The Psychosocial Implications
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THE PSYCHOSOCIAL IMPLICATIONS OF
A THESIS
In Partial Fulfillment
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ABSTRACT
May 2001
question guide designed to solicit the feelings, thoughts, and behaviors of the former
members while they were members in good standing, as well as the psychological and
social implications that may have affected them upon formally exiting.
organization is contingent upon compliance to the directives and the belief system of
its Governing Body. Exiting members of this religious organization present common
themes of feelings, thoughts, and beliefs that are contrary to those directives.
The researcher identifies a continuum o f exiting stages that may plot the
progress of former members, which includes a matrix o fmembership and the existence
o f exit. Implications for social work practice and research are discussed.
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WE, THE UNDERSIGNED MEMBERS OF THE COMMITTEE,
By
COMMITTEE MEMBERS
Social Work
AbjUR-ilLA.
Donald P. Lauda, PhD.
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May 2001
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TABLE OF CONTENTS
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1. INTRODUCTION .............................................................................. 1
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3. METHODOLOGY ............................................................................. 30
Design ............................................................................................ 30
Sample ..................................................................................... 30
Data Collection ............................................................................. 31
Instrument ............................... 32
Data Analysis ................................................................................ 32
4. RESULTS ......................................................................................... 33
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A. FIGURE 1 138
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LIST OF TABLES
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DEFINITION OF JEHOVAH’S WITNESSES TERMS
apostate One who at one time was a member in good standing with the
Organization, who has been removed or voluntarily left to pursue
or promote knowledge and information contrary to the teachings
of the WTB&TS.
Armageddon The final battle between good and evil, when God and his angels
fight and destroy the Devil and his demons. Jehovah’s Witnesses
believe the battle of Armageddon will be fought on earth, and that
they will survive because they have the one true religion. All other
religions are false and originate from the Devil; those people who
practice such religion, political leaders and the “wicked” will die
at Armageddon.
back call A return visit to a person who might have accepted a publication
or a piece of literature published by the WTB&TS.
Bethel The name given to the living quarters of those who work at the
World Headquarters of Jehovah’s Witnesses in Brooklyn, New
York.
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Bethclite One who is a resident of Bethel at the World Headquarters of
Jehovah’s Witnesses in Brooklyn, New York, and is engage as an
employee paid by stipend.
Book Study One of the five meetings held each week for an hour. This
meeting is a small group (approximately 5 -1 5 people) who meet
in a private home and study a designated publication written and
distributed by the Watch Tower Bible and Tract Society.
field service The preaching work conducted in the community by going from
door-to-door.
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incidental Any conversation with a non-Jehovah Witness related to the
witnessing message of the Organization.
Kingdom Hall The name of the building in the community where Jehovah’s
Witnesses meet
public talk One of the five meetings held each week for an hour at the local
Kingdom Hall. This meeting is an hour long discourse of a
religious nature presented at the Kingdom Hall for the
Congregation and the public.
resurrection A Jehovah’s Witness belief that all who have died will be raised to
life on earth at some time in the future after Armageddon.
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Service One of the five meetings held each week for an hour at the local
Meeting Kingdom Hall. This meeting teaches how to preach or “witness”
to non-members.
shunning The practice of turning away from another by cutting off all social
engagement, support, or any interaction of an interpersonal nature.
The Jehovah’s Witness practice towards members who are
disfellowshipped or disassociated.
Society, The A term applied by any of Jehovah’s Witness to refer to the
collective members of the Watch Tower Bible and Tract Society.
Theocratic One of the five meetings held each week for an hour at the local
Ministry Kingdom Hall. This meeting is designed to teach member’s how
School meeting to speak in public.
Watchtower One of the five meetings held each week for an hour at the local
Study Kingdom Hall. This meeting is a Congregational audience
participation study and reading of a specific article in the
Watchtower magazine a bi-monthly journal published and
distributed by the Watch Tower Bible and Tract Society.
witnessing Any contact with a non-Jehovah Witness that carries the intent of
preaching.
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LIST OF ABBREVIATIONS
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CHAPTER I
INTRODUCTION
The development of many modem day religions extracted their form and substance
from what is known as the “New Religious Movement” (NRM) starting in the mid
twentieth century and continued on into the present (Billings & Scott, 1994; Fisher, 1999;
Fix, 1989; Gallus, 1972; Gaustad, Miller & Stokes, 1979; La Bane, 1971; Langone, 1991;
Robbins & Anthony, 1979). On the one hand sociologists raise the question if NRMs
develop from changes in American society due to changes in our cultural character or
cults” is problematic in that individual subjectivity can render the two terms synonymous,
and not all groups perceived as “cults” use harmful high pressure tactics (Langone, 1991).
While Alcoholic's Anonymous (AA) may be perceived by some as a cult for its
synonymous with the Aum Shinrikyo cult that in 199S murdered 12 people and injured
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5,500 others in a Tokyo subway (Galanter, 1999; Mullins, 1997). The controversy is
not assuaged by assigning the former or the latter the term charismatic group, as the
literature suggest takes place when there is a groping for descriptive terms to replace the
term cult (Langone, 1991). If AA were a cult it would be a good one, as it has a
successful worldwide program for alcoholics (Galanter, 1999), whereas the cult of Aum
Shinrikyo has been indicted for crimes such as murder, kidnapping, and illegal
(http://reliiftousmovements.lib.virginia.edu/nnns/aums.htmn
The traumatic conclusion of cults such as The People’s Temple (Barker, 1986),
Heaven’s Gate (Roberts, Hollifield, & McCarty, 1998), and the Branch Davidians
(McCarthy, 1999), dramatically demonstrate that further research is needed in the area
activities may range from a legitimate desire to attain spiritual salvation to anti-
govemment insurgency. However, there are remarkably similar characteristics among all
cults. The strongest similarity has been identified as the Lethal Triad, which is composed
The elements of the Lethal Trial are accomplished by isolating members from
family or any not belonging to the group, which projects its cause upon an entity external
to the group (this can be a person or the world in general) giving responsibility for decision
making to their leader, and finally the anger results as members perceive themselves as
While the dynamics may seem overtly exhibited by the most radically militant
quasi-guerilla faction according to Gilmartin’s observation, the same dynamics can also be
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found among innocuously docile religious devotees who neither cany assault weapons nor
plots of implementing physical threats. Those who manage to exit such groups exhibit
symptomatology that is present with “post-cult after effects” and post-cult trauma
syndrome according to the work of Singer (1999) and others (Winocur. Whitney.
Sorensen. Vaughn. & Foy, 1997). Some have argued that certain contemporary
religions, including Jehovah’s Witnesses, may be considered a cult (Isser. 1991). This
study examined the group known as Jehovah’s Witnesses, and the implications of
Jehovah’s Witnesses spring from the teachings of Charles Taze Russell, a late
calling itself the International Bible Students Association in 1874 under the auspices of the
Watchtower Bible and Tract Society (WTB&TS) of Pennsylvania evolved into a world
wide organization that adopted the name Jehovah’s Witnesses in 1931. with a world wide
The tenets of the group eschew critical thinking as something abhorrent and
independent thinking as anything that thinks critically of the Watch Tower Bible and
Tract Society (The Watchtower. January 15,1983, p. 22). Jehovah's Witnesses are not
just requested to follow such direction they are '‘required” to do so, as they are taught to
believe that God uses the WTB&TS as a “channel” that speaks in God's stead (The
Watchtower. 1983).
study conducted by McDonald and Luckett (1983) on the subject “Religious affiliation and
psychiatric diagnoses,” the authors cite John Spencer (1975) in an earlier study saying.
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“Jehovah’s Witnesses were represented three times more frequently in schizophrenia than
the general population, and four times more frequently in paranoid schizophrenia”
(McDonald & Luckett, 1983, p. IS; Spencer, 1975). A formal study of this population
may reveal the psychosocial implications of those who leave this particular group.
social isolation as a prime directive does so with the implied purpose of creating
dependence on the organization for social support to the degree that membership in good
standing is based on following the organization’s directive. Social isolation is one o f the
prime directives of Jehovah’s Witnesses for they see friendship with the world as a threat
to “friendship” with God, such that members are taught to withdraw from the community
The Watchtower literature teaches, wIf we manifest the world’s spirit, share its
worldly viewpoint of life, that we identify ourselves as friends of the world, not of God
[this author’s italics] (WTB&TS, 1973, p. 128). Thus, the organization segregates its
members from the rest of the world with a theology that “condemn[s] everyone else”
(Marty, 1991, p. 3SS) and affecting their “social” isolation. Social isolation may carry
with it the implicit directive to be dependent on the organization for social support to the
degree that any support from without the organization is a violation of the directive to be
no part of the world. Thus, exiting the group may also carry with it issues of abandonment
and isolation.
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The purpose of this study was to gather data that explored the reasons for and
effects of exiting the Jehovah’s Witnesses, and to what extent if any, such an experience
The research questions that this study addressed were: 1) What are the issues
that influence a person’s decision to exit Jehovah’s Witnesses, and 2) what, if any, are
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CHAPTER 2
The religion known today as Jehovah’s Witnesses developed from the work of
Charles Taze Russell who formed his own organization in 1872. That organization,
however, did not adopt a denominational name until 1931, when the president of the
legal corporation, the Watch Tower Bible and Tract Society of New York, announced
197S). An examination of the ideology of Jehovah’s Witnesses will show that they
have roots in the development of the first century concepts of “millenarianism” and
“Adventism,” and the specific period in ante bellum America known as the “Great
Millennialism
means of the literal earth becoming the Kingdom of God; that intervention is generally
accepted by theologians as bringing a “state of peace and blessedness [that] will last a
1952, p. 441). Eschatology is the branch of theology that deals with end of the world
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and Christian roots, with the specific belief in the second coming of Christ, and a belief
that a great separating will take place between the righteous and the wicked prior to
These were the basic tenets of Charles Taze Russell along with other millennial
religions that originated the religion known as Jehovah’s Witnesses. Both a charismatic
speaker and a radical millenarian, he quickly departed from the views of popular
his organization up to the time of his death in 1916 (Lippy & Williams, 1988; Botting,
1982).
Russell was bom on February 16, 1852. By time he reached the age of 16 he
(Botting, 1982; Penton, 1985). It was also around the period of 1869-1870 that Russell
was influenced by the public speaking of Jonas Wendell, a Second Adventist, along
with the writings of William Miller, a New England Baptist, whose eschatological
computations placed the second advent of Christ in the mid 1800s (Penton, 1985;
Botting, 1982; Brown, 1952). He did not become a true follower of Wendell, however.
Between 1870 and 1872 Russell began to organize his own Bible study group
after parting from Wendell over disagreement on the manner with which the second
advent of Christ would occur. In 1872 he formed his own organization as the
International Bible Student’s Association (Brown, 1952; Botting, 1982; Lippy &
Williams, 1988; Melton, 1993). Soon thereafter Russell studied the writings of George
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Stoirs, a Methodist Episcopalian and New England abolitionist, and other independent
The turning point of Russell’s religious development came from his association
with one of those teachers: Dr. Nelson H. Barbour. Russell initiated the relationship
with Barbour when he happened upon Barbour’s publication, Herald o f the Morning in
1875.
Russell accepted Barbour’s belief that Christ had descended from heaven in
1874, and Russell was so moved that he accepted an offer to invest money in Barbour’s
publishing the Herald o f the Morning (Beckford, 1975). This relationship continued
until 1878 when Russell published an article in the Herald, which challenging certain
aspects of Barbour’s teaching and they ended their association together. In 1879
Russell published the first issue of his new magazine, Zion’s Watch Tower and Herald
MRussellites.” He maintained that he and his associates were simply Christians and
preferred that they be known as members of the “Church of Christ,” which is the only
name he would accept had it not been claimed by another (Beckford, 1975; Penton,
1985).
Russell’s work continued to flourish and his organization grew. During the first
grew to 45,000. Circulation o f Russell’s M ilennial Dawn (the series was renamed in
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1906 to Studies in the Scriptures) in 1891 was 85,000, which rose in 1908 to 728,474
(Beckford, 1975); volume I of this particular publication series became popular as The
Divine Plan o f the Ages and reached a circulation o f4,817,000 by the time of his death
in 1916. During his lifetime almost 20,000,000 copies of his books were produced and
Roots in Millennialism
Adventist preachers who indoctrinated him into millennialism based on the work of
“that the Second Advent would occur about the year 1843” (Brown, 1952, p. 453) thus
bringing the end of the world and the beginning of the new millennium. When the date
came and went without event his followers, Millerites, disbanded and it was the end of
his movement (New Encyclopedia Britannica, 1990). Between Russell and his
contemporary mentors recalculations for the return of Christ were set around 1873-74,
and when that did not occur they adopted a “spiritual” rather than “fleshly” return of
Christ, along with the “harvest” of earthly saints to be taken in “rapture” by 1878
Beckford (1975), Botting (1982), and Penton (1985) agree that Russell had no
latching onto a name that would do that, yet the movement that he lead took on a
conceive[d]. . . itself as a divinely chosen spiritual elite, selected from the ranks
of dedicated Christians to be advanced beneficiaries of God’s Plan of Salvation
and auxiliary instruments in its fuller execution. (Zygmunt, 1970, p. 929)
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Russell explained that members o f his movement were, “spirit begotten sons of God,”
the “Bride of Christ,” due to inherit and rule from heaven as a “Royal Priesthood”
waiting for spiritual metamorphosis when they would be taken from the earth in rapture.
The demeanor of the group was such that it sought to “perfect itself spiritually for its
exalted future role and to act as God’s agency for ‘harvesting’ the little flock of
At the time of his death Russell did not leave provision in his will for a specific
successor, and in fact in his will he had specifically divided the power of a succeeding
president by giving his voting rights in the Watch Tower Society to a group of women
(whom he knew were excluded from holding office), and his editorial rights as president
to a five member board. Joseph Franklin Rutherford rescinded both orders when he was
elected president. Rutherford was first elected president at the Annual General Meeting
in 1917, and then again, after much opposition from prominent Bible Students in the
organization, at the Annual General Meeting in 1918. At that time fifty members
succeeded from the Watch Tower movement as a form of protest aimed at Rutherford,
and by 1923 all opposition to the new president died out (Beckford, 1975).
Russell set the tenor of the movement The next thirty years after the death of Russell
brought the institutionalization of it During this period “the sect’s doctrinal, cultic, and
ethical systems were elaborated and integrated” (Zygmunt, 1970, p. 932). The new
president took control of the editing and production of the Society's publications, even
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Implications of Social Isolationism
denying ‘character development’ was the principal end of their religious life and by
asserting that they constituted a ‘peculiar people’ having distinctive evangelical tasks to
Russell’s legacy by molding the “Bible Students” into a cohesive group under the
status and life prospects of various categories of supporters, members and non-members
Jehovah’s Witnesses during the late 1930s moved towards the conceptualization
of collective introversion separating them from the greater society within which they
lived and carried on their daily lives. The social implications of collective introversion
predisposed Jehovah’s Witnesses to depend upon the Watch Tower Society for basic
1975). As one of his final reforms in the organization Rutherford declared in June of
1938 that God had taken control of the Watch Tower Society, and that their
all members that they were now accountable to the Society’s leaders and that it would
Deviation from the Society’s codes and programmes [sic] would henceforth
entail ‘everlasting death’ because loyalty to the theocratic Society had become a
test of a person’s spiritual merit and fitness to survive Armageddon. (Beckford,
1975, p. 39)
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The Psychology of Religion
Theoretical Perspectives
In the late 19S0s Carl G. Jung (19S8) wrote in his book the undiscovered self,
about the conflict between socio-political movements and religion. He wrote that the
State ruled from a worldly perspective, and religions teach authority opposed to the
world. To elaborate this he also draws a distinction between religion and creed; Creed
Therefore, religion is a powerful force that motivates people morally apart from the
According to Stark (1980) the subject of religion has often been treated as either
(1928) argument that “religion is a kind of universal obsessional [sic] neurosis, if not an
outright delusion” (p. 247). However, Stark also adds that William James (1902),
disguise” (p. 247). Rather than attribute all forms of religious commitment to be
pathological, Stark (1980) cautions, “To put the argument another way, it is extremely
On the other hand, Carl Jung’s observation in treating patients is that at the root
of the presenting problems is the issue of religion. He states, “Among all my patients in
the second half of life. . . none of them has been really healed who did not regain his
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religious outlook” (Jung, 1933, p. 229). That said, humans have a propensity to live
provides such meaning, at least in the patients he references, which is both good and
useful.
religious belief. Brown asserts that in any research “religion. . . is an undoubted social
fact that both religious and non-religious people must come to terms with, because it
can operate as a cognitive filter and as a focus of values, habits and social attitudes” (p.
121).
the sociologist concerns are with religion and society while psychologists focus on
individuals and their religion (Glock & Stark, 1965; Allport, 1950).
Defining reality is a subjective matter for all but the individual committed to
[and] formulations of ultimate reality” (Gallus, 1972, p. 545). For very religious people
reality is explained by the nature of their religious faith. For Jehovah’s Witnesses,
“faith is the assured expectation of things hoped for, the evident demonstration of
religious person embraces a faith that best supports a homogeneous world-view. For
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those that do so, as seen above, reality is fixed and defined by the religious experience.
Early concepts of the psychology of religion place the individual on the continuum of
unconscious mind of the individual and ego thereby grasping a higher order of
In the first half of life the individual’s task is to strengthen the ego, and take a
place in the world through interpersonal relationships, and to fulfill a sense of duty to
society. At some midpoint or the second half of life the individual sets in motion the
reclamation of undeveloped or incomplete aspects of the self, and this is what Jung call
the process of individuation. Without striving for perfection, one gradually gains
completion and wholeness, accepting both positive and negative aspects of personality,
The theological perspective on early human development is similar, yet with the
survival as organisms in the early stages of development, yet this “phase of life is not
the whole of life; it is only a stage of development” (Stoops, 1905, p. 515). What
distinguishes humans from animals is the realization that the individual is a member of
a larger life, a social life, and it is the function of will that drives one to develop volition
and reflection, thus harnessing the instinctual side of the individual’s aspects of being.
self-conscious will that leads one to a “readjustment between the individual self and the
deeper life of the world. . . [which]. . . in theology is known by the term ’conversion’
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[being]. . . a natural, moral, universal and necessary process at the stage when life
Thus, this sense o f conversion is the process by which the individual clarifies
attitudinally being not just a social creature or an endowed individual, but identifies
with God as the source of life connoting religion. This healthy process is facilitated by
Secularization
of control from ecclesiastical to civil or lay use (Secularism, 1990); some secularization
theorists suggest that as science ascends religion descends (Yamane, 1997). Since the
Yamane (1997) enters the conflagration with an alternative theory or synthesis o f“old”
insights of the ’old’ view and incorporates the legitimate criticisms of the ’new’ view,
neosecularization” (pp. 109 & 110), or a new paradigm shift, identifying theoretical as
examples, Hertzke (1988), Demerath and Williams (1992), and Casanova (1994).
At the core of the controversy definitions of secularization vary from the general
to the specific depending on the source. Maguire says, “In general, the theory holds that
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undermine the influence of religion in social life” (Maguire, 1998, p. 171). Wilson
(1975) also generalizes that, “religious thinking, practices, and institutions lose their
framework can be distilled from all of them. Going into depth the author charts the
theories of Luckman (1970, 1987), Berger (1969), Wilson (1976), Martin (1978), Fenn
(1970), Parsons (1964), and Bellah (1970) as some of the leading references in the
between theorists. At the core of this paradigm are the three elements of differentiation,
rationalization, and worldliness. The core element of differentiation originates with the
separation of Church and State. As this separation occurred institutions were bom from
independent o f religious control. At the same time the impact on the Church is such
that society imposes its worldliness in such a way that the traditional and established
religious order must adapt so that it will survive, thus loosing the hold or control it once
increased. Thus, Robbins and Anthony (1979) postulate the rise of New Religious
(p. 78). Such dramatic changes in the structure of American culture, as set forth in the
debate among secularization theorists, which Hadden (1987) suggests, “is nested in an
even broader theory of modernization” (p. 588). In effect Fisher’s (1999) point of
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departure is that New Religious Movements are “a reaction against secularization,
playful interest in the occult and Satanic Ritual Magic, Wilson (1975) also sees
demystification, with the exception that the latter are serious (Beckford, 1975).
