rowboat,
and wed row up the river and fly fish as we drifted down.
I think those times saved me. For eleven months he belonged to other people, but in those ways,
he said, You are important to me.
Many pastors have found vacations an important time to build family unity. On the other hand, a
vacation doesnt necessarily mean restful togetherness. Doug Self, who pastors in Redstone,
Colorado, describes an all-too-common occurrence:
Last summer we planned a family camping trip. My wife and I had visions of relaxing in the
hammock, sitting romantically around the campfire, taking nature hikes with the children.
Unbeknownst to us, the children were thinking, Lets be entertained. Mom and dad will be doing
neat stuff with us. We were on a collision course. Id just stretched out in the warm sun, ready to
devour an old copy of Readers Digest, when the first squabble broke out. Then a childs voice
moaned, Im bored; theres nothing to do here. Strange, I thought Id just exploded that myth
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by my reasoned explanation. You know what happened next. When children are bored, they get
into bickering with each other: I had it first. No, its mine!
Somehow children dont seem sensitive to parental feelings or able to adjust their behavior
accordingly. This bothers me as a dad. Sometimes, being a pastor, it bothers me even more. I
sometimes feel I am regarded as an emotional rock by people in my congregation. I listen to
problem after problem and help when I can. People, presuming my strength, say things that hurt.
So when I come home, Im sometimes looking for emotional support, understanding, and
pampering. My wife is having problems of her own, drained by her daily round with the kids and
house. I walk in the door to demands and complaints. Hey, wait a minute, I want to shout. I
dont need this. Pastors and dads sometimes need to be cared for, too. But it doesnt often
happen. Certainly not on vacations. Its just a fact of life that again must be accepted and
endured.
What are the keys to a good vacation? The favorite places to go and things to see will depend
upon the family, but pastors have found some principles important in making vacations a
building time for the family.
1. Remember that working vacation is a contradiction in terms. Yes, many pastors take
families to conferences and speaking appointments, and these can be enjoyable for the family,
but theyre not always the best time together.
I have three weeks of vacation, and I decided a few years ago not to take any work with me,
says a Colorado Springs pastor. On earlier vacations, I always felt vaguely guilty that I wasnt
getting to the books Id brought along. I wasnt really on vacation at all. Now I take no work
along. I even tell the church, Please dont call me. Well, if the church burns downmaybe. Just
get my books and illustration file out, then you can give me a call.
2. Learn to enjoy strategic recreation. Ive learned to match my recreational pursuits with family
needs, one minister explains. I saw early in my ministry that I could not pursue a recreational
life with friends and still have time to pursue a second recreational life with my children.
Therefore I chose early in life to do things for recreation that my children could join me in doing:
canoeing, camping, hiking, and other activities where our exercise and togetherness could be
maximized.
I fear too many fathers spend time on tennis courts, golf courses, and in health spas and then
wonder why they never have prime time with their children. Ill admit, though, this has been an
easy doctrine for me to embrace since Im a terrible tennis player and Ive never broken a
hundred in golf, even for nine holes.
3. Learn to enjoy the time you do have. Pastors wife Dreama Plybon Love tells about her rude
awakening to the demands of ministry. She and her husband decided to get back early and spend
their last day of vacation relaxing at home.
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It sounded like such a good ideasleep late, enjoy breakfast out, go for a leisurely walk, she
wrote in Partnership magazine. We were in bed asleep, having returned home at 4 A.M., when
the doorbell woke us. My husband put on his robe and stumbled to the door. A member of our
church was waiting. He looked quite somber.
Sorry to bother you, but yesterday my wife had surgery for breast cancer. She would like to
see you at the hospital.
At first I felt genuine compassion, but gradually concern turned to resentment at the intrusion.
Couldnt we have this one day just for ourselves? Our vacation had been hectic, crowded with
friends and family. We needed this time together. Was I being selfish, even cruel, to want to
extend our vacation in light of this mans need?
She and her husband had been married only six months at the time, and already she was
struggling with the questions: Must we always make choices between marriage and ministry?
Can I not love my husband and serve my God at the same time?
What eventually happened on that cherished and curtailed vacation day?
It wasnt so bad. We stopped at the florist and made a hospital call; but we were still able to
take that long, leisurely walk. As we walked we planned next years vacation, and I think next
time well give ourselves a full week alonebefore we come back home.
Freedom to Choose
Do the demands of ministry force us to overactivity? Not according to one pastor, who reminds
us of our ability to determine what path we will choose.
Ive heard so many times, Because of the demands of ministry, I neglected my family, as if
they were somehow compelled to. For solo pastors and senior pastors especially, I found that an
invalid excuse. Ultimately we decide how much were going to give. The challenge is to fulfill
both ministry and family roles, but we have the freedom to find creative ways to do that. Perhaps
well have to be out every night some weeks. But we can often grab lunch or spend even a full
morning with our spouse. We may have to cut out something else, but we have that freedom.
At times, however, this freedom has to be asserted with emotional resolve. William Tully, rector
of St. Columbas Episcopal Church in Washington, D.C., described one such painful incident in
an article that appeared in the Washington Post:
Most afternoons I break off work and meet my sons school bus. This is my key family
obligation, since I end up working most evenings and at least half of every weekend. (My wifes
job downtown doesnt allow her the afternoon flexibility.)
One recent afternoon, while my son, Jonah, 8, took part in an afternoon choir rehearsal, his 12-
year-old brother, Adam, and I found time for a long-postponed (by me) game of catch. I had
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impressed himand assuaged my guiltby having ball gloves all ready to go. Just as we got
into our game on the church lawn, a regular parish visitora down-and-out street alcoholic
showed up and wanted a handout. Many times before and since, St. Columbas has helped this
man. But since the other clergy who assist me were away that day and the secretaries in no
position to help him, he stood on the sidewalk and demanded I pay attention to him.
Im not working now. Cant you see?
The booze in him made him belligerent. What kind of priest are you, man? You wont even
listen to my story.
I ran up for a pop fly that Adam had expertly launched.
Thats right. Besides Ive heard it before. Im sorry, youll have to try somewhere else or come
back another time.
He turned to go back to the parish office and unleashed a string of obscenities.
Get out, I shouted. If you ever want my help again, youll just have to move on.
It was then I realized that several passersby, probably fresh off the Metro at Tenleytown, had
stopped to watch. A few choir mothers had come to the church steps to behold their rector having
a tantrum.
I still havent sorted out the rush of conflicting feelings I experienced then. I did feel strongly
that my family came before my vocation. I was also composing fantasy headlines in my head:
BUSY NORTHWEST D.C. PRIEST FORGETS SAMARITAN, SHUNS POOR MAN. I
imagined parishioners listening skeptically when words like charity and sacrifice pop up in
sermons. Still I shagged my last pop fly that day knowing that ethical choices are always messy,
that my strong suit is not social justice, and that the words I treasured most that day were,
Thanks, Dad. Great game.

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SEVEN
CHILDREN AND
CHURCH
Children of the ministry are not volunteers; they are conscripts.
DOUG TOUSSAINT
My job as a parent is a temporary responsibility with eternal consequences.
TIM KIMMEL
What do Alice Cooper and Cotton Mather have in common? Not much, except that both grew up
as sons of ministers.
The same is true of Aaron Burr, Orville and Wilbur Wright, Walter Mondale, John Tower,
Marvin Gay, Martin Luther King, Jr., and Sir Laurence Olivier. Other preachers kids include
Albert Schweitzer, Christian Barnaard, and Harriet Beecher Stowe.
Theres no guarantee, of course, that any childwhether born into the home of a preacher,
professor, plumber, or princewill decide to live in a way that brings honor to God and joy to
parents. Nor can pastoral couples guarantee even that their children will find church a place to
enjoy rather than endure. Some factors are beyond parental controlcritics, conflictbut
parents can help prepare children for church life, interpret whats happening, and create an
atmosphere that makes church life much more appealing and increases the chances of the childs
developing a strong relationship with God.
Lets look at some of the key elements in helping kids have a healthy experience in their church
life. Family-conscious ministers have identified several general strategies.
Fathering or Pastoring Your Family?
The first is to recognize the difference between being a father to your family and being your
familys pastor.
When your family is part of your congregation, youll wind up pastoring them. As one Nazarene
pastor pointed out about his children, Im the only pastor theyve ever had. Through preaching,
counsel, and example, pastors provide spiritual direction for everyone in their congregations,
including their families.
But theres danger when a pastor sees his family only as objects of pastoral care and not as
intimates with whom he has a qualitatively different relationship from the one he has with
ordinary members of the congregation.
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I may pastor my family, but I dont want always to be their preacher, says a pastor from San
Diego. I struggle with dads who preach at their kids but dont listen, who have an agenda for
every conversation: Dad speaks, kids listen. I have a tendency to be like that. But Im grateful
that God gave me a wife who wont let me. I dont want to be the family preacher, except on
Sunday.
A pastor from Michigan says, I dont think of myself as my familys pastor. I do pastor them on
Sundays. But when I walk in the door at night, I dont think of them in congregational terms. My
home is my escape, a place where I dont have to be The Pastor.
In some ways, fathering is a much easier role, a more natural fit, one that doesnt require us to
maintain the poise and energy level of pastoring. But in other ways, its a more uncomfortable
role.
I can stand up in front of hundreds of people on Sunday and articulate a spiritual principle and
illustrate it. People even take notes. But that afternoon, sitting with my wife and kids, its a lot
harder. No notebooks come out! says Joseph Stowell with a smile. Im not nearly as articulate
or convincing. Ive given talks to teenagers on dating, morality, and handling temptations. I tried
to sit down and cover that with my kids. It didnt work. I wondered, Whats wrong with me? I
just lost the gift. Thats the difference between fathering and pastoring. Fathering is a very
different roleour impact goes beyond the realm of precept. Our impact comes from our
character, attitude, integrityour caring and love for them.
One way to make sure the preacher/authority role is occasionally shucked for the just plain ol
Dad role is to capitalize on situations where we are not in charge. A minister living in New
Hampshire illustrates: My son plays soccer, and I enjoy games as a spectator. But Ive turned
down all invitations to coach or even be an assistant. Why? Because whenever Mark enters my
world, he always sees me in charge. I want soccer to be one area where he is in charge, where he
knows more than I do, and where he knows he knows more than I do. All I do is show an
interest, ask questions, and learn from him.
Orienting Children to the Ministry
Orientation is important in helping children handle the realities of life in a ministry home. If they
are prepared, they arent as likely to be jolted by difficult people or situations.
Most pastors and spouses surveyed indicated they brief their children to expect people not to be
perfect. But they also try to help them see the importance of ministry.
I try to teach them that the church is not above hurts, criticism, and conflict. These are growing
areasgreat teaching times, writes one pastor. As a family, we endure the bad, enjoy the good,
and grow in both. Were teaching them to be liberal in gratitude, and to write notes of thanks and
praise to encourage others. I often speak of the faithfulness of Gods people through the ages.
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We pray as a family for hurting members, writes another.
Yet another pastor is not quite so delicate in his choice of words: The number one issue for me
has been to let them know I love the Lord and the church he died forand because sheep are
sheep, theres frequently lots of sheep dung to clean up. So were not shocked when sinners sin.
Each of these expresses in a different way the same truth: children of ministry benefit from
periodically being briefed on what to expect.
Entering Each Others World
Parenting books stress the importance of spending time with your children. And who would
argue? But many of these books leave the impression that parents should eliminate the important
and interesting activities they enjoy and bore themselves silly with coloring books and Parcheesi.
While it probably wouldnt harm any of us to join our preschoolers with the Play-Doh or our
junior highers with the video games, involvement doesnt always have to mean descending to the
level of a child in order to relate.
Preachers kid Tim Stafford describes his own upbringing: My father didnt join the
neighborhood football games; we probably would have been embarrassed if he had. He never
played Monopoly with us. He encouraged us in our chosen vocation of fishing, but he never
bought a rod and reel himself. I always had the impression that we were kids, allowed the
kiddish dignity of going about our kiddish affairs in all seriousness, without adult interference.
I am not certain I can recommend my fathers lack of involvement in our interests, but I
strongly recommend his alternativeinvolving us in his. He allowed us to enter his world when
we were interested in doing so. He and I trekked hundreds of miles in the back country of the
Sierra Nevada together, not so much (I believe) because he was being a good father but because
he wanted to go. We talked baseball because he was avidly interested. He also liked taking us to
meetings with him. I remember particularly one Sunday night when after the evening service, I
went with my father to a hotel restaurant to join a small circle of pastors chatting with Addison
Leitch, one of my fathers most admired seminary professors. I didnt know what they were
talking about, but to this day my memory can bring back the rich pleasure of being allowed in
adult male company as a sort of equal.
In some ways, the elder Stafford was showing his son the same respect hed show for any
friendhe sought common ground. Hopefully, one of those mutual interests will be ministry.
This was the situation for another pastors son, who grew up to become a pastor himself: I was
raised in a parsonage, and my dad was never there. Most nights it seemed he had some meeting
to attend. But I never resented it because he included me in his life.
One way to begin doing this is, as some church leaders do, to grant kids an open-door policy.
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Bill Bright, the founder and president of Campus Crusade for Christ, says that when his children
were small they always had access to him. No matter what important visitor might be in his
office, the boys were always allowed in for at least a brief greeting. Dr. Bright wanted them to
know that their concerns took precedence over any other problems he might be dealing with. He
did not want them to feel they had to make an appointment to see their father.

Developing a Ministry Mindset
Most pastors would love to have family members share their commitment to ministry. How can
that commitment be encouraged?
One key is to teach children to do what we are trying to dolive for Gods glory and not our
own. This results in their becoming what sociologist David Riesman calls inner-directed. They
learn to act on the basis of the strength God gives, to do what they know is right, instead of
bowing to pressure from their peers (or even their parents).
A pastors wife from Indiana offered the following example from when her daughter was in third
grade. One of her classmates had parents who both worked during the day, and he would come
home to an empty house. One day he started playing with a cigarette lighter, and the house
caught fire and burned to the ground. After that, everyone at school made fun of him and called
him Lightning Bug or Firefly. When he would take his lunch to a table to eat, the others
would get up and move away. Our daughter told me about it; she was quite upset. She explained
that he was not a special friend of hersshe didnt even like him very muchbut she was
concerned about the way he was being treated.
I asked, What do you think Jesus would want you to do about it? She thought a minute and
said she thought Jesus would want her to take her lunch and go sit with him. I agreed. So the next
day at lunch she sat next to him, taking her little sister along for moral support. The following
day a couple of others joined them. By the end of the week he was integrated into the group
again. This was an amazing incident for me to observe. A basically timid child had found the
power to resist peer pressure to help someone in trouble.
By pointing the child to God, this approach can help avoid a contest of wills between parents and
child, because the parents arent saying, This is what we want you to do. They arent even
saying, The Bible says. They are helping the child to develop his conscience and to make
decisions on the basis of his growing knowledge of God and faith in him. This, of course, is
much different from using Gods will to pressure children into bowing to parents will.
One ministers 12-year-old daughter, who had been raised with a ministry mindset, was able to
use her sanctified social skills to help some of her friends at a party. During the games the
popular boys were continually choosing her and her pretty friends for partners. The hostess, who
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was not pretty or socially skilled, was being neglected. The ministers daughter was sensitive to
this and cornered two of the most attractive boys. She told them they had a responsibility to pay
attention to the hostess. After all, they had accepted her hospitality. We can take care of
ourselves, she said. You go pay attention to her. And they did.
These, then, are some general strategies for helping children have a healthy church experience.
Now lets turn to specific situations.
When the Children Are Young
Pastors have several techniques when their children are preschoolers or in the early elementary
grades.
Bedtime briefings. Even preschoolers can benefit from briefings, if theyre handled simply and
with imagination.
