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The three of them are planets, revolving constantly around a sun, one person. They never get too close but are always there feeling the sun's warmth. When this whole thing between Yoongi, Namjoon, Hoseok, and Taehyung started it was supposed to be casual, the first three already being in a committed relationship, but they tumbled into this explosive fling with Tae that leaves all of them breathless. All of them always walk out of there sated, happy, and together, all three of the older males, but leaving behind a heartbroken young man, but things as unstable as theirs aren’t meant to last forever, it's time for someone to fall out of orbit.

For Namjoon it was slow, a thought a day turning to two to three and then to thousands. What is Tae doing now? Has he eaten? He would like this movie, or this book, or this coffee, I should call him. Then being snapped back to reality, and the reality is Tae isn’t his but Hobi and Yoongi are so he should be satisfied, should be content.

For Hoseok it was fast, missing Tae. From the second they walked away it's always missing Tae. The thoughts plaguing his mind, why can’t we stay, why can’t he come, why can I not have them all. He was genuinely confused as to why, if he had this much love inside of him, why couldn’t he give it to someone else.

For Yoongi it was simple. He loved his boyfriends and will always love his boyfriends, but Tae was the sun. Tae was the sort of person that inspired hundred-years old sonnets and paintings that are hung in museums. For Yoongi Taehyung was art personified, a song, the tune stuck in your head, and God does Yoongi love music, God does Yoongi love Tae, but he can’t have him. Taehyung is a song you hear on the radio, fleeting and not yours to keep, to enjoy while it plays but you aren’t allowed to replay that song.

These three men, always on the same page of a book. All of them tuned to the same station on the radio. All of them dancing to the same beat, yet not realising they are together in their wants, leaving Taehyung behind, who shares their same desires, to think of himself as temporary.

Taehyung waits for them every Friday, dressed up and ready for a weekend of happiness that will vanish by Sunday afternoon. Not knowing how much longer of this arrangement his heart can take. Not knowing how much longer he can deal with being left behind. They will come together like the three whirlwinds they are, give him the happiest 48 hours of his week, and then leave together, leave him when all he wants is for them to stay. Taae can’t do this anymore, today they will either have to stay and never come back.

The doorbell rang twice, as it always does, and Tae gets up from his couch to get the door. The first person he sees is Hoseok who tries to great him with an enthusiastic kiss, but Tae turns his face to the side making the kiss into a cheek peck. Taehyung walks into his apartment leaving them behind at the door to take their shoes off. The three men at the door stay behind confused at the young brunettes attitude. When they walk into the living room Taehyung is waiting for them on the couch dressed as impeccable as always, but with a frown on his face and his arms closed over his chest, closing himself off.

“Please sit down guys, I think we have to talk.” says Taehyung, not meeting any of their gaze, staring at the wood grain of his coffee table like it had offended him.

“Tae whats wrong?” questions Hobi while taking a seat. Frown on his face out of place and warping the ever present smile the man always wears.

Namjoon and Yoongi don't say anything but take a seat next to Hobi on the couch, facing Taehyung on the loveseat, waiting with bated breath for Taehyung to speak.

With a deep breath Taehyng finally speaks.

“I have a lot to say and I don't know if I will ever get the nerve to say anything again but I know it's going to keep killing me inside if I don't so I need you all to be quiet and listen until I’m done talking.”

They all nod so Taehyung continues.

“The past few months have been some of the best months of my life and also some of the worst. When we all met I couldn't believe my luck, that the three most amazing men I’ve ever met in my life wanted to be with me, that they wanted me even if just physically. So i deluded mys;ef and convinced myself into thinking that I could keep a physical relationship with you guys and not get emotionally involved. I can’t do this anymore.”

“Tae..” Yoongi started, needing to stop the break up he was sure was about to happen, I mean is it even a break up if they are not together?

“Let me finish please, I can’t do this anymore. I can’t pretend that you guys walking out of that door every weekend doesn't break my heart every time. I am not a casual person, never have been, but I want you guys so bad that every weekend I'd dress up for you only to have you leave me in this room. I would pour myself a glass of whiskey because it tastes like your kisses, bitter and strong, and then I'd bite my tongue and try my best not to call after you, knowing I can't have you when you could have anyone you want. So I can't do this, I’m ripping myself to shreds and I can’t anymore” by the end of his speech Tae’s voice was wrecked with held back sobs, and the three older men watched this young man they all fell for fall apart in front of them.

Namjoon couldn’t let this happen, knew that he had to come clean about his feelings even if he ended up walking out of that room alone.

“Tae, I love you. I don’t know if it happened when we first met or if it happened when we first got together, all i know is that i love you, and i love Hobi and i love Yoongi, and i know its selfish of me to want all of you but i do, on;y you could make me want to add more to our relationship. Every weekend I come back with the hope that maybe one of these days we just don’t have to leave.”

When Hoseok heard his longtime boyfriend speak those words he knew he had to come clean.

“I love you as well Tae, have from the second you looked at us after the first month with the biggest smile id ever seen in my life because you burnt breakfast. From the second I looked at you and saw a galaxy in your eyes that i wanted to get lost in forever.”

Hearing his two boyfriends proclaim their love for another person should've made Yoongi jealous but he felt like his heart was going to burst with joy. A rare gummy smile escaped him as he spoke his truth.

“Taehyung you are the most magnificent human I've ever met in my life, you are everything good I love about Hobi and Joon, plus more because you are you. I never thought I would fall for another person having already fallen for the two amazing men next to me but then you came along and proved me wrong with your sweetness and with how good you are, no one else could’ve made me fall this hard this fast so I think we're all on the same page and we do have to talk about this more but if you want us to stay all you have to do is ask.”

The men looked upon their boy with the most genuine love you will ever see in anyone's eyes, a blinding affection.

Tae meanwhile couldn't believe what he was hearing, unable to stop his tears as he looked at the three keepers of his heart.

“You say I’m the only one who could make you change your mind about adding another person to your relationship, but why were you always running and leaving?” Tae asked not willing to give himself hope just yet.

“I think I speak for all of us when I say, we thought you didn't want us to stay, and at the same time we were not honest with each other, we have a lot to sort through Tae but believe me when I say we love you.” Namjoon spoke with such honesty that Taehyung finally let himself believe.

He got up off the couch and ran to his, hopefully soon, boyfriends. All of them falling into the couch in a mess of limbs and comfort consoling their boy. Were things perfect? No, but they were as close to perfect as they could be in this room. Conversations will happen and they will figure it out but for now they stayed. Forever they stayed, and became a solar system.