The most obvious observation is that for generations Jehovah’s Witnesses have
been consistently and vigorously mounting a campaign of resistance against the
incursions of secularization and pluralism in their opposition to all forms of
ecumenism, (p. 217)
By way of contrast Truzzi (1970) views the mass character of the occult as a means to
purging old fears about myths, which engender “a naturalistic rationalism, [and] a
scientific view of the universe” (p. 30). Furthermore, Beckford (1975) concludes that
Christian outlooks. . . and the current vogue for ’peace of mind’ . . . which. . . they
effect as Witnesses become more exclusive and separate from society they actually
Billings and Scott (1994) argue that sociologists recognize that religion has
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maintain the power to define reality” (p. 176). The authors, however, conclude that
explore and extrapolate teachings on New Religious Movements that at “some time
places the first signs of New Religious Movements as beginning around the 1830s and
1840s, with the numbers of new religious groups rising to over a thousand during the
Robbins and Anthony (1979) follow the hypothesis that the, rise of new
supported this hypothesis in his analysis of the revival of occultism such as witchcraft
and astrology as, “a demystification-process of what were once fearful and awe
inspiring dark secrets” (p. 29). The authors further contend that the New Religious
Movement of the 1970s took on many exotic forms, and these cults succeed, “precisely
response to the secularization of society, but they are a marginal phenomenon” (Wilson,
According to Wilson (1976) the rise in the number of unorthodox forms of religion are,
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“a confirmation of the process o f secularization. They indicate the extent to which
religion has become inconsequential to modem society” (p. 96). Wilson (197S) argues
that, “While the decline of religion is taken for granted. . . experts keep the debate alive
. . . to show that things are not quite what they seem” (p. 77). What fuels the debate is
insistence on the use of statistical evidence regarding the decline of church attendance,
yet Wilson observes that the meanings of “church membership and religious
observance” (p. 79) are inconsistent between differing societies, and also between
Jung (1933) draws a distinction between religion and creed; Berger (1954)
contrasts church and sect The New Religious Movement has created a phenomenon
that exceeded what sociologists had been able to identify with terms that the layman can
easily understand (Wilson, 1982). On the surface Berger (1954) sets the Church as an
authority figure of power, the Church is both “a political institution with normative
order, and. . . a political institution capable of using force over a continuing period of
tradition, and Berger (1954) does not see such membership as being any statement
regarding the quality of the individual members (p. 468). A sect's membership, by way
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herein the distinction is that one can be “bom” into a church, but for the most part one
“joins” a sect (Berger, 19S4). The church is also primarily a “social group,” which
sticks close to the national, economic, and cultural concerns of society, and conversely
While both the terms church and the sect operate as classifications of religions
typology of the two has as a distinction the level of stringency or demands placed upon
respective members (Iannaccone, 1992). A group with stringent deviant norms at odds
with the dominant culture is a sect, whereas groups that mirror the norms of culture are
According to Marty (1960) American religion has been limited in its global
Jewish” (p. 126), thus, he observes this view has been criticized for not including
denominations that do not fit into such a division. Furthermore, the author divides
Christian religions into three clusters or forces; Protestantism and Roman Catholicism
make-up the first two forces, and sects and cults cluster as a “third force” (Marty, 1960).
What sets the latter apart from the former is non-conformity to mainstream systems of
belief. O f this drift from the mainstream Marty (1960) says “The more isolated,
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Cults
descriptive of the New Religious Movement; he also does not apply the term “cult” to
New Religious Movements, but opts for “new movements” in affect siding with
the Christian tradition” (p. 17), which he appropriately credits to Wallis (197S).
Marty (1960) considers sect, as presented above, synonymously with cult His
point of departure from this line of reasoning is that negatively oriented sects isolate
membership from competing value systems, whereas positively oriented cults “gather
society” (p. 129). Likewise Iannaccone (1992) combines sects with cults as containing
deviant norms, which distance members from prevailing culture (p. 283). Yet these
ideological totalism, which is the construct that drives destructive cult mentality. He
states, “Any ideology. . . may be carried by its adherents in a totalistic direction. . . and
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West (1990) goes on to explain three specific characteristics o f a totalist cult,
which help to narrow down the definition of just what is a cult These characteristics
are:
The author clarifies that this definition generally pertains to groups that conform to
Lifton’s (1961) system o f ideological totalism, and that there is no specific category
within which to insert every suspected sect, commune, or cult (group); the mitigating
quality of change over time tends to stratify groups considered cults at varying levels of
The similarities between West’s (1990) definition of cult and Lifton’s (1961)
use of tolalism stem from the latter’s concept of thought reform derived from
brainwashing. The term brainwashing actually comes from a news media person’s
interpretation of trying to define just what was behind the thought reform concept that
The primary psychological theme that sets-up the means to begin the
environment, which can be the physical or social setting wherein the indoctrination
communication with the outside world and external information are distinctive
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indications of an “exclusive cult” (p. 419). This characteristic of control has also been
Social isolation from family, friends, and support systems that do not reciprocate the
sentiments of the group collective behavior is also an attribute of a cult (Singer &
Addis, 1992).
West (1990) uses the example of the death of those of the People’s Temple at
Jonestown to demonstrate that the old and the young may be involved in cults. He
narrows down the average age of potential cult members to be, “between 18 and 3 0 ...
[as] especially subject to cult recruitment” (p. 131), and that there is no common
than saying that, “Ignorance of the ways in which groups can manipulate individuals is
further estimates that 10 million Americans over the last 20 years have at sometime
been active in cultic groups. It is for this reason that he has written on the subject from
a Public Health perspective suggesting that cult involvement may have reached
West also details a list of persuasive techniques used by cults that also serves to
Ready-made answers and decisions are being almost forced upon the recruits. . .
flattery. . . isolation. . . elimination of outside information and influence . . .
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use of thought-stopping cliches. . . closed system of logic. . . restriction of
reflective thinking. . . automatic submission to directives. . . stifling resistance
and negativity. . . response to fear in a way that greater fear is often aroused. . .
strong focus on the leader, (pp. 136-137)
Singer (1986), through the use of “coordinated programs of coercive influence and
behavior control” (p. 3), draw similarities between such techniques used in China, the
Soviet Union, American cultic growth, and psychotherapy organizations. These authors
peripheral and central elements of self. The authors clarify these such that
Taking these into account will discuss how the person in environment, is impacted by
Exiting Cults
relatively recent development. La Barre (1971), tracks the development of cults, on the
heels of acculturation, over a period of two hundred years across Africa, Europe,
Eurasia, the Pacific Islands, North and South America, and Australia (La Barre).
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Tracking the collision of European and Native cultures around the world, La
Barre (1971) describes a reflex like response in human kind to a sort of “culture shock”
that spins crisis oriented cults as diverse and far-flung, from the Ghost Dance o f the
Native American plains tribes, to the Cargo cults of Melanesia; and he does so using the
phrase crisis cults, to explain “any group reaction to crisis, chronic or acute, that is
11), it becomes apparent that cultic influence is rather endemic to humankind. His
definition of cultic is “the indisposition to accept either disruptive feedback or the ego-
critique of experience” (p. 11). It is this notion of feedback, the same sort that systems
theory has, whether disruptive or constructive, that gives the cult and its members
systems theory by means of an input, throughput, output modality that has at its core the
manufacturing organizations, and the end product defines the very purpose of the
organization. Applying this theoretical model to the meaning and purpose behind the
existence of cults, Galanter shows the primary task to be two-fold; the cults primary
task is connected to a messianic vision that the collective members eagerly prepare for,
and this task evolves into the recruiting (input) of more members to the cult, feeding the
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The transformational process (throughput) implemented by cults is disruptive to
psychological stability. This period can include use of emotional flooding techniques
on new recruits, and may involve the full resources of the group translating into a
marathon effect that may last from a few days to months of intensive indoctrination
We become motivated by that which drives us to get what we want; more so,
how we control our reality is based on our perceptions of what controls our behavior, or
the source of our locus o f control (Glassel & Wubbolding, 1995). There is a connection
control; conversely, one is more in touch with the causes of personal reality, and
Within high control groups, such as cults, the intended purpose of indoctrination
control. When the attention of the recruit is focused outside of him or herself the
from the new members regarding the results of the output comes back to the
organization, the leadership monitors the feedback, and prepares for another cycle, or
another phase of input-throughput-output which suits the rational of the members, and
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Groups that maintain a strong coercive monitoring system over the membership
doctrine. To the uninformed observer, or the recalcitrant member the shifts are
perceived as contradictory agendas, while the active body of membership willingly and
wholeheartedly follow the new directives (Galanter, 1999. p. 97). The strategy is the
construct of a closely tuned monitoring system that is neither capricious nor cavalier,
but rather very much the undertow of membership sentiments. By the execution of
of free choice), on the part of the member body, another cycle is begun at the end of the
feedback phase that starts with indoctrination to the new illumination of truth; deviation
The final element in this systems approach to social groups such as cults is
dangerous influence from dissidents, and any information that is detrimental to the
joining a charismatic group, and parents who become frantic in efforts to rescue then
offspring from the group communication usually breaks down when the parents
forcefully and aggressively intervene. The compelling systems functions that hold the
parents at bay and the children entrenched towards compliance of the group are
relatives, gave rise to interventions with significant family members who became
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enmeshed in cults, and from this cadre immerged what is known as deprogramming
(Langone & Chambers, 1991). Originally, this type of intervention was forced upon die
cult member, and has been said to violate basic civil rights (p. 135), and in some
instances contributed to continued membership (West, 1990) very much as the breaking
model of social systems theory applied to cult participation and recruitment (1990, p.
Prevention approach of his Public Health Model (West, 1990, p. 143). He also
delineates the difference between deprogramming and exit counseling by addressing the
latter as a form of reentry counseling (p. 144). Langone (1991) concurs that exit
counseling has become the more acceptable modality of intervention, and for the most
The primary difference between the two modalities of deprogramming and exit
counseling is that the latter is a voluntary process, whereas the former is usually
“legal treatment approach” (West, 1990, p. 144), and is primarily concerned with
EsftCpmraKng
Goldberg (1993) worked with former cult members in a therapeutic alliance as a
social worker for 16 years when she wrote that therapy with ex-cultist was dramatically
different than therapy with persons who had not been a member of a cult She said
. . . cult life can have a traumatic impact on cult members. In working with a
former cultist, a therapist who minimizes the cult experiences and sees all cult
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actions exclusively as indicative of experiences in early life and not. . . due to
the manipulations of the cult leader is further victimizing the former cultist. (p.
233)
Furthermore, she observed that after working with former cultists who had exited as
little as two to three months, “continued to show the character traits and hold some of
Giambalvo (1993) and Markowitz (1993) also encountered former cult members
even after as much as three to five years (Giambalvo, p. 148; Markowitz, p. 298).
Some of the emotional and psychological disturbances observed by exit counselors such
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CHAPTER 3
METHODOLOGY
Design
This study was an exploratory investigation into the issues behind a person’s
initial decision to exit from Jehovah’s Witnesses, and psychosocial effects thereafter
exiting the group. A qualitative survey method was used. This design was chosen due
Sample
sample type; the participants was self-selected. The subtype was that of availability or
convenience sample through the use of researcher soliciting, referral and snowballing
subjects for the research. The population was adults who are members of Jehovah’s
Witnesses who have exited at least three months from the beginning of the research, and
members who have exited within a period of 6 years. The projected sample size was
Data Collection
encounter or by use of the telephone. Subjects were initially contacted by means of the
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lists, such as found on world wide web locations: watchtower-observer@observer.ory.
iesus-witnesses@egrouDs.com. ex-cult-support@egroups.com.
this study by posting such on each mailing list. The request stated that the purpose of
participation was to explore each participant’s reasons for desiring to exit Jehovah’s
Witnesses and the effects of such a decision. Those who expressed a desire to take part
in this research were then be asked to provide a phone number that the researcher may
contact him or her. Those who agreed to participate were Emailed the letter of consent,
which each signed and mail via “land mail” to the researcher.
Once the necessary letters of consent have been signed and returned the subjects
were contacted by phone and an appointment to meet was arranged if it was iogistically
feasible, or a time was set aside to conduct the interview over the phone. The interview
Instrument
The data was collected in the form of interviews conducted via phone, face-to-
circumstances. The questions produced for this section were open-ended with attendant
probing questions. The questions used were related to the subjects subject experience
of the exiting process. A series o f 4 questions were asked to represent the immediate or
residual effects of exiting on the activities of daily living (ADL). At this time there is
no scale to rate levels of functionality due to psychosocial impact for this population.
This study gathered data to assess and develop the direction that further research on this
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sample population will take. Though the Organization that the subjects belonged to is
African American membership, and other non-white people of various heritages. The
Pata Analysis
This study will use qualitative method of content analysis looking for common
themes utilizing metaphors, and narrative structure to tell the story of the respondents.
The limitations o f this study are that the instrument constructed by the researcher
concomitant with qualitative research and a non-random sample has no universality and
no generalizability.
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CHAPTER 4
RESULTS
who have already left the religion, or are in the process of doing so. For the purposes of
this study leave or leaving the religion will be referred to as exit or exiting. Exiting also
entails separation from any and all privileges o f associating with members in good
standing.
phone. The researcher will refer to the participants using pseudonyms to protect their
identity.
Demographic Characteristics
Those who responded to be participants ranged in ages from 25-70 years old,
(Table 1); the biological sex and ethnicity of the participants is also displayed in Table
1. The respondents are citizens of the contiguous United States of America. Of the 16
participants 15 were bom in the United States o f America, and 1 was bom in Greece to
demographic questions 43,44, and 45 are presented in Table 2. The true identify of the
respondents has been concealed through the use of pseudonyms. The subjects
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TABLE I.
TABLE 2.
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The Individual Significance of Being One of Jehovah’s Witnesses
The participants of this study were asked if he or she were raised as a Jehovah’s
Witness. O f all the respondents only 1 did not come into the Organization as a minor,
TABLE 3.
a standard of social and psychological expectations quite different from the mainstream
a child is baptized as an infant, and does not officially become a member of the Church
Witnesses do not get baptized until they are of an age that can reasonably understand
dedication to their God. Whether or not the move to baptism is a willful choice for
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Jehovah’s Witnesses is revealed through the interview data, which is presented below.
The first question in the interview asked, Wereyou raised as a Jehovah’s Witness? All
the answers to this question were dependent upon the experience of the parents.
Betty, who was raised as a Jehovah Witness from the age of 14, experienced a
major shift in her social life when her mother began to study with the religion. For
Scary, because I had to leave my old life behind. No holidays; they were
wrong and sinful. God would destroy me if I celebrated Christmas. I began to
look at non-Jehovah’s Witness relative suspiciously.
The common theme between the respondents expresses that for the child raised
in Jehovah’s Witnesses, school social life or the celebration of holidays are the issues.
Marlene expressed that the religion impinges on the social life of a child.
I didn’t know anything else, and as a child it was very uncomfortable. Children
naturally feel different, but when you are a Jehovah’s Witness you are definitely
different. School was difficult Christmas. If there was a Christmas play or
event I had to leave the room, because I wasn’t allowed to participate. I couldn’t
attend school dances, and in my teens there was no such thing as dating. Only
associating with Jehovah’s Witnesses was allowed, you couldn’t have friends
who were not Witnesses.
Jamie could not recall her life being different from other non-Jehovah Witness
In the early years I couldn’t tell, no different I guess than any other child’s life.
It effected me when I got into school, and when the holidays came, or if there
was a birthday party.
At times it was a little difficult, ’cause at school you tend to stand out from the
rest of the kids. At holidays some of the Witness parents would have the teacher
put their kids out in the hall if there was something objectionable going on, like a
birthday celebration.
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Jehovah’s Witnesses are not permitted to salute the Flag o f their country;
At first my life didn’t seem to change much from before my folks started
studying, but after a while, at school the flag issue and holidays became a
difficult time for me. There was no difference at first with the family for the first
three years; it became different after they got baptized. In fact, I was expelled
from the second grade over not saluting the flag. That was during the war, and
in 1941 patriotism was very prevalent So, that was really hard on me, the flag
issue.
Eric concurs about the Flag issue, and that holidays caused him to distance
I got along with the other kids at school, yet there were times when issues, such
as the Flag, Christmas, and birth day parties, that it was like I alienated myself.
That was based on what I was taught, that those things are of Pagan origin, and it
was not acceptable to do anything of that nature as a Jehovah's Witness. I
thought these things were wrong. Not that anyone at school gave me a hard
time, just that I alienated myself. It was sort of self-imposed.
can often be found participating in thefield service. Liz remarks aboutfield service and
street witnessing
Well, you know. . . there were problems and embarrassing moments as a child,
with my friends. I can remember standing on the street comer as a little girl with
the Watchtower and Awake magazines. I got embarrassed if I saw any of my
friends coming, and really, I would try to hide, duck around the comer, so they
wouldn’t see me. It was humiliating, but I also felt humiliated for feeling that
way, that I shouldn’t feel that way, but I did. The Flag saluting in school, and
there was peer pressures. I juggled what I did around my friends. Like I would
fake saluting the Flag so as not to draw attention to myself.
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Parents would take protective measures to limit their children’s contact with
non-Jehovah’s Witnesses. Miles explained how the religion affected his education.
Treanna remembers both good and bad about her childhood experience.
There are good and bad aspects of it The good was, it was a very warm family.
We live in the city close to the World Headquarters of Jehovah’s Witnesses, and
our house was a host home for Bethel, and people from other countries would
come stay there. The bad part is I missed things as a child, the holidays, not
many school friends. I could not go to school events and kids stopped asking me
to after a while. If there was an event I couldn’t attend held at school I had to go
to the library and wait it out. And some of my teachers where not all that
understanding about it.
Racine added the additional social stressor of conflict between parent and
partner.
The whole experience? My experience? You mean, what was it like? (pause)
I’m having trouble thinking. That was miserable. Not that I wasn’t loved, my
mother was very loving; she divorced my step-father, that was due to the
religion. I said loving, but it was loving with a “spare the rod” way about it I
didn’t get spanked, I got “beat” Now she said she did the best she could. I
don’t have resentment though. Yet as a child I couldn’t do anything the other
kids did; no birth-days; no holidays, no Christmas; and there was no school
activities, I couldn’t do anything after school like the other kids, no sports; I
wanted to be a cheerleader, couldn’t do that
Wendy did not have pleasant memories of being a child in Jehovah’s Witnesses.
Terrible, horrible. I was isolated from the world, when in it I felt like an alien. I
was humiliated as a child at school by the other kids for the style of clothes I
wore. If there was an event on stage I was forced to take a stand against the flag.
Horrible.
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For the most part, Stacy sums the social experience of Jehovah Witness children
The only way I can put it is, my father was very controlling. I intended to please
him. I wasn’t socially deprived, I had association with lot’s o f Jehovah’s
Witnesses. We lived in the city, and the Witnesses made a tight group, so I don’t
feel I was alone much.
Though a child may be bom or raised into the religion membership in the
Organization is not official until one becomes baptized. There are IS direct responses
to Question 3 When did you first become a Jehovah's Witness (see Table 4).
Children however, are taught from an early age to adopt all the activities of a
member in good standing with Jehovah’s Witnesses. Marlene began her witnessing
I was baptized at 13, but I really became [a member] at 4 years old by going to
meetings and door-to-door. We had a little speech to present and as we got older
we were expected to say more. By the time I was 8 1was giving talks in the
Theocratic Ministry School, and by 101was writing my own parts.
Liz began her preaching skills nearly 6 years before getting baptized.
I was baptized at about 15 or 16 years old. I was really a Witness from as long
as I can remember though; I started going door-to-door at 10.
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TABLE 4.
The interview with the participants included a question regarding what prompted
them to get baptized. In most traditional Christian religions infant baptism is not a
willful choice, it is one decided upon by the parents of the child; the child's locus of
control is external in that it originates with another. With Jehovah’s Witnesses, the step
of baptism requires that the individual has an understanding of what he or she is doing;
the assumption is that the individual’s locus of control is interned. Thus, the age varies
as to when one will take such a step. There are however, in this study, nuances within
decision [to get baptized]? indicating what influenced the decision to get baptized; the
respondents gave some of the reasons that led them to do such a thing as total
or external locus of control. A common theme between the respondents is that they did
not feel they made a choice independently of their respective families or the
Congregation; 5 of the respondents felt that they did not willfully make a decision.