One church leader says that bedtime has proved the best time for this with his daughters. He
explains: Saturday night, or any night before a church event, as Im tucking the girls in, I tell
them about the good things to expect the next daythe friends theyre going to see, the things
theyre going to do. And Ill try to tell them what to be listening for; I give them a foretaste of
any lesson or sermon theyll be hearing. If I know the Sunday school lesson, for instance, Ill tell
the Bible story. My girls like that because (1) they feel more confident the next day when they
hear the story, and (2) I throw in more detail than their teachers usually do. Our daughters
especially like to know names for each of the characters.
Once, for instance, my 3-year-olds teacher was telling the story of Jesus healing the blind
man. Stacey was eager to tell the class, His name was Bartimaeus! a detail the teacher had
somehow managed to overlook. Right now, our daughter is troubled because she knows the
names of Noahs sonsHam, Shem, and Japhethbut I cant tell her the names of the sons
wives who were on the ark, and her inquiring mind wants to know! But Im glad to supply her
with little details. I like to fire her imagination for the next days activity.
Church as second home. Because theyre at the church so often, children will naturally begin to
see it as their second home. A number of pastors have tried to use this fact to their advantage.
As our children were growing up, we tried to let them see the privileges that go along with the
pastorate, said Kent Hughes. For example, they got the run of the church building during the
weekgymnasium and all.
Jamie Buckingham, now pastoring in Florida, said that when his kids were small, we wanted
them to feel the church was an extension of their house, so they were welcome in the officeand
occasionally during worship one of them would come up on the platform and stand with me
during the congregational singing. I allowed that because it didnt disrupt our worship, and it
helped reinforce that the church was their place, too.
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Warm associations. Many pastors try to make sure their kids associate church with positive
feelings. Part of this comes naturally through friends, caring teachers, and the positive
perspective of parents. But at least one pastor did even more.
Ive always sat on the front row with my family during worship services, not up on the
platform, wrote this pastor. I go to the pulpit only when I have a specific task to perform.
Otherwise Ive always been sitting there stroking my childrens hair, scratching the back of their
necks, kneading their shouldersand they never wiggled a muscle for fear I would stop. We
never had a behavior problem in church with either of them. Now that theyre older, they simply
would not miss a church serviceand Ive pondered whether their faithfulness is not built to
some extent on a subconscious association with good feelings of warmth and intimacy.
Avoiding after-service neglect. The period right after the worship service is an important time for
the pastor to make contact with people. But a crowded narthex can be a confusing place for
young children, especially when both parents are concentrating on greeting worshipers.
One pastors daughter told about trying to talk to her father in the foyer after the Sunday morning
service. She shouted, Dad, Dad, but she couldnt get his attention. Finally she said, Pastor!
and got his immediate attention. Understandably, she felt her father was more interested in others
than in her.
I know that my children will superimpose the image of their father, to some degree, upon their
understanding of God, says David Goodman, pastor of Winnetka (Illinois) Bible Church. Most
kids do. I dont want my kids seeing God as one who is interested only in others and not in them.
At the same time, the time in the foyer after a Sunday service is crucial ministry time.
So he has devised an arrangement. We get someone, usually one of the single women, to get our
two youngest kids from their classrooms and watch them for the forty-five minutes right after
church while were busy. We pay her, and sometimes she takes them to the park across the street,
or, if the weather is bad, she plays with them in a room in the church.
We dont need child care for our 10-year-old; shes seeing her friends and talking to other
people. (I think one of the advantages for kids growing up in a church home is that they tend to
be well socialized; they get more interaction with adults.) But for the two younger ones, we had
to get child care because otherwise they get into mischief. After all, theyve been in church two
to three hours already, and if were too harsh on them, they begin to resent the whole experience.
Thats the last thing we want. We want them to enjoy going to church as we enjoy going to
church.
When Children Are Older
In the later elementary-school years and beyond, strategies change. Here are some methods used
by ministry parents who have preteens and adolescents.
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The first and most common is to involve the children in various aspects of the ministry. One way
is to pay them for office work. Ill often bring one of my kids to the church when he or she
needs to earn a little money, said John Yates of The Falls Church in northern Virginia. Theres
always some filing or sweeping that needs to be done, and I pay them out of my pocket.
My dad was in the department store business when I was young. I started working there when I
was 12, and hed pay me out of his pocket. It made me feel special that my dad was in charge of
this organization, and that I could work there, too. And the employees loved Dads children.
Well, I see that same kind of feeling among the children here. This is a happy church, and my
kids feel loved when they come here to work.
Another way to involve children is to take them along on certain kinds of visitation. Hank Simon
of Signal Hill Lutheran Church near St. Louis, Missouri, takes his 10-year-old along every time
he visits Mrs. Keller, a long-time member of the church who is a shut-in. And over the years
Christy has grown very close to her shut-in. Mrs. Keller often has little treats for Christy. For
instance, when Christy took her an Easter basket, Mrs. Keller had some chocolate-covered
peanuts for her.
Christy is learning that caring is part of the Christian life, says Mary Simon, Christys mom.
Now shes worried because the womans cat is more than 14 years old. Recently she asked me,
What will Mrs. Keller do when her cat dies? I was touched that a 10-year-old could care so
deeply for her elderly friend.
Another time, Mary Simon remembers, Christy stood on the footrest of a wheelchair so one of
the blind people could feel her face. Finally the woman said, Thank you. Im so glad to see
you.
Our daughters remember visiting the 101-year-old lady in the nursing homeand going to a
funeral of a young child, said Mary. By being involved in ministry this way, they have
developed a good sense of lifes stages.
John Yates took his 11-year-old son to a dinner where John was to be the speaker. They invited
my wife and me, but Susan was busy that night, so I asked if I could bring my son. The hosts
agreed. Well, you might think he would have been bored stiff at a formal dinner with a bunch of
old people. But he wasnt. Afterward he said, Dad, that was a great talk. And he even enjoyed
talking with some of the people. Later one of the older ladies wrote him a letter and sent him a
gifta Bible. It turned out to be a great experience for both of us.
Yet another strategy is occasionally to single out children for special treatment. A number of
pastors kids recall their parents doing something especially for them, even amid the busyness of
ministry. This event often made a profound and lasting mark on their attitudes toward ministry.
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Richard Strauss remembers: When I was about 5, my dad had a portrait taken of just him and
me with our arms around each other, and he wrote across that portrait, Pals. He hung it in his
study. I used to go in when he wasnt there and just stand and look at that picture. It meant more
to me at that age than anything in life. In fact, Ive got it at home now.
At times, pastors kids seem to need an occasional reminder that theyre more special than the
members of the congregation. One of the best reminders: periodically spending time one-on-one.
Sometimes this requires firm resolve. One pastor, who was also the son of a pastor, recalled a
key moment in his upbringing.
In addition to pastoring, my dad worked a second job, 311 P.M. five nights a week, to support
our family. But about once every other month, he would do something one-on-one with each of
us kids. One Saturday morning, it was my turn, and Dad and I were getting ready to go hunting.
Suddenly a car pulled in front of the house. It was Wilbur Enburg, one of the elders, and he
wanted the pastor to come with him.
Its Joe and Laura, Wilbur said. Theyre upset and say theyre going to leave the church. I
think you should go see them.
I talked with Joe last week, and with Laura the week before that, the pastor said. The situation
can wait.
Wilbur wasnt happy. I think you should see them today.
Sorry, said the pastor as his son watched silently. Im going hunting today.
Wilburs face got red. If you go hunting, dont bother to come back. Then he turned to get
back into his car.
I dont think you mean that, Wilbur, the pastor said. Ill see you in church tomorrow.
The pastors son reflects, As Dad and I headed off to the woods, I had to ask, Is this going to
cost you your job?
I dont think so, Dad said. But if it does, the job is not worth keeping.
Sure enough, the matter with Joe and Laura was not an emergency. They did not leave the
church, and the pastors ministry remained intact. And the pastors son learned a lasting lesson:
his dad considered him more important than pleasing a particular elder. That affirmation has
lasted nearly forty years.
This story, however, raises another question in giving children a healthy church experience: How
to handle the conflicts and difficult people that arise in any church? How do these affect the
children?
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The Critical and the Contentious
When difficulties arise in church life, parents face the challenge of explaining to the kids whats
happening without souring the childrens attitudes toward the church. The approaches will differ
depending on the ages and maturity levels of the children, of course, but some of the key
principles remain constant.
Most pastoral families try to shield their children, especially in their younger years, from
exposure to the criticisms and conflicts of church life.
We dont want to poison their attitudes toward the church or toward any individual, said one
ministers spouse. So we dont roast the congregation at the dinner table. We try to focus on the
positive things happening in the church.
Of course, there will be times when children will eavesdrop on conversations, or, when a critic
phones you at home, theyll overhear your side of the conversation. They may sense your
discomfort or hear you desperately trying to phrase an appropriate response. Then, after youve
hung up the phone, what do you say?
After Ive been discussing a church problem on the phone, said a California pastor, often our
young children will ask me, Who was that on the phone? Ill say, Someone from church, and
if they press for details, Ill simply tell them, Its not your conversation.
As children get older, however, and begin answering the phone themselves, theyll know who
the other person is, and when they sense from your responses that there is tension, a bit more
explanation may be in order.
Most pastors let their children know that other people often see things differentlyand thats
okay. They dont bad-mouth the people but try to explain the differing points of view.
One tough situation is explaining why a particular family is leaving the church.
Ill try to give people the benefit of the doubtthey felt they had legitimate reasons, and
people need to find a church where they feel comfortable, said one pastor on the survey.
The most important principle seems to be: Dont overstate the seriousness of the conflict. If
youre going to err, err on the side of understating the problem. Children dont have the
perspective their parents do. They have a hard time understanding that 5 percent of the
congregation is giving us a hard time. Instead, their lasting impression is likely to be the whole
church gave us a raw dealan attitude that can have long-lasting effects.
One pastor tells of a mistake in handling church tensions: A man has been harassing me
recently. He wants me to do something I cant do. Our board has discussed the issue, and their
decision has been clear. But this man feels I should override the boards decision. He and I have
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discussed the situation many times; he has called me at all hourseven 4 oclock in the
morning! I had to hang up on him a time or two.
The other night my 11-year-old daughter answered the phone and told my wife that Mr. Smith
wanted to talk to me. I was upstairs, but my wife, knowing the situation, said, Tell him your
Daddy cant talk to him right now.
My wife immediately regretted that she hadnt told Mr. Smith herself, because it tore up my
daughter. She didnt know the situation, but she knew I was home. She naturally wondered, Why
wont Daddy talk to him? She sensed the tension, and she was scared. So that night I tried to
explain that Id tried to help the man, but couldnt, and he kept bothering us. When she realized
there wasnt a genuine need, she could accept that. But she should never have been put in that
position.
Learning from that mistake, the parents now vow to handle such encounters themselves.
Gordon MacDonald, reflecting on his three pastorates in three different states, said: I dont
think the kids ever heard us talk negatively about people. Frequently Gail or I would say, This is
a tough week for us, kids. Dads under a lot of pressure. Or Dads had a few disappointments,
so I may not be myself. But I wouldnt say, Joe Brown is really socking it to me this week.
Yes, there would be times when they knew somebody had called frequently. So it was not
unusual to say, You need to know that Mr. and Mrs. Smith are having a rough time these days.
Mom and Dad are helping them. You may see them here at the house for a while tomorrow
night. Wed really appreciate it if youd just breathe a prayer for Mom and Dad that we can find
the best way to help. As the kids grew older, they would join us in praying for these people and
would delight when we would bring them good news about so-and-so. We didnt break
confidences. But we did paint broad-stroke pictures for them so they understood the things they
observed.
Another pastor, F. Dean Lueking of Grace Lutheran Church in River Forest, Illinois, established
specific ground rules for talking about church conflicts.
I always try to operate by this principle when Im with my children: to talk about adversaries in
such a way that if they were present, theyd feel their views had been fairly represented. I often
find myself saying, I can see why he feels that way, even though it distresses me.
This practice gives children a healthy perspective on conflict. They see that even while people
differ, respect can be maintained.
At times, though, Lueking found he needed to invoke a second ground rule, our four-minute
rule.
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Especially at the dinner table, he says, we would put a limit of four minutes on conversation
about congregational troubles. Then it would be on to the Cubs, vacation plans, our reading, or
whatever. Pastors can go on and on about church problems, and I wanted to make sure that didnt
dominate our talk and our thoughts.
Dealing with the Curious
Sometimes parishioners treat the pastors kids as sources of inside information. One pastor
reported the following encounter:
Ed Bailey, a middle-aged parishioner, approached the pastors 10-year-old son in the narthex
after a morning service.
Hi, Josh. Hows school?
All right, said the pastors son.
Thats good. Say, you know Marilyn Mason, dont you?
Josh nodded. Marilyn was a single woman who sang in the choir and occasionally helped in his
Sunday school class.
Has she ever come over to your house?
Josh didnt know what to say. He knew Marilyn had come over to talk to his dad and mom, but
he didnt know about what. So he said, I think so.
How many times has she been there? A lot? Did you see her there this week?
I dont know, said Josh. Finally Ed quit the inquisition. Josh felt uncomfortable, and at home
that afternoon he told his dad what had happened.
The pastor was irritated. Marilyn had been coming to my wife and me for encouragement and
counsel about some family concerns. Ed was a friend of Marilyns older brother. I told my son
that the situation was none of Eds business and that I was sorry he had been put under that
pressure. He let his son know that he had done the right thing in pleading ignorance. I told him
it wasnt his fault and assured him that I would handle the situation. I wanted to take all the
burden for this off my son.
So later that week, after he had calmed down, the pastor called Ed. I told him that Josh had
mentioned the conversation and felt uncomfortable because he didnt know what to say. I asked
Ed please not to put my children on the spot. I suggested that if he needed information, he should
get it from me.
Ed was silent. He didnt offer an explanation for his curiosity, nor did the pastor ask for one. But
the calm confrontation was effective.
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That was two years ago, says the pastor, and Ed didnt seem offended. More important, he
hasnt grilled my kids since.
How do you prepare children to respond to nosy members of the congregation?
Some ministry families tell their children only what they would be willing to share with the
whole church. This is reasonably effective with younger children, but as they get older they will
naturally observe the seamier side of ministryfrayed nerves, differences of opinion, criticism,
conflict. Some children develop a sixth sense for what is appropriate to talk about with church
members; other children may need some guidance.
One pastor instructs his children simply to say I dont know or You should ask Dad about
that when people ask for information about specific people.
Another ministry couple teaches their children that certain things are talked about only within the
family. When our kids were young, we distinguished between good words (which they could
use anytime) and bad words (which they were never to use) and secret words (mostly bodily
parts or functions, which we were to talk about only within our own family). Theyve been pretty
good about honoring our understanding about secret words. As theyre getting older, were able
to build on that concept to explain that other kinds of things also stay within the family.
Another pastor put it this way: Well tell our children what other people in the congregation are
likely to know. We want them to hear the story from us rather than from anyone else, if possible.
So with sensitive information about someone, Ive often said, Heres what other people know,
but lets not be the ones to talk about it, okay? Thats gossip. Our kids respond well to that. We
let them know were trusting them, and we want to continue to develop that attitude of trust.
Capitalizing on the Compensations
Perhaps the most important element in helping children have a good experience in the church is
not to prepare them for the bad times but to accentuate the good experiences.
I remember how rude people at church seemed to be to us kids, says Chuck Smith, Jr. After a
service, Id be standing there holding Dads hand, and they would step right between Dad and
mecoming between us both literally and figuratively. They either ignored me or seemed
annoyed that I was there, since their lives were falling apart and they had to talk to the pastor. I
grew up hating adults, these people I always had to be polite to.
