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  Tommy nearly forgot the feeling of dying before he died again. At least he chose to this time, right?

  Limbo was still the same. An endless void filled with everyone dead. Thank fuck it was huge, otherwise he would have to come across Schlatt and Dream again. 

  While there were many things similar from when he last died, a couple things have changed. Like what? His feelings about being dead. Last time, Tommy felt nothing but pure fear. He remembered the feeling of his hands trembling as he talked to Schlatt again. The feeling of sorrow when he saw Mexican Dream again. While both Schlatt and Mexican Dream did not care if they were dead, Tommy still felt bad that he was the cause of their deaths.

  Well, Mexican Dream's death anyway. Tommy could still feel some rage whenever he was Schlatt. He could still feel some rage after what he did to his best friend.

  This time, Tommy felt nothing but acceptance. Tommy knew he was going to die. He had planned it himself so that Dream would finally be dead, and Tubbo would be safe. Even if it costed his life. 

  One thing Tommy noticed was, he is in a different area. It was clearly still limbo, but it looked almost... beautiful? Tommy was in an allium field, the beautiful flowers bringing up hard memories. Until now, Tommy didn't realise how much he missed Ranboo. He couldn't wait to see him again.

  Something about the flowers looked wrong. Some were trampled by something or someone. That meant someone was there. But who was it? The surrounding area was empty, with nothing but alliums to be seen for what looked like thousands of blocks. There was another thing to wonder. Why was he here? Tommy wasn't about to lie and say he was a good person. No one of the server was. Maybe if Bad didn't get fuckin possessed by whatever the egg thing was, he could've been the only one on that fucking server that was still a good person.

  Since Tommy knew he wasn't a good person, why was he not in the same place as before? Why was he in a nice place like this? The point of limbo was to suffer. To pay for your sins. Why was he not doing that? 

  Tommy heard something move behind him; getting closer. Tommy quickly spun around to find the last thing he was expecting.

  "Tommy...? You're here too?" Ranboo stood in front of him. Surprise etched into every line of his face, along with something else...maybe...relief?

  Tommy felt the sudden urge to run up to Ranboo, and give him something he hasn't done in so long. Give him a tight hug. He had missed Ranboo so much not that he would ever tell the man that, keep him humble. But despite the sudden urge, his feet stayed planted in the spot he was standing.

  "Ranboo? You're...here?" Tommy asked to the enderman, softer than he wanted. "You remember me?"

  Ranboo started to grin, a couple tears falling down his face, burning him. "Of course I do!" He teleported to the blonde and wrapped his arms around him. Despite not wanting to give into the urge, Tommy pushed himself closer and returned the hug, wanting to make sure Ranboo was actually there and it wasn't some sick prank. However, Ranboo was actually there.

  "I missed you Tommy. I really did." Ranboo whispered.

  "I missed you too boob boy." Tommy replied, earning a smack on the head. "Owww! I just got here and you're already abusing me?! I thought you were better than that Ranboob."

  Ranboo sighed at Tommy's antics. Nothing he wasn't used to. "Whatever you say Tommy. But what are you doing here? You died again?"

  Tommy went quiet for a moment he replied in a accepting tone. "Yep. At least I knew it was happening this time."

  Ranboo went still at Tommy's words. Tommy couldn't see what his reaction was since he couldn't see his face. Ranboo was too fucking tall.

  "Tommy." Ranboo started. He seemed to be searching for the right words. "What the fuck do you mean by that?"

  Ranboo swearing caught Tommy off guard. Ranboo didn't swear that often, especially not as much as he did. He only did it in very emotional moments. Tommy searched for the right words, not wanting to upset his best friend right after they finally met again. "I just knew I was going to die. Last time it was quick and unexpected. This time it wasn't, I guess."

  "How did you know you were going to die?" Ranboo urgently pressed.

  It finally clicked why Ranboo was asking this. He thought that he killed himself.

  "Big man, I didn't kill myself. You worry too much. I distracted Dream and Punz in the prison as Tubbo let off his other nuke. Killing us all. That wasn't suicide, I just...sacrificed myself like the big man I am."

  Ranboo's face fell. "Tommy...that's suicide! Why did Tubbo agree to it?!"

  Tommy felt surprise for the 100th time today. "It is? Oh. I didn't fuckin know that."

  Ranboo sighed and held on tighter. "We can talk about it later. Just let me hold you for a bit."

  "Is Ranboob on his clingy arc?"

  Ranboo sighed again, swatting Tommy. "You and Tubbo are the clingiest people I've ever met. You can not talk."

  Tommy dramatically gasped. How could you boob boy! Both me and Tubbo are the biggest men alive! Only Tubbo is clingy!"

  'Whatever you say Tommy. Whatever you say."

  Despite the act Tommy was putting on, he really missed Ranboo. Tommy held on his friend slightly harder. Maybe things will be alright.