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Racine: To join? Get baptized? There was no decision; I didn’t have a choice.
I was forced to be one, I never had a choice, it was just die thing you were
expected to do. My mother had a choice, I didn’t, those are her words. She told
me how hard it must be for me not knowing anything else, like being born into
it, I was S.
Pablo: It was not a personal decision, it was accepted as the right thing to do,
although I do remember pressure from my mother, and the pressure was in the
form of using someone else raised in the Truth who is baptized at 19. It was
implied that something was wrong with that; something is wrong with someone
who waits that long to get baptized. I would then hear from my mother, “How
long are ‘you’ going to wait?” Ok, I started to get that this was expected of me,
one night I called an elder and told him that I wished to bet baptized.
Didi: It was pressure from the Congregation, they were the only people that
you interfaced with. We were to have no regard for family, relatives, that
weren’t Witnesses. We were not taught to go on much into the outside world,
such as to get an education, go to college.
Miranda: There was no decision. My parents said to me that this was the time,
and that was what I was gonna do. It was that way with everything else in life as
well, my parents took the lead and I followed. The decision to get baptized was
also based on my desire to serve God.
Marlene also stated that what prompted her was parental pressure that getting baptized
“was the right thing to do.” She adds though, that she did not want to just please
people, she wanted to please God, which implies that getting baptized would please
God.
Treanna internalized a portion of her decision, yet felt pressure from her parents
as well. She adds the element of the nature of the belief system of a Jehovah’s Witness.
She draws from the concept of a resurrection, yet this points to a time in the future after
Armageddon, when the only survivors will be members of the Organization. She said
At that time in my life I did feel spiritual, and I wanted to do the right thing. I
was sincere, but I felt it was expected of me. I felt pressure from my parents,
‘cause people my age were baptized. I felt I had to keep up with that Another
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thing, my aunt had died of cancer, and it was so sad and horrible when she died.
She died before I got baptized, and baptism was an assurance to see my aunt in
the resurrection. Baptism made me a part of everything; it meant to be a
Jehovah’s Witness.
Treanna began to respond with an internal locus of control, yet it is the external
pressure from parents, and the comparison with others her age that caused her to take
the step. Also, there is the stimuli of receiving a reward, such as the hope of the
resurrection of the dead to an earthly life, and being present at that time if one becomes
subsequently committed suicide. She was given two distinctly different responses to
the death of her brother; the first response excused certain Witnesses from attending his
funeral.
I got baptized in 1974; I was 14 years old. My brother became a witness and
committed suicide. One of the worst things that they told me is that he wouldn’t
be in the new world, and there was no real memorial service for him. It is
considered the unforgivable sin. That was before I got baptized. Then they told
me to get baptized and then I would have a chance to see my brother again. An
elder told me that, “through the nature of my brother’s death we will not attend
the service.” He had just died. I couldn’t believe they said that
The second response was used as an enticement for her to get baptized.
The chance to be in the New World. It was made very clear if I don’t, get
baptized, I would not be in the New World; I wouldn’t have a chance to see my
brother.
Thus, Wendy states that the doctrinal issue of the resurrection had and influence upon
her decision to get baptized. The stimuli of a reward sets the locus of control as
externalized; the nature of the reward in Wendy’s case is based solely on the level of
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Being bom and raised a Jehovah’s Witness did not keep Eric on the prescribed
course of development His answer to Question 3 (When did you first become a
I was bom in 19S7, and was raised into it I left at about the age of 18 or 19, and
then went back. . . I was forced into getting baptized, and was pressured by the
Witness that studied with me when I was 28. I was put into a sort of mental
duress, and emotional blackmail. That’s when I got baptized, and that same year
the elders put me on “involuntary disassociation” because they considered me a
threat to others. They pressured me to take a stand for Jehovah’s organization at
that time. The Watchtower plays on an individual personally by using scriptures
to get you to do what you “need” to do. And they relate these scriptures to
Jehovah God.
Miles felt parental pressure as he got closer to an acceptable age, 13 and a half.
His response to his parents however, was based on the fact that they had been adults
when they started studying with Jehovah’s Witnesses while he was an infant He said,
“There was pressure from my parents. My only response to them was that they waited.”
I had been going to meetings regularly, and I knew from the teachings it was
time to make a dedication to God. What prompted it was a prominent lady in the
Congregation who was a Pioneer. She took an interest in me. In my mind I
thought I was sincere, yet I was really impressed by her friendship, and the
prestige she got
Stevie had partially internalized the will to perform the act, yet there was a
It was like an inevitable thing on the horizon. I considered it a “when” and not
an “if.” What stimulated me was not wanting to be left behind by my peers.
control. He stated that getting baptized and becoming a Jehovah Witness gave him a
sense of belonging, which he said he never had before. Treanna, Liz, and Stevie
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exhibited both and interned and an external locus of control. The remaining 11 all felt
that they did not really make a decision in the matter, these ones got baptized into the
Organization as the result o f parental pressure, pressure from the Congregation, or the
and their subsequent exit it would be timely to contrast and compare their responses to
questions 7 What activities did you participate in when you were in the Organization ?,
8 What was that experience like for you?, and Question 9, What influenced your
decision to leave?
there were 5 who had been a pioneer at some time as a Witness; 2 were Bethelites for
more than a year, and 1 was a ministerial servant who also gave hour long public talks.
There are 3 (18.75%) that were active, and 5 (31.25%) were moderately active (see
Table 5).
TABLE 5.
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Structured Activity
activities such as preparing, participating, and attending all five meetings a week; each
meeting is held for a minimum of one hour. Members also participate infield service
by going door-to-door preaching their message. Some who volunteer to devote extra
time to preaching commit to becoming pioneers, who are considered fulltime preachers,
though the hours necessary to do this work amount to between 50-100 or more a month.
There is no educational requirement to perform this activity, and one only need be a
Other activities include; conducting a Bible study with persons of interest; street
servant; Bethel Service; or missionary work. The respondents were asked what
The Meetings
The meetings are called; the Book Study; the Theocratic Ministry School; Your
Service Meeting; the Public Talk and the Watchtower Study. The meetings are regularly
scheduled to be held three days a week. One evening is spent at the Book Study, usually
in the home of a member who has been approved by the Congregation elders. Those
who meet for the Book Study are a small group, which is composed of about 10-12
people, most of which are baptized Witnesses, yet non-Witnesses that have an interest
in becoming Jehovah’s Witnesses may attend. The purpose is to read and study a
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Another meeting night is scheduled to include both the Theocratic Ministry
School and the Service Meeting held at the Kingdom Hall, which the entire
Congregation is required to attend. On Sunday there is the Public Talk, also at the
Kingdom Hall, and this meeting is considered to be open to the general public. This
Directly after the Public Talk is the Watchtower Study. The Organization
very formal audience participation meeting. The facilitator is called the Watchtower
Study Conductor, who is most often an elder, and he is assisted by the Watchtower
question and answer session focused on the questions and answers designated by the
question is printed in the footer below each column. The Congregation participates by
raising their hands to be called upon to answer a question; personal questions are
discouraged from being asked by the members of the Congregation during the
Watchtower study.
Responses for what motivated such participation reveal what that experience
was like. Racine expressed that meeting attendance Watchtower study was an
intimidating experience.
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didn’t want people looking down on you making you feel small or sick. If you
were spiritually sick people would think that there is something wrong with you.
Attending this meeting implied that one was prepared to answer the questions,
according to Jamie, “I only answered at the meetings because it was expected of you.”
To be considered an active Jehovah’s Witness one has to attend all the meetings,
participate in thefield service, and conduct Bible studies with interested people.
Though the work is voluntary there is little if any room for options as Didi said:
There’s not any choice; it’s all or nothing. I was groomed to be a Pioneer. I
attended the Theocratic Ministry School meeting, gave talks; service three or
four times a week; Bible Studies in the community. I was an Active Witness,
not because my heart was in it, because I hated it. I did it because I had to.
Racine also stated thatfield service was a chore, though being a pioneer had its
rewards.
I went from door-to-door, cause I had to, but Auxiliary Pioneering was more
goal oriented, like I was on a mission. So many hours to put in; counting the
books you placed; calling on people; it was like interesting, being on a mission,
and it gave me the approval of the Congregation.
Part of her activity was to conduct Bible studies with her friends from school so that she
could have friends that weren’t Jehovah’s Witnesses, which is a rather clever way to get
As she puts it, “I was only supposed to play with kids from the Congregation, no one
else, unless you had a Bible Study with them, so I did that Doing all that was my
whole life.”
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Being active carried with it a certain sense of obligation to meet the standards
that were explicitly expressed to all that would be members in good standing. Wendy
explained that, “They would tell us that we had to preach the Word, and let others
I thought the world would end in 1975; they told us there was no time left. That
was in 1972, using the metaphor of an alarm clock about to go off. I was scared;
it’s scary to have to tell someone that the world is going to come to an end.
Even with Bible Studies, they are taught that in order to survive Armageddon
they have to change, and if you don’t change enough you won’t make i t It was
frightening at times. . . it was frightening.
For Marlene who said, “I hated the field service,” though there were other issues
The toughest part was being a second class citizen, women are treated that way.
Women aren’t allowed to have any privileges of service, like being Ministerial
Servants, only the men are allowed to do that. I did research and studied extra
which caused me to ask questions. I once went to a Servant with a question, and
he told me to go ask my husband.
Preparing for thefield service centered around preparation from and for the
Theocratic Ministry School meeting and the Service Meeting. In these two meetings
skills are acquired that Jehovah’s Witnesses use to promote the Society’s literature,
leam public speaking, and focus on overcoming some of the objections raised by some
of the people that are met in the door-to-door work. Parts in the program are assigned
to both the men and the women of the Congregation, that must be prepared and
practiced for the night of the meeting. Those scheduled to present a part do so from
the speaker’s podium in front of the Congregation. The male members are allowed to
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present their part facing directly toward the Congregation; a woman is not permitted to
present directly facing the Congregation, but must be seated while giving her part facing
Wendy felt that she had gotten a good deal from her experience in the
Well, I am thankful for the Theocratic Ministry School; it gave me great sales
training. I’m in sales now, so it really has helped a lot Some of it I enjoyed
doing-
Stacey explained some of the activities she participated in, and the purpose of
All of the participants in this study attended the meetings, and were active even
if only moderately. Racine, who was active in all aspects said, "It was overwhelming.”
Carol was active, and said she did, "Everything that was required of a Witness. Door-
did not just jump in and out of the Jehovah’s Witness experience at will; it became her
whole life to her. “I did everything I could to the point that it was my only world, and
my children only associated with other Witness children.” Marlene also said that, "No
matter what you did right it was never good enough.” This same theme came through
in Robert’s responses as he began to feel that he was being forced to do things. His
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view is, “What it was that a person was doing was never good enough, whatever you
did.” For Wendy there was also a feeling of inadequacy that followed her, as she
give talks at the Kingdom Hall, yet he did not have any desire to be a ministerial
servant This can be problematic for a male member as they are encouraged to grow in
created a conflict between reaching out to perform more duty oriented tasks as a
Jehovah’s Witness, and making a living to be able to provide for his family. He related
this to the researcher in an apologetic and pleading tone when he said, UI had a business,
and a family to support, and the organization was consuming too much of my time.
There was also a conflict with my wife at the time, as she was a non-believing mate.”
Eric began to do some research, and came to realize, as he says, “what the
Organization said was a bunch of lies. I thought, if I have the truth, I wondered why do
I have to lie to people?” His conflicts grew, and when confronted by the elders of his
Congregation, when he had decided to exit they would not acknowledge what he had
own words, “The elders only wanted to know if I was loyal to the Watchtower Society.
They said if I repeated, what I had been telling them, to anybody else they would
thinking.
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Other respondents also showed the characteristic of critical thinking. Tnaming
to think independently of the Organization came to Betty after she started college as she
says, “I also learned about critical thinking, and before that I let them do the thinking
for me.” Betty took a psychology course, and she remembers “An elder’s wife said
Racine started questioning, “What is wrong with having a birthday?” Then she
questioned the belief that celebrating holidays wrong. She said, “Later on I started to
celebrate everything. I think how could God condemn me to death for doing that?’
Robert did a good deal of reading, and found inconsistencies in the teachings of
the Watchtower. This caused him to have questions, which he brought to the leaders
that he knew. He said, “The elders in the Congregation would tell me, ’You should
know the answers by now; you shouldn’t be asking questions like that’”
Pablo also did research on doctrinal inconsistencies and the early history of the
Watchtower Society. He found that “They make excuses for things that didn’t happen,
like Armageddon didn’t come in 1975.” These things influenced his decision to leave
the Organization. Further research that Pablo did drew heavy comparisons with other
groups, as he puts it
And the research I did on other groups that are known as cults, such as the
Moonies; Jim Jones, People’s Temple; the Heaven’s Gate; the Restoration for
the 10 Commandments of God; I saw as a pattern for the Witnesses, and all these
other groups. I saw the elements of a control group being prevalent in the Watch
Tower Society.
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Marlene has a vivid recollection of what the Organization thought about critical
The one experience I had was when a visiting Circuit Overseer came to the
Congregation and made the comment that the washing machine was the worst
invention ever made, because it gave the sisters too much time to think. I was
the only one that had to walk out and get some fresh air.
Stacey felt it was hypocrisy that influenced her. Stacey’s father, an elder at the
time, refused to see her disfellowshipped brother when he was dying of cancer. She
asked her dad to go see him, and his response was, “Isn’t it better he die of cancer than
by God’s judgment?” Her father refused to attend the funeral for her brother because
Didi said she was brutalized by the elders when she took an overdose of sleeping
pills due to the grief and depression she experienced at the death of her 6 year old
adopted son. She was summoned to a Judicial Committee, and she said, “One of the
brothers of the Committee, I think he was a janitor by job, said that was a horrible thing
Miranda saw, as she says, “Things from the local elders that sowed a lack of
love.” Then as she began to study the Bible with her husband and another Witness
friend she said that they began to find out the Watchtower was wrong. Treanna took a
Logic and Semantics class in college and used the Watchtower articles to argue that the
line of reasoning it contained was not valid. Liz could not accept that the Watchtower
brought out that organ transplants were likened to cannibalism. Steve had doubts that
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became intense over time, which became increasingly difficult to suppress. Carol had
doubts from right after her baptism up until she left the Organization 24 yean
afterward. It was the doubt that influenced Carol’s decision to leave, as she says
Length of Time In
The duration of the participant’s membership in the Watch Tower Bible and
TABLE 6.
16-19 5 31.25
20-23 5 31.25
24-27 1 6.25
28 over 3 18.75
The participant with the longest duration of time as a member is also the second
eldest of the respondents, Liz. She responded to die question, “How long were you in
the Organization?”
Until about a year ago, but I was disfellowshipped for about a year much much
earlier, and came back. I have totally quit going, though I haven’t written a letter
of disassociation or been disfellowshipped. 46 yean.
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Length of Time Out
“How long has it been since you lefi?” was also asked of the participants (see
Table 7). There are 2 (12.50%) participants whose exit from the Organization is
between 1 and 3 years before this study, and 1 (6.25%) participant’s exit is 24 years
ago. The largest cohort has 6 (37.50%) constituents whose exit is between 4-7 years
before this study. There is 1 (6.25%) participant each for 8-11,20-23, and 24-27 years
since their exit; 3 (18.75%) whose exit was 12-15,2 (12.50%) who left 16-19, and 1
(6.25%) who has been out of the Organization 20 years before this study.
TABLE 7.
and experience in the Watch Tower Bible and Tract Society, and duration of time since
each individual’s exit. Table 8 is provided to give an overview of each member’s as the
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TABLE 8.
Attitudes and Perceptions of the Governing Body and the Organization of Jehovah’s
Witnesses
It is generally accepted among Jehovah’s Witnesses that there is only one source
of information regarding doctrinal issues within their belief system; that source is the
Governing Body of Jehovah’s Witnesses. The members of the Governing Body decide
what will eventually be printed in the literature of the Watchtower Bible and Tract
Society, and this is done based on the premise that they are directly inspired by God to
do so. Their decisions are not to be challenged or questioned by the rank and file
members. The Governing Body are also the ones that decide if there are to be any
changes in the stance o f the Organization. Changes are disseminated as “new light,”
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To disobey the Governing Body has serious ramifications, and the 14. Did/do
you feel fearfo r not obeying the Governing Body o f Jehovah’s Witnesses? and IS.
Did/do you feel that not obeying them will result in “God’s wrath?” The respondents
The question was asked, Did/do youfeel fear fo r not obeying the Governing
Body o fJehovah's Witnesses? There is a mixed response between those who did/ear
the Governing Body and those who did not. Those that did fear them had a similar
Of course, you have to do what they tell you, they are Jehovah’s mouth piece. If
you didn’t you’ll be killed at Armageddon.
There is also a feeling that a hierarchy separates the Governing Body from the members
I thought they were above all the lower organization Witnesses, that they had a
direct line to God. After time I felt that they didn’t . . .
I was always taught to be in awe of them, that they are superior to average
Witnesses. They are shut-up in a secret room in Brooklyn, making decisions that
effect millions of people, like they have a direct line to God. They have die
power to make decisions.
Even after exiting Carol carried a sense of paranoia that there was an accounting
of her actions that would follow her. When asked if she feltfear she said:
Absolutely, definitely. They believe that is the connection to God, very scared.
The first time I started celebrating the holidays I thought, someone is coming to
get me, as if I was always being watched.
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Didi had the same sense that Wendy did that stemmed on the theme of
Absolutely. As a Witness I did. . . the year 197S had people worked-up into a
frenzy, where they did not even get their teeth fixed, and when Armageddon
didn’t come, you had holes in your teeth.
For those who responded that they did notfear the Governing Body they
quantified that fear. Miles’ activity in the Organization was moderate, and his exit came
I think that the ingrained fear of being destroyed by God runs pretty deep, and it
has stayed with me a long time. And I wasn’t taking to heart what I was taught,
but I knew the individual I wanted to be was not what they wanted me to be.
Fear for the Governing Body did not subside for Eric until he got deeper into his
research. His statement reflects the theme that a member does not question those in
Before I started doing the research I did feel fear. It was fear that I was going
against God’s wishes. Then, as the research developed the fear subsided. You
are not allowed to question, or read anything that speaks out against the
organization. They even stated in the Watchtower magazine, that it is a bad
thing to have independent thinking. I had fear that Satan was influencing my
mind.
The Governing Body establishes policy about doctrinal issues. One of the issues
that some of the members of the organization have a problem with is that of blood
transfusions. The logic and reason that these leaders has caused a debate on the validity
of the restriction. It was on just this issue that Pablo felt dispelled his fear of the
Governing Body.
I would have to say no. My first research was the stance of blood. I went to the
Bible, and looked at the context of the scriptures applied to the Governing Body
as the “faithful and discreet slave,” and after that I began to see that they are a
group of men that have taken themselves far too seriously.
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Although Pablo is in the early stage of exit he has done personal work to strengthen
himself. He has educated himself about the way that the Governing Body uses its
power.
Some of the respondents who answered no to the question qualified the response
with a reference to having fear for the Governing Body as an active member, and how
that fear changed upon exiting. Miranda is one who included an episode of conflict
right after the time she had exited. She and her husband took the Organization to court,
No, I did not fear them at all when I got out I did when I was in the Jehovah’s
Witnesses, but not after. We had a law suit in 1984 to sue the Watchtower,
because they had defamed our name, separated us from friends and family. Our
lawyer said they have unlimited funds, and that their tactic was to continually
appeal any judgments against them, and we could not afford to continue to
challenge them. That’s the way the Watchtower handles all the law suits, they
appeal, stall, and delay which raises the legal costs, and most people, most
everybody, can’t financially compete with that. We couldn’t, so, we had to get
out of it They, the Watchtower, have total control; they can do anything they
want.
member is expected to honor the arrangement as being directed by God. Treanna was
brought up on issues that the elders wanted to question her. She gives her response to
them as part of her answer to the interview question. Did she fear the Governing Body
of Jehovah’s Witnesses?
