'For I', says the LORD, 'will be a wall of fire
all around her, and I will be the glory in her midst.'
(Zechariah 2:5)
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How do you experience such an outpouring of the Holy Spirit over a 4 day period and then come spiraling down and crashing with a mighty thump.
How can joy turn to sorrow in a mere flash of time?
Distressed in spirit
disenheartened
disenchanted
Sad
lonely...
down...
Old fears become new.
Past hurts rise to the surface.
Long ago torments take on new flesh.
Burdened beyond belief.
empty
Crying out to my Lord.
Begging for relief.
Reaching up in desperation.
Cascading down my face, are tears
that seem to flow from an
unending source.
Tears of frustration
despair
sorrow
Tears of anxiety
uncertainty
Necessary tears
Hot, scalding
Healing
Trying to hold them back
is futile.
The levy keeping them at bay
is weak and breaks
As I call upon God, I know He is near.
I recall scripture.
I cling to the promise of His Word.
I embrace the truth of who He is.
The truth of what He can do.
I know He hears my cry and I worship.
As the water recedes and the tears
begin to subside -
the feeling of restoration washes over me.
Renewing my heart.
Cleansing my mind.
Refreshing my spirit.
Fragrant worship ensues.
The sweet aroma of peace
descends and rests upon me.
His presence wraps tightly around me.
My spirit is strengthened
uplifted
empty of sadness
Ready to be filled with joy
and the furious longing
of my God and my Savior.
I am desperate only for Him.
Expecting an outpouring.
My sorrow has turned to dancing.
He is mighty and faithful.
He is good.
He hears.
He answers.
He loves.