But Dad was sensitive to what I was feeling. He would let me hang on to him, grab his pant leg,
and I never heard him say, Go away. Im trying to talk to this person right now.
In addition, Chuck remembers his fathers going out of his way to make sure his son also
realized the benefits of being the preachers kid. He had a sayingWhen your dad owns the
candy store, youre treated to certain privileges. For instance, one time Dad was the director of a
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week-long summer camp. He took me along, and most of the time I was kind of lonely because
he wasnt really there for me. There was always a crowd of people around him. I caught him
only coming and going.
But one evening, everyone was finishing dinner, and he came to my table and whispered, Grab
your swimsuit and meet me at the pool.
The pool was closed then. But he opened the lock and we got in. Ill never forget itjust Dad
and me swimming in the pool. It was like he owned the candy store that weekend. As camp
director, he had access to the pool, and he wasnt breaking any rules by going in there with his
son. Things like that were very special to me.

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EIGHT
MARRIAGE
The rite of ordination does not override the rite of marriage. Both are noble callings, and one is
not the higher calling. Both were instituted by God for the sanctification of his people. By
some curious act of his grace, this sanctification includes the clergy.
GREGORY P. ELDER
Eventually, every ministers wife runs into some element of church life that makes her life
difficult. Sometimes the experience is jarring. Consider the following true story:
We arrived at our first pastorate at the end of September, having been delayed by an accident on
the way in which my tailbone was broken. Since I was nearly eight months pregnant at the time,
it did not heal until after the delivery. I had to do my work alternating between periods of
standing up and lying down. I carried an inflated rubber ring everywhere I went, since sitting on
it helped to ease the pain a bit.
Somehow, I managed to get some boxes unpacked, and even started toilet training my toddler.
The ordination service, at which my husband was to be officially installed as pastor, was set for
the end of October. I played the organ for the service while perched on my rubber ring.
Afterward I served sandwiches, dessert, and coffee to about thirty people in the parsonage.
Everyone seemed to think it was my job, and I never questioned it.
Our second baby was born on November 14. This released pressure from my tailbone, so it
started healing. I was nursing the baby, and all was going well. The basement still contained
boxes needing to be unpacked, many windows were waiting for curtains to be sewn, the toilet
training of our toddler had hit an impasse, and I remember brief moments when I doubted that,
should I live to be eighty, I would ever get my dishes and ironing all done at once, but all was
well. My husband was enjoying his work, and the people were generous. We were showered
with everything from eggs and chickens to cookies, honey, and cream.
Then, about the middle of December, it happened. One of the Sunday school teachers asked me
what I was doing about the Christmas concert, referring to the Sunday school program. I had no
idea what she meant. I repeated her words back to her, stalling for time: The Christmas
concert? Then she explained, as one might to a not-very-bright child, that the ministers wife
always took care of the Christmas concert. This meant she produced and directed it and usually
wrote the script as well.
The previous ministers wife was an older woman with no children. She loved to do this sort of
thing and had lots of experience. I, on the other hand, was a very young, very busy mother of two
babies, one only a few weeks old, and I had never even taught a Sunday school class.
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The incredible part of this episode is that I did it. I really did, on two weeks notice, throw
together some sort of a program. I still remember standing up there directing with perspiration
streaming down my face. Immediately afterward I went home, nursed the baby, and collapsed in
bed.
They never should have asked, I never should have even considered the request, and my
husband should not have allowed me to accept. But at that time none of us knew any better.
An extreme case, perhaps, but this type of experience is not uncommon. Not many years ago, the
accepted model of the ministers wife was that of an active partner in ministry, and this was
accompanied by certain expectations about how she would dress and tend the home, and what
she would and wouldnt do in congregational life. One wife said, If I do too much, Im running
things. If Im quiet and reserved, Im not doing my share and fulfilling my role as the pastors
wife.
Though most pastors wives I contacted said that changing times were easing some of the
traditional expectations, some irritating assumptions remain. For instance, when the church cant
find anyone else for a particular job, of course the ministers wife will do it, or we can always
get the ministers wife to give the devotions at the womens gathering.
Its interesting that Im the only woman in the church who is never thanked for doing a job,
observed one wife. I like sharing my talents, but its hard to be taken for granted as if Ive been
hired to work here.
Most wives find they are expected to fill in for their husbands as a listener and counselor. Many
find that having people trust them with personal concerns is gratifying. Others, however, feel
uncomfortable and ineffective in this role.
Some pastors wives take naturally to the challenges of the role. For most, however, there are at
least moments when they feel lonely or out of place. According to the LEADERSHIP survey, it
may be a greater problem than their pastor/husbands are aware of. When asked, Has your
spouse ever felt lonely or out of place in the congregation? 68 percent of the pastors said yes.
But when we asked the pastors spouses, Have you ever felt lonely or out of place in the
congregation? fully 76 percent said yes.
One pastor who did recognize his wifes feelings described the situation this way: I have the
greatest wife in the world, so any victory in ministry is a shared victory. But sadly, for her, the
victory is always vicarious. But the loneliness is personal.
The first step in addressing an issue is understanding the factors that contribute to the problem.
What factors lead to this sense of loneliness?
Alone in a Church Crowd
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Some of the factors can simply be peculiarities of a given church. For instance, sometimes the
age of the pastor and spouse inhibits close friendships within the congregation.
The leaders in our congregation, the people with whom we spend the most time, tend to be
older than my wife and me. As a result, we feel a bit left out of relationships with people our
age, wrote a pastor on the survey. Plus, we have no social life apart from the church.
Neither are younger pastoral couples immune from the fact that mothers of preschoolers will
naturally tend to feel isolated. My wifes most difficult times were when our children were very
small and she was tied to home duties, while I was seldom at home during the day and
sometimes not in the early evening, confessed a pastor. Her complaints struck sympathetic
chords in me, but sympathy was not what she wanted!
Another pastoral couple felt the same problem from the opposite side. As we got older, the
people who were coming onto our staff seemed younger and younger. We were mentors to them,
but not exactly friends. We were old enough to be their parents. In the past, wed been close with
others on the pastoral team, but now they find their own web of relationships. And I think my
wife feels the loneliness even more than I do.
A more common reality that can increase the loneliness factor is that church members often see
pastors and their spouses as different from ordinary folk. Some wives have mentioned that in
Bible studies or small groups, people turn to them, expecting answers to troubling questions
simply because they are married to a minister. These spouses feel awkward sharing their own
honest doubts and unnamed terrors for fear of shaking the faith of younger, more fragile
believers. Thus, instead of being a source of relief from loneliness, these groups only reinforce it.
We pastored in a small town in the Midwest, said one pastors wife. The people were warm
and friendly in church, but no one seemed to want to be close friends. I figured maybe they
thought pastoral families wouldnt be around long enough to form lasting friendships. But then I
met a woman who seemed friendly and tenderhearted. She always asked how I was doing and
how I felt about things. She would tell me she missed me if I was not at a service, but she never
invited me to her home. After a Wednesday night prayer meeting, I invited her over for tea while
our husbands had a meeting. She appeared hesitant, but she came. During the conversation, she
told me she couldnt be close friends with the pastors wife because it might offend other people.
I was hurt, to say the least, and it made me hesitant to try to be close to any other woman in the
church.
Fortunately, not all churches share that attitude, But in any church, a bright spotlight seems to
focus on the clergy marriage. The feeling of being watched can increase the feelings of
loneliness.
David and Vera Mace, in their 1980 study of clergy couples, found that 85 percent felt their
marriage was expected to be a model of perfection. They wrote, Clergy couples are almost
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obsessed with the feeling that they are expected to be superhuman and to provide models for the
congregation and community. Another study notes that Protestants consider their ministers
personal and family life as tools for ministry. Unfortunately, family modeling is often
measured by moralistic thou shalt nots of public behavior rather than by how families handle
deeper issues.
The problem is not so much the high expectations but how the pastoral couple responds to them.
If clergy couples are trying to live out other peoples expectations of a perfect marriage, it can be
hard for them to deal with their own real marriage, which leads to a game of lets pretend. As
one minister said, Congregations desperately need clergy marriages to work. They think that if
their ministers cant make it work, how can they? Thats an awful burden! Even more stressful
is when the couple knows they are falling short of these expectations, but they dont feel able to
ask for help.
Other contributors to loneliness emerge not from the congregation but from the natural
tendencies of ministers themselves.
The education and emotional gap. A few years ago, I met Mary LaGrand Bouma, a pastors wife
who has written Divorce in the Parsonage, and asked her, What makes for meaningful
communication in a ministry marriage?
She said, If I had to pick one thing, it would be commensurate education. That may surprise
youI know it certainly did me when I was doing research for a book on pastors wives. I
interviewed two hundred ministry wives, and when I read through my notes, I said, I cant
believe this. Healthy marriages in the ministry were those in which the wifes education had not
been cut short.
Many wives work hard and long to put their husbands through seminary, and what do they get?
A silent husband who assumes she cannot function on the intellectual level at which he has now
arrived. I thought I had found an exception to this rule when I interviewed a pastors wife in
Seattle whose marriage I knew was strong. I asked if she had studied beyond high schooland
was suddenly embarrassed: she had not even finished high school. But as it turned out, neither
had her husband. They were part of a group that didnt require seminary or even college, and
they had done a lot of informal learning together. As a result, they got along extremely well.
The marriages in trouble were the marriages with big educational gaps. Why is that? You think
differently once youre college trained. Thats why I counsel ministry wives to get their college
education, even belatedly if necessary.
Another idea: My husband and I would never have developed our common interest in
evangelism if we had not gone to several seminars together. We would discuss the material and
new ideas we had heard. After this refreshing time together, we would be inspired again for our
ministry. We would set goals together to try some of the new ideas.
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The education gap can be narrowed, but often a major chasm, an emotional gap, remains.
David and Helen Seamands point out that this emotional distance often begins during ministerial
training. A communication problem often arises because the man is oriented to books and
theology, and shows little interest in the practical things of the home, says Helen. He is
attracted to the ministry because he loves studying the Word and digging into ideas; he
conceptualizes everything. The kind of woman most attracted to the life of a ministers wife is a
warm, loving, people-person, who sees everything in terms of relationships. When these two get
together, they have little common ground for communication.
As a result, the wife can feel starved emotionally, because the husband is unable to express
emotions well. Often, instead of saying what hes really feeling, he preaches at her a principle
of marriage from Ephesians 5, says David. Weve found that ministers who come to marriage
enrichment retreats are tough to handle because they cannot identify or express feelings. Instead
of sharing themselves, they preach.
The secret is to work on staying in touch with one another on both intellectual and emotional
levels.
The preoccupied pastor. Ministry demands concentrated energy and attention. Unlike an hour
spent chatting about sports, an hour spent counseling a couple considering divorce can leave a
minister emotionally exhausted. One pastoral couple described it as the difference between a
bucketful of feathers and a bucketful of rocksthe measured amount is the same, but the scales
tell a different story.
Many ministers struggle not to lose touch with their spouses in the midst of touching everyone
else. If the ministry becomes a mistress, many times the children can adjustthey may not
know any other lifestylebut the wife is more likely to take it personally. She finds herself
losing out to the other love in her husbands lifehis work. The irony is that part of the job of a
pastor is to encourage marriage. As a pastors wife put it, I know my husband is committed to
marriage, but Im not sure hes committed to me.
At the church Im a man on a mission, confessed a pastor. But at home my wife is asking,
But what about me? Even church successes can be misinterpreted. Im glad the ministry is
going well, wrote a pastors wife. But when thats the main thing he talks about, I feel thats
more important to him than I am.
These factors, then, contribute to the all-too-common feeling among ministry spouses that they
dont quite fit. How can those of us in ministry help our spouses have a healthy church
experience?
Helping the One Closest to Us
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One ministry couple, Dennis and Barbara Rainey, discovered that the key to ministering to one
another was shoring up one anothers self-esteem. Heres how they described it in an article
titled What You See Is NOT All You Get in the February 1988 issue of Christian Herald:
She was as smart as she was pretty. In fact, she was chosen as one of the universitys Top
Twenty Freshmen Women.
As a child, this young lady received love and encouragement from her parentsand the example
of a stable marriage. There was little stress for her. Life seemed perfect until junior high.
While her other friends reached puberty quickly and began to develop physically, she did not.
Her chest remained flat and her legs skinny, and her hips developed no contours. Throughout the
first six years of school, she had felt confident, sure of herself, popular. But as she was slow to
develop, she began to question her worth. This self-doubt was further fueled by her best friend,
who one day asked, Are you sure youre a girl?
Those words hit like a lightning bolt from a dark cloud. Fear that she would never develop began
to whisper in her inner spirit. Her personality changed. She became quiet, reserved, shy.
Comparing herself with others, she always came up short in her own eyes. She felt unpopular,
unattractive, awkward, and alone. And no one knew of her fears.
Eventually, she began to blossom. In fact, she became very pretty, yet inwardly she continued to
see herself as inferior, and she thought everyone else saw her that way, too.
Determined to forge a new identity, the young woman decided to go to an out-of-state college
where she could start fresh. She succeeded. Honor after honor came her way. She pledged one of
the top sororities on campus. She earned good grades, participated in numerous campus
activities, and became very popular.
Yet no one, not even she, realized that at the heart of her performance was a little girl who was
afraid to be known. The accomplishments gave her confidence a boost, but she still needed
someone who really knew her to accept her for who she was apart from her achievements.
One year after her college graduation, she fell in love with a young man who appeared to have it
all together. He was the extroverted, confident person she was not. Their whirlwind romance
found them married after only four months of dating.
She later found out that, although he was secure, he had needs, too. He was impulsive, brash, and
overzealous. And behind his air of bravado and pride, he was hiding some insecurities of his
own.
After nearly a month of marriage, both began to realize much more was going on inside each
other than they had bargained for. One night, after an evening out with some friends, they stayed
up talking about how inferior she felt in public settings. Her questions about her worth stunned
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him. He couldnt believe that this beautiful woman, his wife, could possibly feel that way about
herself. He had confidence in her. But her withdrawn behavior at social gatherings began to
irritate him. He silently questioned, Why does she retreat into her protective shell of silence,
when I feel so comfortable with people? Why cant she be like me?
After several of these late evening chats, he finally realized his wife really did have some
serious self-doubt.
That young couple was us more than fifteen years ago. At that time, we had critical choices to
make. Would Dennis accept Barbara fully and love her during her periods of self-doubt? And
would Dennis be vulnerable and risk being known by a young woman who might reject him?
The choices were real. The decisions were tough. In retrospect, we believe those days were
among the most crucial in our marriage. In those initial months, the foundations of acceptance
and the patterns of response were laid.
As our fears and insecurities surfaced, we also discovered the critical importance of a healthy,
positive self-concept to a marriage. We began to recognize the magnitude of the responsibility
we each carried in building up or tearing down the others self-esteem. And we both began to see
that our own self-image either crippled or completed our marriage relationship.
This couple learned the importance of building up each other, which not only strengthened their
marriage but also benefited their children and those to whom they minister. Because when
people see how Dad treats Mom in everyday life, they also, without realizing it, develop an
understanding of how Christ relates to us, his church.
What are some specific ways to shore up self-esteem in your spouse? Any good marriage book
would suggest: showing warmth and acceptance, sowing positive words, seeing the past in
perspective, offering freedom to fail, and so on. But in ministry families, the ministry to a spouse
takes on some added dimensions.
Show her you enjoy your time together. You may not have twenty hours a week of private time
together, or even ten, but carving out some relaxed, enjoyable time with your spouse is one of the
most significant ways of telling her shes important to you.