No. I had no respect for them when I left In fact I think the real question that
got me disfellowshipped was when I was brought in to a committee meeting to
question me. They asked me, *1)0 you recognize the Governing Body of
Jehovah’s Witnesses, and this group o f Elders here as the people chosen by
Jehovah to conduct this interview, and to have this meeting with you?” I said,
“Hell no.” I think that kind of says it
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Stevie feels that he has a unique relationship with God, and that he has not been
left alone or abandoned to make a decision for himself. Yet, there was a time when that
I knew that God out ranks them. If God said to Mgo,” they can’t touch me. But I
was still nervous to say anything against them. It took 4 years to be able to say
anything to anybody that was contradictory to the Society.
Racine denied fearing the Governing Body, yet she put importance on the rules
Not the Governing Body, just the rules; I was breaking the rules. God is gonna
kill me, he hates me, a fear of God, or the understanding that the Society told me
about God.
And Stacey struggled with confusion when answering the question. She did not want to
believe that she feared them, but as she continued thefear came to the surface.
No. I guess you do in a sense. That could be based on fear, nor really knowing if
I do. It was like you lived in constant fear, underlying fear of God’s wrath. The
Governing Body handed down the rules you never thought about them. I feared
the elders, the local Congregation. They got the rules from the Governing Body.
Her response carried over that fear to include afear of God’s wrath the subject of the
next question, Did/do you feel that not obeying them will result in “God’s wrath?”
Those who answered no to both of these questions were Betty, Miranda, and
Treanna. Both of Betty’s responses were given without a hesitation, and her answer
regarding God’s wrath, “No, I felt that God loved me,” expressed a confidence in her
choice to exit.
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With those that answered yes there was a direct connection to disobeying the
Governing Body with the result being God’s wrath, though they did not express doubt
of their exit. Miranda said, “Yes, I believed they were the go between for God, Jesus
and the organization.” It took time for her to conquer that, as she continued, “[I] felt
that for quite a while, maybe 3 or 4 years, until I got into psychotherapy, which was a
no-no. They consider psychotherapy to be for people that didn’t have enough faith.”
Yes, that is what you are taught To reject the organization you reject God. If
you don’t do what they tell you to do you are directly defying Jehovah,
because they are His direct communication to u s . . .
. . . Didi said:
I was really fearful of that, it took me years to work through that. It was like
an insurance policy, having the favor of the Governing Body, and being in the
organization. I was taught it was a way of buying into God’s good graces,
and the “Ark,” and unless you maintained good status, as a Witness, your
children would die. So it is guilt, and fear. It is how they control people. . .
. . . Eric:
At the time when I was still believing it was God’s organization I did. And
yes, that I would be punished and destroyed at the battle of Armageddon if I
left. . .
. . . Miles:
. . . and Carol who said, “I thought I would be killed at Armageddon, or die then and
Absolutely, God is going to destroy me if I don’t do what they say. They are
the Faithfbl and Discreet Slave.
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Thatfear has its toots in the Organization’s standards of conduct, and the
observance of the teachings. Racine saw God’s wrath as the direct consequence, Tor
not obeying the rules, and after leaving it stays with you. . . the rules. . . you just can’t
shake it off.” Her connection between the Governing Body and God’s wrath is based on
Not the Governing Body, just the rules; I was breaking the rules. God is
gonna kill me, he hates me, a fear of God, or the understanding that the
Society told me about God.
Stevie added:
Up to the point I got a sign, before that, sure. Any infringement could have
led to God’s wrath. Even not combing my hair as a Witness caused anxiety.
That’s why I got panic attacks.
There were comments that indicated with the passing of time one overcomes the
fear of the Organization and of God’s wrath. This can be read in the responses above,
and also in what Pablo said, “While I was a fully believing Witness I did. Not now,”
At the time I did, I didn’t realize they wee a man made organization; I thought
they were divine. I feel there are a lot o f nice people, but they are trapped.
Then I began to feel it was a very good circus act I never thought I was
disobeying anything they just didn’t answer my questions. I couldn’t stand
that they demanded that I believe anything, whatever they said.
Whether a respondent was bom into the Organization, or came into it later, all
admit that Jehovah’s Witnesses composed the entire framework of their social
experience. The aspects of the person in environment explored the effects of exiting
Jehovah’s Witnesses by asking the question; 10. How has that choice [to exitj effected
your life? 12. Did/do you experience a sense o f loss? 11. What effects did that decision
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have onyou [emotionallyJ? and 23. What has exiting done to your personal
relationships, work, friends, orfamily? Examining these responses will begin to reveal
although the interpretation of loss varies within the sample. The three dominant themes
of loss are loss o ffamily, loss offriends and loss o f a beliefsystem, all of which impact
an individual’s sense of community. When asked did you experience a sense o f loss,
Carol responded, “Absolutely. My whole social world completely gone in one instant
I lost everything, husband, house, right down to my cat” This portrays a dramatic
Having the lost the community in which Treanna was raised literally threw her
into chaos. She was 20 years old at the time and going to college, yet still living at
In the 5 years since Treanna has been out of the Organization she has made strides in
regaining control of herself and her life, although she has not regained her family nor
their support. She explained to the researcher that she acquired the ability to make
better decisions, which she attributes to a process similar to what a child goes through.
She says:
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Now I don’t feel that the world is as scary as I was told it was going to be. I was
told if I left 1 would fall into drugs, get pregnant, and that’s not the case. I
recently saw a girlfriend of mine who is a Witness, and she said, uWow, you
look different that what I expected to see.” She thought I would be mean, old
and harsh, and I’m not She was surprised. That made me happy.
She also added that she misses her family, “not the religion.”
Marlene was in the Organization for 22 years, and has been out for 13, yet she
I call what I went through the Armageddon Attitude, that at any minute I was
going to die. Its made it a tough time setting goals, nothing exists long term; the
end is right around the comer.
She also lost her family when she left the religion, yet she has managed to reunite with
Well, I got divorced. Leaving changed me. He wanted a naive and insecure
person, and he didn’t like that I changed. I was growing up and he didn’t want
me to. I lost contact with all the friends I had. My x-sister-in-law contacted me.
She’s not a witness anymore. It was like catching-up on who is still in and who
is out All my family that was involved has quit; 6 cousins; 6 adult aunts and
uncles. One aunt died a witness, and one is still in but only in word, not actively
in.
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Miranda was a Jehovah’s Witness 45 years, and even after being out for 17 she
In the sense that we had a loss from family and friends, not from the teachings,
there’s no loss there, the loss is of family and friends. We no longer had contact
with them.
One’s friendships play an import role in a community system; loss is felt all the
Eric lost friends and after that it proved who his real friends were.
I lost some good friends, yet they were not really friends. I wanted to express
myself to them, but I could not I found out that people I had confided in went
back and told the Elders about it A true friend is someone you can share doubts,
and feelings with, who accepts you for who you are. The ones that I was warned
about such as former Jehovah’s Witnesses, turned out to be real friends.
When you spend your whole life doing something and when you leave you have
nothing to replace it with. Lost my friends, but these are not true friends,
because they never showed they cared; we left and nobody called. They were not
friends. It took about 6 months for me to realize that and start to make real
friends.
The loss of one’s personal belief system has also been expressed by some of the
participants. This, in essence, attacks one’s sense of community and belonging, which
A huge sense. After the jubilation. . . and a sense of freedom, and even now I
still feel a loss. I think you feel the sense of community, the organization Erst,
and then the religious part When it’s all gone everything is gone. . .
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. Stacey:
Spiritually, yes. I always studied the Bible. We studied the articles in the
Watchtower, I did extra research, I prepared, but I didn’t question what it said.
All I know is that I was led down a path, and I missed that association, to be able
to speak on a spiritual level. . .
. . . Stevie:
Yes, because everything I believed was up in the air. I wasn’t one that goes for
the ride, I was a true believer, and it was tumultuous and unsettling. . .
. . . Pablo:
Yes. There has been an immense sense of loss. The belief system all my life has
been completely stripped away. You no longer feel you are a special privileged
person in the sight of God. That’s difficult to deal with, and for those who were
good friends, for them the loyalty to the Watch Tower is more important that
friendship with you. As far as religions go, they feel they have a special
relationship with God. I’ve lost the idealism, and I cannot confide in them any
more. . .
. . . Liz:
It was depressing at first. It feels empty and lonely that you give-up something
you’ve believed all your life, and I feel disillusioned. There’s positive and
negative. There is like something missing from your life, and it’s like you can
hardly get rid of it
These are the responses that address the issue of loss in regard to family, friends, and a
belief system.
Didi mentioned that the first S years after exiting were the worst There was no
familiarity with the world outside, and not knowing anyone who had left the
Organization she found herself in uncharted territory. She did manage to develop
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I had no connections. I was free floating. My husband and I left at the same
time, and more fortunate enough to have built our home in a beautiful spot
around a lake. The local neighbors, who were not Witnesses, became our
family.
Didi recently had contact with her sister, which was an eye-opening experience.
My sister invited me to her son’s wedding. I haven’t see her very often over the
past 20 years, and through her I got to meet some of my friends from back then.
There was an occasion when we met at a local restaurant for dinner. I was
appalled by their inability to converse, because of their truly limited social skills.
It was like I was talking to children, and they were middle-aged adults.
Another incident from Didi’s exit happened 24 years ago; she had been in the Truth for
16 years.
Initially, I was just consumed with if I had rationally made the right decision. I
literally snuck into a Christian book store, no, it was a thrift store, and picked up
a Bible that was not a Watchtower Bible. I took it home and read from Matthew
to Revelation. Then it gave me a whole different story from what I had before. I
became angry, very angry.
about loss with the memory of that on her mind. She expressed herself with very strong
language.
Of course, of course. My brother wouldn’t have died in that stupid cult I worry
about who is gonna die.
Effects of Shunning
Anger was expressed over the issue of shunning, a practice that has members in
good standing turn their backs to those who leave; to be shunned is to be cut off from
any association with members in good standing, even if family. Seven respondents
made reference to being shunned or not being talked to by friends and family. Feelings
o f anger and hostility are also addressed in Question 30. Did/do you harbor any anger
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or hostility [towards Organization, other members, orfamily]? and 31. Did/do youfeel
hostility toward those who criticize Jehovah’s Witnesses?, which impact the person in
environment
Betty’s anger rose from being shunned, as she says, “I was angry for being
shunned. Hurt, that the people closest to me turned their backs on me.” She related an
My parents, aunts, cousins, my brother shunned me, they all turned their backs
on me. That bothered me a lot when my brother wouldn’t speak to me besides
yes or no. There was no conversation, especially about my choice to leave.
They are not allowed to talk about it or they get disfellowshipped. I needed help
one time, and so I called my aunt to come give me a ride. She did, but when I
tried to talk to her she wouldn’t answer me.
At the end of that ride Betty got the reason why her Aunt would not answer her. She
said, “When my aunt dropped me off she turned to me and said, (I don’t want you to
call me again, because I don’t want to speak to you.’” When she was asked if she
harbored any anger or hostility she said, “Not to individuals who are still members.”
Thus, the act of shunning is the thrust behind the refusal for family members or
friends to have any contact with the one who exits, as it is with Miranda
The only regret is that my son and his family, and my sister and her family are
still Witnesses and we have no contact with them. And all my friends won’t talk
to us because of being disfellowshipped; they will not speak to us.
We live in a small town with only one grocery store IS Kilometers away. We
would go and if seen by a Witness they would shun me, and it really bothered
me. It was only through counseling that I realized the problem was not mine, it
was theirs. . .
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. . . Pablo, who is still in the process of exiting, and at the time of this study is woridng
Initially there has been quite a bit of stress. My wife is a very devote Witness.
During this interview she walked by and shot me a couple of “looks.” Growing
up as a Witness you are discouraged to form relationships with anyone who is
not a Witness, and I am very concerned that our relationship remain intact. If
you are kicked out other Witnesses will not acknowledge you, and you will get a
complete shunning, unless they “have” to talk to you. If you attend a meeting
you are considered a “bad associate,” and you cannot speak to anyone when you
are there. I am working with her so she does not have to go through that, and our
relationship is getting closer than before.
One might think that such treatment would make Pablo angry, though his response to
I don’t have hostility, or anything towards the people. I actually feel more sorry
for them than anger. The impression I get is that the leaders are just as much
prisoners as the rank and file. If they want to leave, or stop it they couldn’t
Some feel that a great change is needed, yet they can’t speak out openly for it If
anyone steps out of line they are “gone,” because they, die Society, feel they
need to keep it pure. No, not hostility, I feel bad for diem.
Like Pablo, Stevie’s marriage went through a similar transition when his wife
another stage.
Initially, it was very difficult My wife was still a witness. I was very cautious
not to do or say anything so as not to offend her. Gradually, she began to change
her mind about the Organization when she saw that the Congregation treated our
children like leapers, because of my decision. My kids weren’t allowed to play
with the other Witness kids. We are both now in active recovery for a year and a
half. At this point in time, I’m very happy, much happier. Mainly, I don’t have
to repress or manipulate my mind to find ways to make the leaders right
It has taken Stevie and his wife 4 years to reach this stage of development; Stevie was
in the Organization for 21 years. Does he have any anger or hostility? His answer is:
Definitely, toward the Organization. They took away half of my life! Very
angry about this, and screwed me up so bad it’s going to take the rest of my life
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to get over it I’m angry about shunning that puts a pregnant teenager out on die
street for having sex. I’m angry of having been told that, “God speaks through
us,” and there is no evidence that is so, and yet that is what the Governing Body
claims.
the experience of Miranda. Her son is a Jehovah’s Witness. He had moved to another
state and Miranda and her husband would go visit, and she explains how they were
treated.
Though her son came to Miranda’s 50* wedding anniversary, because it was held at a
community center and not a church, he did draw the line based on another issue.
One might conclude that any anger or hostility held toward the Organization
would be merely the grumbling of the disgruntled. It is not the purpose of this study to
prove or disprove that. What the participants did is give their emotional response to a
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The nature of the anger or hostility felt by the respondents is not particularly the
perspective apart from the individuals. When Miranda was asked if she had any anger
No, I think they are just as blinded as I was. I was angry at the organization, that
they had lied, but I don’t harbor hostility, and I have forgiven them for what they
have done in my life. It has helped me to be who I am today, being a Witness.
Anger was also felt by those who had reckonings over the validity of the religion
as well. Wendy struggled with suicidal ideation for 8 years until she came to grips with
I was going through suicidal tendency myself. Not anymore. I felt very
betrayed, angry, relieved its not the true religion, and anger was with me for a
very long time.
Very much. I remember once then, saw them coming to my door. I ran to the
door and just as they got to it I slammed the door as hard as I could. Early on I
had an extreme amount of anger. I still have anger toward the Governing Body,
how they ruin lives. They know what they do up there.
Marlene drew a distinction between the Organization and the members. She responded:
Sure I d o . . . toward the organization though, not the rank and file. I feel that they
are just as duped as I was. It’s not their fruit; I don’t blame them. I feel that they
believe they are doing the right thing. Most of all we’re not allowed to be angry, to
feel anger, or to show it in any way. To do that. . . it’s loosing self-control. Got to
be in control, ya know. That’s the way it is.
Robert drew the same distinction, yet has a problem with one of his relatives. He
answered:
Yes a lo t Mostly for the organization and those responsible for running i t not the
members; particularly angry and hate for the Governing Body, they know better.
And not my immediate family, except my cousin, I have animosity toward him. At
one time I almost threw a brick through die front window of his house.
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Stacey observed an ironic almost paradoxical turn of events.
Lots, lots, towards the elders, ‘cause they sit in the site of judgment, they quote
scriptures, but there is no understanding of the problem itself. Three of those elders
that made decisions to disfellowship people are now disfellowshipped themselves. It
makes you wonder.
Didi had a pragmatic view of the Organization and an assessment of how those who
For a long time I was extremely hostile. I view the organization as a business, and it
is in the business to keep itself in business, not for the people, for its self. It’s
working on a self perpetuating formula that came from the past, so why should it
change. The organization puts up a barrier to maintain its status quo by
manipulating a fear for everybody on the outside, especially those who have left
Jamie had a similar feeling about the business aspects of the Organization, but not a
Not towards the organization. Some anger that they are using people for financial
gain, and manipulate people. As far as my parents no, they made the best decisions
they could, like us all, I’m still struggling with them, I’m not a child, I am in control
of my own actions. I got out and they have gotten more entrenched.
Treanna’s response was from a personal impact perspective, yet she recoiled from the
Yeah. I blame the organization for making my family unhappy. Anger is a little
harsh, it’s more like disappointment, disgust, I’m annoyed by their ignorance. And I
was very offended by the Elders prying into my personal life at the committee
meeting with me. Yes. I feel that my family abandon me.
Liz answered yes initially, though she recants in the same line. She also states that she
does not have any anger toward her family members who are Jehovah’s Witnesses, due
to a conflict about caring for her elderly grandmother which resulted in a lack of contact
Yes, towards the Organization, and maybe towards one Elder, but not really. I think
the Internet has helped that As for my family, since that happened with my
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Grandmother we never communicated too much, and it, the family, has been all
split-up over that I don’t have lasting anger or animosity toward them, but there’s
no connection anymore.
Yes, very much so. Anger towards the organization and anger towards my self.
I had some hostility towards the organization until the beginning of last year, the
new millennium. Then I decided to let it go. I haven’t had any trouble since then.
Two respondents did not have an issue with anger, Eric and Racine. Racine said
she felt “sad” rather than angry. Eric found himself in a situation that tested his ability
to cope with being misrepresented, and still did not feel anger. He even found it
surprising that others thought he had hatred for Jehovah’s Witnesses when that simply
No. When I left, I didn’t have any anxiety or hostility toward the organization. I
only tried to defend myself against those who attacked me with false accusations,
that I was immoral, and doing bad things, when I only asked questions, questioned
the Society, and gave information to people that asked me for it Some time after
that Witnesses would come by and ask me why I hated them so much. I would tell
them that they had gotten the wrong information. I didn’t hate them.
Question 40. Have you everfe lt "fearful”about exiting? 13. Did/do youfeel any sense
o f failure? and 26. Did/do you everfeel ‘g uilt'for your decision [to exit]? were asked.
The respondents had a peculiar linkage between threes three factors, and there is some
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Effect of Fear
Fear wreaked havoc and upheaval for all of the respondents at one time in their
lives or at the time of exit. Exit however, brings to bear certain conditions that the
individual members did not have to deal with up to that point There were 7
respondents that did not feel fear upon exiting, and 9 that did. Those that did feelfear
Wendy said that she had experiencedfear, that she was unable to cope, and that
she was anxious about it Marlene was in fear of being homeless, which was connected
Yeah. I dissociated and felt the exit would be the end that lead to eternal
damnation and oblivion. My family wanted to put me in the hospital, they
wanted to hospitalize me, but I wouldn’t go. Then they gave me Stelazine and
Navane. . . After exiting I was afraid to bump into a Witness, it made me
panicky, and very upset. It threw me into a mood. . .
Yes, fearful that maybe I shouldn’t be doing this, that I should stop all this
nonsense, and quit trying to exit When I see a car ofWitnesses going out in the
field service, I feel glad I’m not What a joke; what a waste.
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Fear continued as a common theme between participants that was motivated by
Yes, at first I was fearful. Like being in a roller coaster, and then riding along
and seeing a break in the track up ahead, and wanting to climb out of the car in a
panic, yet everybody else is having such a good time and enjoying the ride. I see
that things in the Society need to be changed, but I can’t do anything
Miranda’s fear precipitated her eventual exit, and she learned to cope in order to
overcome herfear.
Before I left, exiting was one of my biggest fears. Before I left I had a dream
one night that I was disfellowshipped, and I woke-up crying. But when I
actually left I was not fearful. I had developed a support system of others who
had similar interests, and I continued to study what troubled me so about the
Watchtower. I put my trust in God, and the fear of leaving became gratitude for
getting out.
Treanna felt the social impact offear, and did not feel it was related to the religion. She
said, “Yeah, I didn’t know what was going to happen to me. It wasn’t about the religion
aspect, it was more again the family aspect” Thrown into survival she conquered her
What I missed was my family, not the religion. Gradually, I made better moral
decisions, I questioned myself based on what I was taught or what I felt Setting
my own standards was like a process. I felt like a child discovering things for
the first time. Now I don't feel that the world is as scary as I was told it was
going to be. I was told if I left I would fall into drugs, get pregnant, and that’s
not the case. I recently saw a girlfriend of mine who is a Witness, and she said,
“Wow, you look different that what I expected to see.” She thought I would be
mean, old and harsh, and I’m not She was surprised. That made me happy.
