The Paradox of Self-Realization
By Todd Vickers
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“...Sex and sexuality are topics that reveal unfounded beliefs and it’s a touchy subject. Being both fact-based and intense, sexuality itself often shatters the delusions we have about it. Again, I suggest that moving closer to the truth is the only thing worthy of the name ‘sacred’ and that makes the shattering of delusions sacred. Anything that prevents the reality loss we call delusion also deserves the name ‘sacred.’ Sex is one of the big three illusion killers. The others being death and money. Other minor disappointments like losing a competition or the destruction of some valued object or other shocks to our expectations also pose challenges to our beliefs. We can consciously choose to welcome the truth instead of being blindsided by brutal facts contrary to our beliefs when life forces those facts upon us. Many people talk about sexual anxiety, pain, and disappointment. Often, this pain rests on real or imagined deprivation. Sexuality is not wrong. I don’t believe sexuality is responsible for any mistakes of judgment and it’s unfair to fault sex for our dubious beliefs. However, it's important to criticize beliefs about sexuality and any irresponsible behavior that involves violence, coercion, recklessness, or deceit...”
Todd Vickers
Todd Vickers publishes at NoShameinSex.Com and Water-Scribe.Com. He has published two books The Paradox Of Self Realization, Truth Like Fire, and is soon to be releasing: The Relevance of Kabir.
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The Paradox of Self-Realization - Todd Vickers
The Paradox of Self-Realization
2nd Edition
By Todd Vickers
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TABLE OF CONTENTS
FOREWORD TO THE SECOND EDITION
INTRODUCTION TO THE FIRST EDITION
BEING WITH LIFE
THE DISILLUSIONED
THE PARADOX
IDEOLOGIES OR MENTAL MALIGNANCIES
ADDICTION
SPIRITUAL POLITICS
SPIRITUAL BULLSHIT
SEX LIFE
NEW TANTRA
A SEXUAL PUZZLE
YOU ARE THE CRITERION
CONSCIOUSNESS
THE SACREDNESS OF WORKING AND MONEY
CONCLUSION
NOTES
I am revising this book for several reasons. First, while I love and stand behind the content of the book, it deserves more justice than my skill allowed for 20 years ago. The point I wanted to make then is the same as today: to share the knowledge and experiences that have benefited me greatly. I also want to encourage scrutiny of unnecessary and oft ignored wishful thinking and superstition that tends to adhere to methods, such as meditation. When we endow any practice with qualities it does not possess, we create a problem that might obscure the real benefit of the practice.
I often focus on sexual topics within which we need to be extremely honest. We would be hard pressed to find a topic better than sex to expose the habits of the mind. For example, when a man falls in love and begins to imagine a future with the other person, in the imagined story stands a mental sense of self. If marriage is imagined, then he may see himself at the altar in a tuxedo with his beloved. That sense of self never existed outside the mind, yet it induces strong emotions and we unconsciously (habitually) treat our mental sense of self as if it is real. This concept of self is a problem when we take it to be real. We might ignore and distort the facts around us for the sake of trying to secure the comfort of that mental self. I suggest that, as long as we, individually or as a society, remain willfully ignorant about something as important as sexuality, then our motives for doing are bound up in this imaginary self. From this mistake, we undoubtedly gain insight into why we turn away from and distort other important and difficult facts, both personal and social. We should not be wasting precious time and energy trying to defend an imagined self. Nor should we sacrifice our choices and ability to adapt in exchange for the temporary and self-satisfying comfort induced while treating a fictional self as real.
This book was my first attempt at writing for the public. I made a mistake in rushing it to print before it was ready. In this second edition, I’ve reduced the redundancies, emotional arguments, and vague spiritual language within it and added more concrete examples that serve the points better. Vagueness invites readers to see what they want to see within statements. Such language drives skeptics crazy. I am not being derisive with the word ‘skeptic.’ The skeptic has a special place of honor in subjective matters because skeptics reveal value by showing where room for doubt exists. Confidence won't make a house of cards stable. Emphasis is not evidence. One who upsets the cards is not dangerous, but trusting a house of cards sure is! The faults (esoteric language, grammatical indulgence, and redundancy) in the original book took the reader for granted. I have applied the pruning shears and reorganized the book. These changes, coupled with luck and whatever skills I’ve gathered along the way, I hope, will make the content more accessible to you, dear readers.
INTRODUCTION TO THE FIRST EDITION
I have written this book because I have found the desire to share what is beautiful and helpful to be compelling. Endless opportunities exist by which to discover and unfold our understanding of ourselves and the world. New understanding embraces what we did not previously know. After all, the world continues to change, that is, recreate itself moment to moment. The subject matter of this book involves risk. Early on, I received criticism from an editor. She reviewed the work for about 10 minutes and said she wouldn’t work with it. She explained that her path was about reclaiming innocence (whatever that means) and that this book contained so much about the human shadow that she wouldn’t have anything to do with it. She then asked my birthday and pigeonholed me using Chinese astrology.