Robert Crosby, a youth pastor in New York, revealed the dawning of this realization upon him:
Twenty-five youth workers were, for the first time, cooperating to reach thousands of high
schoolers for Christ. Definitely the biggest citywide outreach I had ever worked on was only two
weeks away. Over the past six months, Id spent countless hours of planning, promotion and
perspiration. We were about to make history. I was ecstatic. My comrades were thrilled. My wife
was disgusted. And I didnt even realize it until I pulled out my personal calendar one day to
look at the harried upcoming week only to find Thursday penciled in, PLEASE KEEP THIS
DAY OPEN FOR PAM AND KRISTI (my wife and daughter).
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We hadnt had any heated debates or snide comments, but this action cut me to the heart. I had
been having so much fun with the youth event that I had been perfunctory in my prior covenant
of Christian servicespousing and parenting. Instead of a haven of rest and relationship, my
home had digressed into a fast-food restaurant and a place to sleep at night.
How do pastors find enjoyable time with their wives? Here were three of the more unusual ideas
I came across:
1. After the kids are off to school, my wife and I have a long, leisurely breakfast every Friday.
We each take our calendar, and we talk about the schedule for the upcoming week and develop
our to do list. But we also talk about whats happening in the family and make sure were
looking ahead and asking, When are we all going to be together this week, next week, and so
on.
2. My wife, Karen, helped me understand that staying away from home to do the Lords work
was oftentimes just veiled selfishness on my part. So weve divided each of our days into
trimesters: morning, afternoon, and evening. Weve agreed to give outside pursuits (including
my church work) eleven segments, and no more than two are allowed each day. So, if I work in
the morning, and I have an evening meeting, I do not work in the afternoon. Unless an
emergency arisesand it rarely doesafter eleven segments, Im done for the week. It was
difficult, but in time, I worked five days a week. At the same time, Karen enjoyed two sacrosanct
segments per week to be away from the children (and me, if she desired).
3. Between the kids and church activities, we have virtually no uninterrupted hours in the
evenings. At night were both emotionally exhausted, and I realized if that was the only time we
were spending together, that was poor planning. So we look forward to a regular midmorning
rendezvous. The kids are off to school, and Ill come home from the church for a couple of
hours. Its quality time to get reacquainted emotionally and sexually.
Protect her from the system. At times, the systemthe expectations of a churchcan become
overwhelming. One way to build self-esteem is to help confront those unrealistic expectations.
Sometimes its easier for the pastor to say enough is enough for his wife than it is for her to do
it herself, and this support is a powerful affirmation. Here are a few ways this has been done by
pastors surveyed:
I recognized that Id encouraged my wife to be involved in church ministriesSunday school,
childrens church, etc.which is good, but in our case it had been overdone. She was missing
valuable contact with people our age. She didnt have any fellowship. We worked together to be
sure she had a chance for social times.
Another pastor on the survey wrote: My wife has sometimes felt out of place, usually as a result
of unfair criticism or gossip suggesting she does too much or not enough, says too much or not
enough, etc. We talk it out, and then, at times, Ive stepped in with a loving confrontation with
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the critics over the phone or in person. In most cases, this has resolved the issueand its
certainly brought my wife and me closer together.
A pastors wife wrote: Recently a group in our congregation asked my husband to volunteer me
for a certain job that he knew would have been an emotional trauma for me. He told them he
wasnt even going to ask me, because he knew it was not something I should be doing. I was
grateful he protected me that way. Knowing hell back me up is a big morale booster.
Encourage her search for friendship. Most pastors recognize they cannot be everything their
spouse needs: confidant, companion, counselor, pastor, closest friend. As one wife said, When
my husband is my pastor, I keenly feel the lack of having someone else to turn to in times of
personal or spiritual need. If Im spiritually dry, for instance, or if Im having difficulties with
my husband, I wish I had another pastor to go to.
In addition, because of their position, pastors spouses may find it harder to talk to a counselor
sometimes because of their own reluctance to admit difficulties, other times because of the
attitudes of would-be counselors.
One wife told of being at a large hospital during the time her son was dying. She desperately
needed someone to talk to besides her husband. A social worker came to see her, but as soon as
she learned this grieving mother was married to a minister, the social worker said, Then you
wont be needing me.
The answer, of course, is to find a friend. For some, this has been someone in the congregation;
for others, someone from the community; for still others, another ministers spouse has become a
close friend. But for both the spouse and the pastor, these friendships have proved a treasured
gift. As one pastor wrote, The greatest help for me in dealing with the pressures of ministry was
when my wife found some other ministers spouses who shared her outlook on life and
ministry.
To Serve and to Protect
One of the most sensitive issues in the husband-wife relationship is whether or not to have
secrets. Are there things that should not be shared with a spouse? This is a particularly complex
area for ministry couples.
The task of a spouse is to both serve and protect his partner. Serving includes self-disclosure
discussing whats going on, especially things that affect your emotional condition, job
performance, or future in the church. On the other hand, pastors must maintain varying degrees
of confidentiality, which may preclude telling everything they know. In addition, a number of
pastors feel that to protect their spouses includes not revealing information that would only
cause unhealthy emotional distress.
Heres how some pastors have sorted the times to share and not to share.
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What TO share. Michael E. Phillips, who pastors at Lake Windermere Alliance Church in
Invermere, British Columbia, discussed in a 1988 LEADERSHIP article some of the things he
makes sure to tell his wife: Almost everything that goes on in my life. From the seedling
thoughts of a sermon series to the interesting details of a half dozen home visits, my wife shares
my day. She relishes the high points, looks appropriately concerned over the troubled moments,
and adds her observations whenever she feels its proper.
That scenario holds true in most pastors homes. But to be a bit more specific, Phillips identifies
two subjects that hes always prepared to discuss with his wife:
1. Difficult decisions. Every so often, my wife and I celebrate Want Ads Day. Its an event
that is cherished by neither of us but demands dual participation. At regular intervals, the
pressure of pastoral responsibilities convinces me there must be a softer wall to beat my head
against. Therefore, I tell my wife that we are going to look through the classified ads to see what
other job I could pursue. Kathys role is to convince me I really dont want to do anything else.
But she has to be subtle; I feel Im facing a tough decision.
At the end of this madness, we fold the paper, and then my wife asks me whats getting under
my skin. Usually, Im trying to decide if God is calling me to adjust my ministry, or even to
change the location. Its always a difficult decision, so I share it with the one who would be
directly affected by it. Life throws up difficult decisions the way a plow digs up rocks. They
seem to be always there, always annoying, and always tricky to handle by yourself.
Several months ago, I became concerned that most of the elders were not attending prayer
meeting. I decided to confront the issue at the next board meeting by proposing changes in the
format of the prayer time, lecturing the board, and soliciting their attendance on Wednesday
nights. With glee, I described my plan to Kathy. Her face soured, and she came right to the point:
Do you really want a prayer meeting full of guilty, shamed elders? Maybe they all have good
reasons for not being there. She then left the room, leaving me to my decision. I knew instantly
that she was right. The beauty of her intimate counsel is that it combined objective integrity with
conjugal caring. She knew me and she knew my board. And because she wasnt directly
involved, she saw the problem with greater discernment than I did.
2. Points of growth. In my ministry, I take great pains to be transparently honest, showing the
congregation that Im flesh and blood, failing and burdened. I believe it has been effective in that
people accept the Word of God from their sinner-pastor with a belief that if I can live it, so can
they. Over the years, I have found it progressively easier to discuss intimate failures and personal
points of growth.
Yet it is so hard to do the same with my wife. She even remarked to me a few years ago that if
she wanted to find out what God is teaching me, she would have to pay closer attention to my
sermons. I was properly corrected. Its part of human nature to fear pain from our most intimate
relationships. But its part of good mental health to overcome that part of human nature.
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A caution: its essential to understand our problems prior to laying them out before anyone else.
We need to be sure we can describe things accurately before we alarm our loved ones. Can you
imagine a companys telling its stockholders every conceivable problem in the firm? The stock
would be worth zero, even if the company had very little the matter with it.
Other pastors have added a third category of subjects that should be shared with spouses.
3. Problem resolutions. A pastor in Kansas told this story: My temptation is to tell my wife
about church problems, but when the problem is resolved, Ill forget to tell her how it has
worked out. As a result, she can get a picture of the church thats skewed toward the negative.
I had a problem with our former pastor talking with members of our congregation and second
guessing my initiatives. I shared my frustration with my wife, and she joined in my feelings.
Later, when I was able to sit with the former pastor and clear the air, I discovered he had not
been trying to sabotage my ministry; the people in the congregation had misrepresented what
hed said.
My mistake was in not talking about that with my wife. Oh, sure, I told her Id patched things
up with Mel, but Id spent hours talking about the frustrations and a minute or so describing the
resolution. It wasnt fair to my wife. I notice shes still defensive when were around Mel. I did
her a disservice by poisoning her attitude.
What NOT to Share. Marriage counselors talk about open, honest communication between
husbands and wives. But there are dangers in openness, depending upon the spouses interests
and capacity to handle stressful information. As one Canadian pastor said, God lays upon each
person a different yoke. There are aspects of my calling that my wife is not called to bear.
One pastor who responded to the survey was concerned about raising his wifes frustration level
with a troubling situation when she couldnt do anything about the situation: When I return
from a difficult meeting, usually I can work through the personalities and pressures that cause
people to criticize me, but if I give too detailed an account to my wife, she carries it around for
several days, and it affects the way she sees these people. So there are some things, especially
conflicts, I dont share with her because Ive learned she doesnt take it well.
Other pastors want their spouses to be unbiased toward certain people, so they dont share
negative things that might prejudice them. Others want their spouses to be free of intra-church
controversies as much as possible. My wife finds that some people will test her to see how
much she knows, says one minister. Theyll say things like, Its a shame about MaryLou, isnt
it? And my wife is glad she can honestly say, I dont know. What happened? It allows her to
be free, spontaneous, and affectionate toward people.
Michael Phillips identifies a few other categories of unwise topics of conversation.
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1. Others attacking me. I once asked my wife to describe the one thing I had told her that was
harder to handle than any other. Without hesitation she said, The letters you showed me last
fall. The previous autumn, I had received a series of nasty notes from a former member of our
congregation. Clothed as prophetic words, they were vindictive slanders and generally throw-
away advice. After a while, they were laughable. Without thinking, I showed them to Kathy one
night. It took her a long time to go to sleep that evening. All she could think about was the dirt
this person had thrown my way.
She was much more upset than I was. Her protective feelings were creating a whirlwind of
emotions, alternating between bitterness and anger. Thus I learned that its a major mistake for
us to unload second-hand attacks on our wives.
What I do now with a situation like that is simple. If I have to tell someone, I tell my prayer
partner. Hes a good friend, has broad shoulders, and never gets upset at attacks on me. He
thought the letters were funny; he even got me laughing over them. Kathy still doesnt laugh
when she sees the letter writer and his wife downtown. She has, however, worked her facial
muscles up to a smile, bless her protective heart!
2. My attacks on others. Inevitably, I will have opinions on various members of the flock I
pastor, some of them negative at times. This doesnt mean I dont love them and desire the best
for them, and God is able to adjust my opinions in the course of time, too. But when one person
in a family lets off steam, pressure begins to build up in those who are listening. If I voice my
personal misgivings about others to my wife or children, I no longer have any control over what
those careless words will produce. Understand that my wife is not a gossip and is certainly not
vindictive. My comments will taint her viewpoint, however, even if only slightly.
Several years ago, we had a young Sunday school superintendent who I felt was not getting the
job done. I told my wife about his mistakes, and I told her on numerous occasions how upset I
was with him. Finally, God convicted me of being the one in the wrong, for I had not spent any
time praying for and training the man. As I rectified this, he showed smooth progress in his
ministry. My wife was not aware of this turnaround, however, and I noticed over a year later that
she still had a critical attitude toward the man. The blame lay firmly on my shoulders. I
apologized to her and asked her to forgive me for tainting this young man in her eyes. I also
vowed inwardly to keep my most vindictive vents of steam to myself.
3. Ultra-sensitive issues. With one of my college professors, it was common knowledge that if
you asked him a question about black holes, even if it were only remotely connected to the topic
at hand, he would wax eloquent on the subject, and the rest of the class would be history. We
used to call him Black Hole Rollie. We knew the topic that set him going. In the same way, I
know the kinds of discussions that set my wifes mind buzzing. Each person, and each pastorate,
has a different set of these terrible topics. For some of us, it may be learning of a church
members financial irresponsibility or doctrinal deviation. For others, hearing about even long-
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past sexual misconduct may create only unhealthy agitation. For still others, talking about how
other people discipline their children gets the blood boiling.
So Kathy and I have discovered that there are some issues too sensitive to discussunless
weve got a long, uninterrupted time together to fully process the topic. Ours are so sensitive Im
not even going to tell you what they are.
Phillips offers some help in discovering what those ultra-sensitive issues might be. Youve
probably found one when you uncover a topic that:
1. Contributes to obvious feelings of uneasiness in your spouse;
2. The two of you cannot constructively deal with;
3. You yourself feel uncomfortable discussing;
4. Leads to conversations whose long-term effect is only negative.
It takes time and mistakes to discover what these dont tell me issues arefor yourself and for
your spouse.
These elements help a spouse have a healthy church experience. But perhaps the most critical
element is developing a vital and authentic spiritual life as a family, the subject to which we now
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NINE
SPIRITUAL LIFE
Children who know they are loved, know they have a purpose, and know they have a hope are
prepared for anything this world wants to dish up.
TIM KIMMEL
If you have so much business to attend to that you have no time to pray, depend upon it, you
have more business on hand than God ever intended you should have.
D. L. MOODY
Why is it that sublime intentions often wind up looking ridiculous in reality? Even the noblest
intentions of a vital devotional life can wind up looking like tragi-comedy. Consider this pastors
description of the bedtime prayer routine:
With all the defiance of a mongrel whelp, my 4-year-old son stared me down and issued his
answer: No! For the past four bedtimes, young John had become increasingly obstinate about
praying.
Youre going to pray if I have to wait here all night!
I heard myself utter this benign threat and had to wonder who let the crazy man in. What had
happened to the wisdom of a hundred seminars on child rearing?
But if John could play his role, I was going to get an Oscar for mine.
John, sit up and tell me what you want to pray for.
John ignored me, and I panicked. Here I was, a pastor, a family counselor, a cherisher of
boyhood memories, a crusader for handling children the right way. My jaw was tight, my lip
curled, and above those was a top about to blow. (Would God enter the scene with a pearl of
wisdom or at least an off-stage prompt? Apparently not. So I improvised.)
John, you always pray. Isnt there someone you would like to pray for? (John pretends he is
asleep.)
John, Jesus likes it when you talk to him. (John emerges from Slumberland just long enough to
yawn like a crevice.)
John, I want you to pray right now. (John instantly turns onto his stomach.)
Do you want Daddy to get the belt? (Not even third-person rhetoric can shake the fever.)
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All right John, Im leaving. I hope you have a horrible sleep. (Exit the spiritual father of two,
dragging his tail and conscience behind him, agreeing with Bill Cosby that all 4-year-olds have
brain damage.)
A number of parents can identify with this pastors dilemma. They believe in the importance of
spiritual training, but how to do it effectively? According to the LEADERSHIP survey, ministry
homes are places where parents take seriously the task of growing spiritually together. When we
asked, Do you do anything consciously to build a spiritual life together as a family? almost 86
percent of the pastors and spouses said yes. But their methods differed radically.
Here are some ways ministry families attempt to build a shelter for the spirit, soul, and bodyor
as Edith Schaeffer defines it, an ecologically balanced environment.
Structured Times
Virtually every ministry family prays together, usually at meals, and most read Bible stories and
pray with younger children at bedtime. We pray with our children before they go to school in
the morning, and we take time to listen and pray with the children before they go to bed, said
one survey respondent.
Another pastor explained the benefits of the before-bed-time moments with his 6-year-old son:
It makes sure that I have an unhurried conversation with Kyle at least once a day. And thats
important. Last week, as we finished reading and praying, I asked, as I usually do, Well, Kyle,
what do you remember that happened today?