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Stevie’s fear was attached to the loss of a primal tenet of the religion, that
Oh yeah, that’s what held me back all that time. It’s not just fear of loosing here
and now, it’s fear of loosing life in paradise forever, or being disloyal to God,
fear of that. Fear ofdieing at Armageddon.
Liz however, is still in fear and unable to cope as she said, “Yes, in the past. Yeah, I am
Those that responded no were fairly succinct in their answers. Betty and Eric
did not elaborate at all. Jamie felt that she benefited from her exit saying, “Those
anxious feelings were alleviated when I stopped going.” Stacey stated, “No. It built up
over time, and when I left, I left.” And when Miles was ready to walk out of the
Organization he did so without hesitation as he says, “At the time, definitely not I
At the time of the interview Didi did not have an issue with fear, she has been
No. I only felt extremely grateful for the decision. It took a while, for I had to
loose everything about that life in order to gain myself. I can read a book
without guilt, Steven King is my favorite author; the Witnesses I know think
he’s the devil incarnate or some kind of demon. . . and every thinking ability
about being a Witness is filled with guilt.
The responses to feeling a sense o ffailure were evenly split between the sample
with 8 respondents answering yes, and 8 respondents no. Those who said yes, in most
all cases, followed with an explanation or a degree of severity. Marlene felt that she
could not live up to what was expected of her, and that the Organization’s expectations
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Yes, while in and after I left You can’t do good enough, even though they
would say we are imperfect creatures, you had to strive for perfection. You have
the feeling you have to be godlike. . . live up to God’s expectations. Miss one
meeting and they wonder where you are.
Feelings of failure to God was an issue to Racine, rather than failure to the
Organization. She said, “No, I didn’t . . . not to the religion, but failure to God. I still
don’t pray, so I feel I let God down. It took about a year to hit me, I was self-involved.”
Stacey was bom into the Organization, dated a man who had studied with Witnesses
expressly so that they could get married. She raised her children as Jehovah’s
participants that arose during their interviews. These doubts stem from various things,
such as the complex teachings, the social restrictions, recanting of teachings, and
prophesy about the end of the world not happening. Robert felt failure was the result of
his doubt
Yeah, I guess I did in a way. I felt all my life I was going to do something great,
but by the time I left I knew I wouldn’t. Loss came when I left, and I left
because of my doubts. They harp about that, doubt is some kind of sin. I have
sleep paralysis, have had it all my life, which they had a problem with. They
said I was demon possessed.
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The 8 who said no to having zsense o ffailure did so with aplomb and certainty.
Betty, who had the shortest duration of time in the Organization (8 years), presented
herself as self-assertive and self-confident in her choice to exit. When asked the
question she responded without hesitation that she did not feelfailure, as she put it,
“Not then or now.” Her answer is a self-assured expression of how she felt
It is also evident that Pablo is very sure of himself about not feelingfailure", his
proportion.” Miranda is just as at ease, “No. I didn’t feel a sense of failure even after
being in it for over 40 years; I felt that I was led out.” And Didi did not recall any
No, I felt a sense of joy that I was able to escape while I was young so I could
make a life. I lost my family, and they haven’t been in our house in 20 years.
When my oldest son was killed in a motorcycle accident they didn’t even come
to the funeral.
Mile’s had total resolve at the time of his ex//, and did not feel any sense o f failure, as
he said, “I didn’t feel a sense of failure even after being in it for over 40 years.”
Effect of Guilt
When asked if they felt guilt for exiting 7, Miranda, Pablo, Didi, Eric Miles,
Treanna, and Stevie flatly said no. Instead of guilt Treanna feels regret “I never wanted
to hurt my family,” she said. Miranda supports her feelings with her spiritual path.
No, not to leave, never. I feel it was God himself that had led us out We had done
nothing wrong. Some who leave for other reasons, such as immorality, or breaking
rules may have, but we didn’t do anything wrong, we just felt it was not God’s
organization, and we didn’t have guilt for leaving it
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The Pablo and Didi, who did not feel guilt, said so without embellishment Eric said no
and added, “At the time 1 left? No guilt.** Miles responded, “when my mother died all
the guilt feelings left When it came to what I did in regards to the organization she was
very influential.”
different stages of exiting, which can contribute to very scattered and disorganized
patterns of thinking.
Parents played a role in how 2 of the respondent felt in the area offailure or
guilt. Treanna externalized the source of anyfailure and she will not own it
No, that’s not a word I would. . . no. My parents think I failed them, but I don’t
agree with that
She comes from a Greek enclave where her father was a Congregational Overseer,
theirs was a model family to the local Jehovah’s Witnesses; her exiting severely
impacted
her relationship with her mother ripping them apart; she was put out of the home; and
her life took a dramatic turn towards survival. In the early stages of exit she feltfear
and guilt.
When I first left I was scared. My family put me out; I had no where to stay. I
had nightmares of Armageddon, and a recurring nightmare of my father rapidly
wasting away before my eyes and blaming me for i t . . . [Fear?] Yeah, I didn’t
know what was going to happen to me. It wasn’t about die religion aspect, it
was more again the family aspect
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Jamie however, at first felt she failed her parents expectations, though her
decision to leave did not threaten an already trouble childhood experience with poor
communication with her parents. Her activity in the Organization was perfunctory, and
although her exit was gradual she still had to deal withfear and guilt regarding her
Though it was positive there was guilt My parents were not pleased. They
would call others to contact me to go to meetings. Then there was fear that bad
things will happen to you. Everything bad comes from the Devil, and all the
good things come from Jehovah. Not that all that good happened to me, but to
blame everything on the Devil didn’t make sense.
Her response to failure is similar to Treanna’s in that their parent’s felt their daughters
had failed them. After being out of the Organization 4 years she has taken an existential
perspective towards what her parents are feeling. Does she have a sense o f failure? In
her words:
No, not really. I felt like I had failed my parents expectations for me, because
you are raised to please your parents, and you don’t want to do things that make
them unhappy. It was enough struggling that I was growing with a child, and I
came to feel that their happiness is not my responsibility. Failure to my parents.
Now, I’m angry about it I have several issues. When growing up at the dinner
table I would what to talk about my day but my parents are not communicating
with me because we sat at the table and ate. . . no talk. I’m too much of a
thinking person and I like to talk about that and my parents never talked.
Earlier Jamie had said that guilt andfear were like a bonding agent that kept one
in the Organization, yet she now implies that she M l guilt about leaving, by prefacing
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Her explanation reveals that she felt guilt by denying her feelings, and acting out a role
When asked aboutfailure Stevie said he dealt with guilt and expressed that his
path lead him to develop a unique relationship with God, as he says, “I felt shame for
quite a while, but not failure. Because I got a sign from God to leave I didn’t feel
No, not for a minute. It wasn’t my decision, God told me to do it, that’s why I did it.
I held off making a commitment about leaving, and then I saw a sign. I didn’t have
to take responsibility for the decision. Not that I found an easy cop-out, I was
shocked, when I got the answer, not like I was making a way out for m e. . . the easy
way.
Carol, on the other hand, is quite explicit on the nature of her guilt.
Absolutely, 100 per cent, yup. Absolutely grinding guilt Guilt about leaving, and
guilt that I made the wrong decision. Even to this day I swear to God, I wonder if
there’s gonna be an Armageddon, and if I’m gonna be killed. There’s still this thing
that’s inside of me that I want to get out
There were feeling from Liz that exiting was a wrong decision.
Liz Yeah, I think so. I have had guilt about leaving, and that I may have made the
wrong decision. . . [in a very low tone] yeah. Intellectually, it’s the right thing to
do, but emotionally it feels like the wrong thing.
Liz is working through first year issues of exiting, and Marlene remembers the early
For the first two years, when I thought it was the truth. . . guilt ’cause of my
children. I left them with their father, and I was afraid to get too close because their
mother was going to die, but no guilt about leaving.
When Marlene left the Organization she went out as someone going off to face death.
In order to spare her children the pain of such a loss she distanced herself from them by
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Wendy felt guilt in the early stages of exiting.
At first when I didn't go to meetings I did. I felt awful, a lot of guilt The decision
to leave led to other decisions, like to educate myself, and learn more to help
someone else. I have guilt now.
After 17 years she still feels guilt about leaving the Organization of Jehovah’s
Witnesses.
and the effects of exiting on their sense o f purpose in life in Question 24; The open-
ended nature of Question 24 gave the respondents a great deal of latitude. How has
your decision to exit Jehovah's Witnesses effected how you feel about yourself[sense o f
worth; selfesteem]? Question 25, Has exiting effected your sense ofpurpose in life,
and Question 27, Did/do you ever have thoughts that being a member wasn’t all that
bad, are intended to collect overall feelings in the experience of being a Jehovah’s
Perceptions of Self-esteem
Racine, Marlene, Robert, and Liz were dealing with low selfesteem in the
present, each using some reference to the past Their responses reflected that one’s self
esteem was denigrated due to not meeting the expectations of the religion, and that
having their sense o f selfcontinually assailed left them with little if any fortitude to go
back to the religion once one exited. It was felt, by one of the respondents, that being
Liz is still in the early stages of exit. She hesitated before responding to the
question, and then focused first on the act of exiting itself, and her feelings of failure.
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“In one way it makes you feel a failure, but in another way it's helped to depart, and I
don’t feel like a hypocrite.” Her assessment of where she is now is, “But, mostly I have
Wendy is further along the continuum of exiting than Jamie, though each has a
firm grasp on their self-esteem. They can both look back on the experience in the
Organization with a healthy sense of their personal development, though they recall
how their self-esteem was assailed by years of being a member. Jamie, who has been
out of the Organization 4 years said she has made progress in building her self-esteem.
Oh, much better, it always bothered me. I think they work hard to strip self-esteem,
no matter what you do, you could go out door-to-door and put in 10 hours, they tell
you, “why not 12? You place 10 magazines, “why not 15?” Put in 30 hours, “why
not 60?” No matter what you do its not good enough. When you listen to that three
times a week it is pretty bad.
I feel now I have more control in my life, that I can use my mind, as if I was made
an intelligent person. I don’t worry about God striking my dead. Exiting it helped
me to get free from that. I had very low self-esteem in and when I came out
exiting is a process that unfolds over time. To shed light on that Didi compared where
self-esteem is now, 24 years later, from where it was in the early stage of exit:
Pablo, in his first year o f‘deciding’ to exit is already beginning to get in touch
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I struggled with a sense of low self-esteem. It took me about 2 weeks to go through
various stage related to anger and bitterness. The low self-esteem was in the past
At this point If I can do this I can do anything.
He is dealing with exiting issues early and with the support of those who have done so
before him, whereas some of the others took years to work through i t Steve, felt his
self-esteem has been affected by exiting in a positive way, “It took me 2 years to get
control of my life to get rid of the shame. Now I have a happy positive outlook, and a
lot of good stuff” And both Eric and Miles see themselves better off and their
For Carol there is a sense of fortitude not previously realized, and there is also a
That I have the strength that I never knew existed. I’m proud that I left I know that
there are women that want to leave, but they are afraid. My sense of worth goes up
and comes down, because I’m so behind; then I have low self-esteem.
Success was bad, careers were frowned upon. Everyone was a janitor, the Witness
men, and the women clean houses. That’s not a career. The Society doesn’t want
you to succeed, they want you to be low, they don’t want you to get wealthy.
Though she admitted to bouts with low self-esteem, she no longer lives with external
restrictions, and is cognizant of where she is and the possibilities to work towards future
goals.
Miranda was also confident about her self-esteem and credits her exit in building
it
Actually, I think it has effected my self-esteem, because I can now give myself to
God, and I have good self-esteem because of that As a Jehovah’s Witness you are
not good enough, and that wears down your self-esteem. Like I was not doing
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enough, and the guilt I had about going door-to-door, and getting sick over it, ‘cause
I was not happy doing i t I felt, what’s wrong with me, why can’t I be happy doing
this?
Miranda feels satisfied with her choice of a spiritual path, one based on her high level of
self-esteem.
Yeah, it has, now my purpose is to please God, not to please man. I have no fear
about what people think about me.
TABLE 9.
Racine, Marlene, Robert, and Liz also disclosed a marked uncertainty about
their purpose in life at the present Marlene reflected on life as a Jehovah’s Witness
being purposely directed to “spread the Kingdom word, and help others survive
Armageddon,” though she admitted that is not her purpose now. She said, “I’m still not
sure what my purpose in life is.” Liz stated that her purpose in life had been effected by
exiting, which also was effect by depression. Racine shows a thematic response adding,
“Now its take a day at a tim e. . . focus on secular not spiritual. . . purpose has changed
drastically. I’ve become the person they warned you about,” and Robert said he now
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opts for a more mysterious view toward life and purpose, where as he used to define his
For Jamie and Wendy of them exiting transformed their purpose in life as well in
a positive way. Jamie voiced her feelings in a confident and pleased manner
Yes, I actually feel my life has meaning now, whereas before a piece of dirt Life is
good.
She is confident about her meaning and purpose, and quite pleased with life. Wendy
also expressed that she has a spiritual path, and a sure place as a person in life:
Yeah. I feel God has a personal plan for me in my life, not like in a crowd of robots,
as an individual.
Purpose o f life issues are at times connected to career goals for respondents such
as Pablo.
It definitely has. I no longer have the purpose of saving the world. My purpose is a
little more realistic, I just want to save everybody I “know.” [laughs] I would like to
go to college and become a counselor. I like working with people; it gives me a
good feeling. I can talk to people, and they tell me that it is easy for them to talk me.
So, I work well with people.
Here again a shift from the preaching activity of the life of a Witness, as Eric did.
It’s made my purpose in life more worthwhile. While you’re in the Watchtower,
your purpose is to gain converts, and to tell them that the end is coming.
Stevie isn’t sure yet about his purpose in life, and cannot equate his life as purpose
Sure, sure. Purpose? Well, Yeah. My purpose used to be to emulate the life of
God. [laughs] How grandiose. I don’t have much of a purpose right now, other than
to be a good husband, father, and interested in my family. Grander purpose? I
don’t have a great purpose, other than personally.
And after 6 years Miles cannot equate his life with any higher sense of purpose either.
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Really, that’s the one respect I have a ways to go. I feel a loss of time, that I’ve
wasted a lot o f time developing a purpose. My home life is ok, my job is ok, I just
haven't come to any conclusion about long-term issues.
Carol still struggles with her purpose in life and how exiting has effected it
Absolutely. I still don’t know, and it’s been 6 years. Then I knew for sure. It was
to live in a paradise earth, serve God, live forever. I don’t know what my purpose is
now.
Both Didi and Miranda have had many years to grapple with purpose. Didi used
Yes, I have a purpose now, whereas I didn’t feel that before. I helped a woman and
her child one time. The mother was a schizophrenic, and an alcoholic, and her little
girl has fetal alcohol syndrome. I became entwined with her case, and we have had
13 foster kids, and I couldn’t have done that if I was a Witness. I wouldn’t be able
to be a nurse. I went to school, got an education and became a registered nurse. I
wouldn’t have known how to not impose my criteria on other people had I not gotten
an education. I wouldn’t have known how to let them be their own person.
Perceptions of Membership
When asked if they ever had thoughts that being a member was not all that bad
Betty, Racine, Jamie, Stacey, Didi and Miles responded no. Betty “never ever thought
of it”; Racine, “honestly never looked back. Regrets are not from leaving the
organization. I felt bad that God didn’t love me, I had nowhere to go, but not for the
people or the organization”; Jamie said, “I really allow myself to think about I have a
child, it was a miserable experience, and think long about what my child’s life would be
like. Didn’t want him to go though that”; Stacey said she would not go back due to the
reinstatement process, which she saw as deliberately humiliating; Miles rejected the
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Did I ever have thoughts of going back? No. Being Active was a full-time
responsibility. I did what I had to do, which was always the minimum, and that was
only after high school Gradually I lost interest; I was never deep with it to begin
with.
No, I felt it was awful, a burden that was too heavy to carry, but if you are feeling
sad what will cure that is knocking on more doors. I couldn’t do that anymore. It’s
the guilt and fear that kept me in it I don’t have that anymore,
For the remainder of the respondents Marlene, Wendy, Robert Carol, Pablo,
Miranda, Treanna, Eric, Liz and Stevie found a modicum of merit in being a member,
and they delineated these. Eric recalled two things that were not bad about being a
Oh yeah. There were some things that were good about it The training was good,
learning how to public speak. My younger brother, at the age of 7, was giving 5
minute talks to over 100 people. The bad thing is that Jehovah is going to kill you if
you question the organization.
Yeah, there were some good parts to it, and there were some protections back there.
Maybe, being a Jehovah’s Witness gave me strong convictions, and I felt I was a
moral person. It wasn’t all bad. I think generally it was an overall negative
package, but there was positive moments.
Yes. When I was in it was easy, and it had a sense of tribal community, support,
friends, people. The other day my life long friend, I miss her so much, called me
and wanted to talk to me. She got out and we talked about that
When I was a child I though, it was perfect I was favored and privileged, that I was
in the one true religion. After I left, I was gonna go back, but I couldn’t keep
smoking, and when I asked for help they wouldn’t study with me, and that was not
good.
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Marlene felt that there were aspects of being a Jehovah’s Witness that tempered her,
which she does not deny is still a part of who she is. The question cause Treanna to be
There were good things about it, though all of it was bad. However, overall there
are some things that are not all that bad. I look at it as a harmless cult, but I don’t
want to be told what to think.
Memories of membership in the Organization are a mixture of good and bad for
7 of the participants. Pablo really set the tone for memories of good things when he
said that good occurred, “Occasionally, but then I was in the Watch Tower, and since
then I have stepped back into reality.” The reality of exiting however, required a
therapeutic approach according to Stevie, and while actively engaged in his own healing
Sure, been through recovery. We go over and over all that I went through lots of
thoughts about it, but I didn’t want to go back. It wasn’t all bad, and it wasn’t all
wrong. I have gone around and around with it But when I was a Witness it was shit
From the day I got baptized I had doubts, and in spite of my best efforts to repress
them, they grew and grew until I left
Robert intellectualized both the good and the bad aspects of being a member for him.
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Miranda, eldest of the participants, remember pleasant experiences as a
Jehovah's Witness, the things she got to do and the places she got to see.
Oh yeah. I didn’t mind being a Jehovah’s Witness. I got to do things and go places
I’m sure I would have never done because of being a Witness. We liked the friends,
and the travel, I got to see New York City twice, and Conventions in other cities I
would have never gone to either had it not been for that Being one I never had
resentment We saw cities we never would have seen. I don’t regret being a
Jehovah’s Witness, but when things started happening, when we had doubts, within
one year we were out And I thought that they used harsh language towards those
who disagreed with the Watchtower, calling them apostates; dogs returning to their
vomit; swine wallowing in mud; spiritual adulterers. That was sort o f the beginning
of the end for me. There was even talk of certain brothers in Bethel that were
studying the Bible only. One Witness told me about that and said, “Imagine, they
are studying the Bible without the Watchtower,” and she was truly shocked. That
made it sound that studying the Bible without die Watchtower was something dirty.
There were good things about it, though all of it was bad. However, overall there
are some things that are not all that bad. I look at it as a harmless cult, but I don’t
want to be told what to think.
Social Isolation
All of the respondents voiced much about the social factors of being a Jehovah’s
Witness throughout the study. There were issues of social impact as a child growing-up
applied to social engagement as adults as well. Jehovah’s Witnesses as a group are not
socially deprived at all, rather they are socially restricted to only associate with their
own kind. One’s religious community is also a social support system. Questions 20.
Did/do you feel isolatedfrom the world? and 22. Since leaving the organization can
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you freely socialize with others in the community? explored the possible effect of social
isolation as a member or once the dependence upon the Organization had been
terminated through exiting. The responses that follow impart the impact of isolation.
Two of the respondents answered no to the question, Betty and Racine; they
each qualify their responses with finding a substitute support or social system. Betty
kept in touch with certain family members, and she also developed a new social system.
She said:
No. A small part of the family that did not become Witnesses they acted as a support
system, a cushion. They kept me informed about what was going on with them and
such. I also made friends that were not Jehovah’s Witnesses, so to them it didn’t
matter.
Betty felt that she can freely socialize with people from the community at large.
alternative social system among a sub-culture of non-Witness members. Did she feel
No, I felt part of it I was out all the time. I became involved in everything I was
told not to d o . . . Christmas, fornication, drunk, and drugs. I smoked marijuana. I
did things based on my own decisions.
