Numb.. Poem by Charvee Rehani

Drifting away to nothingness..
In failure, I have succumbed..
And i count the passing moments..
Wondering who i have become...

My soul, lost to ambilvalence..
Confused, I watch it fade..
In the end, it claims my innocence..
Now i'm alone, afraid and betrayed..

I am becoming less of what i was..
So much less than what i could be..
Drowning in my fear of failure..
In my attempt to wade the sea..

Should I allow myself to slip away..?
Free from worry of regret..?
Could I allow myself to fade..?
And take the risk that you'll forget..?

I'm wondering how I might get back again..
To the place I started from..
The roads I see are all dead ends..
And this life has become NUMB..