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nauseous desperation
,
and maybe something more.
Yuji always wanted to spend a night with Megumi. It started out as a small crush from when he first met him but after a few months of training, fighting and living together…
It was an obsession now is all he has to say for himself, at least he’s self-aware?
That was the only good thing about it. Although being ‘self-aware’ didn’t really help, it just made it worse. He would spend nights jerking off to pictures he secretly took of Megumi, it made him embarrassed how many times he came to a dumb photo.
He was ashamed to say the least but as the days passed, he found it harder to hold himself back. The way Megumi looked while in the Onsen Gojo took them to after a hard mission made Yuji himself hard. Pun intended.
Yuji snickered at his own joke while looking out the bus window.
Oh. That’s right, he was currently on a bus with the principal, Gojo, The second years and his classmates Nobara and Megumi. Why were they on a bus you ask?
Well, it was nearing the end of the first term for the school year and what better to do than have a field trip.
They were already halfway to their destination. He looked out the window to see an endless ocean. Which reminded him that they were going to the beach.
They were going on a field trip which would last three days on a resort that the school booked.
Thinking about eating all different kinds of food and hanging out with his friends and staying out past midnight and challenging the other class to games and Megumi-
“-Hey! Answer me you buffoon!”
Yuji blinked out of his daze suddenly and he looked up at Kugisaki who was yelling at him.
“Yeah? What is it?”
“Didn’t you hear what I just said?!”
She sounded annoyed and frustrated so he relented and apologized for zoning out.
“Geez no need to get angry, I'm sorry…”
Yuji said in an exasperated tone. Kugisaki huffed before repeating what she had said.
“I SAID me and Megumi are going to a temple near the mountains when we arrive. The second years and Gojo-sensei are going to the festival while the principal is staying at the reserve. Who do you want to go with?”
Yuji brought his hand up to his chin and pondered for a moment. A trip to the festival sounds amazing especially because of all the different types of food but - Mentioning Megumi hate’s crowds - Megumi wouldn’t want to go to a festival even if Yuji begged him to.
So, the answer was pretty obvious. And he hated sitting around so staying with principle Yaga was never a choice-
“Uh, yeah I guess I wanna go to the mountains. Sightseeing old temples sounds cool.”
Yuji said in a cheery tone like he always did.
He didn’t mention Megumi specifically because if he did then that would leave Kugisaki out and he still considered her his friend. He never wanted to make his friends uncomfortable.
-
After getting off the bus and unpacking their belongings in their respective rooms they all went their separate ways. Like Kugisaki stated, the principal was staying at the reserve while Gojo and the second years went down to town where the festival was being held.
Megumi, Nobara, and Yuji were thrown into a random guy's van who called himself a ‘professional monk’ and was going to guide them to the temples.
Meaning he was going to use Google GPS and drive them there.
After a very long and depressing -since the van had no windows- ride up the mountain, they finally arrived.
The tour guide started to explain different plants and the meanings behind them and how they relate to the God’s worshiped here. When they started walking up the stairs the one touring them started another one of his rambles.
“When we reach the path to the shrine, I must remind you to stay on the side of the path. There’s meaning behind that mind you, with how it respects the God’s worshipped here.”
Remind us? Yuji must’ve zoned out or something if he already said that . Or maybe he was paying too much attention elsewhere.
“Um, can you say how that respects them? Sorry bad memory.”
Yuji said with an apologetic tone, like a sorry puppy.
“Why weren’t you listening? Whatever, the reason it’s respectful is because only God’s are allowed to walk along the paths middle, mere mortals should stay to the side out of the spotlight.”
Yuji hummed thoughtfully at that although he was really paying attention to Megumi's and Kugisakis conversation.
“What do you mean? There aren’t any curse’s here!”
Kugisaki said with a slight fear in her tone, but mostly annoyance.
“I’m sure I can feel a presence around here somewhere.”
Megumi said back at her, looking around, his gaze lingering on the shadows of the forest. “Oh, hush with that! There aren’t any curse’s around here. This is a literal God’s territory so there’s no need to be afraid.” Kugisaki shot back at him, emphasizing the God part.
“Ah, you must be sensing the fae around here. They tend to linger in the shadows and watch the people that come to explore the temples.”
Looks like Yuji wasn’t the only one listening in.
The guide said, noticing Megumi’s discomfort and trying to put him at ease. Megumi hummed after that, thinking for a second and then talking.
“Why are there fae in this forest? Isn’t this a God’s territory?”
“Oh, these fae are willing servants to the God’s worshiped here. They say that they were forced into hiding due to harsh climates and the God’s descended upon the lands and cleared it which created Japan. The fae were grateful for the God’s that saved their kind so in turn they protect the sacred temples.”
“Oh, they sound cool. What do they look like?”