Since she has been out of the Organization she said, “Yes. I have no guilt not at all. A
sense of freedom.”
One of the respondents, Pablo, did not consider himself isolated, but rather in a
Right now, I feel a sense of Limbo; not with the Watch Tower Society, but not away
completely either. If I do leave I will completely cut my self off. I see people,
Witnesses, who are tired of all they must do. Their best response to, “how are you
doing?” is, “hanging in there.” My family, my parents or others, may need my help,
and I must be able to talk to them. I can’t do that if I totally leave, exit I feel a
responsibility to be available to them, so that I might be able to help them.
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Now Pablo feels, “I can have my neighbors, or a workmate over to my house without
feeling guilty. As a Witness, that’s not acceptable. I can associate without feeling bad
Carol recalled the time she was at a similar stage of exiting as Pablo, yet her
Oh god yes. I wasn’t in the Witnesses, but not in the world. Lost all my friends,
absolutely no support at all. Not one Witness called to see me when my husband
left, not one called to see how I was.
She was asked whether now she can freely socialize with others in the community?
Yes, absolutely, and I’ve learned to be non-judgmental, and associate with Catholic
friends, talk to homeless people, black, white or others. I’ve learned and am
learning to be non-judgmental even.
The remaining responses are varying degrees of affirmative agreement that one
Marlene maintained a sort of separateness from others she would meet in the
I felt isolated from the world. When you’re raised in the Society you don’t leam
good social skills. . . how to make friends, except in the Congregation. There’s no
one to talk to about doubts. When I first left I kept my Jehovah's Witness past a
secret. I wouldn’t tell anyone at all. I finally made 2 friends that I could talk to
about it, they weren’t Witnesses, I told them. I avoided groups of people, and I was
labeled aloof, but I was afraid to talk. And as a woman I remembered how I was
treated in the Congregation. If you talked from the platform you couldn’t talk
straight to at the Congregation, you had to be turned talking to another person on
stage with you. It felt that you had nothing to say, even today.
Marlene, responded to being able to freely socialize, when she said, “Absolutely. I
never felt free to be myself. I wasn’t able to give my point of view, and it was difficult,
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Poor social skills and limited personal contact with others are repeated in the
responses to the theme o f social isolation; it was the same with Wendy when she exited.
She said, “Absolutely, absolutely. Could not relate to anybody else.” Yet, after being
out for 17 years she feels she canfreely socialize with others in the community
Now I do, yet I wouldn’t when I was exiting. I didn’t, couldn’t just go to another
church, because they are all of the Devil. No friends, and its hard for me to be close
to people. Felt they will betray me. And trust, I still have a hard time giving trust
Jamie disclosed some of the behaviors of Jehovah’s Witnesses that indicate lack
Yes, definitely, because, although I maintained friends, that social structure was
gone. At first, there’s no one coming to see you, now what? They live in such an
isolated world. They even work in an isolated world. To Witnesses one of the most
popular occupations they do is office cleaning, and why, ‘cause they go there at
night when the place is closed. It’s easier to not have to deal with die world when
there’s no one around, no conflicts, no confrontations, no time to invest in making
friends. Takes time to build friends and associations. . .
Yes, took a little while to learn how, but now its normal and nature to socialize after
this many years, but I had to leam how, it’s definitely not a skill that is taught
Two respondents had thematic responses to both questions. Treanna said, “Yes;
I had no friends,” to isolation, and Miles’ response is the same, “I would say so, yes.
There was a time, after disassociating myself, I could count my friends on two fingers.
It was a hard start to get on my own.” Their answers also equate that over the years
they have been able to reconstruct a social system of friends, and that at present
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Some of the respondents considered isolation from the memoiy of being a
member. Didi, Stacey, Miranda and Eric recalled feeling isolated as Jehovah’s
Witnesses
Didi: Absolutely. Not only isolated, but trained to be fearful of everyone out m the
world, and you are put in a place where there is no where to go. You are not
allowed to read anything critical to their views.
Stacey: Very, and they mean you to be that way, for that means you have God’s
approval. When it comes to isolation, and its done for a reason. When a cult has
control over people then they have them where they want them. When a cult has
members isolated the cult then has control, and they tell them that they are approved
by God, because the other religions of the world are condemned by Him.
Miranda: As a Jehovah’s Witness, yes. I felt. . . because they teach you should not
have any part of the world-no friends, no school mates or neighbors as friends, and
we did not associate socially with anyone.
Eric: Yeah, as far as school activities. I didn’t feel totally isolated, and during
holidays or social events I would some times stay home, just to avoid the
embarrassment. . .
Eric felt that today, 11 years after exiting, he has no problem socializing with others in
the community. However, Stevie exclaimed, “Oh man, isolated? God, my whole life
has been isolated, yeah,” and he still feels its an issue, as does Stacey when asked if she
No. I mentioned this is a small area, and once a Jehovah’s Witness always a
Jehovah’s Witness. There are three churches, and if you come and join a church
then you are accepted. I got a lot of things in my head I would probably argue
about, but I don’t need that in my life right now. I don’t need the approval any
more.
On the other hand, for Didi the local community has proved to be a support system she
Yes. If it wasn’t for my neighbors I don't know what I would have done. They
became a support system to me. I’ve had them in my home. We’ve shared years of
growing together. I know their children and they have known mine. They have
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helped me, and I them, go through years of development with each other's families.
You can’t really survive without that I didn’t share my Witness experience with all
of them, never felt the need to. There are two that I have though, and they have been
very supportive of me, and my family; they are completely without judgment I
think that says a lot
Miranda responded with a humorous twist when asked about socializing freely
All except Jehovah’s Witnesses [laughs]. No, I will even socialize with them really,
but it would only be because they do not know we were Witnesses. It’s been so long
new ones don’t know us, but soon enough they find out, from others who we are; we
were considered notorious.
Robert is seriously troubled with physical and mental health conditions that he
feels isolate him for reasons other than being a former member of Jehovah’s Witnesses.
Dissociative disorder interferes with that.” He also does not feel adaptable to
community socializing and said, “I still sort of believe what they asked me to believe,
so I couldn’t just walk into another church, Buddhist temple, synagogue, for quite some
Of all the respondents Liz had the least to say, and she did so in a low tone
without emotion. As to isolation, she said “Yes, Totally,” and if she could socialize in
32. How has exiting affected your sleep patterns? 33. Did you experience any loss o f
how to carry out simple tasks [personal hygiene, grooming]? 34. Did/do you have
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difficulty managing your time? 35. Has exiting affected your diet? and 29. h it easy to
make decisions?
The area of ADLs most severely impacted among the respondents is that of
sleep patterns. The sample yielded 12 o f the 16 having some sort of sleep pattern
experience of being a Jehovah’s Witness. Racine’s daily structure and mode of living,
Yes. Since I first left, my schedule changed, my life style changed. Not having all
the meetings. I don’t sleep w ell. . . 4 to 6 hours, and I used to get less. I was out
partying all night coming in at 5 AM, then getting up for work at 7.
It did in the beginning, but not anymore. I had a really bad time sleeping. Partly
because you are taught to be hyper alert, always scanning the horizon for danger.
Satan is controlling every thing. Everyone that is not a Witness is under Satan’s
control. . . everything. You have to be cautious.
This sense of hyper vigilance may lie behind Pablo’s sleep pattern disturbance, though
he did not elaborate when he said, “At night my mind thinks so quick that I can’t fall
right asleep, its delayed.” Delayed sleep was reported by Jamie, though she connects it
to other psychosocial stressors in her life. She said, UI think that leaving my bad
marriage had more to do with it than leaving the religion. I went through insomnia,
Yes, I slept more and with nightmares that were very unpleasant That happened for
years afterward, hi fact I just recently had a Jehovah’s Witness dream. . . a couple
of months ago.
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Carol also has unpleasant dreams as recalls, “Yes, I have nightmares, always. I don’t
sleep deep at all, and my mind goes over the past all die time in my dreams.”
Witness I was a near alcoholic, and that effected my sleep.” Wendy has a similar
recollection, and replied, “I could never sleep; sleeplessness, and fear is why I drank. I
was tormented.”
Treanna did not mention anywhere else in the interview any diagnosis of
depression, and the first indication she gives of depression is in response to sleep
pattern disturbance.
The first six months I was very depressed, and spent entire days, two at a time, in
bed. And the nightmares, which I still have occasionally.
The others who reported sleep pattern disturbance were; Betty, who found it
hard to sleep; Liz, who slept more; and Robert who attributed the disturbance to “sleep
paralysis.”
The area of decision making ability had 10 respondents that answered that they
could not make decisions easily. Some of the respondents did not readily answer this
question, and needed to be led by the researcher with probing questions; can you,
without hesitation, do not know what to do. Marlene did not answer until the last
Yes, it's very hard for me to make decisions. The hardest part was making a
decision about having a career, ’cause I have this fear of failure. If there’s any
chance of failure, I won’t do it. Spend a lot of time weighing both sides, too much
time weighing and not enough time doing. I grew through the failures. I would
eventually try something and fail. At first I thought it was because I am a woman.
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Women are treated like that. . . don’t make decisions. . . that’s your husband’s
jo b . . . he’s the head. . . he knows what is best I don’t believe that now, but I still
have a problem with decisions. . . its still with me.
No. Isn’t that a gender thing? [laughs] I mean aren’t women like that? I’m a terrible
decision-maker, cause I always wonder if I’m doing the right thing, because of guilt
. . . guilty conscious. I worry what other people think of me, I worry. I want to be
liked and be happy.
Jamie however, felt to the contrary, though she said she could not make small decisions.
[pause] for major things, yes, small decisions, like where to go for dinner no. But
big things, I can do that. . . to move, 60 miles away. . . got out of a really bad
marriage. Or the decision of going back to school. I raise a 4 year old.
Carol answered the question by using her decision to do the interview for this
study as an example. She was interviewed by phone, and faced a moment of indecision
as the time for her interview drew close. When asked about decision making she replied
to the interviewer:
No, very hard. I didn’t know if I would do this interview, and today I thought, as it
came time for you to call, I’d go out and purposely miss this phone call. You don’t
make decisions in the Society, you are told what to do and when to do it
hesitated, or could not give a direct answer to the question, such as Miles, Stacey, and
Stevie.
Miles: [pause]. . . urn. . . I think. . . pretty much. Yes, I don’t think it’s a major
problem.
Stacey: Mmm, based on what you’ve been taught, depends on your conscience. That
would make your decision making based on what I feel is pleasing to God.
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And those who could answer admitted they had difficulty completing tasks, or
procrastinated past important deadlines, as Robert did when it came to decision making
No, I don’t do that well. A lot of hesitation. Like I’d be out of a job, or about to be
out of work, and I would think to start looking but it would take me days, weeks,
just to start looking, and then I would be out of a job. . .
No. I consider myself very indecisive. A lot of research goes behind me coming to a
decision, and anything I d o. . .
. . . and Liz, who said, “It’s not easy. . . yeah, like. . . n o . . . I can’t I still feel kind of a
drift”
Marlene, Wendy and Liz said that distraction was an issue. Marlene added:
Very distracted. Start things, and then put them off. It was more procrastination, but
it wasn’t just after I left. I did that before, during and after I left I’m still not any
good with managing my time.
Yes. I’m always distracted, and I loose sense of what time and day it is, and I’m
very forgetful.
Yes, very much. I easily distracted, very much, and I have a problem with the time
of day. I forget things a whole lot
For Stevie it is an issue of structure missing from his day, which has added new
Well, yes. I measured time by my schedule at the Kingdom Hall. Now that the
structure is gone organizing time is another matter. Now I take time to do things,
more family things, and more of it
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Treanna dismissed the question owning that it has always been difficult and not related
to exiting. Robert said that he needed supervision of sorts, “left to myself I while away
the time. I need someone to set it for me. I tend to free float,” while Carol is “learning
time management, and Miranda considers that the issue is just being “a very busy
person.”
The remaining questions in this cluster exploring loss o f how to carry out simple
tasks, and exiting affectedyour diet, Marlene and Stacey remarked about depression.
Yes, in the very bad part of the depression. Then I couldn’t perform on the job,
couldn’t handle my duties. I had to go on full disability then. After that I went on
part disability, and then began to be able to work. I had to live.
Marlene said that during her depression she, “Lost my appetite at first, and still
periodically” and that while she was, “coming out of the depression I gradually began to
Stacey sought professional help and says she overcame the condition of
depression. She said, “I went through a depression, but counseling helped that It went
away,” though she did not have an issue regarding her diet not eating more, not eating
less.
When Wendy was ask if she had any loss o f how to carry out simple tasks, there
was a long pause after the question and she simply said, “I don’t know.” Robert, Carol
and Liz each replied with specific disturbance in this area. Robert said that he, “. . .
didn’t shower for a long time. I didn’t like the feel of water on my skin. That lasted 2 or
3 years.” Carol said, “Yes, dressing, and I didn’t want to get out of bed. I couldn’t read,
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I was afraid to read,” and Liz could not respond until the third probing question, don’t
Yes, not to a pronounced degree. I have a lot of confusion. It takes a lot of time to
get things done. I feel very confused. It might have something to do with my age. . .
more than that. . . I don’t know.
Racine about her weight loss. “Yes. Could be the change in life-style; I didn’t eat
much, and it kind of snow-balled. I lost 72 pounds.” Jamie also lost weight though she
said it was not a result of exiting; asked if it affected her diet she said, “No. Leaving the
marriage. I’ve lost 35 pounds. Nothing changed with leaving the religion.” Carol said
she lost weight, but not due to exiting either. She said:
No. Witnesses are great eaters, they always have get-togethers and feature food as
the come-on. And coffee, and pastries, always something to eat. Now I’m alone
more, so I don’t eat as much as I used to. I lost 10 pounds, though I will say I feel
more fit.
While Liz felt, “I’m not as interested in foods as I used to be, which is unusual for me.
Nothing tastes good for me. It’s not the same.” And Stevie responded, “My digestive
system was totally screwed from the time I was 17 until last year. How much to eat,
Two responses that represent exiting as not effecting their diet are Didi and
It didn’t at all. When I made the conscious decision to exit myself, when I was
journaling, I used the journal to imagine life and goals short term, and long term
goals. Everything I could imagine, and everyone of the things I wrote, had been
done, it came to be. I put it in my subconscious and my subconscious put it there.
When I found some of my journals and read them again I had an empowering
experience.
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This is related to her decision making ability.
Now, it’s incredibly easy, because I know that your thoughts are your own reality.
You can create a wonderful experience for yourself, and if you don’t like your
reality, then my way of looking at is, look closer and you will be able to change it
Miles however, responded that exiting has not affected his diet, though he is aware of
No, although I still don’t take care of my diabetes like I should. Maybe it’s a
subconscious thing, like I’m really not aware of what’s going on with my diet. I’m
not concerned with the quality of my life in the long term.
Pablo did not answer the question directly, yet he offered an insight about his
gaining weight when he said, UI have gained 25 pounds in the last year. I think that’s
something I should look into.” On the other hand, Treanna answered directly, uIt did. I
Four of the questions in the interview deal with the use of drugs; Question 36.
asked Did/do you use prescription drugs? Question 37. Did/do you ever use illegal
substances? 38. Have you ever been hospitalizedfor substance abuse treatment?; and
39. ask I f so, how many times? Five respondents did not use prescription drugs, and 8
Wendy; she was hospitalized for 2 weeks, as she said, for “depression and substance
abuse.” She did not use prescription drugs, yet said that she used illegal substances to
“self-medicate.” Two respondents, Didi and Treanna, did not use prescription dugs or
illegal substances.
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Betty, Robert, Stacey, Jamie, Pablo, and Miranda only used prescription drugs
when directed as a physician for illness, and did not use illegal substances. Stacey,
Racine did not use prescription drugs, though she would not elaborate on
exactly what sort of illegal substances she did use. Racine said:
At first I did. But it didn’t continue as the pattern. When I got out I had to try every
that I couldn’t do when I was in. Then it just hit me that wasn’t going any where
and I stopped.
Eric replied as an adult, here and now, he did not use drugs; the first part of his
response was given without hesitation, and he projected that he was rather proud about
the fact that he did not use drugs. He did however, add an addendum:
Back when I was 191smoked marijuana, and did that for about 3 years. Then I quit
It was more o f an occasional thing, and not a problem to stop.
Marlene and Carol both used prescription drugs; Marlene for depression, and
Carol for anxiety. They each also used illegal substances. Marlene said:
I did a lot of things out of curiosity, because it was all forbidden to do. I even
smoked crack once. I did stuff until it felt like I was really do harm to myself, so I
stopped that. Don’t do it anymore.
And Carol replied, “Before I was a Witness I smoked pot sniffed glue, gasoline.”
Miles said that he used prescription drugs only briefly. He replied, “I was on
Prozac, but I didn’t like the effect it had on my sleep patterns.” Miles also stated that he
used an illegal substance, and in his own words, “I only experimented with marijuana 3
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times several years ago. I don’t do that anymore.” Miles was not hospitalizedfo r
substance abuse.
Stevie and Liz both used prescription drugs. Stevie said he took an anti-
For high blood pressure. Just recently my doctor gave me some Prozac samples to
try. That was about the time I got some antibiotics for my grandson. I got confused
once and took one of his antibiotics thinking it was a Prozac, and I actually felt
pretty good. Then I discovered what I had done, and thought that it might have been
a placebo effect that made me feel better. Thankfully, I didn’t give my grandson any
Prozac, [laughs] That wouldn’t have been funny.
They both also stated that they had used a illegal substance. In response to this
question Stevie remarked, “I recently used an illegal substance, but never did as a
Witness.” Liz, on the other hand replied about her drug use.
I tried marijuana a few times. . . yup. I liked it too. I didn’t take it very much
’cause I felt guilty. I think it was because of the religion. I stopped. Sometimes I
think that was a big mistake; giving it up. I really liked it
was addressed in Question 18. Did/do you everfeel that you were going insane? and 28.
Did/do you feel connected to reality? Twelve of the responses disclosed that they felt
they were going insane, and 4 did not. Betty and Jamie did not feel that their sanity was
in question; for them the issue was depression. Betty explain it this way.
There was deep depression, not a feeling of going insane. The depression lasted ’til a
few years ago, because I didn’t have my family. It’s almost as if they are dead. So, I
felt bad about it, but not like I was insane or losing my mind.
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Both Betty and Jamie feel very much connected to reality, and Jamie said, T o r the first
time in my life.”
Pablo got in touch with his sanity through research about what was happening to
himself physically.
I didn’t feel I was going insane. I knew it was a difficult time, and I had to start
dealing with this stuff. I did some research, and knew I’m getting panic attacks,
which is my body’s way of dealing with stress.
And Pablo indicated in his responses that his connection with reality is strong now.
“Right now I do. I have a fairly healthy connection to reality. There’s a lot more
unknowns out there. . . a lot for me to balance a view point on, definitely.”
Racine expressed her feelings to the question after a long thoughtful pause, “a
loss of control. Not like I was mentally ill. I didn’t know what to do not having any
direction.” She still is not connected to reality as she says, “No, ’cause I didn’t know
what reality is. It was always black & white, I don’t have that anymore.”
Both Miranda and Treanna answered “no,” they did not doubt their sanity, yet
their connection to reality was not so sure. Treanna’s world was dreamlike and distant
She said, “No. I was in a dream world. I slept most of the first six months, cause I was
At one time I felt that I was the only person that was disagreeing with the
Watchtower, and was wondering, “why do I feel like this?” Then my brother-in-law
introduced us to about 30 people who were doing the same thing. Until then I was
pretty disconnected from others, and reality, and that I wasn’t the only one that had
the feeling I disagreed.
Wendy responded with humor and light nervous laughter to the question, Did/do
[laughs] No, I thought I had already arrived there. I was hospitalized for a few
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weeks. I did time. [laughs]
Wendy also had serious behavioral problems, and the quality of her life.
No, I lived a destructive lifestyle; I was destructive and promiscuous. I didn’t care
about my life.
Marlene however, was not so humorous when she replied, “Oh yes, many times
. . . that the crying wouldn’t stop. And, leaving my children was a very emotionally
upsetting experience.” She did not necessarily loose connection with reality, Marlene
Not during the depression. What I felt was more like confusion. I was confused.
