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[CHAPTER 1]

Cruel laughing faces crowded in on him. Humiliation seeped across his pale face, sweat mixed with tears dripped down his cheeks pooling at the corners of his mouth. He jolted awake, cerulean eyes wide open.

It wasn’t the first time Cloud had dreamt about his failure to make SOLDIER, he knew it would not be the last.

He ran his hand through his smooth, golden spikes which never seemed to sit right. He sat upright in his uncomfortable infantry bunk, darkness still consumed the communal room, the sun had yet to rise. If anything, Cloud was a country boy through and through, the early rises did not phase him in the least, unlike his fellow cadets.

He slid out of bed and meandered to the shared restroom at the end of the barrack. He splashed some cold water over his face to wash away the sticky sweat and nightmares which plagued his mind, hoping to start the day fresh. Hot water was not a common occurrence in the infantry, but Cloud didn’t mind the cold. He stretched his limbs and rolled his shoulders, dressed in his typical cadet uniform, including his helmet, and left the barracks silently.

As always, Cloud started the day with a jog, he would often include running past Shinra Tower in the hopes of catching a glimpse of SOLDIERs, who might be leaving the tower to go on or return from important missions.

He filled his mind with images of clashing swords, glory, heroism, and adrenaline coursing through his body and Mako shining eyes. He wanted that, to be a hero, to follow through on his promise to an old friend. He wanted to help people, particularly those not strong enough to protect themselves.

Cloud knew he was not like the other cadets. He was short for his age, had delicate feminine features which would usually draw in unwanted attention. Though he was seventeen, his slender frame, short stature, and shy nature, had people frequently mistaken him for someone much younger. His teachers and superior officer, Sergeant Moore made a point of taunting Cloud, telling him to gain weight and cut off his girly ponytail. Despite this, he maintained decent grades across most subjects, notably, Materia Theory and Practical.

His superior officer once told him to forget joining SOLDIER and insinuated that the “pretty blonde” would better serve the community by spreading his legs at the Honeybee Inn. Cloud shook his head and shuddered, he was never noticeably confident and was quite self conscious. These incidents certainly did not help. From that day, Cloud chose to wear his Shinra issued helmet often, despite being uncomfortable, it kept unwanted attention away.

He continued his jog, the morning breeze felt comfortably cool on his pale skin. It always reminded him of home, the cool, crisp mountain air of Nibelheim. He picked up the pace, what he lacked in physical strength he would make up in agility.

The sun was beginning to rise. Maybe, just maybe, there was hope for Cloud Strife and his SOLDIER dreams.

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“Oh, goddess above, what will Rufus Shinra think of next!” annoyance grew on the red commander’s face as he threw his arms up with dramatic flare. “Ignorant fool, we are SOLDIER, 1st Class, not glorified babysitters. Perhaps a Firaga to the face would knock some sense into him.” A small flame flickered in his palm as he smirked.

“Genesis,” the raven haired commander chastised, though the slight curve of his lip told another story.

The elevator ride down from the presidential floor seemed to take forever, the tense silence interrupted by the silver general, “we do not have a choice, Gen. For the moment at least we must allow this to unfold and play our part.”

“He’s right, Gen. Besides, we may even find some worthy candidates, maybe even one with a gift for Materia.”

That seemed to pique Genesis’ interest, he quirked up his eyebrow, his mind ticking away as he stared out the glass wall of the elevator.

The silver general knew that this was a publicity stunt, the war ended and Shinra intended to build hope and morale amongst the ranks. This initiative would use the Elite Trio to do so.

A mentoring program to prepare some lucky cadets for the SOLDIER Program. The program would be introduced at a special assembly held that same day and would be hosted by the president himself and his ‘Elite trio.’ Sephiroth rolled his eyes, it was going to be a long day.

#

Cloud finally made it to the tower, if he was lucky, he might catch glimpse of a 3rd Class or 2nd Class SOLDIER. He did not expect however to lay eyes upon a young raven-haired SOLDIER, who everyone knew as recently promoted, 1st Class, Zack Fair.

The young man was casually resting against the wall near the tower entrance, hands behind his head looking very cool. Cloud couldn’t help but blush at the sight of his handsome face and violet eyes tinged with Mako green.

He was so distracted, he barely noticed his feet kept carrying him closer and closer toward the SOLDIER.

“Hey, how ya doin there?”

Cloud froze, he tentatively turned his head round because surely the SOLDIER was speaking to someone else. The SOLDIER chuckled lightly and smiled.

“You there, with the helmet.”

“Uh..uh you mean, me?”

“Yeah dude, how ya doin? How’s your training?”

Bewildered by the fact that Zack Fair had acknowledged his very existence, Cloud’s response was delayed.

 
“I..I’m doin’ good, and t-training’s going well, it’s tough but I think I’m improving.”

“Well, that’s awesome, good stuff! I’m Zack by the way.”

“Thanks! Uh… I’m Cloud Strife, nice to meet you…sir.”

“Nah…Zack! Sir is my father,” the young raven-haired SOLDIER winked at Cloud. Lucky his helmet covered the light pink dusting rising on his cheeks. This was his superior, he could not just call him Zack, could he?

The doors to the tower suddenly opened and to Cloud’s astonishment and horror, the Elite Trio began walking towards them.

“Geal!” Zack called out. “How’d the meeting go?”

The burly commander, noticing Cloud nearby thought carefully of his response.

“It was fine, Zack, we can discuss the details later.” He smiled kindly towards Cloud. “Who do we have here? Good morning cadet?”

What luck, Cloud thought as he trembled from his head to his boots. He knew he would be nervous, but he never expected to be in front of not one 1st Class but the whole Elite Trio as well. Something about the commander’s masculine voice stirred something in Cloud’s lower belly.

Oh Gods.

Remembering he’d been asked a question, Cloud straightened his posture and saluted. “Cadet Cloud Strife, sir.”

Glaring at him, Commander Rhapsodos interjected.

“You forget yourself, Cadet Strife. Surely, you have been taught to remove your helmet when addressing your superiors.”

Cloud lowered his head in shame, he finally met his idols and he had already screwed up. Angeal smiled sympathetically whilst Sephiroth eyed the cadet out of curiosity. His vibrant green eyes were almost staring into his soul. Cloud didn’t dare look at the general, he wasn’t worthy.

Cloud slowly removed his helmet and looked up at the commanders. In a soft and uncertain voice he responded. “I apologise, Commanders Rhapsodos and Hewley. My name is Cadet Cloud Strife, it is an honour to meet you.”

He drew in a slow breath and continued to acknowledge his absolute hero.

“General Sephiroth, sir,” followed by a salute. He maintained eye contact with Sephiroth.

“At ease, Cadet Strife.”         

That baritone voice held a special kind of power over Cloud. The Silver General continued to stare at him, those catlike pupils attempting to analyse him. Cloud looked down at his feet, his face blushing red.

“Well now, that was much better cadet, it seems you have learned that lesson well.” Genesis looked Cloud up and down with that smug smirk on his face.

Cloud thought Rhapsodos must think he looked a mess with his helmet hair, and body covered in sweat from his run.

Gods, what else could go wrong?

“Wow, I’m definitely going to call you, spiky,” Zack chuckled.

“Spiky?” Cloud was confused.

“Yep. Look at those golden spikes.” Well, it was better than being compared to a chocobo butt which his peers often did.

“Zachary,” Angeal rolled his eyes fondly. “It was a pleasure meeting you, Cadet Strife, but we must be going.”

Sephiroth nodded toward Cloud as he walked away alongside Angeal.

“Well, see ya around Spiky!” Zack smiled brightly towards Cloud.

“Uh, you too er…sir, I mean…Zack.” Cloud couldn’t help but feel warmth toward the SOLDIER First, he really was kind.

Bringing up the rear was Genesis, he walked with purpose with those knee high leather boots. He suddenly got into Cloud’s personal space. He was a slender man, but he towered over Cloud, his red hair blowing gently in the morning breeze.

He bent slightly and whispered in Cloud’s ear. “We will be seeing you very soon, little bird.” Cloud couldn’t help the shiver that seeped deep to his core. Leaving Cloud completely stunned, the fiery commander was gone.

We will be seeing you very soon. What did he mean by that?

Realising it was almost 0800, Cloud made a mad dash back to the barracks, the last thing he needed today was to piss off Sergeant Moore.

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Cloud was great at running. He was either running to or away from one thing or another. Back home he ran away from bullies when they ganged up on him. He ran into his mother’s arms when the men of the town labeled him a bastard of a whore. He sometimes ran from Nibel wolves when he was hunting.

The wolves' behaviours were certainly more predictable than Sergeant Moore.

Moore was always aggressive to the cadets but seemed to have it in for Cloud from day one! The blonde had no idea why as he had not done anything wrong.

Rumours had spread amongst the infantry that the middle-aged sergeant once tried out for SOLDIER but was rejected. The rumours speculated that Moore despised his Shit-kicker job and blamed Rufus Shinra’s late father and by default, Rufus Shinra himself.

Whispers suggested that Cloud might be the bastard child of Shinra, with his golden blonde hair and deep cerulean eyes. Most people in Midgar sported darker hair and brown or hazel eyes.

Cloud naturally assumed he was an easy target for Moore’s wrath just by his appearance alone.

#

Cloud finally arrived at the barracks but was confused to see the entire Seventh Infantry lined up outside the barracks, morning inspections usually took place inside.

A quick glance at his watch caused Cloud’s heart to sink, he was five minutes late. Waiting in front of the Seventh Infantry was Moore. Cloud was done for and he knew it.

“Strife, where the hell have you been? What’s today’s excuse, cadet?

He hated the tone of voice, though he never admitted out loud to his comrades, he was afraid of this man.

“Please s..sir, I was speaking to Commanders Rhapsodos and Hewley and General Sephiroth, that’s why I am late, sir.”

Cloud stood to perfect attention and waited for his response. Surely, the Elite Trio would not mind him name dropping them to get out of a reprimand?

Moore stared at Cloud in disgust and folded his muscular arms across his chest.

“Well, that is the biggest crock of shit I have ever heard. The Elite wouldn’t associate with a pathetic infantry runt like you. Dishonesty will not be tolerated, Strife. You will meet me at my office at 1900.”

The sergeant’s eyes flashed with hatred, and Cloud recoiled slightly into himself for some sort of comfort.

“Get in line, cadet.”

“Yessir.” Cloud ran into his position with the rest of the cadets.

Moore addressed the entire Seventh Infantry. Finally, the attention was away from Cloud, that was the way he preferred it, like he didn’t exist.

“This morning, our usual drill training will be cancelled, President Shinra has called for a special assembly which will commence momentarily in the auditorium. Once finished, you will continue with your classes and patrols as scheduled, is that clear?”

A chorus of “sir, yes sir” echoed across the barracks.

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“Don’t pout puppy, really, you should be grateful to be exempt from this degrading excuse of a program.” Genesis gently brushed back the black spikes of his youngest lover’s face.

“But Gen, I am a 1st, why did Rufus exclude me? I could be a decent mentor, right?” Zack frowned and looked at his lovers for reassurance, his puppy dog eyes widened.

Sephiroth turned to Zack and spoke gently.

“Zachary, Shinra is using the idea of the Elite Trio to draw attention to this program. We fought in Wutai, and now in times of peace, Rufus wishes to build morale and encourage cadets to join SOLDIER.”

Sephiroth blinked slowly and continued.

“With no war, missions are far and few in between, so it makes sense to draw in some interest. Rufus is simply using “hero worship” to entice cadets.”

Zack sighed, Sephiroth seemed pleased to have pacified his youngest lover for the moment.

“Hmmph…Rufus simply wishes to waste our time due to lack of missions. He should be rewarding us, grant us a vacation to Costa del Sol,” Genesis retorted.

“Gen, we are still needed here to support 2nd and 3rd Class SOLDIERs as well as the cadets.”

Feigning shock, Genesis replied to Angeal.

“My love, you wound me. To deny me the pleasure of your company as we lay in the hot sand together, cool water brushing over our skin as we…”

“Genesis!” Angeal rolled his eyes. He glanced around to ensure no one was listening to their conversation. Their polyamorous relationship was a well-kept secret, and it was in Shinra’s best interest for them to keep it that way.

The four of them remained backstage of the auditorium and waited until Rufus Shinra finally graced them with his presence. His platinum blonde hair and endearing blue eyes took in his surroundings.

 Tseng, the current head of the Turks, closely followed him, shadowing his boss. Tseng had distinct lengthy black hair and a tilak on his forehead. The Wutaian always displayed a perfect poker face, emotions concealed well.

“The cadets are arriving now, in a moment I will address them to establish the purpose of the program. I expect your full support and input as I request it during the assembly. Today brings about profound change for Shinra, and the SOLDIER Program.”

The president spoke smoothly and confidently as always, the curve of his lip highlighting his smugness.

Genesis was smug at times too, but this was enough to make him gag.

Time to get this over with.

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Excited and curious voices filled the auditorium, the cadets were all guessing what the purpose of the assembly was for.

The room fell silent as the president stepped out on the stage, followed by the Elite Trio standing behind the president.

Rufus stood at the podium and addressed the audience.

“Good morning to you all, I imagine you are wondering why I have called this assembly. Allow me to clarify.”

Cloud looked up from the back of the auditorium, past the president and gazed upon his idols.

Is this what Genesis meant?

The president went on to explain the Stepping into SOLDIER Program. Cadets had the chance to be selected to receive specialised training by the Elite Trio.

Cloud’s heart began to race, as he imagined being trained by his idols, it would be a dream come true.

At the completion of the program, candidates would join SOLDIER with the recommendation of Sephiroth, Angeal, or Genesis.

But that dream instantly shattered into a thousand pieces for Cloud when the president explained how cadets would be selected. Superior officers would put forth an application for suitable candidates.

There was no way in hell Moore would select Cloud. He just could not catch a break. He hunched his back, lowering his elbows to his knees and rested his face in his hands.

Cloud was lost in his own head, this happened often, it didn’t even register when his idols delivered inspiring speeches.

What did it matter, he would never get close to them now anyway. When Cloud sat up, the auditorium was almost empty, apart from a familiar raven haired First.

“Heya spiky!”

“Oh..h..hey uh , Zack.”

“Think you will get selected for the program? It would be awesome if you did, we would get to hang out a lot more since you’d be trained by one of the Elite.

Did he just say hang out..more often. Did Zack imply they would be hanging out regardless?

“I..I don’t think so.” Cloud looked at his feet.

“Why’s that? You seem like you are hella dedicated, I reckon your superior officer will select you for sure!”

If only he knew what Cloud had been dealing with. Looking into Zack’s enthusiastic face, he could not help but smile and nod.

Not that he believed it anyway. But Zack’s smiling face was worth pretending for.

They parted ways after a short farewell and got on with the day. Cloud spent all day with his stomach in knots for what was awaiting him that evening.

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Cloud arrived at Sergeant Moore’s office, promptly at 1900. He didn’t even need to knock as the ill-tempered man was already waiting at the door.

Cloud swallowed slowly. He could feel the hatred radiating off the man.

“Inside, Strife, now!!”

Cloud moved with haste, the door closed and locked behind him.

Why did he lock the door?

Cloud started to sweat as he could sense something bad was going to happen.

Moore walked slowly around Cloud, stalking him like prey.

“You are a pathetic little runt, Strife. I told you before that I will not stand for dishonesty.”

Cloud opened his mouth to speak but thought better of it and snapped it shut.

“You really are a waste of space, a little weakling. You’d never make it into SOLDIER. Don’t think I believed for a second that any First-Class SOLDIERs would have anything to do with you.”

Cloud felt tears welling in his eyes, but he willed them away, he didn’t want to give Moore the satisfaction.

“It’s time you start acting like a man and not the little bitch that you are. So, I’m going to help you, Strife.”

Moore stood behind Cloud, he felt his disgusting calloused hands reach up to his neck. It took Cloud by surprise when Moore removed his scarf which exposed his blonde ponytail.

He felt sickened when Moore pressed against his back and guided him toward the desk.

Cloud didn’t have time to think as Moore’s large hand grabbed his hair and slammed his face into the desk, bending him over in the process.

He could feel his face bruise, his teeth ached and he felt blood trickle down from his nose.

The grip did not release but got tighter.

Once the daze had passed and he could see clearly, Cloud spoke up not realising the quiver in his voice as he spoke.

“Please, Sergeant Moore, please stop. I didn’t lie, I swear it. You can ask the commanders. They’ll tell you!”

Cloud heard the desk draw open and could hear the sound of a knife being unsheathed.

Oh fuck. He was going to kill him. Cloud started to panic and begged the sergeant to stop!

Cloud felt his hair being pulled firmly by his ponytail. All he could hear through his sobs was the sound of his hair being painfully sliced off at the hair tie.

Moore slammed the cut off golden ponytail on the desk next to Cloud’s head.

He bent over Cloud and spoke directly in his ear. It didn’t leave him with the same feeling that Genesis did, this time he was terrified.

“Now you look less like a Shinra bitch and more like a Shinra mutt.”

He released his hold on Cloud before insulting him again. Cloud didn’t move, he just let the tears flow.

“Bent over a desk is the only way a SOLDIER would ever want someone like you. Get the fuck out of my sight, Strife.”

And Cloud did what he knew how to do well, he ran, ran as fast as he could.

He didn’t know which direction he went. He didn’t know how long he ran for, only that suddenly he couldn’t catch his breath, everything started to spin.

Then everything went dark.

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A soft hand brushed through his hair gently, it almost reminded him of the way his mother would attempt to sooth him as a child. Except this hand was much larger than his mum’s but felt soft, nonetheless.

“..det ..rife.”

“.adet .trife.”

A distant voice began to grow stronger in Cloud’s mind.

“Cadet Strife?”

His eyes shot wide open, a familiar pain on the side of his face and the taste of blood in his mouth was a reminder of the events that occurred. He could handle pain, but the shame he felt ate away deep inside of his heart and mind.

Weak. Pathetic. Waste of space. Runt. Shinra mutt…

Through blurred vision he noticed a large shape hovering over him.

Oh gods. It was Sergeant Moore. He had come back to finish the job. He started to tremble, eyes burning red.

When Cloud’s vision cleared, he was confronted by the shine of Mako eyes which looked worried.

“Cadet Strife, are you ok? Don’t be afraid, do you remember me from today? I am Commander Angeal Hewley.”

Cloud looked into the raven-haired commander’s kind face, and this helped settle his heart rate.

“I..I am fine, Commander Hewley, sir.” He was anything but fine, but he wasn’t prepared to admit this to an Elite SOLDIER. “Where am I, sir?”

“You are just outside of Shinra Tower, I found you here, passed out. I was returning from a short mission in the Slums.”

Strife, you idiot. Only he would run towards his idols’ home and collapse like a fool.

“Oh, I’m sorry to have kept you from getting home,” Cloud replied.

Odin above, not only did he embarrass himself, but he has also made a commander waste his time on him when he could be at home.

Cloud pulled himself to his feet. He needed to leave before he embarrassed himself further.

“Strife, you have injuries to your face, and you passed out, it is probable you have a concussion. I need to escort you to the infirmary.”

Commander Hewley looked at Cloud with concern.

No. No. He could not go there. Too many questions would be asked about how he acquired his injuries. They’ll insist on checking Cloud’s entire body. There was no way he was going to handle having his clothes removed and being observed and touched. No. No. He had to get away, now!

Cloud took a step back from the commander, preparing for his exit. He was fast, he could outrun the burly commander, right?

What Cloud did not count on, was Hewley’s enhanced hearing. He noticed Cloud’s heart rate started to elevate after mentioning the infirmary.

 He had already worked out Cloud’s next move.

Cloud ran, this time away from the kind commander who was trying to help him. He didn’t deserve help. He wasn’t worth it.

He didn’t get far. A strong arm hooked under his right arm and over his left shoulder. It only took one of the commander’s muscular arms to hold him in place. This was SOLDIER strength.

Cloud struggled anyway, desperately trying to free himself from his grasp. He was no match for SOLDIER strength, but he was stubborn, and that counted for something!

He grunted out, “Let go of me, I am not going there, you can’t make me!”

Angeal wouldn’t deny that he was intrigued by the cadet’s sudden defiance, when earlier in the day he was noticeably shy and very polite.

The blonde cadet was now thrashing about in his hold, he reminded Angeal of an angry kitten.

“Cadet Strife, running from a superior is a serious offense, mouthing off at one is something else entirely. You missed a ‘sir’ in there somewhere too, cadet.”

Cloud ceased his struggle immediately and went limp in the commander’s hold, his heart still racing.

Angeal considered himself an honourable man but couldn’t help how Cloud’s sudden submission stirred something inside him.

“I am going to let go of you now, cadet. You will not attempt to run again, is that clear?”

Cloud swallowed thickly, “yes, sir,” he barely whispered.

“I know you are afraid, Cadet Strife. I will avoid the infirmary for the moment, but I must tend to your wounds, do you understand?”

“Yes, sir.” Cloud kept his head down.

It was then that Angeal noticed the tattered strands of Cloud’s hair near his nape where he had earlier sported a ponytail. He noticed fine red cuts on Cloud’s neck. Only a trained, enhanced eye would realise these were caused from a small blade.

He decided against mentioning it for the moment to avoid panicking the blonde.

“Follow me, cadet.”

Cloud trailed behind Angeal like a lost puppy.

He was led to the tower. Being part of the infantry, Cloud never had reason to enter the tower, so this would be a first for him.

#

Upon entering the building, Cloud saw an extravagant Foyer, Angeal walked him to the nearest elevator. They entered, and as the doors closed Angeal hit a button and they started to ascend.

Cloud hoped his stomach contents would stay where they belonged, he had the worst motion sickness. The last thing he needed now was to puke on a SOLDIER Elite.

They exited on the Firsts Apartment floor. Angeal guided him down the hallway of doors.

Angeal thought carefully, he wouldn’t bring Cloud to Genesis’ apartment which all his lovers practically lived in, it would be too confronting for Cloud, so he opted for his barely used apartment.

What Cloud thought would be an office was the personal apartment of the SOLDIER First.

It was homely, plants lined the windows and covered most surfaces, fragrances of flowers tickled Cloud’s nose.

He was instructed to sit on a large sofa while Angeal left the room momentarily. He returned with a med kit and yellow Materia.

“What is that, sir?”

“This is Sense Materia. It will alert me to any significant injuries the eye cannot see. Since we are both off duty, we can lose the formalities. Cloud, I would like to scan you for injuries, then patch up your wounds.”

“Uh..ok,sir..I mean… Angeal.”  The commander smiled at him fondly.

As the commander used a careful and practiced hand to clean and patch up the minor injuries, Cloud silently stared at the commander’s handsome and masculine face.

“Thank you, Angeal. I’m sorry about earlier.”

“It’s fine, Cloud.” Angeal used this moment of calm to gently prompt the cadet about his injuries.

“Cloud, what happened?”

He looked away from Angeal and simply replied, “nothing, it’s fine.”

Angeal tried again. “Cloud, this morning, you had long hair. Between this morning's assembly, classes and patrols, you wouldn’t have had time to get a haircut.”

“No, sir.”

“I can tell that a small knife was used to slice your hair, your neck had light cuts. I can tell that your face was violently pressed into a solid surface.”

“Yes, sir.” Cloud couldn’t stop the tear rolling down his cheek.

“Was it the other cadets from your squad?” Angeal hoped this would be the case.

Cloud hesitated, “n-no, sir.”

Now it was Angeal’s turn to hesitate.

“Was it…one of your superiors?”

Cloud didn’t respond. How could he tell one of his idols what happened. Yes sir, my superior officer bent me over his desk and cut my hair off to look less like a Shinra bitch. He would just sound like a pathetic loser. He also knew things would get worse if he revealed that Sergeant Moore was the one who attacked him.

So, Cloud just lowered his head instead.

Angeal suddenly felt sick to his stomach. Shit.

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After tending to Cloud’s wounds and finding there was no concussion or other significant injuries, Angeal had escorted Cloud back to the barracks since it was past curfew. After safely returning the cadet, Angeal walked back to Shinra Tower. He had much to think about.

Cloud refused to name the perpetrator, so it left Angeal unable to act. This didn’t sit right with the honour bound SOLDIER. By law, Cloud was still a minor. He had knowledge that an adult has abused him, and he was not even able to help him.

Angeal decided he would speak to his lovers and see what they could do to help the boy. He couldn’t shake the frightened and defeated look on Cloud’s face, nor the tears in his eyes.

Anger boiled inside of Angeal.

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Angeal let himself into the apartment, quietly took off his boots and walked towards the living room. Genesis was sprawled out like a cat on the sofa, his copy of loveless in hand. Zack lay on the floor watching some trashy TV. He knew at this time of night, Sephiroth would be in the kitchen preparing tea. It always warmed his heart to come home to them, no matter how bad a day he had, he always felt better coming home.

“Geal! You’re back! Everything go ok with your mission?” His youngest lover smiled widely at him.

“It was very straightforward, nothing to it.”

A familiar hand lay softly on his cheek. “Then why are you so late, love? You look burdened and I smell blood on you.”

Genesis eyed his partner with concern but placed a chaste kiss on his lips. Angeal breathed deeply, soaking in the scent of Genesis’ sweet scented shampoo.

Before he could answer, his silver haired lover entered the room, carrying a tray with a tea pot and cups.

“Was the cadet ok from his injuries?”

Zack and Genesis looked from Sephiroth to Angeal with surprised expressions.

Angeal sighed, he sometimes forgot that his lover was more enhanced than most, his range of hearing was incredible.

“He was fine, Seph. But I think it would be best if we all sit down and have some tea, and I will explain everything.”

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Cloud finally made it back to the barracks after being escorted home by Angeal. He crept quietly to his bunk and changed into shorts and a sleep shirt. Most of his squad had already fallen asleep, so he tried not to wake them and draw attention to himself.

He didn’t really have friends in his squad, but no one gave him a tough time. Everyone was always too tired from classes and patrols, that free time mostly consisted of eating and sleeping.

Cloud heard the rustling of sheets.

“Strife, is that you?” mumbled Simons, a brown-haired cadet with hazel eyes.

“Yeah, it’s me. Sorry I woke you.”

Another voice called out which was deeper than Simons.

“Did you get lost after dinner, Strife?” Richards mocked, though there was no malice behind it. Richards was one of the taller cadets, he sported a buzz cut and had dazzling light brown eyes.

Simons turned on the lamp beside his bunk and looked over at Cloud.

“Shit, Strife, da fuck happened to you?”

“Nothing, I tripped over and smacked my face.”

Richards piped up, “what happened to your hair?”

“Just got sick of it and cut it myself, I did a shit job as you can tell. I’m exhausted, gonna get some sleep, ‘night guys.”

Cloud crawled beneath the covers and turned away from his comrades, he really didn’t want to talk anymore. He just wanted this day to end. He closed his eyes and waited for sleep to take him away.

Richards and Simons were left staring stunned at each other. Eventually the light went out and the sounds of snoring filled the room.

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“Poor Spiky!” Zack frowned, for once his face displayed seriousness, he couldn’t believe anyone would hurt Cloud, he seemed like a great kid! The thought that a superior was behind the attack made his stomach churn.

Angeal looked over to Zack, “I know, Puppy. Cloud is stubborn but mostly afraid. You should have seen him when I mentioned going to the infirmary. I think he believes he will be worse off if he names the culprit.”

“Geal, I’m gonna visit Cloud tomorrow. Maybe he will tell me who did it.”

Angeal considered his youngest lover, he was closer in age to Cloud so perhaps, he would feel more comfortable to speak up.

“I think that would be fine, Puppy.”

Angeal looked over to Sephiroth who had so far remained silent.

“Seph, can you clear Zack’s schedule tomorrow, and perhaps pull some strings to get Cloud on sick leave for the day?”

Sephiroth nodded and opened his laptop and began typing.

“Thanks, Seph.”

It was unusual for Genesis to be so quiet over an incident such as this, but he had been behind his own laptop typing away.

“Gen, what are you doing?” Angeal asked.

“I am simply pulling up the little bird’s file with Shinra.”

As Genesis scanned the information, he suddenly stopped at something the made his eyebrow raise in surprise.

“What is it, Gen?” Angeal asked.

“Well, well. It would appear that the little bird has a talent for materia. His results in both practical use and theoretical knowledge are nothing short of wondrous. I am indeed surprised why we were not alerted about him earlier. He would make for a great candidate for SOLDIER. We should at least see him in the Stepping into SOLDIER Program.”

This caught the attention of the younger raven-haired SOLDIER. “Spiky told me this morning, he doesn’t believe his superiors will select him. Now, I understand why he must’ve said that.”

Sephiroth’s eyes roamed over to his younger lover.

“Zachary, it is highly likely that his superiors have been abusing their position of power to barre Strife from anything related to SOLDIER, for reasons we do not know. It would not be the first time something like this has happened within Shinra.”

“There’s no honour in that.” Zack pouted.

Genesis gazed at Zack.

“My friend, the fates are cruel. Do not fear, love, we shall help our little bird.”

“Our little bird, Gen?” Angeal cooed.

“Yes, Ange. But if you’d rather not share, love, he can be all mine.”

Genesis smiled seductively at Angeal and walked towards him, gently swaying his hips as he did.

Angeal’s eyes darkened. Genesis moved in close to his lover and pressed himself against his toned chest. He wasted no time pressing their hips together. Genesis closed the rest of the distance between the two by pressing his lips to Angeal’s.

He knew his lover had a trying day, and he wished to momentarily make him forget about it.

The burly commander placed his large hands on Genesis’ hips and deepened their kiss, guiding his tongue into Genesis’ mouth pulling a moan from the fiery red haired.

Sephiroth watched from his seat, slitted pupils dilating. Zach was uncharacteristically quiet, his breaths coming in short bursts, his eyes focused on his lovers.

Angeal pulled away from the kiss, and whispered, “bedroom.”

#

Cloud woke up with a mild headache, he had no intention of going for a jog today, and the thought of attending classes and patrols made him groan. Regardless of how he felt, he pulled himself from his bed and dressed quietly.

It was 0800 and Cloud stood at the end of his bunk like his squad mates, ready for morning inspections.

He would see him, the man who attacked him, the man who was meant to look out for him.

The barrack door burst open and in strutted Sergeant Moore, arm muscles flexed, his cold eyes staring down the cadets.

“Prepare for inspection, cadets.”

The entire squad stood to attention, arms by their sides. Moore walked down the line of bunks and glanced over Cloud, not making eye contact.

“You are all dismissed, except for you, Strife.”

Cloud tried to swallow but his throat felt restricted. This was not good.

Once the barrack had emptied, Moore turned to Cloud, his expression unreadable.

“Strife, you’re on sick leave today from what I hear.”

Cloud was confused. He didn’t request any leave and he didn’t go to the infirmary. Only superiors and medical could place a cadet on sick leave. Cloud didn’t respond so Moore continued.

“You know cadet, it would be in your best interest not to tell anyone of our little meeting yesterday, I trust you understand that?”

Cloud quivered, “yes sir, I did not say anything.”

“Hmm and yet you went to the infirmary.”

Moore started walking closer to Cloud who instinctively moved backwards until he his back reached the wall.

“What did you tell them?” Moore’s eyes showed anger whilst the rest of his face remained neutral.

Cloud lied.

“I just told them I tripped and hit my face on the way down, I swear I didn’t say anything.” Cloud felt his eyes start to burn.

Moore moved in on Cloud. He brought his hand up to Cloud’s cheek and caressed his face, he moved his thumb over the bruises then grazed his thumb over Cloud’s split lip. It was as though he was admiring his work. Cloud’s eyes widened in fear.

Moore held Cloud’s face squeezing the bruised side causing the boy to whimper.

“I believe you, Strife. But if you ever forget how to keep your mouth shut, I can think of many ways to keep you quiet.”

Moore did something that caused bile to pool in Cloud’s throat. In one swift motion he pushed his thumb inside Cloud’s mouth.

The barrack doors opened, and Moore removed his thumb and moved away from Cloud who was still trembling against the wall.

A familiar and safe voice called out. “Hey Spike, you in here?”

Moore eyed Zack with disgust. Zack was a head taller than Moore and had no issues staring him down with his mako tinted eyes.

Zack didn’t move but glanced his eyes over to where Cloud was.

“You doin’ ok there, Cloud?”

With great relief, Cloud responded. “I’m ok, Zack.”

Zack returned his gaze to Moore, he didn’t need to wait for Cloud to identify the perpetrator, he already sensed this sergeant had hurt Cloud. Zack could hear Cloud’s heart racing, he was terrified.

For the moment, Zack needed to show restraint.

“Don’t you have somewhere to be, Sergeant?” Zack’s tone of voice was deep and dangerous.

Moore didn’t say a thing, he just walked away.

Cloud instantly calmed down once Moore was gone. Thank Gaia Zack turned up, Cloud was grateful.

“So, Spike, I hear you have a day off, wanna hang out?” He smiled brightly at Cloud.

Cloud couldn’t help the smile growing on his own face.

“Sure Zack, I’d love to.”

Chapter Text

Cloud couldn’t believe his eyes. Zack meant it when he said they would spend time together, he wasn’t just humouring him. He was still quite shaken from Sergeant Moore’s latest attack, but he decided he would put his emotions aside as nothing was going to ruin this opportunity for him. Zack was a kind person, and he didn’t deserve to deal with Cloud’s issues. He kept his face free of strong emotions.

“What ya wanna do today, Spike? We could go into one of the sectors for a look around?”

Cloud thought about how he looked right now, hair in disarray, bruised up face, he would be a walking embarrassment. He decided that he at least owed it to Zack to let him know what he was thinking.

“Uh...Zack. I umm…kinda look like shit at the moment and if we go into the sectors, people will stare and I…I don’t want to embarrass you.” Cloud looked at Zack with his baby blues.

Zack put a reassuring hand on Cloud’s shoulder. “Don’t sweat it Cloud, you could never embarrass me. What happened to you was not ok, do you understand?”

“Yes, Zack.”

Zack stared thoughtfully at Cloud for a moment, with his thumb and index finger on his chin, then snapped his fingers together.

“How about this! We can hang out at my apartment, I’ve got some killer video games and some pretty awesome movies. We can order in for lunch. It will be the best. Sound good, Cloudy?”

Cloudy? Gaia, this man was just too good to be true. Cloud felt his face blush, he tried his best to ignore it.

“That actually sounds really good, Zack.”

“Listen Spike, Genesis gets back from his meetings after lunch, will you let him give you a cure? You would feel more comfortable walking around once you are all healed up!”

“I don’t think I could bother Commander Rhapsodos to cure me, the bruises will heal.”

“Trust me Spike, Gen would love to help you.” Zack chuckled lightly to himself.

                                                            #

Zack’s apartment was vastly different to Angeal’s, it was messier, with assorted items tossed about the floor, dishes unwashed in the sink, video game console and games scattered in front of the television. Despite this, Cloud felt very much at home.

“Hey Cloudy, you ever played Choco Warriors before?”

“Actually, I’ve never played a video game before.” Being the child of a single mum, Cloud didn’t have a whole lot, but he always had a warm meal and roof over his head. Video games were a luxury they just couldn’t afford or justify.

“Well Cloudy, you are welcome over any time to play my video games.” Zack winked at Cloud.

At lunch, Zack had ordered two large pizzas and soft drinks. Being enhanced, Zack did eat the majority, and Cloud was in awe by how much the SOLDIER could eat!

When Cloud had insisted on cleaning up the dishes in the sink as a thank you for lunch, Zack took out his PHS and messaged his lovers.

Zack: All going well here, Cloudy is the cutest. He insisted that he needs to clean the dishes!

Ange: Zack, he is your guest, why is he cleaning??

Zack: Gealll! He insisted, said something about his mother kicking his ass if he didn’t help out! Spike’s a bit scary when he makes up his mind about something!

Ange: He can be defiant too!

Gen: Did you like it when he defied you, love? ;)

Ange: Brat

Zack: Guuuys!!! Seriously Stawppp it! Cloudy’s still 17! Gen, could you give Cloud a cure when you finish up your meeting?

Gen: Of course, I’d be delighted to work my magic on him. Bring the little chickling to our apartment at 1400

Zack: Are you ever not flirting?

Gen: You know you love it

Seph: Gen, we are in a meeting, please attempt to remain professional.

Gen: oh, my silver general, you do realise you are texting me about not texting during a meeting for the sake of professionalism

Seph: Brat.

Gen: How rude!

Zack chuckled as he pocketed his PHS.

They still had well over an hour until Gen was back home. Zack prepared himself to talk to Cloud about the incident.

“Dishes are done,” Cloud called from the kitchen.

“Awesome, come sit with me, Spike.”

Cloud walked over to the sofa and sat beside Zack. He probably sat a little too close as their thighs slightly brushed against each other.