Kugisaki said as she stopped for a moment, looking around at the forest. They were halfway up the mountain, having climbed around 200 stairs already.
The view was gorgeous, and the group couldn’t help but stop with her to admire the setting sun and the pretty decorations on the city below.
“No one knows, they’re speculated to be Changelings but that’s just a popular theory.”
Kugisaki and the guide talked for a little bit as they took a short break from walking up the stairs. Meanwhile Megumi and Yuji talked about -with a lot of teasing from Yuji- Megumi's old school.
“What do you mean? I don’t know what you’re talking about…”
“C’mon! You were a buuully~ beating up all those people must’ve gotten you a lot of enemies.”
“...Gojo is rubbing off on you.”
Megumi said embarrassedly, looking away. Yuji snickered slightly at that, Gojo was rubbing off on him? Maybe, maybe not. It didn’t matter.
“Well then, how’s your sister doing?”
Yuji changed the topic, trying to seem like he cared about Fushiguros sister. when really, he was just trying to get closer to Megumi. He couldn't care less about anyone that wasn't him.
Megumi frowned at that before answering glumly.
“She’s still bedridden. It's been so frustrating… I don't know how to deal with this, ah, just never mind. Forget I said anything…”
Megumi realized he had too much, or what he thought was too much. Yuji lost his bubbly demeanor and turned to Megumi.
“Fushiguro… you don’t have to deal with the burden of something like this all on your own. Even talking to someone about this stuff can lift a lot of that weight off. Bottling things up is never the answer, y’know I'm always here to talk if you need it.”
Yuji offered gently. Megumi smiled a little turning to Yuji,
“Yeah, I trust you so if I wanna talk then… if it gets too heavy, I'll come to you.”
Yuji smiled brightly at Megumi, beaming at the fact that Megumi trusts him and that he’ll go to him if he wanted to. His heart fluttered when Megumi returned that smile. before jumping and nearly falling down the stairs -He was too shocked to notice he fell into Megumi's arms- when Nobara yelled to get a room.
“You too are seriously hopeless... Or maybe it's just you, Yuji .”
Yuji was unsure what Kugisaki muttered at the end but one thing he was sure of was that he was going to shrivel up and die if Megumi kept holding him. He let out a shaky breath - shuddering at Megumi's hand on his waist - then quickly apologized and got off Megumi.
He was still a little dazed from being held so intimately as they ascended up the mountain, going further up the stairs.
-
The rest of the trip went by in a breeze, Yuji was in a good mood from what Megumi said earlier, Nobara was interested in all this god lore, and Megumi was content knowing the fae wouldn’t hurt them.
By the time they got back it was around Ten O’ clock. Megumi wanted to go to sleep but Nobara and Yuji still wanted to hang out.
Besides, the principal was asleep and Gojo and the others weren’t back from the festival yet so why not have a little fun?
Yuji’s idea was to do scary 3AM type games but Kugisaki pointed out it wasn’t 3 am. She suggested going out into the woods to investigate these ‘fae’, but Megumi said it wasn’t a good idea looking for fights, the tour even said the fae wouldn’t attack them unless they posed a threat.
Megumi just wanted to sleep but the others protested. They ended up deciding to watch a scary movie and then play with a Ouija board. Because after the movie it would be around 1AM so close enough to 3AM right?
In the end, the movie was pretty boring and Megumi fell asleep halfway through the Ouija board game.
It wasn’t even worth starting because Gojo and the others came back black out drunk and interrupted it which the ‘spirits’ they were talking to were less than pleased about and left.
Yuji was angrily sitting in his bed, tossing and turning because of the events of today.
Although, when he thought of Megumi… how He held Yuji so gently when he fell, how softly spoken his words were when he said he trusted Yuji…
It calmed his nerves down, but another flame inside of Yuji flickered alive. It was a burning feeling, so warm in his chest it made him nauseous. Love, and maybe something more.
It spread heat throughout his body, making his limbs feel like Jello as they lay limply at his sides.
Deep in the night with only the wind as company he shuddered a breath, feeling a shiver go up his back as he thought of Megumi.
His body curled and squirmed on the satin sheets as he let his mind swirl around the boy with green eyes, the only boy that could make him squirm in desperation like this.
Yuji absentmindedly lifted one of his hands and dug into his night clothes, giving a choked gasp as his hand wrapped around his own cock.
He shut his eyes as his hand started to stroke himself like he had done a hundred times before, already hard.
A soft moan escaped him when he rubbed his slit, his hand massaging his length in the most tantalizing way possible. It made his hips jolt and buck as he let out desperate whimpers, jerking himself off with only one thing in mind. Megumi.
He rutted against his hand, twisting on the bedsheets in orgasmic ecstasy. His hands felt a little dry, so he raised one up to his mouth, lazily nipping at his own hand before spitting.
