Amber

« I composed a beautiful letter to you in the sleepless nightmare hours of the night, and it’s all gone. I just miss you, in a quite simple desperate human way. […] I miss you even more than I could have believed, and I was prepared to miss you a good deal. So this letter is just really a squeal of pain. It is incredible how essential to me you have become. I suppose you are accustomed to people saying these things. Damn you, spoilt creature. I shan’t make you love me any the more by giving myself away like this but, oh my dear I can’t be clever and standoffish with you. I love you too much for that, too truly. You have no idea how standoffish I can be with people I don’t love. I have brought it to a fine art. But you have broken down my defenses. And I don’t really resent it. » Lettre de Vita Sackville-West à Virginia Woolf « I meant what I told them in the world under the lake. I didnt care if Lore didnt want me kissing them anymore. I just wanted to be in Lore’s life. I wanted to be close enough to feel the pull of them like a current. » « I lied, okay? I say. […] I do feel that way about you. I do like you like that. And I like you as a friend too, and I want to be whatever we end up being, because I like you in every way I’ve gotten to know you- » Lakelore