Zack took a deep breath to centre himself before he began.

“Cloud, I know you haven’t really wanted to talk about what happened last night, but I want you to know that you can trust me. I would never make fun of you or think less of you because of what happened. Geal kinda worked out that it was one of your superiors who hurt you, but you wouldn’t say who.”

Cloud looked at Zack, his face showed he was being truthful, his opinion of Cloud wouldn’t change. Maybe, he could trust him?

Zack continued.

“This morning when I came to the barracks, you were terrified, I could hear your heart racing. That sergeant from this morning, was he the one?”

Cloud looked away, his eyes had already begun to betray him. He promised himself he wouldn’t be an emotional wreck in front of Zack.

It certainly took Cloud by surprise when he felt Zack’s finger gently wipe away the lone tear attempting to run down his face. His face had been touched by Moore this morning, but that touch was unwanted. Zack’s touch was different, softer, meaningful and safe.

Clouds lips parted slightly as he stared into Zack’s face. He answered Zack’s question with a nod of his head.

In barely a whisper he begged Zack, “please, don’t do anything, he’s going to do something much worse to me if I tell anyone.”

“But Spike, he’s abusing you? He can’t get away with it!”

“I can’t prove he did this to me so they will think I am lying. Sergeant Moore will get really angry at me.”

 Cloud hesitated before deciding to tell Zack how Moore had threatened him.

“He…he told me if I forget how to keep my mouth shut, he knows a lot of ways to keep me quiet.”

Zack’s stomach recoiled.

“We are not gonna let him touch you, Cloud, I promise, SOLDIER’s honour!”

“Zack, I…I want to become a SOLDIER. I know I’m small and weak, but I want to help people. I want to protect people who…who can’t protect themselves, people like me.”

Cloud drew in his knees to his chest and wrapped his arms around his legs.

“Cloudy, that’s a great goal to have, you will ace it. I will help you as much as I can, because that’s what friends are for.”

“Thank you, Zack, thanks for being my friend…Would it be ok if I have a nap before we see Genesis?”

“Sure thing Cloudy.” Without warning, Zack gently pulled Cloud to rest against his shoulder, one strong arm wrapped around him keeping him secure and safe. Cloud let his eyes close and fell into a peaceful sleep.

Zack took out his PHS once again.

Zack: I got the name. We need to talk tonight, is anyone away on missions tonight?

Ange: Good work, Zack. I have a short mission tomorrow near Kalm.                    

Gen: Give me the name, Zack, I shall reduce the beast to ash where he stands. No love, no missions for me until next week.

Seph: I will be in the office the rest of the week, but I will be available when needed. Gen, no Firaga. Though, we will deal with the problem

Gen: very well, love, I shall summon Knights of the Round instead

Seph: Brat

#

Zack and Cloud walked down the Firsts corridor and stopped at Genesis’ apartment. Even though Zack lived here, he still knocked on the door. Cloud wasn’t yet aware of his relationship with the Firsts.

Cloud was getting anxious, he nervously brushed his hand through his hair, wishing he had his helmet. Regrettably, the helmet would look strange whilst he was wearing skinny jeans and a t-shirt two sizes too big.

The red commander answered the door, Cloud looked him up and down, surprised by the laid-back outfit. Genesis sported a crimson tank top, black jeans with buckles down each leg. His feet were bare, apart from the red nail polish on his toenails.

Genesis tilted his head, “see something you like, dear?”

Clouds eyes widened, he didn’t mean to stare, he also did not mean to find the nail polish attractive on the commander. Gods, his mother always told him it was rude to stare. He hadn’t even made it into the apartment and already had screwed up. Good job, dumbass!

“I..I uhh… I’m sorry Commander Rhapsodos, sir!” He saluted for added measure.

“Cloudy, chill. Gen, just no!” Zack rolled his eyes.

Genesis cackled, “come in gentlemen.”

This apartment was by far the largest, its décor was quite modern. Interesting artworks filled the walls and all the couches in the lounge room were red leather.

Everything was obviously expensive. Cloud removed his shoes at the door. Gaia, even the carpet felt luxurious beneath his feet!

“Zachary, whilst I tend to your little friend, why don’t you make yourself useful and prepare some tea. I have some Banoran sweets in the cupboard.”

“Sure Gen, no worries.”

“Follow me, Cloud,” Genesis smiled at him softly.

“Yes, sir!”

Genesis stopped and pointed to himself. “It’s Genesis.”

“Yes…Genesis,” Cloud managed to croak.

Cloud was led to what he assumed was a guest bedroom. Genesis prompted Cloud to sit on the bed. He went to the dresser and extracted a green orb from the first drawer. He also took the chair from the dresser and placed it in front of Cloud, then sat down.

He didn’t know where to look, so he decided that the wall to the left of him was super interesting.

“Cloud, will you look at me, please?”

Cloud gazed into those Mako blue eyes.

Genesis reached out his hand towards Cloud’s bruised face. He of course would not deny Genesis’ touch, but everyone seemed to just touch Cloud, whether he wanted it or not.

Genesis’ hand stopped before touching Clouds cheek. “May I touch you, Cloud? I’d like to assess your injuries before I heal you.”

“You’re asking to touch me?” Cloud looked bewildered.

“Yes, darling. Consent is important. Judging from your reaction, I assume you’re used to people taking what they want.”

Cloud scowled. This was very different to what he was used to.

“You…you have my permission.”

Genesis wasted no time, first by gently pushing some stray gold strands behind Cloud’s ear. He enjoyed how easily the blonde’s face blushed.

He took stock of the Bruises on his face.

“Cloud, could you please stand and turn around.”

He did so, then Genesis placed a gentle hand on the nape of his neck.

Cloud froze. Suddenly, images of Moore filled his mind. Images of being forced onto the desk.

“No, please. Please stop,” Cloud whimpered softly.

Genesis instantly released his touch.

“I’m sorry,” Cloud quickly added.

“No, Cloud. You do not need to apologise for setting boundaries.” Cloud sat back on the bed.

“Cloud. I know it must be difficult to talk about, but I must ask, are there other injuries, ones Angeal may have missed?”

Cloud hesitated, he remembered how his hips hurt when he was pushed into the desk. But he would have to explain this to Genesis, and he would need to pull his pants down slightly to show him the injury.

“There is nothing to be ashamed of, no judgement will befall you here, darling.”

Cloud took a deep breath.

“When I was… pushed onto the desk (he couldn’t bear to say bent over) my uh…hips were pressed hard against the edges.”

“Do you feel comfortable enough to show me the injury?”

It surprised Cloud that he did feel ok to show Genesis, he felt safe with him. He silently stood, carefully unbuttoned his jeans and pulled the zipper down. He grabbed both his jeans and boxers and slid them down enough to only reveal his hips. Purple bruises laced both sides.

“Angeal’s sense materia would have missed these as the materia searches deeper for broken bones and concussion. Cloud, when you were on the desk, your hair had been forcibly cut off. Did the one who attacked you say anything when he cut your hair off?”

Cloud looked away. “He wanted me to look less like a Shinra bitch.”

Genesis said nothing further about that comment but filed that information away for later.

“Cloud, one final question, did he..”

He was cut off by Cloud’s whisper, “no, he didn’t rape me.”

He did fail to mention Moore’s threat of it though.

As cloud buttoned his jeans he was surrounded by a sparkling, green light. His bruising and pain were gone as well as the constant reminder of the abuse.

Baby blues met Mako blue. “Thank you, Genesis.”  

“You are most welcome, precious. Before we have tea, will you allow me to fix your hair?”

Clouds response was instant, “yes, please.”

Chapter Text

The Firsts sat around the dining room table. Genesis had prepared cups of strong coffee to help get through what might be a heavy conversation.

Sephiroth began. “Zack, tell us what new information you have gathered in relation to the attack on Cadet Strife.”

Zack looked at his lovers, then spoke.

“I found out who the guy was as soon as I arrived at Cloud’s barracks. When I opened the doors, Cloud was against the wall, his heart rate was erratic. There was a sergeant in the room, and he walked over to me, and he looked at me like he hated me or something. I didn’t like the vibes he gave me, and I knew it was him. Cloud confirmed it when I asked him at my apartment, he started to cry when I mentioned him. His name is Moore, not sure of his first name though.”

His lovers remained silent, Zack took a sip of his coffee and then spoke again.

“Cloud begged me not to do anything as he said he can’t prove Moore hurt him and no one would believe him. Moore threatened to hurt Cloud if he forgets how to keep his mouth shut. Guys, Cloud is terrified, we gotta do something!”

His eldest lover spoke, “calm yourself Zachary, we need all the information to have a clearer picture of what we are dealing with before we act.”

“But Moore might hit Cloud again!” Zack frowned.

Genesis took a cleansing breath, realising his lovers have missed a vital aspect to Cloud’s attack.

“Zack, my love, the reason for Cloud’s terror this morning was not simply fear of a beating. You may have unintentionally saved Cloud from a sexual assault.”

All three men looked at Genesis, Angeal looked completely devastated. Sephiroth remained stoic as always.

This afternoon, Cloud shared with me many details of his attack. I know he decided to leave out quite a few details to spare his dignity, but the story was not hard to piece together.

Last night Cloud was forcibly bent over Moore’s desk, the man stood over him and cut his hair. When I prompted Cloud if Moore had said anything during the act, he stated that Moore wanted him to look less like a Shinra bitch.”

No one spoke, so he continued.

“Moore seems to have hatred for Shinra and has determined our little bird to be a bastard son of the late president.”

Sephiroth quirked an eyebrow at this.

“Though Cloud had difficulty wording it, Moore had at some point thrusted against his body, his hips were covered in purple bruises. Cloud told me that Moore did not rape him.”

Angeal’s face paled and he lowered his head. Genesis looked at him sympathetically, he knew this information would hurt his lover, his honour was everything to him. Genesis would talk to him later.

Their youngest lover was on the verge of tears, anger boiling in his throat.

“We sent him back to the barracks, we sent him back to that asshole!”

Adrenaline was coursing through Zack as the Mako glowed brighter in his eyes.

“I’m gonna go get him, I’m not gonna leave him there.” Zack made a beeline for the door but not before a powerful voice stopped him in his tracks.

“SOLDIER First Class, Zachary Fair. You will cease this course of action and sit down until I have dismissed you.” This was General Sephiroth of SOLDIER speaking, not his quiet older lover.

Zack turned to attention, “Yes, General Sephiroth, Sir.” Zack sat down next to Angeal, who placed a knowing hand on his knee.

It was Sephiroth’s turn to speak.

“What we now lack is solid evidence to charge Moore. We need surveillance in the barracks and in Moore’s office. I will find out if there is any truth to Moore’s hatred for Shinra and the reason for it.”

“How can we keep Cadet Strife safe?” This time it was Angeal who interjected.

“Oh Ange, my love, you leave that all up to me, I have a little plan coinciding with the Stepping into SOLDIER Program. The arrow has left the bow of the Goddess.” Genesis smirked.

Zack piped up, “my schedule is more flexible than the rest of you, especially with the Stepping into SOLDIER Program starting next week. I can spend time with Cloud when he isn’t in class or on patrols. Gen, I think we need to get Cloudy a PHS so he can contact us when he needs help.”

“Consider it done, darling. I am sure our little bird would love to be able to call his mother too.” Genesis had read Cloud’s file thoroughly, only his mother was listed, he had no known father.

Sephiroth concluded the meeting and excused himself to his study, his lovers knew not to disturb him there.

Angeal silently retreated to the balcony, the fresh night air somehow soothed his worries. Genesis followed quietly. Angeal was leaning against the railing, his head hung low. Despite being the burly commander, he appeared small and vulnerable. Genesis wrapped his arms around his lover’s waist and gently rested his head on Angeal’s shoulder.

“Gen, I should have realised, I didn’t even think.”

“You weren’t to know, love, you helped him and kept him safe, after the attack.”

“I…I restrained him, he was struggling, he begged for me to let him go and I didn’t stop. I used my authority to force him to stop struggling. He went limp in my arms, he gave up because he knew I could overpower him. I am as guilty as Moore.”

“Oh, my honour bound lover, you did nothing wrong. You did not want him to run away because he was injured, not because you wished to take advantage of him.”

Angeal sighed and turned to embrace Genesis.

“I still want to talk to him. I don’t leave until 0830 tomorrow, I might take a walk down to the barracks before I leave.”

Genesis smiled and placed a gentle kiss on Angeal’s lips.

#

Angeal had just reached Cloud’s barrack, and he could see Cloud being reprimanded by a superior officer.

“Strife, stealing is a criminal offense punishable by dishonourable discharge from Shinra.”

“Please sir, I didn’t steal anything!” Cloud stated, his arms firmly by his side.

“You’ve always been a despicable runt, must be the Shinra blood, you insubordinate little…”

“Is there a problem here, Sergeant?” Angeal interrupted. The commander stood to his full height and readjusted the Buster sword on his back. Cloud couldn’t hide his smirk when Moore flinched.

“This cadet has stolen healing materia and has used it on himself without authority.”

“Ahh, I see,” Angeal Spoke in a relaxed tone. “I approved the use of healing materia to provide Cadet Strife a cure. Commander Rhapsodos performed it himself using his personal materia. Now, if you don’t mind sergeant, I must speak with Cadet Strife about another matter.”

Sergeant Moore grunted out a quick, “Of course, commander.” He saluted and left in a huff.

Cloud looked up at Angeal, a look of adoration on his face. “Thank you, Commander Hewley, sir!”

“At ease cadet. You are welcome.”

“Are you on your way to a mission, sir?”

“Yes, but I wanted to speak to you before I left. I owe you an apology, Cloud.”

“Sir?”

“The other night, I restrained you, you said stop and I didn’t, I mistook fear for defiance. For that, I’m sorry.”

“Commander Hewley, you don’t need to apologise, I forced you to restrain me, I ran away from you. You didn’t hurt me, you helped me. Thank you, commander.”

Angeal smiled. “You can call me, Angeal. I’d like for you to join the Firsts and myself for dinner on Friday night, I know Zack is desperate to see you again. I usually cook and we watch movies afterwards.”

Cloud’s entire face turned beet red. Commander Hewley just asked him to have dinner, Gaia!

“I…I would like that very much, Angeal.”

“Wonderful, I’ll have Zachary pick you up at 1800.”

#

It was on Thursday that Genesis found a letter left on his desk. It had the presidential seal, he tore it opened to find the list of candidates selected for the Stepping into SOLDIER Program.

Genesis scanned down to find his assigned candidates. He was not surprised but still angered to see that Cloud was not on the list, despite his excellent results in Materia use.

Genesis picked up the phone, dialed a number, and held the receiver to his ear.

“Ahh Genesis, to what do I owe the pleasure?”

“Mr President, I would like to discuss the candidate list for the Stepping into SOLDIER Program.”

#

It was finally Friday, and Cloud felt a mix of nervousness and excitement. Sharing a meal with his idols and a movie night, surely, he must be dreaming because things like that didn’t happen to Cloud Strife! He hadn’t even been harassed by Moore since Angeal turned up earlier in the week.

He wore his best jeans that hugged his hips just right and were slim around his legs. He chose a soft blue turtleneck tank which showed off his arms. Not that he was muscular, but he didn’t mind how they looked. He opted for his only pair of dress shoes which finished off his look. Was he dressing up to impress the Firsts? Did he want that attention? Did he want them to find him attractive?

When he exited the barrack, Zack was standing there wearing his SOLDIER turtleneck with the addition of black slacks. Zack looked Cloud up and down and swallowed. Cloud reached the desired result with his outfit.

“Hey Spike, ready to go.”

“Yeah, I’m good to go.” Cloud quickly walked in front of Zack, chancing he might check him out as he walked ahead. Not that he knew it, but Zack couldn’t take his eyes off him or the way those jeans highlighted Cloud’s ass.

#

Zack and Cloud were greeted by Genesis who looked immaculate as always, Cloud instantly noted the eyeliner which emphasized his blue eyes.

“Hello, my dear, don’t you look divine and with such beautifully styled hair,” Genesis winked at Cloud.

“I have a great hairdresser, I’ll have to introduce you some time!” Cloud smiled sweetly at Genesis.

When they walked into the kitchen, they were greeted by Angeal who was frying something that smelled delicious, there was rice resting in the cooker and a sauce simmering in another frying pan.

“Welcome Cloud, nice to see you again!” Angeal smiled kindly, though Cloud was sure he saw his eyes darken a little when he gazed at Cloud’s outfit.

Sephiroth entered the kitchen and it threw Cloud off guard to see the general, the Demon of Wutai in simple dress pants and a casual collared shirt unbuttoned to partially expose his muscular and toned chest. His silvery strands were collected into a casual ponytail. He had never seen the man with his hair up before.

“Hello, Cloud.” That baritone voice almost purred his name.

“Hi G-General Sephiroth, s…sir,” Cloud stuttered.

“We are beyond work hours, Sephiroth is fine, Cloud.” Gods, Cloud wished Sephiroth would keep purring his name like that.

“O..of Course, S..sephiroth.”

He must have zoned out because Genesis called out from across the kitchen, “Seph, dear, please don’t break our guest.” Sephiroth chuckled lightly.

The dinner was enjoyable as was the casual banter. Zack chose Rise of Mog-Zilla for the film. Genesis’ commentary proved more interesting than the film.

Cloud couldn’t help but notice how close the Firsts seemed. He saw Genesis rub the back of his finger over Sephiroth’s knuckles, he had seen Zack whisper something in Angeal’s ear which made him blush. But who was he to question it?

After a lengthy farewell, Zack walked Cloud back to the barracks.

“Thanks Zack, I enjoyed spending time with you all.”

“We did too, Cloudy.”

There was a pause.

“Hey Cloud, could I hug you?” This made Cloud blush a nice shade of pink. Cloud moved towards Zack and wrapped his arms around his shoulders, Zack reached around Cloud’s waist and placed his hands on the small of Cloud’s back.

When they regretfully parted, Zack spoke. “I’ll see ya on Monday at the assembly for the Stepping into SOLDIER Program.”

“See you then, Zack.”

Even though it had been a great night, Cloud felt a pang of sadness knowing he had no chance of getting into the program. He also realised that once the program started, the Firsts would be too busy with other cadets that they would forget all about Cloud. But that would be fine, Cloud was used to being alone.

#

The assembly hall was once again bustling with excited energy. Cloud took a seat at the back of the auditorium, he didn’t want the Firsts to see him, it would be for the best to avoid them now, to spare Cloud the pain later.

The familiar hush across the room signaled the commencement of the assembly.

Rufus Shinra took to the stage followed by the Elite Trio. Cloud was certain Zack would be waiting for them on the side of the stage.

The president took to the podium and began the formalities.

“Good morning, it gives me immense pleasure to welcome you to the beginnings of the Stepping into SOLDIER Program. The successful candidates will be announced momentarily, there are three categories to suit our Elite Trio.”

Excited whispers filled the air.

“The categories are as follows: Sword Play and Military Tactics, Sword Play and Hand to Hand Combat, Materia and Advanced Elemental Materia Use. These categories will be led by General Sephiroth, Commander Hewley and Commander Rhapsodos respectfully. There will be fifteen candidates selected, one cadet per infantry unit. Each mentor will be assigned five cadets each.”

Cloud tuned out the first ten candidate names, they were all muscly cadets who could wield swords and looked ready to march off to war. Cloud struggled to lift most of the swords available at Shinra, not that he got much chance to use them in the infantry. Finally, Genesis’ cadets were being announced. He really liked Genesis, and he really did not like the idea of other cadets being near him. Gaia, when did he become so possessive?

“From the Fourth Infantry, Cadet Ambrose. From The Twelfth Infantry, Cadet Nox. From the Ninth Infantry, Cadet Fowler. From the Third Infantry, Cadet Lenox.”

There as a slight pause.

 “And finally, from the Seventh Infantry, Cadet Strife.”

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“And finally, from the Seventh Infantry, Cadet Strife.”

From the stage, a smug grin grew on the fiery commander’s face. His enhanced Mako blue eyes glanced toward Cloud, and he winked at him.

Cloud remained in a state of shock as a round of applause erupted in the room. As the noise died down the President spoke again.

“Congratulations to our successful candidates, Shinra is proud to see and welcome the new faces of SOLDIER. I ask that the selected candidates remain behind to meet their mentors and obtain their information pack which will include an adjusted schedule. Dismissed.”

Cloud remained in his seat, he did not follow the other candidates to meet the mentors as he wasn’t even sure he deserved his place in the program. Did Genesis pity him because he had been assaulted by his superior? Cloud was taught by his mother to work hard for the things he wanted. So, he felt a little conflicted.

A strong hand grabbed his shoulder from behind and squeezed till the pain made him gasp.

“You made quick work of whoring yourself out to SOLDIER, Strife. I told you that is all SOLDIER would think you are good for. You don’t fucking deserve to be in the program, you’re going to regret this. But first things first.” Moore was only whispering, but it was more terrifying than if he were yelling.

Cloud was lifted out of his seat and dragged by his shoulder in the direction of the President. Oh gods.

Tseng’s keen eye noticed the situation immediately and placed himself in front of the president, not that he felt Moore was a real threat. Cloud didn’t know what to do or where to look, so he stared at his boots.

“President Shinra!” Moore bellowed.

Rufus casually stepped around Tseng and smiled towards Moore.

“How can I help you, Sergeant?”

“I didn’t select this bast..cadet. He has no business being in this program. He has somehow convinced the Firsts to vouch for him, most likely by offering favours in return.”

Gaia, he had just been called a whore in front of the president. Would he be kicked out of Shinra?

“Be mindful Sergeant, you are not only labelling this child as a prostitute but are insinuating that our General and Commanders are sex offenders. That is a serious accusation!” The president said this whilst feigning shock.

“Uh..n.noo that’s not what I meant.” Moore stuttered back. By this point the Firsts were standing beside the president.

‘Hmm…well, I didn’t think so,” Rufus said calmly.

Cloud refused to raise his head. How much shame could one person feel. His eyes were starting to sting but he wouldn’t let the tears come. Crying never seemed to help him anyway. Moore still had his hand on Cloud’s shoulder, it hurt quite a bit and had already bruised, but it didn’t matter.

As Cloud gazed down, he saw a familiar set of leather heeled boots move toward him. Genesis placed his hand over Moore’s.

“It is time for you to let go of my student, I do believe it is not customary for sergeants to man handle underage cadets in their care. You require a refresher in basic respect and etiquette.”

“You son of a…” the smell of sizzling flesh reached Cloud’s nose, and he momentarily looked up to see Moore jump back in pain.

“Oh, please forgive me, my materia seems to be malfunctioning, terribly sorry for that.” Genesis stared at Moore with a storm brewing in those mako blue eyes.

Moore had since released Cloud, and looked to the President and to Tseng. When they did not respond, he turned on his heel and stomped out of the auditorium clutching his burnt hand.

Cloud suddenly felt extremely exposed, everyone was staring at him, they had seen how weak he was. He constantly needed someone to bail him out, like a little child. The room seemed to be getting smaller, it felt like he was under water, the voices were all muffled. He was having trouble breathing, only shallow breaths would come. He was cold. Lost.

Gentle hands held his. A warmth flowed through these hands which soothed and heated his own body.

“Breathe with me, Cloud…in nice and slow…hold 2, 3. Breathe out 3,2,1.”

A larger, gentle hand was rubbing circles on his back. It felt nice, safe.

The room started to return to normal, and his breathing started to even out. Genesis was holding his hands and Angeal was rubbing his back gently. Zack looked worried and Sephiroth was staring at him intently, perhaps, monitoring his heart rate?

“There you are, darling.” Genesis cooed.

“You were having a panic attack,” Angeal told him quietly.

“I’m sorry.” Cloud whispered. Shit, he suddenly remembered the President was there, despite his dizziness, Cloud stood to attention and addressed Rufus.

“President Shinra, I apologise for my behaviour (panic attack). Please sir, what Sergeant Moore said, it isn’t true, I never offered favours (acted like a whore) to get into the program.”

“You need not worry, Cadet Strife. I approved your entrance into the program. Once Commander Rhapsodos alerted me to your aptitude for materia, there was no denying your place in the program. I look forward to seeing how you progress.” Rufus carefully analysed Cloud’s face.

With a curt nod, the president exited the room, Tseng following behind him.

Sephiroth was staring at Cloud’s shoulder, aware of his injury. Cloud gave him a pleading look, and Sephiroth understood. He too disliked being the centre of attention and Cloud was overwhelmed enough.

“Hey Cloudy, I have your info pack for you. Congrats buddy!!” Zack ruffled Cloud’s hair and passed him the envelope.

“Oh, thank you Zack!” Cloud offered a smile.

Unsure of what to do next, Cloud said, “I guess I’ll, umm…head back to the barracks.” Back to Moore to face his wrath. He shivered.

Genesis shook his head. “No, dear, you no longer reside in the barracks, you and the other cadets will move into apartments on the SOLDIER floors of Shinra Tower. Zachary and Angeal will fetch your belongings, you will not be returning to the barracks.”

“Yep, we got ya covered, Cloudy! We will meet you back at Gen’s apartment after we drop off your things at your new place. We need to celebrate you getting into the program. You’re gonna be a SOLDIER Spike!” Zack was enthusiastic as ever!

A SOLDIER, his dream just might come true after all. Even if he thought he didn’t deserve his place in the program, he would work his ass off to prove he deserved it!

#

Upon entering the presidential office, Rufus turned to Tseng. “The boy looks an awful lot like my father, maybe this time the rumors are true?”

“If I may president, the boy looks very much like you did at his age, except for the hair.”

Rufus laughed, “where did the boy live before joining the infantry?”

“Nibelheim.”

“Hmm. Shinra mansion. Father did venture there regularly due to the reactor. Any information about the boy’s father?”

“No, sir. No known father.”

“Interesting. Tell me Tseng, why did the sergeant hold such ill will toward myself and the boy?”

“Sergeant Alistair Moore, multiple failed attempts for SOLDIER dating back 10 years ago. He was often heard blaming your father for his failure to enter the program.”

“Yes, according to Genesis, this man seems to believe the boy is my father’s bastard son. He seemed very aggressive. Genesis also mentioned that this sergeant has intent to sexually assault the cadet.”

Tseng’s lip curled down in disgust.

“The president fucked over his SOLDIER dream, so he is intent on fucking a supposed son of the late president as an act of vengeance.” Rufus scoffed.

“General Sephiroth contacted me requesting surveillance in Moore’s office and across the barracks.” Tseng spoke with a blank face.

“Very well, in the meantime, I want you to schedule a meeting for me with Cadet Strife.”

Tseng bowed his head and left the office.

 #

As they arrived at Genesis’ apartment, Sephiroth looked at Genesis who took the hint.

“I’m going to change my clothes and then start preparing some lunch. Cloud darling, please keep Sephiroth company.”  Genesis made his way down the hall to his bedroom.

“Cloud, follow me.”

Sephiroth walked him to the study and shut the door behind them.

Sephiroth sat at the desk and Cloud took the seat on the opposite side.

“Cloud, are you ok? I know it must have been difficult to be in that situation.”

“I am ok, sir. I’m used to Sergeant Moore. It’s fine.”

“Your shoulder was injured, Sergeant Moore was squeezing it hard enough to bruise, but you didn’t make it apparent that you were hurting.”

“There is no point sir. Like I said, I’m used to it. It doesn’t matter. I’m no one for you to worry about, sir.” Cloud looked at the general as he spoke.

“I am the General, you are under my command. I care for the wellbeing of my SOLDIERS, troopers, and cadets.”

“Yes, sir. I want to be a SOLDIER. But what kind of SOLDIER will I be when people overpower me easily. I’ve had my superior officer bend me over a desk, I’ve been pressed against a wall. I’ve been threatened with rape. I’m constantly called a Shinra bastard and a whore. Bit of a pathetic SOLDIER candidate wouldn’t you say?”

“You know, I grew up in the Labs here at Shinra. I was experimented on daily. I had no say or choice in the matter. Professor Hojo was not only my tormentor but also, my father. Apart from invasive procedures and experiments, my father was keen on using my genetic material to breed another Shinra weapon. From approximately 16 years old, I was forced to provide regular semen samples, whilst in a room full of scientists.”

Cloud couldn’t believe what he just heard. That would have been horrific.

“Do you think me to be weak, Cloud?” Sephiroth eyed him thoughtfully.

“No way, you are the great General Sephiroth. You.. you’re the strongest SOLDIER there is!”

“Then why do you think yourself to be weak or unworthy of SOLDIER, based on your own experiences?”

Cloud was speechless. Sephiroth smiled softly.

“I think you understand now. Cloud, will you allow me to heal you?”

“Yes, thank you general, sir!”

#

Cloud was in much better spirits during lunch, he really enjoyed the company of these men.

After lunch, Sephiroth prepared tea and they ate a delicious apple tea cake baked by Angeal.

They retreated to the lounge room to relax for the afternoon.

“Hey Cloudy, Geal and I met your roommates, they are super nice, especially that one dude, what was his name again, Geal?”

“Cadet Nox, Aidan was his first name,” Angeal offered.

“He was asking about you Cloudy, said he saw Sergeant Moore drag you from the back of the auditorium to the president. He wanted to know if you were ok. I think he’s got a crush on you, Spike.” Zack chuckled.

“Zack!…Shut up!” Cloud said through gritted teeth as his face blushed.

The lounge room filled with laughter.

“Puppy, now that you are done teasing Cloud, I have something to give him.”

Genesis pulled out a brand new PHS. This is for you to use, I took the liberty of adding in all our numbers. You can contact us whenever.

“Thank you so much, this would have been so expensive.” Cloud was so grateful, it was a wonderful gift.

“I also added your mother’s number too, I’m sure it’s been too long since you last spoke.”

“But my mother doesn’t have a number, we couldn’t afford a PHS.”

“I sent her a PHS through an express courier, her phone will arrive by this Wednesday,” Genesis added.

Express courier delivery was wildly expensive. Gods, he would get to hear his mama’s voice, he hadn’t seen or heard from her since he left at 14. He missed her so much. Genesis had just given him priceless gift.

Cloud stood and walked up to Genesis and wrapped his arms around the man.

“You are welcome, little bird.”

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After dinner, Zack offered to show Cloud where his new shared apartment was, they took the elevator down a few floors. They walked along the silent corridor and stopped at apartment number 7.

Cloud didn’t look too thrilled, he quietly wished he could stay with Zack or one of the others. Zack must have picked up on Cloud’s train of thought.

“Hey Cloudy, our missions don’t usually last through weekends anymore. So, I was thinking maybe if you wanted, you could stay over my place. We could play video games, watch movies and hangout?”

Cloud’s eyes brightened. “Really? Won’t I get in trouble?”

“Nah, I doubt your roommates would say anything.”

“Sounds great Zack!”

“Awesome, the other guys want you to swing by on Friday nights as well. Catch ya later Spike.” Zack returned to the elevator and was gone. Cloud relaxed, he would still get to be part of their lives.

Using his key card, he entered the new apartment. It was not as grand as the First’s and certainly nowhere as big, but it had a small kitchen, two bedrooms, and a lounge area. It was at least furnished with the basics!

“Hey, you must be Strife!” The boy called Ambrose walked into the dining area and greeted him. He had beady black eyes and a friendly smile. Ambrose gestured to two others behind him.

“That’s Fowler and Lenox.”

Fowler had distinct freckles all over his face and shaved hair, whilst Lenox had chestnut brown hair, and it looked like he used some sort of oil to slick it back.

“Nice to meet you all,” Cloud replied quietly.

“Nox was right, he is a shy one,” Lenox joked.

Ambrose ignored the other two and spoke with Cloud.

“Lenox, Fowler and myself are sharing the larger bedroom on the left down the hall. You and Nox have the bedroom to the right.”

“Ok, that’s fine.” For once, it actually was fine. Cloud had not had a bedroom since arriving at Midgar, he had always been in the barracks.

“Cool! Well, I’ll let you get settled in then.”

Cloud made his way down the hall and knocked on the door to the right.

“It’s open,” called the voice which belonged to Nox.

When he entered the bedroom, he was faced with the young man Angeal and Zack spoke of, he had a slim build, but muscles were forming. He was a bit taller than Cloud and had light brown hair which shaped his handsome face. Cloud was drawn to his vibrant green eyes.

“Oh, hey! I’m Aidan. It’s nice to finally meet you, Strife.”

“H-hey Aidan, nice to meet you too. You can call me, Cloud.” Cloud’s stupid cheeks felt warm, and had turned pink, but Aidan didn’t say anything.

After unpacking his few belongings and folding away his clothes in the small drawers provided, Cloud sat on his new bed. It was much softer than the bunks in the barracks.

“Hey Cloud. I…I saw what happened today. Your Sergeant should never have done that, you know, hurt you like that.”

Cloud looked at Aidan, “It’s fine, its done.”

“Well, I guess what I am trying to say is, we are a team now, you know with Ambrose, Lenox and Fowler. That means we have each other’s backs.”

Cloud gave him a small smile. “Thanks Aidan!”

#

Genesis knocked on the study door and waited for permission to enter.

“Come.” Came the baritone voice of his lover.

Genesis entered the study and found the silver haired general returning books to the extensive library he had. Genesis walked up to Sephiroth who turned to face him. Genesis placed his hands on his lover's chest and was toying with the buttons.

“So, the little bird seemed happier by lunch. You spoke with him then, about your past?”

Sephiroth stared down into Genesis’ eyes and spoke softly.

“Yes, I shared some things which he might find relevant. He seemed to believe that he was weak based on his experiences, I taught him otherwise.”

“I know it’s difficult for you to speak about your past, you must care for the boy?”

“I… I care for him but…” Sephiroth responded hesitantly.

“You feel conflicted as I do, he is still too young, but there is an attraction there…”

“Gen, I feel protective of him but there’s something more, which I would never act on.”

“Of course not, dear, he’s seventeen. We aren’t monsters, he needs us to keep him safe. Angeal and Zack know this too. Though Zack is much closer in age to the little bird that it would not surprise me if they become…close. Our Puppy is quite the charmer.”

Sephiroth chuckled with a small smile on his face.

Genesis flicked open the buttons on Sephiroth’s shirt, moved the material to the side and placed soft kisses on his bare chest.”

“Gen…”

Sephiroth lifted Genesis’ chin and kissed his lover's lips, first gently, then with growing heat. With a display of strength, Sephiroth pushed his lover against the bookshelf, pinning him with his hands above his head.

“Turn around,” commanded the general.

Genesis did as he was told and he faced the bookshelf. He bent over slightly as Sephiroth pressed his hips against his ass. Genesis felt the growing hardness of his lover and moaned softly as he began to grind against him.

Sephiroth placed gentle kisses on Genesis’ neck. He reached around and unzipped the red-haired’s pants and guided them down to his knees. Genesis reached around and slid his hand down his lover’s slacks and squeezed him gently, successfully drawing a low moan from the silver haired general.

The two did not leave the privacy of the study for many hours.

                                                            #

Formal training would not commence until the following week, owing to missions the Firsts needed to finalise.

Cloud’s group were provided a tour of Shinra Tower and were guided by 2nd Class SOLDIER, Kunsel, who was a great friend of Zack! Funnily enough, Kunsel never removed his SOLDIER helmet! It made Cloud think that he hadn’t really worn his own since the Firsts stumbled into his life.

The next stop of the tour was the SOLDIER gym, which the cadets would have access to. Maybe Zack could help improve his form and help him build some muscle? Maybe he could ask Aidan if Zack was busy?

There were a few 2nd and 3rd class SOLDIERs using the facilities. The group was approached by one of the SOLDIERs, covered in sweat.

“Hey Kuns, got stuck with babysitting duty?” Chuckled the 2nd Class SOLDIER.

“Hey Luxiere, these are Commander Rhapsodos’ cadets for the new SOLDIER Program.”

“Yeah, I can see,” his eyes glanced across the cadets and stopped on Cloud. He looked him up and down with that look he’d grown to hate. The look that said he was a piece of meat to be devoured.

“Pretty little thing aren’t you, blondie? Can see why Rhapsodos wanted you. He really does look like a Shinra. I’d be happy to spot you anytime sweetheart.” He winked at Cloud. Before Kunsel could intervene, and to everyone’s great surprise, Cloud spoke up.

“If I am a Shinra, then you would realise I am way out of your league, 2nd Class, Luxiere. Clearly, I would only allow First Class SOLDIERs to spot me.” Cloud stared hard at Luxiere.

Kunsel laughed a full bellied laugh.

 “Watch out Lux, I hear from Zack and Commander Hewley, Strife can be a bit of a feisty one!”

“Clearly!” Luxiere looked impressed at Cloud and walked away.

As Kunsel started to lead the group onto the next part of the tour, Aidan stood in front of Cloud.