Mom got angry at me and didnt let me finish my lunch, he said. When I asked what
happened, he said his younger sister had yanked his soup bowl off the table, spilling it on the
floor. He had pushed his sister away, knocking her down. His mother walked in just in time to
see the mess and the push, and she banished Kyle to his room. But it wasnt my fault, Dad.
He needed to explain his side of things. And I explained that he should call his mother instead
of push his sister. It was a good conversation. But if I hadnt taken the time to read and pray with
him, I might have missed it. If Id rushed in and asked, What happened today? hed have said,
Nothing. Thats all youll get if thats all the time you spend. Getting kids to be open with you
takes time.
One benefit of a regular devotional time with the family is that, if unhurried and with the right
atmosphere, it can build togetherness even within a busy family. Here are other ways of
structuring times that have worked for pastoral families that responded to the survey.
We try to sing hymns or Christian songs whenever were in the car. This is an especially good
discipline as were driving to church on Sunday morning. It helps calm the frazzled nerves.
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We play a lot of tapes of Christian music. There are some great ones specifically for youngsters,
and our kids love them.
Our preschoolers faithfully watch some of the Superbook videos every day. These are animated
Bible stories. Weve bought some at Christian bookstores; others weve taped off the Christian
TV station.
Several pastors mentioned using drama within the family. One missionary candidate wrote:
When Sarah, our toddler, would no longer sit still on Mommys lap during family devotions, we
had to think of some way to involve her. We decided to try acting out the story together. Soon
Sarah, cloaked with a towel, was walking bent over and crying because she could not stand up
straight, portraying the woman mentioned in Luke 13:1013. I was Jesus, and told her, Be
well! as I put my hand on her. Immediately she stood up straight and began to shout, Hooray, I
can stand up straight! I can stand up straight! Jesus healed me! We no longer had a problem
keeping Sarah involved.
A pastor from Chicago said, Weve been frustrated in our attempts to have a calm, orderly
devotional time. Our three children range in age from 11 to 3, and their varying verbal and
conceptual abilities make it almost impossible to do something thats meaningful for all. So the
only thing we do as a whole family is to tell a Bible story occasionally, discuss it, and act it out.
But our normal procedure is to read a story with our 11-year-old and pray with her, and then do
the same thing separately with our two younger ones. We use The Picture Bible (David C. Cook)
which presents the material in comic strip form. The kids enjoy seeing what the characters look
like.
A structured family time is tough to make work. Many pastoral families no longer trythe
struggle to interest every child every night seemed to be counterproductive. As one pastor said,
For a long time we felt bound to the family-altar concept, but finally realized it didnt work for
us. We have, for the past few years, made a conscious effort to make our relationship with Christ
a living wayevery situation becoming a normal opportunity to grow together spiritually. God
is included in almost all conversations about every subject.
But others continue to feel its worth the effort. Those who maintain the practice find three
principles key:
The value of variety. David McDowell of College Church in Northampton, Massachusetts, says,
Anything done too many times, at least in our house, outlives its usefulness. Variety is essential.
So sometimes we simply pray together; sometimes well have the older kids read to the younger
ones; sometimes well tell a Bible story or act one out; sometimes well go around the table and
have each person tell about one kind deed given or received that day; other times well read from
a devotional booklet.
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Another pastor put it this way: Dont try too hard. I never plan out a weeks devotions for the
family. Like the three princes of Serendip, we are just finding treasure along the way. However,
like those picaresque princes, you do have to be searching to find treasure.
Avoid the teaching trap. One of the occupational hazards of ministry is taking our
preaching/teaching role too seriously and not seeing ourselves as learners, especially with our
children.
Psychiatrist Louis McBurney, who has counseled hundreds of pastors, says, Some pastors never
get out of the teacher role. Most conversations with their children are devoted to telling their
children what they need to know. Thats why it was so refreshing to have Smith and Mary Helen
Noland in our home. They had their 11-year-old son, Gregory, with them, and they consistently
listened to him and invited him into the conversation. Rather than looking for things they could
instruct him about, they asked him about his ideas and feelings. Gregory responded with relaxed
confidence. The mutual respect was obvious.
Help children see that values are personal, not professional. You can tell a child, We dont get
drunk because were Christians, the Bible says no, and besides, were the pastoral family. None
of those reasons may be strong enough, however, when peers suggest drinking and parents arent
around to enforce the family position.
Ministry families have found the more effective route is to discuss the worlds values and their
consequences, and then help the child form his or her own reasons for behavioral decisions. One
of Jim Conways daughters used to say when confronted with alcohol, Ive come up with ten
reasons why I dont drink. The first is that its fattening. Further down her list were reasons
more spiritual.
Many have found that family discussions about such issues need to start at least two years before
children are confronted with the real thing. The regular family discussion and prayer time is one
setting parents use to raise the issues: Sometime down the road, kids are going to ask you what
you believe about____. Lets talk about it now. What do you want to stand for when such
situations come up? Such conversations bear far more fruit than do imposed expectations based
on church roles.
When Things Break Down
Even with the best intentions, however, structured family times can fall apart. Our regular daily
devotionsreading a portion of Scripture and discussing itwere generally successful until our
kids hit high school, wrote one pastors wife. With their busy schedules, our devotions broke
down. We have more misses than hits.
Another pastor said, Last summer I took a three-month sabbatical, and the purpose of that time
was to rest, to be together as a family, to do some traveling, and to expose ourselves to different
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churches and other Christian people. One of our other goals was to have a consistent devotional
time together.
And it worked. We all had our Bibles and notebooks, and before coming to breakfast, wed
each read the designated paragraph from the Gospel of Luke and jot our thoughts in our
notebooks. Then wed come together for breakfast and talk about what wed read. It was the first
time since the children had gotten older that wed been able to do that on a regular basis. It was
wonderful. So I said, Theres no reason we cant keep doing this after we get back home.
But the minute we rolled into the driveway back home, it seemed like everyone took off in
different directions. We had our morning devotions, I think, once in those next two months. Our
breakfasts were just too rushed getting ready for school. Finally I gave up. Now we try to read
something at suppertime, but in all honesty, were doing well if we do that once a week.
But we have been successful in encouraging the older kids to read the Bible and Christian books
on their own. Our 16-year-old continues to keep a spiritual notebook. And I often ask them about
what theyre reading. Weve had some helpful discussions.
The point is not to feel unduly guilty if a structured family devotional time doesnt come easily.
The goal is to create an atmosphere in which focused attention on God is a natural part of life but
not a tyranny.
I tell my kids, and try to show with my life, says a minister in Virginia, that we dont do this
because its the law, but because it helps us, and the older we get the more we realize we need
it.
Unstructured Times
I grew up in a home in which family devotions were rigidly observed, so we began that way,
says David Seamands, former pastor and now professor at Asbury Seminary. Well, with little
children, devotions can be such bedlam you wonder if any spiritual value results. We were
constantly disciplining the kids. Sometimes we just stopped, and then we had to get over the guilt
of missing devotions. When the kids were teenagers, schedules were wild, and getting everyone
together was impossible.
Gradually, Helen and I began to see that table talk was just as important as a regular family
altar. We began to major on this. We were able to have at least one meal a day together. At that
meal we ran the whole days events through a Christian sieve; everything that happened that day
was discussed. I remember one meal where our oldest daughter, then about age 14, told about her
first kiss. She could hardly wait to tell us. We were a very open family, and slowly, subtly,
everything was dealt with in light of a Christian world view.
This perspective was a recurring theme among those returning the LEADERSHIP surveys. For
instance, one wrote: Occasional Bible reading and a song after supper is a joy. But our emphasis
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is to build spiritual life naturally all day. God oozes throughout our family life rather than
breaking in at one special devotional time.
For those who major on the unstructured, a few important principles stand out.
Be prepared for significant moments at unexpected times. Deborah Milam Berkley writes about
her experience as a pastors wife seeing God reveal himself to one of her childrenand almost
missing it because of the busyness of pastoral life.
Like young Samuel in Shiloh, 7-year-old Peter lived with a minister of Godin this case, his
father, Jim. Also like young Samuel, when Peter first encountered the Lord, it was not at a
moving worship service led by his father, nor during bedtime prayers. It was at 5:15 on a busy
weekday evening, when both of his parents were unaware.
It had been a full day, and I was almost late for my evening swim. Pleased with my first athletic
success (I was able to write my number of laps on the public record board!), I was eager for as
much time in the pool as possible. Jim was running late for a church appointment.
We were relieved that our two children were ready to go and were quietly listening to music. As
we hurriedly changed clothes, Peter came into our room with tears trickling down his cheeks.
That song is making me cry, he said.
Jim mumbled something to the effect of Oh, thats too bad, as he slipped past Peter and hurried
out the door.
Peter, Im going to be late! Go back to the living room and wait, I said. But when his small
form was gone, I started wondering if perhaps something was happening that was more
important than swimming laps. So I called him back into the bedroom.
Why is the song making you cry, Peter? I asked.
Well, its the song about In my life, Lord, be glorified, Peter sobbed, and I just have a
feeling like I want to be that way.
A thrill ran through me as I tipped up his face and looked into his eyes.
Do you mean you want to glorify God in your life, like the song says? When he nodded, I
hugged him to me, grateful to God for not letting me ignore my son. Peter needed me to direct
him to God, as Eli had done for Samuel. We prayed together, and Peter told God that he loved
him and wanted to serve him. That evening we had a profoundly contented little boy at our
houseand two very thankful parents.
But we almost missed it. Our adult priorities almost kept us from responding to Peter when he
needed us. Since that time, I have tried to be better prepared to listen and to help.
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Bring God into the daily events. One pastor said he was gratified to see his son apply spiritual
lessons hes been taught. One morning my wife burned her hand with hot oil making play
dough. Our oldest son suggested that we pray before taking Mommy to the hospital. To this day,
she has no scarand guess who brags on Gods healing power the most?
Be open about both successes and struggles. Children can see both the joys and the trials of the
Christian life, so many parents consciously walk both the high road and the low road with their
children.
A Christian Reformed pastors wife observed: Our children need to know what is going on in
our spiritual livesour victories and our failures. Our kids became our prayer partners while
they were still quite young. Some things were beyond them, but many could be shared in prayer.
When children share spiritual struggles, they see our weaknesses and our sins, all the small and
not-so-small failures that make up the walk of anyone who is serious about following Christ. But
because they were spiritually involved with us, our inconsistencies werent a stumbling block for
them. It is much harder to be put off by your parents sins when they admit them and you are
helping them pray to overcome them.
In the same way, our spiritual victories were not inflated out of proportion. They were seen as
answers to prayer, things that can be achieved by anyone who is serious about letting God use
him. When my daughters see my counsel help someone through a serious problem, or see
someone introduced to Christ through my efforts, they are pleased, but not unduly impressed.
Take advantage of ministry opportunities. Says Mary Manz Simon, a Lutheran pastors wife
from Belleville, Illinois: Our general rule is to accept assignments in the church at large that
will allow at least the two of us and often our whole family to participate. For example, last
summer we took some responsibility for an international gathering of Lutheran media
misionaries in nearby St. Louis because our children would have a chance to meet people from
around the world.
Belleville is a rather closed, traditional community, and we wanted our kids to see what
missionary ministry, the whole wider concept of sharing the gospel, was really about.
One night we hosted men from nineteen countries at our home. They played T-ball in the
backyard. One of the men from Brazil had never seen T-ball before. To this day, our son
Matthew is convinced that he came to the United States just to play T-ball with him. The kids did
a puppet show about sharing Jesus around the world. Our daughter Angela gave one of the men
from France a pencil shaped like a cross, and every time we get a note from him he says, Im
using Angies pencil. Then, in our living room, our children got to hear them all sing What a
Friend We Have in Jesus in each of their native tongues. Our children will never forget that. We
grew closer as a family and to the Lord that night.
Ministry as Family Tradition
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As the Simons example shows, somewhere between structured and unstructured approaches lies
an important method many pastoral families capitalize on: developing a pattern of outreach.
When children understand that ministry is rooted in a love for Christ and a desire to share that
love with others, each event helps build a solid spiritual foundation.
Donald Bubna describes a tradition of hospitality his family developed while serving churches in
San Diego and later in Salem, Oregon: On Christmas Eve we would have a buffet in our home
after the early Christmas Eve service for people who were alone. Christmas Day was our family
celebration, but Christmas Eve was always an outreach event, and wed invite people who
needed it the most. That was part of our ministry as a family.
As the children got older, wed ask each child, Who do you want to invite this year? And they
would say, Lets have so-and-so. I dont know them very well or I dont think so-and-so has
anyplace to go. At times, we would end up with strange combinations of people. But it was a
rich time of ministry.
Now the Bubna children are grown and living on their own, but Don reports, Last Christmas,
we called our daughter, and she had put together a Christmas Eve buffet for some twenty people.
Then we called our son whos in Alaska, and hed had a group of people in, too, just like we
always did, Dad.
As a parent, this is one of my greatest rewards: to see children freely choose to reach out to
others by continuing, and building on, our familys tradition.

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TEN
FAMILY
TENSIONS

The most irritating experience an artist can have is to have his work criticized before it is
finished.
ANDREW WYETH
As weve seen, the ministry has an effect, both positive and negative, on a pastors family life.
But the converse is also true: family life can have a profound effect on ministry. In the next three
chapters, well look at the burdens and benefits that family relationships can bring to ministry.
One of the toughest burdens can be family tensions. Consider the story of this pastor from
California:
We were eating lunch in a favorite Chinese restaurant. My son was nineteen, good looking, and
engaged to an attractive woman four years his senior, whom he had met at Bible college. We
thought he was too young for marriage and had expressed our concern. Give yourself and your
relationship more time to mature, we said. But when youre nineteen and the future spreads
before you
Dad, were going to have a baby.
Time stood still.
Im sorry to hurt you like this. Were going to get married right away.
We sat quietly, picking at food, grasping for thoughts. An image flashed through my mind: our
sons future, in the form of water and sludge, rushing down an open drain. Pull yourself together,
I told myself. I excused myself from the table to make a phone call. Then I dialed the church
office and spoke in controlled tones to the familiar voice at the other end so as not to betray the
inner turmoil.
Kill the announcement of my new sermon series, will you? Ive been having some second
thoughts.
Im sorry, Pastor. Its already gone to press.
Okay, I replied after a moment. Ill deal with it later. Please let my wife know that Ive had
lunch with our son and well be leaving for home in a few minutes. It is important for her to meet
us there. We have some things we need to discuss.
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Walking slowly back to the table, my thoughts kept coming back to the sermon series Id
intended to begin this Sunday: The Future Family. What timing! What could I say when I was
still reeling from my own familys situation?
I told my son and his bride-to-be that I felt the need to tell the church board about the situation.
They wanted to meet with the board as well, but I said no. As I reflected later, that was probably
a mistake. They should have been permitted to share personally. After all, it was their marriage
and their baby. But I was in a protectionist mood. Their problem had become my problem.
Our board of five gathered for the specially called meeting. I shared with them the news. If even
one of you feels this would be too much for the church family to absorb, I will understand and
tender my resignation, I said. I explained how important we felt it was for us to stand with our
son and his fiance if they were to have any chance for a successful future. If that meant
resigning, then thats the way it would have to be.
To a person, the board members affirmed both me and our family. One reminded me of how I
had stood with him in a similar crisis some years before. Another offered understanding because
he faced similar temptation as a young man. We prayed and cried together.
It was a small May wedding. After a brief honeymoon, my son and his wife went to live with her
parents, in order to get on their feet financially. Six weeks later, after an explosive and
embarrassing confrontation with her parents, they spent the next thirty days in our home while
we went on vacation. Much of our motivation in leaving was to permit the newlyweds some
privacy. Soon after our return, they rented an apartment.
