Chapter 1: Won't we get caught?
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"Felix...give me a hand."
Chan whispered, and Felix didn't have much of a choice anyway. He was nothing compared to Chan's strength, and he'd just grabbed his hand. Professor Jungkook rambled on. Chan directed Felix's hand near his thick hard-on.
"It'll be just for a minute, I promise. Just..this one time."
Normally, Chan would make him jerk him off inside his drawers when they were in class. But clearly he was feeling more adventurous today. He had his pants unzipped. Seungmin was dozing off right next to him. He liked the thrill.
As soon as he whipped it out it was apparent that it'd be almost impossible to hide under the low table, especially given Chan's height. It was only convenient then that the Professor was teaching from a projection, and the class lights had been dimmed for it.
Chan's tip was leaking precum. Felix couldn't make out the shaft in this light, but he'd known it like one would know the back of his palms. They'd been dating for two years. The size had been an issue previously. Felix had never taken one more than five inches long, but he'd gotten used to it now, seeing how he'd had to service it almost thrice every week. Chan's stamina was a medical mystery.
Chan abruptly leaned in to whisper.
"This time..I want your mouth to catch my seed."
"Don't you think we'll get caught?"
"Don't worry, baby. Just do as I've said."
So he did. Chan's cock was pretty thick. He could only touch the tips of his longest fingers when he wrapped around the shaft. The worst part was how upright and straight it was, there was no curve like his own. It'd be tough to hide if Chan straightened his back.
And he did exactly that. He put one arm around Felix. It wasn't a gesture of love as much an excuse to grope Felix's chest. He unbottoned it without looking, his fingers deft with experience. The only things that kept the Professor from seeing Chan sliding his hand inside Felix's shirt and feeling his nipples were the lack of light reaching the last bench and the bunch of heads covering the view.
"Don't worry," said the Prof, "I know I've bored you long enough, judging from the faces, but this is the last slide."
" Oh baby...fuck. Fuck, fuck, fuck."
The friction was a major turn on for Chan. He preferred not having lube when he made Felix fap him outside. It added to the unprepared-ness of it all.
Lix's eyes were locked on the board, on the Professor, on the class who had their backs turned towards them. Could anybody see?
"Ah, baby, fuck.. I'm close! I'm close!!"
Chan suddenly grabbed Felix's neck as tightly as possible and forced him down onto his cock as he released his cum. He couldn't leave behind any traces of this. No matter how much of his cum Lix had drank, he was never prepared for just how salty and how much he'd cum. It was almost an assault to his senses. Each. Time.
Chan spread his legs as wide as possible and threw his head back as he unplugged his boyfriend's mouth from his tip. His chest heaved up and down like a dying beast.
"You take it so good. Fuck, you're so hot when you have my seed in your mouth."
The lights turned on.
(Of course Felix had wiped his mouth and swallowed. He might be a bottom, but he wasn't stupid.)
" Now I want to take a moment to remind you guys about the project submission. Remember the project I'd assigned last week on Milton?"
The class was silent. They looked at each other's faces. Seungmin snored.
" People, " he said, sounding quiet annoyed, " Today was the damn deadline. Seriously, this kind of reaction is unacceptable. This is university. If you do not keep up with the assignments and projects, you're going to only fall behind yourself. Now tell me, does anyone have the project to submit today?"
Felix raised his hand. He'd finished it. He was scared of deadlines. His dad used to beat him up whenever he got a notice for being late at school. The bruises almost never heal.
Everyone turned back to look at him. Some of them had a weird smirk on their faces. Why?
"Ah, look at this young man, class! Be punctual like him if you are to expect success. In the real world, nobody will hand you shit." He then gestured Felix to come up to him.
Felix set the paper down on his table.
"Do sign your name here.", said the Professor.
As soon as Felix leaned down to sign his name in the project attendance sheet, he became acutely aware of just how exposed he was. Chan had unbottoned the top four buttons of his shirt when he'd groped him in the back bench. It looked okay when he sat upright, but in this position he'd given the Professor an uncalled for look into his entire chest.
He backed off in shame, and tried to turn away as quick as he could.
"Lee Felix...", the Professor's voice sent chills down his spine, "That's your name?"
"Yes, sir."
He clicked his pen twice or thrice on his notebook, pouting his lips and thinking, as if considering something deeply important.
"Meet me in my office once class ends."
Chapter 2: Issues
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"Should I go? I mean, its obvious he'll try to fuck me."
Another man. Men and their desires. They were all the same. Every single one of them.
Chan listened. They were at the cafeteria. Felix hadn't met Prof in his office. He'd chickened out at the last minute.
"I don't think you should jump to conclusions like that, though."
"I guess, so."