“Did you mean it when you said you’d only let First class ‘spot’ you?”

“Huh…nah, I was just joking to piss him off. I just get annoyed with everyone assuming I’m a Shinra.” Cloud started walking off before turning back. “I was kind of hoping you would spot me.”

Aidan smiled sheepishly at Cloud before they left the gym.

#

Cloud woke up extremely excited on Wednesday. He would finally get to speak with his mother. He decided to wait till 1400 when the cadets had some free time and for when his roommates had planned to go for a walk around Sector 4. Cloud declined the offer to join and said he was tired and was going to sleep. He did happen to note the disappointment on Aidan’s face.

Cloud picked up his PHS and dialled his mother’s number. Each ring made his heart skip a beat.

“Cloud, is that you?”

Tears welled in his eyes.

“Yes, mama, its me. I miss you.” Cloud sobbed into the phone.

“Oh, my sweet boy, I have missed you so much my heart hurts. Tell me everything.”

Cloud spent two hours catching up his mother on everything that had happened, as well as everything that had occurred with Sergeant Moore. His mother was furious and said for him to come home. She did calm down when he told her about the Firsts.

Genesis had sent a letter along with the PHS with the promise to look after Cloud and keep him safe.

After his call he sent a text to Genesis

Cloud: Thank you for everything, Genesis. Just spoke to ma. It meant a lot to me to hear her voice.

Cloud didn’t expect a response right away, he knew Genesis was on a mission, but the PHS buzzed in his hand

Genesis: Anything for you, dearest. Enjoy.

Cloud: Be safe. Come back soon!

Genesis: Always, little bird.

Cloud smiled at his phone.

#

On Friday afternoon, Cloud was finishing lunch with his roommates in the SOLDIER cafeteria, Aidan had been sitting next to Cloud throughout the week, the two had become quite close. Cloud had been enjoying himself this week and was looking forward to dinner with the Firsts and his weekend with Zack.

Many eyes suddenly turned towards the cafeteria entrance as Tseng, leader of the Turks walked in. Dressed in his usual sleek black suit and dress shoes, he walked with purpose straight toward Cloud.

“Cadet Strife, please follow me, your presence has been requested, I will inform you of further details along the way.”

Cloud stood up nervously, he knew the Turks were very dangerous, and he didn’t need anymore trouble. He followed Tseng into the elevator and noticed he selected the top floor. Cloud gulped. The presidential floor. Shit.

“Don’t be nervous cadet, you are not in trouble. President Rufus merely wishes to speak with you.”

“Oh, ok. Thank you, Mr. Tseng.”

“Just Tseng is fine, Cloud.”

Cloud smiled shyly.

When they reached the large double doors of the President’s office, Cloud started to feel his lunch churn in his stomach. Tseng did not enter the room, but held the doors open for Cloud.

The office was grand and was lined with bookshelves. There was a bar to the left of the office which contained many expensive wines and other liquor. The president sat behind the oversized oak desk which had been polished to perfection.

“Ahh, Cloud Strife. Welcome. It’s nice to see you again.”

“Thank you, president, sir. It is an honour to see you again.”

“So formal, please call me Rufus. Sit, Cloud.” Rufus gestured to a leather padded chair.

“Tell me, Cloud. How has your week been?”

“It’s been great, 2nd Class Kunsel has been showing us around Shinra Tower, and I’ve been getting to know my roommates.”

“How are you finding your apartment?”

“It’s amazing! I haven’t had a bedroom since I left home.”

“Hmmm… tell me about your home, Cloud.” Rufus eyed him curiously. 

“Ah…well I was born and raised in Nibelheim. I lived there with my mum until I left at fourteen. I hitch hiked to Midgar.”

“You lived with your mother, what of your father, Cloud?”

Cloud looked away because he hated this topic, but he had to answer the President.

“I don’t have a father. I don’t know who my father is, I’m a bastard.”

“There are rumours, Cloud.” Rufus moved around to the other side of the desk. He placed his fingers under Cloud’s chin to force him to look up at him.

“You do look so much like my father and myself, especially your eyes.”

“Sir?”

“Do you know of Shinra Mansion in Nibelheim?”

“Well, only what the other kids told me. They said it was haunted, and we were never to go there or we would get eaten by monsters.”

Rufus chuckled.

“What you should know is that my father used to spend a lot of time there due to the reactor in Nibelheim. My father was a man with, how should I put it, needs. My mother did not travel with my father. So, my father would satisfy his needs with other women.”

Cloud felt sick to his stomach. Rufus continued.

“Your birth certificate states that your father is unknown. This is normally applied when a pregnancy is the result of rape or when a gag order has been put in place.”

Cloud was about to lose his lunch. Rufus gripped Cloud’s face but didn’t squeeze.

“I think it’s time we find out the truth, wouldn’t you agree, Cloud Strife? Or maybe it’s Cloud Shinra?”

A scientist walked in, a middle-aged woman, carrying a tray containing an empty syringe, and some other medical equipment including an alcohol swab. Tseng walked in behind the scientist.

Cloud jumped back from Rufus’ grip.

“I…I don’t know if I want to do this, please let me go. I promise, I don’t want anything from you. I don’t want to be a Shinra. Please I… don’t want to know.”

He didn’t want it confirmed that the late president had forced himself on his mother or that Rufus was his half brother.

“Don’t be afraid, Cloud. This won't hurt a bit. Tseng restrain him, please. I don’t want him hurting himself by struggling.”

Tseng approached Cloud and reached his arms around his body to restrain him. Cloud only struggled for a moment. Tseng didn’t hurt him with his grip, the man used just enough strength to hold him in place as the scientist jabbed the needle into his arm and drew out a couple vials of blood.

And as quickly as it started it was over. Tseng released his hold, and the scientist left with his blood samples. Cloud rolled down his sleeve, and Tseng gently placed a hand on his shoulder.

“Tseng will see you back to your apartment, Cloud. I know you must be upset right now, but know that I have no intention of harming you, especially if you turn out to be my little brother.”

Too much information was circulating in Cloud’s head, and he felt light headed from the blood tests.

He just wanted to sleep the afternoon away.

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Cloud woke with just enough time to head over to the Firsts apartment. He missed the men who had been very busy the whole week. He decided not to tell them about his meeting with Rufus, it would only make them worry about him more so than they already did.

When Cloud knocked on the door, he was greeted by Angeal. He looked quite tired from his mission, but his face lit up when he saw him. Cloud didn’t know what possessed him, but he wrapped his arms tightly around Angeal and stayed there for a long moment. The burly commander ran his hand through Cloud’s hair.

“I missed you too, Cloud,” he chuckled quietly.

Zack came running into the hallway like an energetic puppy.

“Cloud, you’re here!!” He grabbed Cloud into a big bear hug and spun him around.

“..ack, ..ut me down!” Cloud was being smothered into Zack’s chest.

“Oops, sorry, Cloud!”

Angeal rolled his eyes fondly at Zack, he pulled his prodigy by his ear and begun dragging him to the kitchen.

“Geall! Ouch! That hurts!”

“Cloud, Zack will be helping me in the kitchen, why don’t you wait here for Gen. Sephiroth will be running late tonight.”

Cloud couldn’t help but giggle, “sure!”

He waited in the lounge, pacing back and forth, he always seemed to get a little nervous around Genesis.

“Hello little bird,” whispered that soothing voice in his ear.

Cloud turned around to see his fiery commander looking perfect as always. Wait, his?

Even though his hair was still damp from his shower, it just made the man look more endearing.

“Hello Genesis, welcome back, I…I missed you.”

“Sorry to have left you here on your own for the week.”

Cloud just smiled. He wasted no time reaching out for Genesis and was not satisfied until his face was pressed into Genesis’ chest in a tight hug.

Dinner was superb as always. Angeal had managed to make a tasty pasta dish with freshly made sauce.

As usual, they retreated to the lounge room where they got lost in conversation.

“So, Cloudy. Is there anything you want to tell us?” Zack questioned.

Oh gods. Did they find out about what happened with Rufus?

Zack smirked, “Kunsel was saying that Luxiere made a pass at you and said he would love to spot you at the gym.”

Genesis’ eyes darted toward Zack. Rage was building inside of him at the thought of that 2nd class brute being anywhere near Cloud.

Cloud didn’t know what to say, he was already feeling embarrassed.

“So apparently, Cloudy here tells Lux that he will only let First Class SOLDIERs spot him, is that right, Cloud?”

Cloud didn’t see the smirk on Genesis’ face at that comment.

He didn’t look at any of them in the eye but said, “yes, I told him that.” Cloud blushed but tried to hide it by looking at the tv.

“You’re cute, Cloudy. Kuns also mentioned that you and Cadet Nox have become very close, he said you’ve been having lunch with him every day.”

Cloud suddenly felt defensive, and he had no idea why. Perhaps, it was all just too much after an emotional roller coaster of a day with his meeting with Rufus.

He glared across at Zack.

“Yes, I share a bedroom with him too, Zack! It doesn’t mean anything. And you know what, Aidan is the only one not trying to fuck me or fuck with me because of my gods be damned, Shinra hair and eyes.”

“Spike, I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to upset you.” Zack looked worried.

Cloud took a breath and realised his error. “No, I…I’m sorry, Zack. I shouldn’t have lashed out. I didn’t mean to do that. I. I… I’m sorry for ruining everything.”

Cloud ran again.

But just to the bathroom this time. 

#

“Shit! Geal, I’ve got to go talk to Cloud! I messed up big time!”

“Zack, settle down, I know you think you’ve messed up here, but something is off with Cloud tonight.”

Genesis cut in, “yes, I noticed too, he latched his arms so hard around me, one would think he was already enhanced. Something happened today. He made it clear what the issue is. Shinra.”

The door opened and Sephiroth walked in, his eyes alert and scouting the room.

“Where is Cloud?”  

Angeal looked at Sephiroth and sighed.

“He’s currently hiding out in the bathroom, Seph.”

“Where have you been all this time, love?” Genesis quirked an eyebrow at Sephiroth.

“I was with Tseng. The President had Cloud brought to his office today during lunch.”

“Whatever for?” Genesis asked.

“Tseng said the conversation about Cloud’s true parentage was brought up. Cloud was informed that there is the strong possibility his birth was the result of his mother’s rape and that Rufus’ father may indeed be Cloud’s father too.”

“Shit!” Zack piped up. He ran his hand roughly through his hair.

Sephiroth continued.

“Rufus forced Cloud to have blood taken, he had someone from the labs do it. Tseng mentioned Cloud refused and begged for Rufus to let him go as he didn’t want to be a Shinra. Tseng profusely apologised when I spoke to him as Rufus had him restrain Cloud as they drew the blood. Tseng was aware that Cloud had been assaulted by Moore and knew how he would feel being restrained, he said he used minimal strength to do so.”

“Well, that explains the earlier outburst. Poor kid, that’s a lot of information to digest.” Angeal looked genuinely concerned.

“Geal, I’m gonna go talk to him, it’s my fault, I pushed him too far.” Zack hung his head low.

Sephiroth eyed his youngest lover sternly.

“No, Zachary. I wish to speak to him first. If he’s had an outburst, I would imagine he is feeling embarrassed. Being that I wasn’t present at the time, it might be best for me to try first.” The general was a true strategist.

“Sure, Seph.” Zack went and sat back down next to Angeal.

Sephiroth walked down the hallway and stopped at the bathroom door.

“Cloud, would you please open the door? I would like to speak with you.”

The sobbing behind the door stopped, “No!”

The general thought to himself, is this the defiance Angeal mentioned? Sephiroth enjoyed a challenge but no one other than Genesis would dare defy him. Even Genesis would submit to him eventually. This was different. This was a 17-year-old cadet, and Sephiroth was not accustomed to being told no by subordinates.

He tried again with dominance coursing through his voice.

“Cadet Strife, do you really wish to defy your general? I can easily break down the door cadet, I merely was offering you the choice to open it yourself.”

A whimper and the scuffling of feet could be heard behind the door.

He submits much quicker than Genesis, Sephiroth thought to himself whilst trying to tamper down the growing heat in his lower regions.

The door unlocked with a click and he heard Cloud backing away. He entered the bathroom and found Cloud with his back against the wall with his head down.

Blue eyes peered up at him, distress evident by the redness in the whites of his eyes.

“Please, General Sephiroth, sir. I’m sorry, d-don’t hurt me. I know I screwed up everything with the Firsts, I promise not to comeback, I didn’t mean to defy you.”

The boy whimpered as he slid down the wall, he brought his knees to his chest in an attempt to protect himself from the Demon of Wutai.

Sephiroth, you fool. Fear not defiance.

Sephiroth sat down on the tiles with the blonde. “Cloud, I am sorry for frightening you, as a general I am rarely told no. I would never lay a hand on you in anger. As for the others, they are worried about you, there is no hate or anger.”

Cloud’s body released some tension and he lowered his legs.

“Tseng told me what happened today with Rufus. That would have been a lot to deal with, your emotional response this evening was completely understandable.”

“I don’t want to be a Shinra. Everything will change, people already hate me because of rumours. If it’s true, they will all come after me just like…Sergeant Moore.”

“Cloud, regardless of the outcome, we will protect you, and I don’t believe Rufus would allow anyone to hurt you, he isn’t his father.”

“But I might be a Shinra, Rufus might want me out of the picture. He will send Tseng and the Turks to kill me.”

“Hmm… Tseng, if anything is loyal to Shinra, that loyalty would extend to you. Tseng was most remorseful for having restrained you. He assured me he used as little force as possible.”

“Yeah…he didn’t hurt me, he even held my shoulder gently after they finished taking my blood.” Cloud looked at Sephiroth with a little hope kindling in his eyes.

The silver haired general glanced toward the door listening intently.

“It would appear that movie night is beginning, Angeal is preparing his famous hot chocolate. Come along, Cloud.”

Cloud followed Sephiroth back to the lounge room. The Firsts were already relaxing on the couches, except Zack. He was sitting on the floor, leaning against the couch. He was very quiet when he normally would speak throughout the film.

Cloud sat down beside Zack and spoke to him with a quiet voice. “I’m really sorry, Zack. I didn’t mean to snap at you, will you forgive me?”

Zack smiled and placed his arm around Cloud, allowing the blonde to rest his head on his chest.

“There’s nothing to forgive, Cloud.”

Cloud stayed like that, leaning into Zack’s warmth. He was handed a cup of hot chocolate by Angeal, which he sipped gratefully.

The stress of the day melted away.

#

It was just after midnight when Cloud tiptoed back into his room to collect some of his belongings to bring to Zack’s place for the weekend.

As he was putting some clothes into his duffle bag, Aidan stirred from his sleep.

“Cloud, is that you? What are you doing?”

Cloud wasn’t sure what to say and he stuttered. He wasn’t supposed to sleep anywhere other than his own apartment.

“I..I was..I was just er… going to…”

“It’s that Zack guy you keep talking about, isn’t it?”

Cloud sighed.

“I was going to stay at his place for the weekend.”

“Cloud, that isn’t allowed. I should report it.”

“Aidan…please don’t. I have been in enough trouble, I just…”

“It’s fine, Cloud. I won't say anything. So, you must like the guy, enough to sleep at his place, huh?” Aidan stared into Cloud’s eyes.

“Aidan! It isn’t like that! Zack’s just a friend!” Cloud’s eyes widened.

Aidan climbed out of his bed, he only had sleep shorts on, his chest was on full display, abdominal muscles were developing on his fit body. Cloud couldn’t help but stare.

“Seems you do only want Firsts to ‘spot’ you.” Aidan turned away dejectedly.

Gods, Cloud was fucking up so badly with everyone. So, he did something he normally would be too shy to do.

He walked up behind Aidan and slipped his hand into Aidan’s. His heart raced when Aidan squeezed his hand in return.

“Please, Aidan, Zack’s just a friend. After lunch today, Zack is going to train me with swords and hand to hand combat. Will you join me?”

“Cloud, I don’t think Fair would want another guy around when he wants to spend time with you, alone.”

“But I want you there, doesn’t that count for something?”

Aidan turned to face Cloud, he used his free hand to brush away the gold strands covering Cloud’s eyes.

Clouds breath hitched as Aidan gently stroked his cheek.

“I’ll be there.”

#

Cloud woke up that morning feeling positive and was looking forward to spending time with Zack and Aidan. For a moment, Cloud didn’t have to worry about anything related to Shinra.

Zack took Cloud out for pancakes and coffee at a local joint in Sector 5. They spent the morning together looking around and exchanging funny anecdotes about their backwater hometowns.

Cloud couldn’t help but notice his growing attraction to Zack. He had to remind himself that Zack was a First, was almost twenty and probably wasn’t even interested in him like that anyway.

With Aidan, it was easier, he knew where he stood.

#

After lunch, they met up with Aidan who was waiting on the training grounds. Kunsel had already delivered training swords, which Zack would return later.

Aidan sported sweatpants and a tight-fitting tank, which showed off his developing muscles, his green eyes focusing on Cloud.

“Hey Aidan, glad you could join us,” Zack cheerfully called out.

“Hello Zack, thanks for having me.”

Zack spent the first half hour modeling basic stances, and some simple katas for both boys to try.

Cloud enjoyed the clashing of swords with Zack. Despite his smaller physique, Cloud was doing surprisingly well. Aidan showed an aptitude for swordsmanship too.

Though the young raven-haired SOLDIER was holding back a great amount of strength, he was impressed by the cadets' skills.

Next, Zack taught the boys some hand-to-hand combat and grappling. He noticed the playful nature of both boys and the way Cloud smiled for Aidan. As they wrestled, Aidan used a move to pin Cloud on the ground, kicking the blonde's legs out from under him. Aidan landed on top of Cloud and pinned his hands above his head. What triggered Zack was the way Aidan nestled himself between Cloud’s legs.

In an instant, Zack was lifting both boys off the ground, separating them in the process.

He laughed nervously, “ok fellas, I think that’s enough training for one day.”

Zack couldn’t wait to get Cloud away from Aidan.

Chapter Text

Monday finally arrived and Cloud along with his group were to have their very first lesson with Genesis. The cadets were eagerly awaiting the commander's arrival in one of the SOLDIER training rooms.

The doors opened and in strutted the red-haired commander. Cloud couldn’t take his eyes off Genesis. His wavy, auburn hair styled perfectly, eyeliner and mascara accentuated his stunning blue mako eyes. His signature red leather coat was absent today. Genesis had on his Shinra issued turtleneck tank, his SOLDIER stomach guard and belt emphasised his slim waist.

His sword, Rapier, clung to his hip and remained sheathed for the moment. His black leather pants hugged his body tightly in all the right places and gods, those knee-high boots just did something to Cloud.

Genesis stood in the centre of the room and turned to face his five, very keen students. He tilted his hip and folded his slender but muscular arms across his chest. The cadets were standing a fair distance away from the commander.

Three training dummies appeared around Genesis and the room fell into silence. The red-haired mage raised his right hand, and a small flame flickered in his palm. With a wave of his arm, he set the first training dummy on fire, flames danced around the mannequin. Genesis raised his hand again, he cast toward the second training dummy, this time a larger flame engulfed the mannequin and melted it in seconds.

For the final time, the commander raised his hand, and a blinding bright light erupted from his palm. He smirked towards his students and without breaking eye contact cast toward the final dummy. There was a deafening explosion as flames roared towards the ceiling, the force of the cast caused the cadets to drop to the floor. Smoke danced across the room and around the red-haired commander.

“Holy Ifirit’s balls!” Fowler exclaimed once the smoke cleared.

Genesis turned toward him and quirked an eyebrow, “No dear, Firaga!” He casually winked at Fowler who fell silent. Ambrose, Lenox and Nox were left speechless. Cloud was smiling at Genesis, he hoped to be as powerful and confident as him one day.

“Welcome to Materia and Advanced Elemental Materia Use. Throughout this course cadets, you will develop the necessary skills to be ready for SOLDIER. If you are successful at the end of the course, I will approve you for your first enhancements and you shall then formally become SOLDIER. You will work harder than the other cadets because I expect you to be the best, is that understood?”

The five boys stood to attention and gave a chorus of “yes, sir.”

Cloud was in awe by how quickly Genesis could switch to commander mode. His voice deepened, and his posture exuded confidence.

“I will teach you to control and master your materia and access deeper levels of mana. I will guide you to understand how to exploit your enemy’s weaknesses. I will teach you that there is more to SOLDIER than simple brute strength. You will learn how to strategically utilize elemental materia in conjunction with weapons and equipment to protect yourselves and to take advantage of your foe's weaknesses.

In one swift movement Genesis unsheathed rapier, the stunning blade glistened under the fluorescent lights of the room. The commander closed his eyes and moved his hand over the top of the blade, a crimson blaze engulfed the metal. Another training dummy appeared. Genesis threw the blade with great precision and pierced the head of the dummy and set it alight.

At the end of the first lesson, each cadet was provided a basic set of materia and a standard Shinra issued bracer. Each box had healing materia, elemental materia and either ice, lightning or fire materia. Fowler received lightning, Ambrose and Lenox received ice. Aidan and Cloud both received fire. Cloud felt honoured to receive his mentor’s favourite materia.

Their first homework task was to work together to keep casting low level spells and build up their endurance and control of their mana. Expending mana quickly would result in reliance on expensive items such as Ethers. These items were known to be unhealthy for young, developing bodies.

Cloud, still entranced by Genesis had not realised the class had finished. His peers were already gone, leaving him alone with Genesis.

“Did you enjoy your first lesson, Cloud?”

As Genesis walked towards Cloud, he could hear the boy’s heart rate increasing.

“It was amazing… you are amazing, Genesis. I knew you were powerful but gods, I didn’t expect that.”

Genesis laughed and was watching Cloud carefully, he realised the boy was staring at his body. He could hear Cloud’s heart rate continue to increase the closer he got to the blonde.

Genesis stopped. He had to stop.

“Why don’t you join your little green eyed friend for lunch, Cadet Strife. He certainly seemed to find you more entertaining than my Firaga.”

Cadet Strife? What happened to little bird, or dear? He sees me as ‘entertainment’?

For the first time, Cloud stepped away from Genesis, the blonde's demeanor had changed, disappointment and embarrassment flowed across his face. He grabbed his materia and stuffed it into his bag.

“Yes, Commander Rhapsodos, sir.”  He saluted his superior officer and left the room, tears burning in his eyes. Just like that, Genesis had devastated Cloud with words and implied that his body was a distraction. After everything he went through with Moore, he never thought Genesis would say something like that.

Genesis stood there alone and in silence.

“I’m sorry, little bird.”

#

The weeks rolled on and Cloud continued his lessons with Genesis and his peers. They were all showing significant improvement and better control of their mana and were able to cast frequently without overexerting themselves.

Cloud was growing distant from Genesis, he took the hint from his commander from the first lesson and stayed away as much as was possible.

This would become difficult to do once individual lessons began.

Cloud spent a lot of time working with Aidan, they studied the history and theory of materia for hours in the library.

He still spent his weekends with Zack and the two were also becoming closer. Thank Gaia, he still had Zack! He had started refusing to attend Friday nights with the Firsts and wouldn’t give Zack a reason.

At the back of Cloud’s mind, he knew Rufus already had the results of the blood test. He did wonder why he hadn’t been brought forth to the President to be told the result.

But Cloud didn’t really care, he preferred not knowing anyway.

Ignorance was bliss.

#

Cloud walked towards training room 3 where he would be having his individual session with Genesis. Cloud had worked himself up about this day for weeks, but now that it was here, he surprisingly didn’t feel a thing. He was certain Genesis hadn’t spent a single moment thinking about him.

The commander was waiting by the door with an unreadable expression on his face, was it confusion? worry?

It didn’t matter to Cloud.

He stood to attention as he’d grown accustomed to and saluted his superior, “Commander Rhapsodos, sir.”

Genesis cocked his eyebrow, “Cadet Strife.”

Cloud brushed past the commander and once in the room unpacked his materia. He took out his Shinra issued bracer and attached it to his wrist. He stood with perfect posture waiting for further instruction by the commander.

Genesis closed the training room door, he then carefully walked around Cloud and stood behind him, ensuring ample space between the two.

“Cadet, you were showing significant improvement with your casting, however, for the last two weeks you have fallen behind, your casting has been almost nonexistent. What has changed? This isn’t like you?”

What’s changed? Really, Genesis? You promised to protect me, then dumped me the first chance you had! You implied that I’m nothing more than ‘entertainment’ for Aidan. I’m terrified of finding out that I’m a Shinra bastard, I’m scared that I’ve lost the Firsts, I miss them, gods be damned, I miss you, Genesis!

Instead, he offered, “nothing has changed, sir. Perhaps, I am simply not suited to materia. My apologies for not meeting your expectations, sir. I will accept the consequence for my failures.”

“You believe I’m to punish you, Strife. Very well, cadet. You will come to receive your consequence this Friday at 1800 at my apartment.”

“Sir? No.”

“No, Strife? I gave you a direct command, do you understand, cadet?”

Cloud looked down, “yes, sir.”

“Good. Now equip your Fire Materia.”

Cloud picked up the green orb, he could feel the warmth from within and equipped it into the bracer.

“When you held the Materia, did you feel the heat of the flames within.”

“Yes, sir.”

“Then cast.”

Cloud tried to concentrate enough to draw out a flame by tapping into his own mana, but his mind was disturbed by images and thoughts he could not silence. Mostly, his thoughts centered around the commander and Cloud’s inability to figure out what he did wrong.

He managed to produce a very weak flame before it died in his palm.

“You’re distracted, cadet.”

No shit! “Yes, commander.”

“Tell me what you are thinking about.”

Cloud glanced briefly at Genesis, then looked down at his bracer.

“Hmm…not up for sharing. Usually, that means it’s about the other person, no?”

The blonde scowled but refused to answer. The commander stepped closer toward Cloud and bent down to whisper in his ear. “Then tell me, how you are feeling about me at this moment, Cloud?”

Cloud’s hands formed into fists. He was getting whiplash from the commander's behaviour. They had grown distant, were no longer on a first name basis and now he was standing behind him whispering into his ear.

Anger bubbled inside his chest. Before, he felt nothing but now he was boiling over and it was all Genesis’ fault.

With a tremble in his voice, tears prickling in his eyes, he choked out, “I…hate…you.”

Genesis slid his hand down Cloud’s arm and lifted his wrist aiming Cloud’s hand toward the training dummy at the end of the room.

“Good…now cast.”

Heat radiated from Cloud’s hand, he blinked, and an explosion of flames erupted, obliterating the dummy and caused angry red flames to rise to the roof.

The commander released his grip on Cloud and walked around to face the cadet. The blonde was trembling, still angry but mostly frustrated, his cerulean eyes taking in the magnitude of his own power.

Silent tears trickled down his face, allowing some of the hurt to seep out of his body.

“You are definitely suited to materia, Cloud. I’m never wrong about these things. That will do for today. I will see you on Friday.”

Cloud packed his belongings in silence. He stopped at the door.

“Yes…Genesis.” 

#

Cloud arrived at Genesis’ apartment at precisely 1800, he sighed then knocked on the door. He was greeted by the burly commander who smiled widely at him.

“Hello Cloud, it’s been too long!”

Cloud had missed this kind man and wanted nothing more than to hug him but presently he could not find it in himself to even return a smile. The truth was, he wasn’t sure how to behave around them anymore.

“Good evening, Commander Hewley, sir.”

Angeal’s smile faulted only for a moment, “not Angeal?”

“No, sir. It isn’t proper. I’m a cadet and you are my superior, I shouldn’t even be here, but I was ordered to.”

The burly commander sighed, “Cloud, you know that Genesis was not serious about a consequence. He, like the rest of us have missed you.”

Cloud crossed his arms and frowned. “That’s his fault! When the program started, that very first day, he made it clear that he was done with me. I don’t even know what I did wrong, I just wanted to be friends. He told my mum he would protect me and then he was horrible to me. Now he wants me to come back here! What do you want from me? Because clearly, I don’t get it!”

Cloud knew he was rambling, but he had been bottling this up for weeks and he was done!

“Genesis cares for you more than you know, Cloud. He would protect you from anyone including himself.” Angeal spoke calmly and evenly, not reacting to Clouds heightened emotions.

The blonde shook his head, “that doesn’t make sense, Angeal! Genesis has never and would never physically hurt me!”

Angeal smiled at him fondly.

“Genesis is just down the hall in the guest room, why don’t you go to him, seeing as he ordered you to be here.” He chuckled lightly and moved off to the kitchen.

Cloud walked into the guest room. The same room Genesis had healed his wounds and offered him kind words after he had been assaulted by Moore.

There on the edge of the bed sat the fiery commander, he looked different though. No makeup, no heeled boots, but to Cloud he looked attractive as always.

Mako blue eyes met cerulean eyes. For a long moment there was no sound as they simply took in the sight of each other. Cloud sat down beside Genesis.

“Genesis, I’m sorry for whatever I did to make you shut me out. I’m good at screwing things up. Is it because I might be a Shinra?”

Genesis looked shocked.

“No, little bird! I could care less if you are or aren’t a Shinra.”

He didn’t add anything further, so Cloud continued.

“Ok, well I just wanted to tell you that I don’t hate you. Quite the opposite, I really do like you Genesis. A lot. I admire you and I’m sorry if I offended you during that first day of training.”

“I’m sorry for shutting you out Cloud, it won’t happen again.”

It felt like a weight had been lifted off his shoulders, Cloud let his head rest on Genesis’ shoulder and he placed his hand on Genesis’ chest.

Placing an arm around Cloud, he whispered, “you will be the end of me, little bird.”

Genesis smiled for the first time in weeks.

#

Dinner went surprisingly well, he sat with Zack who was telling him about his upcoming mission, at least the parts that weren’t classified. Cloud loved the fact that Zack got to travel around the world and sometimes got to bring his SOLDIER issued motorbike. Cloud definitely wanted to have his own motorbike one day.

Sephiroth took him to Genesis’ study (Sephiroth’s study) and provided him a book about materia and one about weaponry. It had a focus on light weight weapons, he obviously had considered his physique. Angeal promised to teach Cloud how to cook some of his famous Banoran dishes when he had some free time.

Whilst it was a great evening, Cloud did find it socially overwhelming, and Zack completely understood when Cloud said he might stay in his own apartment for the weekend.

But really, things with the Firsts had been so inconsistent and the whole issue with Genesis gave Cloud emotional whiplash.

He knew where there was consistency, where he knew what to expect, and knew where he stood.

There was one person who had been kind, caring and trustworthy. Aidan. He and Cloud had grown close but were yet to move beyond friendship, Aidan had even been understanding of Cloud’s weekends at Zack’s.

He was lucky to have Aidan. 

Chapter Text

Cloud walked into his apartment. Fowler, Ambrose and Lenox had all gone under plate to find places which would serve minors alcohol, Cloud knew that type of thing didn’t interest Aidan.

He entered their bedroom to find Aidan resting on his bed reading a book. He was wearing his dark blue sweatpants and as always, he was shirtless, he disliked wearing tops to bed.

Cloud stared at Aidan and noticed how his abdominal muscles had developed.

“Cloud, what are you doing here, why aren’t you with Zack?”

Cloud walked over and stood in front of Aidan, a light blush spreading across his cheeks.

“I decided that I would rather stay here with you. You have been kind to me since before you even met me and I wanted to say thank you and that I am lucky to have you.”

Aidan swallowed, his Adam’s apple moving up and down.

He stood up and moved toward Cloud, he gently caressed the blonde’s face, his eyes searching for consent. It came in the form of Cloud closing the distance between them and gently placing his lips on Aidan’s. It was chaste and unfamiliar at first, then Aidan’s breathing became heavy. He placed his hands on Cloud’s hips and deepened their kiss. Aidan continued until he forced Cloud’s lips apart and entered the blonde's mouth with his tongue.

Cloud placed his hands on Aidan’s chest, his skin was soft and warm.

Aidan broke the kiss and reached down to the hem of Cloud’s shirt. He made quick work of lifting it over the blonde's head and tossing it aside.

Cloud wasn’t expecting to take any of his clothing off. He looked down at his own smaller frame and started to feel self-conscious, so he turned away.

“You’re beautiful, Cloud,” Aidan whispered as he pressed his body against Cloud’s. He reached around and unbuttoned his jeans, the blonde gulped as his zipper was pulled down. Aidan pushed Cloud’s jeans down to his feet, the blonde reluctantly stepped out of them.

He just wanted to kiss Aidan for the first time. They hadn’t even gone out for a proper date yet!

Aidan toyed with the waistband of Cloud’s boxers and then slid his fingers down to touch the blonde’s soft member. He didn’t seem to notice that Cloud had tensed and was shivering.

“Aidan, I…I want to stop. Please.”

Something didn’t feel right.

He was sure he spoke loud enough for Aidan to hear but he hadn’t removed his hands from his boxers. He tried again. Louder.

“Aidan. Stop!”

Aidan’s hand retreated, “Sure, Cloud. We should go to sleep. Good night.”

Cloud stood there, he didn’t bother collecting his clothes, he just crawled under the bed covers and wrapped himself up tightly. He was sure Aidan was expecting him to go further, and now he was sure that he was mad at him.

Aidan was a nice guy, he just didn’t hear Cloud the first time he said no, that’s all.

#

Even though Cloud was best suited to materia use, he couldn’t deny his love of Swords and combat. From when he was a small boy, he would use sticks, and broom handles and wield them as though they were real blades. His favourite thing to do was use two sticks at once, he had always been drawn to dual wielding. He never had anyone to spar with, he never really had any friends. He used to imagine himself sparring with Sephiroth. He saw him on the news, in photos in the newspaper and on posters. He was a hero, a warrior.

The training room wall was covered with an array of weapons such as broadswords, similar to what Zack would use. The weapons in the centre were single handed swords like Genesis’ blade. On the right were smaller, light weight katanas. They looked like a child sized Masamune, which belonged to Sephiroth. There were no dual wielding swords.

Cloud stared at the selection, he looked back at Ambrose who selected a large broad sword, Lenox, Fowler and Nox each selecting single handed blades.

He knew which blade he needed, but it wasn’t what he wanted.

“There’s no shame in wielding a smaller blade, dear.”

Genesis stood beside Cloud.

“Even Sephiroth’s blade is a katana style, which are very common in Wutai. You need to choose the weapon to suit your body, there’s no point selecting a broadsword if you can’t lift it.”

Cloud sighed and grabbed one of the smaller katanas, it had a dual Materia slot and a single slot. It would do. The slender blade matched Cloud’s thin body and shorter stature, the weight of the blade was a good balance for him.

The other cadets sat away from Cloud, things were awkward with Aidan after what happened, and they hadn’t really spoken about it yet.

Genesis addressed the group. “Alongside our usual materia lessons, we will start developing your skills with a blade in the lead up to advanced elemental materia use. I will demonstrate correct stances and movements for attacking and defending, and you will copy. For the last part of our session you will spar with a partner and take turns attacking and defending.”

After thirty, gruelling minutes of practicing the stances and movements, the group were in need of a short break. Genesis couldn’t help but notice that the green-eyed cadet had been avoiding his little bird who was sitting alone sipping his water slowly.

The four other cadets had started whispering and Genesis who was not as honour bound as his lover, had no issue using his enhanced hearing to listen in.

“So, did you finally fuck him?” Fowler asked looking at Nox.

“No. We got close though, got my hand down his pants before he started freaking out and said he wanted to stop. I got a good feel of him before he said to stop, again,” Nox whispered to the others.

Lennox snorted, “he’s not a virgin, he’s been spreading his legs for Fair for months now. You’ve waited long enough, he should be putting out.”

Genesis was seething inside, these boys made him sick but what cadet Ambrose said next made him livid.

“Nox, the boys and I will be out Friday night. You said Fair’s out of town on a mission, right? Try again with him. Strife is shy and a bit stubborn, probably just needs a firm hand, once he gets some he will settle down.”

“I guess so,” was all Nox offered.

Genesis had to remind himself that these were teenage boys, and he couldn’t throw fire balls at them. Or could he? He shook his head. He would deal with this a different way.

For the last part of the session, the boys needed to partner up. Genesis arranged Nox and Ambrose together, Lenox and Fowler made up the last pair.

“Cadet Strife, you will spar with me.” He winked at the blonde.

Cloud’s eyes lit up.

Each pair took some of the space in the training room and began.

Cloud started on the attack and wasted no time charging toward the red-haired commander who met his sword with Rapier. He was surprised by the blonde’s strength and smirked at him, his mako eyes shining as adrenaline hit.

He could see the determination in Cloud’s eyes, despite his shy nature there was a lot of fight and power within him, he just needed help drawing it out. The fiery commander knew the blonde would make a fine SOLDIER, he would see to that!

#

Cloud had been avoiding his apartment during the evenings as he didn’t want to deal with the awkwardness with Aidan.

