Ninth Building
By Jingzhi Zou and Jeremy Tiang
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Jingzhi Zou
Zou Jingzhi is highly regarded in China as a fiction writer, poet, essayist, screenwriter, and playwright. He is a founding member of the Chinese theatre collective Longmashe. As a screenwriter, the films he wrote for Zhang Yimou and Wong Kar Wai have been well received at film festivals across the world. His plays and operas have been performed in China as well as internationally, and his poems and essays have been very influential, going into multiple reprints.
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Ninth Building - Jingzhi Zou
INTRODUCTION
Dreaming, waking, sunrise, time to get up. The person in the dream was a bit different to the person I am now, but I think it was me. I try to go back but can't.
From childhood till now, I've spoken many bold words. Publicly or in private, I've proclaimed the kind of person I wanted to be, though it never happened in the end. I feel like someone has somehow taken my place, leaving me to become the person I am now.
When I'm around too many people, I lose myself. In an unfamiliar city, among crowds of strangers, I keep having to stand still—not to ask directions, but to find myself. Even when I've done that, I'm still lonely, so I head back to my hotel and listen to the sound of rain.
Apart from my mortal body, I carry around a compilation of shadows, leaving one behind everywhere I go. The other day, I went to admire some flowers, when a shadow abruptly stepped out from behind a magnolia tree of a decade ago. It was me. We looked at each other, speechless. The trees hadn't changed, the flowers hadn't changed, the springtime hadn't changed, but when I looked at myself, I saw a stranger.
I went to a gathering where I only knew a few people. Picked a corner to sit alone. Shortly afterwards, someone in the same plight joined me for a chat. We grew animated. Meanwhile, the real me also sat in that corner, watching this babbling self and loathing him.
Other people are always borrowing me. My wife says, It's sunny today, come to the mall with me—I want to buy socks.
Yes, dear. Then I have to leave myself at home for three hours, to await my return.
While waiting for my daughter to be born, I laid siege to the delivery room. Suddenly, there was a thunderous howl. Definitely my child. I looked through the glass at the infant, who stared back at me. A moment of recognition.
I look at old photos of myself when I was simple and pure as the sky above me. After a while, both of us begin to weep, and it's hard to say which era of our lives was better. All time will vanish. No more looking at pictures, that other me doesn't want his heartstrings tugged at either.
Reading Zhang Ruoxu's poem Springtime River Moonlit Night, Who first saw the moon from this riverbank? When did the river moon first shine upon a person?
The man on the riverbank turns to glance at me, and the strangeness in that gaze is chilling.
I walk alone through snowy plains. I could laugh or sob or sing or curse or fall silent or sprint or roll across the ground. In an instant, many selves appear, like a carnival crowd. At the same time, people appear in the distance and engulf me. And there I am gaping blankly, standing between white snow and blue sky, snot streaming from my nose.
My hand grips a pen and the pen writes words. When I'm done, another me springs from my heart to read it over and say it's all lies. Why am I lying to myself? Good question. Really good question.
I buy books and don't read them, or I do but actually I'm listening to people chat outside my window, to wind and trees and ghosts and rain. Whap! The book smacks my head as I doze off.
A beautiful woman passes by. I look, I don't look, I'm in a state of looking and not looking. As for her, she both displays and doesn't display contempt for me.
Late at night, I stare mindlessly at a lone star. After some time, I feel that I've always been ancient, or perhaps that was a past life. The wind tugs at my sleeves. Someone is very close to me. I shut my eyes, so I don't have to see who it is.
A fever. I float over the edge of a cliff and startle awake. Float some more. Jerk awake again. Why always these terrifying scenarios? To put myself in a cold sweat. It's a way of helping myself. If I weren't able to do that, I'd drift till I hit bottom, finally, the most terrifying word that goes unsaid.
Part One
NINTH BUILDING
Prologue
Ninth Building was the building I lived in as a child. It’s been demolished now, and on the same plot they built a bigger, taller Ninth Building. My words only concern the previous incarnation.
Before the block disappeared, I went back to take some pictures of it. A place I spent my early years. With its vanishing, there'd be no traces left of my childhood.
In the second half of 1996, after the demolition, I began writing these words, producing a first draft of over a hundred thousand characters. I edited four of these stories into shape, and they were published in 1997, along with a few other pieces in journals. In the summer of 1999, I started editing a dozen more in fits and starts, which still left half the manuscript untouched. I originally wrote this book with the idea that by putting them on paper, these past events would release their hold on me. Instead, it felt as if I’d cemented their grip. Having written them out simply made their shadowing more visible.
