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[PODFIC] There Is No Shortage Of Blood

Summary:

The long slow recovery of Bucky Barnes after his escape from HYDRA.

(And the longer, slower recovery of his sex life.)

 

(10/23- moved files to google drive since internet archive is in cyberspace purgatory)

Notes:

This story presupposes that the Winter Soldier was horrifically sexually abused during his captivity as a deliberate method of control, and recovering from that abuse and reclaiming his own sexuality is a lot of what this story is about; Bucky is not subject to such abuse from anyone in the present timeline of the story but he does run around making a lot of questionable choices about how to deal with what he's remembering and its aftereffects. Mistakes will be made.

Title is, naturally, from The Mountain Goats' "International Small Arms Traffic Blues."

Narrator's note:
I'll be adding five chapter at time on Sundays (hopefully?). Currently have all of act 1 and about a quarter of act 2 recorded. Takes me about three to four hours to record, edit and mix each chapter depending on how much I'm bawling my eyes out. Absolutely love this fic and have always wanted a podfic'd version. So I decided to just do it myself. Turns out, I'm very bad at podficing! If you hear my dog or cat in the background, I'm sorry. I tried to edit all their shenanigans out, but they are always up to no good so I'm sure I've missed some along the way. Also, I'm an Oklahoman by way of Missouri so I have terrible pronunciation and enunciation.
(five bowls of boiling oil....anyone? anyone?)

Chapter 1: CHAPTER ONE

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Music for this chapter: INTERNATIONAL SMALL ARMS TRAFFIC BLUES- THE MOUNTAIN GOATS

 

Spotify Playlist- There Is No Shortage Of Blood

 

 

CHAPTER ONE (archive) 

CHAPTER ONE (google drive)

 

 

 

 

Dira Sudis on Tumblr

 

Alby's original Tumblr post

 

>inserting internet prayers that the post links work< :p 

Chapter 2: CHAPTER TWO

Notes:

Original Authors Note:
Did you read the tags? Maybe read the tags again. Also I sure hope you like original characters.

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Music for this chapter: WITH THE DEVIL I'M GOING DOWN- STEELFEATHER

 

 

CHAPTER TWO (archive)

CHAPTER TWO (google drive)

 

Alby's original Tumblr post

Chapter 3: CHAPTER THREE

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Music for this chapter: 1984 - DAVID BOWIE

 

 

CHAPTER THREE (archive)

CHAPTER THREE (google drive)

 

Alby's original Tumblr post

Chapter 4: CHAPTER FOUR

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Music for this chapter: WE'LL MEET AGAIN- VERA LYNN

 

 

CHAPTER FOUR (archive)

CHAPTER FOUR (goggle drive)

 

Alby's original Tumblr post

Chapter 5: CHAPTER FIVE

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Music for this chapter: HERE COME THE MONSTERS- ADONA

 

CHAPTER FIVE (archive)

CHAPTER FIVE (goggle drive)

 

Alby's original Tumblr post

Chapter 6: CHAPTER SIX

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Music for this chapter: DON'T EVEN WORRY- BECCA MANCARI

 

 

CHAPTER SIX (archive)

CHAPTER SIX (goggle drive)

 

Alby's original Tumblr post

 

 

Chapter 7: CHAPTER SEVEN

Notes:

Original author's note:
So at some point I noticed that most of the terrible things in this story happen in odd-numbered chapters. Not every odd-numbered chapter, but... this one was definitely a data point.

(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)

Chapter Text

Music for this chapter: BOOGIE WOOGIE BUGLE BOY- THE ANDREWS SISTERS

 

 

(maybe grab some kleenax for this one)

CHAPTER SEVEN (archive)

CHAPTER SEVEN (goggle drive)

 

Alby's original Tumblr post

 

Notes:

Narrator's note:

I'm not crying- you're crying!

also narrator: that was a lie, we are all crying.

Chapter 8: CHAPTER EIGHT

Notes:

(See the end of the chapter for notes.)