He had used Zack’s spare keycard to gain access to the training rooms after hours.

He spent a few hours every night that week revising his katas. The cadets had been able to hold onto their selected weapons but were not permitted to take them out beyond the training grounds just outside Shinra Tower. They had lockers in the foyer to store their weapons and Materia at the end of each day.

Cloud became lost in the movements, performing each one slowly and precisely. He found it therapeutic, it was a way to escape his worries. He enjoyed the feel of the weapon in his hand, he closed his eyes and imagined himself as SOLDIER, using his skills to help and protect others and himself.

“Very good, Cloud.” The blonde jumped in surprise dropping his katana in the process. The silver haired general stood before him, Cloud didn’t even hear him enter the room!

“General Sephiroth, sir.” Cloud was in for it now, of all people to walk in, it had to be the general.

“Please Cloud, it’s well beyond work hours, Sephiroth will do. Tell me Cloud, how did you gain access to the rooms after hours?”

Cloud didn’t answer straight away, he didn’t want to get Zack in trouble, he couldn’t bare to lose Zack. He would take the fall for this, it was his decision to break the rules after all.

“I…I…stole Zack’s spare keycard when I was at his apartment last week.”

Sephiroth walked up to Cloud and looked down at him with those feline green mako eyes and blinked slowly at him. Gods, this man had no right having such gorgeous long eyelashes!

He lifted the Blonde’s chin with just his index finger.

“You are a terrible liar, Cloud.” The general continued to gaze into Cloud’s deep blue eyes.

“I’m sorry…Sephiroth.”

“Zachary told me he lent his spare keycard to you, its intention was to be used to access his apartment, not the training rooms. Why are you here so late, Cloud?”

“I just don’t want to go to my apartment right now and I had no where else to go, where I could be alone.”  

Sephiroth understood the need for solitude, his study was his oasis.

“Whilst I’m here, why don’t you show me your katas and I’ll assist you with your form.”

Cloud blushed but smiled. “Thank you, Sephiroth.”

“My pleasure, Cloud.”

Sephiroth enjoyed how easy it was to fluster his blonde.

Chapter Text

On Thursday evening, Cloud received a text from Angeal, he normally didn’t text much, so Cloud was quite surprised.

Angeal: Cloud, Gen says that you have tomorrow afternoon off, and my mission finished early. I was wondering if you wanted to come past the apartment at around 1400. We could do some cooking before the others arrive home, if you’d like?”

Cooking with Angeal sounded great, and Cloud hadn’t had much one on one time with the burly commander. He really liked Angeal, in a lot of ways he was similar to Zack. He was kind, caring and honorable. Cloud would be a liar if he said he didn’t find him attractive, Angeal was broad and muscular, and Cloud would turn to mush within the man’s hold. Now, he would be alone in the apartment with this man. Gods. Keep it together!.

Cloud: I would love to, Angeal.

Angeal: See you then, Cloud!

#

When Cloud arrived at Genesis’ apartment, Angeal had already placed all the ingredients and necessary equipment on the bench. A pot of water bubbled away on the stove, and a large saucepan was ready to be used.

Cloud looked curiously at the ingredients. There was some beef, assorted vegetables and herbs, stock and wine lay on the bench.

“We are making a hearty beef stew today, Cloud.”

“Sounds good to me, my mum would always make stews, especially in the winter.”

“She sounds like a great mum.”

“She is.” Cloud smiled.

“Come over here, Cloud. I want to teach you how to slice the vegetables, so they cook evenly.”

He moved towards the bench, where the knife and chopping board were.

Angeal stood behind Cloud, and reached his large, muscular arms around the blonde. He picked up the knife and demonstrated how to correctly slice the vegetables. Cloud felt the heat of the commander's body as his head rested under the larger man’s chin.

He knew it shouldn’t feel good, but he couldn’t help it. Over the months he had too many moments of feeling unsafe and had endured unwanted touches. Was it so wrong he wanted to feel good? Would it be so bad to lean into a wanted touch? Maybe, it would be ok?

Cloud rested his head against Angeal’s chest and listened to the steady thump of his heartbeat. It brought him comfort. The commander didn’t seem to mind his touch. A little more would be, ok?

The blonde pressed himself back against Angeal’s hips and he moved ever so slightly against the raven haired’s sturdy body. Angeal had stopped slicing the vegetables, the knife left abandoned on the chopping board. The honour bound SOLDIER moved his hands slowly to the blonde's hips, allowing the gentle movements against his body.

Soon enough, the commander tightened his grip on Cloud, stilling his body from pressing against him.

“Cloud, stop,” his voice commanded little more than a whisper, his breaths heavy. He was grateful the blonde couldn’t see how his mako eyes had darkened with lust, he hoped the blonde hadn’t felt his growing erection.

Cloud stilled after moving away from his burly commander, he knew the importance of consent and being heard when saying, no.

“I’m sorry, Angeal. I…I don’t know why I did that.”

It wasn’t their age difference that caused Cloud to feel guilty. It was because he had noticed something with the Firsts. They were very close with one another. Whether it was light touches, looks they gave one another, or how they always seemed to be at Genesis’ place, or the way Sephiroth would pretend his study belonged to Genesis, when it was clearly his. He felt guilty because they were somehow involved with one another and now Cloud had intruded on that.

If Angeal told Genesis what he just did, he might set him on fire. Sephiroth might stab him through with Masamune and Zack…he would never speak to him again!

“Please don’t tell the others what I did Angeal. I just made a mistake, it won’t happen again, I swear. I’m sorry I forced that on you, I promise I’m not trying to ruin your relationship with them.”

“Cloud, it’s going to be ok, don’t even worry about it. But Cloud, how did you find out about my relationship? What has Zack told you?”

“He…he never told me. I worked it out for myself, it…it was not hard to tell.”

“Really?” Angeal quirked an eyebrow, “how so, tell me what you think you’ve worked out?”

Cloud blushed slightly but was determined to answer.

“I can tell that you and Genesis are at least together, I see the way he smiles at you when he walks past, your eyes always darken. Genesis always caresses Sephiroth’s hand when they sit on the couch during movie nights. I…I know that Zack is the only one who whispers in your ear and makes you blush.”

Cloud wet his dry lips, “I see how Sephiroth’s pupils dilate when Genesis sasses him. You and Genesis always look fondly at Zack when he makes puppy dog eyes.”

A smile grew on Angeal’s face, and he chuckled, “you’re very observant, Cloud. You never called us out before and it would seem you haven’t told others about our relationship.”

“Well, I care about all of you, and I would never share your secret. You welcomed me into your home so I hoped that you could trust me… but I broke that trust today by what I did. Genesis will cast a firaga at me when you tell him.”

Angeal smirked, “I think I’m more worried about him throwing a firaga in my face…it wouldn’t be the first time either.”

That made Cloud laugh.

Later that afternoon, Angeal text his lovers.

Ange: Cloud knows about us.

Gen: Puppy!!

Seph: Zachary!!

Puppy: Hey! I didn’t tell Cloudy anything! But thanks for the vote of confidence guys. Love you!

Ange: Cloud worked it out. His analytical skills easily contend with yours, Seph!

Puppy: How did he react, Geal?

Ange: He is fine with it and said we can trust him with our secret

Seph: He never ceases to amaze me

Gen: Clever little bird. What brought about the conversation, love??

Ange: something happened in the kitchen with Cloud.

Gen: What did you do!??!

Ange: Gen, I was showing Cloud how to slice the vegetables using correct technique and he leaned against me and pressed against my hips.

Gen: I will firaga your balls Angeal!!!

Puppy: Really!! I thought he would make a move with me first! No fair Geal!

Ange: Nothing happened, the problem was, I didn’t stop him straight away! My control slipped momentarily. I’m sorry.

Puppy: Don’t worry about it, was Spike ok?

Ange: He is worried that we will hate him or that Gen will set him on fire.

Gen: No harm shall befall my little bird, he is innocent and understandably very confused about intimacy, given what he has endured. I will be home soon.

 #

The red commander finally arrived home, keen for a hot shower to wash away the dirt and grime from his skin. When he entered the apartment he retreated to the bathroom, he removed his clothes and stepped into steamy bliss.

Genesis was known for being quite dramatic and it did sting his ego when he found out his little bird had taken comfort from his lover instead of him.

Genesis toweled off and slipped on his sweatpants but not his shirt, he brushed back his wet hair and walked into the kitchen. Cloud’s mouth opened and he seemed to have difficulty breathing. Genesis reached the desired effect, he smiled.

“Hello, little bird.”

Genesis strutted up to his raven-haired lover, grabbed him by the face and kissed him with heat.

He released Angeal and moved over to Sephiroth who was seated at the table. Standing behind his general, Genesis pulled Sephiroth’s head back ever so gently, then reached down and kissed him with an open-mouthed kiss.

“Genesis, what are you doing?” Angeal chastised.

“Just greeting my lovers after returning from a perilous mission.” Genesis feigned innocence.

“Without a shirt on?” Angeal added.

“Oh, darling I must have forgotten, how silly of me.” Genesis walked by a completely stunned and flustered Cloud. He caressed his face gently with a finger before exiting the kitchen.

The stew was delicious, they sat around the table chatting and Genesis was now wearing a shirt. Cloud knew that the Firsts were ok with him knowing their secret, and it made him feel special that they trusted him. The only thing missing was Zack.

As the night wore on, Genesis became agitated knowing what was waiting for Cloud should he return to his apartment. The fiery commander would not allow Cloud to endure another assault.

He noticed the blonde growing tired as he sat on the couch beside Sephiroth. His eye lids opened and closed slowly.

“Ange love, would you please bring our little bird some chamomile tea.”

Angeal left the lounge and returned moments later with a cup of tea which he provided to Cloud.

After he had consumed the soothing tea, Cloud drifted off into a peaceful sleep, his head resting on Sephiroth’s lap. The silver general enjoyed the view of his blonde and brushed his slender fingers through Cloud’s golden strands.

“Now that he is asleep, I have one little job to take care of before the evening ends. Seph dear, please carry Cloud to the guest room, he will not be returning to his apartment this evening.”

Sephiroth nodded and continued stroking Cloud’s hair.

#

Genesis knocked on the door to apartment 7. His enhanced ears picked up the voice from the otherside of the door.

“Cloud, did you forget your keycard or something?”

Nox opened the door, and his green eyes widened at the sight of Commander Rhapsodos. Genesis noted that the cadet was clad in only simple sleep shorts, he was clearly in a hurry to get Cloud into bed.

“Will you not address your commanding officer, Cadet Nox?”

Nox stood to attention and saluted, even though he looked ridiculous standing there half naked.

 “Commander Rhapsodos, sir.”

“Very good, cadet. Now put on some clothes, we need to have a little chat.”

The green-eyed cadet retreated to his quarters and moments later returned to the dining area wearing a set of sweats.

“Sit, cadet.” Genesis pointed to the empty chair at the table.

“Where is Cloud, sir. Did something happen to him?” A bead of sweat trickled down the cadet’s face.

Genesis glared at Nox. I’d like to tell you a little fact about enhanced individuals. Did you know they can hear a whisper clear across a training room.

Nox gulped.

“I’m going to tell you a few things cadet and you will listen. Cadet Strife doesn’t require a firm hand. He will not be getting some from you. Do you understand, cadet?

“Yessir,” Nox piped up.

“Your peers organised for the apartment to be empty so you could rape Cadet Strife. You agreed to use violence to subdue him and sexually assault him should he refuse your advances. Is this correct, Nox?”

Nox was quivering now. “Sir, please. It is not like that, I, I wasn’t going to rape, Cloud.”

“You’re shaking cadet, you’re afraid. Now think back to how Cloud was feeling when he asked you to stop the first time. You ignored his wishes and continued to sexually assault him.”

Nox had nothing to say.

“No means no cadet, but you seem to struggle to hear those words.”

Genesis held his palm up and allowed a flame to grow.

“Just so you know cadet, I sometimes don’t hear no or stop, when I start casting firaga. Do you understand what I’m trying to tell you, cadet?”

Nox’s face turned pale. The threat of the fire in Genesis’ hands was enough to cause the cadet to freeze up.

“I could easily have you and your little friends dishonorably discharged. You’re about old enough to be sent to Corel Prison for sexual assault of a comrade.”

Tears dropped down Nox’s face.

“I’m sorry sir, I didn’t mean to hurt Cloud, I just wasn’t thinking. I won’t hurt Cloud ever again, I promise.”

“That’s good cadet, and I promise that if you, or your little friends harm or talk ill of Cadet Strife, nothing shall forestall my return. And I will return with fire.”

He closed his hand extinguishing the flame.

“Now, make yourself useful cadet and pack all of Cadet Strife’s belongings into his duffle.”

“Yes, commander, sir.”

#

Cloud woke feeling incredibly well rested. He could smell something delicious wafting through the room. He opened his eyes and was confused. This was not his bedroom. Shit.

He remembered dozing off during the movie. Oh gods, he fell asleep on the general.

He looked down and could see he was still wearing his sweats from last night, minus his jumper, which had been removed.

He made his way to the kitchen, to find Angeal and Sephiroth preparing pancakes, bacon, eggs and a variety of fruits and syrups to go with the pancakes!

“Good morning, Cloud!” Angeal offered him a wide smile.

Sephiroth nodded toward him, “Cloud.”

“Uh, morning, I…I’m sorry, I fell asleep. You should have woken me up, I would have gone back to my apartment.”

“Nonsense, dear,” came the voice of his fiery commander.

“You will be staying with us for the weekend since Zack is still on mission. I took the liberty of having your things brought across.”

Cloud looked at the completely full duffle. “That looks like all my stuff. Genesis, why are all my things here just for the weekend?”

“We will discuss it later, dear. For now, breakfast!” Genesis smiled mischievously at the blonde.

Cloud enjoyed watching the Firsts food selections. Sephiroth preferred sweet syrups on his pancakes, and fruit on the side. Genesis ate pancakes with apple slices and syrup, whilst Angeal ate his pancakes with whipped butter and honey. They all consumed multiple portions of eggs and bacon. Enhanced SOLDIERs clearly needed the fuel for their bodies!

Spending the weekend with the Firsts was an experience. He learned how to care for weapons with Angeal. The commander used his Buster sword to demonstrate how to care for the blade appropriately, which included using the right oils.

Sephiroth took Cloud into one of the VR training rooms reserved for 2nd and 1st class SOLDIERs. He had Cloud fight against low level enemies such as Wererats.

Genesis enjoyed painting Cloud’s nails and putting eyeliner and mascara on him. Everything was going great until there was a knock on the door.

Angeal answered the door first.

“Tseng?”

“Hello Angeal, I’m here to bring Cadet Strife to the President.”

Clouds heart sank, he was finally out of time.

Chapter Text

Tseng made eye contact with Cloud, who was sitting in the living room. His eyes widened as fear started to seep in.

“It’s time to go, Cloud.” Tseng called over to him.

Cloud shook his head, but the words would not come out.

“Please, Cloud. It is not an option, Rufus is expecting you, you cannot deny the president’s orders.”

Cloud looked to the Firsts, they all looked sympathetic, they knew he didn’t have a choice. He was never given a choice.

“No. I won’t go.” Cloud clenched his fists, as though he was prepared to fight.

“Cloud, there is no where for you to go, please avoid resisting.” Tseng looked at Cloud with a warning in his dark eyes.

No. He didn’t care, he wouldn’t go, he didn’t want to hear the results of the blood test.

With nowhere else to go, the blonde turned and ran into the guest bedroom, locking the door behind him. They could drag him kicking and screaming.

Tseng turned to address the Firsts.

“You must know that Rufus anticipated Cloud’s reaction. Rude and Reno are waiting outside, they have the president’s permission to take Cloud by force, if necessary. They will not be gentle with him if forced to take him.”

Genesis glared at him in disgust. “This is a teenaged cadet, and you really require two Turks with weapons to restrain him?”

Tseng blinked, his face void of emotion. You have options, you can use sleepel on him, or one of you can restrain him.”

Genesis snapped at Tseng.

“I will not cast spells on him, that is as bad as drugging a minor. It will also leave him docile for a while after waking, anyway!”

Angeal spoke up, his eyes showed he was fighting something internally.

“I will try to get him to go without the need for force.”

“If that fails, you will need to use force, Angeal. If you cannot, then my men will.”

The honour bound commander sighed and made his way to the guest room. There was no denying the president’s demands, even the Firsts answered to the President, a seventeen-year-old cadet had no chance of avoiding this.

He used his knuckles to gently knock on the door and spoke softly to the frightened blonde behind the door.

“Cloud, it’s Angeal, please let me in.”

“Angeal, please help me!”

“I will, Cloud. You just need to open the door.”  

Cloud scuffled to the door, he knew Angeal was safe, he could trust the man.

He unlocked the door and embraced the raven haired commander.

“Angeal, I don’t want to go, please help me! Make them leave! I’m scared, I don’t want to know the results, it will ruin everything. I will not go quietly, and I will fight if I must!”

Angeal knew there would be no convincing Cloud to go quietly, he knew how stubborn Cloud could be and how dangerous the Turks were. If he didn’t do something soon, they would really hurt Cloud in the process.

To protect Cloud from a harsh physical altercation with two Turks, Angeal had to do something dishonourable. He tried to convince himself that this was the only option, but it still ate away at him, he wasn’t sure if Cloud would ever forgive him.

He smiled down at Cloud, “we will work something out, you won’t have to go. Follow me, ok?”

Cloud sighed in relief, he hugged Angeal even tighter, he knew his commander would keep him safe.

“Ok, I will follow you.”

The burly commander guided him back to the living room, where Tseng was still standing. There were now two other Turks present, one with long red hair tied in a pony, his white shirt unbuttoned to reveal his chest. He was carrying some sort of baton as a weapon. The other was a taller, bald man who wore sunglasses.

Tseng stared at Cloud. “It’s time to go, Cloud.”

The blonde felt brave knowing Angeal had his back. “No, I’m not going. Angeal, tell them I’m not going.”

But Angeal didn’t respond.

Instead, a muscular arm reached around his body and held him tightly. Shit. He was being restrained. The man he trusted, the honourable man had deceived him. Cloud started to slip into panic, this type of touch triggered him, memories of the attack by Moore filled his mind. He started to struggle against his commander, he needed to get away.

“Please Angeal, please stop. I don’t want this. You said you would help me, why are you doing this?”

Angeal remained silent, his hold tightening each time the boy struggled.

The boy looked desperately towards his fiery commander and his silver general, but they didn’t meet his eyes. “Genesis! Sephiroth! Please don’t let them take me, I can’t do this. Please, I’m begging you to make them stop!”

Tears of frustration leaked out of the blonde’s eyes when his commanders ignored his pleas.

Tseng’s patience was wearing thin.

“Get him under control Hewley, you are a commander and First Class SOLDIER. Your loyalty is to the president, not this cadet. Make him cease struggling, or we will.”

Angeal turned Cloud around to face him, he grabbed the boy by his thin arm. Cloud cried out in pain, with tears staining his face he made one final plea.

“Please…Angeal.”

The boy could not see the pain and sadness behind Angeal’s eyes and how torn he was.

The commander raised his hand and smacked Cloud across the face with the back of his hand. The sound was sickening as the boy collapsed on the floor.

Cloud’s ears were ringing, there was so much pain on the side of his face. Gods. It was just like when Moore slammed his face into the desk.

When the ringing stopped, the blonde had pulled himself to his hands and knees. His face was dripping but it wasn’t tears. Blood flowed from his nose, his eyebrow, and his once again split lip. He put his hand out to catch some of the blood.

His honour bound commander had betrayed him. His Firsts ignored his pleas to stop.

The men he trusted most, who had spent time with him, vowed to protect him, were nothing more than liars. Angeal had restrained him again and now made him bleed. He hurt him, just like Moore had hurt him. Gods, he was a fool to place his trust in them, this was his own fault.

He wasn’t safe, he never was. It was time to accept that people would always overpower him and hurt him. It would be fine. He was getting used to pain.

Maybe he deserved it.

A switch flicked in Cloud’s mind. He finally decided to just give up. It didn’t matter anymore. It didn’t matter if he was Shinra’s bastard son, he was always going to be someone’s punching bag or worse. He didn’t matter. He was stupid to think differently. Maybe Zack would have helped him? Who was he kidding. Zack wouldn’t choose him over his lovers.

Cloud pulled himself to his feet, he didn’t bother wiping away the blood dripping down his face and onto his clothes, there was no point. He walked towards the Turks without another glance at the Firsts.

He looked up at Tseng through his bloodied eye.

“I’m ready to go now, I won’t resist anymore.”

Cloud left with the Turks without another word or sound.

#

Cloud entered the elevator to the presidential floor with the Turks.

“Yo blondie, Commander Hewley fucked ya up good. Damn. I mean, under all dat blood I guess yer a pretty little thing ain’t ya.”

Cloud was done fighting but he still had some words left. “Fuck you, Turk.”

“Maybe when ya eighteen.” Reno laughed.

“Not interested.” Cloud responded.

“Leave the boy alone, Reno.” Rude rolled his eyes behind his sunglasses.

“Just tryna make conversation with the twerp, yo. He’s gotta bit of a mouth on ‘im too.”

“Reno, be silent.” Tseng said looking at the younger Turk.

As they exited the elevator, Tseng placed a hand on Cloud’s shoulder.

“I know you are currently physically hurt and emotionally upset but it would be in your best interest to mind your tongue when addressing the President.”

“Yes, sir,” was all Cloud offered, as he looked down at his feet.

“Cloud, Rufus was hoping to avoid having you injured, he will offer you some potions to fix the damage.”

Cloud didn’t respond.

As they entered the doors to Rufus’ office, the president was seated behind his desk. When his cerulean eyes landed on Cloud’s, he frowned at the sight of his face.

“So, you decided to resist, you are very stubborn, Cloud.” The boy remained silent and lowered his head.

“Fetch two potions from my stores, Rude!” Rufus instructed the Turk.

Once Reno and Rude left the room, Tseng stood by the doors. Cloud looked up slightly and noticed an envelope on the desk. This was it. His whole life was going to change, he just knew it.

Rufus walked around Cloud then back to his desk, he picked up the envelope with his delicate fingers and passed him the envelope. Cloud slowly took the envelope from Rufus.

The older blonde stood behind Cloud and whispered, “open it.”

With shaking hands, Cloud ripped open the envelope and unfolded the single piece of paper inside. His eyes scanned the words before he stopped, he let the letter fall to the ground.

The president smiled behind the boy.

“Welcome home, little brother.”

Cloud’s mind began to shut down, his breathing was coming in short bursts. He knew this would be the result. It’s why his mother never spoke about his father, why the townspeople hated him and made him an outcast.

He was a Shinra bastard.

“I know it is a lot to take in, Cloud. But whether you want it or not, you are a Shinra.”

Cloud looked at his half brother with defeat in his cerulean eyes.

“Tseng did some digging around Nibelheim, your mother was your age when our father had his fun with her. She was underage when he climbed on top of her. The company repaid her though, they provided the house you grew up in. Did you ever find it strange that your single mother with barely any income, could afford a dwelling in town? A home in exchange for rape, father was a wretched man.”

Cloud’s thoughts were of his mother, she was only seventeen when she fell pregnant with him. She kept him, despite the fact he looked like the son of a bitch that raped her. She loved him and defended her only son against the townspeople, and she kept Shinra out of his life. That must have been why she cried and cried when he said he was leaving Nibelheim to become a SOLDIER of Shinra.

Gods, he wanted his mama. He wanted to go home.

“Now, little brother, you are going to help me change the face of Shinra! Father caused a lot of problems with many people, he fueled the war, caused people of Midgar to lose their homes, many innocent people died due to his actions. There is a lot of hate right now. You, little brother will help us change that. We will show Midgar how I have accepted an illegitimate brother. You will play your part, Cloud. You will become a face of SOLDIER, a face of hope, and you will help restore respect to the Shinra name.”

Cloud looked at Rufus in disbelief.

“There is a concern that I have about you, dear brother. It saddens me to hear you have been targeted for assault and even rape. We can’t have a son of Shinra sexually assaulted now, can we?”

Cloud couldn’t stop his cheeks from burning.

“No need to be ashamed, you are very attractive brother, but in your current state, you are not able to protect yourself, even from your comrades.”

The blonde’s head jerked, “what do you mean by my comrades?”

“Ohhh, I suppose Commander Rhapsodos hasn’t told you. Your roommates were planning for your rape this past Friday, if it weren’t for Rhapsodos’ intervention, I fear you would have faced another assault. And that would hardly be a good look for the Shinra name.”

Cloud felt sick to his stomach, the thought that Aidan would go that far really hit hard. He really couldn’t trust anyone.

“As such, we will need to take precautions. You will spend the duration of the Stepping into SOLDIER Program, living with Commander Rhapsodos. He has a spare room and has proved his loyalty to Shinra by protecting you.”

“No. I’m not staying there!” The blonde glared at his brother.

Rufus chuckled, “you really are a feisty one, you must get that from your mother. I’m sure she put up an ample fight against father.”

Rage flowed through Cloud, “Shut up!”

Rufus reached out and grabbed Cloud by his face. “Whilst I find your feisty nature entertaining, don’t test me, little brother. I said I wouldn’t hurt you, that’s what I have the Turks for.”

He let him go, and smirked as he walked back to his desk.

“Reno and Rude will escort you back to the Firsts, you will stay there, Cloud. You will obey me little brother. If you have any further difficulties following orders, then we will have another little chat. Dismissed.”

Tseng opened the door where Rude and Reno waited for Cloud. Rufus called out to the Turks.

“Give him the potions when he is back with the Firsts, if he refuses, have Rhapsodos cast a cure. I will not have a Shinra walking around looking like that.”

Chapter Text

Angeal sat on the couch in the living room, his head pressed firmly into his hands in an attempt to hide his shame. Genesis sat beside his lover, rubbing gentle circles on his back, hoping to soothe away some of the burly commander’s stress.

Sephiroth attempted to centre his lover. “Angeal, you did what needed to be done. Logically, it was the right move. Cloud would have endured worse at the hands of the Turks.”

“There was no honour in what I did. I betrayed him. I lied to a child, led him into a false sense of security and assaulted him. He begged me for help, even at the end when he knew it was hopeless, he still pleaded with me. I’m a monster.”

“No, Angeal. Monsters do not show remorse for their actions. Cloud will forgive you.”

The fiery commander jumped in, “he begged us for help, and we acted like we couldn’t see him. He was terrified, his words went unheard. He said no and stop, and we, like those who have violated him, ignored him. We don’t deserve forgiveness.”

The door of the apartment opened, and a familiar voice carried through. “Hey guys, I’m back, the mission got cancelled, so they sent us home early. Thought I’d surprise you all. Did ya miss me?”

Zack stood there, and the smile fell from his face.

“What’s wrong, Geal. Are you ok?” Why is there blood on your knuckles?”

“Sit down Zachary, and I will explain what has happened.” Sephiroth took a breath and filled Zack in on what had taken place.

“You did what to Cloud?” Zack was freaking out and was unable to stay still. “And between two commanders and a general, that was the best plan you could come up with?” Zack threw his arms into the air, then ruffled his own hair in frustration.

There was a knock at the door, Sephiroth answered it this time.

“Yo, General, we have your blonde boy toy here, boss says he’s gotta take these potions. And if he don’t play nice, have Rhapsodos fix ‘im up. Said he can’t have a Shinra lookin like that.” Reno passed the two potions to Sephiroth.

Rude had Cloud with him, a hand clasped on his shoulder to discourage him from trying to run.

The bald Turk turned to the silver general.

“Rufus said the boy is to stay in Rhapsodos’ apartment for the remainder of the course, he does not want anyone else assaulting him.”

“Yeah, so don ‘ have too much fun with da little twink.” Reno laughed.

Sephiroth noted that Cloud did not speak, he didn’t even look up once.

“Let’s go, Reno. General, Rufus said to let you know, that if the boy struggles to follow orders, we will deal with him for you.”

“He don’need us to fix ‘im up, looks like Hewley knows how ta put the twerp in his place. Later general.”

The Turks retreated and Cloud was left standing in the hallway with Sephiroth. His serpent eyes looked over Cloud, the boy had shut down, he had no fight left in him. The general attempted to speak to the boy in the hopes of beginning to restore the trust that had been broken.

“Cloud, I know at the moment, you are understandably angry with all of us, I just want you to know that Angeal didn’t have a choice. If he didn’t act harshly with you, the two Turks would have shown you no mercy. Turks are not known for their kindness. Angeal wanted to protect you, he was trying to convince you to go quietly with him, but when you said you would fight if you had to, he knew it would not work. His loyalty to the president was called into question. He was left with no choice.”

Cloud turned his head up to look at the demon of Wutai.

“No, general. I had no choice. I’m never given a choice. People just take from me, just like how my asshole of a father raped my mother. She didn’t get a choice either. But that is how the world works here at Shinra, you all prey on the weak.”

Cloud looked away from the silver general, his bruises were already purple, and blood had dried up all over his shirt. Cloud brushed past the general, if he was stuck living here, he would just stay in the guest room and then he wouldn’t have to face any of them.

As he stepped past the threshold, his swollen eye caught sight of the one man, he still might be able to trust. Zack. He wanted to smile at him, run up and embrace him, but his body and mind were beyond exhausted.

Zack looked at Cloud with complete shock on his face.

“Shit. Spike, you’re really hurt. How come no one has healed you. What the fuck, guys!”

It pained Cloud to see tears welling in Zack’s kind eyes. He really was pissed off that he had been hurt. Cloud didn’t have much left to offer, but for Zack, he would try.

“I am fine, Zack. I’m getting used to it.” That sentence made all the Firsts grimace. “I am glad you are safe from your mission, Zack. I’m going to bed, I am exhausted.”

Cloud made a point of walking up to the commanders in the living room. He looked directly at Angeal, who looked back at him with guilt.

“General Sephiroth tells me that you had no choice but to hurt me because your loyalty was being questioned. So, I guess I should be grateful to you for my beating, Commander Hewley. I guess it could have been worse, at least you didn’t bend me over a desk, like Sergeant Moore did. Thank you, Commander Hewley.” He even saluted his attacker.

Angeal went pale, “Cloud…”

Cloud turned and went to the guest room. He didn’t bother to lock the door this time, there was no point. A lock wouldn’t keep him safe.”

Zack stood there with a dumbfounded look on his face. He turned to his mentor, “Geal, you hit him hard, he’s not enhanced! He’s just a kid. You didn’t need to hurt him like that.”

“I am sorry Zack, it was not my intention to hurt him like that. Tseng was applying pressure, the Turks were going to intervene, and Cloud wouldn’t stop struggling. I had no choice…”

“And neither did Cloud, Geal! I’m gonna go to him.”

“Puppy, Angeal really didn’t mean to hurt Cloud, he wanted to protect him from the Turks, there was nothing more the rest of us could do, love. You know there is no denying the president, even Sephiroth answers to Rufus.”

Zack took a breath, and he looked toward his lovers. “I know.” It was enough to draw a small smile from the fiery commander.

Zack stood in front of his former mentor and placed his hand on the commander’s muscular shoulder. It was a small gesture, but it showed that Zack held no anger toward him. Angeal responded by placing a gentle hand on Zack’s arm.

#

Zack knocked on the bedroom door to let Cloud know he was entering the room. He had gone past the bathroom first, to dampen a small washcloth in the sink.

The blonde lay on the bed, his bloodied shirt had been tossed on the floor. He faced away from Zack with his knees bent up towards his bare chest.

The young raven haired SOLDIER sat on the bed and watched as the blonde’s chest expanded and retracted slowly with each breath. Bruises lined his arm where Angeal had grabbed him, blood had crusted on his face and stained his golden spikes.

“Cloudy, I’m so sorry I wasn’t here to protect you, this should never have happened. I’m sorry, I failed you, I’m a pretty shitty friend.”

Cloud didn’t turn toward him, but he spoke softly. “Its not your fault, Zack. You did nothing wrong. I…I’ve missed you.”

“I missed you too, Spike. Do you think you could let me clean you up a little? I know from experience that dried up blood doesn’t feel too good.”

The blonde sighed and rolled over to face Zack. Cerulean eyes met violet mako eyes.

The raven-haired SOLDIER lay down next to Cloud. He gently wiped away the blood on his cheek and his eye. He swallowed before wiping the blonde’s lips ever so gently.

“I know you refused the potions, and you aren’t too keen on the others touching you right now but maybe you’ll let me heal you? I forgot to drop off my Materia in the foyer,” he pointed to the bracer still attached on his arm.

“I’m not as good as Gen, but I can manage a decent cure.”

Cloud stared at Zack, he nodded to give his consent. He always gave Cloud a choice.

Zack smiled, he raised his hand and caressed Cloud’s cheek as a familiar sparkling, green light engulfed them both. Cloud’s bruises faded away and his split lip stitched back together.

Zack brushed back the stray golden strands on Cloud’s face. The blonde grasped Zack’s hand, holding it in place. The younger teen shifted closer, he took Zack’s hand and placed it on his hip. Cloud moved his face closer, lining his lips up with Zack’s. He looked to the older teen and waited for his consent. When Zack didn’t pull away, the blonde closed the distance, kissing Zack’s weather worn lips. It was not a heated kiss, but it stirred sensations deep within Cloud. It felt nothing like this when he kissed Aidan.

Zack pulled away, “I promise I will help make things right with the others.”

Cloud believed him.

The blonde drifted off to sleep whilst staring at his violet eyed SOLDIER.

#

Cloud woke the next morning and was ravenous. He hadn’t eaten since lunch the day before. Needless to say, his appetite was nonexistent after yesterday's events. He could smell Angeal’s cooking, but he didn’t dare leave his room. How could he look him in the eye, after what happened? His stomach started to bubble with anxiety, how could he sit at the same table with the men who allowed him to be hurt?

He dressed in silence, then sat back on the edge of the bed, still deciding if it was worth the risk walking out to the kitchen. Luckily, he didn’t have to leave the room for the bathroom, as the guest room was equipped with a small ensuite.

Before he could make a decision, Zack knocked and then entered.

“Morning Spike, you look like you had a restful sleep.”

“Yeah, I did actually.”

“Still deciding if you are gonna join us for breakfast, huh?” Zack smiled at the blonde.

Cloud didn’t respond.

“Hey, Cloudy. I spoke with the others about what happened yesterday. They realise they majorly screwed up, but they want to know if you’d be willing to hear them out? You don’t have to, if you don’t want to. It’s just…Angeal is my mentor, or was, and Spike, I’ve never seen the man cry before. I have known him since I was fourteen, and I’ve loved him for two years. He called himself a monster, said he doesn’t deserve the rank of commander, that he might resign.”

Cloud noticed the way Zack choked up at those words.

“His honour is everything, he feels that he has wronged you too many times and that he has no honour left. I’m not asking you to forgive him as that wouldn’t be fair to you. But do you think you might be able to hear him out?”

Angeal cried over what he did. He wants to step down from the position he worked so hard for. He called himself a monster. It would be ok to just hear what he has to say, right?

“Ok, Zack. I’ll hear him out.”

Zack pulled Cloud into a lung crushing hug. Before the older teen left the room, he pecked Cloud on the lips. The blonde immediately blushed, and Zack chuckled as he left the room.

Cloud didn’t need to wait long before there was another knock on the door. His heart started to race, he knew it was Angeal. When he didn’t enter the room, Cloud knew he was waiting for permission to enter.

“You..you can come in,” he wasn’t sure why his voice sounded unusually high pitched.

The door opened gently and in walked the burly commander, a tray of food in hand.

Gods, it smelled delicious and it appeared the commander had gone to the effort to prepare all of Cloud’s favourite foods. The platter contained egg rolls with chives, waffles with blackberry jam, crispy streaks of bacon and fresh orange juice.

Angeal placed the tray next to Cloud on his bed, and the boy looked up at the man, his baby blues still prickled with fear.

“I…I’m not hungry,” but even his gods be damned stomach was a treacherous traitor and growled at that exact moment. Cloud blushed and held his head down. He missed the small smile on Angeal’s face.

“That’s ok, Cloud. Would…would it be ok, if I sit with you for a while to talk?” The commander's eyes looked tired and weary, dark circles lay beneath his mako eyes.

The blonde nodded, he brought his knees up to his chest to protect himself, just in case. The burly commander noticed that the boy also took a piece of bacon from the peace offering platter and munched on it quietly.

Angeal sat on the bed, the tray of food between them, he breathed deeply and began the difficult conversation.

“Cloud, I can’t even begin to tell you how deeply I regret what I did to you. I’ve always considered myself to be an honourable man, as my father taught me to be. But the way I hurt you, makes me unworthy of the title, Honour Bound Commander. I betrayed your trust, held you against your will and hurt you… I’m truly disgusted with myself.”

