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Supertrans
01:03
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My identity’s to blame
Confusing traits, deciphered
Gender brings denial
There’s butterflies up in my stomach now
Empathy comes from within
And when the anchor drops
You cant let go
Of your imagined label
I think that it's a fable
Clear it off the table
Take my identity seriously
Empathy comes from within
And when the anchor drops
Let go
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2. |
Takeaway
02:32
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Should be optimistic
I don't do enough work
Self awareness is a tragedy
From the pot I stir
Wishing I was motivated to work on my life
I wake up with chronic pain, I pray for the afterlife
It’s survival
It's absurd
Given a hand
Nobody could revive you, man
It’s survival
It's absurd
Given a hand
It’s all lead to nothing
I’ve never been outspoken
I try not to be obsessive
Generational trauma has made me depressive
All I want in life is control of my destiny
I want to learn to drive the car, leave the passenger seat
Take away my filter
The words might seem off kilter
Take away my filter
And shut your mouth
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3. |
Doctor
02:49
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Torturing myself is a norm I’ve known so well
There’s snakes in the grass following you to hell
I’m just saying please
Please dont forget about me
It’s not my choice to live in frailty
What did you find out?
I’m paranoid, someone grab me out this void
I need a doctor to cure my pain
It’s a nightmare
I’m living in shame
You’re not alone
Cuz I feel the same
I need a doctor to cure my pain
It’s a nightmare
I’m living in shame
You're not alone
And I need to change
One sided friends
Believing there’s two in the end
Proven wrong by context clues don’t mend
I don't wanna, I don't wanna
I can't say no
Even when I know I’m right
Living here makes me feel like a cenobite
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4. |
Getting Bitter
02:12
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Maybe if you tried
You could give it up and realize
You’re picking all the wrong fights
You don’t consider
I’m getting bitter
Each and every time
Spend your days waiting for the next one to pass
Trust yourself to fuck it up again and again
Tell me, tell me what you want me to say
Help me, cause I feel like running away
Last year’s wishes have sent you spinning
You’re losing your last chance
Maybe if you really tried
You could see yourself through my eyes
Maybe (Maybe) if you really tried
You can give it up and realize
Spend your days waiting for the next one to pass
Trust yourself to fuck it up again and again
Tell me, tell me what you want me to say
Tell me, tell me what you want me to
Tell me what you want me to say
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5. |
Melodrama
01:58
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Life for me is just melodrama
Life’s a simulation in a diorama
It’s meta to say that for a matter of fact
Taking chances trying to believe you
Honest with my words trying not to redo
Choose to say it all
Pick me up when i fall
Keep my brain intact
It's all a fake act
So I'll leave
Finding myself constantly denying
That I overthink things without even trying
Pushed against the wall, when I could’ve had it all
When your mind thinks always ‘bout survival
Anticipatory before your arrival
Tension gets the best, and you get all the rest
Who am I foolin’?
Will I lay down?
You’re not nonexistent
You’re a proper noun
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6. |
Good Time
02:10
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I can’t trust as much
Because I’ve been so lonesome
For a feeling that’s way too much to overcome
Voices tell me no
Try to crash airplanes in a bad dream
Grotesque schemes no one respects my boundaries
I agree to disagree
I’m here for a good time
Slow down, you’ve been boiling my blood
Now I’m on the run
All my life I just feel embarrassed
Like when i had to come out to my parents
Oh, voices tell me go
I’m here for a good time
Slow down, you’ve been boiling my blood
And you’re overdone
And I need to prove something
I need to feel something
Darling, I’m choking
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7. |
Sights Down
02:49
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Sights down
Eyes are closing under
Can’t look the other way
At that behavior
Stop idolizing false grandeur
Imbalanced and fucked
Touchdown, tackle your own advice
Save face, you gotta make this right
In time
I won’t find a way
To destroy what i create
Like a god
A deity that made us out of clay
And I won’t follow the herd
My last laugh won’t be unheard
I’ll just choke on what I said last weekend
Right now, put your emotion in it
That sound of the whistling wind to start the day
I wanna just run away
I feel betrayed
Rebound, rising from the New Jersey ground
Dirt mounds, litter these suburban towns
Run down
Sickening, irrelevant
You won’t value yourself
You’re in your element, recycling
You won’t value yourself
You can’t be saved