Chapter Text

Music for this chapter: GNOSSIENNE NO. 1- ERIK SATIE // STILL HERE- TOM DAY

 

CHAPTER EIGHT (archive)

CHAPTER EIGHT (goggle drive)

 

Alby's original Tumblr post

 

Notes:

narrator:

"I did it to myself."

uglycry.jpg
I'm broken. I'm in pieces. Shattered.

Chapter 9: CHAPTER NINE

Notes:

(See the end of the chapter for notes.)

Chapter Text

Music for this chapter: WIND BLOOMS- ALTERED SIGH

 

CHAPTER NINE (archive)

CHAPTER NINE (goggle drive)

 

 

Alby's original Tumblr post

 

 

 

Notes:

narrator:
personally, Alby's art for this chapter is my favorite in this whole series. How do you capture so much variation of internalized emotions in one image? smh, it must be witchcraft. that's the only logical answer.

Chapter 10: CHAPTER TEN

Chapter Text

Music for this chapter: SUMMER RAIN- BLUE WEDNESDAY // NULL- DRONER

 

CHAPTER TEN (archive)

CHAPTER TEN (goggle drive)

 

Alby's original Tumblr post

 

Chapter 11: CHAPTER ELEVEN

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Music for this chapter: LAY LOW- SHOVELS AND ROPE

 

 

CHAPTER ELEVEN (archive)

CHAPTER ELEVEN (goggle drive)

Chapter 12: CHAPTER TWELVE

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Music for this chapter: DON'T STOP- FLEETWOOD MAC

 

 

CHAPTER TWELVE (archive)

CHAPTER TWELVE (goggle drive)

Chapter 13: CHAPTER THIRTEEN

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Music for this chapter: UNTIL THE LEVEE- JOY WILLIAMS

 

 

CHAPTER THIRTEEN (archive)

CHAPTER THIRTEEN (google drive)

Chapter 14: CHAPTER FOURTEEN

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Music for this chapter: AND YOU EVADE HIM/BORN IN THE BLOOD- JOSHUA BURNSIDE

 

 

CHAPTER FOURTEEN (archive)

CHAPTER FOURTEEN (google drive)

 

 

Alby's original Tumblr post

Chapter 15: CHAPTER FIFTEEN

Notes:

(See the end of the chapter for notes.)

Chapter Text

Music for this chapter: FIRST DAY OF MY LIFE- BRIGHT EYES // COMING HOME- EMILIE SCHIOTT

 

CHAPTER FIFTEEN (archive)

CHAPTER FIFTEEN (google drive)

Notes:

End of Act I!

Chapter 16: CHAPTER SIXTEEN

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Music for this chapter: JE TE LAISSERAI DES MOTS- PATRICK WATSON

 

 

CHAPTER SIXTEEN (archive)

CHAPTER SIXTEEN (google drive)

 

Alby's original Tumblr post

 

Chapter 17: CHAPTER SEVENTEEN

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Music for this chapter: HAYLING- FC KAHUNA

 

CHAPTER SEVENTEEN (archive)

CHAPTER SEVENTEEN (google drive)

Chapter 18: CHAPTER EIGHTEEN

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Music for this chapter: COAST- GONE GONE BEYOND

 

CHAPTER EIGHTEEN (archive)

CHAPTER EIGHTEEN (google drive)

Chapter 19: CHAPTER NINETEEN

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Music for this chapter: Я найду тебя через века (I WILL FIND YOU THROUGH CENTURIES)- BASTA 

 

CHAPTER NINETEEN (archive)

CHAPTER NINETEEN (google drive)

Chapter 20: CHAPTER TWENTY

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Music for this chapter: MOONLIGHT SERENADE- GLENN MILLER

 

CHAPTER TWENTY (archive)

CHAPTER TWENTY (google drive)

 

Alby's original Tumblr post got eaten but here's the repost

and unfortunately, since the original is post gone I had to direct link this image from the embedded image in the fic. hope that won't cause a glitch idk how internet works. I just work here. 