Cloud’s eyes focused on Angeal, though he chose not to say anything, yet.

“When you ran to your room, Tseng informed us they would take you by force if you wouldn’t go peacefully. Reno would use his weapon on you, it releases painful electrical currents through the body whilst also inflicting bodily harm. Rude is exceedingly fast and packs a powerful punch. If these men attacked, they would show no mercy. They would heal you eventually, but you would have endured two fully grown men attacking you.”

The commander took another breath to help maintain his composure.

“When Tseng was demanding for me to get you under control, I started to panic. I was thinking the other two would start attacking, adrenaline released into my system. When it combines with mako, my control can sometimes slip up. Sometimes as a SOLDIER, I can forget my strength, I never meant to hit you, the way I did. I lost control, I should have been better than that. I can only ask your forgiveness, Cloud. But I won’t pretend that I deserve it.”

Cloud had finished his second egg roll and was listening intently. He was starting to understand Angeal’s point of view and how his enhancements affected him. He also started to think about the injuries he may have endured at the hands of Reno and Rude.

“I do ask that you forgive Sephiroth and Genesis. Their hands were tied, even the Great Sephiroth must answer to the President. They felt so ashamed, they couldn’t even look at you when you were begging for help. If they intervened, they would have faced disciplinary action, you would have lost Genesis as a mentor. We all see you becoming a fine SOLDIER, Cloud. Gen told us you were able to cast a firaga as strong as his.”

So, they weren’t ignoring his pleas, they felt helpless and ashamed. Cloud forgot that Sephiroth and Genesis have a boss, someone to answer to.

“I regret that I had to ignore your pleas to stop, and by doing so I have made you afraid of me. I’m as bad as Sergeant Moore.”

No. No one was as bad as Moore. Angeal was a First Class SOLDIER, a commander in the military and he had just apologised to Cloud for hurting him. The men at Nibelheim never apologised to him. Moore would never apologise to him. If Angeal truly meant to hurt him, he wouldn’t waste his breath on him or make him his favourite breakfast. If he meant to harm him, he would have just tossed him aside like garbage. He was being vulnerable with Cloud, he admitted a weakness and was trying to fix what had been damaged.

Cloud suddenly thought back to his moment with Angeal in the kitchen, then something clicked.

“Angeal. I…I forgive you.”

The burly commander just stared at Cloud wide eyed, Mako shining brightly in his dark eyes.

“Cloud, please, you don’t have to forgive me if you feel obligated because I am your superior. I would never abuse my position of power to make you forgive me.”

The blonde stared at his honour bound commander, his eyes showed he was still unsure, but the fear was gone.

“I get it. Why you did what you did. I don’t think it was right how you hurt me, but I understand you were trying to shield me from the Turks. That Reno is a dick.”

Angeal chuckled softly. Cloud continued.

“When we were in the kitchen the other day, you could easily have taken advantage of me, we were alone. When I … you know…you put your hands on my hips, I thought you were going to…you know. But you stopped me, you had control enough to stop that from happening. You’re not a monster, Angeal. I forgive you. We both made a mistake. I hope you can forgive me for what I did that day.”

The burly commander’s mouth opened slightly in disbelief at what his blonde had said.

“Cloud, I won’t deny that I really wanted to take you that day, but you are still underage, and I would never hurt you that way.”

Cloud looked away, his cheeks started to flush pink. “You do have honour, Angeal. Zack told me you were thinking of stepping down from your position. Don’t do that on account of me, you are Commander Angeal Hewley, First Class SOLDIER. I’m nothing, I’m just some backwater Shinra bastard.” Cloud looked away.

“Whether you are Cloud Strife or Cloud Shinra, you will always be our Cloud and soon enough you will be SOLDIER. Being the son of Shinra, doesn’t change the person you are, Cloud. You told Zack you want to be a SOLDIER, to be a hero who helps others. I will tell you what I told Zack when he was a little younger than you. If you want to be a hero, you need to have dreams and honour.”

Cloud smiled at his raven-haired commander.

Now that apologies had been made, Cloud could work on rebuilding trust with Angeal. He knew he still needed to speak to Sephiroth and Genesis.

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Lessons with Genesis had been cancelled for the week as he was ordered to investigate some newly found mako springs up north. There had been reports of mutated animals and monsters causing issues to towns in the surrounding areas. Mako springs were commonly known to cause mutations in living creatures.

#

It was not yet public knowledge about Cloud being a Shinra, but he knew once it was, things would change and not for the better. It frightened him what he might endure once people knew.

Zack was so happy and a lot calmer since Cloud told him he forgave Angeal. What Cloud didn’t tell the older teen was that he had been having nightmares each night since. A mixture of horrible dreams which included Sergeant Moore and Angeal attacking him, making him run in fear. He often woke in a cold sweat, and he refused to go back to sleep, it was just easier to stay awake. It felt safer.

It was true, Cloud wanted to forgive Angeal, but it didn’t make him forget what happened. It was a lot for his teenage mind to contend with. His head ached from constantly being overwhelmed, and the only way to release the pressure was to sit on the shower floor and cry silent tears. He would place his hand over his mouth to choke down his own sobs, so the others didn’t hear him.

He wanted to speak to his mother, but if he called, he knew he would sob the whole time. He didn’t want to burden his mother and force her to relive her own painful memories of her past. So, he did what he could to bottle up everything inside and hoped he wouldn’t implode.

That week, Cloud started a routine. He began his morning jogs, he left the apartment at 0500 and ran for as long and far as he could. He started eating breakfast at the cafeteria. He spent the days practicing his katas and levelling up his Materia using the outdoor training grounds, as the training rooms in the tower often made him feel claustrophobic.

Cloud wandered around the grounds, read in the library, did anything to avoid the First’s apartment. He only returned to shower and sleep, and this was usually after midnight when he was completely exhausted.

It was difficult to spend time with Zack as he had been drowning in paperwork which was part of his responsibility as a First. Zack did offer for Cloud to hang out in his office, but he declined, it was too close to Angeal and Sephiroth’s offices. He really wanted to speak to Genesis, he had always been comfortable with him, but as he was away on a mission, it would have to wait.

It wasn’t until later in the week that Cloud started to get the feeling that he was being watched and followed. He had chills run down his spine and found that he was constantly looking over his shoulder. The blonde didn’t bother to tell anyone because it was probably just in his head, he knew he was sleep deprived.

#

At lunch on Friday, Cloud went to the cafeteria like he had done all week. He sat at the table at the back of the room and picked at the pitiful excuse for food. It was nothing like Angeal’s cooking. As he swallowed down a mouthful of mush, he noticed a familiar 2nd Class SOLDIER approaching him.

“Hey Cloud, been looking for you, got a note for you.” Kunsel passed Cloud a small folded up piece of paper, he opened it and read the short message it contained.

Cadet Strife,

Report to General Sephiroth’s office at 1330.

The blonde sighed, guess he couldn’t avoid the conversation forever, “thanks, Kunsel.”

“No problem, Cloud. Don’t be late, the general doesn’t like to be kept waiting.” He smirked as he left the cafeteria.

Cloud stared down at the sludge on his plate and pushed it aside, his meeting with Sephiroth was in less than 30 minutes. He pulled himself to his feet and slowly made his way to the silver general’s office, his stomach twisted into a ball of anxiety.

#

He arrived on the SOLDIER floor and walked down the hall towards the offices. Cloud waited until it was exactly 1330 before approaching the secretary at the admin desk. She was a middle aged woman with a kind face, her brunette hair was tied in a tight bun on top of her head.

“Excuse me, ma’am, I have a meeting with General Sephiroth at 1330.” He spoke politely as his mother had taught him to, when addressing women.

“Well, you are just a sweetheart, and so respectful. We don’t get much of that around here.” She turned towards her computer and typed away, before smiling back at him. “Yes, General Sephiroth is expecting you, Cadet Strife. His office is at the end of the hallway,” She pointed him in the right direction.

“Thank you, ma’am.”

He tentatively made is way down the hallway until he reached a door sporting a fancy gold plaque with bold black print.

 General Sephiroth, SOLDIER First Class.

Cloud looked down at his civilian clothes, gods, he really should have stopped by the apartment to change first. He was wearing one of Zack’s hoodies with simple jeans and his Shinra issued boots. Too late, now.

He didn’t even get to knock on the door when that familiar baritone voice called out to him. “Come in, Cloud.”

When he entered, Sephiroth was overlooking and signing some documents in front of him, there was a large stack of files which sat to his right. Even the general had paperwork.

Without looking up, he gestured for Cloud to sit by pointing to the chair on the opposite side of the desk. The room was clean and orderly, nothing looked out of place. Cloud noticed it didn’t have the same personalised look as his study in the apartment.

Sephiroth placed down his fountain pen and looked directly into Cloud’s eyes. He quirked an eyebrow at his clothes. He really should have changed before coming to the meeting.

“One of Zachary’s?” He gestured toward the hoodie.

His ears turned red, “ah yes, sir.”

“Hmmm,” he huffed what might have been a chuckle under his breath.

Expecting to be lectured about the events that unfolded on Sunday, Cloud was completely thrown off guard when Sephiroth began to speak.

“Cloud, you have broken curfew every night since Monday. You were seen wandering around the training grounds upwards of 0100. All underage cadets must report to their barracks or in your case, apartment, by 2200.”

Cloud was left stunned, he had been called to the general's office because he missed his bedtime?

“Reno has been following you to keep you safe. You need to understand, Cloud, that as a Shinra, you could easily become a target. You are not SOLDIER, yet. You are not in a position to defend yourself. Tseng decided against informing Rufus but know that next time he will not hesitate.”

Gods, they really were treating him like a child. He knew he was being followed. Did it have to be that loudmouth, Reno? At least Rufus didn’t know.

“I don’t need a babysitter, sir. The public don’t even know I’m a Shinra.” He scowled at the general.

Sephiroth’s face remained free of emotion.

“Owing to the fact you have broken curfew four nights in a row, you are now expected to be at your quarters each night by 1800 as the consequence.”

Cloud just saw his entire routine destroyed in an instant, his way out taken away, he was being forced to go where they wanted him.

“No, sir. I won’t. I…can’t.” 

“You will do as you are ordered to, inability to do so will result in disciplinary action.”

“So, you’re sending me to bed early as my punishment?” Cloud couldn’t help but scoff as he rolled his eyes.

“If you have intention of continuing your training in the Stepping Into SOLDIER program, then I suggest, you do as you are told. This is for your own safety, Cloud. There will be no further discussion.”

“Yes, sir.” Cloud turned to leave, visibly disappointed. As he reached the door, Sephiroth spoke with a gentle tone.

“Cloud. Genesis has returned from his mission. He is currently in VR training room 2.”

#

After returning from an almost five-day long mission, the red-haired commander came to the VR training room to release some of his pent-up emotions. He hadn’t had a chance to speak to Cloud after the hellish events of Sunday as he was called away in the early hours of Monday morning.

He was envious when his raven haired lover called to tell him that Cloud had forgiven him. He was jealous when the Puppy text him to say that Cloud kissed him. He was pissed off because he didn’t know if Cloud would forgive him.

He raised his hand, building a powerful flame, which harnessed all his anger. He threw flame after flame destroying simulated enemies, one after the next. His power was too much for the VR system and his Firagas bypassed the enemies and destroyed parts of the room. The fiery commander did not care at all for the damage he caused. He embraced and admired the flames, and he breathed deeply, feeling relief as he purged himself of a week's worth of pent-up stress.

Through the smoke and crimson flames, he saw a familiar head of golden spikes. Cerulean eyes met with mako blue.

“Hi Genesis, welcome home.”

Mako blue eyes took in the sight of the blonde, “Hello, dear. Thank you.”

“Uh…You kind of broke the room!”

“I was blowing off some steam, it has been a long week.”

Cloud looked around, there were holes in the walls, electrical wiring was sticking out of damaged lights and parts of the VR system, which caused sparks to shoot across the room.

“I do enjoy making Rufus spend his money fixing these rooms, millions of Gil worth, if I recall correctly.” He smirked as he admired his handy work.

“I..I should leave you alone, you must be tired from the mission, I…”

“Don’t go. I have wanted to speak with you since I left.” The commander didn’t take his eyes off the damaged room as he spoke.

Cloud swallowed and walked toward Genesis.

“Ange told me you forgave him. I can’t say I would have done so if I were in your position.”

“I had my reasons, but I do forgive him.”

“But you can’t forget the betrayal, you’ve been avoiding the apartment, and breaking curfew I hear.” The commander turned to stare at the blonde.

Cloud avoided Genesis’ gaze as he continued, “you are afraid, and you have every right to be. I certainly do not expect your forgiveness.”

Cloud took another step toward Genesis, this time with greater confidence.

“Gen, I know there was nothing you could do to help me that day, your hands were tied, I get it. There’s nothing to forgive. I’ve been wanting to talk to you too… but not about that.”

Genesis’ face showed genuine surprise, “you just called me, Gen. Only my lovers call me by that name.”

Clouds face burned. “Uh…I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to…I shouldn’t have, that was stupid.”

“No, little bird, it is more than fine, I quite like the sound of my name as it escape your lips.” He quirked a smile toward the blonde. “What is it you wish to speak to me about?”

“When I was with Rufus, he told me what you did to help me. Aidan was going to hurt me badly, but you protected me, you kept me…safe. Even that day with Moore, you stopped him squeezing my shoulder.”

Genesis gazed fondly at Cloud, “I wouldn’t let any harm befall you, though I failed you the other day.”

“Angeal told me you cared a lot about me and that you would protect me from anyone including yourself. That’s why you shut me out last time. You knew how I felt about you, right?”

Genesis eyes widened, “yes.”

Cloud took another step closer, “and because of how you felt, you shut me out, to protect me because of my age?”

Genesis hesitated, “yes.”

“I kissed Zack. And I had a moment with Angeal as well.” Cloud tried to pass off as confident and adult like.

The fiery commander scowled, “yes, dear. I heard in some detail of your flirtations with my lovers. Clearly, my self control rivals even that of the great Sephiroth.” Jealousy was evident on his face, he glanced away from the blonde as not to direct his frustration at him.

Cloud moved into Genesis’ personal space. He looked up at him with arousal growing in his young eyes, he bit his bottom lip seductively before he spoke softly to his fiery commander.

“Gen, I was attracted to you from the first day you whispered in my ear. I knew then that I wanted you.”

Genesis’ mako eyes darkened, he placed his hands on the blonde’s hips and walked him back slowly until they reached the wall. Genesis reached down and laced his fingers with Cloud’s. He raised the blonde's hands and pinned them gently above his head. He pressed himself against Cloud’s petite body, it felt as good as he imagined it would.

Cloud was breathing rapidly, his eyes fluttered. Genesis leaned down but did not kiss the blonde, he hesitated. Cloud had no intention of waiting any longer.

“Just for a moment, can we go forward in time to my eighteenth birthday, when I can give you my consent?”

“Just for a moment, love.”

Genesis released the blonde’s hands, he slowly tilted Cloud’s chin up so their lips could meet. Cloud was expecting a rough and heated kiss to match his fiery commander’s personality, but he was met with the gentleness of a lover.

Chapter Text

The day Genesis returned was the first night all week Cloud sat at the table to have dinner with the Firsts. He purposefully sat between Zack and Genesis for comfort, as he was still feeling anxious around Angeal. He knew he shouldn’t, but his body kept flinching around the man.

Angeal was noticeably nervous too. He was trying his best to give Cloud space, but he also tried to initiate small interactions with the boy to build his trust.

“It’s nice to see you at the dinner table, Cloud, we’ve missed your company.” The burly commander offered Cloud a kind smile.

Cloud’s cheeks were stuffed with creamy mashed potatoes, he swallowed carefully before answering. His mother always said it was rude to speak with a mouthful of food.

“I..I have just been training hard all week, I leveled up my fire materia and I’ve been working on swordplay. I want to wield larger swords like you and Zack, so maybe if I work hard enough, I can do it.”

Angeal studied Cloud thoughtfully. He chuckled lightly, “you’re clearly determined, I could help you build towards that goal if you’d like? You’d need to adjust your diet, have a set workout at the gym to build muscle mass. You’d also need some help learning the stances and techniques needed to wield broadswords.”

Cloud’s body stiffened slightly, he wasn’t sure if he’d be ok alone with Angeal, but he wanted to learn how to wield broadswords and Angeal was the best teacher for the job.

Sensing Cloud’s building distress, Genesis placed a reassuring hand on Cloud’s thigh. This soothed him instantly and was a gentle reminder that he would be ok.

“Go for it Spike, Geal’s the best, taught me everything I know! You’ll build those muscles in no time.” Zack sounded enthusiastic in his attempt to encourage Cloud to spend more time with Angeal.

“I don’t know…if that’s a good idea,” Cloud looked down as he spoke. Angeal was disheartened, but he knew not to pressure the blonde. “I mean, Angeal has his own students to teach, and he’s got paperwork and missions, he doesn’t have time to waste on me.”

The burly commander looked hopeful. “Cloud, if it means stopping you from breaking curfew, then I will make time for you. I’m sure Seph could help us out if we need to align our schedules?”

Sephiroth’s serpent eyes glanced toward Cloud.

“No. I will not pull any strings for our young cadet. When he can demonstrate obedience and can refrain from being impudent and defiant towards his general, then the curfew may be lifted.” The silver general continued to glare at the blonde.

So, he was pissed off with Cloud’s earlier moment of defiance and disrespect. Gods, he must hate him now.

Cloud could see that Sephiroth, whilst quiet, was clearly the most dominant partner in the Firsts relationship. He lowered his head in submission and stayed silent. His anxiety started to build again, he wanted out, he needed air, but he was trapped. His mind started to go into overdrive, too many thoughts screamed at him.

He’s mad at you. He will hurt you now, he’s the general so he can do what he wants. Rufus will find out and the Turks will come after you. Angeal is leading you into a false sense of security. He wants to get you alone. He will hit you again and again. Gen and Zack will be sent on missions, you’ll be alone with them, you won’t escape. Moore will find you, Shinra mutt.

He couldn’t move his body, he couldn’t move from his seat. Was he even breathing? A bead of sweat dripped down his cheek, but he couldn’t wipe it away. He was powerless and afraid, and his body knew it. His ears rang from a high-pitched screech, then darkness consumed him.

#

Cloud could hear voices echoing around him, but he couldn’t determine who they belonged to.

“Seriously Seph, Cloud’s scared enough, did you really need to stare him down and be so confronting?”

“Calm down, love. Cloud is clearly sleep deprived and obviously hasn’t been eating right all week, this panic attack was a build up of many things.”

“Zachary, it was not my intention to send the boy into distress, I worry that if we aren’t firm enough, he may risk rebelling, I don’t want him to get hurt.”

“We know you care about him Seph, but we need to be careful with him.”

Oh gods. He really was pathetic. He had collapsed like an idiot in front of the Firsts.

Cloud slowly opened his eyes, he looked up to see his fiery commander holding him. Safe.

“I’m sorry. General Sephiroth, sir. I apologise for my comments earlier today in your office. I didn’t mean to smart mouth you, please, I’m sorry.”

He tried to pull himself to his feet, but Genesis’ strong arms denied him.

“You will not be moving for a little while, dear. You should rest now, sleep.”

Cloud rested his head on Gensis’ lap, sleep about to take him, when his mouth betrayed him. “Please don’t let me sleep, the nightmares will come…” His eyelids closed but for once, his sleep was dreamless.

 #

No one made mention of his panic attack the following morning, Angeal prepared a high protein breakfast for Cloud as well as a vanilla protein shake for the extra calories. The blonde offered him a grateful smile.

Cloud stayed close to the Firsts the entire weekend, he wanted Sephiroth to see he was going to try his best to follow the rules obediently. He didn’t like it when Sephiroth seemed angry with him. Even though he was itching to be alone, he stayed put.

He watched movies with Zack, the older teen didn’t mind the youngest cuddling with him on the couch. Angeal taught him how to prep protein shakes to incorporate into his new diet. Genesis stayed with him in the evenings and recited Loveless until he fell asleep. As for Sephiroth, Cloud just stayed out of his way. The blonde felt he had been pretty successful over the weekend and felt ready for his lessons with Genesis to continue on Monday.

#

The lessons took place at the outdoor training grounds. Cloud was incredibly grateful, as he found the indoor training rooms too claustrophobic now.

There was definitely awkwardness between Aidan and Cloud, but it appeared that Genesis’ lesson had sunk into Aidan’s head and he left Cloud alone.

Their commander had them revise and learn new stances and moves with their weapons. Genesis modelled how to equip and utilise elemental materia with weaponry.

It was a delicate process of being able to draw out the spell and manipulate the energy to stay on the weapon. Cloud found it exhausting to maintain small flames on his katana and the slightest movement of the sword caused the flames to extinguish. Odin above, Genesis made it look so easy. He told Cloud that balancing the energy of materia, alongside mental concentration when wielding the sword would be key to success.

Cloud’s group spent the best part of two weeks working on developing this skill and they felt the strain on their own mana, exhaustion became the new norm.

#

Cloud started attending the gym three times a week with Angeal and they always managed to finish just before his curfew. Cloud still thought it was ridiculous, but he didn’t want to further anger Sephiroth.

Angeal had Cloud lifting weights which he would increase as his body adjusted to the weight. He had Cloud running on a treadmill to test his stamina and endurance, the blonde blushed when the burly commander said he would give some 2nd Class SOLDIERs a run for their money.

Over the next few weeks, a lot of Cloud’s anxiety had resolved, he wasn’t flinching as much around Angeal. He even sat next to the burly commander on the couch a few evenings each week and would allow him to gently massage his golden spikes. It seemed to lull him to sleep.

He felt comfortable sitting on Zack’s lap in view of the others, who didn’t bat an eyelash, except Sephiroth, who would stare at the two every now and then. Whilst Genesis refused to kiss Cloud, gentle touches to his face or hands were often noted by the others.

The only person who hadn’t made any progress with the blonde was Sephiroth and it was starting to frustrate the man. He wasn’t the most socially or emotionally competent person, and he often misread situations or reacted in a way which displeased his lovers. He had improved over the years with Angeal’s and Genesis’ help, but he was struggling with Cloud.

He didn’t understand why the blonde showed him such defiance, he was used to his lovers submitting to him without question. The boy had also made advances towards his lovers but avoided him, was the boy trying to challenge him? How could he when he always seemed fearful of him?

#

Cloud knew that Sephiroth was angry with him but he didn’t know what he did wrong. He stayed out of the man’s way and he barely even looked at him. Cloud saw those green eyes glaring at him whenever he was near. Was he just angry or did he hate him?

Cloud had been spending lunch in the apartment over the past few weeks so he could have his protein shake alongside the meals Angeal had prepared for him. He usually had the apartment to himself during this time which had been helpful as he got some down time away from the others. The blonde stopped in his tracks when he saw the general seated at the dining table.

“Hello, Cloud. Sit down.”

Cloud stared at the silver general. He knew he was in trouble, he just wished he knew what he did! The nervous cadet took a seat on the opposite side of the table.

The general eyed him with those slitted pupils. Cloud always thought Sephiroth had attractive eyes, especially with his long eyelashes but now, those eyes terrified him.

If he quickly apologised for whatever the hell it was he did wrong, then maybe he could fix it.

“General Sephiroth, sir. Please I…have met curfew everyday, I’ve been trying really hard to stick to it. I know you’re still angry with me, I’m not sure what I did but I’m sorry.”

There was a pause.

“Why are you afraid of me, Cloud?”

“Huh?”

“You recoil in fear whenever you see me, and you have been avoiding me for weeks. When I attempt to help you, I’m met with defiance and impudence, yet you’ve made yourself exceedingly comfortable with each of my lovers. Genesis told me what happened in the training room, Zachary told what me happened in your bedroom and Angeal told me what happened in the kitchen that day.”

Oh gods, he was pissed because he flirted with and kissed his lovers.

Cloud hadn’t responded yet. His lips were dry, and his anxiety had returned.

“Even now, Cloud, your heart is racing.”

Damned enhanced hearing.

“Sephiroth, it’s not like that, you’ve got it all wrong. I stayed away because I thought I was a nuisance to you. I kept making you mad at me, so I thought you’d prefer me to stay out of your way. I don’t mean to be disobedient or defiant, and I know I anger you. You’ve always been my idol, and I feel like I’ve disappointed you.”

“So, it is hero worship.” Sephiroth huffed.

“No. Not really. I never cared about you being a war hero. I was lonely in my hometown, I was different, and I had no friends. I was always on my own. When I started hearing about you and seeing pictures of you, I imagined us being friends and sparring. You looked different, from your hair to your eyes, I liked that you were different. As I got older, I liked looking at the posters of you for a different reason,” his face blushed but he didn’t turn away from his silver general.

That caught Sephiroth’s attention. His pupils dilated slightly.

“You blush easily, despite your bold and forward statements. It’s your defiance I disapprove of, but I enjoy how quickly you submit to me afterwards. I prefer to be in control, I do not like for any of my lovers to challenge me. I want you to be submissive for me, Cloud. Can you do that?”

Did Sephiroth just consider him a lover? He wanted him to be submissive. He enjoyed control. Cloud’s defiance and disobedience took that away from him, he saw it as a challenge for dominance.

Sephiroth walked up to Cloud who rose from his seat, the general gently took hold of the blonde's petite face and tilted it up so he could look upon those deep blue eyes.

Cloud swallowed before answering.

“Yes, Sephiroth.”

“Very good, Cloud.”

#

Things for the first time in a long while were going well. Cloud noticed muscles starting to develop on his body and he was a lot calmer around the Firsts, even Sephiroth.

He was getting the hang of utilising elemental materia and was feeling less exhausted. His nightmares had subsided, so he was having restful sleep. But being around the Firsts all the time, did not allow Cloud a lot of downtime away from the group. He didn’t say anything, but he really needed a break.

Zack took Cloud back to his apartment after breakfast on Saturday morning, he knew the younger teen was socially and emotionally exhausted and might prefer a quiet day of video games and movies. The instant Cloud was in his apartment he knew he made the right decision, the blonde visibly relaxed, he even laughed at the older teen’s ridiculous jokes as they watched a cheaply produced horror film.

They spent the afternoon playing video games and when Zack laughed at Cloud for losing in a game of Choco Mog Battle, the young blonde scowled like an angry kitten and tackled the older teen. The SOLDIER allowed the cadet to overpower him until he realised the teen was straddling him.

Zack enjoyed seeing Cloud in this position, but he thought back to when Aidan wrestled with his blonde and pushed his way between his legs. Zack moaned softly as he grabbed at Cloud and with minimal effort, flipped the petite teen onto his back. He used his knee to part Cloud’s legs and nestled himself between them.

He wanted to grind and thrust against the younger teen but shook his head and quickly removed himself from the position.

“Come on, Cloudy. I can smell dinner cooking, let’s head back.” Zack’s eyes were still dark with lust.

#

Genesis noticed the look in Zack’s eyes from the moment he entered the kitchen. His body was stiff, and he was agitated. The mako was glowing in his eyes, a sign that adrenaline had released into his system. His little bird was flustered, and his cheeks flushed red. It was enough for Genesis to piece together what happened.

“Cloud, dinner won't be ready for a little while yet, why don’t you settle yourself in the lounge, I need the Puppy to help me with something.”

Cloud nodded and left the room without a word.

Genesis walked up to his aroused lover, gently took him by the hand and led him to the bedroom.

#

As Cloud sat in the lounge, he started to feel cold, the Firsts always seemed to run hot due to the mako in their systems, so the air conditioning was constantly on. Rather than ask to switch it off, Cloud opted to fetch a sweater from his room. He made his way down the hallway to his room and grabbed the nearest hoodie, it was another one of Zack’s. He slipped the hoodie over himself, its larger size meant it reached to his knees, but he loved the way it smelled of Zack.

As he left the room, he could hear subtle moans coming from Genesis’ room.

He wasn’t sure what Genesis needed Zack to help him with, but curiosity drew him closer to the room. The moaning grew louder, it was Genesis’ voice, but there was another voice that was grunting. The door was slightly ajar, so Cloud moved quietly toward the gap where light was seeping through.

Cloud swallowed thickly, he heard a rhythmic thud with each moan that came through the door. He felt a tightness in his groin as the thuds from the room now ended with slapping sounds, the pace was increasing.

He moved closer to the gap and peered inside, the very large bed was empty, the sound was coming from the left of the room. He quietly pushed the door open a little and his cerulean eyes widened.

His fiery commander’s pants were around his knees, he was bent forward slightly with his hands against the wall. Zack’s hands were pressing on top of Genesis’, Zack’s pants were around his thighs revealing his toned ass cheeks. They were squeezing together as the young raven-haired SOLDIER thrust hard behind Gensis. He could hear Zack’s whispers as he thrusted harder.

“Gen, you feel so fucking good, I’m almost there.”

Cloud’s heart began to race, he couldn’t turn away. He had never seen the act before, he knew how sex worked of course and how it worked between men but witnessing it between two men he was attracted to was just too overwhelming.

Cloud looked down as he felt a familiar light wetness at the front of his underwear.

He hadn’t noticed the thrusting had stopped.

“Shit, Cloud!” Zack was pulling up his pants as fast as he could, but it didn’t matter. Once Cloud made eye contact, it was over. He ran. Straight out of the apartment and into the elevator, he didn’t care about curfew, there was no fixing this, he had to leave. When the elevator doors opened, he bolted through the foyer and out Shinra tower, disappearing into the nearest sector.

Chapter Text

Street lamps lined the cobblestone paths of sector 1, motor vehicles sped along the roads as the day came to an end. The setting sun’s fading light flickered between the carriages of a train passing through on its journey down to the Sector 5 slums.

Cloud sat on a bench, watching the trains go past as he contemplated where he would go next. His pockets were empty apart from his PHS, he had no Gil on him as he left his wallet in his bedroom. The blonde considered sneaking onto the next train and hope that security wouldn’t be scanning IDs.

He kept his Shinra hair covered with his hoodie, not that it was public knowledge yet, but he felt safer hiding away his delicate features, especially when he didn’t have a weapon or materia to defend himself with. Though crime was far lower above plate, it was not unheard of, and Cloud knew the risks of wandering around alone at night. A tinge of fear caused goosebumps to rise along his pale skin, even the warmth of the hoodie was not enough to combat them.

The young teen felt exceedingly embarrassed and ashamed of what he did, and wasn’t sure how he could face Genesis or Zack again. He was a pervert, he walked in on a moment of intimacy. That act was meant to be behind closed doors, away from prying eyes and he knew that.

In Nibelheim, sex was between man and woman and only after marriage. Talk of sex in a conservative town like that was shunned, they barely educated the children there about it. They were taught that intimacy was only for the purpose of reproduction. Girls were taught from a young age that their main purpose was to carry and raise children.

Cloud worked out that his preference was for men when he was thirteen, that was when he started looking at Sephiroth’s posters in a different way. He admired how the man’s silver strands cascaded over his masculine shoulders and around his bare chest. This was the same man who had asked him to be submissive for him, though he still didn’t know what that was meant to look like, yet.

As he sat there lost in thought, the cool evening air disturbed the one stray golden spike, which refused to stay under the hoodie. The teen brought his knees to his chest for warmth, whilst inhaling the smell of Zack on the fabric, he lowered his head, unsure of what he was going to do.

The silence was interrupted by a soft, feminine voice.

“Heya! Are you ok, there?”

The blonde raised his head and took in the sight of a young woman, probably around Zack’s age. She wore a long, light pink dress, one that his mother would call modest looking, unlike the short dresses most women in Midgar wore. She sported a red jacket, sleeves rolled up to her dainty elbows, she was taller than Cloud and petite. Her brown hair flowed down her back in a braid with a pink ribbon upon her head, she looked at Cloud with a kind smile. Her soft green eyes reminded him of the open green fields near Nibelheim, they had a sense of warmth about them.

“Yeah, I’m ok, thanks.”

The woman giggled, “you looked like you were far away in thought.”

Cloud blinked at her, “I do that sometimes, just a bad habit.”

“I’m Aerith by the way. And who are you, that’s hiding under that oversized hoodie?”

He slowly removed his hood and revealed his face, it would be fine, this was just a woman, nothing bad would happen.

“I’m Cloud, nice to meet you, Miss Aerith.”

That made the brunette giggle again, “Well Cloud, are you heading down to the slums? I am from Sector 5, I live there with my mother. I just finished selling flowers and I am about to head home.”

She lifted a small hand-woven basket, similar to the ones his mother would make, inside contained purple and yellow flowers. The floral scent reached Clouds nose, another reminder of home.

“I umm, don’t know where I am going, I left my wallet behind, I don’t have gil or an ID to board the train. I can’t go back though, so I am just working out my next move.”

Aerith’s soft green eyes looked at the blonde carefully, “if you can’t go back, then you are running away from something, or someone?”

Cloud scoffed, “something like that. I just screwed up big time, but that usually happens to me. Every time something goes right, something bad always happens.” He had no idea why he was so openly telling a stranger his problems.

“Do you work for Shinra, Cloud?”

He immediately became alert, how did she know that? Was she working with the Turks? Shit, he let his guard down.

“How did you know that?” He questioned her defensively.

“Your boots, silly. Only military wear those. I have a friend in SOLDIER, he has spiky hair that looks a little like yours.”

His eyes widened, she couldn’t be talking about Zack, could she?

Cloud thought it might be best not to mention it.

“You are welcome to come down to the Sector 5 slums with me, Cloud. I’d be happy to pay your ticket. My mum's house has extra rooms if you need a place to stay?”

Cloud pondered the offer and concluded it was his best option. He would be sleeping on that bench otherwise, and he would be vulnerable. He looked into Aerith’s smiling face.

“That s…”

“Not gonna happen, Spike,” the young raven-haired SOLDIER, stood there, hands on his hips, annoyance painted across his usually cheerful face. Cloud tensed, he was preparing his body to run for it.

Violet mako eyes glowed, “don’t even think about it, Cloud. You’re fast, but I’m faster and I outrank you. Stay seated, cadet, that’s an order.”

Zack had never before pulled rank on Cloud, so he knew he was serious, the blonde lowered his eyes, his body no longer tensing.

Aerith turned toward the SOLDIER, “hello, Zack, it’s been a little while.”

“Ah, sorry about that, Aerith, it’s good to see you again,” Zack ran his hand through his hair. “Things have been pretty busy lately, 1st class is definitely keeping me busy and so has that one over there.” He gestured toward Cloud.

“Cloud is just adorable and one of the politest young men I’ve met, he has better manners than you, Mr Fair.”

Zack raised an eyebrow, “huh, what I do?”

Aerith put one hand on her hip and raised her basket, “you promised to build me a flower cart, remember, talk about keeping a lady waiting! I’ll ask Cloud here to help me, he seems the type to keep his promises. Would you help me Cloud, since Mr 1st class, too busy being a big shot SOLDIER and doesn’t have time for little old me?”

Cloud looked up at Aerith, “o..of course, Miss Aerith, I’d be happy to help.”

Aerith placed her hands behind her back and rocked back and forth on her toes and heels. “What a polite and handsome young man you are, I can see why Zachary is so smitten with you.”

Zack and Cloud both turned a dark shade of red. Aerith giggled.

With perfect timing, the next train had pulled up to the platform.

“Well, here’s my train, it was nice meeting you, Cloud. Please come visit me. I’m usually at the church or at Leaf House, I sometimes volunteer there to help the children. Zack knows how to contact me. I’d better get going, see ya!”

Aerith waved as she boarded the train, the doors closed, and the kind flower girl was gone.

Zack moved towards Cloud and stood in front of him. “You need to stop running, Cloud. It was really stupid running away like that, anything could have happened to you, you can’t defend yourself.”

“I’m not a child, Zack, I can take care of myself!”

“Could have fooled me, you sure act like one! Every time things get tough, you runaway, SOLDIERs don’t run away, Cloud.”

“I am not a SOLDIER! I can’t go back! I stood there watching while you and Genesis were…”

“Cloud, it was just sex. I’m sorry we didn’t lock the door. It’s not a big deal. And Gen wasn’t bothered at all, but he does want to talk to you when we go back.”

“I’m not going…”

“You can walk or I’ll carry you over my shoulder, with your ass in the air, make your choice, cadet.”

Cloud glared at Zack and stomped off back in the direction of the Tower but not before muttering, “thought you preferred me on my back, sir.”

“Cloud…”

#

In the elevator ride up to the apartment, Zack’s guilt finally got to him.

“Cloudy, I’m sorry about what happened today in my apartment. I shouldn’t have done that, we were mucking around, and I took it too far.”

“It’s fine Zack, I didn’t mind it. Really, don’t worry.” There was something else bothering Cloud. “Zack, how did you know where I was?”

Zack’s eyes widened in surprise, clearly not expecting the question, he ruffled his own hair which he tended to do when frustrated or nervous.

