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Remy sighs as he was back at his apartment slamming his door shut, as tears welled in his eyes he shook his head and headed for the shower. Slowly getting undressed ashamed to even look at himself in the mirror as he let his eyes land on His rubber ducky cast to the side for when he was little.
His hands startled to shake when he setting his glasses down with more force than needed feeling as if he was not even in control of his body. He got in after setting the water to boiling hot feeling sick, how could Emile not under stand that he called the safe word.
Was he just a attention whore like daddy said he even tried to let Tommy in on the fun but his daddy only looked at Tommy.
As he felt hot tears run down his face Did His daddy not love him any more was it because his hole was not as tight as Tommy’s ?
All these thoughts started to run through his head not registering how hard he was scrubbing his body,almost raw to the touch to get rid of the feeling that Tommy had left him.
He knew the baby needed more attention that’s why he stayed big so little tommy would be cared for.
But had Emile just lost interest in him? Was that what this was about, he was staying in the shower even after the water got cold.
The smallest hint of a smile when he was daddy’s only Baby, how he was cared for and treated.
Not knowing that once Tommy was there he would be cast aside.
Once he got out of the shower the pain of how hard he scrubbed set it it felt like when daddy used the paddle on him but this time not in a good way.
When he made his way into the kitchen of the small apartment reaching for a bottle of wine trying to pour it in the glass but was to stressed causing him to spill the wine on the floor and losing his grip on the cup it shattered and cut his leg as it fell.
The tears started once more as he slid down with the wall helping him griping his hair and tugging overwhelmed and missing his daddy his shaky voice called out like a small child “daddy I needs helps! Daddy help me! “ his voice .
He let out a loud wail not being able to stand to far gone in little space he forced himself to crawl to his room and just lays there holding a pink bear plushie that daddy had got him knowing Emile won’t come back for him to busy with tommy