 

 

Chapter 21: CHAPTER TWENTY ONE

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Music for this chapter: MAKE ME FEEL- ELVIS DREW

 

 

CHAPTER TWENTY ONE (archive)

CHAPTER TWENTY ONE (google drive)

Chapter 22: CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO

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Music for this chapter: ARE YOU WITH ME- NILU // LOVELY-BLEEDINGXHEART

 

CHAPTER TWENTY TWO (archive)

CHAPTER TWENTY TWO (google drive)

Chapter 23: CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE

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Music for this chapter: TIME LAPSE- LUDOVICO EINAUDI

 

 

CHAPTER TWENTY THREE (archive)

CHAPTER TWENTY THREE (google drive)

Chapter 24: CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR

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Music for this chapter: SPIRITEAUX- TONY ANDERSON

 

 

CHAPTER TWENTY FOUR (archive)

CHAPTER TWENTY FOUR (google drive)

 

Alby's original Tumblr post

 

 

Chapter 25: CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE

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Music for this chapter: LION- SAINT MESA

 

CHAPTER TWENTY FIVE (archive)

CHAPTER TWENTY FIVE (google drive)

Chapter 26: CHAPTER TWENTY SIX

Notes:

(See the end of the chapter for notes.)

Chapter Text

Music for this chapter: BONES- WENS

 

CHAPTER TWENTY SIX (archive)

CHAPTER TWENTY SIX (google drive)

 


Apologies again, friends. Tumblr ate this post as well, so I'm pulling the art from the original embedded in the main fic. 

https://artgroves.tumblr.com/


Notes:

we're gonna start earning our tags folks. use that information as you wish.

Chapter 27: CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN

Notes:

(See the end of the chapter for notes.)

Chapter Text

Music for this chapter: THE WALLS ARE CLOSING IN/ HANGMAN- THE PRETTY RECKLESS

 

CHAPTER TWENTY SEVEN (archive)

CHAPTER TWENTY SEVEN (google drive)

Notes:

The Latin in the end song is Elegy by Chidiock Tichborne. worth a google.

Chapter 28: CHAPTER TWENTY-EIGHT

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Music for this chapter:  WE'LL NEVER HAVE SEX- LEITH ROSS

 

CHAPTER TWENTY EIGHT (archive)

CHAPTER TWENTY EIGHT (google drive)

Chapter 29: CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE

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Music for this chapter: DARKSIDE- OSHINS & HAEL

 

CHAPTER TWENTY NINE (archive)

CHAPTER TWENTY NINE (google drive)

Chapter 30: CHAPTER THIRTY

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Music for this chapter: DOWN- SIMON & TRELLA

 

CHAPTER THIRTY (archive)

CHAPTER THIRTY (google drive)

Chapter 31: CHAPTER THIRTY ONE

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Music for this chapter: TANTUM ERGO- QUEEN OF THE APOSTLES

 

 

CHAPTER THIRTY ONE (archive)

CHAPTER THIRTY ONE (google drive)

 

Chapter 32: CHAPTER THRITY TWO

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Music for this chapter: LOST IT ALL- JILL ANDREWS

 

CHAPTER THIRTY TWO (archive)

CHAPTER THIRTY TWO (google drive)

Chapter 33: CHAPTER THIRTY THREE

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Music for this chapter: DARK SIGNS- SLEEP TOKEN

 

CHAPTER THIRTY THREE (archive)

CHAPTER THIRTY THREE (google drive)

 

 

https://www.tumblr.com/artgroves

Chapter 34: CHAPTER THIRTY FOUR

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Music for this chapter: ELEONARAS TRAUME- OSKAR SCHUSTER

 

CHAPTER THIRTY FOUR (archive)

CHAPTER THIRTY FOUR (google drive)

Chapter 35: CHAPTER THIRTY FIVE

Notes:

Quick update: This week's update is postponed until next weekend. It's back to school weekend here and I've ended up quite a bit busier than I anticipated! I'll be back with the regular schedule on 8/18. :)

8/18 update: i accidently just deleted chapter 35 and am absolutely not sobbing rn. I'm gonna have to re-record it and i don't want to post 36-39 and then go back to 35. so, >Bernie Sanders meme< I am once again asking for your support ....while i re-record 35 (T_T)