In November, our daughter was married. Her wedding was large and beautiful. At the conclusion
of the rehearsal dinner (an event my son had not included), my son wistfully commented, This
is really a lot different than our wedding, isnt it?
Two weeks later, on Thanksgiving Day, we became grandparents of a beautiful baby girl. The
excited father and mother proudly showed off their little miracle. It seemed that, at long last,
things might be coming together.
They smiled and laughed when visiting us. We enjoyed our time together. But their apartment
gradually became a war zone of angry words aimed to bring the greatest pain. Already unsure of
themselves, they felt the pressure mounting of forever entrapment. When a terrible mistake has
been made, is there ever relief?
She dealt with conflict by going home to mother. He internalized the angerand began to drink.
As the pain increased, so did the number of drinks.
In the church, loving support was given by many, probably too many. Church members reached
out to the young couple, but she could not trust the voices because they came from his fathers
congregation. He could not accept the voices because they seemed like multiple parents. It was
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like having hundreds of close relatives, never knowing when one would step up with a word of
wisdom. And, of course, there was always the underlying guilt and embarrassment of having
conceived out of wedlock. People might not say much about that. But what must they be
thinking?
Our son knew he had let his parents down. They had forgivenat least thats what they said
but in his mind, he was the black sheep, maybe even the lost sheep. It became impossible to
measure up to expectations, both real and imagined. The couple began to hate the church, this
loving, but impossible Parent.
At first our son sold cars, then burglar systems. Finally he took a position with an aircraft firm.
She worked in a restaurant and sold art objects on the side. Together they struggled with
financial problemsand increasing hopelessness.
We tried to help when it seemed appropriate, but we did our best to stay out of the way as well.
What our relationship with them should be became increasingly difficult to determine. They both
began coming to us for counsel, little suggestions and encouragement. They kept looking for that
word of wisdom their pastor/parents always seemed to have for everyone else. But when is ones
counsel that of concerned parent and when that of impartial pastor? We were never sure. Even on
my most objective day, a word of wisdom may not feel objective to the respective in-law. We
assisted financially with professional Christian marriage counseling, but even this became
suspect, because the psychologist was a friend of his family.
One day the phone rang. Our sons voice cracked with emotion. He had come home that day to
find both his wife and their daughter gone. After hed left for work that morning, her parents had
helped her move back with them. Everything she had brought into their life was gone: the baby,
the furniture, the pictures, the wedding gifts from her side of the family. What remained was in a
heap in the center of the apartment. On top lay a carefully wrapped birthday giftand a note
saying she wanted a divorce.
That evening we sat quietly around the dining room table. Twenty-one candles burned low on the
birthday cake. No one felt like singing, Happy Birthday.
The following spring, the divorce papers were signed. Three months later, she remarried.
Our son moved in with us, and on the surface, it appeared we were back to square one.
Then one day, he announced he had resigned from the aircraft company to start his own business.
Thats what hed always wanted to do, he said. Now it was time. He was receiving lots of
encouragement from a young lady in our church whom he had been seeing. Her parents were
supportive of the idea, too, and assured him he could do anything he really set his mind to do. He
opened a home repair and remodeling business. He loved working with wood and was quite good
at it. Jobs started coming in. Things were looking up once more.
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But his relationship with the young lady seemed to be moving too rapidly. Once again, we found
ourselves watching from the sidelines with a growing anxiety. It appeared to be the classic
rebound relationship. He disagreed. So did the parents of the young lady. I met with them after
church one evening. We spoke at length about the future of our children, but we went away with
greatly divergent views of the situation.
Then came the announcement: they were to be married the following Aprila big church
wedding, even a rehearsal dinner.
The rising tension at home finally boiled over one Sunday before I left for the first service. What
we were able to say about this new relationship was not what our son was able to receive. He felt
if things didnt change between us well, they just had to change. Our voices got louder. At
one point I wondered if he would actually hit me.
I told him the time had come to make living arrangements elsewhere. The tension in our home
was too high; we were stretched as far as we could go. He listened in cold anger, then said he
would be gone before I arrived home from church.
As I drove away, I thought, Im on my way to church. Im supposed to bring inspiration and
strength to Gods people. But were losing our son. Life is out of control. When was the last time
any of us were really happy?
Good morning everyone! I said minutes later. Welcome. Lets stand and sing Hymn 415.
Many pastors are familiar with the feeling of trying to minister while knowing things are not
good at home. While conditions in other homes may not have deteriorated to the degree they did
in the story above, most ministry families have their share of tensions. As one pastor said, My
toughest sermon was the time I had to speak on love the morning after an argument with my
wife.
Another said, I can barely preach if Ive gotten angry with my children on the way to church.
Its hard to talk about forgiveness when I need to practice some.
Family relationships, if strained, can hinder a persons ability to minister, but many church
leaders have learned that ministry canand mustcontinue even when conditions at home are
less than optimal. Every family will face times of turbulence.
Perhaps one of the most prominent examples of persistent ministry in the face of domestic
turmoil is John Wesley.
Before his marriage at age 47, Wesley had at least two romantic interests that ended in
disappointment. In Georgia, teenager Sophie Hopkey grew tired of waiting for young Wesley to
commit himself; she married another man, and Wesleys angry reaction brought an end to his
ministry in America. Back in England, Wesleys sporadic courtship of Grace Murray ended
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abruptly when she hastily married Methodist lay-preacher John Bennet at the urging of Charles
Wesley. Charles was convinced his brothers marriage to Grace would have been a terrible
mistake, so he falsely convinced Grace that John had decided to give her up. Wesley was deeply
wounded. He wrote to his friend Thomas Bigg, Since I was six years old, I have never met with
such a severe trial. The whole world fought against me; but above all my own familiar friend.
Shortly thereafter, Wesley apparently fell in love with a widow named Molly Vazeille. After
preaching one Sunday in February 1751, he slipped on the ice crossing London Bridge and hurt
his ankle. He was taken to Mrs. Vazeilles house, where he spent the remainder of the week
partly in prayer, reading and conversation, partly in writing an Hebrew Grammar and Lessons
for Childrenan unusual courtship. The next Sunday he preached kneeling, and the next day he
married Molly Vazeille.
It was probably the worst mistake of Wesleys life. Whatever Molly Vazeilles defects, and they
may not be glossed over, Wesley must bear some responsibility for [the marriages] ultimate
failure, writes Wesley biographer V. H. H. Green. Molly Vazeille was no starry-eyed young
girl, enraptured by the divinely sent evangelist. She was a widow with experience of marriage
and four grown-up children who had no desire to become part of a traveling caravan.
As soon as his foot healed, Wesley was off on his travels. Molly tried accompanying him, and at
first, Wesley commended her: They talk of you much and know not how to commend you
enough, even for your plainness of dress, your sitting among the poor at preaching, your using
sage-tea (Wesley had strong views about the bad effects of green tea), and not being delicate in
your food. But the rough roads, bad weather (This day, Wesley once wrote, a bit smugly but
no doubt sincerely, I was wet from morning to night with the continued rain, but I found no
manner of inconvenience), shabby inns, and poor food were too much for the former merchants
wife. She stopped traveling with him and stayed home, brooding on her perceived mistreatment.
She questioned his affection. When they were together, they exchanged angry words. She began
to doubt his fidelity. She found some letters that aroused intense jealousy.
Finding little support at home, Wesley had taken to writing Sarah Ryan, a woman he had
appointed housekeeper at Kingswood School, and at times his words were indiscrete:
Conversing with you, either by speaking or writing, is an unspeakable blessing to me. I cannot
think of you without thinking of God.
When Molly found out about Sarah, who was twenty years younger than the 54-year-old Wesley,
her anger increased. She discovered Sarahs checkered past. (As a young woman, Sarah had been
a domestic servant and married a corkcutter who was, in fact, already married. When the
corkcutter deserted Sarah, she wed an Irish sailor named Ryan, and while he was at sea, she
bigamously married an Italian. Eventually Ryan sailed to America, and the Italian joined the
British navy, leaving Sarah to return to domestic service. It was then that she heard Wesley
preach and was converted.)
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When Molly found in Wesleys pocket a letter addressed to Sarah, she angrily observed, The
whore now serving you has three husbands living.
The marriage did not survive. Molly turned increasingly vindictive before the final separation.
Wesley wrote of being continually watched over for evil hearing a thousand little, tart,
unkind reflections in return for the kindest words I could devise. Another time he wrote, My
wife picks my lock and steals my private papers. She published his indiscretions and defamed
him to his critics. In one celebrated incident, she accosted Wesley while he was speaking and
tried to drag him away by his hair. He once said she could undo in two minutes more than he
could do in two weeks.
For another twenty years, he hoped for the possibility of reconciliation, but in his last surviving
letter, dated October 2, 1778, he doubted whether they would meet again in this world: If you
were to live a thousand years, you could not undo the mischief that you have done. And till you
have done all you can toward it, I bid you farewell.
She died three years later, but Wesley did not know of her death for several days and did not
attend the funeral.
Certainly the responsibility for the tensions in the Wesley household rests with both John and
Molly. When they were married, he was already wedto his mission. He wasnt prepared to
focus his energies on family concerns. He was certainly no model husband. For her part, Molly
became increasingly unbalanced and jealous, and certainly her determination to defame her
husband was inexcusable.
But perhaps the greatest lesson to emerge from this story is simply the fact that hardly anyone
has heard it. John Wesley has not been judged by history for his failure at home but for his
accomplishments in ministry.
Despite the turmoil at home, Wesley unarguably had a tremendous impact throughout England.
He traveled more than 250,000 miles on horseback, preached 46,000 sermons (a thousand times
a year), wrote 400 books, established hundreds of societies, and founded schools, hospitals, and
orphanages. He not only helped change the moral climate of eighteenth century England (he was
an important influence on William Wilberforce, a key figure in abolishing slavery throughout the
British Empire), but Wesleys influence continues into the twentieth century (seen not only in the
Methodist and Wesleyan denominations, but also in the thousands of small-group Bible studies
that trace their spiritual lineage to the bands formed by the methodical Wesley to promote
Bible study).
Ministry is indeed possible even when family tensions present unavoidable challenges. At times
the tensions are a result of our own poor choicesand our responsibility is to right whatever
wrongs weve committed as much as we are able. Other times the tensions are the result of other
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peoples decisions or circumstances beyond our control. In either case, two principles help point
the way to the place where, by Gods grace, effective ministry can still happen.
Accepting and Admitting Shortcomings
The first principle is to accept and admit the tensions family life produces.
In a LEADERSHIP interview, I once asked family-life advocate James Dobson about the
inevitable gap between public ministry and private family life. How does a minister encourage
family life publicly when he knows things are stressful at home?
Dobson said, If you dont have your home life in good order, you have no business teaching
others how to handle theirs; on the other hand, no one is perfect at home.
You can no more be a perfect father or husband than you can be a perfect human being. You
may know all the rules for good family life, all the biblical principlesand yet simple fatigue
will affect your ability to implement them at certain times.
So after a sermon it is always possible for a pastors wife to say to her husband on the way
home, I guess you know you dont live up to what you preached today. That is the nature of
human imperfection.
I asked, Does Shirley ever remind you that youre talking further than youve walked?
She is generous to me because she loves me, but its not difficult for her to identify my faults,
he said. Thats why I frequently talk publicly about my shortcomings at home. In one of my
books I describe our classic umbrella fight. Id come home from a trip exhausted. Shirley
wanted me to clean the back yard umbrella that Saturday, while I felt entitled to watch a football
game. After all, Id been working hard and deserved a day off. But while I was out of town, she
had been taking care of our children and managing the family. Now that I was home, she felt it
was high time I offered her some relief. We had a three-day collision of wills over that.
I think its important for family specialists to reveal incidents like that. I have also tried to
describe times I did not father our children properly. Chuck Swindoll is careful to admit the same
kind of faults. We need to admit were not perfect at home. Honesty demands it. And people
respond to that openness.
With one group, I told about a frustrating day when I really rode the backs of my children. I
said, That day I violated everything I write about. The audience applauded. They need to hear
about times I havent measured up to my own standard.
Hanging in There
The second principle is simply to hang in there long enough to see if Gods grace is sufficient to
let the ministry continue.
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Steve Harris is a pastor who knows family tension of a different sort. His son, Matthew, was
born with spina bifida and an unnerving complication, apneic spells, in which Matthew would
suddenly stop breathing and have to be resuscitatedas many as twenty times a day. The
doctors, unable to explain the exact cause or treatment, warned Steve and his wife, Pam, that the
next spell could end Matthews life.
We never know when Matthew might stop breathing and never go anywhere without our
medical equipment to help revive him, writes Steve. Our current estimate is that Matthew has
stopped breathing and nearly died over 2,780 times. A parishioner once suggested that by now
youre probably used to it. I wish that were true. Each spell is as frightening as the first, as we
anxiously watch, wait, and wonder if we truly are witnessing the end of Matthews life.
Matthews medical problems have made ministryindeed, life itselfa daily challenge. Steve
has felt keenly the various emotions that make ministry so difficult for a hurting pastor. But he
has learned to minister despite the stressful family situation.
One of the most important lessons you can learn, a professor told me in seminary, is that at
times, youll have to minister when you dont feel like it. Those times have certainly come,
says Steve.
On a warm July morning I was scheduled to perform a wedding, but right beforehand, Matthew
suffered five serious apneic spells within an hour. As I dressed for the wedding in the hospital
mens room, the last place I wanted to be was celebrating with a young couple anticipating the
joys of married life. But I also knew I had made a commitment. The wedding went fine, although
Im sure Ive done better.
The fact he did it at all was a positive accomplishment. The decision to hang in there is an
important step for any pastor.
Yes, family tension affects ministry, but as John Wesley, James Dobson, and Steve Harris have
learned, it doesnt prevent it. At times, however, it does demand certain crucial responses, to
which we turn in the next chapter.

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ELEVEN
RESTORING YOUR
CHILD
Children are strange possessions. We raise them so we can lose them.
M. O. VINCENT
Not long ago I was at an informal gathering of ministers when the conversation turned to
disciplining children. Two of the pastors got into a spirited discussion about how they were
raisedand how they were raising their own children.
This will sound weird to you guys, said one pastor, but my dad never laid a hand on me
ever. I remember one instance in particular: we had a long driveway, and when Dad would take
his Sunday afternoon nap, I liked to drive the car up and down the driveway. Sometimes, to be
cool, Id open the car door to see where I was going as I backed up. But once I got too close to
the house, and I caught the door on the porch steps and nearly ripped the door off its hinges. I
remember how frightened I was, but Dad came out, looked things over, and said, I think we can
fix it.
Another pastor said, Thats not the way my dad would have reacted!
Amid the laughter, a third pastor said, A few weeks ago, my 11-year-old son was riding his bike
to school, and on the way he stopped at the dirt track with a few of his buddies. He figured, Hey,
Ive got my lunch; Ive got my bike; why go to school? By the time he got home, Id discovered
where he had been, but I didnt bring it up immediately. I wanted to see what he would say. So I
asked, How was school today? He said, It was okay.
What if I knew for a fact that you werent in school today, I asked. What would you think
then?
He put his head down and said, I think Im dead meat. And he was!
While we all laughed, I was struck by the different responses parents make to childrens
misdeeds. Some parents are more authoritarian, emphasizing respect rather than intimacy. Others
are more democratic, emphasizing participation and feeling close.
No style, however, is guaranteed to prevent a child from rebelling. A child may rebel because of
too much control or too little. Ministry families are not immune to this rebellion. Indeed, since
family relationships affect ministry so greatly, many pastors struggle with the proper response to
children who stray.
Lets look at the range of childrens misbehavior and how it affects ministry.
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Degrees of Disobedience
Misdeeds range from minor to major but fall into four categories.