I considered trying to say things differently, but that seemed pretentious. Sometimes, I use strong language, but this type of talk has benefited me throughout my life. Plenty of smarmy and patronizing spiritual communications exist and I have chosen to write in a different way. Don’t get me wrong, I like light-hearted and joyful communications as much as the next person, but that is not all there is to say. Some of us feel hurt, disappointed, and, even, betrayed by the spiritual teachings that emphasize love and joy, but do not help us when we run face first into unfortunate circumstances or must face our own destructive beliefs or habits. Any tendency to create useless suffering for ourselves and others, I call the human shadow. The selfishness that is so often found in relationships is a good example, people are often valued only as means to another end, rather than ends unto themselves. The darkness of selfishness, fear, ambition, competition, vanity, and desire for power all hides easily behind a beautiful, idealistic, and flower decorated exterior. I do not claim that the shadow is wrong; it is a part of life and the desire for a truthful life is what I mean when I use the word ‘sacred.’ However, if we pretend that we don’t have this destructive shadow, then we won’t account for what that shadow is doing. When we look at subjective methods, be they spiritual paths or therapy, we see this shadow and, ironically, much of the work that people do is to try to run away from or explain away this shadow. However, this shadow isn’t nearly as scary as what people do when they try to conceal it.
Nothing can be said that is as profane as what is hidden inside and won’t be said. For me, it is not enough just to pay lip service to the love of truth. I live it and hope that this book reaches out to others who have the same passion. Perhaps, we'll meet beyond these pages, but, regardless, be warned, such communications involve risk and, speaking for myself, I won’t always come out smelling like a rose. For example, I spoke to a woman who never felt sexually met by her lover; she spent years hoping that it would get better. It was obvious to me that she continually felt pain over this issue. Shortly after this conversation, I heard that she planned to marry this man. I felt compelled to ask her what the hell she was doing. After all, this was her life! I said some things that hurt her fiancée’s feelings. This type of thing happens because withholding something that might spare a friend misery seems to me like hanging a friend out to dry. It’s worth the risk.
Under the guise of ‘sharing,’ people often say many things without accounting for the moral and emotional impact of that sharing on other human beings. The assumption that a friend will agree is often wrong. I criticize the judgment of friends if I see a good reason to do so, especially if it involves doubtful beliefs and useless suffering. Some friends hardly speak to me anymore due to such conversations. Many social prohibitions suggest that we’re not supposed to confront someone in pain, particularly if that pain involves beliefs, sex, or both.
To me, the sharing of any pain is literally a sharing of pain and all sensitive people, especially when they feel love for the person sharing the pain, feel the pain in some way. Typically, the person talking does not account for what his or her pain is doing to others. He or she might abuse another person’s empathy, especially if the emotion being conveyed intimidates the other into not speaking for fear of a consequence. Such communication implicitly suggests that the listener ‘walk on eggshells’ rather than question what is being shared or scrutinize the beliefs of the sharing person. In order to illustrate this point, consider that a person you love holds his or her hand over a hot stove, while whimpering in pain. Anyone near this person would probably feel horror observing the burning flesh of another human being. Now, let us assume that, in this situation, social manners won't allow you to speak directly about what is happening because your loved one may feel hurt or belittled. Obeying this strange sentimentality, everyone present must talk around the problem and the pain, possibly stating how great the situation would be if it were different, perhaps in a better world. In this extreme example, we can see that any sane person would demand that the sufferer take his or her hand away from the damn stove! To be unable to make this demand would be maddening, especially if you feel great love for the person who is suffering. Most people would agree that it would be ok to try to stop the suffering in the situation with the hot stove, but might abandon such a standard when the pain is emotional, spiritual, sexual, or financial or when it involves threats to their own interests.
There are things that we aren’t supposed to say (at least not to someone’s face) because it is none of our business or seems presumptuous. Returning to the woman above who married at the expense of her sexual joy, she knows, as all of my friends do, that, among other things, I view sex, wild or mild, as important and worthy of great kindness and respect. Moreover, benign sexual choices deserve a strong defense, particularly in a society that often ignores or rejects many benign forms of sexuality. That same society has produced many educated people who not only lie about their sexuality, but also ignore facts like STDs. When this woman came to me professing a desire for relief, expressing great pain because of her unfulfilled sexuality, my compassion made me become a kindred ally. After all, I have known similar pain and made changes for the better. I hope to encourage others who are willing to live our sexual imperatives with great integrity; learn, admit, and correct mistakes; and consciously invite more freedom for others and themselves. I feel saddened when the prospect of living in such a way is devalued out of prejudice. Never tell a man who is doing something that it cannot be done. This peeve of mine doesn’t armor me against feeling another’s pain and I feel no consolation in