“Uh…just a lucky guess, I suppose! My Cloudy sense was tingling or something like that.”

Cloud knew that he was lying. But he said nothing more.

When they exited the elevator, Zack turned to Cloud.

“The others and I are spending the evening in our own apartments tonight, so you and Gen can speak alone. The others didn’t want to overwhelm you when you came back. ‘Night Cloud, I’ll catch you tomorrow for breakfast.”

“Good night, Zack. I’ll see you in the morning.”

Before leaving, Zack used his key card to let Cloud into Genesis’ apartment.

#

Cloud took a deep breath and was ready to face Genesis. He made his way to the lounge room and found the man dressed in red silk pajamas and a matching red robe. He was sitting on the large sofa, book in hand. He looked up at Cloud and snapped his book shut. “Come, sit with me.”

Cloud sat beside his fiery commander, finding it difficult to meet his eyes, he felt so ashamed.

“I’m sorry, Genesis. I shouldn’t have gone anywhere near your bedroom. Then I saw you and Zack… you were letting him…I stood there and watched... I…have no excuse. I’m sorry.”

“Dear, you were concerned because I allowed Zack to top? Because I’m a commander, I should take the dominant position? I have no issue swapping between the two. You stood there, because you found it arousing, and one could hardly blame you for that. You are aware that I have three lovers, I am very much accustomed to having an audience.” Genesis winked at the blonde. “What I am disappointed in, is your need to run from every situation. You left Shinra headquarters without any means to defend yourself should you have encountered trouble.”

Cloud frowned, “I’m not a child Gen, despite what you and Zack believe. I’ll be 18 soon enough.

Genesis smiled at the blonde. “Yes, soon enough. Now dear, I am going to need you to remove your pants.”

Cloud paled, “what? Gen…I…”

Genesis quirked an eyebrow, “no dear, as delectable as you are, that’s not what I had in mind. Zachary told me what he did to you in his apartment, I want to check you for injuries.”

“Gen, nothing happened! He didn’t do that with me.”

“I know, dear. When Zachary arrived, the mako was shining brightly in his eyes, an indicator of adrenaline releasing into the system, it heightens a SOLDIER’s strength. This is useful in battle but not when being intimate with an unenhanced other. He told me, he flipped you on your back and used his knee to part your legs. He said he lay on top of you. If this is so, then there will be injuries. I need to check, dear.”

Cloud hesitated, “No. I don’t want to. I feel fine. There’s no need for a cure.”

That wasn’t true, Cloud noticed he had a slightly aching back and hip when he was running earlier, but he just ignored it. That wasn’t the problem though, he thought back to what happened as he watched Zack and Genesis earlier.

“Whats wrong, Cloud? You are usually more comfortable with me.”

“No, I am comfortable with you, Gen. It’s just…could I shower first?” The fiery commander noticed the embarrassment on the boy's face.”

Genesis smirked slightly, “of course, dear.”

Cloud went to his ensuite, quickly showered and fetched a clean pair of boxer shorts, he didn’t bother putting on the rest of his clothes until Genesis checked his injuries. There was some bruising on his inner thigh, fingerprint bruising where Zack held onto his hips, and from what he could see in the bathroom mirror a small bruise on his lower back.

He allowed Genesis to heal him, and he started to redress.

“Cloud, Sephiroth has insisted on your presence for the rest of this evening at his apartment. He said you are to go to him after we finish here.”

“I broke curfew again, he’s going to be pissed off at me.”

Gaia, he was finally getting on Sephiroth’s good side again and now he was back to square one.

Genesis looked at him fondly, “our general is a reasonable man, I’m sure he won’t be too harsh, just talk to him.”

“He intimidates me, Gen. He wants me to be submissive! I don’t even know what that means with him.”

Genesis cackled and rolled his eyes, “dear, our silver general is infatuated with you. He is very dominant but socially awkward. I believe he is simply frustrated that you have had a moment with each of his lovers but not with him. You told him you idolised him as a child, so I think his ego has been hurt. He is possessive, and your feisty and dare I say, defiant nature makes him feel out of control. He simply wants more of your time and affections.”

Cloud’s eyes widened. His cheeks burned red.

Chapter Text

The blonde paced up and down the hallway, building up the courage to knock on the door as he knew his general was waiting on him. He approached the door and slowly raised his hand and knocked thrice using his knuckle.

He didn’t need to wait long to be confronted by the silver haired general’s chest. Gaia, the man was tall! Sharp green, serpent eyes glared down upon him and Cloud couldn’t help but gulp at the sight of the man. His black slacks accentuated his long legs, his linen shirt was tucked into his pants, held in place by a black leather belt which accented his slender waist. He wore his sleek silver hair in a loose pony.

“Hello, Cloud. Come in.” The general looked his blonde up and down.

The boy followed his general into the apartment and closed the door behind him. Cloud didn’t walk any further, opting to keep his back against the door. The general stopped and turned back to his blonde, who had since lowered his head. Serpent eyes enjoyed gazing at the boy's submissive stance.

Cloud had decided that he would just be upfront with his general and hope that he wouldn’t be too harsh.

“General Sephiroth, sir. This evening, I broke curfew. I ran from the apartment, I left Shinra headquarters and ran into Sector 1, with the intention of boarding the train to the Sector 5 slums.”

Cloud kept his eyes low, until he felt Sephiroth step into his personal space. The general’s fingers gently tilted the boy’s chin up.

“Look at me, cadet.”

Cloud was unable to deny that baritone voice. Cerulean eyes met with mako green.

“You continue to disobey me.”

“Yes, sir.”

“The curfew will continue indefinitely. Do you understand that, Cloud?”

Indefinitely? The blonde was fuming on the inside, but he didn’t react in the way his general would expect.

“Yes, Sephiroth.”

The general chuckled low, “hmm. No defiance, no snide remarks today, Cloud?”

“No, Sephiroth.”

“Good, Cloud, very good.”

Sephiroth led Cloud into his apartment, this was the first time he had seen the general’s personal living quarters. As he looked around, he noticed that black leather couches filled the living room. The dining room had a large wooden table that had been polished to perfection and was complemented by black leather dining chairs. Marble countertops lined the kitchen and housed a microwave, kettle and one very fancy looking coffee machine.

“Sit down on the sofa, Cloud. I will be right back.”

Cloud made his way to the two-seater sofa, he fiddled with his hands in his lap. The boy wasn’t sure what to expect even though Genesis had said the man wanted Cloud’s time and affection.

Did he want Cloud to be near him or kiss him? Gods, he wasn’t sure what to do.

Sephiroth returned moments later, tray in hand. He had prepared some tea, and a small box sat next to the cups. He placed the tray gently on the coffee table and sat down beside the blonde.

“It’s chamomile tea, it should be soothing after the day you’ve had.”

“Thank you, I appreciate it. Wh…what’s in that box?” Cloud thought it looked familiar.

Sephiroth tugged at the ribbon of the box to allow the lid to release, the scent of sweet honey reached Cloud’s nose. “These are traditional Nibel treats, I had them special ordered for you.”

The blonde peered inside the box to see delicious honey biscuits, a specialty in Nibelheim. What made them special was the way the dough was plaited and shaped into circles. Gods, it reminded him of home, and the bakery which produced these biscuits held a special place in Cloud’s heart. The woman who ran the bakery with her husband was especially kind toward Cloud and his mother. She would always pass by the house to drop off baked goods which had not sold that day, free of charge. She was one of very few people who treated him kindly, apart from Tifa, his childhood friend.

“Cloud, are they to your liking?” Sephiroth was staring at him intently.

“Y..yes, Sephiroth. Thank you. They are perfect. I know the woman who made these, she always showed kindness to my mother and I.” Sephiroth offered a small but genuine smile.

They drank the tea and enjoyed the Nibel biscuits. They spent much of the evening on the couch watching a film, and as Cloud sat beside Sephiroth, he wondered if the man wanted him to move closer.

The blonde took a breath and slowly began to lean against his idol, he was surprised by how quickly Sephiroth caught on, even though his eyes never left the television. Sephiroth placed his arm around Cloud and pulled him in closer, so the boy’s face was pressing against his chest. The boy breathed in the scent of the man, vanilla and rose oil came to mind and it filled him with a pleasurable warmth. Sephiroth’s hand caressed the blonde’s arm with soft strokes, and Cloud couldn’t help but hope that Sephiroth would touch him a little more intimately. The silver general’s hand did not stray.

The teen blamed his raging hormones and also the arousal which came from seeing Zack taking Genesis from behind.

Maybe it would be ok if he made the first move, instead?

The teen rose to his knees and reached out his hand to caress the man’s cheek, with the intent of leaning in to kiss his idol on his lips. Before his hand could reach Sephiroth’s face, the enhanced other grabbed hold of the blonde’s wrist.

“No, Cloud.”

His stomach sank as his hero rejected him. Genesis got it wrong, the man was not interested in Cloud’s affections, and now he looked like a fool. Despite the pink dusting across his cheeks, the blonde stood and made to leave with what little dignity he had left.

However, the silver general hadn’t let his wrist go, his serpent-like eyes had dilated. The boy gulped, unable to read the general’s stare. The man stood to his full height and began to walk the boy back towards the wall. When the blonde’s back gently met with the wall, the general stared at him with a growing hunger in his eyes.

“I don’t want you making the moves with me, Cloud. I told you before what I…like.”

Submission.

“Turn around, Cloud.”

The boy's eyes widened, and he began to tremble, but it wasn’t fear, it was nervousness. He pictured Zack and Genesis together. Was Sephiroth going to take him against the wall? He wasn’t sure if this is how he wanted his first time to be.

The general leaned down to whisper in the blonde's ear. “Tell me if you want me to stop, I like you submissive, but I won’t take from you.”

The boy nodded and turned to face the wall, the general quickly guided Cloud’s hands up and placed them against the wall.

He grabbed hold of the boy's slender hips and tilted his ass towards him. Sephiroth was positioning him just like Genesis had been with Zack.

“Gen told me you were very aroused when you watched Zack take him against the wall. He said you finished without even needing to touch yourself.”

The blonde was embarrassed by his words but couldn’t fight the twitch in his pants.

“Keep your hands on the wall, Cloud.”

Was he going to have sex with him? Gods, he was going to take him against the wall, he was going to thrust hard into him, like Zack did to Genesis. He remembered the bruises from Zack, he remembered Moore’s thumb sliding into his mouth. He remembered he wasn’t a SOLDIER, and he had no enhancements. Gods, it was going to hurt badly, but he couldn’t say no to the general, could he?

Sephiroth made no attempt to remove the boy’s clothing. He didn’t even press himself against the boy's body.

Cloud was taken by surprise when the general placed his soft lips on his neck. Sephiroth kissed him gently, then bit and sucked on the pale skin to mark his blonde. He moved his slender fingers up Cloud’s shirt and touched the budding muscles on the boy's abdomen. He continued up his chest and gently pinched the blonde's nipples and it pleased him how quickly they hardened under his touch. The boy was so sensitive and clearly inexperienced with intimacy as he moaned out in pleasure from the slightest touch.

He removed his hands and turned the boy around to face him.

“You have grown, Cloud. When you turn eighteen, I will be your first, if it is your wish to be with myself and the others. Do you understand?

The boy’s eyes were still fluttering lightly as he choked out, “yes, Seph.”

Only his lovers called him Seph.

#

The next morning at breakfast, Cloud wore a turtleneck tank to hide the love bite that Sephiroth had given him.

Genesis eyed the blonde carefully, then he glanced towards Sephiroth, who looked particularly smug that morning.

“Oh Seph, you didn’t!”

Genesis walked up to Cloud and pulled back the material covering his neck and revealed a deep purple bruise on the boy's neck. Angeal and Zack glared at Sephiroth, but it was Angeal who spoke up, “Seph, he is still a boy, we agreed to wait.”

The blonde turned to the raven-haired commander.

“Angeal, I’m nearly eighteen. He had my consent, nothing else happened.”

“Sorry dear, but you are not able to consent to anything yet, you are still a child,” Genesis pointed out as he poured himself a cup of coffee.

The blonde was getting frustrated with his Firsts, he was only a child when it suited them. They had their moments with him, now they would not touch him again till he was of age. He felt a little used, and it left him feeling disgusted with himself.

Before he could dwell on it any further, something on the television had caught Cloud’s attention, the Sunday news was on, and the boy saw a mop of familiar golden spikes on the screen. Oh gods, it was a photo of him, the one on his Shinra ID photo. He quickly turned up the volume to listen to what was being said.

“You have heard it here first, fine citizens of Midgar, President Rufus Shinra has confirmed he has a half brother, Cloud Strife. The president has announced that he will be legitimizing the boy as a Shinra in the coming weeks. We will now hear from our president who will share a few words about this latest development…”

Cloud’s stomach was in knots, now everyone knew he was a Shinra. Everything would change. People would try to hurt him, or see him as a conquest, others would now avoid him or hate him. He was going to be forced to take the Shinra name. He thought of his mother, how would she feel once the news reached Nibelheim?

For once, the boy didn’t run because there was nowhere to hide. It was over. His life as he knew it was gone, just like that.

#

Cloud didn’t leave his room much for the next few days, he even refused to go to his lessons with Genesis. Zack couldn’t convince him to come out to watch a movie or play video games, and Angeal struggled to get the boy to eat.

Cloud’s mother called him when she heard the news, and they both cried over the phone as she told him what happened to her and why she kept it from him. His mother's cries broke his heart, she had told him that despite the way he was conceived, she loved and protected her son from the beginning. He was incredibly lucky to have his mama, and he just wanted to go home.

Genesis and Sephiroth both approached Cloud after the third day, as word had reached Rufus that Cloud had not attended his lessons or completed any of his other duties as a cadet. If Cloud refused to get up and follow his schedule, they would order him to do so.

“Dear, you are required to attend lessons today, so you meet the requirements to progress to the next section of the Stepping into SOLDIER program.”

“Is that an order?”

“Only if it needs to be.”

The boy looked from Genesis to Sephiroth and reluctantly pulled himself out of bed.

#

Upon arriving at the training grounds, Cloud instantly recognised the red-haired Turk, Reno. Though seated away from the group, he knew Reno was there to monitor him and make sure he did as he was told.

As Genesis was prepping for the lesson to start, Cloud noticed Aidan glancing at him every now and then. The green-eyed cadet approached slowly, his body language was nonthreatening as he neared the blonde.

“Hey, Cloud.”

“What do you want, Aidan?” Cloud was in no mood to take shit from anyone.

“I…I just wanted to tell you that I am sorry for how I treated you. I know I don’t deserve forgiveness, but I wanted to let you know that I am sorry that I hurt you, and not just because you’re the president’s brother. I acted like a complete dick. I am sorry, Cloud.”

The green-eyed cadet didn’t wait for a response, he just walked away. Cloud noticed that he didn’t sit with Ambrose, Lenox, or Fowler. He sat by himself and waited for the lesson to begin.

The little interaction did not go unnoticed by Genesis and Reno.

#

A week had passed since the big announcement and so far, Cloud had faired well. Genesis had taught him how to manipulate a Firaga and redirect it to follow an enemy if he missed his target. Cloud demonstrated a natural flair for this, whilst his comrades were only able to cast low level spells at stationary objects.

All five boys could use elemental materia equipped to their weapons, and they were all becoming better at maintaining either ice, fire, or lightning spells on the weapon whilst sparring.

At the conclusion of Friday’s lesson, Genesis called up Cloud to spar with him, to highlight the effective use of elemental materia. The clash of steel and flames echoed across the grounds and gained the attention of many 2nd and 3rd Class SOLDIERs who came to watch the fiery commander and the brother of the president.

Cloud did not notice the crowd, as he was completely lost in the intensity of the battle. Whilst maintaining a steady flame on his weapon he was able to cast level 2 spells, his fiery commander dodged them with ease and threw spells of his own. Cloud rolled on the ground to dodge but wasn’t quite as graceful or quick as Genesis, so the blonde resorted to using his katana to deflect several fire balls. The match ended with Cloud on his back and Rapier pointed at his heart. Genesis winked at his blonde before helping him to his feet.

The round of applause and cheers alerted the teen to the crowd, and a few SOLDIERs came up to compliment Cloud on his ability. Genesis stayed by his side the whole time, not allowing his little bird to be overwhelmed.

Aidan did not approach but he smiled at Cloud from afar.

Maybe, things would be, ok?

Chapter Text

Less than a week later the whispers began, the hallways of the tower echoed with words of cruelty, it was just like his nightmares except there was no escape.

“I heard he sleeps with commander Rhapsodos to get extra lessons.”

“The president’s brother looks like a good fuck.”

“I heard the Firsts share him.”

“No. They found him at the honeybee Inn, the president is probably screwing his bastard brother.”

“Why should he get ahead just because he is some bastard of Shinra.”

“He’s too scrawny to become a SOLDIER, he looks like a little kid.”

The blonde did his best to block out the harsh words, he kept his head down and stayed out of the way of others. He certainly didn’t bother to tell the Firsts what people were saying about him, he would just ignore it, and hope it went away.

#

Cloud busied himself in the gym with Angeal, three afternoons per week. His burly commander was impressed with his blonde’s progress and was visibly admiring the boy’s developing physique.

“Angeal, you’re staring, is everything ok?” The boy looked at his commander with concern.

“Everything is fine. I was just thinking that you are ready for us to begin training with broadswords.”

Cloud’s face lit up, his smile wide and happy, Angeal loved to see his blonde so full of excitement. It was moments like this that the boy reminded him of Zack.

Suddenly, the burly commander was caught completely off guard, when the young blonde wrapped his arms around his waist, squeezing him tight as he rested his golden head against his chest.

“Cloud…this is the first time you’ve hugged me since…that day.”

The boy whispered into the commander’s chest.

“I know. I’ve missed this.”

#

Since joining the Stepping Into SOLDIER Program, most of Cloud’s duties as a cadet had been heavily reduced, more so since the public found out he was a Shinra. His patrols were always at headquarters, he was never stationed in any of the sectors of Midgar and certainly never below the plate.

He completed his morning lesson with Genesis, had his lunch at the apartment, then set off for his patrol around Shinra Tower. Time went slow, but Cloud enjoyed it as he was able to wear his helmet and pass off as an average infantryman rather than a Shinra bastard.

At 1500, Cloud had reached the elevator before he realised he still had his bracer on with his materia equipped. He backtracked to the foyer, and over to where the materia and weapon lockers were. Kunsel was running the desk, and he offered Cloud a smile as he approached.

“Hey Cloud, forgot to return your gear, huh?”

“Yeah, I’m sorry, Kunsel, it won’t happen again.”

“Don’t sweat it, kid.”

As Cloud turned to go back to the elevator, he was intercepted by a Third Class SOLDIER named Quinn.

“Ah, there you are Cadet Strife, I’ve been ordered to escort you to Training Room 3, Commander Rhapsodos has requested your presence.”

That was strange, normally Genesis would text him if he needed him somewhere, but this was a Third Class SOLDIER, and his superior, so he had to follow orders.

“O-oh ok, sure. Thank you, sir.”

The blonde obediently followed the SOLDIER who remained very quiet the entire way to the training rooms. Cloud wondered what Genesis needed him for, as he normally wouldn’t meet him at a training room to speak, they would talk in the apartment.

“Here we are, Strife. The commander is waiting for you.” Quinn held the door open and as Cloud moved toward the room, the SOLDIER gave the blonde a hard shove, which caused the boy to land face first on the training room floor. The door slammed shut behind him.

As the blonde lifted his head, his vision was not filled with the handsome face of his fiery commander. He was faced with four Third Class SOLDIERs, all with helmets on, to hide their faces. Cloud’s stomach churned, this was not going to end well. The boy had walked right into a trap, fear started to rise as the SOLDIERs surrounded him.

The largest man stepped forward, “hmm, he is a pretty thing, isn’t he? He must be a decent fuck, if he has all of First Class bending him over.”

Cloud felt like he was going to vomit, how was he going to defend himself against four enhanced individuals? Shit.

The SOLDIERs snickered at the young boy as he began to tremble. He had no materia and no weapon to defend himself, he was just a 17 year old boy, faced with four beasts. Maybe he could reason with them?

One of the other SOLDIERs spat on Cloud, “Shinra bastard. You think you are gonna be one of us at the end of your little SOLDIER program? We’ve all worked hard for our place and I sure as hell ain’t gonna work beside a little whore who fucked his way to the top.”

Gods, he really wanted Genesis here with him, he didn’t want to be alone with these brutes.

“Please, let me call Genesis. Let me go.”

The largest brute scoffed, “oh, we will send you back to your precious commander as soon as we are done here.” He walked toward the boy and in one swift motion, punched him in the stomach.

The boy’s vision faded, the air left his lungs and for a moment he thought he would die. As he collapsed on the floor grasping his middle, he heard the largest brute speak again.

“Rip his clothes off, the little shit can walk back to his commander like the little whore he is.”

Rough hands grabbed at his petite frame. The material ripped around him, the roughness of which grazed his skin. His belt was cut from his body, and his pants were ripped and pulled apart.

The teen sobbed as the pain from his middle rendered him useless, he was unable to even attempt to protect himself. When all that remained were his boxer briefs, the boy placed himself in fetal position, despite the pain in his middle, he wouldn’t let them take the last article of clothing.

“You know what guys, now that we have the Shinra brat, why don’t we have a little fun with him before we send him back. Take his boxers off and hold his legs apart.

The blonde panicked. “Please no, don’t do it, I’m only seventeen, please just let me go. I won't tell anyone anything, I swear, please don’t do this.”

He sobbed like the child he always denied being. He wanted his mama, he wanted his Firsts, but no one would find him here. It was hopeless. Through his whimpers Cloud could hear the SOLDIERs speaking.

“No way man, we said we were gonna just take his clothes, I’m not raping a kid.”

“I’m not risking leaving any DNA on the kid.”

“He’s not enhanced, you could kill him, I didn’t sign up for that, I just wanted to scare the little shit. I’m outta here”

“Fine, you guys aren’t any fun.”

He heard receding footsteps. The training room door opened and snapped shut and Cloud was left cold and trembling on the training room floor.

#

“I don’t know why we must attend those wretched meetings, that scrag Scarlett and her mechanical toys, such utter nonsense! Even the Turks looked bored.”

The red-haired commander looked exceedingly frustrated as he stepped out of the elevator with his raven-haired lover.

“Gen, let’s not reduce ourselves to name calling, these meetings are necessary, and we need to attend them when Sephiroth is unavailable.”

“Send our Puppy to the meetings instead, he’s First Class and I am sure he would thoroughly entertain them with his enthusiasm.”

“Gen.”

“Yes, my beloved?”

The burly commander just chuckled and rolled his eyes. The two walked through the foyer on their way out to collect some groceries that Angeal needed for dinner.

“Commander Rhapsodos, sir.” Kunsel called as he ran toward the commanders.

“Be at ease, SOLDIER 2nd Class, Kunsel.”

Kunsel’s body language and the frown on his face showed confusion.

“Excuse me, but aren’t you meeting with Cloud?”

“No, dear. Lessons were this morning, Cloud had a patrol for this afternoon, he should be back at the apartment. Why do you ask?”

“It’s just…Third Class Quinn, stopped Cloud in the foyer and said you ordered him to meet you at Training Room 3. That was not more than 10mins ago.”

Genesis looked to Angeal, they both ran to the elevator.

#

The elevator ride up to the SOLDIER floor felt like an eternity to Genesis. “Ange, I checked the tracker on his PHS as we left the meeting, it pinned Cloud at the apartment!”

“Gen, he could have left his PHS behind by mistake before his patrol.”

The elevator doors opened, and the two commanders made their way to Training Room 3. Genesis opened the door and saw the shredded remains of the blonde's uniform, his mako eyes scanned the room and were drawn to the corner where the petite blonde was sitting with his knees pulled tightly to his chest. His head pressed into his knees, arms wrapped securely around his legs, but his heart rate was surprisingly, slow. Genesis’ enhanced ears tuned into the boy’s soft humming, reminiscent of what a mother would hum to sooth their child in moments of distress.

The fiery commander was filled with fury at the sight of his little bird clad only in boxer briefs. Bruises lined his wrists and arms, and his hair was in disarray. Genesis’ mako eyes glowed as adrenaline started to release into his system as he decided he would kill whoever hurt Cloud.

Both commanders kneeled down, Genesis did his best to control his emotions and spoke softly. “Little bird, look at me. What happened?”

The boy looked up, seemingly calm, though his cerulean eyes looked distant. “Hey, Gen. Nothing happened. I was going to go back to the apartment, but my clothes were ripped, and I did not want to walk down the hallways like this, so I thought I’d just wait here. I’m ok. Can we please just go back to the apartment? I’m really tired.”

The blonde shakily rose to his feet, revealing a large and hideous bruise on his abdomen.

Both commanders were fuming.

“Ange, get Tseng on the phone. I want Third Class Quinn brought in for questioning and I want surveillance footage from the past half hour.” Angeal took out his PHS and walked away to make the call.

Genesis stripped off his iconic red leather coat and wrapped it around Cloud. He then gathered up his blonde, bridal style and set off toward the apartment.

#

Genesis had healed Cloud, and he was now sound asleep. The fiery commander’s rage was bubbling over when Angeal approached.

“Gen, Tseng has the SOLDIERs who attacked Cloud, he said the president wants us in his office, now.”

Without a word, Genesis went into his wardrobe and took out his bracer, he opened his materia chest and equiped a mastered fire. He turned to his lover, his mako eyes glowing intensely, he smiled menacingly.

“Then, let’s not keep him waiting.”

#

The commanders entered the presidential office, five Third Class SOLDIERs were on their knees, hands chained behind their backs with cuffs designed specifically to restrain enhanced individuals. Genesis glared at each man, his mako eyes memorising each face.

Turks surrounded the men, guns pointed, Reno and Rude stood by the president alongside Tseng.

Rufus sat at his desk, a smug smile on his face, his cerulean eyes on Genesis. He could tell the man was infatuated with his half brother, the look on the red-haired commander’s face showed he’d be willing to kill for Cloud. The president considered how he could use this to his advantage one day.

“Welcome gentlemen, we’ve been waiting for you to begin the proceedings here this evening. Tseng has pulled up the footage taken from the cameras in Training Room 3. The five Third Class SOLDIERs here were all directly involved in the attack on Cloud Shinra.”

The SOLDIERs’ faces displayed a mix of fear and contempt.

“Tell me commanders, how is my dear little brother?”

Angeal answered as he could see Genesis’ temper had completely taken over. “Cloud has been fully healed and is resting comfortably, it was thanks to Second Class Kunsel, that we were able to find your brother.”

Rufus tilted his head slightly, “thank you, commander Hewley, perhaps a promotion for the loyal Second Class SOLDIER is in order.”

“Yes sir, President.” Angeal nodded and turned back to stand by Genesis’ side, he squeezed the fiery commander's elbow in a bid to calm him, but Genesis gave no response.

Rufus stood and walked towards the Third Class SOLDIERs, clad in his signature white leathers.

“You are SOLDIERs of Shinra, your loyalty is to the company, to me, and by extension, my younger brother.” The president flicked the golden strands out of his eyes and continued.

“You used your authority to mislead Cadet Shinra into a training room where you surrounded him, beat him, and threatened to rape him. Do you deny these accusations?”

The large brute SOLDIER Grayson looked at the president, hatred evident on his face. “The Shinra bastard got what he deserved, my only regret is that I didn’t follow through.”

Genesis lunged toward the Third Class SOLDIER and raised his hand ready to cast Firaga, but his wrist was caught by Angeal who restrained him.

The SOLDIER looked to Genesis, “he really is your little fuck toy, isn’t he?”

Before Genesis could act, Rufus spoke. “Not only did you attack a Shinra, but you also threatened to rape a minor, you know the consequence for this don’t you, Third Class Grayson?”

Grayson refused to answer, his dark mako eyes burned with hatred.

“Hmm, you do not know? I’m sure Commander Rhapsodos can enlighten us.”  Rufus quirked a smile.

Genesis took a menacing step forward, “the punishment for the crime, is death.”

Rufus stood behind the fiery commander and whispered in his ear. “Now, show your loyalty to me and my little brother. Don’t think I didn’t see you kiss him that day in the training room, the Turks have cameras everywhere.”

Genesis did not react, his focus was on Grayson. The mage raised his hand and formed a large ball of energy, his rage fueled the Firaga in his hand. Without a second thought, he cast the spell at Grayson. Screams filled the room followed by the smell of burning flesh, the angry red flames consumed the SOLDIER and within moments reduced him to ash.

Angeal had cast ice to stop the flames spreading around the office.

Rufus turned to the remaining SOLDIERs who now looked terrified, mako eyes filled with deep regret.

“The rest of you tore the clothing from my brother's body, stripping him of his dignity. Therefore, it is only fitting that I strip you of something. You will all be dishonorably discharged from SOLDIER and Shinra. You will hence forth be stripped of your mako enhancements.”

Without ongoing enhancements, a SOLDIER’s body would deteriorate and would most often end in a slow death. The Thirds cried out in protest, but those cries were ignored.

“Tseng, have the Turks remove these former SOLDIERs from my sight and please call someone to replace the carpet, you know I dislike mess.”

With a nod, Tseng and the Turks escorted the SOLDIERs away from the office.

Rufus turned to Angeal and Genesis with a sincere look on his face, unlike the smug mask he had worn earlier.

“You know, Genesis, when my dear brother was being attacked, he begged them to let him call you. Go now and tend to Cloud, I will make arrangements for one of the Turks to monitor him full time starting tomorrow. Dismissed.”

The commanders turned to leave, the president missed the single tear that fell from Genesis’ eye.

Chapter Text

Genesis’ hand stilled on the apartment door, he was still emotionally heightened, adrenaline and guilt attacked his tired body. His raven-haired lover removed his hand from the handle and squeezed it tight, he stepped forward and pulled Genesis into a tight hug. He tried to struggle out of his grip but Angeal did not let go and waited for his lover to give in and relax into the embrace.

“Gen, you didn’t fail him. He is safe now.”

“He was alone in a room full of monsters, begging for me to come to him, and I was not there to protect him. He was so helpless, and when we found him like that…”

Angeal sighed and rested his chin on top of Genesis’ head, “there’s nothing more we can do about that, but we can be there for him now. Go inside and have a hot shower, you’ll feel better, I’ll check up on Cloud.”

When Genesis had retreated to the main bathroom, Angeal went to check on Cloud in his room, but noticed the blonde was nowhere to be seen. There was faint rustling coming from the kitchen. The refrigerator door was open, and he could see the petite blonde moving things around inside it.

“Cloud, are you ok?”

The boy startled and jumped away from the refrigerator, “I…I am sorry, Angeal. I woke up and was hungry, I remembered I hadn’t eaten since before noon.”

“It’s no problem, Cloud. But how about we order some Wutaian food from that restaurant you like? I didn’t make it to the grocery store this afternoon.”

The boy smiled sweetly and nodded, then settled himself on the sofa in the lounge room. Angeal dialed the number and placed an order for delivery, once he hung up the phone, he took a few deep calming breaths to help process what happened that afternoon. He felt sorry for Cloud, the SOLDIERs who attacked him had no honour, these were men he had trained at one point. It angered him that he had finally rebuilt trust with the boy where he felt comfortable enough to embrace him once again. Now, the boy would most likely never let anyone touch him again.

He made his way to the lounge-room and sat on the opposite side of the sofa, ensuring to give the blonde ample space. He knew Cloud preferred Genesis so he attempted to reassure him, “Gen is just having a shower, he will be out soon.”

The burly commander kept his eyes on the television, and tried to make himself as nonthreatening as possible, as he knew he might trigger the blonde.

As his own head filled with different worries, the commander was caught off guard again by the boy, who shuffled toward him and lay his golden head in his lap. The boy curled up and wrapped Angeal’s arm around him like a security blanket.

#

Once Angeal had left to collect the food from the foyer, Cloud moved quietly toward the commander’s bedroom. Genesis still hadn’t come out yet, despite Angeal saying he would only be a little while. When he reached the door, he was hit with a sudden sense of Déjà vu, the blonde remembered the images of Zack and Genesis. He often imagined himself against the wall with Genesis pressing inside of him, Genesis would be gentle with Cloud and would make him feel good. Unlike those brutes from before, who only saw Cloud as a piece of meat, they would have been violent and careless and would have caused him pain.

He knew eventually someone would hurt him again or kill him. It was only by chance he escaped with minor scratches and bruising to his abdomen. He accepted that he would continue to be hurt, and no one could protect him at all times.

He knocked on the door gently as a reminder of his lesson learned about the privacy of the bedroom. A soft but firm voice called out, “I’m fine Angeal, leave me be, just go look after Cloud.”

The blonde pushed the door open to find his fiery commander sitting on the edge of his bed with his head hanging low. He wore simple sweat pants, his shirt lay forgotten on the bed.

“Ange, I just told you…Cloud?” Genesis’ eyes widened and the anger in his eyes had subsided at the sight of his little bird.

“I’m sorry, Gen. Angeal went down to the foyer to collect dinner, and you still hadn’t come out from your shower. I was getting worried about you, are you ok?”

The fiery commander looked at Cloud in disbelief. “After the day you have had, you are worried about me? You truly are a gift of the Goddess.”

The blonde smiled softly. “You mean a lot to me, Gen.”

“And yet, I failed you. When you called for me, I wasn’t there to protect you.”

Cloud sat down beside the man he adored, “you’ve always been there for me, Gen. You can’t protect me from everything and everyone. Nobody can.” The boy looked down at his feet.

Genesis noticed that the blonde was too calm, like he accepted his fate, that he should come to expect abuse. This worried the commander as Cloud was suppressing his fear.

“I’m sick of people taking from me, Genesis. My first time could have been rape by a group of faceless men. I just want to have a say in what happens to my body, but no one listens to what I want. I want you and the others. Is it so bad that I just want to fucking feel good for once and get what I want?”

Cloud raised his hand and gently caressed Genesis’ face. Genesis closed his eyes, he loved the touch of his blonde. But he was still too emotionally heightened, and he would lose control with the boy, and he’d be no better than Grayson.

Cloud leaned in to kiss the man he wanted. Genesis pulled away, it felt like he’d be taking advantage of the boy when he was already in a vulnerable state, and he did not want to be the cause of further pain.

Cloud just smiled and looked away, tears lightly burning in the corners of his eyes. What he wanted didn’t matter to anyone. Touch would always be unpleasant for him, people would just take from him and the man he wanted would continue to reject and deny him on an intimate level. Cloud was done trying, every time he reached out, he was pushed away. Genesis promised not to shut him out again, but he lied. The teen left the room silently, leaving his commander to his own thoughts.

#

Cloud woke the next morning from a thankfully dreamless sleep, he dressed and made his way to the kitchen where he took in the welcomed sight of violet mako eyes. The raven-haired teen lifted him with ease and nearly squeezed the life out of him.

“Welcome home, Zack.”

“I missed you Cloudy…and I’m sorry I wasn’t here to protect you.” The older teen refused to let go of his blonde, it was as though he feared the younger would disappear if he did.

“It doesn’t matter Zack, nothing happened, I can handle it. It’s fine.” It wasn’t fine, it was quite the opposite, but it wasn’t worth talking about.

They all sat together for a hearty breakfast of bacon and egg sandwiches with freshly made relish and coffee. Sephiroth was still on a mission, investigating malfunctioning mako reactors across the continent. The general had the highest clearance amongst the Firsts, so he led the mission. Cloud wondered if the silver general would visit the reactor in the Nibelheim.

His thoughts were interrupted by his burly commander. “Cloud, we need to tell you something related to yesterday. The president has insisted that you need to be monitored full time by a Turk, to keep you safe. This will start today.”

Cloud was furious, first it was the curfew and now a full-time babysitter, he could just imagine the rumours that would spread throughout Shinra Tower. With a look of disgust on his face, the blonde snapped back, “not interested.”

Angeal sighed but remained patient with his blonde. “Cloud, this is from the president himself, you must obey. The selected Turk will be arriving this morning, Tseng called earlier to confirm this.”

“I don’t want a babysitter, it’s been hard enough with…never mind.” The blonde stopped himself, there was no point saying anything to the Firsts about what he had dealt with for the past couple of weeks.

“Cloud, please! It’s for your safety.” Angeal’s face was full of concern, he was not trying to belittle the blonde or treat him like a child, he just wanted him to be safe.

The boy scoffed a laugh, “I will never be safe, Angeal. I just need to accept what is. My pretty Shinra hair and eyes and son of a bitch of a father will always bring me trouble. Best to just get used to it.” The boy didn’t see the pained look on Genesis’ face, guilt still ate away at him.