The conversation ended. They returned back to their food. Felix liked these little talks with Chan. He thought their relationship wasn't very much based on verbal communication, as much as it was physical. But it was his duty as a boyfriend to be physically available to his better half.
He smiled inside, a little warm in his stomach. Did Chan see it that way?
When he looked back up, Chan was gone. His lunch was on the table. He'd run off with the soccer boys again.
Sigh. He'll return when he needs a handjob. Pretty soon, in two days, they'll be living together in a rented room near college. The train journey home was too long, and too lonely. He used to travel with Chan on the first few days. He'd stopped coming lately.
"Uh, hi-"
Felix had, unknowingly, been dozing off in the distance, eyes fixed on nothing really. So when another boy came and greeted him, for the first time since when Chan introduced him to his soccer friends, Felix didn't know if he was talking to him.
"You're Felix, right?"
"Oh, yes."
"Um," the boy was especially awkward, "I'm uh.. Jisung?"
He sounded unsure of his own name.
Felix must've been looking really strange, because Jisung couldn't meet his eyes at all.
"Yeah, um, anyways. I just overheard you, um, talking to the Professor today and.. just please don't get alone with him.. he's really, you know, like that."
If he hadn't been feeling so numb, Felix would've let a chuckle escape him. The boy in front of him looked so comical. He had wavy black hair, was it called a mullet? His face was shaped like a quokka. For the first time, Felix kind of wanted to call someone cute.
"Ah. Its okay. I didn't go. Thanks."
He thought that would suffice, wouldn't it?It was perfectly polite. He was not looking to make "friends" with boys. Chan wouldn't like that. Politeness, however, goes a long way.
" Great! So uhm-", Jisung continued.
"Oi, Felix!", and he was interrupted. Chan was coming back. "Who's this?", he asked.
"I don't know." Felix said.
"Oh, well, hi! I'm Jisung, uhm, from your class.."
Chan shook the hand he'd held out, his kind smile for strangers like plaster on his face.
"I was just, uh, I just wanted to say something to Felix.."
"Go on, then."
"Oh no, its okay, I already did."
Jisung seemed to wait and consider if the conversation would go further, and seeing that neither of the boys said another word, he took a quick little bow and ran off.
"He isn't anyone I know, before you ask, and he didn't ask for my hand in marriage." Felix blurted out as soon as they were alone.
"Getting sarcastic, are we?"
"No, I'm being serious. He just asked me to stay away from Prof Jungkook."
"And what is it to him?"
"How would I know?"
"Look, babe, you know I love you, but you've gotta stop giving me all this crap attitude."
Felix closed his eyes. He took a deep breath.
"I'm sorry.", he said, "I'll never be rude to you."
"See, that's the Lixie I know," Chan continued, and Felix knew what he'd say next but he didn't have enough time to tune out," That's the Lixie I saved from his dad."
Chan made sure nobody was looking. He reached out and cupped Felix's face in his palm and slowly stroked his cheek.
"I'll always be grateful."
If only...if only Chan knew how much it hurt him to keep hearing that. If only he knew the terrible mental images it brought back. His neck gripped tight. His shirt torn off. His legs straddling the man who'd raised him. The tears. The screams. The blood. If only Chan knew...he wouldn't say it.
"By the way," Chan continued, as if nothing had happened, "I can't move in with you this week."
Another shock.
"Why?"
"Issues."
"W-what about all the packing I did for you?"
" Yeah, I'll kinda need those."
" Like, from the bags?"
" Babe, I love it when you act all stupid. Of course from the bags! You put my new bedsheet in, didn't you?"
"Yea."
" Cool. I'll need that."
" But.." Felix tried to sound as docile as possible, " It was the biggest thing..so its at the bottom, taking it out would mean unpacking the whole suitcase.."
"Did I ask you to do that? To keep it at the bottom? Then its not my fault really."
For those of you who think Felix is overreacting, this was the second time he'd postponed the plan. Last time, Felix had had to pack his stuff from his room, right after they'd fucked. Once it was done, Felix had to carry Chan's bags from Chan's home to his because it was closer to the station. On the day they'd move in, they'd planned to walk together from Felix's home to the station. Chan would carry his bags, and Felix his own.
Then, two days before that, Chan had "issues" again. He said his mom was sick. He couldn't go. Felix had carried his bags from his home to Chan's, but this time nobody had answered the door. The light in Chan's room, though, was on.
"Then.. could you at least get on the train with me today? You know, I don't like the staring.."
" Why me?"
Felix stared blankly. What?
" Why don't you go ask that other boy you got so close with?"
The jealous Chan was back. How foolish of him to think he'd not bring this up. He'd learnt nothing.
" Babe..I don't even know him..I don't even know his name-"
" Are you sure I'm still your babe?"
