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You know, walking down busy the street of Musutafu city at two in the morning wasn't exactly on my To-Do List today. Unfortunately though, I didn't have much of a choice. I'm on a serious mission here. One I thought I'd never had to do.
Which is warning the heroes of The Leagues infiltrating Training Camp.
I feel the churning in my stomach and the pounding of my heartbeat loud in my ears as I continued down the sidewalk. I really didn't want to do this. Fuck, I really wished I didn't have to. They were like family to me. Shigaraki, Spinner, Kurogiri, hell even Dabi. But more importantly, she was the last living family I had out here. The last line blood sibling of mine.
Himiko Toga.
I love her, my older sister. As weird and fucked up she was, she's my only family remaining. She protected me from harm, she cared for me whenever I was sick, she loved me for who I was. She never made fun of my Quirk or amnesia episodes, she never hurt me ,no matter how much she wanted to. She understood me.
That's what I thought at first.
But recently, I discovered something horrible. The horrible truth of all these years of what happened to our parents, why I had amnesia episodes to begin with. But the sickening truth of all, is what she did to our parents.
I was humming and skipping down to the end of the hall back to where my shared room with Himiko was after having once again an interesting game night downstairs. Himiko left halfway through Monopoly and said she'd be back with my medication for my amnesia. Seeing as she left through the front door, I figured she was still out and about. So it's a surprise to hear two voices in my room, the first being hers and the second being Twice's.
I frowned at the latter. Twice was a nice person and all but I never really liked him. He always gave me these death glares whenever she showed me any type of physical affection or was talking to me in the same room with him in it.
With caution, I quietly tiptoed down the rest of the hall and lightly pressed my ear against the door to the bedroom.
"Thanks again for covering me downstairs Twice! Really owe ya for that!"
"No problem at all friend! It was such a fucking hassle ya lil' shit!"
I heard Himiko laugh, used to Twice's unusual way of talking.
"Seriously though! I had to get these memory suppressants tonight or else Y/N would have a fit by tomorrow evening!"
My eyes widen at this. Surely she didn't say what I think she said…?
"Why do you give him those suppressants ? What's in those? Like I wanna know why!"
"Mainly in this drug is benzodiazepine. It's used as a sedative but ever since Y/N started getting these massive anxiety attacks at home, the doctors said to only to use it if it gets too out of hand!"
A brief pause as I hear Himiko possibly lean into Twice's ear is what I'm assuming because now she starts whispering.
"It also helps keep Y/N closer to me! He always wanted to be a hero ya know? But those bastard heroes would probably shun Y/N and his gender! Not to mention his Quirk too! I'm helping him not get hurt!"
I feel bile rising up to my throat. She… she was crazy! Yeah sure I already knew that, but this was low! Even for her!
I feel my breathing starting to become erratic. A ringing in my ears began to grow along with my anxiety and fear towards my sister. But I shove those feelings aside. I can deal with these feelings later. Right now, Twice is talking again so I tune in.
"-that why you asked Shigaraki for him to come along to retrieve that Bakugou brat kid at their Training Camp? He'll never let him join in on the mission!
I can practically feel her nod excitingly as she starts bouncing on the balls of her feet.
"Yep-per do! He'll make a great debut as one of us! Trust me on this!"
I've heard enough of this. I give a curt knock on the door as I try to regain my composure and act normal. "Hey oneesan! Can I come in? I wanna head to bed!"
Some shuffling was heard before the door opened and out walked Twice, sending me a quick frown before leaving. Ignoring him, I head inside the room to find Himiko sitting on the edge of my bed with a soft smile.
"Hi otouto! Can you sit down for a sec? I need to tell you something exciting!" she asks as she bounces lightly on my bed.
I nod reluctantly and shut the door behind me.
I frown at the memory from a month ago. She had told me about the mission taking place in about a week from today. Over the course of time, I've managed to flush out the drug and get my memories back. It was horrible at first, realizing the truth of my sister but I needed to act normal. I couldn't let anyone catch a whiff of my new perspective of everything. Thank God no one noticed though and at least Himiko trusts me enough to take my "medicine" by myself.
And yet no matter how much I told myself that her drugging and messing with my memories, my anxiety disorder, my entire fucking life!
………
I know she has my best interests at heart, but I cannot forgive her for this. And if she's lied to me about my amnesia, then what other lies has she told me?
I need an out. I need to fucking get out. But I couldn't just let that Bakugou kid get captured either. So I came up with a plan.
One of the good things that The League can do is dig up information on just about anyone. Including Bakugou's homeroom teacher.
Prohero Erasurehead, or also known as: Shouta Aizawa.
A few clicks and a bit of hacking later at my local library and I have his patrol route and his schedule. Phase One complete.
Onto Phase Two: slip him the warning note. Unfortunately, since Himiko is present with me 24/7 back at the base and doesn't understand the concept of personal space, this was a little tricky to pull off without risking suspicion. But after she finally managed to fall asleep, I got to work. Phase Two is now complete.
Onto Phase Three: finding said ProHero. Which I've been walking since 12 AM and so far nothing. Huh, guess I'll have to take more drastic measures.
Eyeing a apartment complex, I turn to its alleyway and proceed to climb the emergency fire escapes. Once at the top of the ladder, I hoisted myself onto the building rooftop and make my way towards the ledge. I plop down onto the edge and dangle my feet off while lying on my back to look at the stars in the sky.
There weren't that many thanks to the pollution and smog, but it was better than nothing.