“Spike, don’t say that. It’s not true.” The young raven-haired SOLDIER looked devastated as he turned to his former mentor for support. Cloud didn’t listen, he just walked back to his room and closed the door gently behind him.

Before he could respond there was a knock at the door, Angeal answered and was faced with both Tseng and Reno.

“Good morning, Commanders Hewley and Rhapsodos, First Class Fair.” The Wutaian nodded to them.

“Morning, Tseng, would you and Reno like some breakfast, we have extra?”

Tseng smiled, “no, thank you. Reno here has been selected by our president to watch over Cadet Shinra.”

The red haired Turk stepped forward. “Yo, commander, where’s blondie at?”
Angeal couldn’t help but chuckle, “Cloud is in his room, I am afraid he isn’t keen on full time monitoring.”

“I’ll go call him.” Zack took off down the hallway and returned with Cloud moments later.

The young teen took in the sight of Reno then looked back to Tseng.

“Gods, no. Anyone but him!”

“Oy, that ain’ nice, twerp!”

“Cloud, Reno was hand selected by Rufus. He will be monitoring you from now on.” There was finality in his tone.

The blonde scowled.

“Naww, don’ be like that princess, I’m quality Turk material.” The red haired jabbed his thumb into his own chest.

Cloud turned to his Firsts, “can’t I just stay with you guys when you aren’t on missions?”

Reno laughed, “guess some ‘o the rumours are true about cha, huh blondie?”

“Fuck you, Turk.”

“Heard ya only did that with First Class?”

Zack looked furious, “what in the hell is that meant to mean, Reno?”

Reno smirked, “didn’t tell ya First Class sugar daddies what’s been said about cha?” He glanced at Cloud before turning back to the Firsts.

“What is he talking about, Cloud?” The fiery commander had a look of concern and irritation spreading across his face. The blonde didn’t answer him.

Tseng looked at Cloud, “this afternoon, you will be required to attend one of our interview rooms, we simply want to collect your statement of events from yesterday.”

There was no way Cloud wanted to speak about yesterday. He didn’t want to be questioned about having his clothing stripped off his body. He certainly did not want to talk about how that SOLDIER intended to rape him.

“No, I won’t.”

“Cadet Shinra, this is merely a formality, the president insists on your statement.”

He didn’t know if it was being referred to as Cadet Shinra or just being told what to do, the blonde snapped at the head of the Turks. “Then you can come find me and drag me there kicking and screaming!”

Tseng’s dark eyes focused on the teen, “as you wish, cadet.” The Turk would follow through with this. “Reno, if Cloud refuses to cooperate this afternoon, you may drag him to the interview room, kicking and screaming as per his wishes.”

“No probs boss.”

Tseng left the apartment, leaving the red-haired Turk behind.

“So, blondie, what are we doin’ today?” Reno Smirked.

#

Reno followed Cloud around during his morning lessons with Genesis. He had asked the Turk to give him some privacy when Genesis requested to speak to him at the end of the lesson. He was surprised that the Turk respected his boundaries. Maybe, he wasn’t so bad?

Genesis walked up to his blonde whose face showed little to no emotion.

“Dear, are you ok? Your little interaction with Tseng was unlike you. I also asked you a question which you strategically chose to ignore.”

Cloud looked at his commander with feigned bewilderment on his face, “I’m fine Genesis, maybe that was like me. Maybe, you just don’t know me as well as you think. As for your question, I just had nothing to say.”

Genesis quirked up an eyebrow. “I know you dear, and if this is about last night, I think you misunderstood the situation.”

The blonde shook his head, “No, I got the message loud and clear, you aren’t interested in me in an intimate way, none of you really are. I get it, I looked really pathetic yesterday and weak. You and the others feel obligated to look after me, like I’m a stupid little kid.”

“Cloud, that’s not it at all…”

“You don’t need to look after me anymore, Genesis. I doubt I’ll see my eighteenth birthday anyway, so at least I won’t be your problem anymore. And if by luck I make it to eighteen, I will look after myself. I’ll see you at the apartment later, Genesis.”

The boy smiled and walked off with the red-haired Turk.

Genesis pulled out his PHS and text his lovers.

Gen: We need to talk with Cloud ASAP! I knew something was off about him.

Seph: I will be home tomorrow morning, Rufus declined the investigation of the Nibel reactor for now.

Puppy: What happened, Gen?

Gen: He is acting off, like he doesn’t care anymore. He implied that none of us are interested in him romantically and that we feel obligated to look out for him like he is a child. He doesn’t believe he will live to see his eighteenth birthday and said at least he won’t be our problem anymore.

Puppy: What!!!!! That’s so fucked up, Gen!

Ange: He is terrified. He’s pretending to be calm and act like he doesn’t care, to deal with what happened.

Gen: He tried to kiss me last night, I pulled away. I just made things worse. He believes I perceive him to be pathetic and weak after yesterday's incident.

Puppy: We gotta help him, he’s been through enough traumatic shit.

Seph: We will sort this out tomorrow afternoon.

#

“Where to now, blondie?”

“Can’t you just call me, Cloud?” Reno huffed a laugh at the blonde. Cloud stared at the Turk and admired the silver earring on his left ear.

“Know where I can get one of those?” The teen pointed at Reno’s ear.

“Sure, kid! I know just the place.”

“I need my hair cut too.” Cloud’s hair had begun to grow longer again, but he still could not handle having another ponytail after what happened. He would keep it short. His golden spikes were growing out of control and looked a mess no matter how much he combed them.

Reno took the young blonde to a well known barber in Sector 3. The barber carefully trimmed his golden spikes and neatened them, so they didn’t look so unruly.

The barber didn’t charge Cloud for the haircut, one benefit to being a Shinra he supposed.

Reno led Cloud further into Sector 3, where there was a shopping district. They soon stopped in front of a large alleyway, to which Cloud raised an eyebrow.

“Don’t worry twink, I ain’t leading ya down a dark alleyway ta have my way with ya.”

The blonde rolled his eyes and shoved Reno as he walked past. The alleyway was not as Cloud expected, there were a few lone shops which looked out of place above plate. There was a small dumpling restaurant which had crates for seats out in the alleyway, there was a weaponry store selling small knives, accessories, and potions. Towards the end of the alley, was a very small tattoo parlour, which also did piercings.

“If ya know where to look twerp, you can find anything above plate.” Reno smiled.

Cloud couldn’t help but be impressed with the red-haired Turk’s knowledge.

Cloud entered the parlor and exited moments later with a small silver stud, very similar to Zack’s earring.

“Looks good on ya blondie,” the Turk admired Cloud’s piercing and his haircut. “Hows about we ‘ave some dumplings for lunch, that joints small, but they got the best stuff.”

After eating what were some of the best dumplings he ever had, the two started to head back. Cloud knew it was time to give his statement, he promised he would go kicking and screaming.

“It’s time twerp, it’d be better for ya not to fight me, ya kinda growin’ on me, ‘n I really don’ wanna hurt ya. I saw the footage, ‘n you were shit scared yesterday. But it’s up to ya, I guess.”

It was the most sincerity the Turk had shown him. Cloud still avoided his light blue eyes.

“Fine, let’s just go.” The blonde walked away but turned back for a moment. “Thanks for today, Reno. I needed this.”

“S’all good blondie.”

It was one bit of control he had over what happened to his body. He got to make some small decisions and have them acknowledged and respected without question.

Maybe, the Turks weren’t so bad?

Chapter Text

Cloud was escorted to the Turks headquarters by Reno. When they entered the elevator, the blonde was not allowed to know which floor was selected, as Turk headquarters were on a need-to-know basis.

He was guided down a lengthy hallway, to an unmarked door when sudden apprehension made his stomach twist uncomfortably. He really didn’t want to do this, but he had no choice, he just hoped it would be over soon.

Reno held the door open for Cloud and he walked in to see a small, bland room. There was a table which had handcuffs and chains attached to it, a large glass mirror which he assumed was two way and one large fluorescent light that filled the grey room.

On the cuff free side of the table, sat the head of the Turks. On the table in front of him was some kind of recording device and a laptop computer. Tseng smirked at the teen, “I see you decided to forgo the kicking and screaming.”

Cloud looked away from the Turk, his face turned red.

“You know, Cloud, few people would dare to yell at the head of the Turks.”

Cloud’s blue eyes widened, he glanced down at the cuffs on the table. Shit. He was probably going to get his ass kicked for his earlier behaviour.

The boy took a few tentative steps back.

“Cadet, I will not be harming you. Please sit down, the cuffs are for the interrogation of criminals, they are not for victims of assault.”

“I...I am sorry, Tseng. I was angry earlier, and I shouldn’t have taken it out on you.” The boy walked up to the table and sat down on the chair. He kept his head low in a bow of respect.

“Forgiven. Now Cloud, I would like for you to recount the events from yesterday in your own words, and I will ask clarifying questions, as necessary. Do you understand?”

“Yes, Tseng.”

#

Ange: I’m still going to be in the office by the time Cloud comes home, you’ll need to create a relaxing environment for him. He hasn’t really had time to process what happened to him, so this afternoon may trigger a trauma response, we need to be gentle with him.

Zack: On it! I’m gonna get my gaming console and some movies to help distract him when he gets home.

Gen: Yes, dear. My afternoon meetings are cancelled, so I can be there for the little bird. I will run him a bath, I’ll use my Banoran apple cinnamon bath oils to help relax him. Puppy, don’t further traumatize our little bird with your ridiculous movies.

Puppy: Hey! 😠

Seph: Do not allow him to isolate himself in his room, it will be detrimental, he will end up getting lost in his own head. We have seen this behaviour with him too many times before.

Ange: Great! I’ll whip up some chicken soup when I return to the apartment.

#

Cloud had spent 45 minutes giving his statement and reliving his nightmare by having to provide details of events he would rather forget. He answered Tseng’s questions despite how uncomfortable he felt, and he ignored the constant rise of bile in the back of his throat. He despised being called a victim, it caused him to feel shame and made him feel weak and small. He just wanted to crawl into bed and forget everything.

“Thank you, Cloud. We are finished, Reno is waiting outside for you. I suggest you go back to the apartment and stay there with Commander Rhapsodos for the remainder of the evening, as he has been excused from his afternoon meetings.”

Cloud knew Zack would be home, as he just returned from a mission, and Angeal would be home by dinner time. Hopefully, they would all just leave him alone for the night, he was in no mood for anymore questions.

#

Reno dropped Cloud off at the apartment and waited until the teen used his keycard to let himself in. The blonde tried to tip toe to his room to avoid Genesis and Zack.

When he opened the bedroom door, he found Genesis sitting on his bed. If this had been before he was rejected by the man, this would have been his ideal wet dream.

The red haired SOLDIER looked at the teen, eyes widening slightly at the boy’s new hair and piercing.

“That suits you, dear.”

“Uh…thanks, Genesis. Reno took me, I needed a trim and wanted to get an earring for a while.”

“You’ve stopped calling me Gen.”

Cloud swallowed, “well, it’s just that you said your lovers call you by that name, and I…I’m not one of them. So, it’s not really right for me to call you that.” Cloud crossed his arms over his chest.

 “I see…” The commander frowned at his blonde.

“Anyway, I was gonna lie down for a while, if that’s ok?”

“No, dear. Zachary is fetching his little gaming console, and his horrendous movies. He has missed you and wants to spend time with you. Angeal will be home soon, and you will eat the meal he prepares. I have drawn you a bath, which you will take to wash away the discomfort from this afternoon. I know providing your statement would’ve been emotionally taxing, and whilst I understand your need to be alone, I don’t want you to get stuck in your own head, you do that a lot, dear.”

He didn’t have the energy to kick up a fuss, so he just nodded and followed his commander to the bathroom.

#

The delicious smell of chicken and vegetable soup wafted into the lounge room where Zack had set up one of his gaming consoles. Cloud sat next to the young raven-haired SOLDIER, controller in hand, waiting for the game to start. Zack suddenly placed his own controller down.

“What’s wrong, Zack? Are you afraid I’m gonna kick your butt this time?”

The older teen stared at the blonde, “no, not that. It’s just, every time something happens, I’m never around because I’m always sent on missions.”

“That’s not your fault, Zack. You have to go! You’re lucky, you get to see the world with your job, I wish I could do that. You don’t need to worry about me, I feel grateful that you even wasted your time hanging out with me.”

“Wasted my time? Gods, Cloud. I have enjoyed every minute with you and with some of the stuff we’ve done together, I’m pretty sure we have moved beyond hanging out.” Zack winked at the younger teen.

“Zack, you haven’t kissed me in a long while. The others won’t touch me until I’m eighteen, and Gen..Genesis, he flat out rejected me yesterday. I told him I wanted him and all of you and then he just turned away.” Cloud looked back to the television.

Zack took the controller out of Cloud’s hands and lifted the blonde, so he was straddling his lap.

“Zack, what are you doing?”

“Showing you just how wrong you are.”

Zack grabbed the blonde gently by his chin, leaned in and kissed the younger teen’s soft lips. He persisted with soft, gentle kisses when he noticed Cloud wasn’t responding to his touch. Eventually, the blonde’s lips parted willingly, and Zack’s tongue entered. He deepened the kiss, until he drew out a soft moan from the boy. Cloud allowed Zack to kiss him as he pleased, even if he was only humouring him, it at least felt good.

The burly commander cleared his throat, “I’m not interrupting anything, am I?”  He was smiling at both boys.

Zack pulled away slowly. “No, Geal. Just teaching Cloudy here a lesson.” The blonde just stared into violet mako eyes, silently.

Angeal chuckled, “dinner is just about ready.” He turned and disappeared back into the kitchen.

“Cloud, the others and I want to talk to you tomorrow when Seph is back. I think there’s been a lot of miscommunication, and we are all a bit worried about some of the things you have been saying about yourself. Will you please listen to what we have to say?”

The blonde was not happy, it sounded like an intervention, but he had trouble saying no to Zack. He nodded which made the older teen smile. Zack looked at Cloud’s earring and ran his thumb gently over it. “I love this on you, it’s just like mine.”

#

At dinner, Zack sat beside Cloud whilst Angeal and Genesis sat on either end of the table. The soup was hearty and delicious, it reminded him of the soup his mother used to make when he was sick. He needed her. He couldn’t stop the tears welling in his eyes and he tried to ignore the lump in his throat as he choked down the soup. Angeal gave Genesis a knowing look, and as the blonde finished his bowl, his burly commander was pleased when the boy accepted a second helping.

They spent the evening indulging Zack by watching his interesting choice of films, Angeal whipped up his signature hot chocolate and there was a sense of calm. No one however, could sense the storm brewing inside of Cloud. He had done as he was told, he stayed with them and didn’t isolate himself, but he was struggling.

“Genesis, can I please go to my room now, I really am tired.” His cerulean eyes pleaded with mako blue for retreat.

“Of course, dear. Goodnight.”

The blonde retreated to his room, crawled into bed, images of his attackers plagued his mind as he succumbed to sleep.

 ***

After waking up the next morning, Cloud didn’t wait for Reno to arrive as he decided to go for a morning jog to clear his head. He wasn’t feeling up for breakfast, so he opted to go straight to his lesson with Genesis after his jog. He made his way up to the SOLDIER floor, it was unusually quiet and eerie and he felt the need to constantly look over his shoulder. He started to think he should have waited for Reno. He picked up the pace, he was almost there.

A shadow surrounded him, a heavy hand grabbed him around his face. The large hand easily covered his mouth and squeezed his skull painfully. A bulky arm slid around his petite waist and his muffled screams went unheard as he was dragged into a vacant training room. Cloud knew from the moment the door slammed shut, this is where he would die.

The brute dragging him stopped in front of a bench that SOLDIERs used for short breaks during training sessions. The man turned Cloud around to face him, he was a bulky Third Class SOLDIER wearing a helmet. He was a faceless, mako enhanced monster and the teen was terrified.

He released his hand on Cloud’s mouth, “you can scream and cry all you want, Shinra whore. No one can hear you!”

The boy sobbed and struggled in the brute’s hold. “Now, pretty thing. This is how it’s gonna happen. You’re going to pull down your pants and bend over that bench. Then, I want you to spread your legs for me, do you understand?”

Cloud was sobbing hysterically, bile reached his mouth and the man’s grip tightened. “Let me go, please, oh gods! I’m only seventeen. Please, don’t do this. I’m scared… please don’t!”

“Shhhh! Be a good boy for me, if you don’t, I’ll hurt you more than I need to.” He unsheathed a blade and placed it across the blonde's neck.

“Now, do as I told you.”

His hands were shaking violently as he tried to unbuckle his belt, the brute quickly became frustrated with the young teen. He grabbed Cloud’s hair from the roots and slammed him into the bench, his ribs bruised from the force and his face was pressed into the bench.

“I haven’t got all day, now be good and stay still.”

He used the knife to cut through the teen’s belt and with rough hands pulled both the boy’s pants and underwear down in one swift movement. Cloud began to whimper, he knew what was going to happen next.

The brute grabbed the teen’s ass cheeks, separating them to reveal what he was after.

“It’s no wonder all of First Class has been fucking you, you got a nice ass.”

What happened next caused Cloud to vomit down the side of the bench, the brute placed a finger to his hole and with a hard thrust shoved the entire finger inside him, he felt the painful stretch of the tight ring of muscle.

“For a whore, you’re really tight. I’ll fix that soon, don’t you worry.”

He laughed as he began pumping his finger in and out of the boy, the friction burned, and the brute’s fingernail cut him on the inside. All Cloud could do was sob through the pain, he screamed out loud as a second finger was violently pushed inside.

The SOLDIER pulled Cloud’s hair with such force that the boy’s head tilted back toward him.

“Stop fucking crying, we haven’t even started yet.” A third finger was thrusted inside the teen who shrieked from the burn of the stretch.

After a few hard thrusts, the fingers were pulled free. The sound of an unbuckling belt and a zipper being pulled down caused the boy to panic.

“Please stop! I just want to go home. I want my mother.”

His cheeks were spread again and this time he felt something much larger and harder than a finger pressing at his entrance. He shut his eyes tight and braced for excruciating pain.

“You’re never gonna see your mother again. Now, time to show me what a good little Shinra whore you are.”

Cloud’s eyes shot open, except he was no longer bent over a bench and the brute SOLDIER was no longer pressed against his small body. He was in a dark room, in a soft bed, and his body was sticky with sweat. The clock on the bedside table read 0300. He was in his room, it was a fucking night terror. Cloud felt wet beneath the sheets, he couldn’t have sweated that much. As he lifted the blanket, the smell hit his nose first, his pants were soaked, as were the sheets. He urinated himself. Shit.

Cloud was panicking, he was already terrified from his nightmare and now woke to find himself covered in urine. He hadn’t wet the bed since he was a boy, after the men in town had restrained him and called him a trouble making bastard.

He didn’t want the Firsts to see him like this, he was already so ashamed of himself, they would really think he’s pathetic now. Gods.

He pushed himself out of bed, stripped off his clothing, and quietly went into the shower to wash away the sweat and urine from his body. After putting on a fresh set of sweats, he stripped the bed and wrapped his urine-soaked clothes within the sheets. He couldn’t do anything about the mattress right now, but he’d work that out later. He now needed to get to the laundry room and put his clothing and sheets into the washer. With a bit of luck, he wouldn’t wake anyone.

As he left his room, he did his best to ignore the need to vomit. The night terror left him feeling extremely ill and frightened, but he had a job to do first. He could vomit later.

He tiptoed down the hallway, his socks barely made any noise as he drew closer to the laundry room. He heard the click of a light switch and suddenly his stealthy mission came to an end.

“Cloud, what are you doing up at this hour?”    

Oh, Shit. Shit. Shit!

“N…nothing Angeal, just doing some laundry.” The teen squeezed the sheets tighter hoping the burly commander wouldn’t smell his shame. He didn’t dare turn to face him.

This was a man he wanted on an intimate level and here he was with a handful of piss covered sheets and clothes, Angeal would think of him as nothing more than a toddler now.

“Cloud, laundry at 0330?” The burly commander’s gentle hand rested on the boy’s shoulder.

The blonde’s voice began to quiver, he knew Angeal was aware of what happened, “Angeal, I…”

The raven-haired SOLDIER didn’t say anything. He took Cloud’s laundry without any hesitation or judgement and placed them into the washing machine, he added the detergent and started the wash cycle.

Cloud was trembling, partly because it was cold but mostly because he was terrified and embarrassed. His eyes burned, and he swallowed the bile that rose up his throat.

“Cloud, I want you to know that this was a completely normal response to trauma, the same thing happened to many of our SOLDIERs during the war. Genesis had many night terrors during and after the war, he would wake up screaming or crying. PTSD is a very real condition and affects individuals differently.”

This made the teen feel better, knowing that even fully grown SOLDIERs had experienced the same as him. He managed to look into Angeal’s dark mako eyes, which were full of compassion and understanding.

“Let’s go to the kitchen for a minute, ok?”

The boy nodded and followed, Angeal took milk from the fridge and honey from the cupboard. He heated the milk in a small saucepan then added the honey to a mug and mixed it with the milk.

“Sip this, Cloud. I always make this for Gen when he has bad nights, same for Zack.”

He obediently sipped the sweet drink until it was finished. His mother used to make this for him when he was sick with a cold, the honey soothed a sore throat, and the milk helped him fall asleep.

“Good, let’s go sit on the sofa.”

Angeal fetched a blanket that looked handmade, it had strips of blue and red. “My mother knitted this blanket for me when I left home with Genesis, it is a piece of home.”

Cloud wrapped himself in it and breathed in the scent of his commander.

“When Zack was having lots of nightmares just after he became SOLDIER, he would sit with me and talk me through it, and he’d always feel better afterwards. I know that you may not want to be touched right now, but I’m here if you need a hug or if you want to be held.”

Cloud did not want to be touched by strangers, but he did want his commander's touch. The boy wasted no time climbing onto Angeal and straddling him, the teen wrapped his arms around the burly commander. There was nothing sexual about the position, he was simply seeking comfort and protection from a man who cared for him. The boy rested his head on Angeal’s shoulder, the commander wrapped the blanket around them, and with his hand, rubbed soothing circles on Cloud’s back.

“Tell me what happened in the dream?”

Cloud took a shuddering breath, but felt secure in the man’s hold, he couldn’t see his face and that made it easier to tell him about his dream.

“I disobeyed and left the apartment without Reno because I wanted to go for a jog. Then, I was going to my lesson with Genesis, but a SOLDIER grabbed me from behind and dragged me into an empty training room. He called me a Shinra whore, told me to take my pants off, bend over the bench and spread my legs. He threatened me with a knife. I tried to take my belt off, but I was shaking. He bent me over the bench, cut my belt and pulled my pants down. He put...his fingers inside me. It burned and he cut me on the inside. He pressed up behind me and unzipped his pants. I felt it against me. He was going to kill me after he finished, he said I would never see my mother again.”

***

“I am sorry you had to experience that, even if it was just a nightmare, it would have felt real. You are safe now, we will look after you.”

“I don’t want my first time to be like that, Angeal. I don’t want to experience what happened to my ma. But I know it’s going to happen and I’m not going to survive it.” The boy started to sob into the commander's chest. “What if those SOLDIERs try to get me again? They wore helmets, no one knows who they are.”

Angeal was surprised, no one told Cloud what happened after the attack, not even Genesis told him.

“Cloud, that won’t happen at all, those SOLDIERs were caught after the attack. Gen had surveillance footage taken from the cameras, and the Turks interrogated Ex Third Class Quinn.”

“Ex Third Class?”

“Your brother had four of the five men dishonorably discharged and took away their mako enhancements, they will slowly deteriorate, lose their minds or die from it.”

Cloud raised his head to look at Angeal, his cerulean eyes wide open. “What…what happened to the fifth?”

Angeal looked directly into Cloud’s eyes. “I know you sometimes think that Gen is rejecting you or keeping his distance. The truth is, he worries that he might hurt you if he gets too close, he worries about the trauma you have experienced. When he heard what the SOLDIER wanted to do to you, Gen lost control. I haven’t seen him so angry in a long time. Gen executed SOLDIER Grayson.”

“Genesis did that?”

“To protect the ones he loves, he’d set the world on fire.”

#

The Firsts left the blonde to sleep in until lunch, the night before had taken its toll on the teen, and he needed to rest his mind and body. Sephiroth sat beside Cloud and gently stroke his golden spikes to rouse him. Cerulean eyes blinked open and met mako green.

“Seph, you’re home.”

His silver general smiled. “Hello, Cloud. Lunch is ready.”

The boy felt a new wave of anxiety as he entered the kitchen, the Firsts sat around the table, with Sephiroth taking the seat at the head of the table.

There was a large platter of sandwiches cut into small triangles with different fillings, fresh fruit and a smaller platter of egg rolls with chives. Cloud looked to Angeal who offered him a reassuring smile.

The burly commander broke the silence. “Cloud, come sit beside Genesis, we will eat, then chat once we are finished.”

Cloud took his seat but didn’t look at anyone, he just made himself small by sinking down into his seat. When he didn’t bother taking any food, Genesis filled the plate with chicken sandwiches and egg rolls and placed it in front of the blonde. His fiery commander didn’t say a word, so Cloud tucked into the food, starting with his favourite egg rolls.

Once the meal was over, the dishes were cleared away and replaced with coffee cups, and a small platter of biscuits.

Cloud knew it was time for his ‘intervention’ to begin.

Chapter Text

All eyes were on the blonde, he felt exposed and was unable to meet any of the mako eyes staring at him. He picked up his coffee cup and sipped the warm liquid, before placing the cup back down. A dominant, baritone voice caught the blonde’s attention.

“Cloud, look at me.”

Cloud lifted his eyes to focus on his silver general.

“I will expect you to listen to what we have to say to you. You will not respond until I tell you so, is that clear?”

Gaia, now they wanted to tell him when he could and couldn’t speak. Was he allowed to be in control of anything?

But he promised Zack he would listen, he could do that for him.

“Yes, sir.”

The blonde expected Sephiroth to continue to dominate this ‘intervention,’ but it was the red-haired mage who turned to Cloud.

“Dear, I have to say, some of your behaviour and words has had us all quite concerned. We know you have been through more than any seventeen year old should have to, but we feel that we need to address this now to help you.”

The boy placed his hands on his own thighs and gently scratched at the fabric to give himself something to do.

“You seem to believe you won’t see your eighteenth birthday. You are under the impression that you are somewhat of a burden to us and that we perceive you as a child. This is not true at all, I can assure you of that. We don’t like that you have an impending sense of doom, which you seem to have embraced.”

The teen squeezed the fabric of his pants, he was becoming agitated, but he obeyed and said nothing.

His raven-haired commander jumped in next. “You told Gen and Zack that you think none of us are interested in you. We are very attracted to you, Cloud, but our priority is to keep you safe.”

The teen’s inner voice refused to be silent, his mind raced with thoughts.

Keep me safe? No one can do that. I was alone with those monsters, I was alone with Moore. I’m always alone, I only have myself!

The young raven-haired SOLDIER took his turn, “Cloudy, you mean everything to us. I know somewhere in that head of yours you seem to think that you aren’t worth our time, but that is so far from the truth. I know the others want you too, it’s just… your still seventeen, they want to make sure you can consent properly. We don’t want to take advantage of you.”

The blonde looked at the wall, he started tapping his right foot under the table, he was feeling very uncomfortable and self conscious.

And finally, the general spoke. “Cloud, we all care for you deeply, but none of my partners or I, will have that level of intimacy with you until you are eighteen and preferably, enhanced. It is not a rejection, Cloud.”

Not a rejection? It sure sounded like one. Cloud kept his eyes low.

“You are clearly afraid that you will be attacked again, and that fear is understandable. But any further attack is highly unlikely as Reno will continue to monitor you full time. The Firsts will be off the mission roster for the next month, owing to the Stepping into SOLDIER examinations, so we will be able to keep a closer eye on you. The tracking device in your PHS is still functioning well and accurately pinpoints your location.”

Cloud’s hands formed into fists, his fingernails dug into the flesh. He looked at his Firsts who all had guilty looks on their faces, except Sephiroth. He had been tracked this whole time. Cloud glanced at Zack, who looked at him with sad eyes. So, that is how Zack knew where he was that day with Aerith.

Cerulean eyes searched for mako blue, it was his fiery commander who had given him the PHS in the first place.

“Little bird, it was not our intention to deceive you, but after what happened with your superior officer, we merely wished to keep you from harm.”

Cloud let go of his anger, there was no point wasting his energy. Whilst their intentions were well meaning, they all lied to him and if they just told him the truth, he may have avoided being attacked in the training room.

The blonde remained silent, there was so much he wanted to say, but his inner voice reminded him that it was just a waste of time.

Sephiroth broke the silence, “surely, you have something to say after all of that, Cloud?”

Sometimes, he really didn’t like the way Sephiroth would speak to him, he would come across with that smug tone that made Cloud snipe back.

“I was merely awaiting your permission to speak, or do you not remember telling me to be silent?”

Sephiroth’s snakelike pupils dilated slightly, he walked over to his blonde and grabbed him gently by his chin. “So, we are back to petulance. If you want for adult things, Cloud, then it is time you start acting like a man…”

A high-pitched noise filled his ears, he closed his eyes and when he opened them, it wasn’t his silver general holding his face, it was Moore. He was back in his office where it all started.

“It’s time you start acting like a man and not the little bitch that you are. So, I’m going to help you, Strife.”

#

“Cloud? Can you hear me?” Sephiroth spoke to the blonde who looked like he was in a trance.

Angeal moved toward them, “don’t do anything, Seph. Just see what he does.”

Soon enough, Cloud was staring into Sephiroth’s eyes in absolute fear. The boy was trembling and whimpering softly.

“Please, Sergeant Moore, I’m telling the truth! I was with the commanders, you can ask them… Please don’t hurt me… I don’t want you to touch me… Please sergeant Moore, I didn’t tell them anything, I just said I tripped and fell…Please, don’t make me do this.”

It was heartbreaking for the Firsts to hear the desperate pleas from their little bird who was currently reliving another nightmare.

Suddenly, the blonde went still, his cerulean eyes focused on Sephiroth, then on everyone else in the room. His face was burning as he tried to figure out if he had been talking aloud or just dreaming. The saddened looks on the Firsts’ faces was answer enough.

“I’m sorry,” the boy whispered. He moved away from his silver general and returned to his seat.

“Cloud, we will stop here for today.” Angeal spoke gently to the blonde.

“No. I’m fine now, Angeal. It won’t happen again, I would like to keep going.”

His fiery commander approached, “I don’t think it is wise to continue, dear. I believe you should rest, I don’t want any of us to trigger you like that, again.”

The blonde tried his best to shake off what just happened. “Genesis, I’m ok. Besides, it’s finally my turn to speak.”

All eyes focused on the teen. “I know you’re worried about me, but like I told you, it isn’t necessary. Everyone in Shinra tower has something to say about me and many SOLDIERs are angry at me. Apparently, I’m fucking my way to the top and get special treatment from being a First Class, Shinra whore. It’s just a matter of time before I’m attacked again, I was lucky last time, but luck really isn’t on my side. Eventually, I’ll be hurt again or killed, I’ve come to realise that I just need to accept it.”

The blonde moved on to the next point that Angeal had raised.

“You all say you want me, but that’s only partly true. You want me when it suits you. You have all either kissed me, touched me, or pressed against me when you want to feel good, that’s when none of you give a shit if I’m seventeen. But when I want to feel good, to touch or be touched, then you all suddenly remember that I’m a child and reject me.”

The blonde chuckled sadly and blinked a tear out of his eye. “I guess the rumors are right, I am your whore. My needs don’t matter, just yours, and once yours are satisfied, you toss me aside.”

He looked at his feet, “I wanted to be with you because I was falling for all of you. I just wanted my first time to feel good with four men I feel safe with. I was nearly raped the other day by four faceless men. How do you think my first time would have felt in the hands of those monsters? You’re all so honour bound, you won’t even have the decency to spare me from some pain.”

“Cloudy…”

“No…I’m talking now! And don’t get me started about the gods be damned lying! If any of you had bothered to tell me about the damn tracking device, I wouldn’t have decided to leave my PHS in the apartment the day the SOLDIERs attacked me. You would have seen I was in the training room, and you would have helped me sooner. Did you ever think of that?!”

The blonde took a few deep breaths, it actually felt really good to get all of that off his chest. He didn’t have hatred or anger for his Firsts, he just wanted to be heard. He wanted things to change.

“I understand the importance of consent, I know why you want to wait, I just want you to hear me out, to understand why I can consent to at least some level of intimacy with you all. I am frustrated in more than one way, if you catch my drift…” The boy blushed.

“We hear you, Cloud.” The silver general spoke calmly to his blonde, the Firsts all nodded in acknowledgement.

#

Cloud sat next to Aidan during their Monday morning lesson as Genesis explained the expectations of the upcoming examination.

“During the practical exam, you will be critiqued on your ability to cast using a range of materia. With your core materia, you’ll be expected to cast a minimum, level 2 at both a stationary and moving target.”

Genesis walked along the centre of the room as he spoke.

“You will be expected to combine elemental materia and your core materia onto your weapon and maintain the spell whilst attacking an enemy. You will then be tested on your ability to equip a different materia alongside your elemental one. Once you are assessed on these skills, you will then need to demonstrate your sword play ability through spars. You will be sparring with your counterparts from Commander Hewley and General Sephiroth’s groups. The examination will be conducted in front of the candidates in the program, all of First Class, selected Second Class SOLDIERs and the President, who is looking forward to seeing how you have progressed thus far. Any questions?”

Aidan raised his hand, “Commander Rhapsodos, who will be assessing us?”

Genesis smiled, “The head of the Turks, Tseng, General Sephiroth and Commander Hewley. I will be watching from the sidelines and then I will assess the other groups.”

There was some nervous and excited energy amongst the teens, but Cloud just felt worried. It wasn’t materia use that was bothering him, he was quite confident in that regard. He just knew he was going to embarrass himself in front of everyone as well as his brother, Rufus.

Genesis provided each student with materia to complete their set, Cloud already had fire, so he was presented with lightning and ice.

“The examination is in four weeks time. In preparation for this, you will need to level up your new materia, and practice using them in conjunction with your elemental materia. You have been provided enough training with swords that you should fare well. There will be no more lessons until after the examinations are complete.”

Aidan looked towards the blonde. “Cloud, I was wondering if…if you’d like to be my partner to prep for the exam?”

Reno was watching the little interaction, he glared at the green eyed cadet, knowing he was one who planned for Cloud’s rape. The blonde was growing on him, and he wasn’t going to let anyone hurt the teen.

“Uh…,yeah, sounds good, Aidan.”  Cloud went to pack up his equipment as Aidan stood there watching the blonde walk away. Reno snuck up behind Aidan and bent down to speak in the boy's ear.

“If ya so much as look at blondie the wrong way ‘Imma kick ya puny teenage ass. Ya even think about putting ya pathetic little cock near him, I’m gonna set my mag rod to kill…yo, ‘m  sure you can guess what happens next. Do ya understand or yer need an example?”

Aidan’s eyes were wide with fear, “I…I understand.” And he walked off toward the exit.

#

Cloud sat at the dinner table, swirling his fork through his vegetables, completely ignoring the steak in the centre of his plate. He was lost in thought, getting stuck in his own head.

You’re going to embarrass yourself. They all use broadswords. They are three times your size, everyone will laugh at you. The Firsts are going to be disappointed in you. Give them another reason to reject you, Shinra bastard.

“Cloud, you’re doing it again.” Angeal was staring at him with concern in his eyes.

“Huh…s..sorry, Angeal.”

“We agreed that you would talk to us about a problem before it gets too overwhelming for you.”

Cloud looked around the room, four full grown men, all masculine, strong with physiques worthy of SOLDIER. “I’m not like you, I’m not like the other candidates. I am going to embarrass myself at the exam.”

Genesis looked confused at the boy, “dear, what do you mean you are not like us or the other candidates?”

“You all look like warriors, the other candidates already look like men, and I, I look like a prepubescent boy. They are going to destroy me in the spars, and they will all try extra hard to beat the brother of the president. I can use materia well enough, but it wont help me with sword play, I don’t have brute strength to back myself up. You will be disappointed with me because everyone will see how weak I am.”

Angeal looked sympathetically at his blonde. “Cloud, brute strength is not everything, you are faster than the other candidates, you need to use that to your advantage. Remember, I promised to train you with broadswords, I have more time now so we can do that. I am sure Sephiroth can teach you some katana specific techniques.”

Sephiroth nodded, “I will assist you, Cloud. Though, I am an extremely strict teacher, I hope you are prepared.” Cloud wasn’t sure why his cheeks burned.

“Cloudy, we can spar together. You’ll get heaps of practice before the exam! You’ll kick their asses!”

The blonde gave a genuine smile, even though he still felt some worry deep down.