Mischief. Some misbehavior is relatively minor and a normal part of growing up. Our church is
too small to have a childrens church, said one pastors wife. So the kids are in the worship
service with us. I get frustrated with a child who pipes up in the middle of the sermon, Im
bored. So I have a bag stocked with baseball cards, Cheerios, coloring books, and puzzles. Even
with these diversions, our children occasionally disrupt the service, and I have to remove them.
But I have to remember they are kids first and pastors kids about fifth.
Most pastors have learned to handle such minor kids stuff with a few simple guidelines.
1. Let children know what is expected before the situation arises. One pastors 4-year-old
repeatedly tried to get to the platform during the serviceby crawling under the pews. He had to
learn when he could and could not roam freely in the sanctuary.
2. If children need correction, try not to embarrass them publicly, especially not in front of their
friends.
We practice the 123 rule, said a pastors wife. Ill look at the child whos misbehaving and
let him know I disapprove of what hes doing. Then Ill count to three, either verbally or by
raising my fingers. If the behavior hasnt stopped by the count of three, I act, usually by making
him sit by himself, or if necessary by removing him from the scene and disciplining him
privately.
3. In public, hold your children to the same standards of behavior as you would other peoples
children. I am teaching confirmation class right now to a group that includes my daughter, said
the pastor of an Evangelical Covenant Church. As junior highers are sometimes, she was
squirmy, so I had to say, Sandy, settle down. Lets get back to work and not be so silly. I would
have said the same thing to any other kid in the class.
4. Offer reasons for correction based on whats right and wrong, whats loving or unloving,
whats wise or foolishnever because Daddy is a pastor or because of what people will
think. One pastor has buttressed his determination not to do that by trying to eliminate the
embarrassment factor: Ive said up front, At times my kids will embarrass metheyre normal
kidsbut please let them be kids and try to help me be a parent.
I find I tend to overdiscipline when I feel embarrassed. I recently came down way too hard on
my son for being rambunctious in the foyer after church. It was because he was embarrassing
me, the pastor. I apologized to him afterward. Im trying to accept the fact that kids occasionally
will embarrass you. Our people can accept that; now Im trying to.
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What effect does a childs mischief have on ministry? Most ministry families said, No effect,
and a few said the occasions when theyd had to correct their children had been a positive time of
ministry.
It made my husbands ministry more human, said one pastors wife in Maryland. As people
saw him dealing successfully with his children, they were more willing to approach him for
help.
Questionable Choices. Slightly more serious than mischief are decisions that make parents
squirm. For instance, kids deciding they dont want to go to church.
On the LEADERSHIP survey, no one recommended telling the children, We have to go
because were church leaders. Instead, the emphasis was on obedience to Christ or, on occasion,
because its a distinctive of our family.
David McDowell, who pastors College Church in Northampton, Massachusetts, smiles when
telling about one encounter: We were on our way to the car when our 10-year-old started
whining, I dont want to go to church. I want to stay home and watch TV. I decided to be firm.
I pointed my finger at him and said with as much thunder in my voice as I could muster, You
are the first and last McDowell ever to complain about going to church. That was three years
ago, and I havent had to say anything since.
At the same time, another Massachusetts pastor said, As our kids were growing up, we didnt
want them to feel the church is an intrusion. We wanted them to know their lives were not
inextricably intertwined with the church and that the validity of dads ministry did not hang on
their performance. We never required them to be in all the programs. In fact, there were Sunday
nights when I said, Why dont you stay home tonight? Youve had a rough weekend. But
nineteen times out of twenty both would say, No, were going to church.
Yet another pastors daughter announced she was going to the youth group at a different church
because her girl friend went there, and she didnt like some of the people where her dad pastored.
That was sticky, said her father. I didnt care if people gasped at the pastors kid going to
another church. But I didnt want my daughter running from relational issues she needed to
address, so we compromised. I eventually let her go to events at the other church, but she had to
attend at least half the youth events in our church. It worked out well.
Other questionable choices center on lifestyle issues. One Kentucky pastor describes such a
situation: Our 15-year-old daughter announced one day that she was going to the school dances,
which we knew would raise eyebrows in our church. That was the first time our philosophy of
freedom of choice was really put to the test. We sat and talked through all the issues as I saw
them. She said, I know all that, but I still want to go. So with fear and trepidation, we backed
her freedom to make this choice. She went to three or four, and then one night she came home
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early. I said, Whats going on? To our great joy, she told us shed made another decision: Oh,
Daddy, those just arent my kind of kids. And that was the end of it.
A third area of questionable choices is in rejecting certain parts of their spiritual upbringing. I
remember when our son came home from science class one day and told us that Genesis was
wrong and that evolution was a better explanation of origins, said a pastor. I knew this was
partly for shock effect, so I decided to allow for his disagreement. It led to some good
conversations. With some kids, you let them see theyre special to you by allowing them to be
different. Most preachers kids are too smart to be real prodigals. They know the life of a
prodigal is a dead-end street, so the only way to get a minister parents attention is to disagree on
religious matters. The trick is not to over-react.
Other pastors have found it helpful to identify whether the questionable choice is an isolated
incident or part of a pattern. If its a single instance, most tend to be lenient, but if its part of a
pattern, theyre more likely to intervene.
Ive been helped by the analogy of a fence, said one pastor. Parental intervention is like a
fence postthats where the direction of the fence will change, if necessary. But between the
fence posts, youve got the rails running long enough to see what direction the fence is going.
Generally the older kids get, the further the intervals between fence posts.
Extended Conflict. As they grow, children almost inevitably come into areas of conflict with
their parents. This is as true for pastors as for anyone else. Sometimes the conflict is low-key;
other times its sharp and intense. Listen as one pastor describes life with his teenage daughter:
Late spring of her sixth-grade year, it was as if Wendy came out of her bedroom one day and
said, Im going to ruin your lives for the next four years. Overnight she became strong-willed
and argumentative.
Of course, she was worried about her appearance, going into junior high, and hormonal changes
that she (and I) didnt understand. Knowing that didnt make the situation easier; it just
compounded my wondering how to respond.
She was moody; she didnt want to eat dinner with us; she spent hours in her bedroom alone.
That summer on vacation, she wanted to do her thing first and then go back to the hotel; she
didnt want to let anybody else do what they wanted to do. It was so awful I called my mother
and apologized for whatever hell I had put her through.
Every statement was an absolute: Im never going to school again. Im not going to talk to
that person ever again. Because Im a driving sort of individual, that set up many head-to-head
battles. For example, Id ask, Where do you want to go for supper?
I dont care.
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Fine. Ill decide.
In the car, shed ask, Where are we going?
McDonalds.
I refuse to eat there. I want to go to Burger King.
I asked you, and you said you didnt care, so I made the decision. The next time I ask, please
tell me and well go to Burger King, but tonight were going to McDonalds.
Then Im not eating!
It was difficult for me to discuss this with people in the congregation. My wife and I saw a
counselorone who I had referred other people to many times. That was hard admitting we
needed help. But I did manage to talk about my fears and anguish with perhaps fifteen people.
What surprised me was that the more we shared, the more we found out some of the model
kids of our church were like Wendy at home. One lay leader, whose son is a leader in the youth
group, told me there were times when he and his son wouldnt speak for days at a time. I never
would have known.
When I did mention this to some of the elders, one said, If you want my daughter to invite your
daughter over for the weekend just to give you guys some rest, please let us do it.
When another of our elders moved in across the street, we felt the freedom to tell him and his
wife, If you see Wendy smoking, dont feel you have to hide it from us. We know she smokes,
and she takes walks sometimes because we wont let her smoke in the house. They were most
understanding.
When Wendy shaved the right side of her head, I never said a word, but it ate me up inside.
When I told a fellow pastor about our situation, he, a Nazarene, comforted me with a story of his
own: A lady came up to me recently and said, Thanks for letting your daughter dress the way
you do. My parents wouldnt let me express myself when I was growing up. That helped.
We also learned to see the humor in our situation. A pastor friend used us as a sermon
illustration: I know a guy whose daughter just dyed her hair orange. Thats probably kind of
stupid, but since when is being stupid grounds for not getting into the church? As my friend says,
I dont know why theyre upset about my daughters orange hair. Some of the little old ladies in
our church have blue hair.
The whole process really deepened my love for my wife, Sara, because we were in it together.
We realize how kids can ruin a marriage because we had times when we would snap at each
other. We had to keep saying, Were not the enemy, and keep renewing and reviewing our
love.
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It also made me more sensitive to single parents; I dont know how they get through it. The other
day at a soccer game a single parent from our church was talking to Sara and me about how her
son is belching all the time now. And how he bought a new toilet seat and coverthe top of it is
this big yellow and black sign that says, DANGER. You lift the cover, and it says, FARTING
ZONE. Thats being a 13-year-old boy, but this poor woman doesnt understand that, and she
doesnt have anybody to talk to.
So weve been talking about launching a Parents of Adolescents Anonymous, where we get
together and say, Everything said in this room will be confidential. Were going through it
together. One day in the adult Sunday school class, we broke into small groups, and Sara was in
such pain she described some of it. Bob and Jenny, the couple she talked with, said, Youve got
to pray for us. Were living through the same things. So its drawn us closer together, deepened
our faith. We realize weve got to pray like crazy, because nothing weve tried is going to change
our daughter.
When such conflict erupts in a ministry home, the stress level heightens. But two understandings
have helped keep parents from overreacting.
First, a certain amount of rebellion is necessary and healthy. Donald Miller, who grew up in a
pastors home, said he didnt go through a time of serious rebellion (although like many young
persons, there were some erratic periods in my service for Christ as I grew up), but he noted that
nonrebellion also has its negative side.
If theres a danger in having a father you highly respect and nearly worship, he said, its that
you may accept his views without checking their validity for yourself.
Second, keeping calm is perhaps the most important statement you can make. One pastor was
discouraged because of his sons negative attitude toward church. A wise elder took him aside
and said, Paul, when your kids are moving into adolescence and you panic, it says all the wrong
things. It says you dont believe in them, and you dont believe in God.
The elder went on to say, I spent some time with your son this week, and hes going to be okay.
He just needs some room to grow. The pastor said later, You cant imagine what a comfort
those words were.
Serious Straying. Some children do more than simply disagree with their parents; they turn their
backs on themand reject their values. These situations cause particular pain.
When the LEADERSHIP survey asked, Have you ever had a child seriously stray? overall, 14
percent of the ministry families said yes. But when you dont count those with young children or
no children, the figure is higher. Of those who had children 18 and older, 30 percent said theyve
had at least one child seriously stray. Of course, many of these families had other children who
did not seriously stray. And to further put this in perspective, we mustnt forget that more than
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two-thirds of the pastoral families surveyed who had grown children did not face serious
rebellion.
But 30 percent did, and even one child who strays dominates parents attention and strains other
family relationships. Open rebellion, spiritual straying, or obviously bad choices not only cause
parents deep grief, but threaten to undermine their entire ministry.
Evangelist Dwight L. Moody had a special concern because his oldest son, Will, was cool to
spiritual matters. Once he wrote Will a revealing letter: I have not talked much with you for fear
I would turn you more and more against Him, whom I love more than all the world, and if I have
ever said or done anything unbecoming a Christian father I want you to forgive me. I have
always thought that when a mother and father are Christians and their children were not that
there was something decidedly wrong with them. I still think so. If I thought I had neglected to
do my duty toward my three children I would rather die than live. Many parents in ministry
understand the feeling.
In Moodys case, the story had a happy ending. The following year Will made a profession of
faith. When Dwight heard of it, he wrote, I do not think you will ever know until you have a son
of your own how much good it did me to hear this.
Not all stories end that way. What about children who do not wind up reconciling with their
parents or with God? Does that mean ministry is over?
The answer from pastors I surveyed and interviewed was overwhelmingly no. They were nearly
unanimous in agreeing that effective ministry canand in most cases shouldcontinue even if
children rebel.
They identified three overriding principles that guide a parent in ministry when children stray.
Unconditional Love
Children need to know that our love for them is forever, whenever, and with no strings attached.
Although we expect them to live the kind of lives God wants them to live, they must know that
should they fail, we would still accept them. Parents agreed this should be put into words so
children do not doubt it.
Writes a pastors wife: One of our daughters always had a high consciousness of sin, and she
kept talking about her fear of going to jail. We explained that even if she did something that put
her in jail, she would still be our daughter, and we would love her just as much as if it had never
happened. We told her that just as God never stops loving us no matter what we do, we would
never stop loving her, either. I might feel terrible and cry a lot, but I would visit her in jail just as
I would if she were in the hospital. With a big smile she said, You would? That was the
assurance she needed. She never brought up the subject of going to jail again.
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Such love tells children they dont have to test their parents with far-out behavior to see whether
theyll still be accepted. Although this is important for all parents, its more so for church
leaders, whose children realize their behavior could threaten the parents ministry. If they feel
ministry is more important to us than their welfare, they may yield to the temptation to act in
some socially unacceptable way to force their parents hand.
An Unmanaged Household?
One of the fears of pastors is that a childs behavior will render their entire ministry invalid. A
few oft-cited Bible verses make any family in ministry uncomfortable.
An elder must be blameless a man whose children believe and are not open to the charge of
being wild and disobedient (Titus 1:6).
If anyone does not know how to manage his own family, how can he take care of Gods
church? (1 Tim. 3:5).
In addition, theres the tragic example of Eli, whose two sons desecrated the temple, and as a
result God condemned all three (1 Sam. 2:2236).
What does this mean for people in ministry today? Does a son or daughter who strays render a
minister disqualified? Here are the responses of a number of pastors and denominational
officials.
My response is no, says Donald Njaa, who oversees credentials for ministers in the
Evangelical Covenant Church. The rebellion may well be not against the father or mother; it
may be a rebellion against the pressure theyve been put under by the church.
The Timothy passage concludes with a warning not to fall into reproach, and the greatest
reproach is hypocrisywhen something is espoused in the pulpit but not upheld in the home,
says Mike Halcomb, a denominational official with the Conservative Congregational Christian
Conference. But that passage is not referring to the normal maturation process of children. Our
boys were inclined to pillage and plunder, sometimes in the church basement! I had to reprimand
them. But I trust their being normal boys doesnt disqualify me for ministry. I also dont think
the passage speaks to grown children (and in Bible days, that would probably be 14 to 16 years
old) who choose to dissociate themselves from the faith.
Other ministers, while acknowledging the tragic example of Eli, point out that Samuels sons
also were rebellious, but Samuels leadership remained intact. And while Cain was a murderer,
God didnt hold his father, Adam, accountable.
As pastor Charles Swindoll has said, Theres been only one perfect Father, and even he has a lot
of wayward kids.
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Weve known pastoral families where a child has been wild and rebellious, says a pastors
wife, and yet as far as we could tell, the parents did everything they could to bring up that child
to love the Lord. Many times, five or six years later, that child will come back to faith, and to
love and respect the parents. In other words, why should a parents ministry end because of a
childs temporary insanity?
Eugene Peterson, pastor of Christ Our King Presbyterian Church in Bel Air, Maryland, says,
There are many possible reasons for childrens not growing up in the faith. I have three kids, all
grown. One of them had an extremely difficult adolescence. Now shes wonderful, and our two
sons coming after never knew adolescence was anything but praising God. But when our
daughter was in trouble, people in the congregation were gracious. I was grateful they didnt say,
Peterson, you must be doing something terrible at home because your daughters acting this
way.
Perhaps the congregations attitude is the key to determining whether ministry can continue
when a child strays. Theyre the ones observing whether the home is managed or unmanaged in
the midst of difficulty.
