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Ah the sun is set. Finally all the footsteps are far gone, they left. I struggle to stand up and scatter for my clothes. ugh, they always have to rip them off, the buttons are nowhere to be seen. Hope I still have some left back home.
I take a look at my underwear. yeah I'm not wearing that again, no matter how many times I said I won't scream they still have to shove it in my mouth. I pull on my pants, endure the cold and sticky when it rolls down my legs then stick to the pants, never gonna be familiar with this. Then after checking if I have collected all my books, I walk back home.
People around spare me glances, some don't even bother cause they are used to seeing me like this. I use my sleeve to clean the blood coming out my face but it just smears it all over my face, good enough. the nose is broken anyway, I don't want to make it worse.
I almost walk past my home, then stumble back, even after 15 years I still haven't gotten used to that new name. ah does that man leave groceries on my front porch again? I look at the bag of food blocking my way. For years a man who claimed to know my dad kept dropping food here, appreciated it a lot but it also made me feel kinda guilty. After all... I'm nobody's child
*meow*
I flinch and then look over, it's a calico cat. I usually walk by my house but I only see it once or two every few months, it never asks for food, just stands there and looks at me almost like it checking on me. I bend down and pat it a little before bringing the groceries inside, oh this is freshly dropped! that's when I noticed, besides groceries there are another bag, the way of packing is different so it's not from the same person. I bring it in too, ah it's heavy.
I put the stuff on the table then go in the bathroom to fix myself. Ah a tooth fell off, my eyes haven't fully healed but already blacked again, I'll get to it later now I keep choking on my blood every breath, I need to fix my nose first. heavy injuries like this happen to me every day so allegedly I start to teach myself to become a doctor.
After done my daily routine, it was already nighttime. I have dinner with the most amazing invention of human history (to me) cup noodles! I sat back on the bed and sniffed the amazing broth, ah I felt like living again. A nosebleed drop in the cup... no matter how much I sneeze out it always still that cursefull drop. I'm too used to it to notice. I take a bite and enjoy the heaven. light out.
And they say they'll handle the lights... To repay for my dad's life when he served in war, the government surely promised to provide for me till I graduated. at first, they sure did try, they sent the policeman who found me to take care of me, but some incident happened and he is out of the picture. Then they switched to providing me food and money but as time passed, they started to send less and less till none. Now since I do not need to pay for my electricity and water, my house automatically cut out at rush hour to prevent blackouts in the local area
I stare at the selling in boredom. No light means no entertainment... Ah! I then remember the mysterious package beside the groceries. I wonder what could it be... open it up and it's comic, there are more than twenty of them in here. Bungo stray dogs? what kind of name is that? I have never read comics, stuff like that isn't in the library. That policeman says he likes these...
I open it up and read it under the moonlight.
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what the hell is this masterpiece!!! it's so good!
to be honest, I was hoping for a touching story of the stray dogs being abandoned by their master or something but it's not! well I mean it's if you look at it from a certain angle. I have been reading 15 volumes of it without any breaks. It's 4 am and the noodles are cold and stiff now, maybe people don't take this much time just to finish 15 volumes but I like to savor it slowly. I reread each panel for minutes, try to figure out the intentions behind each expression, it's fun.
I felt bad for the Atsushi boy, his emotions are fascinating, if I hadn't accidentally found my dad's body, I might end up in the same fate as him. predicting everyone's actions and solving cases with them is fun and easy, except... that Dazai Osamu guy, is much more difficult, I can't think faster than him, just at the same speed and it pisses me off a lot. I forgot how competitive I am. ah Ranpo is a monster I won't touch him
I lay on the bed and hugged the books to myself, it felt so refreshing. people around me are like walking potatoes, speak like a fool, act like a fool and judge like a fool, well it's my fault for showing my card first...
I was so sickened by their stupidity to the point I countless times thought of 'changing' them myself, but in his words it's a 'bad' thing to do... Well just three more days I'll graduate then I can get out of the government's eyes and be free, I have endured my whole life it won't be hard to stay still for a few more days.
I took another chapter and prepared to read but then I felt so heavy on my eyelid. I black out
Ah... the sun rises, I dozed off huh? that's strange I've never done that before. sigh time to get ready for school, I stand up and put away the volumes in the drawers... but I really want to continue reading... I'll bring them to school. I put some of the remaining volumes in the bags, combed the hair roughly and ran to school.
I felt tired, maybe I got a little fever today, not to mention my heart was beating strangely fast, even when running it never that fast. I felt like fainting by the time I arrived at school, I'm weirdly weak today, I gotta be because I barely touched the noodles last night, I gotta finish it when I get home.
I lay flat on the table, ignoring all the words written on it, I couldn't care less anymore, maybe it's the same thing like 'freak' 'cheater' 'kill yourself self' bla bla bla, these people are cowards so this is the most they would do... I was only bothered about those upper classmates from yesterday. I fell asleep to pass the time
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*RING!!!!*
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woah ok class time, Wait it's lunchtime? I barely open my eyes, did no one call me up? ah right who would. well then lunchtime, I should find something to eat. But somehow I don't feel like eating anything, I feel cold... maybe I'll skip, I still have a full cup of noodles waiting for me at home, it would be as good as new if I just poured the water in again.
I go back to sleep.
I got knocked over by a kick. agh... schools out? what's wrong with me today, I look up at the familiar group of people, ah it's their time again. I struggle to stand up but then fall right back down. I vomit out, there is nothing in my belly so It's just acid.
Today has been very strange... Weak, fever, irregular heartbeat, Drowsi, confusion, loss of appetite, chills, Nausea and vomiting... It all comes together now. I touch my belly. My organs are failing...
I'm dying.