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MUSIC FOR THIS CHAPTER: MY SILVER LINING- FIRST AID KIT

 

CHAPTER THIRTY FIVE (archive)

CHAPTER THIRTY FIVE (google drive)

Chapter 36: CHAPTER THIRTY SIX

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MUSIC FOR THIS CHAPTER: I'LL FOLLOW YOU INTO THE DARK- DEATH CAB FOR CUTIE

 

CHAPTER THIRTY SIX (archive)

CHAPTER THIRTY SIX (google drive)

Chapter 37: CHAPTER THIRTY SEVEN

Notes:

(See the end of the chapter for notes.)

Chapter Text

MUSIC FOR THIS CHAPTER: JORDAN- ROANOKE

 

CHAPTER THIRTY SEVEN (archive)

CHAPTER THIRTY SEVEN (google drive)

Notes:

school being back in session has thrown a bit of a wrench into my recording schedule, so my output will likely be a bit off from my five-chapter posting goal. But, other than this week's mishap (with my inability to pay attention to when and where I delete a master file) I'm still keeping to the Sunday updates.
;)

Chapter 38: CHAPTER THIRTY EIGHT

Notes:

(See the end of the chapter for notes.)

Chapter Text

Music for this chapter: DANGEROUS- BIG DATA

 

CHAPTER THIRTY EIGHT (archive)

CHAPTER THIRTY EIGHT (google drive)

Notes:

I have been dying to use this song for AGES!

Chapter 39: CHAPTER THIRTY NINE

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Music for this chapter: DON'T DESERVE YOU - PLUMB

 

CHAPTER THIRTY NINE (archive)

CHAPTER THIRTY NINE (google drive)

Chapter 40: CHAPTER FOURTY

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Music for this chapter: FISTFIGHT- THE BALLROOM THIEVES 

 

CHAPTER FOURTY (archive)

CHAPTER FOURTY (google drive)

Chapter 41: CHAPTER FOURTY ONE

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Music for this chapter: IN HELL I'LL BE IN GOOD COMPANY- THE DEAD SOUTH

 

CHAPTER FOURTY ONE (archive)

CHAPTER FOURTY TWO (google drive)

Chapter 42: CHAPTER FOURTY TWO

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Music for this chapter: Судно - Молчат Дома

 

CHAPTER FOURTY TWO (archive)

CHAPTER FOURTY TWO (google drive)

Chapter 43: CHAPTER FOURTY THREE

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Music for this chapter: WHAT LOVE - I DON'T KNOW HOW BUT THEY FOUND ME

 

CHAPTER FOURTY THREE (archive)

CHAPTER FOURTY THREE (google drive)

Chapter 44: CHAPTER FOURTY FOUR

Summary:

transported all the tracks to google drive since internet archive is in cyberspace purgatory. I can't even log in to my account at this point. :( maybe one day we'll get it back. til then, it's daddy Google i guess.

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Music for this chapter: NIGHTMARE (LIVE- FRITZ SESSIONS) - HALSEY

 

CHAPTER FOURTY FOUR (google drive)

Chapter 45: CHAPTER FOURTY FIVE

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Music for this chapter: WORDS - STOREFRONT CHURCH, PHOEBE BRIDGERS

 

CHAPTER FOURTY FIVE (google drive)

Chapter 46: CHAPTER FOURTY SIX

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Music for this chapter: TONIGHT, TONIGHT - THE SMASHING PUMPKINS

 

CHAPTER FOURTY SIX (google drive)

Chapter 47: CHAPTER FOURTY SEVEN

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Music for this chapter: TONGIHT AND THE REST OF MY LIFE- NINA GORDON

 

CHAPTER FOURTY SEVEN (google drive)

Chapter 48: CHAPTER FOURTY EIGHT- FIFTY ONE

Notes:

No music this time, because, reasons. However, I am very very close to the finish line so unpolished is better than never posted. right? It's ok, you can tell me to get it in gear. My discipline for working on this has gone out the window. How do authors manage these long fics? Their discipline must be incredible. Respect, honestly.