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8. |
Armageddon Now
02:58
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Trees gone to your head
Suffering in a web
I want to be humble
Inherently self serving
Not proud to be this way
Psychotherapy
I don’t wanna reject the thoughts that mend me
I could never charm
Could be good to speak up
Maybe just show honesty
Avoid armageddon now
In the end you’ll leave
Get over it in time
Even when you were entitled to my mind
Crazy fucking fears
Pin the tail on the queers
It’s been hard to process
Shift your brain in gear
Realized I’d walk
So that you can run
Painted nails on the table, tell me I’m a good son
It's hard to find a genuine connection
When nobody offers you protection
You don’t have to strive for perfection
But be prepared for the reckoning
Archives of sadness
Methods of madness
Deprecation will watch you die
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9. |
Say It
02:23
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There’s a line that gets crossed
Every time we go out
You try to be nice
But you begin to doubt
That you’ll ever escape
The mansplains, the lies, the double downs
I don’t know your name
Or your face
But we’ve done this before
I’m having such a good time
Til you walk through the door
Then you talk at me incessantly
You don’t see
That I don’t want to spend my Friday night
Looking over my shoulder for your eyes
Searching for a place to hide
Making myself smaller for your pride
Now say it like you mean it
That you’re so impressed
That you’re sorry for interrupting me again
The first time I excused it
But it’s rude to assume
That I’m a roadie, a groupie
Some won’t admit it
But you’re guilty too
Even some of you in this room
Cuz I don’t want to spend my Friday night
Looking over my shoulder for your eyes
Searching for a place to hide
Making myself smaller for your pride
Now say it like you mean
Just say it
You confront your demons
I just stay inside
If I had a better option
I’d give you a piece of my mind
Now say it like you mean it
Now say it like you mean it
Now say it like you mean it
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10. |
Travelin' On
02:32
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Travelin’ on
I just lost my breath
It’s scaring me to death
As I turn off the lights tonight
Got mindlessly high
Now my mouth is dry
Goodbye
Call the press, a musician’s facing death
And you support their rage
Exploit myself, with my declining health
Fading slowly, having hope in time
I want to learn to climb
But I don’t want to try
I hate that my body’s not working right
The steps keep piling on, scale’s always wrong
So long
I’ve got battle scars, but don’t complain a lot
I can't leave the bar, so I'm utterly distraught
Tracking down the footsteps of dirt that I create
My heart’s on the ground, I think I’m profound
I’m no saint
Call the press, a musician’s facing death
There’s flowers on their grave
Exploit myself, with my declining health
Fading slowly, it’s unholy
There’s no hope this time
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11. |
Cut The Ties
01:48
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I would wait for this
Trailing thoughts that loop within
Try to do my best to keep my head up high
As ideations take, my identity will break
Suicide it wont deny me for this ride
I need to tell the truth
Don’t break it
Running just to grace it
Towers of emotions, that we’ll never face and
I know I’m gonna learn to cut the ties
Find the right words to say
Breathe and slowly decay
When I know I’m permanently sore
Putting up walls and locking doors
Begging for independence
From my own self hate
Running past that tollbooth
Got a diamond in my shoe
Dreaming to get by
Abstaining from getting high
Drug induced railing of doubt
Try to force some sleep
I need minimal upkeep
Every moment I neglect this troubled life
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12. |
Lights Out
02:02
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In shock, I can’t take things too personally
I can’t grasp, the fact that things are not in my own hands
Shut your mouth
Control freak, I’ve got the OCD and I can’t sleep
What we sow is what we reap
The bags under my eyes are muscles counting sheep
Writing down my thoughts until the lights out
You gotta turn it off cuz I can’t come down
Cigarettes, fried food
Coping mechanisms
Positive attitude, empathetic
Tracing my decisions
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13. |
Oh The Drama
02:54
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Oh the drama of failing to mend together hearts
A fire that can start, you watch it burn
You take precaution, perfection isn't everything
Let’s see what we can bring
Back to life
Searching for answers just
Waiting for a big break to take flight
We rise, there is nothing to despise
And it gets terrifying how, all the happy people sing
And get pushed forward
To get pushed back
Like glue we stick together through thick and thin
Try to be dependent
And not fall off the grid
And get pushed forward
To get pushed back
I get pushed forward
To get pushed back
Till You Return
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