He felt the wet warmth of his hand, while it probably didn’t feel as good as the real thing it still was way better than rubbing one out dry. Pre-cum mixed with his saliva as the tip leaked from stimulation.
Yuji panted, head rolling back as his eyes unfocused. He arched and squeezed his length, making a choked sound escape him.
After a few minutes of quiet moans and a few whimpers he came on his hand. white hot cum spread around his pants and on his thighs which accurately represented the white-hot flash of pleasure he got.
After heaving some breaths, he groaned at the sticky feeling of his night clothes covered in bodily fluids.
That was going to be a pain to deal with…
Yuji thought as he sat up, the afterglow long gone after realizing Megumi wasn’t here with him. Sighing as he shuffled out of his pants, better get it done now rather than later.
Yuji opened his eyes when he heard Maki and Nobara fussing over something in the downstairs kitchen. He fell asleep around 2AM considering he had to clean some things up, the thought had him flushing lightly as he stood up.
He was in clean clothes so there was no need to think of such things, especially when he had only gotten 6 hours of sleep given it was around 8 in the morning.
Sighing as he headed downstairs, thinking about Megumi so much wasn’t good for him.
Once he entered the kitchen, he saw that they were having trouble because a rat was adamant about staying in the fridge. Really it wasn't a big deal, but girls will be girls he thought as he marched over there.
"Yuji! There's a rat in the fridge!" Kugisaki fussed as she waved a broom inside the fridge in a valiant attempt to get it out. Yuji gently side stepped her and grabbed the rat by its tail before throwing the little guy out a window.
That seemed to calm them down. Well now they were ignoring him and chatting to each other about what to do today. only two more days of this trip so they had to do something exciting.
Yuji didn't really care, all he cared about was spending time with Megumi. Speaking of him Yuji noticed a tired teenager with black spiky hair wobble downstairs.
If he wasn't awake from the rat thing he certainly was now, looking at Megumi made his stomach fill with nauseating butterflies.
"Good morning Fushiguro-Kun!"
Yuji said as he waved, smiling as Megumi tiredly waved back in a small acknowledgement. Really, even a small wave like that could make Yuji's day which was kind of pathetic if he thinks about it.
He averted his eyes as Megumi hobbled over to the fridge, he didn't want to be caught staring because that was weird, and Yuji wasn't weird.
At least, that's what he told himself.
He looked ahead from where he sat on the couch to the TV which was playing the weather broadcast for today. It looked like a sunny morning with a light shower around 5PM and cloudy for the rest of the day.
Yuji thought about what to do because the girls were right, they should do something exciting today.
Yuji watched as everyone slowly trickled downstairs, one by one the teachers and students woke up. Of course Gojo was the last one, coming downstairs at 10 O' clock on the dot.
And of course he had to have a big entrance with his first words being-
"Everyone! Listening up because I'm going to Explain the biiiiiiiiig scavenger hunt we're having today!"
Currently he was in the woods having lost his team mates because someone had eaten their compass.
That someone was Sukuna of course . Yuji was assigned to be with Inumaki and Panda for the scavenger hunt they were having. Of course he didn't fuss because he didn't want to seem like he was obsessed with Megumi, but he was still upset.
Besides that, they're goal was to find seven talisman before the other teams but got off track and lost in God knows where because Sukuna was feeling hungry!
He was in the middle of the woods, alone, and Inumaki and Panda were trying to find Gojo or the principal for help which left him by himself. Well, he never really was by himself.
"Hm, brat. So incompetent. Useless. Worthless~. You're really doing nothing while those little friends of yours are working hard to get a way out of this forest hm?"
Sukuna taunted from his cheek, sneering at Yuji while spouting insults. Yuji did his best to ignore him, but one thing caught his attention.
"I bet you're dreaming about being with that little Megumi-Chan right now. Imagine being All Alone with him right now . All the things you could do~."
"What are you talking about Sukuna? Why are you bringing him up..."
Yuji grumbled, he hated whenever Sukuna brought up Megumi.
"Oh? You hate it when I talk about him?"
And that, the fact that they can read each other's minds was creepy.
" You're the creepy one, always thinking lewd thoughts about Fushiguro. It's disgusting how detestable you can and will get in order to get what you want."
"I have no clue what the fuck you're saying right now."
"You know what I'm talking about, reader. It's the whole reason you're here after all. You sick fuck, You're the one who clicked on this just to read rape-"
"Hm, now that wasn't supposed to happen. forgive me reader for letting Sukuna do that...”
The world bent for a split second and rewound.
-And that, the fact that they can read each other's minds was creepy.
"Just think of all the things you could do with him~ just give in to that desire Yuji and all your problems will vanish."
Yuji scoffed before replying.