I close my eyes as I began replaying the past month in my head. With all the new information I've gained, everything that I learned from outside sources about the League. It was horrible. How and why… why do they hate the heroes so much? The League never talks about why, and hell like my sister does either. So why? Why hate them? Heroes are only human after all. They can't help everyone but it seems like they try. So why hate them for something they clearly have no control over. I don't understand…
"Why are you up here alone kid?"
I open my eyes and my heart stops. There leaning down at my eye level with a frown was a gruff looking man with black disheveled hair and a stubble beard. He looks as if he hadn't slept in ages. But what caught my attention was his scarf. A light grey long-
Erasurehead.
I cautiously sit up quickly and look up at him. "I'm not a kid you know…" I mumble as I look away and towards the city life below.
I hear him snort. "Right, and I'm All Might. You're at least the same age as my problematic class." I hear shuffling next to me as he steps closer to me and sits next to me on the ledge. "You haven't answered my question kiddo. Why you up here?"
I go to answer him truthfully but stop myself. I had to still be careful. Who knows if The League was watching me some way somehow. So I do the next best thing and open up a bit to him so he trusts me.
"I…I'm reflecting. Something has come up with my family and I just… I'm questioning so many things right now. Because my family isn't… fond of heroes," I feel him tense at that but continue. "But I… I've always wanted to be one but… I know if I go down this path, I'll have to choose between family and being a hero… I'm at a loss of what to do I suppose…"
There's a tense silence at first. I look over to him and see his eyebrows furrow, deep in thought. I see him sigh as he looks at me once more, with a bit of concern on his face. "I'll be honest with you kid, that's definitely a pickle you're in. I understand not wanting to hurt your family and their ways of thinking, but I also understand that this is a dream of yours. I say go for it. As for family, family not only helps and supports each other, but it's who you choose that family to be. No one else can make that choice for you."
I turn away again and ponder on what he said. I hadn't really thought about that. And he did have valid points. I love my sister yes, but if she doesn't support my interest in being a hero, taking it to the point where she'll hurt me just to "keep me safe" then was she really family? No, no she wasn't. The Himiko I knew would never hurt me like that. This wasn't the oneesan I knew back then. She was gone…
Its my turn to sigh as I turn back to him, a little bit of tears in my eyes at the realization of what I was going to have to do next soon.
"Ya know, you're real sentimental when you wanna be Erasurehead." I chuckle as I feel the tears stream down my face freely now. I see him move closer and hear him hesitantly ask,
"I'm not good at these sort of things kid. But it looks like you could use a hug. May I?"
I was taken aback by his request. No ones… ever asked me if I wanted one. Not even Himiko. She just hugged instead of asking. It makes me feel… safe.
With a nod, he pulls me into his tight embrace. While he's distracted, I slip the note to him in one of his pockets on his sweater. When we pull away, I give him a small smile. "Thank you Erasurehead. I feel better now. I know what I have to do." He gives me nod before a soft expression is spread across his face. He then stands up and holds his hand out to me. "Come on kiddo. Let's get you home."
I tentatively take his hand. "I can walk home myself ya know. It's not far from here." It looks like was about to debate on it before shaking his head and sighing. "Alright, I trust you."
We both head down the emergency ladders. Once on the ground, I make my way out of the ally before turning back to him. "You should probably check your sweater pocket by the way" I don't have time to see his reaction before quickly turning the corner and bolting down the sidewalks to another nearby alley and take out a small blood vial and activate my Quirk.
Y/N Toga
Quirk: Animal Transformation
This grants him the ability to turn into any animal he desires. However he can only transform into animals whose blood he has ingested. Similar to how his sister's quirk works.
I shudder as I feel myself drink the blood and start transforming into a rat. I quickly scurry off into the night and manage to make it back to the base before turning back into myself in my shared room, where Himiko was sound asleep.
I didn't like the fact I had to drink blood for my Quirk to activate, but it's a part of who I was. I wasn't blood lusted like my sister, but the fear I could be was there.
I sigh as I round to my bed and snuggle under the covers. Hoping Erasurehead will heed my warning and call off Training Camp.
He in fact did not call off Training Camp because before I knew it, I was standing in front of Shigaraki explaining the plan before dispatching us into the night of the campgrounds. Soon me, my sister, and a few others were warped into the forest. Each one slowly making their way through.
I feel my anxiety rising as my body begins to shake a little, feeling myself become queasy. Himiko must've noticed because then her gaze shifts towards me as she takes one of my hands into hers. "It'll be ok otouto! I'll be here to help you every step of the way! No need to be nervous!"
Her words reach upon deaf ears. This was the only time I could escape. I could finally become free. I could become a hero to stop them from hurting anymore people. But one wrong move, one wrong step and I can be done for. Related or not, if I show Himiko any sign of my plan, I'm sure she wouldn't hesitate to drag me back to the base in a very bloody manor.
"Whatever you say Himiko." I feel her frown at the use of her name but she immediately smiles at me like nothing happened.
"Come on then! Race you inside!" And she then takes off, leaving me to dwell in my feelings. I could easily run in the opposite direction of this chaos, leaving my old life behind. I could be free. All I had to do was just walk away…
I froze however. While I wanted to escape, knowing Himiko and the rest of The League it spelt guarantee death most likely. Their mission was to capture Bakugou and kill any others in sight…
And like hell I'll let that happen.
I heard shouting commotion up ahead. Pushing away my anxiety, I take off after the girl I once proudly called oneesan.