#

Much had changed after Cloud’s ‘intervention.’ The Firsts insisted that Cloud was to speak up the moment he encountered a problem he was unable to work through alone. If he was dwelling on thoughts, he was to talk it through with one of them. Angeal was the most experienced with PTSD, so he supported Cloud through night terrors and anxiety attacks.

They finally gave in to Cloud’s want for intimacy. The Firsts decided to ease him into it gradually, they started by displaying affection with each other in front of him such as open mouth kisses and soft touches. Genesis began kissing Cloud softly on his delicate lips in the mornings and at night, Angeal would stand behind him in the kitchen and place his large hands on Cloud’s small hips. Zack was sleeping in Cloud’s bed a few nights in the week and held the petite blonde in his strong arms. On those nights, Cloud did not have night terrors or sleepless nights.

Sephiroth had insisted on alone time with Cloud in his own apartment. They would share a meal together, then spend the evening on the couch, where Sephiroth held the blonde and gently kissed his lips whilst running his hands along the boy's smooth thighs.

#

Angeal led Cloud down a corridor of the SOLDIER floor to one of the smaller training rooms. On the far left side was a metal rack which housed a small selection of broadswords commonly used by Third Class SOLDIERs.

Angeal closed the door behind them as they entered the room then stripped off his jacket to reveal his SOLDIER issued tank, which fit tightly around his body. Cloud was momentarily distracted by the muscles daring to tear through the fitted tank. The burly commander noticed the boy gawking and couldn’t help but chuckle to himself.

“Cloud, for our first lesson, we are simply going to select a sword and learn a basic stance. The idea is to get you accustomed to the weight of the weapon. You have only used a one handed blade previously, so this will be a lot different as it will require both hands and different balance.”

The blonde nodded and went over to the weapons rack. Angeal watched the boy carefully as he tried to lift a broadsword. He could see the teen’s muscles straining as he picked up the heavy blade. His blonde didn’t complain once about the weight, he knew Cloud was determined, and he couldn’t fault him for that.

Angeal moved behind the blonde and assisted him into the correct stance, which Cloud couldn’t help but notice was similar to Zack’s battle stance. His left leg was bent forward at the knee, and his left hand was placed where the guard met the hilt. His right foot stretched back and his right hand gripped the hilt near the pommel.

Once in position, Cloud held the stance until his limbs began to tremble from the weight. Angeal would then take the weapon from him, the blonde would stretch his limbs, and they would try again.

After a very long hour, Cloud couldn’t continue anymore so Angeal packed away the equipment whilst the teen made his way to sit on the bench. One look it at though made his stomach churn, it was just like in his night terror. The boy backed away and chose to sit against the wall of the training room instead.

He took a few cleansing breaths, he did feel proud of himself for being able to hold the broadsword for as long as he did, months ago he wouldn’t have even been able to lift it. It was all thanks to his burly commander, the man had helped him so much and never judged him, not once. Even though the blonde was too small for broadswords, he still trained him. Even though his night terror caused him embarrassment, he didn’t belittle him for it.

His burly commander sat beside him, “you did well, Cloud. I am impressed that you persevered for as long as you did. You have gotten stronger, that much is clear.”  The boy looked up at his commander with wide eyes, a subtle pink flushed across his face. Angeal stroked his cheek gently, the boy leaned into the touch and closed his eyes to savour the moment.

“Thank you, Angeal. For everything.” Cloud didn’t allow the SOLDIER time to respond before he climbed onto the man and straddled his lap, this time the blonde had intent. Angeal found the boy’s hips and gently squeezed them before gripping the teen’s thighs.

“Cloud, you don’t need to thank me like this.”

“It’s not about thanks, it’s about want. I want you, Geal.”

The burly commander’s eyes darkened and he placed his lips on Cloud’s and kissed him slowly and meaningfully. The boy rolled his hips on the commander's lap which earned him a low moan from the man.

“Gods, you are so beautiful like this, Cloud. You have no idea how badly I want to take you.”

“Just a few months to go.” The blonde smiled seductively at Angeal as they kissed one last time before they needed to vacate the training room in case someone walked in on them.

Both needed a cold shower when they returned to the apartment.

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Cloud sat on the training grounds with Aidan by his side, it was late afternoon and both teens had spent most of the day levelling up their materia by casting low level spells at magic resistant training dummies. Cloud had taken to ice materia and Aidan showed a preference for lightning.

Aidan had been making small talk with the blonde a little more each day, the green-eyed cadet was pleased with himself when he succeeded in making Cloud giggle and smile every now and then. They finished each day with a jog together around the training grounds, and Cloud was growing more comfortable with Aidan, he liked having a friend his own age. He didn’t feel attracted to Aidan romantically anymore and it seemed to him that Aidan was content with friendship too.

Reno allowed Cloud some space, but his sharp Turk eyes, saw what Cloud could not. For now, he would watch and wait.

They had finally stopped running, and Cloud was out of breath, but he loved every minute of it. He truly was at peace when he ran, he was calm, and his mind was clear of everything. Cloud rested his hands on his knees to help slow down his breathing. When he looked up, Aidan was smiling at him.

“We really put on a sweat this time, why don’t we go use the SOLDIER showers? I heard they are pretty awesome!”

Reno frowned, he knew the green-eyed brat was up to something, in the almost two weeks that the cadets had been working together, green eyes never asked Cloud to use the SOLDIER showers, which had cubicles but no doors for privacy. At the president’s request, Cloud was to avoid shared change rooms and showers or any isolated place where he may be vulnerable to an attack.

The red haired Turk made his move. “Sorry blondie, but ya ain’t goin’ in no shower rooms with lover boy here.”

“Reno, we are just friends, it’s fine.”

“Nah, it ain’t fine!”

Aidan turned to the Turk, seemingly more confident than their earlier encounter. “Excuse me, but Cloud can do what he wants.”

“Watch it green eyes, or you’ll hav’ one black ‘n one blue.” Reno’s stare was menacing, and Aidan realised the seriousness of the threat.

“I think it’s best we say goodbye here, Cloud. I’ll see you around.”

Cloud was embarrassed, he kept his head low as he answered, “sure…. Aidan.”

He knew Aidan had no intention to see him again, that was a goodbye and good riddance. Cloud was used to it, he never really had many friends.

When the green-eyed cadet retreated, the blonde did not even look at Reno, he just started making his way back to the tower. The Turk stayed in his shadow and remained silent until they got into the elevator. Reno selected the SOLDIER floor.

“Hey, I’m going to the apartment, not the SOLDIER floor!”

The Turk ignored the teen, a look of annoyance grew on his face. “Ya know blondie, didn’t think ya were that desperate for some cock, thought Rhapsodos was gettin’ in ya pants?”

Cloud’s face turned red with embarrassment and anger, he didn’t even realise he threw a fist at the Turk who easily caught it. Reno twisted Cloud’s arm behind his back, then pressed the petite blonde against the glass wall of the elevator.

“Woah there, blondie! Didn’t mean ta offend ya, guess ya jus’ a little virgin, huh?” The Turk laughed in amusement.

Cloud struggled against Reno’s hold, “fuck you, Reno!”

“Yeah, ya keep saying that, startin’ to believe ya really want it. ‘Cept unlike the other asswipes, I’d date ya before tryna’ get in ya pants.” He released his hold on Cloud, whose face was crimson red.

The elevator doors opened, and the Turk led a flustered Cloud to an office door which read:

Commander Genesis Rhapsodos, SOLDIER First Class

“Wait out here twerp, and don’ go no place. Stay put.” The blonde scowled toward Reno but said nothing.

The Turk knocked twice on the door, entered, and shut the door behind him, leaving the blonde in the corridor.

#

Genesis sat at his desk as the red haired Turk entered the office. “Yo, commander.”

The fiery commander raised his eyebrow, “good afternoon, Reno. How can I assist you today?”

“Got ya toy boy waitin’outside, ya best sort him out if ya know what I mean.”

Genesis looked confused, “what do you mean by sort him out, what happened?”

“Blondie was bein’ lured inta the SOLDIER shower rooms by ya favourite green eyed cadet. And he was tryna convince me it was ‘aight. Ain’t ya supposed to be givin ‘im some? ‘Cos he’s lookin’ for it ‘n all the wrong places.”

At the mention of Cadet Nox, Genesis’ mood had soured. “I will talk with Cloud, and I assure you, I have no idea what you are implying about Cloud and I.”

Reno huffed a laugh, “aight commander. Boss told us ya head ‘oer heels for blondie, I didn’t realise the twerp’s still a baby virgin, thought ya woulda takin’ care of that by now. If ya don’ want ‘im, I’ll date the twerp. He’s a big boy, ya know. He’s ready for it, I’ll give it to ‘im, if ya won’t.”

Reno turned and left the office, snapping the door shut behind him. “C’mon twerp, I’ll take ya back to ya apartment.”

***

Genesis left the office early as he needed to speak to Cloud. He despised that the boy was getting close to Aidan, and he didn’t want Reno to have his little bird either. He knew what Cloud wanted, and if he was willing to give the teen a little more, then Cloud might not take risks and endanger himself.

After entering the apartment, he found the blonde lying on his bed, looking at his PHS.

Genesis stood there leaning against the door frame, smiling at Cloud.

“Hello, dear.”

The boy fumbled with his PHS before dropping it on his own face.

“Ouch! Shit! Oh hey, Genesis. Didn’t hear you come in, you...you’re early? Is everything, ok?”

The red haired commander ran his fingers along the door frame. “Nothing is wrong dear, but I did want to talk to you, I imagine you might know what I am talking about.”

“Reno snitched, huh? Nothing happened Genesis, I was just going to the shower room to rinse off after training with Aidan.”

The fiery commander’s mouth twitched at the mention of that boy’s name. “I see. Reno was simply looking out for you, dear. The shower rooms do not offer privacy, he didn’t want you alone with Cadet Nox, where you would be naked and vulnerable with someone who has made his intentions with you quite clear.”

“But we are just friends or were. Fairly sure Reno scared him off, it was nice having a training partner for materia.”

Genesis walked over to the bed and sat right beside the teen. “Do you not have me?” Genesis gazed into Cloud’s eyes.

The teen swallowed thickly, “of course I do, I just didn’t want to bother you.”

Genesis grasped the boy's cheek, then closed the gap between them and kissed Cloud’s tender lips. The commander stopped for a moment, “I want you to promise me something…”

Genesis kissed Cloud’s lips, again.

“Anything…Genesis.”

He kissed him once more. “When you have needs or wants, let me or one of the others satisfy you. I want you, Cloud, I don’t want anyone else beyond the Firsts to touch you. I want you to stay away from Cadet Nox. Promise me, love.”

Cloud looked into his commander’s eyes, “I promise…Gen.”

The fiery mage smiled at his little bird. “The others won’t be back for a little while, you have me all to yourself…tell me what you want or need to feel good.”

The blonde's cheeks were burning red, he lost count of how many dreams he had that went like this, but his nervousness and self consciousness rendered him silent. He didn’t know why he couldn’t just ask for what he wanted. Maybe it was his own inexperience or Genesis’ extensive experience?

What he wanted was for his commander to lay on top of him between his legs. He wanted Genesis to thrust against him whilst kissing him until he orgasmed. But he didn’t know how to say it. The blonde turned away from Genesis, he was all kinds of embarrassed and felt like an idiot.

“Love, I know you aren’t used to being in control, and it can be hard to ask for what you want. How about you let me make you feel good. If you like something, say yes, or nod. If you want me to stop, shake your head or say, no. Ok?”

The blonde nodded in relief, it was strange how much he liked relinquishing control. When other people touched him without permission or took control over what happened to his body, he had hated it. He hated that he was not in control. This was different.

Genesis guided the boy up to the pillows, but Cloud sat upright as he had some nervous tension in his body. Genesis moved closer and kissed the side of Cloud’s neck, he began to suck softly on the flesh, leaving his mark on his young lover. He could hear the boy’s heart rate increase, but his body had already begun to loosen up, so Genesis repositioned Cloud onto his back. The commander kissed the teen’s cheek, then the corner of his lips. He continued to kiss him until Cloud’s lips parted, allowing Genesis’ tongue to enter and trace the teen’s mouth for the first time.

He withdrew and stared into the teen’s cerulean eyes. “Are you ok, so far, Cloud?”

“Yes, Gen.”

Genesis placed his fingers around the hem of Cloud’s T-shirt and toyed with it. “May I remove this?”

The teen nodded his consent, and his commander removed the shirt and tossed it aside, he placed his hand on the boy’s lower belly, and traced over the developing abs. Cloud’s breathing became heavier, and Genesis knew the boy was beginning to feel aroused.

“Are you ready to spread your legs for me, love?”

The boy moaned softly as he nodded. Genesis placed both hands on the inner side of Cloud’s knees and slowly parted his legs, then the commander nestled himself between them. He didn’t place his full weight on the boy as he kissed his smooth chest. Genesis looked up at Cloud with a smirk before placing his well-versed lips around the boy's sensitive nipple and used his teeth to gently graze it.

“Nnnn… fuck, Gen.” Cloud’s eyes closed, and he covered his face with his hands to hide his embarrassment.

“You really are sensitive, I can’t wait to draw out every little moan of pleasure from you, little bird. Move your hands, I want to see the pleasure on your face.”

The boy did as commanded.

The red-haired commander placed his fingers on the waistband of Cloud’s sweatpants, “do you want to take your pants off for me?”

The teen’s eyes widened, he swallowed hard as he considered if he wanted to or not.

“Yes, but…can I keep my…”

“You can leave your boxers on, love. Go only as far as you are willing, I will not force you for my own pleasure.”

Cloud smiled and allowed Genesis to slide his pants off, the red-haired commander basked in the sight of the teen’s smooth, pale thighs. His own cock began to throb in his leather pants as he did his best to maintain his own composure. Genesis positioned himself between the teen’s legs and could feel Cloud’s hardened cock.

“I love how hard you are for me, right now. I want to make you cum.”

Cloud’s nerves started to get to him, he wasn’t sure if he was ready to finish in front of his commander and he wasn’t sure how Genesis was intending to help him do it.

Oh gods, what if he came too quickly or what if he couldn’t cum because he was too nervous?

The red mage sensed the boy's distress and placed a reassuring kiss on his lips.

“Cloud, it may be easier if you tell me what you want, there’s no need for you to feel embarrassed at all. Angeal and Seph like to be sucked off, and Zachary enjoys when I use my hand to make him cum.”

Cloud was becoming increasingly more aroused, but he didn’t want any of that just yet. This was his commander, surely it would be ok if he told him what he wanted?

“Gen… I don’t want that. I…” Gaia, why was this so difficult to get out. He took a deep breath and closed his eyes, it would be easier to say if he didn’t have to see Genesis’ reaction.

“I..I want you to thrust against me like you would, if you were…fucking me.”

Cloud opened his eyes and could see how Genesis’ mako blue eyes had suddenly darkened. The fiery commander grabbed the teen’s chin. “Cloud, there is a big difference between how I make love and how I fuck, which is it you want?”

The teen licked his dry lips, his eyes fluttered slightly, “show me how you would… fuck me.”

Genesis’ eyes widened, his stare was predatory. “Turn over and get on all fours love, and I’ll show you how I would very much love to fuck you.”

The blonde turned over and positioned himself on all fours and spread his legs apart slightly to give Genesis better access. As promised, the commander left the boy’s boxers on. Genesis unzipped his own pants, pulling them down his thighs to alleviate some of the pressure on his hardened cock.

Just seeing how the boy was presenting himself, made the fiery commander almost lose control. He had to remind himself that the boy was not enhanced yet, and he hadn’t experienced sex before.

He moved forward placing his hands on the boy's small hips and positioned Cloud’s ass against his hardened cock, only two pieces of thin material separated them. “Are you sure you want this, Cloud? Don’t do this if it is only for my pleasure.”

“I want it, Gen.”

That was all the consent the red haired needed. He thrust hard against Cloud’s ass, the shock of it made the boy cry out. It excited Genesis how vocal the boy was. He thrusted hard once more, and Cloud’s head flexed back ever so slightly.

“That’s it, love. Mmmm, that’s it, right…there.” Then Genesis started to slam hard and fast against the boy, each thrust caused the blonde to moan as Genesis’ cock pressed between Cloud’s cheeks. It wasn’t long before the teen was grinding back against Genesis’ cock in an attempt to seek more friction. Genesis’ pace quickened, though he didn’t thrust any harder as he had no desire to injure his young lover.

The commander noticed that Cloud had his right hand down his own boxers and was pumping his cock toward release. With one final thrust, Genesis came hard and soon after, Cloud had finished with a loud moan.

Genesis was still behind the blonde so he could not see Cloud’s face. He wasn’t sure if the teen may have regretted this course of action and was upset.

“Cloud, I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have agreed to do that, did I hurt you?”

The teen turned around and looked up at his commander, cerulean eyes brighter than normal. Cloud said nothing, he simply reached up and kissed Genesis’ lips and smiled. He lay back on the bed, beads of sweat dripping from his golden spikes, his eyes closed, and he drifted off to sleep.

Genesis left Cloud to slumber and made his way to the lounge room. He thought of how good it felt thrusting his cock against the petite blonde's ass. Picturing the teen on all fours with his legs parted had caused the red-haired commander to harden again. He needed sex and he needed to top.

When Zack arrived home, he was met with a wide-eyed Genesis, who looked at the young raven-haired SOLDIER with lust.

“Get the lube and get on the bed, Puppy.”

Zack’s eyes darkened as they made their way to the bedroom.

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Steel clashed with steel, every impact caused a thunderous echo across the training room. Mako violet eyes glowed and met with cerulean eyes, which were full of determination and focus.

“That’s it, Cloud! Again!” His raven haired commander coached him from the end of the room.

The blonde corrected his stance, and prepared to attack, his face was dripping with sweat. His fingers grasped the broadsword with an iron grip, drops of blood leaked down his hands, a consequence of burst blisters which would turn into calluses soon enough. Pain and exhaustion would not deter the petite SOLDIER hopeful, he was used to pain, but this pain served a purpose, bringing him one step closer to his goal.

The teen ran up to the younger raven-haired SOLDIER, and swung his sword high which was easily met and blocked by Zack. The blonde tried a front on attack and was again denied by the older teen. The blonde scowled, he knew he was outmatched, he could not contend with SOLDIER strength, but he was still stubborn enough to try.

Swords continued to clash until the older teen locked his weapon against Cloud’s, and with a smooth swirl of his broadsword, Zack disarmed the younger teen who landed on the ground.

“You’re getting good, Cloudy. But not good enough.” Zack pointed his sword at Cloud’s chest and was laughing. Cloud saw an opening and took it, the older teen was too cocky, the blonde used his right foot to sweep Zack’s leg, causing him to land on his ass. The blonde jumped on top of the older teen and pinned him on the ground.

Zack laughed, “I yield, I yield!” The blonde smirked and kissed his SOLDIER on the lips before climbing off him.

The burly commander watched the boys, Cloud’s strength had come along way in the past few weeks, he could not believe how well the petite blonde was able to wield a broadsword. His confidence had grown immensely since Genesis spent more time with the teen in the bedroom. It was moves such as jumping on Zack and kissing him, that Cloud reminded him of Genesis when he was a teenager. Cloud was confident and flirtatious, his fiery lover was clearly rubbing off on the blonde.

Cloud was smiling as he and Zack walked towards Angeal. “That was very impressive, Cloud. You are improving each time you spar! You are really starting to make Puppy here work for it.”

“Geal, seriously?!” Zack looked at Angeal with sad puppy eyes.

Angeal chuckled, “you lack focus, Zack, and Cloud used that to his advantage.” Cloud was glad his face was already red from his spar with Zack, he always blushed when his commander complimented him.

“Guess you’re right, Geal! Our Cloudy here is pretty amazing! Let’s get going, it’s dinner and movie night!”

They packed away their equipment and made their way back to the apartment.

#

Angeal busied himself in the kitchen preparing a chicken stir fry for his lovers. He loved cooking, it was methodical but still allowed for Angeal to add some creative flair. It also gave him time to think. He really felt a sense of pride when he thought about how far Cloud had come, the boy had such determination to prove himself worthy of SOLDIER, and it was really starting to show. Cloud would do very well during the examination, and he was looking forward to assessing him.

He also thought about how attractive the boy was, and how it turned him on to see Cloud straddle Zack. Angeal also remembered how the boy had straddled him after their first training session with broadswords.

The honour bound commander felt a pang of jealousy that Genesis had been granted permission to get Cloud on all fours whilst he thrusted against the teen’s petite body. He imagined himself in place of Genesis and how good it would feel to be pressed up against the blonde. He knew that Cloud preferred Genesis over him, after all, he was the one that had once hurt Cloud, and Genesis had always protected the teen.

 The burly commander sighed and continued to prep the meal.

#

The smell of ginger soy chicken stir fry filled the apartment and drew Angeal’s lovers to the dining room.

Sephiroth took up his seat at the head of the table as usual, but what took Angeal by surprise was the fact that Genesis sat beside Zack, leaving an empty chair beside him. A freshly showered Cloud entered the dining room, he wore some sort of sports shorts which sat around his thighs along with a tight-fitting shirt.

“Sorry I’m late, I was having trouble finding clothes that fit me.” The boy was clearly embarrassed by his predicament as he took his seat beside Angeal.

Snakelike pupils looked the boy up and down. “You have had a growth spurt, Cloud. Your muscles are also developing, you will require a new wardrobe. I will provide you the funds, and Gen will assist you with selecting the items you need and want.”

Normally, the boy would argue back and would refuse money or help, but after spending a lot of time with Sephiroth, he now knew better.

“Yes, Seph. Thank you.”

The silver general’s lip quirked, it pleased him how the blonde had learned to be submissive, and he had stopped being petulant and defiant.

“If you want love, we can order online if you’d rather not go to the shopping district? I can take your measurements, so we get the right sizes.”

The blonde looked toward his fiery commander with relief, “thank you, Gen. That would be so much better.”

The teen tucked into his meal, alongside his growth spurt, Cloud’s appetite had also increased, Angeal couldn’t help but smile fondly at him.

“Gods, Geal! This is amazing, thank you.” The burly commander's cheeks flushed red, Genesis and Zachary snickered at their lover.

#

As the evening came to a close, everyone had retired to bed, except Angeal. He saw the sight of the kitchen and did not want to face dirty pots, pans, and plates come Saturday morning. So, the burly commander rolled up his sleeves and set to work.

It wasn’t long before the commander’s enhanced hearing picked up light footsteps heading toward the kitchen.

“Geal, may I help you with the dishes?” The blonde teen stood in the doorway, still clad in shorts and a singlet.

“Cloud…sure, if you feel up to it?” He smiled at the boy.

“It’s no problem, ma always tells me to help with the dishes, especially when I’m a guest.”

“She’s taught you well. But you are hardly a guest, Cloud. This is your home, you understand that, right?” The SOLDIER was leaning against the kitchen counter, his muscly arms folded over his chest.

Cloud nodded and moved toward the sink. They spent some time in silence as they made light work of the pots and pans, Angeal washed and Cloud dried. As Angeal finished up, Cloud moved toward the kitchen counter and ran his hands along the edge. He smiled to himself, remembering his little moment with Angeal, which now felt so long ago.

Large hands found the teen’s hips.

“I’m having a sudden sense of déjà vu.” The blonde placed his hands over Angeal’s.

“You really have grown, Cloud.”

The blonde slowly pressed back against Angeal, purposefully grinding against the man’s cock. Angeal leaned down and placed his nose to Cloud’s neck.

“Stay, just like this.” He whispered against the boy's neck, triggering goosebumps to rise on his pale skin.

Genesis had been teaching Cloud what turned on each of his lovers, he happened to mention that Angeal liked to role play and had a military kink.

“Yes, Commander Hewley, sir.” The teen all but moaned out the words. Large, calloused hands tightened on the teen's hips.

“Cloud…what are you doing?” His voice had deepened and was barely more than a whisper.

“Just doing as I am told, sir.”

Mako started to glow in the commander’s eyes, he needed to be sure of Cloud’s consent before he became too lost in pleasure.

“Cloud, are you sure you are ok with this?”

The teen nodded.

“You are already being so good for me, cadet. Put your hands on the counter and bend over slightly.”

Cloud obeyed and bent over, his hands gripped the edge of the counter as Angeal began to gently grind his hardened member against Cloud’s ass.

“Be a good boy and spread your legs for me.”

“Yessir.” Cloud parted his legs as directed. The commander pulled down Cloud’s shorts and began to tug down the blonde’s underwear just past his smooth cheeks.

The teen waited for the thrusting to continue but it never came. After feeling very exposed and uncertain, the teen hastily pulled up his shorts.

Cloud turned around to face Angeal, “I did something wrong, didn’t I?” 

Gods, maybe his body was a turn off for his commander. Why would the honour bound commander want him? He was just a scrawny, infantry runt. He was an idiot, what was he thinking? All of Angeal’s lovers were enhanced, First Class SOLDIERs for Gaia’s sake! Maybe Genesis was just humouring him?

“Cloud, you did everything right, I just needed to stop, I am more worried about my self control.”

Cloud didn’t look convinced. “I…I guess you’d prefer one of your lovers to help you finish. Gen is a lot better at this stuff than me. Gods, I knew I would screw this up. G..Gen said you were into this type of thing, b..but I think he meant just with the others. I…I’m sorry, I just thought w…we were becoming closer, I…I made a mistake.”

“Cloud, please! I didn’t mean to make you feel any less than the others, it isn’t like that.”

“It’s fine, Geal. Good night.” The teen offered his commander a forced smile as he left the kitchen and went to bed, embarrassed and ashamed by what had just happened.

#

Cloud clung to Zack as his stomach quivered with nausea, he closed his eyes tight and hoped for it to soon be over. He tried his best to block out the noises around him so he could focus on his breathing.

“Yo, SOLDIER boy, what’s up with blondie?” The red haired Turk was looking at Cloud with concern.

“He’s got really bad motion sickness, Reno.” Zack held on to Cloud, doing his best to help him get through the worst of it.

“Oy, twerp! How come yer were fine in the elevator?”

The blonde looked up, with one eye open and the other shut. “Lots of practise, Reno.”

“If ya can’t even handle ridin’ ona train, how yer gonna ride one of ‘em fancy SOLDIER motorcycles yer been bitchin bout?”

The blonde scowled at the Turk, “it’s different when I’m driving or riding, it’s hard to explain. Now, please shut up before I puke all over your fancy Turk outfit.”

Zack had contacted Aerith and offered to finally help build her flower cart, Cloud insisted on helping as he had promised Aerith he would. Despite Zack being a First Class SOLDIER, Rufus insisted on Reno monitoring Cloud, especially if they were going under plate.

The train arrived at the Sector 5 Slums, and Cloud was grateful that the ride was finally over. He was able to let go of Zack, but he kept his hood over his head to hide his Shinra hair. Regardless of the motion sickness, Cloud was really looking forward to seeing Aerith again and spending the afternoon away from Shinra Tower. It also provided a good distraction from the fact the examination was only a week away. Cloud knew the exam would be difficult, so building a flower cart should be easy work. He had built lots of smaller items out of wood for his own mother back in Nibelheim, and she always complimented Cloud for his fine work.

They walked from the station to Aerith’s church, which was completely run down. Parts of the structure were falling apart, and it saddened Cloud as his mother always said places of worship were sacred and treated with respect. But that’s how it went in the slums, top siders didn’t care if the people beneath them had adequate support or resources. Despite the buildings current condition, it was still an architectural masterpiece, and it really stood out in the slums.

They walked up the stone steps and Reno pushed open the large double doors. Wooden pews lined both sides of the church, though many were broken or covered in dust. Cloud did feel a strange sense of calm in this church, it was enough to even mask his worries about the examinations.

At the front of the church was a patch of grass, filled with the most eye-catching flowers Cloud had seen. Apart from the ones in Angeal’s apartment, these were the first flowers the blonde had seen in Midgar. The toxins from the reactors made it nearly impossible for anything to grow, especially under plate where there was little to no natural sunlight.

Crouched beside the patch of flowers was Aerith, she was just as beautiful as the last time Cloud saw her. The teen didn’t have enhanced hearing but could swear she was talking to them. She looked up with a sweet smile, “Zack, you made it. Hello, Reno Sinclair.”

The Turk looked horrified, “yo, it’s just, Reno.”

Cloud looked amused, “your last name is, Sinclair?” The teen giggled.

“Shu’up twerp, like Strife is any better? No wait, ain’t it Shinra now?”

The smile disappeared from Cloud’s face, and Reno almost looked like he regretted saying that.

A kind voice interrupted them, “It’s nice to see you again, Cloud. You’ve grown since I last saw you.”

“Hello, Miss Aerith, it’s great to see you as well. Uh, yeah, I had a growth spurt last you saw me.”  His cheeks blushed lightly.

Reno walked past them and headed toward one of the church pews, “even with a growth spurt, yer still a baby shrimp.” He chuckled as he lay down on the pew and covered his eyes with a pair of shades.

“Hey Aer, I brought a bag with hinges and tools and stuff, do you still have the wood and wheels I left here last time?” The raven-haired teen took the duffle bag off his back and placed it on the floor.

“All in the corner over there, where you left it. Why don’t you get it all set up, and Cloud can sit by me for a while?”

“No probs!” Zack started setting up to build the cart and Cloud quietly sat beside Aerith and her flowers.

Cloud admired the yellow flowers, which were the ones Aerith was selling in Sector 1.

“Excuse me, Miss Aerith. How do you know, Reno?”

“I know all the Turks, Tseng has been watching over me since I was a little girl.”

Cerulean eyes widened. Why would the Turks be following Aerith? He thought he had it bad with Reno following him around most of the time, but Aerith had been followed most of her life! He wasn’t sure if it was appropriate to ask about her situation, so he continued looking at the flowers.

“My birth mother and I were held captive at Shinra Tower for a long time, Professor Hojo experimented on us, but mostly on my mother. We eventually escaped and tried to hide here in the Slums, but my mother died when we arrived. We were found by Elmyra, who took me in as her own daughter and I’ve lived in the Sector 5 Slums ever since.”

It broke Cloud’s heart to hear that someone as pure and kind as Aerith, had been hurt by that monster, Hojo. Sephiroth told Cloud some horror stories about Hojo, which included performing surgeries on Sephiroth, without using general anaesthesia. It’s no wonder Rufus had Hojo executed by Sephiroth after he became president. But why were Aerith and her mother targets for Hojo?

Aerith smiled widely at him, almost like she was reading his mind. “Tseng may not like for me to tell you, but my mother and I are what we call, Cetra, or otherwise known as Ancients.”

Cloud had heard stories of the Ancients, but he always assumed they were just that, stories. In Nibelheim, people believed the Ancients were a gifted race of people who were very in tune with nature and the planet. The stories even said that Ancients could communicate with the Lifestream.

“You know about the Cetra?”

“I do, in Nibelheim the stories speak of the Ancients as a very gifted race who are one with Gaia, if you are an Ancient, then you are very special, Aerith.”

“And you’re not special?”

“Not really, I’m just a bastard son of Shinra and an infantry runt.”

Aerith studied the teen closely and leaned in close to Cloud’s personal space. “It’s funny that you say you aren’t special when I can hear the Lifestream inside of you. It’s faint, but it’s there.”

“Huh?”

“C’mon Cloudy, let’s get this flower cart built!” Zack lifted Cloud up and carried him toward the materials.

“Put me down, Zack!”

Aerith giggled at the sight and continued caring for the flowers.

#

Four hours later, the boys had finished building a small flower cart for Aerith, Cloud even managed to carve her name on the side. He also managed to cut his hand multiple times in the process, it had been a long time since he had done any wood carving.

Whilst Zack proudly showed Aerith their work, Cloud’s eye was drawn to the side of the church, where many of the floorboards were missing, and a small pool of water had collected. It was probably exhaustion settling in, but he thought he could hear whispers coming from within the pool. When he kneeled down, there was nothing extraordinary about the water, so he casually dipped his hand in and was noticeably surprised that the water wasn’t cold but lukewarm. As he moved his hand around, he saw flecks of green, he quickly removed his hand only to find that all the cuts had been healed.

“C’mon Cloudy, time to go. I’m gonna take Aerith home first, you and Reno head back to the train station then I’ll catch the later train.”

Aerith walked up to Cloud and embraced him in a tight hug, “thanks for your help today, Cloud. It really was lovely seeing you. Best of luck for your exam, you’re going to ace it.”

“Th…thank you, Miss Aerith, I will do my best.”

“Yo, blondie! Move that cute ass of yours!” Reno winked at Cloud.

#

Reno and Cloud arrived back at Shinra Tower just before 1800, the blonde was pale in the face, motion sickness still attacked his system from the train ride home. Reno noticed the discomfort on the teen’s face as he remembered there was still a whole elevator ride to go.

When they stepped in, Reno selected a floor, “gotta make a pit stop, blondie.”

The teen had his eyes shut, trying his best to concentrate. The elevator started to ascend, and Cloud whimpered from the discomfort.

The red-haired Turk walked up to Cloud and wrapped his arms around the teen and pulled him close to his chest. “Jus’ so yer know, I ain’t tryna feel ya up or nothin.”

“Let go, Reno. I don’t want to puke on you!”

“S’all good, blondie. I got ya.”

The teen leaned into the hold, and inhaled the aftershave that Reno wore, it wasn’t ridiculously overpowering as he was expecting but rather, it was sweet in smell. The blonde focused on the man’s heartbeat and took comfort in that.

When they exited the elevator, Cloud realised they were on the Turk floor. Reno led Cloud down a lengthy hallway, through double doors which connected to a science or medical department, before stopping at another door.

“Wait ‘ere, twerp!”

Reno disappeared behind the door and returned several minutes later holding a small, clear bottle of pills. He tossed them toward Cloud who caught them. They weren’t labeled which confused the blonde. “What are these for, Reno?”

“For motion sickness,” Reno said matter of factly.

“Reno, I’ve tried all motion sickness meds, they don’t work for me.”

The Turk smiled, “these ones ain’t on the market’ if ya know what I mean. These are specially made ‘ere for us Turks, we pilot helicopters ‘n shit like that, yer ain’t the only one that gets motion sickness.”

The teen blushed, it was incredibly thoughtful of Reno to give him these pills, when they were intended for Turks to use.

“Thank you, Reno.”

“No probs, blondie. Hold still a minute.”  The Turk moved close and raised his thumb to the teen’s cheek and seemed to caress him.

“Ya had dirt on ya face that whole time, looks much better now.”

Cloud was certain his face blushed even darker.

 #

Cloud arrived back at the apartment just as dinner had finished, he found the Firsts in the lounge room.

“Hello, love. You just missed dinner, but Ange saved you a plate for your return. Zachary text to let us know he’s having dinner with his little flower girl and her mother, he’ll be back later this evening.”

“Hey Gen. I..I’m sorry I was a bit late. Reno took me to the Turk floor to find some motion sickness meds for me.”

“No need for apologies, Ange will get your plate, and you can eat on the couch.”

“Oh n..no, that’s ok. I..uh…can get my own plate, I’m already up anyway. I..I’ll eat in the kitchen, I don’t want to ruin the couch.”

Cloud moved quickly to the kitchen and was able to avoid Angeal. He felt like an idiot over their encounter in the kitchen on Friday night. He concluded that Angeal saw parts of his naked body and was put off and that he preferred his enhanced lovers to sexually please him over an infantry runt.

He grabbed his plate and ate alone with only the annoying self-defeating thoughts in his head to keep him company.

#

“What happened to our little bird? He was very confident and flirtatious, and now, these past couple of days, we are back to when we first met him. He needed that confidence for the exams next week. Ah, the fates are cruel.”

Angeal felt horrible, after all of Cloud’s hard work, he destroyed the boy's self worth in the space of five minutes.

The silver general added, “he has been stuttering again too, he hasn’t done that in a while.”

“It’s my fault…late on Friday night after you all went to bed, Cloud came to help me with the dishes, and there was a misunderstanding. Someone told him about my turn ons, and he played into my military kink. He came in the kitchen wearing barely anything, he called me by my full title, and I had him against the kitchen counter. I stopped before I lost control, I was scared I might hurt him. He was embarrassed and thought I’d prefer one of you to help me…finish. He was convinced he did something wrong.”

Genesis broke the silence.

“I am surprised he had the confidence to try with you, Ange. He has been nervous and wanted to know how to satisfy you, Seph and Zachary. Clearly, I taught him well. You should go speak to him and correct your error, he will be under the assumption that you are not attracted to him and that he is somehow not worthy of your affections.”

Genesis wrapped his arms around Angeal, then slid his hands into the burly commander's back pockets before leaning up to kiss him. Genesis pulled away to whisper in his lover’s ear.

“Our little bird learns best through actions, not words.”