After hearing Eugene Petersons story, Charles Swindoll observed, Eugene, it was because you
have integrity that your congregation surrounded you. You had endeared yourself to those
people, and not even the waywardness of a willful daughter could drive a wedge between them
and you. Had you been covering up, had you been obviously alienating your family, I wonder if
the congregation would have said, Lets stand by him no matter what. They knew the most
grieved person in the church was the pastor. Thats managing a family. There was a caring
attitude, a consistency and integrity that showed in your grief when a daughter turned away for a
time.
Directed Independence
Whether the parenting style tends to be strict or lenient, the goal of the parenting process is the
same: to raise a child who will one day be able to make mature decisions for himself or herself.
No parent wants a child to remain dependent upon Mom and Dad for a lifetime. Christian parents
desire their children to be able to live independently, and also to make a free choice to follow
Christ.
M. O. Vincent, a pastors son who now has four children of his own, observed reflectively,
Children are strange possessions. We raise them so we can lose them.
In a sense, parenting is one form of the Christian practice of disciplinghelping bring another
person to maturity.
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Many ministry parents find helpful remembering that God is ultimately responsible for the
salvation and sanctification of his children. That takes some of the pressure off themand their
children.
None of the four kids in my family went through a significant period of rebellion. For that I
must give a small share of credit to covenant theology, writes Tim Stafford, the son of a
Presbyterian pastor. He specifically points to the belief that a child, if raised in the nurture and
admonition of the Lord, is not a small representative of Satan in urgent need of reclaiming, but a
beginning Christian.
Though it is necessary for the child, as for all Christians, to renounce sin and to throw himself
on the mercy of God, a proper Presbyterian parent does not look on his child as an outsider to
Gods grace. He believes that the Holy Spirit can be as unobstructed in a childs life as in his
own. This does a lot to reduce tension in the home. It reduces the pressure on the child to make a
radical reversal in order to avoid falling into hell. It merely calls on the child to continue in the
direction he was taught as a child and to make it his own as an adult.
The theological merits of these ideas are arguable, as students of church history can assure us,
but on practical grounds I appreciate them very much. I never felt pressure from my parents to be
holy. They didnt see every misdeed as proof that we were in need of conversion. Outside I got
pressure being a preachers kid, but never in my own home.
People respond to different things, of course, and some need gentle prodding toward godliness
while others, like the apostle Paul, need stronger measures. Still, writes Stafford, I think it is
reasonable to say that a child raised in a pastors home is likely to know the gospel and to be
aware of his need for a Savior. He rarely needs to have the lesson banged home. In fact, since
nearly every teenage kid would do anything to avoid being an exact replica of his parents,
pressuring him may make his decision much more difficult; to say no is the only way he can
prove that he is an individual.
Another helpful principle is to respect the individuals freedom of choice.
M. O. Vincent saw this congenial control modeled by his father when it came time to choose
between medical school and seminary. Dad told me, If you feel you can do anything else
except become a minister, and be satisfied, do it. I became a minister because I couldnt be
satisfied with anything else.
The younger Vincent eventually opted for medical school and went on to become medical
superintendent of a large psychiatric hospital in Ontario. His father demonstrated one of the key
principles of parenting: offering direction while allowing the freedom for his son to grow and
make crucial decisions.
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As one Seattle pastor said, Our children are loaned, not given to us, by God. We do our best to
raise them to fear and love the Lord, but eventually we have to give them back to him. How they
respond to God is not a total reflection on us. We do our best to be faithful, but we cant make
their commitment to God for them.
For parents in the midst of difficulties with a straying child, perhaps the sustaining hope is that
the final chapter has not yet been written. Parents trust that the One who authored the Prodigal
Sons return will also pen their family a happier ending.
Indeed, based on the survey, there is cause for hope. Time and time again, parents spoke of their
anguish as sons or daughters rejected everything the parents stood for. But an encouraging
number of the stories wound up with an ending similar to this one:

One of our four children rebelled. She had a difficult time accepting Gods way, became a
prodigal daughter, and eloped with another pastors son. They lived in Hawaii; she threw away
her Bible and avoided us. We prayed and prayed, continued to write her and send love gifts.
After several years, she came to herself and returned to a strong walk with God. She has moved
back to our city and is a real blessing to us.
There are others, of course, who do not returnat least not to their parents knowledge. These
parents often struggle with feelings of failure. Theyre tempted to evaluate their worth by how
their children turn out.
Ultimately, however, our calling to ministry and our worth as persons are not dependent upon the
decisions our children make. The key is how faithful we are in raising our families and in
responding to their decisions.
A pastor from Michigan put it this way: Its a mistake to think, I have to be a big success with
my family so people will respect me. To make our familys performance the foundation of our
credibility is to put a load on them they may be unable to bear. In fact, that pressure may
contribute to their cracking.
No, my role is to be a man of integrity and credibility, a man who is consistent at church and at
home, a man who does his best to minister to both his flock and his family. If I do that, Ive
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TWELVE
FAMILY
HELPING MINISTRY
Dad was committed to Mom; the folks were committed to the kids; our home was committed to
the Lord; and our energies were committed to the church.
PAUL D. ROBBINS
I asked a pastors wife from Washington in what ways she contributed to her husbands ministry.
Im the only person who can get him to church both happy and on time, she said with a twinkle
in her eye. Shes used that line to limit the number of church responsibilities she assumes. I tell
people thats such a big job that I have to let other people use their gifts in many of the other
areas of ministry.
Family members contribute to the effectiveness of a ministry in a variety of ways. Even if they
arent directly involved in church programs, they still have a tremendous indirect impact. From
the LEADERSHIP research, here are some ways family members help ministry.
A source of support. Many pastors testify to the sense of stability and support they gain from
their families. They encourage me; they believe in what Im doing for God, says one pastor. I
think thats important. I want to be behind them in the same way in whatever theyre doing.
A minister from Ohio says, Spending time with the most important people in my life not only
builds self-esteem, it also restores my energy and renews my vision. A healthy family life
prevents my tendency to be consumed by the ministry and supplies love and encouragement
from people who see me in terms of who I am, not what I do.
A measuring stick for ministry. Family members play a unique role in keeping ministry skills
sharp. Not only is my wife my best critic, but she has also, in a sense, become the goal of my
ministry, says a pastor from Michigan. As I evaluate my preaching, I ask, Did I feed Martie
this morning? If so, I feel Ive done my job. Shes heard almost all my sermons. She also knows
me, so she would know if my preaching did not match my practice. Its a great treat to hear her
say, God really worked in my life today. Thats the ultimate compliment.
Ivory tower busters. Families help give a realistic view of life. One pastor said, Since Ive tried
to limit my counseling, some people are unnecessarily alarmed: You dont counsel anymore;
youre going to get out of touch with your people. But as long as you have a real family in a real
world, youre in touch with where your people are. You have job problems. You have to put gas
in the car. Your kids get in trouble at school. Its the same stuff.
Family members can also be an excellent hedge against pomposity or self-pity. A Southern
California pastor tells this story on himself: One Sunday after the service, I came in and stood in
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the kitchen next to Chris and said, Can I help you with something? She got me busy with some
vegetables, and I said, Boy, I just dont know about today.
What are you talking about? she asked.
Oh, the message.
Honey, it was great! she said. It spoke to my needs. It was really powerful.
Thanks, Dear.
Then, with a wry smile, she said, Is that what you were fishing for?
Sermon inspiration. Most pastors today also point to their families as a great source of sermon
illustrations.
At one time, preachers were discouraged from being too familiar or personal in their sermons.
The feeling was that too much self-disclosure focused attention on the preacher and not on the
Word being preached.
Peter Marshall, the renowned preacher and chaplain of the United States Senate, was greatly
influenced by this attitude, but over time found his approach changing. One of Marshalls
practices was to read his Sunday morning sermons to his wife, Catherine, on Saturday night. For
him it was a warm-up; for her it was an enjoyable preview and a chance to offer input.
William J. Petersen, in Catherine Marshall Had a Husband, writes: One Saturday night, as Peter
reached the middle of his practice sermon, Catherine interrupted him. She hated to do it. But she
had to tell him something important. She was having labor pains.
Shortly before nine the next morning Peter John Marshall was born. Peter was at the hospital
for his sons birth; then he returned to church in time to teach the young peoples Sunday school
class at ten and preach his half-rehearsed sermon at eleven. To his congregation he never said a
word about the excitement that had occurred in his household a few hours earlier. Some people
mentioned to him that he seemed tired that morning, almost as if he had been up all night. He
still admitted nothing. Then as he was shaking hands with his parishioners at the close of the
service, one woman asked him about Catherine, whom she had observed was absent that
morning. Peter finally had to divulge the reason for Catherines absence.
It had always been a policy for Peter not to mention his wife or his home life in his sermons.
After Peter John was born, however, that policy was quickly forgotten. Peter John provided too
many colorful sermon anecdotes to be neglected.
Many preachers follow Marshalls lead and turn to the fertile ground of their family life for
sermon material. This is, indeed, one of the benefits of having a family. But family illustrations
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are to be used with caution. Congregations can tire of them, and family members can be sensitive
about the exposure.
One pastors son wrote: Being a preachers kid can be embarrassing, especially if your father
regularly uses you in sermon illustrations. The worst was when my brother and I starred in
several hypothetical stories as well as true episodes told from the pulpit. To illustrate one point,
my father created a story about the two of us shooting out the front window of a 7-Eleven with a
BB gun. It never happened. Ive never shot a BB gun. But to this day, most of the church people
believe it really did happen. I dare say they forgot the point, but they didnt forget the
illustration. I know I wont.
So most pastors take two precautions: (1) they get permission of their family members before
mentioning them in a sermon, and (2) they dont use family members as negative examples. If an
illustration makes a family member look good, its a candidate, but if an example is needed of
failure or shortcomings, pastors find its better to use themselvesnot family members.
I dont reveal anything that hurts my relationship with my wife or my kids, said a Minneapolis
pastor. I use them most of the time to show how I was wrong and needed to learn something.
For instance, Ive told about the time when the kids were small and we were all in the car. They
were restless, and I got so angry while driving that I turned around and swatted them hard. I used
that as an example that, while discipline might have been needed, I was wrong in the way I did it,
and I later needed to apologize to them even though they were small.
With these guidelines in mind, however, the family can be a source of enriched sermon material.
Enhanced outreach. Many pastors have found that family life provides opportunities for
outreach. Simply being a parent provides an immediate point of common interest with other
parents.
Mary Manz Simon, wife of Lutheran pastor Hank Simon, points out: A number of people have
met Hank because hes active in the public school where our children goaccompanying them
on field trips, assisting as a tug-of-war captain on field day, talking to the class about his trip to
Guatemala.
For example, not long ago, we got a call from a lawyer wed met through our childrens school.
I dont know if hes a Christian, but he was preparing for a trial against another lawyer whos
known to quote lots of Bible verses. He asked Hank to help him find some biblical quotations on
justice. So Hank prepared two pages for him. Later, the lawyer said hed never thought of the
issue of justice as a biblical concept and hed begun spending time reading the Bible himself.
And a mother met Hank because he often picks up the kids after school. She wasnt going to
any church, but after meeting Hank, she came to church, was baptized, and now serves on the
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congregations evangelism board. And each of our children has brought at least one family to the
church. The family can provide natural avenues to tell other people about God.
Hank Simon also has taken one of his children along when hes making evangelism calls, initial
contacts with church visitors, or passing out brochures about the church. People who would
never open a door for a man in a clerical collar will welcome somebody whos pushing a stroller
or who has a 6-year-old kid with baseball cards, he says.
The Simons reflect the motto for their church: A family sharing Christ. As Mary Simon says,
And what better way to illustrate that than to have a pastor going out on calls with his kids?
An integrity check. Many pastors admit that family life helps keep them honest. An Indiana
pastor confesses: Once when I spouted off at home, our son quietly asked, Dad, do you
behave that way with the church board? He had me. I knew I had to readjust my patterns.
A second way that families help maintain Christian integrity is described by Helmut Thielicke in
a series of sermons, How the World Began, preached to a West German congregation in the
middle 1950s. He said, The Scriptures present the word of the Creator: It is not good that man
should be alone. It is not good, therefore, that he should be a self-contained organism which
proceeds to develop itself; he must rather have a vis--vis, a partner, a companion, a thou. And
here the Scripture touches on one of the fundamental mysteries of our life. It is remarkableand
this has become my personal conviction, confirmed at every step of the way by life itselfthat I
do not attain the greatest possible development of my personality when I consciously try to
develop myself, when I am constantly considering, Where will I have the best chance to live life
to the fullest? How can I reach the maximum accomplishment, and where can I experience the
greatest pleasure? On the contrary, I arrive at this fulfillment of my personality and my life as a
whole when I do not think about it at all; but rather, when I forget myself and devote myself to
someone else or something else.
As Thielicke knew, and countless other pastors have discovered, life lived to the full is life
invested in others. Both family life and church life provide plenty of opportunities for such
fullness. But while the temptation of church life is to see service as a profession, a role to
assume, family life provides the antidote.
As another pastor on the survey said: My family forces me to apply truth to life, and they
provide a test tube for faith. Thats where I find out if my own faith is affecting the way I live.
EPILOGUE
All the maxims have been written. It only remains to put them into practice.
BLAISE PASCAL
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A recent LEADERSHIP cartoon shows a pastors wife cheerfully saying to her husband, Ive
got an idea! Lets switch thingstoday you can be grouchy at church and charming at home.
Most ministry families understand the cartoons humor. The underlying premise is an example of
what Paul Tournier has described as the difference between the personage, the outward image
we present to others, and the person, that internal, hidden, deeper part of us. In ministry, the
contrast is often seen in the way our words and actions are clothed at churchand the way
theyre bared at home.
You walk into the church on Sunday, and people immediately turn their heads your direction.
They want a blessing, an opinion, or simply some warm attention. You make conversation, and
people actually listen. You tell a funny story, and people laugh. People approach you in a steady
stream, knowing you will graciously respond. People. People. People.
But too often at home, the kids hear, Daddys had a rough day. Lets be quiet. They vanish to
another part of the house. There are no warm smiles, no requests. Theyve learned this is not the
time to demand Dads time and energy.
Why the difference between the effervescent public figure and the edgy private person?
Most pastors are genuinely ministry oriented. Thats a key ingredient of their person. But so
much sensitivity, compassion, and goodwill is expended in church work that the stores are
depleted by the end of the day.
With some people, the personage clearly reveals the person. For most of us, however, especially
if we must stand before a congregation made up of friends and strangers, supporters and critics,
the personage and the person will always be somewhat distinct.

But while the personage is never a perfect reflection of the person, it can be a generally clear
one. That allows others to understand our deepest dreams and convictions. It also allows our
families to benefit most from our ministry; our public ministry then reinforces our private efforts
to build a godly home.
Counselor James Hilt, reflecting on the personage versus the person, said, Congruity is a good
barometer of emotional and mental health. A split personality destroys not only emotional health
but ones character as well.
Hilt suggests we pattern ourselves according to Jesus Christs unconditional love, inner
character, and firm commitment to God. He observed, What if a casual observer of Christ
would have approached Peter or John to ask, This Jesus character seems like a wonderful guy,
but I know how celebrities are: you get close to them and the veneer vanishes. Whats Christ
really like? The disciples likely would have responded, We have lived with him for years, and
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the more we see of him, the more magnificent his character becomes. What you have seen is real.
But you have gotten only a hint of who he really is.
As pastors who are also parents, this is the challenge: to merge the person and the personage.
Pastor Chuck Smith, Jr., put it this way: Our ministry in the pulpit is what we say; at home its
what we are.
As we commit ourselves to reshaping both our person and our personage, our goal is to enable
those closest to us to respond like the disciples. If our wives or children are asked, Your
husband (or father) seems so solid, concerned, and kind. Is he really like that? then theyll be
able to say, Yes, thats the real him. But you have seen only the surface of his deep, abiding
love.