" Yes..YES! You'll always be, how could I ever-"
" Well you almost did, didn't you? He was looking at you like he wanted you on his dick, like he was your dad."
Felix couldn't do this anymore. He really couldn't. He started tearing up, cursing himself for being so fucking weak. But he couldn't cry in this place surrounded by people.. it'd send the wrong idea of their relationship.
" Are you crying? Wait, are you actually crying?"
Felix hid his face in his hands.
" Fuuuucking hell." Chan whispered to himself, just loud enough for Felix to hear.
" Its okay, babe. I'm sorry. I shouldn't have brought that up." He grabbed hold of Felix's hand, which covered half his face, and shook it away. He was too strong compared to that little arm on that little boy. That's what he liked the most. He placed a gentle kiss on the back of his palm.
"I'm sorry. I'll never say it again, okay?"
Felix nodded, still weeping silently.
Behind them, Jisung turned his recorder off.
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Group chat: Stray Kids
Lino: told you not to touch my stuff
Jiniret: SO YOU'D STUFF TISSUES IN MY MOUTH??????
Lino: yea
Jiniret: BUT THATS UNFAIR!!!!!!!
Seungmin: oh my god not this again
Innie: LMAO
Innie: Seungmin been in this gc for a week and he's alr tired of u two
Jiniret: WHY TISSUES????? WHY???? WHY SO VIOLENT????
Jiniret: I'M JUST A CHILD OF GOD Y'ALL HOW COULD HE
Lino: i'll do it again
Innie: LMAO
Jisung: Guys
Jiniret: ITS UNFAIR AND I WILL REVOLT
Lino: ok
Jiniret: AND MY FLAG WILL HAVE TISSUES ON IT
Lino: mhm
Seungmin: bro has a plan
Jisung: Guys
Jiniret: AS A SIGN OF TERROR AS A SIGN OF YOU BEING A
Jiniret: BEING A
Jiniret: BEING A
Lino: almost there
Seungmin: bro's got two braincells fighting for third place
Jiniret: BEING A
Innie: A WHAT? SAY IT
Jiniret: A MEANIE
Lino: ....
Seungmin: ....
Innie: LMAO
Lino: Really? That's the best you could come up with?
Seungmin: God let bro cook but didn't give him utensils
Jisung: GUYS
Innie: LMAO
Jiniret: IT WAS FROM MY HEART!!!!!!
Seungmin: Guys
Jiniret: What is it cutie
Lino: Go on
Innie: yea?
Seungmin: Why are Hyunjin and Minho fighting here...when they're literally roommates?
Innie: LMAO
Lino: Finally some food for thought
Innie: You expect them to think things like that through?
Jisung changed the group name to Guys plz fucking listen to me
Jiniret: What a fucking drama queen lol
Jiniret: am i ryt guys haha
Lino: you're one to talk
Jiniret: YoURE NEVER NICE TO ME
Jisung: anyway guys this is serious
Jisung: AUDIO FILE.MP3
Jisung: Recorded this at the cafeteria today
Jiniret: Holy shit
Jiniret: His voice is so hot
Jiniret: I'm hard
Innie: You're getting wayyyy too comfortable with us Hyunjin
Seungmin: wait wasn't this the Felix guy? with Chan?
Lino: woah that's...bad
Seungmin: Yea that shit is manipulative af
Jisung: ifkr
Jisung: I talked to Felix today cuz he was alone and that pedo Prof had called him
Jisung: He got scared when Chna came back
Jisung: Chan
Jiniret: Oh fukcing hell no way he used that "saving" shit to one up him tf
Jiniret: That's BAD
Lino: hm
Seungmin: I sat next to them today in class, they seemed normal. Felix doesn't speak much. Who knew it was this bad?
Jiniret: Ugh Seungmin I told you to sit with them so you get get us the hot goss, not sleep
Jiniret: HE MADE HIM CRY OH HELLLL NOOOOOO
Jiniret: CANT WE DO SOMETHING? ANYTHING?
Jisung: I wanna propose something
Innie: Go on
Jisung: Lets make friends with Felix. He clearly doesn't know how toxic this is because people around him don't point it out.
Lino: You're right. And I trust you. You've been really brave getting over your ex.
Jiniret: We wuv you loads Jisunggie
Jisung: Thnx :)
Seungmin: So..how should we get him to be friends with us?
Jiniret: I'm kinda scared of Chan
Jisung: @Seungmin:So..how should we get him to be friends with us? Do yall trust me?
Lino: hm
Innie: yep
Jiniret: yes baby
Jisung: I'm gonna try this out then. Bear with me.
Jisung changed the group name to Stray Kids
Seungmin: wait i missed that, whats the plan?
Jisung added Lee Felix