Writer's Map FINAL

Aidan Chun
Writer’s Map Final
WC: 1030
My Mind When Writing
I myself wouldn’t say that I’m a good writer. I think that many other people may think
that themselves, whether it roots from the feeling of being inexperienced, one’s own self-
confidence, or even just the truthful awareness of ourselves. That doesn’t mean we don’t strive to
become better. I personally don’t feel confident with my own writing capabilities, ranging from
my flow to my accuracy on punctuations and all the other little nuances of the English language.
I’ve always wanted to find ways to enjoy the process of writing and get comfortable doing it
while gaining confidence in my own writing styles because of the feeling of my own lackluster
capabilities in writing.
For me, grammar has always been in my life in a sort of “cruel” way. My grandma was a
teacher and principal for many years, and because of that, my mom picked up all her grammar-
correcting and grammatical nuances. If I was talking about the ground inside the house, I’d be
corrected that the ground is outside and that inside is the floor. “Do you want me to put the
laundry on the ground?”, “The floor - yes please.” Or if I “mis-sued” a word, I’d be corrected as
well. “This is the bestest show.”, “This is the best show.” “This show is the worse.”, “This show
is the worst.” Yes, she may have been correct most of the time, but that does not take away from
how she does it. It’s like a road bump or hill at the very start of our conversation. I would be
taken out of the conversation by each little petty correction. For better or for worse, I have
become something similar to my mom. I can correct myself on my grammar, for the most part.
Correct my punctuations and all other nuances, to a certain degree. I will thank her for, in her
own cruel way, teaching me and really drilling down all the little nuances that can show up in
writing, and making me a more educated and better writer.
Through all my years of school, I find it hard to do things that are asked of me that I
don’t find myself efficient at. For English, if I have to write a big essay or paper on this trivial
matter. I am done for. I will not enjoy it as some may, and it will not be my finest work. If I have
to study history (history being my 2nd worst subject alongside English, because I cannot
remember all those historical facts), then I am done. What really helps me, though, are more
personal assignments and projects. These pull me in. These get me engaged and working. My
mind starts flowing, the electricity really sparks. Tinders become flames. I get to work and
prepare myself to hopefully give myself enough time. When I can be passionate about a work, it
really helps me produce more of my confident work. How does this relate to writing? With
writing being my weakest subject, in my opinion, it really helps me to reconnect with the subject
and all of the fun behind it. I get to connect with my brain and hands and voice all
simultaneously. I find that writing something that I enjoy really fires up my pulse to really
indulge not only into the work but into myself. I can think openly and also question what I’ll do,
instead of just getting something done and being ok with it. I can be proud and pleased with what
I write. Whenever I get to a road bump while writing, I go around it like how water never stops
flowing and always finds a path to the ocean. I’ve found that writing what engages me, is my key
to honing into becoming a more engaged and better writer for myself. Unfortunately, it has not
come to the point yet where I write out of my own free time. I still need this push or obligation to
get me started and get my rusty gears to start and move. Hopefully that can change in the future
and after this class.

Throughout my life, I could never really focus on the flow of my work. My mind keeps
on dumping out what’s coming out next, and my fingers keep typing it out as fast as possible.
This has caused my writing work to take sort of a “hectic” sense. I’m not diagnosed nor have
been diagnosed or seek a diagnosis with any condition that makes me think and operate this way.
Just like my conversations, I will keep going on and on with whatever I’m talking about,
bridging many topics over the course of the conversation. I notice it, too. Although, I feel no
need to change it. I enjoy it and it makes me engaged. So as expected, with my writing, my
writing is like how I talk. A bit hectic and discombobulated. The one thing I will say is that I
want it that way. In my own twisted “artistic” view, I think this is the most represented and
personal way of presenting myself. Since I’m also a musician and find myself that my writing
process is very similar to how I write for English, it keeps me aware that it’s how I am.Even if
it’s wrong, I wouldn’t believe that it would matter too much, as long as I get my message across.
Especially getting it across in my own way and fashion that shares my voice.
I’ve found that I’m actually not as bad as I once thought beforehand. I know all my
tendencies and nuances with not only my writing style, but my engagement and my brain’s
thought process into writing. I do want to write more, eventually, but I just don’t know how to
get to that point where I can perhaps just sit down and write recreationally. I am happy with how
far it seems like I’ve come along so far, but like learners, I want to progress more. I want more
knowledge and experience to continue to grow my strengths and lessen my weaknesses.

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Aidan Chun

Writer’s Map Final

My Mind When Writing

writing, and making me a more educated and better writer.

and after this class.

knowledge and experience to continue to grow my strengths and lessen my weaknesses.

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