That’s why I edited this manuscript below, then left it alone. To me, publishing these words is essentially me sharing my treasured childhood with others. But childhood cannot be shared. Her secret parts must remain eternally secret. Even if you try to recall it with your whole heart and mind, you'd find it hard to go back in.
Eight Days
November 16, 1966
Freezing today—it feels extra cold, because the weather’s just turned. At least it’s warm at home, with the heating finally on. In the morning, we sat by the courtyard wall, the south-facing corner with the piles of loose soil and torn paper, the only patch untouched by the wind.
By we
I mean myself, Zheng Chao, Zheng Xin and Yuan-qiang.
Yuanqiang said the others had formed a unit and got Red Guard armbands printed with the official insignia. Now they were occupying an entire block at the school. At night they shoved the desks together and slept on them. They’d written slogans across the white classroom walls and even the toilets. While correcting Teacher Hou’s thinking, they struck up a chant that Tian Shuhua devised: Ho ho, Monkey Hou, holds a ball in her hole. Smile, monkey, drop the ball.
Teacher Hou teaches Chinese. I saw her recently, standing by the second-story staircase. No one was paying any attention to her. As I walked past, she was singing a song about a sad maiden, something to do with resisting the Japanese.
I had a strange feeling that when she was done singing, she’d plummet to the ground. I waited, but she didn’t jump. Her son sat at the other end of the corridor, pretending to play but really watching her. She once praised me for having talent. (I should delete that last sentence—too bourgeois!)
After talking about it all morning, we decided to form a unit of our own. Yuanqiang said there was a place to print armbands near Caishikou, past a place called Dazhi Bridge. There were many gangsters in that neighborhood; last time the guys were there, they got mugged and lost three yuan. Zheng Xin said he’d bring a carving tool with him. It wasn’t a knife, but it was still sharp enough to slice open a face. I felt heartened by his words.
We prepared to set off the next day, as soon as the grownups left for work. We pooled our money and came up with five yuan, one of them mine.
November 17
Today, we took the number one bus to Xidan. I was the only one who had a ticket, the other three slipped on without one. I did too, but spent the whole journey fretting and in the end bought one just before getting off. What an idiot!
From Xidan we headed south, growing anxious as we neared Dazhi Bridge. I put my hand in my trouser pocket, which held a weight from a set of scales—hopefully this would be hefty enough to dent a gangster’s head. It sat cold and heavy in my pocket. I couldn’t warm it. Zheng Xin whistled as he strolled, a hand inside his jacket. The carving tool he held was our heartbeat.
The event we feared never happened. The wind was so strong we had to jog along.
Past Dazhi Bridge, we walked into a rope shop to ask directions to the fabric-printing place. The old man told us where, some hutong or other.
This was the first time I smelled dye. We detected it some distance away. Later, I learned this was the odor of yellow. Each color had its own scent. Yellow’s reminded me of illness.
A young lady served us. She reminded me of Liu Naiping’s older sister from Door Three, who’d worn a red swimsuit the one time I went swimming with her. I believed then that only female college students should be called young ladies, and even then, only ones like Zoya. Liu Hulan didn’t resemble one, nor did Zhu Yingtai, nor did my own sister.
She wore a face mask, only revealing her eyes, but I could tell when she was smiling. All four of us were a little tense, a little awkward.
We ordered twenty-one armbands, four inches wide with gold lettering, twenty cents each. That was as many as we could afford—I think she realized that.
As she wrote out our receipt, the kettle on the stove behind her began bubbling, zrr, zrr. The room was draped with pennants displaying various words and pictures, the bright red fabric bearing down on us from all four walls.
I thought of the illustration of d’Artagnan kneeling to kiss the queen in The Three Musketeers. The queen’s feet were invisible beneath her long dress, her hand on her puffed-out skirt, d’Artagnan’s lips just touching her fingertips. I always felt this was something I’d do when I was grown up. (Strike this paragraph—too bourgeois.)
She smiled and asked if we’d like to have a look at the workshop. We said yes.
The room she led us into had liquid sloshing across the floor. The workers glanced at us. I didn’t understand what was going on. The printed cloths were still sodden red, and on each of them were the words Red Guards,
over and over, covered with a layer of rice chaff. She explained that this protected the color. The chaff was removed when the cloth had dried, leaving an even brighter yellow.
It was noon and we had nothing to eat, so she shared her packed lunch with us. She’d brought it from home and left it on the stove to keep warm. It contained just rice, cabbage and tofu. Not much of a meal.
By the time we left, she still hadn’t taken off her face mask. She was very neat. We hadn’t had a chance to see what she looked like.