Things weren’t unreal, they were very real, and what I felt was confusion. That was
about the only thing I was connected too. That was my reality.
which he related in his answer to Question 12. Did/do you experience any sense o f loss?
His response to the question Did/do you everfeel that you were going insane? is very
poignant.
Yeah, it was a direct result of the experience, but when a person feels they are face-
to-face with the god-head, nothing is organized in thoughts, and that causes a person
to see what’s not obvious or seen by everyone else. Then you can never be sure of
anything. It was like that for me, but those are only words to describe it, you have to
know to understand.
Robert stated that his problems began some time before his actual exit though, when he
Not when I exited. Before that I had night flying hallucinations, and tactile
hallucinations. It hit me due to what I researched and questioned, and before I left
they abandon me. They swore they had the truth, and you had to surrender all to it,
couldn’t hold onto anything of yourself, and to leave was a violation.
Carol felt internal conflict that caused her to doubt her own sanity, though her
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Oh, yes, absolutely, U’s like there were two people inside of me, one wanted to get
out into the world, and the other was so scared. Like 2 people inside of me. My
counselor helped me to see it was because of all those years sticking to a religion’s
teachings. I had that counselor 4 years. . . No, all mixed-up, like I was in a dream
world or a fog. My job helped me to gain equilibrium first, and conviction second,
and comaradie [sic] at work, because being “in” is a dream world. So, it was like I
kept telling myself, “when are you gonna wake-up?”
Stacey agreed with the question and then pivoted her answer onto her feelings
Yup. Still feel that way [laughter]. It was more depression, not knowing where to
turn. You don’t have any friends, you don’t know where to turn for friends. When
you are that narrow-minded, and that the Test of the world is wicked, where do you
turn? I’ve been so trained to be as good as I can be, and you just don’t find friends.
At that time her perception of the world shifted, and she lost her connection with reality,
as she says
No, absolutely not, because you’re not living in a real world. Every event that
happens around you is taught as part of what the Bible says. . . wars, and other
events. Reality was secondary to spirituality.
Didi, who had become a registered nurse, recollected her initial exit and her
Yes, in the initial five-year period. I started to journal, and I filled books up with my
thoughts. Then it became anger.
Her perception of the world is thematic with Stacey’s. Did shefeel connected to
reality?
Did I? No, I was free floating for a while. I understood that the world was a specific
way, and it wasn’t that way at all. The difference is that the reality I was taught, and
what I was seeing. It took me a long time to be comfortable with people, and there
not always hidden agendas. It took me a long time to . . . to just be able to accept
people without fear.
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During the interview with Miles he gradually disclosed his personal history. At
this juncture he gave details related to a bout with mood disorder that led to his
The dysthymia was explained to me as more of a manic depression, and then the
depression would persist. I didn’t go on meds, but was hospitalized for 5 weeks. At
one point I heard that the therapist called my father about something, I can’t
remember what, and the stress of going back to his house made my condition worse.
I really needed the time to decide to be on my own, which is why I stayed so long.
For Miles the experience in the hospital was actually more of a connection to reality
than life with his Jehovah’s Witness father, and the hospital visit led to regaining his
sanity
When asked about going insane Eric did not limit the feeling to exiting; for him
Yeah. I would say just before I was baptized. The situation had to do with the
conflicts with my ex-wife, a non-Witness. She did not like what I was doing at all.
She didn’t like me taking our children to the meetings, and they were mere babies at
the time. She didn’t like that It was a tough decision to get baptized, because it
could be the end of the marriage.
His response to being connected to reality is unique in that he regained that upon
exiting, though he reports his dilemma is not entirely resolve at the time of his answer
Yeah, I felt that things got more real when I left But the more I do research, the
more unreal things seem.
During the interview Liz related that caring for her 90 year old grandmother
became her primary responsibility when her family, who are all Jehovah’s Witnesses,
refused to remove her from a negligent residential skilled nursing facility. It was during
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Yeah, very m uch.. .yes I did. I did and I do. It’s connected with my religion,
particularly around the time o f my Grandmother’s turmoil. It was like I was talking
to people with blank stares. One time the family went off to an Assembly, and left
her at home alone. I asked them is it right to leave her at home unattended, and the
response was, “the love of Jehovah comes first” It is enough to drive you insane
that I was labeled a “nut-case” for trying to care for my Grandmother.
Feeling connected to reality was not an easy thing to do, she said, “No, not at all. It was
very unreal.”
Stevie went through periods of anxiety, and felt that over the years as a member
Yeah, a couple of times. When I was with the Witnesses during the panic attacks. I
would get to a meeting and would sit there for the first 20 minutes with my heart
racing, and then I would be exhausted for the rest of the meeting falling asleep. That
went on for about a year. That was 7 years ago. I couldn’t even go out of the house.
Then I gathered myself together by preaching on the Internet. Then I went back to
meetings, after about a year. The second time I went wacko was in 1993. I moved a
lot, because I never fit in wherever I went The Witnesses didn’t accept me. I was
considered a rebel. By 19971had been to 12 different Congregations, and I still
found the same thing, and gave-up I wouldn’t find a place to be. I took long walks
at night, and wandered in total and utter despair, and hopelessness and giving-up.
The probing phrases, disoriented, spaced-out, feeling out o f it were used to help Stevie
I suspected it Ever since a woman at the door told me, “You’re brainwashed!” But
it’s one of the thoughts I didn’t let my mind ponder. At the time it wasn’t
conceivable that she might be right
Danger to Self
Thoughts of causing harm to one’s self or committing suicide are not pleasant to
the functional individual. In asking Questions 16. Did/do you ever have thoughts o f
harming yourself? and 17. Did/do you ever have thoughts o f taking your life? the intent
was to explore the potential psychological disturbance to this study population that
might lead to suicide ideation, grave injury to self, or suicide attempts, hereafter
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referred to as danger to self(DTS). Questions 19. Have you ever been confused about
what is right and wrong? and 42. Have you everfe lt confident in your ability to go on
with life? are alstr^resented here to compare and contrast any similarities between die
study sample.
Ten had thoughts o f harming themselves, and of them 1 practiced cutting. Nine
expressed suicide ideation. There was I suicide attempt, and 12 had been confused
about what is right and wrong. At the time of this study all 16 participantsfe lt
Betty, Racine, Jamie, Stacey, Miranda, and Eric, did not present themselves as
Betty was “never” confused about what is right and wrong, and Jamie said, “No.
I always had a very strong sense of right and wrong.” Didi also did not have a problem
No, yet I think it’s ethically wrong to not live a full life. I have felt I wanted to have
an intellectual life, and even as a child, I felt there was so much lacking, but I don’t
know if it was because of my age at the time, or if it is a result of the organization.
Racine’s reply affirmed that she was confused about what is right and wrong.
Yes. Because what I was told what is wrong to do, is not what I think is wrong to
do. I was told that things are wrong and bad, and I don’t think that is the truth. Not
like murder or committing a crime. And adultery was the ultimate sin. Yet, I feel
God can overlook that If two people can work through their problem and forgive
each other it’s between them and God. We were taught it was unforgivable. I don’t
believe that
Stacey, echoed the same theme in her reply, “Oh, yes, many times. . . many.” And so
The only thing that I was confused about, right and wrong, were the things that the
Watchtower were telling us were right and wrong. As a Jehovah’s Witness I was
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confused over the issues about the Flag, holidays, blood, smoking, things they said
were wrong. To do those things they disfellowship you; you are then one who is
considered disfellowshipped from God. Because we did not agree with them they
believe we are condemned.
Eric agrees with nervous laughter, as he intellectualizes the impetus for his logic.
Oh yeah, even today [laughs]. I feel that the Bible we have today has been changed.
The best thing to do, to know right or wrong, is to look at all sides of an issue. I still
strive to understand that But the organization teaches that what they say is right
and you are not allowed to challenge that
Treanna did not have suicide ideation, yet she did cany out acts of violence
upon herself, thus she manifested DTS. She explains, “Only before I left, not after. I
had one more incident of cutting within the first month of when I left”
The act of cutting is a practice of using any sharp object (e.g., razor blades,
kitchen or hunting knives, broken glass, etc.) to break the skin deep enough to cause
pain and bleeding, often leaving scars for life. Treanna elaborated on this in answer to
Question 8. What was that experience likefor you? meaning, the experience of being an
Both good and bad. I felt I lived two different lives. When I was at the meetings,
with the brothers and sisters, I enjoyed it But my other life, m school, was hard. I
struggled to have any life outside the organization. My parents wouldn’t let me have
a life outside, and they worried if I came home late from school, I had to rush right
home after school. I felt tom, and it got more confusing as I got older, and I got into
a bad habit of cutting myself. I cut myself to see the pain, the source of i t It was a
release from feeling pain I could not see.
Though she said that she only practiced cutting before she left the Organization, she
continued to be con/used about what is right and wrong after her exit and replied,
“Sure, yes. The whole first two years after leaving I was confused about what is right
or wrong.”
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However, she has progress to be able to feel confident in [her] ability to go on
with life, get beyond the experience, make new and healthier choices in her words:
Absolutely. I can get beyond the experience, every day it gets better. And I can
make new and healthier choices, I am so enjoying this growing process: I’m
fascinated.
Although Racine did not present herself as a DTS she responded to the question
Did/do you ever have thoughts o f harming yourself? with the turmoil she was in, and
I didn’t get to that extreme, but I did suffer with depression. Not on meds or
anything, I just knew. I cried for no reason, for letting people down, because you’re
searching, but I could never go back. It was an emotional roller coaster. If you were
acting less than perfect you would be judged by the Congregation, God, the Society.
It were more as a Jehovah’s Witness, when I was 15, because I couldn’t meet the
standards.
She recalled an incident when she was conflicted over an experience as a Jehovah’s
No. When I was 12,1took too many asthma pills, I have asthma. I was so
unhappy, and I thought if I took the pills I wouldn’t feel the pain. That was the same
year I was put on “Public Reproof.”
Racine did feel confident with her ability to go on with life, get beyond the experience,
make new and healthier choices and responded softly, “Yes. You don’t get beyond the
Ten others replied that they struggled with danger to se lf issues. From thoughts
o f harming yourselfto thoughts o f taking your life, each indicated the depths their
experience had taken them. Earlier in this chapter Wendy spoke of her brother’s suicide
when she was 14 years old, what a great loss that was to her, and how she felt he would
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not have died if he was not a Jehovah’s Witness. She reported that she did have
thoughts o f harming herself that she had such thoughts between 1976 and 1984, and
Yes, and I did try. It was about the worst around 1976-1984. I slit my wrist, my left
wrist And I did drugs and alcohol, whatever I could find.
I actually tried to take my life. My attitude was that my life didn’t have any value,
and I didn’t fear death, until I discovered that Jehovah’s Witnesses are wrong. I
think a very dominant cause of suicides is there is no hell; they teach that death is a
deep sleep, not to be feared.
And issues about right and wrong, and even a question about it confused her.
Oh man, really deep question. Yeah. I think so when I was in, total confusion. Yes,
when with them they tell you what is right and wrong; when you are on your own
you only think about when or if you could get caught doing it, or not escape getting
caught.
She feels confident with her ability to go on with life now, though not at the time of her
exit.
baptized; lived in fear of disobeying the Governing Body of Jehovah’s Witnesses, and if
I had two bouts with thoughts of suicide. The first time was at the age of 12, the
second time at IS. After the second time I started to think more for myself, that
what I was wasn’t what they wanted. . . The closest I ever got was the second time
at IS. At school we would get breaks, and I would walk of the school grounds to a
road that had a bridge. I looked over the edge and imagined myself falling. I don’t
have thoughts like that anymore. In 19941was diagnosed with dysthymia.
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When asked about right a id wrong Miles’ response came from a place o f confusion, he
said, “I don't think so. I’m not sure.” He rates his confidence to go on with life high,
though he is not sure if he can get beyond the experience, make new and healthier
choices.
I’d say, not 100 per cent, but pretty close to it than not But, to get beyond the
experience, put it behind me, I’m not sure. In the past year I've come a lot further.
Carol replied with a number of issues that were connected to her thoughts o f
taking [her] life, and she weaves a thread connecting thoughts of suicide to a long
Oh, absolutely, yes. Why bother living, I wasted all those years, I don't have
anything to live for, I don’t have any friends. A huh. After my daughter was bom I
wanted to get out, I didn’t want it any more. And I tried, went to a, went to a
counselor. I tried, but I stayed in, it was easier to stay in. That was during the first
child was 8 years. I would have had to have been strong. By the time they were
teenagers I got to think, “what’s the big deal? My son wants to play football.” He’s
always with a football, so I let him play. I got sick of the gossip, and in my heart I
knew I was done, but I still wasn’t ready to make the cut.
Such confusion is also connected to what Carol perceives about right and wrong; it is
Yes, absolutely. In feet, to this day I am trying to figure it all out, trying to create
“me,” trying to create me. I feel like a toddler, and that I’m creating “me,” when
before I thought about only being a wife and a mother, and I’m way behind the 8-
ball at 41 ...w asted.
On a more positive note, she is gaining confidence and strength to go on with life, as she
says:
Yes. I wouldn’t be here going to the University. If I could do that, leave the
organization, then I can do anything.
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Marlene’s depression brought on thoughts o f harming herselfand thoughts o f
Oh yes, during the depression. That lasted *til about the middle of the 3 years, and
then I started to get better.
Yes I did. Actually, that occurred more in the beginning of therapy, when I first
started questioning the validity of the organization. My therapist felt it had to do
with my upbringing.
And there is confidence in her voice when she says, “Yes. I’ve made a lot of progress.”
Robert had similar thoughts when Witnesses stopped talking to him at the time
of his exit, and thoughts o f taking his life for 10 years thereafter.
Yes, I did for some time. When they refused to talk to me. After I quit they would
shun me. I would see them in town and they would look straight at me and turn their
backs. Some would say “hi,” but never with a smile.
Yeah, for the last 10 years, it’s usually not over Jehovah’s Witnesses, over family.
What triggers it is I’m not sure who is my father. I was quite messed-up before I got
into Jehovah’s Witnesses; they just didn’t help, made it so things wore on me. Now
I’m in treatment with a psychiatrist, psychologist and a counselor. I don’t want to
take my life now, and the subject is part of therapy.
He said that his confusion with right and wrong is more about the power of knowing,
rather than the power of his feelings, and in that sense he agrees.
In an intellectual sense, yeah. I feel like an observer in the world, like I’m standing
by a conveyor belt as everything goes by. I don’t want to harm anything or anyone,
but the society at large does not have that sort of scruples. I feel fairly confident
now and can get beyond the experience and make new and healthier choices.
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Didi answered with a, “Yup!” when asked if she had thoughts o f harming herself
Yes. I don’t have those thoughts at all anymore. There’s a lot of distance in time
since those things, and it feels and seems like then I was a different person than I am
now. I can absolutely go beyond the experience, and yeah, I can make new and
healthier choices.
Liz said that her feelings offailure brought on thoughts o f taking her life, and
Yes, at various times throughout my life, when I felt I was failing my belief system,
and through the time when I was disfellowshipped, that I was failing as a Christian.
That was back when I was a teenager. My thoughts now aren’t along that line. I
don’t think about taking my life.
Liz explained the confusion she feels about right and wrong.
Maybe I have, but I have pretty strong convictions. Basically, I believe in the
principles of the Bible. I know a lot of it is confusing, and they always deal with the
technicalities, but not the basics. If you are going to base your belief on the Bible,
then how can you say it’s wrong to help your fellow man, and that’s what they were
saying; I was wrong for wanting to care for my Grandmother.
She has a modest sense of confidence in her future that varies with the moment
Stevie had thoughts that occurred about harming himself, yet he never acted on
them.
Yeah, I thought of suicide a few times, because of shame. I wouldn’t say I came to
the brink; I never took action. I had thoughts of suicide during my life as a Witness
at times. Once I got rid of the shame I was ok. I got rid of it about 2 years ago.
When asked about any confusion about what is right and wrong, he hesitates and pauses
to consider an answer, and then he alludes he can get beyond the experience, and make
Ok. . . wait [long pause]. . . sure. Not as a Witness, I always thought I knew what
was right or wrong. It was spelled out in black and white. After leaving, and I no
longer had anybody telling m e . .. yeah. I had to figure it out I was in confusion.
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Pablo had a very close Witness friend die, which appeared to be an accident or a
Yes I did. At the same time I started to research the teachings, a very close friend of
mine died. There were indications at his home where he died, that it was a suicide
or a tragic accident that occurred while he was working in his garage with the door
closed and his car running. I became very depressed. I did think about it, but I . . . I
had the sense to ask for professional help. The therapist gave me an anti-depressant,
and I took care of my health by cutting out the stresses of being a ministerial servant.
I am off the anti-depressant now, and no longer have thoughts of taking my life.
Pablo opts for a logical conclusion if he is confused about what is right and wrong.
Hefelt confident in his ability to go on with life when he responded, uEven when I was
Jamie did not have thoughts o f harming herself, or thoughts o f taking her life,
No. I always knew that life held something for me, I wanted to find out what it was.
No, I never thought of killing myself.
She related and experience of her brother who did have thoughts o f taking his life at a
very early age, and what she did to overcome the same fears.
No, not directly. My brother and sister did. I found out that he was continually
depressed, wanting to kill himself at that at the age of 6. My sister had nightmares
about living forever, she didn’t want to live forever. I read books to escape, novels,
things that allowed me to vividly imagine places and scenes that were more
interesting to me.
Jamie has no confusion about what is right and wrongt as she said in her own words, ”1
always had a very strong sense of right and wrong.” And regarding her feelings of
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Oh yeah, much more with my ability to deal with it now that I left I told them lean
make my own decisions, thank you very much. I have this vision of just fading
away from i t . . . not disfellowshipped. . . not disassociated. . . and I have a few
people, Witnesses, I keep in contact with they are still active.
The last cluster of interview questions deals with the distillation of the
participants feelings about membership down to the present time and place, or here and
now. The questions that address this aspect of the person in environment, in the present,
are 41. Have you everfelt that being a member was not so wonderful? 31. Did/do you
feel hostility toward those who criticize Jehovah’s Witnesses? and 21. Did/do you feel
that people who have not ever been one ofJehovah's Witnesses do not understandyou?
Sixteen replied that people who haven Vever been one o f Jehovah‘s Witnesses
do not understand them. Seven said they felt hostility toward those who criticize
Jehovah's Witnesses, and 16 answered that being a member was not so wonderful.
While these questions were not asked in the chronological order of last on the list, these
questions spiral down to one thing for the participants: where are you now?
Betty, Wendy, Marlene, and Eric, simply responded “yes,” that being a member
relentlessness of that experience caused her to ruminate other responses she made.
Yes, I have. I’ve always felt that, even when I was a member I felt that In that
organization you’re too busy to consider where you are as a person, or about being
happy. The interminable meetings, talk about the Bible, read about the Bible. The
weight became so huge I didn’t have a choice. I’m sure I would have committed
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suicide. It hit me when my oldest son. . . one day we were standing in die kitchen,
and he said, “I am so glad we are not Jehovah’s Witnesses anymore.” I know I
would have committed suicide. They teach you not to fear death.
Oh yeah. It was a heavy burden, could never please them. It was like having an
abusive father.
Miranda added an experience of sexual abuse that was never addressed by her
It had its moments. On the whole, I think that life had me where I needed to be. As
a teenager, I was sexually molested by my dither, who was an elder in the
Congregation. The local elders were not approachable, and there was no way I
could go to them and tell them what happened. No one ever knew, because I never
said anything about it He remained an elder to the day he died.
She felt that talking about her experience to non-Witnesses could not convey her
feelings.
It is very hard to understand if you are not [a Witness]. I have often heard people
ask, “Why didn’t you just leave?” They don’t understand how deep the hurt runs.
The hurt is so deep that people do not understand.
Oh yeah, definitely not so wonderfiil. I had a Witness come by the other day and I
hide behind the door, just like the people I used know where hiding when I went out
I really don’t know what I would say to them anyway. I joke about it now.
Carol agreed that the experience of being a member was not so wonderful, and added an
A-huh, a-huh, a-huh. When I contemplate when I was in. I’m at the point now
where I know they hampered me. I realized I was put one back, it put me in a
pumpkin shell, by the organization, the belief and the teachings.
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Stevie began to weep, in the middle of his response, as he recalled the division
membership in the Organization caused between himself and one of his siblings.
