MAY 2020
MOST OF THE COTTAGES on the bay are still shuttered. The dock in front of the log cabin that we are hoping to buy is floating, disconnected from the shore to protect it from winter’s crushing ice.
Dennis, our real estate agent, pilots the barge to the dock where Karl, the cabin’s owner, is waiting to greet us. We throw him a line, but the boat drifts away and pulls Karl with it. Now he is hanging off the side of the barge, feet dangling. His rubber boots fill with water before we can hoist him up. “Never hold on, that’s the first rule of boats,” says Dennis. “It’s important to know when to let go.”
After the inspection, he hands me a stack of purchase papers. “Sign them when you are ready.”
Dennis’s wife is waiting for us at the marina. She has been in town, stockpiling groceries for their island home. We are in the midst of the first COVID-19 lockdown, and everyone is striving to be an island now. We exchange a few words from a careful distance, wearing masks.
“Rubber boots,” she says, as they walk away. “Get your kids rubber boots. You can’t be too careful with rattlesnakes.”
JUNE 2020
I TURN THE KEY. The boat’s motor starts right away, but my heart is revving faster than the engine.
For the first time in my life, I’m in the driver’s seat of a boat. Proof of my new pleasure craft licence is printed and folded and carefully stowed in the Princecraft’s glove compartment. A recurring question on the tests concerned maximum load and carrying capacity. I am quite sure we have exceeded ours. I can barely see over the bow, which is piled with furniture and groceries and cleaning supplies.
What I remember most from that boat trip, from the day we took possession of our little log cabin on Georgian Bay, on the edge of the world’s largest freshwater archipelago: my heart banging at my ribs so hard I can barely breathe and a burning sensation in my right hand as I grip the gear shift. The bow tipped up, and the stern dragged down. My eldest daughter, Emma, next to me, trying to calm me. My husband, Anton, and our younger daughter, Rowan, paddling next to us in the yellow Kipawa canoe that my father gave me for my 21st birthday, more than two decades ago. Anton and Rowan arrive at our new dock at the same time we do, I am driving that slowly.