Nothing went wrong on the bus home. We slipped aboard through the doors on either side, saving the fare—we’d spend that on our return trip to pick up the armbands.
Before we said goodbye, Yuanqiang asked me if I could guess the young lady’s family background. I had no idea. He said, Probably capitalist. I asked why. He said, Didn’t you see how beautiful she was, also she was wearing a face mask—afraid of the stench of the dye. That made sense.
November 19
More and more people are wearing Red Guard armbands in the street, and ours aren’t ready yet. During the day we’re at Zheng Chao’s place. We don’t want to go out—too conspicuous without armbands. Something might have happened to Zheng Chao and Zheng Xin’s father. I saw him in the boiler room carrying heavy radiators, but the two of them didn’t say a word about him.
November 20
Zheng Chao and Zheng Xin’s dad is in real trouble.
We stayed home this morning, desperate for our armbands to be ready so we could rise up and maybe even denounce our parents. My older brother stuck a big poster on the wall: Revolution is not wrong, rising up is correct.
The atmosphere at home is a bit tense.
November 21
Two more days …
November 23
On the bus this morning, we all got caught by the ticket inspector. She wanted to take us to Central Station. We were all shaking, then so many people got on at Wangfujing that we managed to slip away. Too scared to try another bus, we walked all the way to Caishikou.
We picked up our twenty-one armbands.
The young lady looked different from six days ago. She had a scarf over her head as she mopped the workshop floor. (Later we realized someone must have shaved her head.) A piece of white cloth sewn across her chest proclaimed Bourgeois traitor Liu Liyuan.
She still wore her face mask, and all the time she served us, kept her head lowered. In six days she’d been transformed into an ancient crone.
Like before, the stove held a kettle, along with her lunch-box.
A man walked in to make tea. He ordered her to remove her mask. She was motionless for a moment before plucking it off.
She looked as I’d imagined, very pale, like a picture never seen before.
As we walked away, she was already picking up her broom again. She said goodbye
softly when we left. The mask dangled in front of her chest, not hiding the white cloth. I read the words again swiftly—Yuanqiang had been right, she was a capitalist.
A person inscribed with words became those words, and nothing more than those words. As we walked down the street, I noticed more and more people had been labeled. Even some of the Red Guards were burdened with this white cloth and black lettering. Everyone was just a row of characters.
We put on our armbands as soon as we emerged from the hutong. Our arms grew glorious, weighty. Only swinging them vigorously made them feel natural.
Swaggering, we strutted into a small eating house and ordered four portions of roast meat. We splayed the food open, pouring soy sauce and vinegar in great streams that splashed across the table. The waiter saw the mess we were creating but didn’t dare say a word. Our arms moved stiffly, as if we’d just been vaccinated.
Garbage Cart
Yes, come and see, this is the downfall of the landlord class. She was a landlady, my stepmother, she’s dead now, killed herself, slit her throat with scissors, slowly sliced it open, so blood splashed on the wall, you can see how it squirted all over, even in death she had to do the wrong thing, why would she want to die in this house, why did she have to bleed so much, enough to drown a family, enough to drown them dead? (Here, he burst into tears.)
When we’re dead we get cremated, but where should she go now, who’d be willing to drag this she-landlord, her entire body soaked in blood, all the way to the mortuary? No one, no comrade of the Revolution would do such a thing, I understand, I’m not willing either, but even Hell can only be reached through the crematorium chimney, am I right? Revolutionary comrades, help me open the gates of Hades, let cow demons and snake spirits swarm in, unleash the torments of fire and whipping and knives and water, no hope of liberation for all eternity.
Come! Little generals of the Revolution, go find a rickshaw, never mind if it has no engine, I’ll pull it, I’ll move it with these hands dripping with the fresh blood of landlords. I want to send her to hell, after all we can’t let the dark spirit of the landlord class linger here, can we? Rise up, overthrow landlords! She can’t hear me, but her blood is still flowing. Comrades, even a handcart would do, even the one from the morning trash collection. Please, I beg you, help me find one, I’ll pull it twenty li if it gets her to the crematorium. No! First I’ll wrap her in white cloth so her filthy blood doesn’t soil our socialist roads.
Do something, little generals of the Revolution, let this landlord scum be blown away as ashes and smoke! Observe her wounds, not just one cut but many, how could she have brought herself to do it, slit her neck with her own hands, not like slaughtering chickens, not an accident, this was deliberate, the determination of the landlord class, she’d made up her mind to die. None of us realized last night as she drank her bowl of rice porridge, the slushy sound of congee slipping through the toothless crack—where’d she get the strength to cut herself to death?
Where’s the cart? Why haven’t the gates to hell opened