Yeah. When I was in I got a lot of social pressure, and then doubts that maybe this
is not the truth. There was a period of time when I didn’t speak to my sister [pause]
[participant is emotionally distressed] I feel pretty shitty about that.
When Pablo was very active as a member, and his time spent working at the
The time I spent at the headquarters, that was really strange. There were times when
I thought, “man, there’s a bunch ofjerks around here; a real bunch of holy zealots.
Treanna and Liz were both troubled and annoyed with their membership in the
Organization.
Treanna: Sure. It wasn’t wonderful, because I felt like a hypocrite. If I’m going to
inconvenienced, I should at least believe in the “cause,” and why I’m doing it I
didn’t believe in the “cause.” I was exhausted living two different lives.
Liz: Yes. It was not a pleasant experience, very inconvenient, and more trouble
than it was worth.
“Yes. I got to the point that being in was keeping me from being the person that I
wanted to be so I can enjoy life.” Miles feels that non-Witnesses cannot understand
that. “I think they would be hard-pressed to fully understand.” For Stacey it was not
just a single incidence of feeling it was not so wonderfiil, and for her the feeling was
accompanied by disappointment, “Oh yeah, lots of times. There were times when I felt
that I thought I had a friend and they were a fair weather friend, and it was not a good
feeling.” Racine said that the feeling was not so wonderfiil, “All the time. That’s a
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Betty, did notfeel hostility toward those who criticize Jehovah‘s Witnesses?
Neither did Treanna, Miles, Didi, Jamie or Pablo. Jamie felt defensiveness in the face
of those who criticize Jehovah’s Witnesses. She based that response upon what she was
I felt that I had to defend it, not hostility. We were taught to be afraid of people
against the organization, they are very bad, don’t talk to them, leave, don’t read
anything they give you, if you take it throw it away immediately. I don’t think that’s
fair.
Wendy’s defensiveness was also based on what she was taught, and is very
Yes, absolutely, when a Jehovah’s Witness. Once when leaving the stadium where
an Assembly was held, outside on the street people were handing out literature
exposing Jehovah’s Witnesses. Before we even got to the stadium an announcement
was made at our Kingdom Hall not to talk or take any literature from those who
might try to hand it to us. We were told they are the Evil Slave. I was afraid of
them, it sounded like the Devil had come to town. I was 12 at that time. . . I find it
amazing how, when you try to tell people, it’s amazing. They have no idea what it
was like, they just don’t understand.
Eric is also defensive, though he has gone from not feeling hostility to being hostile
At first I didn’t. Yet, I do now. I say, why criticized them? I look at Jehovah’s
Witnesses as human beings, and I would like to get to know them as people. Some
who have left now have hostility toward Jehovah’s Witnesses. But I don’t
For those who criticize Jehovah’s Witnesses who are non-Witnesses Eric is quite
empathetic, and he feels that they could not understand what the experience is like as he
Liz experienced hostility and defensiveness, and said, “At one point yes- I
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Marlene had hostility when she was a Jehovah’s Witness. She refers to the
Organization as “them,” and at the mention of the subject she preferred to remain
anonymous. Her hostility changed when she accepted that she could no longer be a
Jehovah’s Witness.
When I was a member I did, and for quite some time after. I learned I was very
defensive. For sometime after that, if I heard anything about “them” from someone
else I would just keep quiet. . . didn’t want those who criticized to know I was one.
But, when I thought about going back earlier, then I had hostility. When I dropped
that idea I lost the hostility, and became angry with the Society.
Organization.
I used to feel that those who criticize the Watch Tower Society were former
members. I didn’t feel hostility, it used to be anger. I would think, “how could
they?” It was unfathomable how could they.
Deep down, no, but I didn’t look at it favorably when I was growing up. I’ve never
really had intense anger toward anyone.
I felt that they didn’t know any better, Satan had blinded their eyes, and they didn’t
know any better. It’s hard to say, I don’t think I remember a time when I was ever
hostile toward those who criticized the Watchtower.
Robert is not apologetic, though he does support the line of Miranda’s reasoning. He
said:
I used to, not anymore, most of the time they are right, about the ones that criticize
Jehovah’s Witnesses, though I have no loyalty to them.
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Yes, but I took it as a form of persecution, which is evidence that you are living the
right way.
Stacey said that she took criticism personally when she was a member, and that
I felt like they were criticizing me if they made such criticism. 1 felt badly when I
overheard a man making fun of another Jehovah’s Witness, and I told him I took
offense, because he didn’t know what was going on in her life. You felt overly
sensitive, because you don’t fit into what non-Witnesses thought you should. You
had to be aware and alert not to discredit what you believed, aware that you didn’t
do anything wrong.
Treanna’s perspective comes from her experience before and after membership.
“No, I just didn’t understand them. Not after either.” Didi speaks of her feelings after
exiting. Her rationale about hostility and anger is that they are part of a process one
goes through, meaning she went through her hostility to facilitate change in her life.
No. I know that there has t o . . . no . . . in the beginning I was critical, and really
hostile. Most of us are having pain, and it is usually anger that gives you motivation
to change, and you can’t hold onto that negative thinking and energy to be
productive and happy. Like the five steps of grief, you have to go through some
progression.
Stevie explained that when he felt hostility it was because he judged those who
criticized the Organization. After his exit he was not hostile, instead he implies that he
I did feel hostility; I felt judgementalism toward them. At first, when I got out, I
freaked out, not hostile. Because die one unforgivable sin is speaking against the
Governing Body. They call that apostasy.
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Racine changed her hostility by literally removing herself from being identified
When I was in the organization I did, but not because o f the people; I moved, and it
all changed, I didn’t have to deal with i t Then when I heard criticism I didn’t care,
so had no hostility. I told my present husband you have no idea what it like in such
a control religion. . . Unless you’ve been there you can’t understand.
the Organization, unless he or she has actually been a member is thematic; there is a
consensus within the sample that being a Jehovah’s Witness is an experience that non-
orientation, the way one views the world. Stevie defines non-Witnesses inability to
understand as he says, “How could they possibly understand, they are worldly.” He
does not feel that worldly people can have any empathy. His reasoning is, “if you
haven’t been you don’t know the hell I’ve been through.”
experience, and that even reading or talking about it is difficult for the non-Jehovah’s
Witness. Stevie said, “Like talking about the Organization’s history. There’s so much
you have to understand to get that” Yet it is not something that one can simply
Absolutely. I don’t think there is any way they can learn about i t I’ve been asked,
“how could you leave the religion you were raised in,” but they can’t know, or,
“why would you leave your choice of religion,” but, we did make that choice.
For Didi, Carol and Stacey the non-Witness is unaware of the structure of the
behaviors, as Didi explained, “The only one who could understand is someone in a
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religion that touches and controls every facet of your life.” This is what Pablo means
when he extends the parameters of empathy to include non-Witnesses who are members
in similar groups.
I wouldn’t say, someone who has never been a Witness, but rather someone who has
never been part of a high controlling group. To not have been there requires more
empathy to understand.
They don Yunderstand, not a clue. I don’t think that the general public knows what it
does to you, that it hasn’t been exposed to the world. Ask someone, maybe
Christmas has been explained, but not the control, the mind control.
Absolutely. When you find someone who has been in it so long you might wonder
how could they have stayed in it so long. But it’s the control—and
approval/disapproval.
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CHAPTER 5
DISCUSSION
The purpose of this study was to explore the psychosocial effects of exiting
Jehovah’s Witnesses. This was done by interviewing people who have been members
of the religion, or are in the process of exiting. Exiting the religion entails severing all
ties as a member in good standing with the Watch Tower Bible and Tract Society, the
corporation that maintains the financial aspects of the institution, as well as the
publishing agent that distributes the literature and doctrines as established by the
membership upon which the individual is impelled to construct the fabric of his or her
disfellowshipping; the explicit nature of these conditions states that the former member
becomes a worldly person that is to be shunned. At the time of such a separation the
fabric of the former member’s life is rent, and the matrix is exposed as an inextricable
the social and psychological factors that are pertinent to membership; some of the
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There is also a factor of duration related to a continuum that spans the decision
to exit, and a fair amount o f time gone by since the moment o f exit. This concept of a
continuum presents a progressive process the exiting individual becomes a part of,
whereupon he or she goes through stages of personal development further away from
It becomes the task of the exiting member to reassign the matrix o f membership
this study, which they indicated were obsessive and unrealistic), individuation is the
process one comes to attain mature wholeness and balance, that facilitates wellness
To negate such a task one remains static inviting dysfunction. The task also
implies that one cognitively shifts awareness to a congruent modality of living that
restores, or recreates a semblance of order and meaning. Until one can reclaim a
consciousness capable of coping with crisis, the vicissitudes o f life pose as grim
reminders, for this survey population, of impending doom looming on the horizon, or
as put by the respondents a fear o f Armageddon and the wrath o f God. For those of
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the participants who choose to take their personal development beyond the experience
(of once being a Jehovah’s Witness) life becomes a rewarding adventure bringing both
Results
The results of the interviews yielded psychosocial themes that were common
among the participants, and also a distinct individual difference that may indicate how
certain personality types, traits, or characteristics impacted one’s ability to cope with
change. These themes reflected psychologicalfear for one’s safety outside the
varying self-reported measures of stress and anxiety. On the one hand, 9 participants
felt suchfear. On the other hand, 7 did not, and 2 of these respondents felt a release of
aspect of life. The group collective of a cult imposes upon the members to isolate
themselves from family, friends and any social support systems that do not agree with
the cult, or who are considered outsiders (Singer & Addis, 1992). The explicit nature
of imposed social isolation from the world, practiced among Jehovah’s Witnesses,
limits the benefit of a social support system to a members only mindset Fourteen
Upon exiting the participants reported the loss of social support from family,
friends, and the community of Jehovah’s Witnesses at large, thus leaving them without
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a reasonable plan for the future, and little or no social skills to immediately develop a
new social support system. Membership as an elitist group with deviant norms can be
found in sects and cults alike, according to Iannaccone (1992); losing membership in
the Organization is loosing the last connection with a society, any society, as the
WTB&TS has deemed the whole world to be the product of the devil, and to disagree
with the leaders means a spiritual death and eventually a literal death, and as
lamented the loss of contact with family and friends as a result of exiting.
There are indications in the results of this study, that the participants present a
space over linear time; at the initial or early stages (Giambalvo, 1993) of exit
illustrate the significance of this Figure 1, the Continuum ofexiting stages, plots the
movement from the inception of the notion to exit on into the lifetime of the one
exiting.
stages of exiting from one person in an environmental psychosocial state; the matrix o f
membership (the known), into another environmental psychosocial state, the existence
membership (the known). Movement is then created, as one develops an internal locus
of control contrary to being planted in membership, towards point C and D that leads
to the moment o f exit point E (Glassel & Wubbolding, 1995). Points C and D were the
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most difficult for Stevie felt relief and shock; Liz felt sad and alone; Treanna and
Marlene were scared; Betty and Miranda got angry; Didi struggled with justifying her
decision to exit; Pablo felt isolated and in limbo; Stacey was sad; Carol had guilt and
so did Jamie; Wendy felt suicidal; Racine sleep; Robert dissociated; Eric felt elated
and Miles spent time in a psychiatric hospital. Each participant manifested some form
knowing an identity as a member in good standing and this becomes one of the many
stages talked about by exit counselors (Markowitz, 1993) and those who either walk
away or are castaway by the group. On the right of the moment o f exit one enters into
the existence o f exit, or the unknown, a place in time that never existed before to the
participants, and the possibility of ever getting help does not even occur. It is at this
moment one can get help from exit counseling (Giambalvo, 1993).
Limitations of Study
There are certain limitations to this study that must be considered. Firstly, the
questionnaire was devised by the researcher, and therefore the validity and reliability
of the exploration process of this study can not been established at this time, and there
are no independent and dependent variables. There is secondly, the possibility that
any given participant may be engaged in counter movement activities that may have
influenced his or her responses with bias, and additionally, that long term memory has
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Third, there is no universality and no generalizability in a small non-random
sample such as the one used. The possibilities also exist that the questions may have
dealt with private and personal information of a highly sensitive nature the
respondents were not prepared to divulge, therefore influencing the qualitative content
of their comments. In addition, the lack of clinical conditions under which the
rendering the results as anecdotal rather than critical analysis, the latter being an
This study will provide a frame of reference from which social work practice
can implement when working with client's who are of have been Jehovah’s Witnesses,
as well as working with other clients who have been members of similar groups.
The benefits to the social work profession gleaned from this study are an
increased knowledge base about a little known population, and how that knowledge
will assist social workers that encounter Jehovah’s Witnesses as clients, and
particularly social workers that are exit counselors. This knowledge may also be of
benefit to social workers who have other clients who come for services due to possible
though it is realized that exit counseling is a specialized field and personal experience
West (1990) argues, from the perspective of Lifton (1961) and the research
done at the Johnson Foundation Wingspread Conference Center (1986), that totalist
groups, or cults, are a public health problem. The report from the Wingspread
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Conference is that through the use of unethical and manipulative practices, concerns
arose related to die lack of interest in the well-being of “individual’s needs, goals, and
social attachments” (West, 1990, p. 134). The report indicated that cults are
responsible for harms to “persons, families, and society at large” (134), and also
designated five general areas in which harms occur. These areas are; “(1) individuals
and families; (2) government and law; (3) business; (4) education; (S) religion” (134).
regimes and prisoner of war survivors and detainment camp refugees from communist
China during the 1950s. Through his work social workers can leam to identify
abusive relationships from a macro as well as micro perspective. Looking to the larger
The authors make it clear that conformity to totalism varies even among totalist
groups.
West (1990) gave an illustration of naive researchers who visited and mingled
in the midst of cultic groups only to emerge with data collected from quantitative
“questionnaires” that the members are “happy and content,” which may be far
But scientists should not be so easily deceived. Former cult members have
come forward to say, “But look, I was there! I took part in the deception! It is a
well-practiced act that we always put on to deceive outsiders! (West, 1990, p.
132)
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He further argues that although a former members perspective may be construed as
biased, it is most difficult to collect data from a group that forbids access; restricts
influence and scrutiny interfere with the choice of subjects or their responses. The real
issue, according to West, is that there is already research that demonstrates, ‘There are
The social work profession will benefit from any and all information that
enlightens on this subject West (1990) states that there are 10 million who have been
active in cultic groups. Apart from that consider the effects of membership in just
Jehovah’s Witnesses based on the results of the interviews conducted in this study.
The results reveal psychosocial implications including; fear, anxiety, and depression;
poor decision making ability; loss, grief, sadness, failure; suicidal ideation, suicide
attempts, a report of family members and a friend who committed suicide, and
isolation, confusion, inability to know the difference between right and wrong;
extended family relationships; low sense of worth and low self-esteem; loss of
meaning and purpose of life; disoriented sense of time, place and person; anger and
hostility; disturbed sleep patterns, nutritional irregularities, loss of ability to cany out
simple tasks, poor time management skills; use of illegal substances, and one
residential treatment for substance abuse; and fear of exiting. The social work
profession need arm itself to work with populations such as the one above.
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Implications for Further Research
Further research of this topic developing longitudinal case studies with a view
data that reveals the nature of how such groups function, and what the psychosocial
implications are for those who follow and join these groups.
Research into the concept of a matrix underlying the psychological and social
aspects of membership in high control groups may help to formulate treatment plans
along the Continuum o f exiting stages may demonstrate that human beings possess
psychological mechanisms and social skills of an intrinsic nature, and that cognition is
Conclusion
This study collected data from volunteers who felt motivated to tell their
how their membership and consequent exit of Jehovah’s Witnesses impacted their
lives. The interviews had to be stopped on three separate occasions, as the participants
participants were extended the option to halt the interview at that time, yet each
At one point during the interviews a referral was made for a suicide hotline in
the locality of one participant who did not have suicide ideation during the study, yet
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did admit to a history of suicide attempts. That interview was stopped also, die
researcher may assessed the nature of the participants suicide ideation; if he did not
the interviews that their sessions nearly terminated in the first hour of intensive
of the interviews averaged 11/2 hours, with the shortest being 3/4 of an hour, and the
longest 2 hours and SOminutes (partly due to the researcher intervening with
clarification or summary to determine that the data had been gathered accurately).
The researcher notice a distinct difference in the tone, and mood of the 2
participants at the early end of the continuum, and the 2 participants at the later end.
The 2 who were closest to the moment o f exit spoke in an uncertain and rather subdued
manner, whereas the 2 who had been out the longest presented with vivacious tenacity,
yet these latter 2 recalled vividly that was not the case upon facing the moment o f exit.
One of the respondents explained that it took S years to reach a level of lucid
equilibrium, and up until that time she was dominated byfear, low self-esteem, and
uncertainty.
cult. Marty (1990) states, “The more isolated, intransigent, withdrawn. . . the less it
has come to be regarded as a normative religious expression for America” (p. 128).
Those words are all but discouraging to Jehovah’s Witnesses, as they set themselves
very far apart from the “normative religious expression” in any country. Not only do
they isolate themselves from the world they isolate the rank and file from those who
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exit to such a degree that any member observed having lunch with a former member
runs the risk of being disfellowshipped, and hurled into the existence o f exit (the
Leaving it all behind was the only way that Didi could succeed in her new life.
After 24 years she could finally declare, “I feel so good; my self-esteem is good. I am
so grateful. On the first five-year period I was a basket case, I was in uncharted
territory.”
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APPENDICES
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APPENDIX A
FIGURE 1.
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Moment of Exit
(The Un-knowning)
FIGURE I.
Continuum of exiting stages.
(Copyright 2001; Robert T. Morano, Jr.)
APPENDIX B
QUESTIONNAIRE
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QUESTIONNAIRE
7. What activities did you participate in when you were in the organization?
14. Did/do you feel fear for not obeying the Governing Body of Jehovah’s
Witnesses?
15. Did/do you feel that not obeying them will result in “God’s wrath?”
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Probe: punish you, destroy you
18. Did/do you ever feel that you were going insane?
19. Have you ever been confused about what is right and wrong?
21. Did/do you feel that people who haven’t ever been one of Jehovah’s Witnesses
22. Since leaving the organization can you freely socialize with others in the
community?
23. What has exiting done to your personal relationships, work, friends, or family?
24. How has your decision to exit Jehovah’s Witnesses effected how you feel
about yourself?
27. Did/do you ever have thoughts that being a member wasn’t all that bad?
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Probe: thoughts of going back, this can’t be happening
31. Did/do you feel hostility toward those who criticize Jehovah’s Witnesses?
33. Did you experience any loss of how to carry out simple tasks?
38. Have you ever been hospitalized for substance abuse treatment?
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Probe: spent time in residential treatment, detox, sober-living
41. Have you ever felt that being a member was not so wonderful?
42. Have you ever felt confident in your ability to go on with life?
Probe: get beyond the experience, make new and healthier choices
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APPENDIX C
LETTER OF CONSENT
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LETTER OF CONSENT
Social Work from the Department of social work, California State University, Long
Beach. I invite you to participate in my study to explore the answers to the research
question: What are the issues that influence a person’s decision to exit Jehovah’s
Witnesses, and what, if any, are the psychosocial effects of leaving Jehovah’s
Witnesses? Although you might not benefit directly by your participation it is hoped
that the results will contribute to social work practice to help exiting and former
members address similar issues, which may help promote healthy and productively
satisfying lives.
person or by telephone, whichever is most convenient for you. The time needed to
complete the interview will be up to 40 minutes but not more than two hours. The
questions asked during the interview will be focused only on information related to
sensitive and personal may cause you to recall unpleasant memories. You may refuse
to answer any question without consequences. It is the intent of this study that no
harm comes to you. If you feel that you are at risk o f causing yourself harm, or if it
can be immediately assessed that you are in need of chemical dependency or substance
counseling with your best interests at heart If you decide to withdraw from the study
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at any time, you are free to do so without any negative consequences or attempts by
Your responses will remain completely confidential. Even when the study
results are reported, your name will not be revealed. At the close of this study written
manuscripts of the interview will be destroyed, only the segments used in the final
thesis will remain and your true identity will be concealed by the use of a pseudonym.
Anyone who reads the finished product will not be able to identify you with the
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content.
Thank you for considering participation in this study. If you agree to do so,
please sign, print your name, fill-in the date below, and mail this to:
Signature:___ _________________________________
Printed name:________________________________
Date: ________________________________
Sincerely,
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