"Yeah, I sure hope you vanish when I fuck him so we can have some Goddamn privacy."
Sukuna rolled his eyes on Yuji's cheek before disappearing in his domain, mumbling something incoherent. Yuji sighed and stood up from the log he was sitting on.
He closed his eyes and took a deep breath. While he focused on his surroundings he noticed the sway of the tree leaves.
He noticed the gentle push and pull of natural cursed energy in the plants.
He noticed the buzzes of bugs around him.
He noticed the hundreds of eyes on him too.
Yuji shuddered and opened his eyes, looking around through the thick foliage. He didn’t see anything, as if they disappeared instantly. He shivered and looked up at the clear blue sky where the sun shone brightly.
They left around 12pm and lost the compass an hour ago. Toge and panda went looking for help around thirty minutes ago and told Yuji to stay put.
Which means it should be around 1:30-ish. He looked down at the backpack that had a few water bottles and space for the talisman. Except there wouldn’t be any need for that considering they lost the damn compass.
Yuji leaned over and grabbed the backpack, slinging it over his shoulder and heading in the direction panda and Inumaki went.
-
It took him a total of 3 hours to get to the edge of the forest, not mentioning the fact that he ended up on the opposite side of the meetup spot. And it also started raining half way through getting back which left him soaking wet.
Yuji heaved as he sat on the engawa, finally having made it back.
Gojo-sensei and Yaga were somewhere in the lounge area inside. Supposedly Toge and panda got back two hours earlier than him. Yuji sighed as he drank some cool water, the hot summer sun was still shining bright in the sky.
Yuji’s team was disqualified, and the others were still racing to get all the talisman.
Which left him all by his lonesome.
Even Sukuna was quiet.
It left him alone with his thoughts, which given what the curse inside him said earlier wasn’t good.
What Sukuna said earlier… Of course, Sukuna was just messing around, if Yuji actually attempted something like that on Fushiguro he’d probably be rejected. But there's this underlying feeling that something else was said in that conversation. something that no longer exists-
Besides, he doesn't want to force Megumi into anything either.
Yuji kicked his feet, bored with watching the trees sway occasionally to the wind. He could be doing more productive things right now, or at least more entertaining things.
Maybe a walk around the beach? Yeah, that sounds nice.
-
Yuji sighed as he felt the warm sand against his moist feet. He had been walking for a while now. The sun was just over the horizon, glittering on the ocean waves. Most of the others were already back but he just didn’t feel like going back inside.
So much so that he could see an approaching shadow user.
Yuji was sitting down when he noticed Megumi 20 feet away, he smiled warmly when Megumi said his name.
“Hey Yuji! You’ve been out here for a while.”
Megumi half yelled, still walking toward Itadori.
Yuji turned toward Megumi, beaming as always.
“Oh, Fushiguro, look at this sunset!”
Yuji said with glee as he kept his eyes on Megumi while the other looked at the ocean. Then there it was… that rare little smile that tugs at Fushiguros Zygomaticus major -a word he learned from principal Yaga- barely twitching.
Every time Yuji loved it, he felt warm and fuzzy when he saw it. It almost made him feel dizzy, and God his voice .
“It was a beautiful day, wasn’t it?”
Yuji wanted to believe the warm feeling was the only thing that was rising inside him, but it seemed Sukuna's words had more of an effect on him than he thought. Or, he told himself it was Sukuna, and Sukuna only.
Which is why he wasn’t going to blame himself for what happens next.
Yuji felt like it was hard to breathe, he felt dizzy with desire as he pounced on Megumi, which elicited a startled yelp from him. Fushiguro was shocked from the sudden outburst, not registering what Yuji was doing just yet.
Yuji panted a little, already rock hard. Man, he was fucking pent up . He was overwhelmed with desire, gripping Megumi's wrists quickly and pinning him down. Megumi sensed something was off, something was terribly, terribly amiss with Yuji.
He grunted, bucking and kicking to get out of Yuji's hold. Although he had the upper hand in knowledge, Yuji was the one with superior strength.
“Hey! What the hell are you doing?!”
Megumi screeched from underneath Yuji.
Yuji tore Megumi's pants off, fuck , this was gonna feel good.
Yuji knew he wasn’t thinking properly but that was future Yuji's problem. Right now though, he was about to get the sex of a lifetime.
Gojo walked through some of the bushes that were near the start of the beach, just before getting there he heard Megumi scream. How does he know it was Megumi? Because he knows that girly scream from a mile away.
Walking a little closer and hiding behind the trees he saw the scene and gasped. Staring a little, what was his precious students up too?
‘ Well, this is interesting.’ Gojo thought minutely,
before a sinister smile reached his lips, subconsciously reaching to get his phone.
Oh, he was totally gonna show the second years this.